#how to make cookies at home

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I was trying to eat noodles neatly and for some reason I got sad midway. So I drew them messy eating a biscuit and a strawberry to combat sad noodle blues.

[batsinurbelfrey]

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[amurder-ofcrows]

just pulled some brownies i made out of the oven and i kinda over corrected from last time i made them. i forgot to put in my baking powder last time (as b dylan hollis would say, my floofers) because i was working on my baking skills muscle memory instead of directly from the recipe and just forgot, and i used a 13x9 pan so they were pretty flat. this time, i remembered the baking powder but i also used a 9x9 instead and uhhh ive made a brownie cake. this thing is like almost two inches thick. it is fully cooked though!

note to self: stop thinking you know what you’re doing when it comes to baking. you may have been doing this for years and have recipes you could bake when you’re asleep, but brownies are not one of them

[the-cookie-of-doom]

for a while now, I've really been doubting my career choices with nursing. I know a lot of it is burn out and depression, and being so overwhelmed between work, school, and clinical, that I didn't have time to breathe. I was in the hospital/on campus for 60 hours a week last semester, and that's not counting the time I had to study outside of that. It was awful. I quit my job because of it, I was almost involuntarily committed because of it.

But the scariest part for me has been how much I've hated clinical. It makes me miserable. And that's terrifying, because once I graduate? That's what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. So if I already hate it now, what does that mean for my future?

Sometimes, though... Sometimes I'll have a clinical that is just so good, it reminds me of why I'm doing this. Why I'm putting myself through the pain and suffering of becoming a nurse, which is honestly one of the hardest careers a person can have. It's mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausting. It destroys your body and your mental health. Most of the time it's thankless. It doesn't pay nearly enough for what we go through.

Despite all of the reasons there are not to become a nurse, there are some patients that will remind you why it's all worth it anyway.

Last week, I had a crotchety old bitch of a patient. She had been in the hospital for 10 days, was refusing all of her treatments, screamed at anyone that came in her room, and demanded dilaudid around the clock, despite having no injuries to justify it. Everyone hated her. Her own nurses went in her room as little as possible; I think in the entire 12 hours I was there, her nurse spent maybe a total of 20 minutes in her room. I was in there for hours. A couple minutes at a time in the beginning just so she could warm up to me. Then I spent 2 straight hours at her bedside just talking to her. Letting her tell me her life story. Which was tragic, of course, and no wonder she was so run down and bitter and wanted to get high off narcotics. She was miserable, lonely, and in chronic pain from a body that was deteriorating around her.

So I spent as much time with her as possible. Sure enough, she didn't ask me for any pain medications a single time, once she realized she could trust I was going to look after her. I Explained her medications and her treatments, and the reasoning behind them. I offered to reach out to out chaplain when I noticed she was hyper focused on some televangical broadcast. I got her to call her son to come visit her. I got her to agree to take her medications and allow us to take blood sample for her labs, which were days overdue. I got her up and working with physical therapy so she could start walking again.

By the end of the day, that patient loved me. Not a single complaint all day, she wasn't screaming down the halls and cursing everyone's existence. She was still crotchety and mean in that way old hillbillies are, but she wasn't angry. She wasn't lashing out. She was finally being cooperative. All because I took the time to talk to her and offer her company.

Tonight, I had a shift in our mental health unit. There was a patient who I noticed was very withdrawn and avoiding everyone, mostly just standing in a corner at the end of the hall, by a window. I went down and talked to him. Kind of stilted at first, but slowly he opened up to me. I really only meant to talk for a few minutes, mostly for my own sake, to get used to interacting with mental health patients like this.

Instead, we talked for hours. Nearly 3 hours straight at the start of the day alone, and then more throughout the day. My feet were killing me by the end of it, but it was completely worth it to see the way this poor guy came to life. We talked about everything from social topics like music and movies, to his medications and treatments, and how to manage his depression once he leaves. Something I was able to connect with him about on a personal level in a way his nurse hadn't, because I've been living with depression for a decade, I've been on antidepressants, and I understand. I think that was the point it clicked for him, when he really started reaching out to me, instead of answering when I prompted him. Because humans need connection and understanding.

By the end of the day he was talking freely and smiling nearly non-stop. We'd made plans for him to get back into an old hobby he hadn't touched in years, and he seemed genuinely excited to start it back up again. He was nearly bouncing in place when I went to say goodbye to him at the end of the night, and thanked me for talking to him all day. Even the staff nurses noticed the way his demeanor had completely changed.

Another patient (my actual patient for the night) started the day very combative. To the point she had to be redirected to her room (not locked up, just strongly encouraged to go and cool down). She was screaming at everyone, having some very serious and severe delusions. Same story; I talked to her throughout the day, little bits whenever she was feeling calm. I noticed she had a tattoo from an old semi-niche XBox game I used to play, and we bonded over that. By the end of the shift she loved me. Kept asking me if I'd gotten lunch/dinner, made sure all the other patients on the unit got their snacks, told us all to get some rest once it was curfew for the unit (we had to stay another 2 hours) and said we could use the spare bed in her room if we needed. Which sounds really weird but coming from her was incredibly sweet. Again, total attitude change.

I am very cognizant of the fact that the way I approach my patient care is largely a privilege of still being a student. It's easy for me to stand at a patient's bedside for 2 hours straight and listen to her life story when I have nothing better to do, let alone 3 other patients to take care of. But that nurse didn't talk to her at all. Even when she was in the room, she dismissed everything the patient said. The mental health nurses? Most of their time is spent in the nursing station gossiping and messing on their phones. There's no reason for them not to put in the extra effort of spending time with their patients. And especially there, it can have such an impact.

All of that is to say, I love the relationships I'm able to build with my patients. It's so important for me to be able to connect with people like this, to make them feel seen and cared for and important. No one wants to be treated like an inconvenience, especially not while they're in the hospital, sick and hurt and exhausted and in pain.

Nights like these are why I'm going into this field. I love medicine and I always knew I would end up in the hospital, I've always wanted to be able to save someone's life. But I think now that I've grown up and I'm actually working with these patients, I've come to see not only how rewarding it is to save someone's life, but to nurture that life, too.

[tommygotwrittenoff]

things i think buddie would argue about after moving in together: buying organic, the tupperware cabinet, couch throw pillows, the coffee maker

[fromxxthexxashes]

Things we got this (6x14) Episode:

1. Eddie screen time

2. Tia Pepa

3. Eddie acting as fruity as ever

4. Buck telling Eddie to ghost his date

5. Chimney screen time

6. Ravi screen time

7. More character building for Ravi

8. Leader chimney

9. Eddie going on one (1) failed date

10. More on how Kevin’s death still affects Chim

11. Ravi homecoming (and Buck bear hugging him into the air)

12. Eddie saying he’s ready to open himself up (with no specificity on genders btw)

13. Maddie singing to Jee while Chim watched her

Things we didn’t get:

1. Anything to negate queer Eddie

2. Anything to negate Buddie!canon in the future

[afniel]

Okay, I sat at my desk thinking I'd write, but instead I'm so tired (distinct from being sleepy. I'm usually tired. I'm almost never sleepy) that sitting at my desk hurts and I can't focus worth shit.

I'm beginning to understand how I can write doorstop-size novel(s?) from my phone actually...horizontal is a great position in general.

[pompompompeii]

unforeseen downside of semi-regularly baking is that now store bought little treats don’t feel good to me anymore

[himblebo]

Feeling kind of hollow today

[talkfastcal]

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[siobhanromee]

had the most miserable experience today.

[izzy-b-hands]

i hate how sleep has been the answer to making my brain calm down lately. It doesn't wanna fucking sleep much at night, no, but it'll happily make it so I can't keep my eyes open throughout a large part of the day (thank fuck for part time jobs and that I have the availability with my schedule to let it do this rn)

in other words hey, I'm finally awake for the day after three false wake ups (9ish, 10ish, and right around noon, and I fell the fuck back asleep after each one!! wtf)

But I feel vaguely human vs how I felt earlier (in pain and like death lmao) and this wake up didn't involve me immediately having a panic attack so. I did the right thing in sleeping more? maybe?? who fucking knows, I just work here

[hanahaki-arcade]

I'm feeling like talking about genders today so my gender and sexuality headcanons for my wives!

Sayaka Maizono She's a trans woman and loves being a women. It's her favorite thing. She's also pan. She's very chill and sweet about people talking about it though, as long as they are respectful about it!

Celestia Ludenburg Trans woman who will kill you if you misgender her. She also may be FEMALE but she uses neopronouns because they are so much fun! She's an asexual moon lesbian.

Sakura Ogami Sakura is a cis female but is very supportive of everyone. She's pan.

Genocider Syo Syo is one of those characters that you could headcanon as any gender and honestly? I think they only identify with xenogenders their main one being killgender. They are cupidromantic towards males, and something else towards femles

Black Pearl Cookie Cis female bisexual. Still very cool. KInd of scared of her

Latte Cookie Cis female abrosexual lesbian. She doesn't really know about a lot about different gender expressions but they do interest her.

Feferi Peixes Femme enby! They like enby more then non-binary because it sounds squishier. She's biromantic!

Kanaya Maryam I saw transfemme Kanaya once and I adored it yes. I feel like she would also like to experiment with neopronouns, tending towards ones that remind her of bright colours and happiness. She's a lesbian

Alyx Vance Ok ok I like the idea of transfemme genderqueer Alyx because she grew up around mainly men and I thank she was just like...ok I don't want that. So she loudly said that she was a girl and no one argued with her. She is pretty funky with gender though. I think she is still questioning if she's bi or gay.

Trixie Sting Trixie is a she/him and no one can convince me otherwise. She identifies as a transfemme person but is very loose on that! She's an aroflux lesbian.

[ohimsummer]

Hi 😄💛

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[promithiae]

• Getting up and running around 3 days after being shot

Things that work in fiction but not real life

torture getting reliable information out of people

knocking someone out to harmlessly incapacitate them for like an hour

jumping into water from staggering heights and surviving the fall completely intact

calling the police to deescalate a situation

rafting your way off a desert island

correctly profiling total strangers based on vibes

effectively operating every computer by typing and nothing else

ripping an IV out of your arm without consequences

heterosexual cowboy

[sheepydraws]

Just spent a lot of money brilliantly i.e. like an ass