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hey did u guys know this song is abt richard maxwell...
#how will the light define you?#what your father told you / how he shipped and sold you / you got so far away you could taste it?#BUT WE ARE NOT OUR FOREBEARS / AND MAYBE OUR HOME IS NOWHERE#richard maxwell#aio#Spotify
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Who is this sassy lost child?
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#a-yuan#A-Yuan knows how to to utilise his big wet eyes to get treats. What a little legend.#The crowd comments about LWJ being 'daddy' and WWX being 'the mother' are a little too 'fan-service bait' for me.#So I am personally reimagining it as another layer of 'misinterpretation of a more complex situation' commentary.#I like how the different styles of interacting with children WWX an LWJ exhibit say so much about their own childhoods.#We - human beings in the real world - take two lessons from how we were parented: What we valued and what we wish we had.#LWJ leaning into indulgence is him pushing back against his own childhood of asceticism. It's something he didn't have - so he gives it.#WWX on the other hand has been *so* defined by his drive to indulge. And here he is the restrictor!#It takes a bit more to see what's going on here. The factors are not singular.#but to keep it in theme with LWJ; I'd propose it is partly his way of establishing structure when he did not have it as a child.#Both approches are a way of saying 'I didn't have this and I wish I did.'#With LWJ it's pretty obvious why...but WWX? What is at your core? What is your regret towards a lack of restriction?#Or...What benefit do you think it gives this child to learn the harsh lessons of going without?#Did it make you strong when you were a child? Do you think it is just the nature of the world and we all must learn it?#How we interact with children is such a fascinating topic to delve into our psychology and neuroses.#In a more light hearted turn of topic:#WWX confirmed to be 'person taking the car to the drive through to order one black coffee for himself' on the triangle spectrum.#LWJ is saying 'we have food at home' as he is opening his wallet ready to order for everyone.#(Technically this is comic 213 but yippee! We are in the 200's now! Thank you all so much for reading and cheering me on!)
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pain, pain, go away
"You must needs be more careful, what will you do when I am not here to heal you?" "Don't be silly, Hades. We'll always be together!"
two other shots below from when i was trying to figure out the angle
#i don't know how to define what hades and hydrangea meant to one another#they were so intrinsically woven into the fabric of each other's lives that to be without the other was unfathomable#i think emet selch catches himself thinking of ajisai as hydrangea's child sometimes-- since the amaurotines call them children and#he brought them into being?#so all throughout shadowbringers he's subconsciously thinking of her as someone he has to take care of on the level of 1. he always looked#after hydrangea and 2. he thinks of ajisai as a child--maybe as his own? either way at the denouement when she can't handle the light#it's a “your mother lost her life so you could live and you don't deserve it” type beat. idk im still figuring it out#ffxiv#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv screenshots#ffxiv screenies#emet selch#shadowbringers spoilers#shb spoilers#gposejar#ancientjar#elpis#having a lot of trouble with lighting scenes in bright light and at night#we're experimenting again girls#ew spoilers#endwalker spoilers
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ok im going to bed bc its late as hell here but i wanted to doodle parkciv finally
#here in artist civilization#parkour civilization#parkciv#little details in this i like are the shading differences in evbo and seawatt#seawatts shading is how everyone looks but after becoming god i like to think evbo like. just has flat almost cel shading#like hes insanely out of place. and his shading does NOT react to whatever lighting hes in. and he looks soo weird bc of it#evbos eyes go from green to tinted with the netherite purple :) based on a fic i read :) i thought it was neat :)#his stupid idiot protag ahoge turns into a weird halo thing.. uhm what else#oh yeah seawatt has a clock stuck on the back of his neck.. think like uhmm the idea that moles are where you died in a past life#but its LITERALLY a mark of how you died. like it can be anywhere on the body but its a mark of how you died. so seawatt has a clock bc#you know. The Race.#SPEAKING OF SEAWATT DETAILS post-revival he has like. no eye colour. its blank#his eyes are still clearly defined but its still Nothing There#if he was the first to be revived itd freak people out but i imagine evbo was dragging his feet when it came to seawatt#parkciv evbo is a hater at his core what can i say. well to me he is#ok done yapping my cat demands i get off my pc and sleep so she can yell in my face
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for the word prompt: hanahaki, with lawlight
The first petal emerges with so little ceremony that nobody notices it except L. On screen the Yagami boy says, "Quite frankly, I wouldn't be surprised if Kira sees right through this."
The pink petal unfurls quietly in his hand.
L says, "Your son is clever, isn't he?"
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The flowers come out wet. It's an ungraceful affair, but at least they're small.
When they're whole, the petals coil around in neat spirals. Sometimes they're buds, but usually they're just individual petals. There's a strength of emotion in what L feels, but yearning feels as much the wrong description as unrequited.
The flowers don't hurt, and after a while, they stop altogether.
On screen, Light Yagami blinks. He looks tired.
"Ryuzaki," he says. "What's it going to take for you to believe that I'm not Kira?"
Without turning the microphone on, L coughs once and expels nothing but air. Light stares beseechingly up at the camera for another long moment before he slumps.
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L's throat stays clear until Higuchi seizes and collapses in the Chief's arms. Then, it isn't a petal at all. Light's shoulders are still heaving when L starts to cough. By the time he's spat up the irritant--one single yellow stamen--into his palm, Light's eyes are fixed blankly on the middle distance.
"Ryuzaki," he says quietly. Calmly, coolly, like he wasn't screaming himself hoarse only a second ago. "I want to check this out."
L coughs again.
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The last petal emerges later, but it disappears into Light's palm, and L doesn't know anything after that.
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(send me a one word prompt)
#hanahaki is usually such a straightforwardly romantic premise that it really stumped me for a second how to make it work with lawlight#so here it is. still maybe not romance but i think dubiously defined yearning works too#you know when the ship is lawlight but it isn't really light that L's yearning for#sorry L i killed you again#but im more sorry to light who got cucked in his own ship by his own other self#rookfic#death note#lawlight#thank you for the fun prompt!!#fun fact i have a Professional Email open in another tab and when i got stuck on that i swapped to write this and when i got stuck on this#i swapped to write email#so thanks this yaoi#OH i forgot to mention this but the flowers are begonias
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🍦What’s the Tsumugi salmon mode ending trivia? (<- brain chemistry unironically changed because of Tsumugi)
Honestly it's less an Easter Egg, per say, and more, HEY HOW DO MORE PEOPLE NOT TALK ABOUT IT IT'S WILD
And after some more 'normal' dialogue, at the very end...
LIKE HELLO??? It's completely out of left field and the only moment like this in all the post game stuff. Super eerie there is something sooo wrong with her for this <3
#i actually find it really interesting shuichi describes the glowy eyes as the light fading#i mean they have more defined eye bags than her normal sprites so it makes sense#it just really highlights how much of tsumugi's heart and soul she put into this in a very grim manner#hey girl!!! you destroyed your entire existence for fiction!!#was it worth it?#also saw a theory that the reason she says this is because the bonus content was filmed first#hence 'i look forward to working with you'#tsumugi shirogane#shuichi saihara#ndrv3#new danganronpa v3 killing harmony#danganronpa
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for how mentally ill i am about monster hunter and shara ishvalda specifically i sure am always noticing new things about them
#monster hunter#mar.txt#shara ishvalda#this is of course a good thing#when i just fought shara a bit ago i noticed that a) they seem to,at least with their front paws,stand on their toes rather than the full#paw (alatreon does this too,but on all paws instead of just the front ones)#which explains why only their back paws have defined paw pads#b) after their eyes open every time they do one of the ground liquefaction attacks you can see mountains/giant rocky spires in the#background collapse; i THINK all of the remaining ones collapse with their first spirit bomb? but i'm gonna check#also i didn't JUST notice it i noticed it the other night but i tested it last i fought them but they seem to Only have their jaw hanging#open when their eyes are open? they keep it closed when their eyes are closed#i'm honestly not sure why,my running theories are either it's some kind of reaction to their light sensitivity or its deliberately done to#be more scary/intimidating looking#but tbqh there is soooooo much about shara that i Do Not Understand. like how the rocks on their face twitch when they have their mantle on#but i am 100% fine with that i do not think shara is Meant to be Understood#god is beyond my comprehension and i am fine with that
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the fact that disney is more determined to give us "amazing" visuals rather than good stories and songs anymore is insulting
like they act like they cant have it all. youre the biggest studio ever, you own more companies than anything ever should, you have more money than i can even concieve of.
YOU ARE FULLY CAPABLE OF GIVING US MOVIES THAT ARE AMAZING IN EVERY ASPECT. SO FUCKING SHOW IT
#my post#i watched a video the other day about what mightve been the cause of disneys failure at making musicals in the last decade or so#and it started with. of all movies. tangled! and im still stuck on that#like it was specifically about the 'i see the light' scene when theyre on the water surrounded by the lanterns#the song writers were made to write like 40 songs they had to scrap UNTIL they were finally told the issue#that the team wanted the visuals to come first and for the song to come second. which meant they wanted the song TONED DOWN??#THEY COULD BOTH BE EQUALLY AMAZING HELLO??#it hurts me deeply inside to know. with how much i love that song. THAT THERE COULDVE BEEN AN EVEN BETTER ONE?#and then disney in general is just completely fumbling their songwriters which is why the songs suck#songwriters not given the ability to have a say in the story despite being part of telling the story? being scared to say anything-#-when the whole reason theyre there is to contribute! being told that they arent supposed to add anything new. only execute the plans made!#i have to imagine the storywriters are also being fucked over but the video was specifically about songwriters#my favorite moment in any movie EVER is a moment where the visuals AND the song come together EQUALLY to make the most beautiful moment ever#when moana and te ka are meeting in the middle of the parted sea. the way you can FEEL its the culmination of the movie#the way that te ka is frantically crawling toward and screaming at moana. the way that moana is calmly and confidently walking toward te ka#moana singing this peaceful beautiful song despite the danger. because she knows the truth. she sees te fiti beneath her unwilling disguise#the way that te ka hears her words and reacts by matching that calmness and letting her get close#and everything that that moment is meant to represent and *can* represent even if unintended#its just. its my favorite moment ok. AND IT WOULDNT WORK IF THE SONG WAS TONED DOWN FUCK YOU#i have crossed the horizon to find you. i know your name. and they have stolen the heart from inside you. but this does not define you.#this is not you who are. you know who you are. who you truly are <3#INSERT MEME IMAGE OF GUY CRYING WITH EARBUDS IN#disney#disney criticism#I LITERALLY LOVE DISNEY MOVIES OK THIS IS NOT A HATE POST ABOUT THE MOVIES ITS A HATE POST ABOUT THE COMPANY#btw the video i watched. i recommend! its 'the downfall of the disney movie musical' by calxiyn cares too much on youtube!#disney critical#this especially isnt a tangled hate post btw i adore that movie and i was so sad that it was likely the start of all of this
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some new tags ?? some new tags !! + affiliate tags :]
. 🕸️ HOW OUT OF HAND IT’S GOTTEN ╱ ooc.
. 🕸️ MY FLESH IS LACED WITH SUGAR AND MAGGOTS ╱ asks.
. 🕸️ YOU SAY YOU MISS ME ( I’M RIGHT HERE ) ╱ starters.
. 🕸️ WITH PINK EYESHADOW AND A SOBBING PRAYER ╱ isms.
. 🕸️ ANYTHING COULD BE HOLY UNDER NEON LIGHTS ╱ visage.
. 🕸️ DO YOU FEEL THE EYES OVER YOUR BODY STILL? ╱ promo.
. 🕸️ TO SWEETLY MELT IN SIN ╱ rp memes.
. 🕸️ I DRINK ; I BURN ; I SHATTER MY OWN DREAMS ╱ open starter.
. 🕸️ YOUR FISH HOOK IN MY MOUTH ╱ crack.
. 🕸️ EATEN IN PIECES ; NOT MEANT TO BE KNOWN WHOLE ╱ ic.
. 🕸️ I BELIEVE YOU LIKE A BEATEN DOG ╱ dash games.
. 🕸️ I WILL NEVER BE FORGIVEN FOR WANTING ╱ affiliates.
. 🕸️ KISS ME WITH MY BLOOD BETWEEN YOUR TEETH ╱ ships.
. 🕸️ TO BE LOOKED AT &. NEVER SEEN ╱ art.
. 🕸️ TOUCHED DOWN TO THE DELICATE BONES ╱ poetry.
. 🕷 | IN NEON LIGHTS ╱ canon &. main verse.
. 🕷 | THE CALL OF THE ANGELS ╱ overlord verse.
. 🕷 | FEATHER BOAS AND GLITTER ╱ 70’s verse. (ft. sirserpentine)
. 🕷 | OVERSEER OF HELL ╱ zestial’s employee verse (ft. zestials)
. 🕷 | GOOD OLD FASHIONED LOVER BOY ╱ human verse.
. 🕷 | LACED WITH BELLADONNA ╱ lost twins verse (ft. spyderdust)
. ♡ DO YOU LIKE THE SHOW ? ARE YOU TIRED OF IT ? ╱ videoaux.
. ♡ THE LAST SHRED OF TRUTH IN THE LOST MYTH OF TRUE LOVE ╱ hellsbroadcaster.
. ♡ I COULD NEVER DEFINE ALL THAT YOU ARE TO ME ╱ r-adio.
. ♡ BUT I’D NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY IT BACK ╱ sirserpentine.
. ♡ I’M PUT TO AWE SOMETHING SO FLAWED AND FREE ╱ dark-ambition.
. ♡ YOUR BEAUTY NEVER EVER SCARED ME ╱ gamblins.
. ♡ THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN / THE FACE IN MONOCHROME ╱ zestials.
. ♡ YOU HATE THE APPLAUSE / YOU CRAVE THE ATTENTION ╱ xluciifer.
. ♡ BUT YOU’RE HOLDING ME LIKE WATER IN YOUR HANDS ╱ oriiginis.
#. 🕸️ HOW OUT OF HAND IT’S GOTTEN ╱ ooc.#. 🕸️ MY FLESH IS LACED WITH SUGAR AND MAGGOTS ╱ asks.#. 🕸️ YOU SAY YOU MISS ME ( I’M RIGHT HERE ) ╱ starters.#. 🕸️ WITH PINK EYESHADOW AND A SOBBING PRAYER ╱ isms.#. 🕸️ ANYTHING COULD BE HOLY UNDER NEON LIGHTS ╱ visage.#. 🕸️ DO YOU FEEL THE EYES OVER YOUR BODY STILL? ╱ promo.#. 🕸️ TO SWEETLY MELT IN SIN ╱ rp memes.#. 🕸️ I DRINK ; I BURN ; I SHATTER MY OWN DREAMS ╱ open starter.#. 🕸️ YOUR FISH HOOK IN MY MOUTH ╱ crack.#. 🕸️ EATEN IN PIECES ; NOT MEANT TO BE KNOWN WHOLE ╱ ic.#. 🕸️ I BELIEVE YOU LIKE A BEATEN DOG ╱ dash games.#. 🕸️ I WILL NEVER BE FORGIVEN FOR WANTING ╱ affiliates.#. 🕸️ KISS ME WITH MY BLOOD BETWEEN YOUR TEETH ╱ ships.#. 🕸️ TO BE LOOKED AT &. NEVER SEEN ╱ art.#. 🕸️ TOUCHED DOWN TO THE DELICATE BONES ╱ poetry.#. 🕷 | IN NEON LIGHTS ╱ canon &. main verse.#. 🕷 | THE CALL OF THE ANGELS ╱ overlord verse.#. 🕷 | FEATHER BOAS AND GLITTER ╱ 70’s verse. (ft. sirserpentine)#. 🕷 | OVERSEER OF HELL ╱ zestial’s employee verse (ft. zestials)#. 🕷 | GOOD OLD FASHIONED LOVER BOY ╱ human verse.#. 🕷 | LACED WITH BELLADONNA ╱ lost twins verse (ft. spyderdust)#. ♡ DO YOU LIKE THE SHOW ? ARE YOU TIRED OF IT ? ╱ videoaux.#. ♡ THE LAST SHRED OF TRUTH IN THE LOST MYTH OF TRUE LOVE ╱ hellsbroadcaster.#. ♡ I COULD NEVER DEFINE ALL THAT YOU ARE TO ME ╱ r-adio.#. ♡ BUT I’D NEVER SAY I LOVE YOU JUST TO HEAR YOU SAY IT BACK ╱ sirserpentine.#. ♡ I’M PUT TO AWE SOMETHING SO FLAWED AND FREE ╱ dark-ambition.#. ♡ YOUR BEAUTY NEVER EVER SCARED ME ╱ gamblins.#. ♡ THE FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN / THE FACE IN MONOCHROME ╱ zestials.#. ♡ YOU HATE THE APPLAUSE / YOU CRAVE THE ATTENTION ╱ xluciifer.#. ♡ BUT YOU’RE HOLDING ME LIKE WATER IN YOUR HANDS ╱ oriiginis.
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i am really never going to understand why people post "shifting antis dni" in the astral projection tag. "here practice that constantly gets appropriated by us and used as a weird justification for a new set of beliefs that aren't really based in the same reality you work with, and that also gets completely misunderstood by our community because we don't care to understand what you do and just pretend we know it's what we do like christians saying other religions worship the christian god, have a post! Also dni if you don't like our practice that has nothing to do with the one whose tag we just shoved this into"
if you're not astral projecting don't put shit in the ap tag. if you don't even know the difference between AP and RS I dont think your opinion holds enough weight to counter the pushback against flooding a separate practice's tag with "if you dont like the practice I'm talking about in your tags dni"
#I mean on the other hand I sure am Not Interacting my god#Im not of the opinion RS isnt a thing. I know its a thing - its a complex programming of mental spaces that branches off of#actually. I wont say it branches off things. Its its own thing like autovisions dreams mindspaces and other simulations - but it is#ultimately mindwalking - or whatever term someone else would want to use I just coined that for myself. It's travelling and projecting#into the Mental Realm. which is. explicitly. not the Astral realm. It's still a thing! It's not lucid dreaming or imagination. Very much th#early stages of it and experiences of those who cant programme the reactive mental into settling are gonna be lucid dreams and#imagination - just like what happens when youre not good at AP. but like. it's. a fucking. separate practice#and i do not understand flooding tags that arent what youre talking about and then saying ''dni if you dont like what im talking about''#like yeah theres an element of ''dont blame people for how others treat them'' - its not a case of ''you piss people off and then expect#them to not hate you?'' its explicitly a case of... you are continuously misunderstanding AP and using it as a backing#for your own practices and mixing up the two showing you have fucking No idea what youre doing with AP... so how else are we#supposed to take RS other than ''its a complete misunderstanding of AP and clearly it isnt even developed enough as a practice nor#based on enough truth to have its practitioners have the slightest clue about off-plane and OOB practices... if this is what RSers think of#the world and how it works and this is the depths of their understanding of it I cant support Shifting as anything more than#fantasy with vague references to established practices used incorrectly as justification''#~abyssal murmurs#like. tldr. youre putting it in the way of a tonne fo Anti Shifters because a) youre putting it in the tags of an art your art steals#justification from and chronically chooses to misunderstand and walks all over and b) you're showing a complete disrespect to the#practice of AP by posting this in the tags showing that your ''information'' and ''teaching'' is so misinformed you think AP and RS#are the same thing... so of course people are going to see that and think negatively of your practice. Not out of spite - but as a reaction#in the way of you are showing us that your practice is shallow and misunderstood#Look! If i walk into a jewish theology lesson and the speaker is convinced christianity and judaism are the same religion#to the point that when they post on social media they tag both when they talk about either... it looks like that speaker is clueless if the#cant even getthe basics of ''So what is it that I'm teaching about?'' answered right. If you cant even define the boundaries#of your practice as ''this is our practice this isnt'' then why is anyone going to think what youre teaching is real and grounded#and worth listening to and anything more than a crock of shite based on sounding mystical and Love and Light and freeing#at the cost of turning your mind off to just Believe what youre doing is grounded outside the mental??? why would people NOT#see these posts and BECOME antis
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aaaaaaa okey I ordered the speaker and the star projector. (and a beauty blender and a neck support and the new volume of yona and the garbage disposal cleaner matt wanted.) it was still only $35 actually out of pocket and I get my allowance in the morning which will completely replace that amount. I will definitely like the speaker and if I don't like the star projector arin will.
#yes this did take me an entire week#I don't like spending money. I like having money and I like having things.#but I must spend money to get things.#but I have had a very draining weekend and I deserve nice things and that's what gift cards are supposed to be for.#(frankly even if nice things do need to be earned which is a notion that deserves to be critically examined)#(depending on how one defines 'nice things')#(I have more than earned all the nice things I could ever want between keeping other people alive and keeping myself alive.)#(we glamorize Big Actions way too fuckin much btw but that's tangential off the 'keeping other people alive' thing)#(Big Actions often have the smallest fuckin impact tbh. they mean nothing without thousands of small actions.)#I very nearly didn't order the projector but it's late and I'm in my room alone and I turned the lamp off early#so that no one can tell I'm still up since my brother is still here#and it's just a tiny bit too dark for being awake purposes#only a tiny bit though#there's good light through the window because of the courtyard#and the projector has an auto-off#idk I think it's worth trying. if I like it they can give me extra discs for it for christmas#and if I don't I can give it to arin#the notion that I can try stuff without 100% Committing Forever is. not one I grew up with.#like. mom started me on piano lessons for my 9th birthday cuz I'd mentioned it at some point#and I faithfully attended every week (barring schedule conflicts or illness) until I moved away for college at 19.#you had to promise you really wanted something for real if you were gonna get it and god help you if you were wrong.#even though neither of us were prone to tantrums or greed even without those tight boundaries.#(and even though she did not hold herself to that standard at all from what I can see.)
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So I started the dub of Fruits Basket again.
Forgetting, of course, that the primary theme is about life changing and having to be okay with letting go of the past even though the future is uncertain.
More importantly, forgetting that one of the main threads of this throughout the series is Tohru's grief (and guilt) over her mother's death.
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Well, you know what, my therapist told me to engage with grief as homework the past couple of weeks, so between this and starting Anohana again I THINK IT COUNTS.
#musings#bandit liveblogs#bandit liveblogs furuba#i know i could have just skipped to when my murderous akii shows up but#fruits basket is one of my defining pieces of media#the manga more than the anime although the new anime does a FANTASTIC job of adapting it#(they cut a bunch out of the third season which feels weird after everything to that point is pretty much#an exact chapter by chapter adaptation of the manga#BUT#the part i was most upset about being cut got turned into the movie so)#but like#fruits basket as a story influenced so much of how i write and conceive of people and etc.#the manga is very much about everybody has reasons for why they do what they do#everyone is broken#even if they don't show it#even if it shows up in different ways#and i remember when it first started coming out how there was a group of us reading it who had our own characters#i was hiro (although i wanted to be kisa i think)#we didn't get far enough in before i moved#i know now that akito is me#in danganronpa terms - tohru is ryoko to akito's junko#akito is nothing like junko i need you to understand#but in terms of foils to each other and what they represent and how they interact with the zodiac#tohru is light and warmth and hope#akito is constrictive and dark and despair#i just#ugh i love furuba#i love furuba so much#noir is my favorite anime but fruits basket is my manga and left the biggest impact
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chapter 5 of Creatures of Heaven means I get to do a lot of inversions <3
#the world's MOST down bad crab#suncrab#fallen london spoilers#i explain why the messenger goes mad about 'we' and gets super lovestruck as#the correspondance is the language of light and truth and judgements define reality simply by looking at it#so sol going 'we' here is the first time he has ever spoken with an implication of Them-As-A-Unit#it also in some way cements them as a 'We' into existence and reality beyond confirming it#tho in scene I do consider this a slip of the tongue by sol lol. interpret it how you want#but I compare it to sol accidentally callin the bazaar a pet name like bbygirl. like. it's exceedingly intimate and affectionate#especially compared to how distant he is (always and esp now)
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light yagami i like you so much and that is my personal problem
#rookposting#i keep imprinting on like... not the same guy but#idk you know how it's like almost nonsensical to try and categorise fish because a lot of the animals we understand as fish have little or#othing in common w ith each other like in any definable or scientifically meaningful way#but you could still point at a bunch of them and be like those are all fish. theyr'e different but they're fish#that's how i feel about my favourite characters all being some species of light yagami#i dont want to talk about this
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might’ve accidentally girlbossed my way into an autism assessment
#like I had my neuropsych intake today virtually#and the proctor (?) is asking me the basics on my psychiatric and medical history#and then right after that’s done he’s asking my mom about my childhood development and she’s like ‘‘it was normal I think’’#and then WE start talking (and I’m staring across the room the entire time because I WILL panic if I have to look at them head on)#and we go from talking about my government-defined disabling anxiety to ‘‘how were you socially as a child? do lights and sounds bother you?#‘‘how do you handle changes to routine?’’ and I’m like I know where this shit is going#anyways he’s going to send both me and my mom assessments to take to speed up the testing process#and I stg if he sends me the RAADS-R I’m going to lose it
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What are you seeking?
Home
"i wish i could say i am a light that never goes out, but i flicker from time to time."
// oh, little one, you have burned for so quietly for so long, haven't you? burnt yourself out trying to give others light? wishing, desperately, that they would notice the way your hands shake or the wildflower bruises under your tired eyes. but they never have, have they? and so, it obviously wasn't bad? right? you had more to give, didn't you? how much could you pour yourself out before they noticed? it is all you've ever known, after all. help, help, help, help. (are you providing it, or begging for it?) but you've given too much, spread yourself too thin, didn't you? you are so heavy, so tired. you have spent your life carrying for others the way you wished someone would care for you. but you're worried, aren't you? that if you can't be what they need, if you can't be the pillar for others to lean on, they'll leave you. what you seek is home, a safe place to rest and be taken care of. and little light, you deserve it. you have earned it. you are worth more than what you can provide for others: you deserve the same care you so freely give out. they will love you all the same, honey. set down the world, and rest that weary heart of yours
Tagged by: @erabundus
Tagging: @curiouskinetic, @kikun, @cryoexorcist, @frozenambiguity, @ironbloodcd, @wendeiwisp, @electric-ecclectic, @risingsol, @the-wayward-snowflake, @touchofdawn, @outridera, @abyssmalice, @freshsprout, @fxmiliarity, @viatrixmoons, @narvvhal, anyone who wants to!! (Sorry if you've already been tagged)
#[don't stop the par tay!! (dash games)]#[messages from outside (ooc)]#[keep your light burning {bennett}]#bennett? defining key parts of himself around how he can help others? more likely than you think. free pc scans-
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