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Elizabeth Arden and Helena Rubinstein hate fucked
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In case it wasn’t clear by the title this is nsfw (especially the second part) so minors dni!!
Before I go on this rant I do want to say that I’ve only seen a couple of clips from this musical and have never fully seen it (if anyone has a link 👀). I do however listen to the soundtrack religiously and I’m a lesbian so I feel that qualifies me and makes me right about this.
Also please note this is about the characters and not the actual people!
Firstly their sexualities just cause I can:
I believe Helena Rubinstein is a lesbian, the only reason she ever entertained men is because that’s what was expected and needed to get where she wanted to get. In If I’d been a man she says “I love only men I can't caress” and that honestly sounds so much like someone experiencing comphet to me. Like only loving men you know you can’t have cause it brings you some solace that you at least still like men??? Of course we also have the absolute obsession with Elizabeth and like nothing is straight about that. On top of all of that in Forever Beautiful she very proudly talks about how Tamara De Lempicka had a crush on her which is also not very straight of her and then there is this little moment in No, Thank You where she talks to mr Paley about his wife that had me question if she’s fucking his wife… ngl… like the way she says “I insist, it’s sapphire, like her eyes” had me going like 🤨 “and how do you know that, ma’am???”.
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I find Elizabeth Arden more difficult to place, I’m going to be honest. Of course the obsession with Helena is very fucking gay, it reminds me of the song ‘loathing’ from the wicked musical, so she is definitely sapphic. I believe she does like men as well though, like she was genuinely into her husband, I think. My gut is saying bisexual but with good arguments I could be persuaded of most other sapphic identities as well.
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Now for the main event: they fucked.
They were obsessed with each other for half a century... HALF A CENTURY… that is a different kind of loathing like… that is a type of obsession that in and of itself is so fucking sapphic that I can’t even put it into words. Like they live in each other’s heads rent free. And when you think about someone that much, you can’t tell me that you don’t, at some level, want them. Once again think of the song ‘loathing’.. hate and love/lust are not opposite emotions, they are far closer to one another than one might think.
They caused themselves (and their businesses) so much damage just to be able to hinder the other. Imagine hating someone so much you want to make their life that much more difficult and will even shoot yourself in the foot for it. That in itself is so sexually and emotionally charged.. like she really means so much to you that you’d damage yourself just so she suffers too?? If that isn’t the gayest thing you ever heard then idk anymore.
The tension that comes from hating one another so severely and trying to continuously make life harder for the other person can so easily slip into something more sexually charged that you cannot convince me that during a specifically heated argument the sexual tension didn’t become too much for them. So they snapped and just let it all out. It was definitely rough and not pretty, I’m talking clashing teeth, fighting to have the upper hand (I believe Helena ends up winning) and torn up clothes. It would truly bring out their most feral side and any composure and grace they previously held goes out the window.
And once the dam broke the first time well.. let’s just say whenever life got too much and they needed to take it out on someone… their arguments turned into something more carnal.
Now let’s talk about Face to Face because that song is gay as all hell. What do you mean you wonder about what her favourite perfume and artists are??? Like the way they’re singing about one another in this song is the reason I first was like “oh they fucked”.
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At the beginning of the song Helena complains about how she’s always been attached to her ‘rival’ but they’ve attached themselves to each other, no one forced them to remain enemies or to continue being petty and make life harder for the other. They could have detached at any point.
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Also how they suddenly wanna share their struggles with one another??? GAY!!! And how they suddenly admit that maybe the other person is possibly just as good as they are because why else would they be able to annoy them this much??? SAPPHICS!!!
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Now onto stealing each other’s confidant… like there is something so petty and so gay about that like why on earth do you want the person that is closest to her by your side? Is it because you want to get under their skin so badly that you’ll do anything?? Is it because it’s a way to have her closer to you without being closer? Or do you want to gain more knowledge about her??? No matter the answer, the outcome is so fucking gay and most definitely leads to hate sex. Like what do you mean you stole her husband to have as your right hand man??? That is so utterly bizar and is such a messy lesbian move. What are you trying to get to know about her that you need her husband as your right hand man 🤨.
Beauty in the world + the entire finale is so fucking gay. It’s basically like “yeah only us two know about when there was true beauty in the world” and like “we should just stay enemies for business” HELLO??? “Our secret” EXCUSE ME???. Maybe we helped the other survive/thrive??? What kind of gay ass shit????? Helena asking Elizabeth her opinion on her lipstick. The way Helena looks at Elizabeth when she sings “Eyes that glittered like a gem. The lovers we bewitched with them.” They definitely fucked.
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“Strange with you I see it all again like new. A glimpse of beauty in the world.” SORRY??? I DON’T THINK ANYONE HAS EVER SAID ANYTHING AS ROMANTIC TO ME AS THIS.
The way they look back so fondly on their rivalry.. it really was a way to cope and survive and blow off steam and you cannot convince me that they didn’t hate fuck to help with that.
After that encounter they had sex one last time and for the first time it wasn’t purely hate filled but there was some softness and fondness there.
And lastly THE WAY HELENA APPLIES ELIZABETH’S LIPSTICK IN beauty in the world. LIKE THE WAY SHE SO GENTLY WIPES IT AWAY THEN APPLIES IT AGAIN?? The first time I saw that I nearly screamed and died. If that moment can’t convince you that they slept together then nothing can.
That’s it’s for now. I wanted to add more clips as proof etc but I can only add one sooo I chose this one
(This rant was inspired by a reaction from @yourbasicqueerie)
#they totally fucked#war paint#musical#elizabeth arden#helena rubinstein#patti lupone#christine ebersole
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More Popstar!Au
For context, this takes place right before the first actual concert Buck and Tommy perform together.
Here's Buck in peak drama queen mode.
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“Tommy Kinard, is that you?”
As Buck turns, a rail thin man with a long beard starts waving his arms like a windmill.
“Oh fuck,” Tommy grumbles under his breath, before saying louder “Artem! Good to see you man, I didn’t know you worked here now.”
Artem comes jogging over, dressed all in black with STAFF in bold letters across his chest.
“Yeah, for a couple years,” Artem says, holding Tommy by his shoulders and shaking him a bit, “Damn dude, tech death doesn’t pay shit if you’re doing this too.”
Buck bristles, and Tommy starts laughing awkwardly.
“I’m here as a favor,” Tommy says, “Last minute thing.”
“Oh really? Cool. Doing sound again? You’re late as fuck if that’s the case,” Artem speaks a mile a minute, seemingly oblivious to the fact that Buck and Eddie are both staring at him.
“No. I’m drumming,” Tommy says, easy as anything.
“For Buckley?” Artem looks cartoonishly shocked.
Honestly? Buck can relate to that. Part of him still can’t believe it.
“Uh…” Tommy’s eyes are very wide, and they look shockingly blue under the florescent lighting as he glances at Buck. Buck just raises his eyebrows in return. Eddie looks like he can’t decide if he wants to laugh or not.
“As I Lay Dying always needs a new drummer, you don’t have to resort to that,” Artem continues, before laughing hysterically.
“I would genuinely rather choke,” Tommy says, “I gotta go dude. See you around.”
“Cool man,” Artem pats him on the shoulder, “Bye!”
Just as suddenly as he appeared, Artem is jogging off in another direction.
“Sorry about that,” Tommy mumbles, “He’s uh. He’s nice enough, but he’s… a lot.”
“Can he not see?" Eddie sounds bewildered.
“He used to do a lot of mushrooms,” Tommy explains, before speaking to Buck directly “Also I don’t think he knows what you look like.”
“My face is on a 50-foot screen in front of the building,” Buck feels obligated to point out.
“I don’t know,” Tommy says defensively, “I once saw Artem eat a live grasshopper for a McDouble, and that was back when those were only like a dollar. He’s not exactly the brightest crayon in the box.”
“What does he do?” Buck asks, anxiety starting to claw at him, “It’s not stage effects or anything right?”
“Oh no,” Tommy shakes his head immediately, “I don’t know what he does here, but when I’ve worked with him, he’s always done merch.”
“It’ll be fine,” Eddie says confidently, “I don’t think MSG hires people that can ruin shows.”
“I’m going to throw up,” Buck says bluntly.
“C’mon,” Eddie rolls his eyes and grabs at Buck’s hand and starts dragging him further down the hallway, “You need to chill out.”
“I’m going to. Throw. Up.” Buck repeats, but he lets Eddie pull him into the greenroom.
“For real?” Eddie asks, pushing the door open “Or are you being dramatic?”
“I’ll let you know if it’s ever for real,” Buck says sourly, throwing himself onto one of the couches.
Unmoved by Buck’s distress, Eddie just grabs the trashcan in the corner and places it delicately next to Buck’s knee. Buck scowls at him. It’s frustrating, but more than that it’s stupid. Buck knows he’s being difficult, but that doesn’t stop him from doing so.
“I’m going to go grab food,” Eddie says, putting his hands on his hips, “Hey? Tommy?”
“Yeah?” Tommy says, wandering into the greenroom behind them.
“Can you make sure Buck doesn’t leave this room?” Eddie says, placing a hand seriously on the top of Tommy’s shoulder.
“And how exactly am I supposed to do that?” Tommy says, looking amused, “He’s a grown man.”
“Put him in a headlock if you have to,” Eddie continues, “He’s ticklish.”
“Oh, fuck off,” Buck bristles.
“Ticklish,” Tommy repeats with a sharp nod, “Got it. And what happens when he fires me?”
“He can’t fire you,” Eddie snorts, “Bobby signs your checks.”
“I sign Bobby’s checks,” Buck says mulishly, crossing his arms and sinking low against the couch cushions, “I’m going to fire you.”
“No, you won’t,” Eddie says easily, before turning to Tommy, “You want anything?”
“I’m good,” Tommy says with a shrug, sitting down on the couch opposite Buck, “I’ll get something later. I gotta go find out where my practice pad is.”
“I’ll ask Bobby if I see him,” Eddie says, already halfway out the door.
“I wanna beer!” Buck calls after him.
Eddie flips him off without looking back, and vanishes down the hallway.
“It’s a bit early for a beer,” Tommy says mildly.
Buck doesn’t bother dignifying that with a response. He makes a point of laying down on the couch and turning his back to Tommy.
“Okay,” Tommy mumbles under his breath, “You’re the boss, you sign Bobby’s checks, you can have a beer at noon.”
Buck doesn’t respond to that either. He’s so tired his eyes hurt. He feels sick to his stomach, and the show is still hours away. He forces himself to breathe slowly and tries to relax against the cushions. There’s movement behind him. Tommy says thank you to someone, and a few minutes later the muted and rhythmic clatter of drum sticks on a practice pad starts up.
It’s a sound Buck’s used to. Lucy uses one as well, though she prefers to limit her warmup to right before going on stage. Tommy isn’t Lucy, a fact that Buck is well aware of, and honestly still irritated by. The noise is comforting in its familiarity all the same.
-tatatata-tatata-tatatata-tata-
He’s a little cold, he should have thought to grab a jacket.
-tatatata-tatata-tatatata-tata-
Buck shifts on the couch and closes his eyes.
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Buck wakes with a jerk. His face is mashed against the arm of the couch, and there’s a wet smear on his cheek that lets him know he’s been drooling. Gross.
“Wassit?” He grumbles, sitting up and rubbing at his face. A thick black piece of clothing flops down off of his shoulders, and he blinks down at it in confusion.
“Oh, sorry I woke you.”
Buck twists around to see Chimney gingerly closing the door behind him.
“‘m good,” Buck says, “I didn’t mean to fall asleep.”
He picks up the clothing, turning the fabric over in his hands, and realizes it’s a hoodie. Tommy’s hoodie. It’s soft and well worn, the white screen printing of Tommy's band's insane logo cracked in some places.
Tommy, on the other hand, is nowhere to be seen.
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“Rhaenyra's own fans will turn on her”
I’m thinking about Emma’s interview where they outright reject Rhaenicent, this is the first time they have ever done this and I can’t help but wonder if it’s because they’re aware of how fan’s were reacting to Rhaenyra’s character.
Actors don’t live in a bubble, they have access to social media and their PR teams would make them aware of public response.
So Emma would be made well aware that Rhaenyra was losing fans to Jace, her indecisiveness to avenge Luke was turning TB against her, no one was interested in supporting a Queen who didn’t actually want to be Queen etc.
Hell all they’d need to do is check out the dislikes for the Dragonstone scene on YouTube to know just how much the general audience appreciated the Rhaenicent reunion that just a few months ago the writers were bragging about being something fans were dying to see.
It’s probably why they asked for Rhaenyra to use a sword in S3, so she can actually do something other than stand around complaining whilst the men take charge.
If the writers do try to prioritise Rhaenicent over Jace I can’t see Emma supporting it, 2x08 was ironically enough Nyra’s saving grace because she demanded a son for a son, but like previous anon said, if she turns around and chooses Alicent again fans will drop her like a hot potato.
I've honestly decided I don't like Emma or Olivia that much. They are fabulous actors but alas. I firmly believe that Olivia never actually shipped Rhaenicent, and every time she mentioned it and interacted with Rhaenicents had nothing to do with shipping them. I had a conversation with @atopcat about this a little bit ago. Olivia only faked liking rhaenicent because it kept her popular with that portion of the fandom, and then when people were completely done with that and Alicent lost her fan base, Oliva backtracked and started to disavow the ship, by saying she was portraying Alicent like 'she wanted to spit in Rhaenyra's face' and stopping interaction with those fans.
Emma on the other hand was neutral on rhaenicent and didn't mention it much but then when Olivia/Alicent lost their fanbase, they started completely rejecting it in an attempt to save themselves from Olivia's fate. I don't trust Emma or Olivia with writing shit anymore. Emma was responsible for the queer baiting that was the kiss with Mysaria. And Olivia was responsible for the Rhaenicent meet ups. Hot take: actors shouldn't be able to just ask for a scene because this stuff happens. I know Emma is just trying to save their job but it still feels tacky to me
They are both clearly doing damage control. Because Emma probably does know their characters carelessness for her sons is more important than a badly written and toxic yuri ship. Rhaenyra's popularity has been almost entirely transferred to Jace. Because Jace can actually make decisions with crying and throwing a two episode tantrum over it. As the previous anon said, do you know how incompetent you made your leading lady if you left people preferring her 16 year old son over her??? Rhaenyra started losing fans the second they butchered Luke's death, just wanting Aemond's head, which she changed her mind about, when in the book she wanted all the greens dead. She lost more fans when she basically spat in Jace's face about him not wanting to dragonseeds. What finally stopped the leak was when she said a son for a son, which was the first time Luke had been mentioned in a couple episodes.
In the Sept scene in KL, Rhaenyra mentions Luke literally once and not nearly as ferociously as Book!Rhaenyra would've.
I wish I could say I believe the writers and actors will wise up and stop this but I honestly don't. I wouldn't put it past them to completely double down on it and have Rhaenyra chose Alicent over her babies. Hopefully, Emma could see how disliked that is and stop it but idk.
Here's a friendly reminder for the writers: the love Rhaenyra had for her babies was well written in s1! She loved them with all her heart. I have no idea why you changed that for Rhaenicent!!! Go back! Rhaenyra loves her babies. Don't ruin Jace's death the way you did Luke's
#anti oliva cooke#anti emma d'arcy#anti hotd#anti hotd s2#anti hotd fandom#anti house of the dragon#olivia cooke#emma d'arcy#pro team black#hotd#anti team green#anti alicent stans#anti alicent hightower#pro book!rhaenyra#pro rhaenyra targaryen#rhaenyra targaryen#anti rhaenicent#anti ryan condal#anti sara hess#hotd jacaerys#jacaerys velaryon#jacaerys targaryen#prince jacaerys#prince lucerys#lucerys targaryen#lucerys valeryon#lucerys velaryon#pro lucerys velaryon
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Of course I adore rich and powerful men who sit at the very top of the social hierarchy and could single-handedly destroy entire cities—but inside their homes, they are the ultimate malewives who live solely for their wives. Because despite everything they’ve achieved, they still can’t believe a woman like that chose them, and they are the ultimate simps who just want to see them happy. And if anyone DARES to make their wife even slightly uncomfortable, they will literally reduce those cities to rubble and burn entire nations to the ground—because who do these people even think they are, making their beloved wife upset???
George Russell, the man that you are. He has two wonderful children and still tells his wife that she is the most important thing in his life. Name a bigger fanboy than him. Literally the only filthy capitalist I love—because, honestly, how could I not?
Two whole episodes into "The Gilded Age" and I am kicking my feet up, squealing and giggling.
No one told me George Russell carried the THRANDUIL brand of badassery, sass, and absolute slaying.
Another valedictorian from the school of "You absolutely do NOT DARE mess with MY wife." But in the cool, silently deadly, not-necessarily-violent way.
Oh I love this trope. I haven't written enough fics about it, but I love it.
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I was just popping onto twitter to try delete my account and then accidentally made a new one and I’m sorry why the actual fuck is this shit being recommended for people to follow that is a right wing bad human 😠 this has cemented my decision to avoid twitter like the plague it has truly turned into a dumpster fire
#twitter#boo Twitter#boooooooooo#transphobes#boo to the transphobes#people at my work unfortunately said some insensitive things like this today at my work#honestly can’t believe people still do this#fuck the right#fuck them all#but not literally
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It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.
#I fucking hate having bpd#while I’m at it I don’t understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you#I feel so stupid#I feel so stupid for believing all the lies#but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing they’re perfectly fine and to them you don’t exist#I’m still in such a state of grief and I don’t understand why time hasn’t healed#it honestly feels like it’s gotten worse w time#I just torture myself but I can’t help it my brain wants me dead#it’s so painful I feel so fucking stupid#being abandoned with no closure by someone who’s your entire world#for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I don’t even know how many and dony want to know) immediately#like that was the plan all along#he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I don’t even know if he still has her or if she’s still alive and I miss her every day#I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me#i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him#I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didn’t appreciate me#not wasted. it wasn’t wasted. we had some incredible times together#I’ll never be that beautiful again#and now idk what do so bc i can’t decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over#it’s all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all#he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and it’s so fucked up#nobody read this I’m so embarrassed and horribly broken#it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if I’ll ever recover#I deserved it but it still hurts my heart#I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me#there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other#but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me I’m just fucked#why lead someone on like that for years knowing you’re going to abandon them the second it’s convenient
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Getting REAL sick and tired of how omori TikTok views sunny.
Like, they view any scene of him being emotionally vulnerable, affectionate, or even just making an expression outside of just being completely neutral as “mischaracterised”. He’s not some cool, stoic, unwavering badass, he is a traumatised teenager. Don’t cry whenever he dares to give his friend a hug or (god forbid) be SAD about something??? Isn’t like. Part of the point of his development about him allowing himself to break down the repressive walls he built when he shut himself in? And being able to rely on his real friends instead of imaginary versions? And isn’t the game like. Meant to SHOW that he still cares about them despite isolating himself?
It’s really stupid to get mad at a character like that showing emotion or affection personally, especially since he’s not used to expressing it properly after so long. But that’s just me
#this isn’t even solely about the manga though it inspired me to make this post#any piece of official art in which sunny dares to show an emotion is shunned as ooc and I’m sick of it#he only appears ‘neutral’ throughout the GAME’s narrative because he HAS NO FACE SPRITES#because he’s the protagonist and has no actual dialogue#therefore he only makes a few expressions the entire game#obviously manga sunny is a good bit more expressive than canon sunny but#it’s REALLY not as bad as TikTok is making it out to be#I’m so TIRED of this character being viewed as nothing but a rock that ONLY has personality before and the game’s events#not allows to emote at all because ‘he didn’t do that in the game!!’#because he is restricted to ONE face sprite the entire time outside of the battles#omori is a DIFFERENT case and I can admit that manga omori is a good bit more expressive than he should be but#he’s still VERY stoic especially compared to sunny#which is what is should be#sunny should be quite closed off but in contrast to omori so much more human#that’s like. a massive part of their dynamic I feel#anyway this is such a long rant but god im so angry#I’ve seen one too many people cry ‘mischaracterised’ at a teenager expressing feelings#PLEASE stop it#also this is not to say you can’t critique manga sunny’s portrayal#because there are a few issues I believe#which are honestly really hard to dance around considering the factors I mentioned before#about having one expression most of the game and two lines of dialogue the entire time#and honestly? I think they did a pretty okay job!#he’s still a silent protagonist but seeing him emote so often helps us see into his mind and know how he’s thinking much easier#both portrayals have their pros and cons and ultimately I prefer the game’s portrayal#but that’s not to say this version of sunny is terrible and ooc like people have been saying#and that’s definitely not to say that any moment of emotional vulnerability he has is terrible and inaccurate#because that’s. just terrible and untrue#omori#omori sunny
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hey this goes without saying but unironically dni if you hate paani octonauts. like actually.
#i don’t usually do things like this buuuuut the way people talk about him sometimes is. weird. and i don’t like it#i’m at least happy to know that most people who dislike him keep that stuff in private circles and not tagged in public#but honestly still. at this point i’m blocking because all of you act the same#also there’s a difference between ‘he’s not my fav personally’ and ‘i want him to die he deserves it’#you just hate to see a silly monkey man living his best life!!!!!!#also the argument most times is that he’s a kwazii replacement#and yeah i mainly understood that because of the way A&B S1 was#but if you still believe that and blame it on him as a character and STILL like my kwazini art. I just don’t like you!#that’s all sorry for ranting I just can’t do this anymore#you can have your opinions but personally the paani hate gets gross and weird really fast and i’m sick of seeing it#yall don’t deserve my art of him if you simultaneously wish the worst on him
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went into the notes of that poll going around about if people want more seasons of supernatural and was immediately slapped in the face with how different my priorities are in this fandom from. a lot of it. what are you talking about ‘destiel endgame’. girl the show has bigger problems to fix than that if it ever had more seasons. they taught a three year old that the best way to be loved was to continuously try to kill himself and then they made him god.
#i can’t honestly imagine any world where there’s destiel and its like. satisfying. in any way.#as in: your options here are a) ignore the last seasons of dean. not treating cas very well to put it bluntly. you’d just have to ignore#that and go straight to They’re Fine :) Happy Ending which is. what i am picking up that the people on that poll want.#or b) go all in and make this a horror story to the end. give them destiel and make it exactly as fucked and miserable as it would#realistically be. and then that whole side of the fandom would be mad because toxic gay people shouldn’t exist actually. too complicated.#and the thing is that neither of these are at all satisfying. the second one is better. but its still. bad.#im being serious here im not trying to beat down on this. i genuinely cannot see a way. with the last few seasons setting things up the way#they did. that destiel endgame would make anyone happy. or be good. at all.#anyway like i said there’s bigger problems. new god went through years of child abuse and believes he deserved it because he was born wrong.#look me in the eyes and try to tell me this will lead to a good outcome. jack is about to do godstiel arc 2 except he won’t explode from it.#he is about to kill so many people who are Bad. and not see why that would be wrong to do.#okay im done im done i swear
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#wanna openly say that i think kanthony was shafted in s2 bc they should’ve included kate’s phobia of thunderstorms#but then i don’t want all the weird kanthonys who somehow believe that s2 is trash but also is the only season worth watching#to think i’m one of them bc i’m not.#and i’m also wholly uninterested in the stupid fucking ship wars like omfg why is it always that kanthony or polin is the best#why is it always a damn fight!!! and every single one starts unprovoked!!!!!#and then into s3 kanthony was shafted again bc omfg if somehow johnny and simone can’t come back much for s4#THAT’S when you go “they’re still in india” rather than having them be absent for all of episode 8#honestly the biggest thing is bridgerton is such a popular show that there will always be a lot of very loud and wrong people#and ship wars are as inevitable as they are stupid#so the writers just need to do what’s right for the characters rather than worry about all that#kate and anthony can just stand there look pretty and occasionally be used to bounce ideas off of for the romantic lead of the season#same for colin and penelope#it doesn’t need to be complicated#i mean gregory and hyacinth are little more than characters that flesh out the world rn and that works fine#rambling
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#i fucking hate always being the one who has it worse than others#it alienates on so many fucking levels#you don’t have the energy to meet up with people bc you’ve had to solve already seven different life altering problems that week#as if you’re on a magic quest#oh and four of those you can’t do anything about bc world politics or finances or societal problems etc#the other three resurfaced some other things you already felt bad about four years ago and could never get rid off in your head#and then of course when people ask you how your xyz was and you either just shrug and lie and give the expected answer#or you tell them the truth how horrible this holiday was or how that thing everyone is supposed to enjoy was actually not possible for you#bc see above#of course ppl will also tell you their problems#but you won’t be able to help thinking ‘okay and…?’ bc quite honestly ppl are complaining about wild shit#where either the solution is ‘do something about it’ or it’s not actually more than a minor complaint in the first place#which leads to the dreaded gap of me thinking ‘i can’t believe you are complaining to me about that when you know i struggle w xyz’#‘and have been for 4 years. it has no future of getting fixed btw itll just always be like that why are you complaining about this bs to me’#or the other person finally remembering like. compatibility of certain issues and they just finish with#‘of course that‘s not half as bad as it is for you’#which they will start hating you for at some point definitely btw#bc they never get to complain about their little life which i understand#but like. i didn‘t choose this y’know#oh and btw they will still hold you up to their standards always#didn‘t clean your flat? didn’t fill out those documents in time? don’t have your life on track?#well that is clearly your fault#and has nothing to do w the circumstances that keeps them from rightly complaining about their own little problems to you#i’m so tired of it it’s so tiring i’m so exhausted#like girl i wish it was easier for me too y’know i’m not doing this for fun#barely holding on as is and then you have to take everyone’s little hurt feelings into account too#bc they’ll also judge you as negative nancy if you have nothing good to say when they ask you how it’s going#‘no one likes a negative attitude’ yeah i’m aware. i live this daily as i struggle to get by. thanks#.txt
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#alison speaks?#to be deleted probably#not to like be weird about things people are already pretty weird about#but like beyond the absolute turn of ‘aCTUALLY this dude we liked for the past six years was a VILLIAN in her story’#it’s the fact that some people have an audacity to look at the relationship they were in for six years#and go ‘yknow what? it was all just so she could get here. it was all about the healing’ and granted yeah#good people can help you be better. a safe person and a safe place can allow yourself the time and safety it takes to grow and heal#but honest to goodness they did NOT commit to their six year long relationships and endure all their hardships#he did NOT support her during some of the worst moments in her career#just for y’all to reduce him to some stepping stone in her story#to view him as if the whole universe revolves around her like#like imo he deserved way fucking better#and honestly unless the relationship ended in a way that i really really really could not believe it did#it’s pretty fucking shitty that he had to put up with all the shit he got from the internet after the split went public#it’s pretty fucking shitty that y’all act like she can’t really do wrong in a relationship#that y’all STILL are unable to see it as anything other than sure humans make mistakes but men are absolutely terrible#like the need to analyze the fuck out of a song yall call deep and sad and so telling#that really just sounds like ‘why couldn’t you read my mind?’ makes me want to YELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL#anyways that’s enough and maybe the last thing i’ll say#bc honestly if the current relationship ends up not lasting (not that i wish that on them#don’t get me wrong) but like if it doesn’t? just wait for everyone to come up with all the reasons why#this guy who brought her back and made her so happy and blah blah blah was ACTUALLY? a shitty guy the whole time#okay yeah that’s all that’s it#i think the reason this makes me so angry is bc y’all would not tolerate this if the situations/reactions were reversed#and honestly the amount of disrespect for a relationship that did not go burning down in flames between two people together for six years#that shared a life and a home … to get this disrespect i just….#i wish healing and happiness and growth for both of them#but damn
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oh yes you were at court! i forgot that was at the start of that post lmao. i've been to court twice when i was super young for drinking underage and then smoking lool it was so boring and long and shit but thankfully you were just there for moral support, i hope it wasen't such a bad thing your friend had to deal with! I remember seeing you post about moving but i forget if it was TO or AWAY from your parents but that clears it up. I totally get you on that though, i'm living at home right now and i feel kind of similar about not feeling comfortable in your own home. Its a bit different for me, but similar enough. Hell my stepdad even sleeps in the living room too! hes always done that so ive always felt like i had to be on eggshells when night time hit. I used to sneak smoking in the backyard back in the day myself, i got caught once when i was in highschool he made me throw all my pieces out which sucked big time. ahhh i love that, art! you should totally show more stuff on here too, at least if you're comfortable and its not stuff you'd wanna sell, i would absolutely love to see any of it 🖤i've dabbled in writing poems and things i planned to make songs, although only recently. I've always wanted to be a musician but my attempts at learning guitar over the years have never ended up lasting long and i try to learn singing but i just dont really think i can. plus i was always afraid of self expression so i never wrote until a few years ago. i still do, because music is so important to me (which is why i did pick 🎤!) and it makes me so happy but yeah. i have 2 shows im headed to in a few months even so im so excited 🥰my day though has been so boring, i mostly played video games and watched youtube videos. watched another episode of a show i've been watching called Silo, which i absolutely love. im so surprised you had room in your tags still after myself lmao, but i do that same thing i always talk in the tags! also i'm giving you tons of hugs and kisses 😘🥰 - 🎤
Hi hi hi ☺️ how are you doing lovely? 🥰
#I’ve actually never even been inside a court house or room (still haven’t since my friend didn’t even see a judge thankfully)#but it was interesting ngl walking in especially felt like I was at an airport lol#sorry to hear you had to deal with it twice :( I hope it all ended up ok!#also sorry that you understand the pain of not being comfy in your own home#it really really fucking sucks ngl#dude I would have been SO pissed if my parents made me throw out my pieces 😭😭😭 like 1 that’s my babies and 2 that’s fucking money!!!#lol I was caught in high school too once or twice (but I was a dumbass and smoked inside LMAO still can’t believe I did that????)#I still remember my mom walking in while I was spraying the room and I just fucking fell to the floor for some reason 😂😂#my moms friend was over and apparently told my mom ‘I’m getting high from the fumes’ and ughhhhhh I was so mad#it’s funny now cause wtf who says fumes????#show art like more of my Etsy paintings or my personal paintings?? honestly I don’t have thaaaat many personal paintings#I have one that is a tree that is probably my favorite and I have a few pour paints that I saved when I was first starting#if you’re ever comfortable and want to share a poem or two please feel free to send me them!! (lmk if you don’t want me to post it)#I’ve always been in awe of people who can write poetry or lyrics#I’ve wanted to write songs ever since I can remember tbh and I did back in high school#I had a few classes that I actually wrote songs in but it was just the instrumental - I could never figure out the lyrics#almost failed a class cause I couldn’t figure out the damn lyrics lol#trust me I totallyyyyy understand wanting to learn an instrument but it not *clicking* buuut I personally think singing is different#don’t get me on a rant about how I think it’s sad how most people don’t sing or do art because they aren’t ‘good’ at it#also singing is sooooooooo subjective (think that’s the right word lol) so I think anyone can sing if they want to#music is important to me too!! what type of music do you like to listen to?? like do you have a fav genre or even a fav artist/band rn?#2 shows??! like concert???? who are you going to see?! fuck I’m so jealous! I don’t even remember the last concert I’ve been to ☹️#I’ve never heard of silo but maybe I should check it out! I’ve been looking for a new show to watch ☺️#sorry it took me a lil bit to reply to this :(#my depression was hitting me HARD the past few days#I’m feeling a lil better now but still kinda funky#I’m dogsitting Wednesday-Sunday and I’m super duper excited for that!!! just gotta get to Wednesday ☺️#thank you for the hugs and kisses 🥺🥺🥺 they’re super appreciated 🤗#you’re amazing 🥺 I’m squeezing you and giving you the bigggggggggggest hug 🤗🤗🤗#🎤 anon
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One of my favourite mundane weirdnesses about Edinburgh is that we set the big clock visible approaching the station to be 3 minutes fast to make sure people are on time for their trains. My Favourite mundane weirdness of Edinburgh is that we check this by firing a cannon.
#oh my god! I can’t believe this showed up on my dash#I was about to go looking for it because I am currently in Edinburgh and got to see the railway station clock which used to always#be set 5 min early so people wouldn’t miss their trains#(I know that there is still one which does this! just cool to see the old one too#I do not miss high school and the terror of being a teenager attempting to orient herself in a foreign country#but I do miss Edinburgh#*parent not orient#though honestly orient also applies
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seeing someone talk about their 1st trimester pregnancy fatigue being hard to deal with and having them basically describe my normal everyday experience has been somewhat enlightening
#i think i have a hard time not separating everything into extremes#like instead of just acknowledging that ppl with ME/CFS have worse experiences of fatigue than i do#my brain translates that to me not having any real experience of fatigue and everyone must feel like this all the time#like attending all things go did not actually require that much physical exertion but i am still so exhausted from it several days later#and honestly i am so glad i am unemployed right now because if i don’t think i could have gone to work this week without losing my mind#but i can’t help feeling like everyone is this tired all the time and just pushes through it in a way i don’t know how to#don’t get me wrong i’m extremely glad i don’t experience worse fatigue bc this is hard to enough to function with as it is#and it’s not like people with ME/CFS regularly get believed or supported either#but in many ways i hate this sub-clinical gray area i inhabit
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#can’t believe I just read someone attributing Taylor’s liberal beliefs to a man#can women have nothing anymore?#she is a fully adult person and while I certainly don’t care for Brittany or her beliefs I know what it’s like to socialize with republicans#seeing as I was literally raised by them#taylor only endorsed Joe 1 month out from the election#she does not need to do anything on anyone else’s timeline#and honestly it makes me really sad that so many people lose faith in her so quickly#I still believe Taylor is a liberal and I will do so until she herself tells me otherwise#social gatherings are not an announcement of political beliefs I’m sorry#one more thing: it’s very interesting to me that Taylor was willing to be super political when Joe was willing to be more public#and I wonder if potential political posts were sidelined in an effort to minimize the monster on the hill & save the ship#then she’s single in an off-year politically and has a manic episode#idk I think she’s earned some grace that is readily extended to other artists by their fans#it reads like the early 2010s discourse of how she must be fake because she’s too nice#she has told you what she believes - trust her until she tells you otherwise#idk that’s just how I treat people generally maybe I’m wrong for that
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