#hear me out I’m just being real
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I swear, my brain looks like:
Chan Chan Chan Chan Chan Bang Chan Christopher Bang Mr Bang Chan Channie Chan CHAN CHANNNN omg Bin? Seo Changbin?? The most precious man on earth Changbin!! Binnie !!! Oh but Minho… Jisung…. Minsung omg I love them- also Hyun. And! And! Seungmin too!! 148 frfr WAIT ALSO JEONGIN HELLO??????
<Felix3 lixie~
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C H A N M Y B E L O V E D bangchanbangchanbangchanbangchanbangchanbangchanbangchanbang-
#the most sane skz stan#hear me out I’m just being real#send help I go through phases#currently going through feral brainrot wbu?#also currently in the felix phase for some reason idk#kpop#stray kids#skz#bang chan#lee minho#seo changbin#hwang hyunjin#han jisung#lee felix#kim seungmin#yang jeongin
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good night and sweet dreams to the best, sexiest, sluttiest, smartest, realest, most based, valid, relatable, girlipop, sympathetic, cunt, fun, cool, feminist, aspirational girlboss character in dead boy detectives: doll spider <3
good night to her and no one else. i hope the rest of y’all have a bad night and terrible dreams.
#doll spider did nothing wrong ever#i will defend her every action in a court of law#‘she tore edwin apart millions upon millions of times in hell’ wouldn’t you?#some gay nerd shows up in your house saying shit like ‘oh my how filthy this establishment reflects very poorly on the host’#he’s sashaying and sauntering down your halls and pivoting and you’re like ‘hang on i’m supposed to be the cuntiest bitch here’#so yeah you tear him apart like WHATEVER this shit happens#but he keeps getting reborn and like it’s fine when he’s quiet but every time he makes a noise you just HAVE to kill him again#i bet she was so happy when he escaped and SO MAD when he came back#and then the whole payneland in hell scene she was so real#she interrupted whatever gay shit charles was gonna say to edwin after ‘mate i’ve-’ bc she knew it would be disgusting & didnt wanna hear it#and then they HAD to just KEEP BEING GAY ON THE STAIRS LIKE OF COURSE SHE CHASED THEM OUT?? THAT ORPHEUS AND EURYDICE LINE WAS UNACCEPTABLE#SHE WAS LIKE GET THESE F*GS OUT OF MY HOUSE#she did what she had to do to set boundaries and honestly is that so bad?#thank you doll spider for protecting us from more devastatingly romantic charles rowland lines <3#dbdshow#girlbossifying doll spider is so funny to me idc if no one sees this. this is for me. and for her <3#payneland#edwin payne#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#yeet my deet#yeet my deebd#dbd4ratch#revive dead boy detectives#chedwin#the case of the very long stairway#dead boy detectives#dbda#dead boy detective agency
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[jttw oc] cursed to be an obligate carnivore, ate his entire family one particularly bad winter
#guys im being indulgent hear me out#im not giving him a name he just goes by woodcutter#cuz he feels like he doesn’t have the right to use the name his parents gave him#not telling you what it is tho cuz I don’t know either lol#jttw oc#journey to the west 1996#journey to the west#jttw sha wujing#jttw zhu bajie#jttw tripitaka#jttw sun wukong#jttw fanart#digital art#my art#what’s he doing here? searching for a way to break his curse and make amends#yes that’s his cat he calls lucky#when I mean obligate carnivore I mean it is entirely possible for him to grow weak and hungry if not given meat in his diet#not a monk just happy to be there lol#yeah it’s the 1996 version cuz I love that group and im obsessed with it rn :)#I see so many cool jttw ocs on here I wanna make one too :(#he smokes a pipe btw I just forgot to draw it#it keeps the cravings and hunger away and also looks cool af#close enough welcome back luo binghe#real aroace solidarity is letting each other use you like a chew toy when teething#I’m just now realizing I did not draw those flags correctly#or colored them in…#just know they’re supposed to be the ace and aro flags I drew them from memory and was like eh I’ll look em up later#I did not
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Also. Y’all. The way that loki finally confronted how he doesn’t want to be alone? And then learned how to control an uncontrollable and painful thing by realizing he needs the people he loves and cares about??? The silly little chaos god is soft and so am I let them be happy
#lokius#loki#loki season two#mobius#sylvie#b 15#o.b.#Casey#also y’all maybe I’m delusional but#hear me out#I have a modicum of hope that this isn’t just a big queerbait moment#but even if it is#we got mobius and loki being soft#and also also#we got to see loki realize that he’s allowed and able to care about people#and that’s the real glorious purpose he’s been looking for
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rehyperfixating on a children’s game that came out in 2015, is one of the least popular entries in its series, and has minimal content, the vast majority of which i’ve seen before. the series has been dead for nearly 10 years, nothing has happened recently that would warrant anyone’s returning interest in it, very few of my friends give a shit about this specific game, and those few who played and liked it in the past have no reason to give a shit about it at all right now. i have been coasting through on a playthrough i’ve been doing with a friend who’d never seen the game before and who was kind enough to let me show it to them, but we just beat the game, and after we play the epilogue we will have nothing left to do, and on top of that they really have just been humoring me as they have their own very strong current hyperfixation they would much rather be thinking about. also i am depressed enough right now that literally nothing else except for waiting to play this game with them and playing this game with them and watching them enjoy it at least a little has been able to briefly quiet the constant cacophony in my head screaming how much of a worthless, lazy, constantly-failing miserable excuse for a living person i am and how much better everything would be, especially for myself, if i stopped existing lately. would anyone like to volunteer to 🔨💥⚒️Kill Me With Hammers🔨💥⚒️ because i would really like for someone to 🔨💥⚒️Kill Me With Hammers🔨💥⚒️ right now
#me.txt#delete ltr#and i like hearing my friends talk about and show me their interests but it isnt enoughhhh its not enough right now to make my head SHUT UP#right now the only thing that can give me energy is a hyperfixation like this#but with enough content and engagement from others to keep subsisting me without hitting a wall#SOMETHING THAT IS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT TO DO WHEN YOU CANNOT DRAW OR WRITE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#BECAUSE WHEN NOBODY IS MAKING ANYTHING!!!!! AND YOU CANT MAKE ANYTHING FOR YOURSELF!!!!!!!!! ALL YOU CAN DO IS CURL UP AND STARVE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼#immmm so sick of the only thing that makes being alive feel worth it being hyperfixations theres nothing REAL tying me down i cant stand it#because i am!! too broken!!!! to ever achieve any of the things that WOULD give me a real solid tangible reason to keep living!!!!!!#like a stable job!!!! a place of my own!!! a partner whos dedicated to me above everyone else and me to them in return!!!!!!!#a LIFE that isnt just constantly failing over and over and waiting for the shoe to drop and to lose everything all over again!!!!!!!!!!!!#i dont have that!!! and i cant have that!!!!! because im too broken to be able to cultivate and maintain it!!!!!#and the only way. to fix myself enough to be able to do so.#would be to HAVE ENOUGH STABILITY THAT ID HAVE THE TIME AND ENERGY TO PUT INTO FIXING MYSELF AND HEALING#i cant fix myself without stability and freedom. and i cant get stability and freedom unless i’m fixed#so it is. literally impossible!!!!!!!#impossible to create my own concrete solid reason to be here.#impossible for me to even create anything to feed the fixations that are my backup reasons.#theres nothing!! nothing!!! i have nothing new to leap to and ive been dwindling for too long and i think i am about to drown#im just waiting for time to tick out. for me to fuck up too badly to come back from one last time and get found out and punished.#and then? theres nothing left. theres literally nothing else left for me
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i need to remake my cup bros ref… both cup and human designs… it’s been almost a year(?) and i’ve developed the headcanons and i would like to share with the class!!! (i wrote thirty tags. Please help me)
#my little hc i kinda showed in the refs but didn’t point out: cuphead’s handle appears broken/in human form his ear is halved#cause he has microtia (that also affects the eustachiantube/middle ear). basically i am a HoH cuphead truther#also to add onto that i think he has poor auditory processing issues cause i also see him as AuDHD#double also. while he would use ASL on a bad hearing day i think regularly he also uses home signs to express words/concepts#autism-related btw. it’s actually a bit visible in insert cuphead media (to me at least LOL) that cuphead expresses a lot of body language#so not liking conversation oral or signed as well as replacing oral words w home signs is in character. at least to my headcanon whatever#floats your boat!#OH! plus his split upper lip that i draw him with isn’t related to the microtia. he just roughhouses and chipped/tore his lip open when he#was younger#cuphead is also a trans boy. it feels right to me LOL#even back in 2017 when i barely knew the game or also much about trans people i saw cuphead and was like hm. hm!#tbh he just pawned his clothes onto mugman. who i’ve also changed my hc for i see him more as bigender than a cis boy now#LOL. i cast bi on mugman. sorry buddy#OH HIM TOO. im so sorry mugsy i have like two headcanons for you 😭😭😭#she uses he/she 2 me. i like casting personal parts of myself onto mugman even if i gravitate more towards cuphead/chalice#i see him as a bi ace as well. and a hopeless romantic. i don’t ship uhh i don’t remember what it’s called#i don’t ship cala maria X mugman (respect though) cause i see the cups as kids and i’m also a hilda X maria shipper LOL#but in the show. i will be real that she is a hopeless romantic. Look at that dork#FORGOT TO MENTION. i am a cuphead aroace truther to my grave. KEEP THAT MUSHY ROMANCE OUT OF MY HIGH SEAS ADVENTURE!!!!#like i said w cuphead before mugman is AuDHD (they share. many genes LMFAO)#however the difference is that they express it in different ways; while cuphead’s is more linked to his hearing/social behavior#mugman’s is more related to her emotions. i see it through my headcanon colored glasses that especially in the show mugman has more#meltdowns between the two cups#he has high emotional sensitivity both in positive and negative ways; former as in being strongly attached to cuphead and latter as in#more prone to meltdowns as well as being very literal#which isn’t a bad thing of course. mugman we are shaking hands so hard we are the same#OK that’s all the ones i want to share right now. i also haven’t shared her human or cup design i did but i’m workshopping chalice!!!!!!#i am leaving her out intentionally she deserves her own post because i luv her so much#ok post over. twenty minutes dedicated to autism about the twins out of the trio#cuphead
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Hi Sada! I saw your nasty anon and I thought i’d balance the hate with some love: you’re my favorite blog on Tumblr! I always look to see if you posted and I love reading your thoughts on things! Lots of love xx
🫶🏻 thank you so much!!!! I’m glad to know I entertain the majority of you!! I’m just here for a laugh and to enjoy myself and if other people like it all the better 🥰
#I’m lucky in the fact I have an absolutely incredible support system#so nasty anons like that never bother me#I’m more offended at how ableist they can be and the fear they spew that kind of shit out to people irl#like I’ve been bullied for reasons I can’t fathom since I was a small child#(the classic undiagnosed autism afab experience of people FEELING you were different and hating you)#so for me anon hate is just…. par the course for real life#(excited for more anons to dogpile on me but whatever)#my intention with being casually open about my mental health is that someone who might need to hear it#hears how my life is#and hears what my experiences are and feels validated#and not alone#might seem silly but I used to be a younger person in a fandom#and seeing people in their 30s still in fandom#talking about their life#made me realize that it’s not all bad and that things can be okay#IDK THESE TAGS ARE RAMBLY NOW BUT WHATEVER#I’m just trying to have fun and I hope anyone who needs to know it’s okay to live differently can see I’m having a blast
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What if Dennis tracks down where Mac’s boyfriend lives and shows up at his apartment, doing squats outside said building preparing for some type of fight. Not necessarily jealous but tired of hearing about this guy.
#because like#have we EVER seen Mac date a man before?#do we even know what could happen at this point#just listen#Dennis tracking down someone’s address doesn’t seem too out of the question#like let’s be real#maybe he just wants Mac to shut up because he can’t stop brining his boyfriend up#I’d like to see a fic where Mac isn’t even worried that he’s being affected my allergies#I’d like him to think Dennis have him allergies please#I NEED stupid Mac#just hear me out#I’m so confused by the squatting#can you tell I just learned how to use tags accurately? because I did#iasip#mac mcdonald#dennis reynolds#it's always sunny in philadelphia#macdennis#it’s always sunny in philadelphia#season 16#sweet 16#sunny sweet 16
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like. Nina listens to Taylor, moderately keeps up with the front-facing aspects of her life, enjoys her quality, has her minor critiques, recognizes her place in the current culture, can set her down and do other things when she wants to, and most importantly knows who Taylor is through her art.
#you cannot engage with Taylor completely casually it doesn’t work#you won’t get to know her#you have to let her in. go on a sunset walk with your headphones in and open your heart to her and just HEAR her#and then once you know who she is you can go from there#but there absolutely is this level of refusing to get to know her#and I am truly (once again) not addressing people who have that door simply closed (my mom! my older sister!)#people whose opinions matter so much to me#but I am talking to the people who wrestle and want to love her but actually hate her and idk. I feel that it is something where—-#well it’s like people isn’t it. you have to get to know her without judgment#and without bias#you have to know her FROM her#(which does not involve Easter eggs OR celebrity headlines if you hate both of those things#and then if you don’t like her you do in fact have to leave without making that other people’s problem#especially Taylor’s!#I am thinking of this girlboss journalist who wrote a piece on Taylor the other day#that was LIVID with Taylor for sharing only positive reviews on her insta story#(as is not only Taylor’s right but literally normal behavior??????????)#and was practically foaming at the mouth about how Taylor’s level of power was getting scary#and it’s like. I’m so sorry for swearing but BITCH#a lot of the numbers are out of Taylor’s control and also NOT REAL. Taylor also DESERVES her success and is simply doing her job very well#and riding the waves of virality she knows how to create in ADDITION to that#also stop worshipping power and money!!!! the way you clearly do!!!!!!!#Taylor is not doing anything with it except her job!!!!!!!!!!!!!#she is also CLEARLY a human being who suffers#SEE HER AS SUCH#and end it THERE#INSANE#turning off reblogs for this one#because I have gotten carried away but wow
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Just casually thinking about how much of a tell it is when Tom says “Siobhan” versus when he says “Shiv” and how he switches from “You don’t like to fail a test, do you Siobhan” to “Honest to God I don’t know, Shiv” in their phone call in the finale, and that’s how you know he isn’t fucking with her, he honest to god truly doesn’t know if he wants to try.
And that’s where we leave them.
#he’s been siobhan-ing her all season and every time it feels like just a little needle#a little bit like a parent asserting power over a child#saying I see through you and don’t forget I’m the one in charge here#but the real feelings come out and she’s shiv again#balcony fight is all shiv#your sense of who you are shiv is so [redacted] thin#you were going to see me go to prison shiv#this is also why it’s so clear he’s being a snake in the stairs scene at logan’s apartment#she’s upset and he says shiv and she pushes him away and he switches to siobhan to push at her with the france story#just one word and you can hear him using the france story as a power play#gonna need to do a full rewatch with this in mind during earlier seasons#shiv roy#tom wambsgans#tomshiv#succession#succession spoilers
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I am this 🤏 close to disabling asks and replies on this blog btw
#Polly speaks#I don’t want to because I love hearing people’s thoughts and lovely comments#but people have been incredibly out of pocket these last couple days and I’m getting really sick of it#This blog is for me to post my silly stuff and have fun#I have enough real life responsibilities that if it stops being fun what is the point#ugh. sorry just#bluh
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i think part of why i love tsp is i love horror but hate threats
#no monsters in that game! the horror comes from your solitude#you are the only one in there! you are the map’s sole living occupant#when you see that rare glimpse of the employee walking through the window you don’t feel /fear.:#you feel /relief./#relief that slowly dwindles as you realize you will never get to interact with this npc#you’re as alone as ever#and the game knows this!!! it knows it!!!#your sole company is the narrator- a disembodied voice. that’s it. nobody else#(yes i know the curator the timekeeper/settings person but you get my point)#and some of the most unsettling moments in the game are moments when the narrator is quiet#the playtester ending where you fall out of bounds and he can’t follow you#the infinite hole in that moment where he leaves and you can’t do anything but wait#do i even need to explain the skip ending. the distress in the narrator’s voice- the distress YOU feel at being forced to leave him alone#he actually has a really interesting bit of dialogue in there. to paraphrase- ‘if you can hear me then maybe i’m real’#i feel this line perfectly encapsulates the loneliness of this game#it is just you and a voice. each confirming that the other is there. that the other has an impact. that their actions mean something#that they’re real.#and what’s CRAZY about it is that it’s not even a horror game!!!!#is that part of it? yes undeniably. but the game is about choice#the narrator says so all the time#GOD it’s so good. one of those games that turns you into a philosopher#another reason i like tsp is because the narrator is relatable lmao#i too love to go on long tangential rambles and use purple prose and i too will be distressed if nobody listens to them#might be why the skip ending seems to frighten me extra#anyways i think more art should focus on the horror of loneliness and effects of solitude on the soul#i could write a goddamn essay on this shit. actually i might i loveeeeee analysis
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Think my favorite thing about going on drives with my dad is the comments he’ll make about the music I play for us. So far he’s said that:
“[Alpharad] sounds like he cries into his cereal every morning”
“[Ado] sounds like Asian Beyoncé”
He compared Lovejoy to a band he likes. I have since forgotten the name of this band, but I think this is the best comment any band/singer can get from him
The only comment James Marriott received was “He doesn’t open letters 🥸🎉” but he was messing with me that morning so I don’t know if that one counts
#rip Alpharad though dude was just minding his buisness and my dad obliterated him at like 7 in the morning#he only knows Alpharad from ace of hearts so hearing Alpharad be described as melancholic sounding confused the shit out of me#I did not have enough caffeine to process that comment but it sure hasn’t left my brain#James marriott is safe from a real comment until I get the speakers again#he never skips any of these bands/singers though so he does enjoy them#it’s just dad vibe checks I suppose#they all pass but he has to make a comment before the vibe check is complete#James Marriott#Alpharad#ace of hearts#lovejoy#ado#I’m still thinking about ado being Asian Beyoncé though#like what does that mean
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me to my mom 4 years ago: i’m bisexual
my mom today: so you still don’t know if you like boys or girls?
#bruh when my therapist mentioned me not being heard she was not fucking lying#she remembers a complete different conversation than it actually was#and i’ll be honest i’m crying while i’m typing this cause i remember it all so perfectly it took me so long to finally have the courage to#say it and she just. heard whatever she wanted to hear#or part of her chose to remember whatever she wanted to remember#so how much of that acceptance was real?#this hit me so fucking hard and she doesn’t even understand why i’m upset#she just doesn’t fucking get it she was like don’t expect me to remember every detail of every conversation i have#well we are talking about me coming out in a household that used to be a little bit homophobic because it was the early 2000s#like it just hurts that she didn’t care enough to remember it#she understood whatever she wanted to cause i NEVER said i had doubts about my identity#or that i didn’t know if i liked boys OR girls#it was always both it was always the big word it was always bisexual#she was the first person i came out to by using that word#i remember the date i remember the situation i remember where we were#and she doesn’t even remember it right#like part of her didn’t want to accept it no matter how supportive she was/is#cause that’s the thing she IS supportive and i should be grateful and i really am but i can’t focus on that. not right now#this is so fucking depressing to me i might be overreacting a little bit yes sure but i don’t care this is how i’m feeling rn#fuck man i don’t know what to do with myself rn#effie talks to the moon
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Can’t tell if I’m so anxious because of drug withdrawal or it’s just because I have a bad brain 😓
#I took buspar for about 4 nights then had to stop because it put me on edge#first night without it and I’m hit with the same feelings again#just sad and hopeless and my nerves feel sick#I had thought there wasn’t supposed to be any real withdrawal from that stuff#so maybe this is just me being sad#quick rant: I feel so hopless and alone and scared#it’s 4:30am and I know there’s nothing I can do right now about it so I should just chill out#brains suck#just go to sleep!#I have my first therapy session tomorrow/today so we’ll see#and I’m realizing now I really need to bite the bullet and apply to some jobs#any jobs. even if I’m afraid my hearing will go out and I’ll fuck up working#I NEED to get out of this house more. I NEED money. I NEED some hope for a future.#I want moneyyyy so I can go out to eat and take my brothers to the movies and help my mother with bills#I can’t just stay awake all night suffering. I need to be productive.#ian I swear you will feel so much better with a purpose#even if that purpose is just to work a register for a few hours a day#it’ll be okay#we can do this. we’ll talk to the therapist tomorrow. we’ll call our doc and bitch about our meds. we’ll apply for jobs#we’ll shower and eat and go out in the sun and it’ll be okay#baby steps baby#get a job. get money. buy a burger. find someone to kiss once or twice.#I can do this#I feel everything falling apart and fading away and I have to fight that#I’m fighting it now just verbalizing this and it’s helping#it’ll be okay ian!#life can still be beautiful!#you’re afraid of losing everything well then fucking grab it hold it do what you can#I’m so fucking scared but I have to try#text
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2024 reads / storygraph
A Tale of Seashells & Shenanigans
YA fantasy
follows a grumpy 19yo who works in the fantasy thriftstore
when a girl tells them she accidentally donated her selkie sealskin on their watch, they have to go on a quest with her across the sea to the other store the donations were sent to against their will
but things quickly go wrong and they get stranded on a desert island, and they have to survive by busking, and hitchhike with some pirates to make their way there, and their frustration eventually grows into attachment
nonbinary ace disabled (cane user) MC, aroace ‘love interest’, QPR-ish
#A Tale of Seashells & Shenanigans#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#Hm.. I like the idea of this but it was a bit all over the place and I feel like the relationship development wasn’t great#the MC spends most of the book being pretty horrible to a very timid well-meaning autistic girl who isn’t mean back.#(like mutual antagonism can feel more even yknow?) Like yes this is the focus of their character development - we know why they’re like thi#the fact that they’re mean to her is very much addressed; they apologise eventually; the author is autistic and making intentional choices.#but......they apologise but then are mean again over & over. it keeps happening and it’s just not fun to read when it’s 80% of the book?#them being nice to her is a way smaller part and I just don’t really buy the love at the end.#I think the author’s strength is definitely in real world settings where it can just focus on the characters#- I feel like this kind of silly anachronistic fantasy world needs to be leaned into a bit more?#I also felt like Tillie was quite self hating (or: only focusing on the negatives) about being autistic and aroace with the MC there to tel#her that no it's ok! Of course that’s a realistic experience but I find when it’s so succinct like that it feels really….reductive; idk.#pet peeve i keep running into#I did kinda enjoy the detail of ‘I’m ace siren’s won’t effect me’ *immediately flings self overboard after hearing them* lmao#but yeah I feel like some sections of this could have been cut out and a couple things expanded on and I might have enjoyed it more
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