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Ooohhh FUCK YEAH
Netflix said letās do it for the hoes
#as much as I crush on mando (and Joel)#Catfish would be my everyday choice hands down#he looks his best in this in my opinion#also Oscar Isaac#pedro pascal#triple frontier#triple frontier pt. 2: santiagoās revenge
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ANDREW GARFIELD and FLORENCE PUGH for Bustle.
ā'Ultimately, itās a story about choosing the life we want for ourselves and making the most of the time we have." Bustle cover stars Andrew Garfield and Florence Pugh on their once-in-a-lifetime love story āWe Live In Timeā - in theaters NY/LA today, nationwide October 18.ā
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#andrew garfield#florence pugh#the best fictional couple and the best pair of friends off the screens and only my opinion matters#best couple#i love them#they're so beautiful#bi panic#they are definitely very cool together#they're so much fun#i would watch the two together indefinitely#his smile is everything#he's so fucking beautiful#they're so adorable#she so pretty#look at him#he looks so good#we live in time#every minute counts#like ššš#released#the press tour of we live in time will be explosive#almut & tobias#tobias and almut#press tour#bustle#photoshoot#tasm peter parker#sincericida
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So what happened to that scotch dude?
killed that motherfucker with my bare hands. caved his skull in with my fists, which was easy because his head was soft and malleable like peanut butter. and then i ate his heart and absorbed his essence, and that's REALLY how ive been getting so good at drawing lately.
#anon#hes doing fine hes working on his final right now#it looks really fuckin good!!! its straight up the best animation hes ever made in my opinion.
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Favorite scene of the show, episode 7
#why are there 2000000 ones of just his face? bc tiny expressions that's why#seen it said before that his face shows anguish there and obviously it's just a matter of differing opinions or me not reading correctly#but to me looks like anguish-some sort of relief or familiarity-new expression#like he's relieved in some way to see his face again after who knows how long#insert commentary about how the lighting is on the injured part of his face#but he craddles the uninjured part#one of my friends describe him looking like a wounded animal in the 1st gif and honestly yeah#dead boy detectives#edwin payne#save dead boy detectives#best ghosts i know
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Bungou Stray Dogs: Dead Apple and how āability usersā (opposite to ānormal peopleā) learning to accept themselves through the acceptance of their own abilities is a queer metaphor of acceptance of own's sexual orientation and gender: an essay by me
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#About: Dead Apple. Watched this a while ago with a friend and it was a lot of fun!!!#If you're reading this: thank you so much for hanging out with me I had such a good time (ć
Ā“ Ė )ā”#Next to general considerations: wow they were right that Bungou Stray Dogs movie sure can Bungou Stray Dogs#It's always nice to see the detailed animation and elaborate backgrounds of movies. The animation quality compared to the manga isā#definitely noticeable and it's nice to see. That said... I still like the season 2 art style more? And I'm speaking strictly of art style.#The s2 one looks more soft and smooth while the da one is so much more rough.#The plot is... Very bsd-esque I don't think there's anything to add.#In my opinion Kyouka's arc is the one that turned out best tbh. I really like her narrative development and personal growth in this movie.#I like the complexity of her state of mind. how full of contradiction she is. I especially appreciate the recurring small changes ofā#expression that indicate how she thinks differently from Atsushi even if she doesn't voice them. The fight between her cynicism and herā#kind nature. It's all very interesting.#Atsushi's development is interesting too. Although all the open questions about his ability we still have kind of leave me frustrated#I don't feel very strongly about Akutagawa in this movie? I meanā he's there. The ss/kk scenes are always great and in character and a joyā#to witness no matter what they do. He just doesn't shine particularly? Or at least personally I dont find the āproving my strength againstā#myselfā narrative arc to be particularly interesting. Imo it was a lot better flashed out in the da stage play! With the complexity thatā#the dialogues with Chuuya added to the character. Dazai attacking him. And especially Aktgw understanding that Rashomon wasn't testing Aktg#but rather only expressing that unstoppable rage that is also Aktgw's own. About that I checked out the play and I really liked it!!#I only watched highlights (aka: ss/kk and chuu/aku scenes) but there's some stuff I really like. I like the conflict between Aktgw andā#Chuuya and how Chuuya messes up with Aktgw at first maliciously and then amiably. It's interesting how Atsushi himself observes that Kyouka#and Akutagawa get along. And especially the sskk almost-handholding and Atsushi saying Akutagawa has a nice profile were cute akjdhbsawhjb#Next. Da really is shipping paradise (ā„ļ¹ā„) Sorry but... It is. oda/zai. daz/atsu. ss/kk. s/kk. fuku/mori. chuu/aku. It really has everythin#and the moments are so good!!!! What else. Wish we'd see more of Tsujimura. And Christie. And women in general tbh.#Alsoāāāāā Atsushi's tiger form in this movie is ATROCIOUS. I've said it before but it's crazy how a franchises that relies so heavily onā#fanservice came up with something this hideous. Man the movie overall was pretty but Atsushi sure wasn't. Firmly stand by the beliefā#that only Akutagawa would find that form attractive.#Oh last note. honestly if we're ready to accept a movie where an antidote has effect AFTER the person has effectively died then we reallyā#can't complain about any kind of insanity the manga brings up#random rambles
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of the many injustices put forth toward the show by fans i think the most overall damaging and telling of a complete lack of critical viewership is the idea that sam riegel builds his characters with nothing more than the bit in mind. like you are only telling on yourself if you think characters like scanlan shorthalt and veth brennato are one-dimensional and depthless
#if im being exTREMEly generous i can maybe understand this view of scanlan if you started c1 and then gave up 30 episodes later#he played the long game with him more than any other and a lot of his growth could be looked at as shallow if you DIDNT watch til the payoff#but any time this opinion is used as a blanket over all of his characters including tary and even FCG.. like be serious#i mean at this point im definitely biased bc he is my favorite player at the table. However. that wasnt always the case#and even when i was myself writing some character choices off i NEVER applied that to the characters themselves. how can you??#seen sooo many ppl criticize him for making veth an alcoholic or scanlan irreverent & hedonistic as tho itās only possible#to play these traits as shallow jokes or at best played out satireā¦. and then the same person will turn around#and praise how percy was built to be pompous & superior and jester immature & self-centered and caleb steeped in self-effacing hubris#why are these characters and their players given a near universal acceptance of nuance and acknowledgement of growth & healing#but SAMS CHARACTERS ARE NOT!!!!#this turned into such a rant but it bothers me SO much. everyone at the cr table is so goddamned talented#and takes the game as seriously as it deserves#so many more points i could argue but this is already so goddamn long no one is reading this far. i love sam and all of his characters <333#critical role#sam riegel#scanlan shorthalt#veth brennato#my posts
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*spots another Vengeance-Seeking Hornsent fan through looking at the tags in fav SoTE NPC poll* I am still seeing "he was a potentate himself because of the mask" claims here and there š I honestly think he is wearing the mask for its actual function: to ward off the doubts and other things that make you lose focus, since he must keep his mind fixed on revenge. Besides he comes from Belurat and not Bonny Village (revealed if you share scorpion soup with him) and his trademark weapon implies he only grabbed a sword for revenge and didn't wield weapon before, let alone their butchering knife
These are just what I think. What do you think about him and the "discourse" though? Do you lean strongly to this or that side or neutral on both takes?
HORNSENT NATION
OK so I was always kind of kind of torn between whether I believed he was a greater potentate or not, but I was leaning towards him being a potentateā¦ BUT then after you sent this I went on a deep dive to see if I could prove either theory, and what I found really made feel like he WASNāT a potentate???
I went through like every possible source of info in the game and listed all the possible interpretations so Iām gonna list a bunch of it here with my conclusion:
Bonny Butcherās Cleaver: āAn outsize butcher's cleaver used to dismember human bodies in the making of the great jars stored in the gaols.ā
Hefty Cracked Pot: āThe greater potentates of Bonny Village craft these and store them in a frozen gaol.ā
From these items we learn that the jars are exclusively made at Bonny Village from dismembered shamans, are transported to the gaols, and stored there under freezing temperatures probably so the innards donāt spoil, like a giant fridge?? Then, we learn from the Belurat Gaol spirit that misbehaving prisoners are added to the shaman jars there, where their flesh āmelds harmoniouslyā together. So the greater potentates only operate at Bonny Village, and I think itās also implied that only Bonny Village natives are potentates:
āA record of crafting techniques of the greater potentate who roamed lands near and far. Haunted by the grotesque practice of his village of birth, he stuffed great pots with all manner of things.ā (Greater Potentate Cookbooks)
It seems like being a greater potentate is kind of like, a family business, since the practice is strictly localized to the one village and this particular guy was basically born into the profession there even though he found it ghoulish. So Iām doubting that outsiders from other places became potentates?
If Hornsent is a potentate, heād probably have to be from Bonny Village, or at the very least, live thereā¦ and like you said, I think the game is screaming that heās from Belurat! Freyja has this to say about him:
āDo you know why the eternally dour fellow keeps his distance? Heās one of the towerās Hornsent. I can only assume he fights for his own reasons, and carries his own burdens.ā
I feel like this almost certainly means that Hornsent is from Belurat because Freyja specifically says āthe tower.ā Freyja and Hornsent are also standing right in front of the Belurat gate when you get this dialogue. Thereās also the scorpion stew interaction with him:
Scorpion Stew: āScorpion simmered in a black soup. Traditional meal of the hornsent. [ā¦] Once made with love by a certain elderly woman for the family table. Having long gone cold, this soup gives off a rank, sour smell.ā
Hornsent says this when you give it to him:
āWhatās this? Do you think me in need of alms? Ahā¦ but this dish. Tis fare oā the tower. I remember fondly this kin-clad scent. ā¦Brings back memories Iād all but forgot. This, by my troth, is but a dismal copy. Indeed, I think it rather plain to seeā¦ things once broken can never be the same.ā
So I donāt think scorpion stew is exclusive to Belurat by any means, since thereās many other Hornsent settlements, but I think it means something that Hornsent immediately thinks of the Tower when he sniffs the stew. I also think that him pondering this theme of āthings once brokenā makes the most sense in the context of Beluratā¦ you can give Hornsent the stew only after traversing all of Belurat, beating Divine Beast, and talking to Hornsent Grandam, so youāve seen Beluratās ruins with your own eyes and learned that it was once a place where families cooked and ate scorpion stew together. That really resonates with Hornsentās vengeance in the name of his murdered mother, wife, and child! Him having lived through what happened to Belurat personally just makes sense!
Ok so why does Hornsent wear the potentate mask??
I think youāre right that heād only be wearing it for its ritual purposes:
Caterpillar Mask: āGrotesque mask constructed from countless solidified caterpillars. A ritual implement of the greater potentates of Bonny Village. Used to ward off thoughts of impurity, doubt, temptation, and other wickednesses one is vulnerable to while absorbed in divine ritual.ā
Makes sense that potentates would want to banish any feelings of doubt or temptation or any other distractions when their job is to kill and dismember peopleā¦ which is a sentiment that absolutely applies to Hornsentās goals as a vengeance-seeker. Also, the jar-making is described as a ādivine ritual,ā and the act of seeking revenge also seems really ritualistic? Hornsentās robe is created specifically for the purpose of vengeance:
Braided Cord Robe: āRagged black cloth overlaid with braided cord. Attire of a vengeance-seeking hornsent. The braided cord ties together the vow of the revenger with the victims' grudges. It must never come undone. Enhances both watchful spirits and the vengeful spirits summoned by horned bairns.ā
Does this not feel like a sort of ritualistic, divine invocation of revenge? Hornsent also forges new blades specifically for his vengeance, and repeats the phrase āIn vengeance for the flames, my blade I wieldā several times, like a mantra. Thematically, I think Hornsent wearing the potentate mask is drawing a link between the Bonny Village butchering, and the endless, bloody path of revenge that eventually leads Hornsent to ruin; both of these acts are in a way like ritually-sanctioned butchery. So while Hornsent might not literally be a potentate himself, the game wants us to THINK of the ritual violence that the potentates carry out when we look at Hornsent!
So overall I donāt think any of these arguments can like, 100% definitively prove that Hornsent wasnāt a potentate because thereās a few assumptions I made that teeeechnically might not be true (like that only Bonny Village natives are greater potentates, or that āthe towerā always specifically refers to Belurat), but I now think that it makes the most sense if he isnāt a potentate!
#asks#elden ring#hornsent#i loved hornsent even when i really thought he was a potentate this debate doesnt sway my opinion on him at all#best npcā¦ hes so compelling he has so much pathos#ok also I saw people saying that his face data looking almost exactly the same as the potentates means he was one but like#the madding hand also looks to be a variation on the same face#i think they just used the same character data to make all the hornsent npcs
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refused to let myself rest until i finished making this
#loz#legend of zelda#twilight princess#midna#ocarina of time#ganondorf#phantom hourglass#linebeck#skyward sword#ghirahim#minish cap#vaati#i thought about adding totk rauru? but hes just polite hes not quite a man whos a fancy lady#this is my opinion but tbh yeah. idc that twili midna looks like that we all saw her in imp formĀ shes 100% a girl whos a gross dude#linebeck and ghirahim were going to be in this from the start but i really had to think abt who else to add#i like how its like. 3 major villains and then the companions with the best arcs#ganondorf ended up being so close to linebeck bc i ran out of room and also bc im gay about them#also i used linebeck's model instead of that one bit of official art bc in the art his coat is incorrect (missing bottom stripe) so. model.#also you get his gay little pose with the model so win#listen vaati is the one im the least sure about here but its fine#anyways. loz polycule from hell#my post#dying over how fucking similar ghirahim and oot ganondorf's poses are tho#TBH MIDNA AND LINEBECK ARE SIMILAR TOO#vaati is left out damn
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So I may or may not have started watching another silly little show from the 90s. It kinda hit the sweet spot for me, with it having a fun gimmick while also being a detective show with compelling characters. I also feel like that clown meme looking at the mountain of episodes I still have to get through.
Also I'm going into this show completely blind so please keep spoilers out of this post; as of posting this, I have just finished ep 193! :)
#detective conan#Shinichi Kudo#Conan Edogawa#I have my thoughts and criticisms but so far the show is still in the positive for me#Idk what the general fandom opinion is but the only thing I'm not looking forward to is the change in art style#which i can already see it starting to shift into#Also such a missed opportunity for Conan's thoughts to be in his Shinichi voice but oh well#on the positive side i fucking love Conan he's absolutely adorable and his voice actress does such a good job for both his voices#best moments is when he starts with the kid voice and slides into the serious voice#other best is when he makes little squeaks#also love how much of a ragdoll he is#no one holds Conan like you would hold an actual 6 year old
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son boy raccoon trash can man suffering in a dnd au as a cleric bc his warlock will not stop committing murders and he has to keep coming up with reasons murder is valid to convince the gm its fine and under control
#my characters#oops i fell in love#right is trying his best in the au to think about all the logic behind killing someone despite being a cleric SPECIFICALLY#bc he refuses to hurt anyone irl or in dnd and ok fine their warlock can have a little murder as a treat#and the body count is adding up and hes like ... so tired..... please can you not kill for five minutes im running out of excuses#fwiw he has the weird logic of the group in the base plot and the guy who is the gm here#is v open about ok but if we ask right then hell give an unhinged answer completely thought out and rationalized#and in fact asks him hey i know you refuse to hurt people but im having a debate with these two coworkers#if you had to commit a crime for aaaaaanyone on the planet who would you commit a crime for#and he doesnt even hesitate to say luca obviously to which the asker is like WHAT ABOUT MY DAUGHTER#YOU WANNA MARRY HER AND WONT COMMIT A CRIME FOR HER? but LUCA? of all people???? not even brent?#and right is just so confused because first off brent would probably be the one committing a crime for him without being forced#(brent agrees with this statement with a shrug) and second off luca has really weird coworkers and thought he was getting stalked for a bit#due to a misunderstanding with said one weird coworker so yeah obviously right would threaten the guy with a gun which is illegal and#third and final how could he face his beloved angel (the daughter mentioned above) if he was a criminal#he cant tarnish a sweet little innocent girls opinion by committing a crime IN HER NAME gosh fuck off with that attitude#he has STANDARDS thank you very much#and the three at the table are all like okay yeah that was really thought out on the fly youre right#also brent do not commit any crimes for him please and brent just nods in agreement bc ok he wont commit a crime unprompted#also hi animal crossing emotes are so fun to doodle for bye#once again i am baffled by how different the colors look on my laptop in the art program vs posting to tumblr#im going to go insane at how different they look#IM COLOR PICKING FOR MY OWN OCS AND ITS SO WRONG LOOKING IDK MAN
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yeah so that scene where mike kicks down the fort in his basement in s1 is definitely supposed to be paralleled by will taking down castle byers in s3. just if anyone cares about when mike turned his back on being a kid.
#stranger things#80s#the duffer brothers#byler#miwi#will byers#mike wheeler#byler endgame#st5#ive heard people say it symbolizes him losing trust in el#and thats a good interpretation#until you watch the next scene where he's talking to dustin and feeling bad for how he treated el#like it would work...#but NO#because he takes the fort down right after he#1: is told that his attempts to find will are actually doing the opposite and ensuring he's left to die in the upside down#2: is accused of caring more about being liked by a girl than saving his best friend#3: fights with lucas who gets hurt and leaves to look for will alone -- bc he thinks his chances of finding will are better without mike#4: loses el after the fight with lucas-- another friend that went missing under his nose#5: LOSES EL. his one link to will. his last hope.#in my opinion this was reality sinking in#this was him realizing that this isnt some campaign that they could win and be okay at the end of#he felt the most hopeless he ever had and tore down the only safe place in his home#him tearing down the fort wasnt him losing trust in el it was him losing hope and confidence in himself as a leader and friend#and yknow he jumps off the quarry right after that... mayhaps thinking it was all he had to offer anymore...???#AND THEN HE TRIES TO REBUILD IT AT THE END OF S1 BUT IT JUST SLOWLY DISAPPEARS PIECE BY PIECE IN S2 & 3#in the following seasons -- even when his friends are goofing off and acting their age -- mike is decidedly not#he puts himself in the role of a leader and protector at age 12 and literally never comes back from it#and yeah the more he 'fails' at it the worse he feels about himself the more he tries to grow up#me waiting for s5 to confirm mike's complicated and incredibly intricate and well written character status
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The Hisui Trio in my AU!! :D
(they dont know how to dress up š)
I wanted to make reference sheets for the three, even though i took a ton of inspo from many things but its for investment i promise i promise
Those three are friends in this AU, they are all in the present world and they are like a family to each other tbh, they might get into a few arguments but they talk it out later on.
To be fair i think those three would give each other kisses, not in a romantic way though, its just more of a platonic thing i guess??
The three of them own dragon type pokemon, from gen 4, 6 and 8 (me like even numbers dont mind me), i kinda felt like these pokemon fit them best by personality (im not exactly sure for 100%)
Dropping the lore here :
The only way Adaman and Irida could go back and out of Hisui was by Volo taking them with him by going through portals with Giratina, of course the two of them got frightened at the sight of Giratina showing up right in front of their eyes for the first time but they got used to it later on.
As a gift of gratitude from Volo for still being accepted by Adaman and Irida even after everything he's done in the past, he made and gave a clone of Origin Dialga and Origin Palkia to them so that they could also travel through the portals or around the world without his help (he's getting tired from babysitting them pls let him live).
Adaman and Irida just live with Lucas, Dawn and Barry in Twinleaf Town, sometimes Volo comes by to visit them and hang out with them. Lucas and Dawn dont have memories of Rei and Akari, so they have no idea of what Volo used to be back then, if they would then oh boy they would try to kill him.
{With Dialga} Adaman possesses Steel type powers (or Metal Bending as they say), he uses it a lot for combat but also for reaching high places if he cant go up there or reach it by climbing, he bends the metal into a form of a long rope in order to get up there.
{With Palkia} Irida has Water type powers (or Water Bending), she is not really the type of a person to fight but she rather heals others, it also works on pokemon too, though sometimes she can kick ass once in a while if anyone drives her mad.
{With Giratina and Arceus} Volo has all the elements, including Dark type powers but he never uses those as he only sees the bad in them and never wishes to use them, reminding him a lot of Cyrus {bro hates him more than anything}, with Volo being an Archon, he can summon pretty much every pokemon, including the legendaries and mythical ones, and the ultra beasts, even though the legendaries are gods too and are feared by many, Volo however just sees them as misunderstood creatures/beings, as he has a better bond with them than with his own people.
Volo despises humans, he only sees the bad in them as he has only seen the bad things that humans did, and with Volo being isolated in Arceus's realm and being there for about 280 years (met Arceus at 20), he cant really change his opinion about it, even if he has friends that are different than the rest of the humans, Volo still has doubts that humans are good, unless proven to him. Sure, Volo is the archon and savior of this world and he is trying his best to make the world a better with no wars or catastrophies, he hates humans, but he just wants peace, but he is aware that even if this happens one day then the peace wont last forever, the world cant remain peaceful for eternity, theres always going to be something happening all the time and he will have to deal with it on his own.
This would be Volo and his Dragapult (canon)
Imagine praying to god, and this is who you're praying to
#pokemon au#pokemon#pla volo#pla adaman#pla irida#pokemon legends arceus#pokemon legends volo#wielder volo#pokemon wielder volo#pokemon volo#pokemon irida#pokemon adaman#clan leader irida#clan leader adaman#irida#adaman#volo#here uhh lore uhh yes have it here#if anyone understands what im saying here then you are officially my child#doing allat at 2 am my god#ah yes did you know that Volo is a god in this au. na wait. an ARCHON?? LMAO#na cuz i feel like he deserved it fr#adaman and irida are like his family rn#had some weird scenarios about adaman and volo kissing while irida watches them with a confused look like ābro not this againā#they definetly are the best trio in my opinion idgaf#they would kick ass tbh#also i took some reference from arcane cuz why not hahahahaha (i didnt mention it in the lore)#i made it that cyrus is darkness and volo is light aint no way this turning into mlp LMAO#i think im high af when im writing all that rn#cyrus is dead btw
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ANDREW GARFIELD & FLORENCE PUGH
Interview Each Other for the Buzzfeed UK
[Buzzfeed UK video]
#andrew garfield#florence pugh#buzzfeed uk#interview#selfiie#i love them so much#flodrew#yes i'm obsessed with flodrew#the best fictional couple and the best pair of friends off the screens and only my opinion matters#best couple#they're so beautiful#bi panic#they are definitely very cool together#i would watch the two together indefinitely#his smile is everything#he's so fucking beautiful#they're so adorable#she so pretty#he looks so good#we live in time#every minute counts#like ššš#the press tour of we live in time will be explosive#almut & tobias#tobias and almut#buzzfeed#sincericida
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DAY 10: EMPATHY - Lost little pearls of light. Tiny fires in the dark.
YAY YIPPEE a collab piece with @euclydya!! it drew the LOVELY linework and i finished the colors/shading!! wah im incredibly happy i got to do an art collab with y'all, thank you so much my beloveds :D!! <333 <222
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#disco elysium#empathy#de empathy#disco elysium skills#skilltober#skilltober 2024#de skills#voliart#im still going back for the INTs but im posting this one on the actual day because its IMPORTANT!!#everyone look at how Euclydia posed him isnt he so pretty?? i love the hand over his chest he's so peaceful <33#esprit: Euclydia#empathy has the transparent crown because he was the signature skill in my run!! but my headcanon harry's signature skill is volition :3#so voli will have the actual skill signature crown but empathy is my personal choice <33#surprisingly this has nothing to do with the two transparent skill points. that's a whole separate thing that's spoilers for Swept Up hjkjg#a lot of quotes i wanted to use were not empathy quotes so i couldnt use em!! ''I'm glad to be me -- an incredibly sensitive instrument.''#'''A blue forget-me-not; a piece of the grey sky'. Unofficial: 'For a moment there was hope'.'' <- i do not condone moralism hgkjg#hgkgj i hate that my fave's a centralist man but i GET IT. he empathizes with every ideology so he just won't choose. like not pulling the#lever in the trolley problem. too scared to hurt anyone so not taking sides. guy who cares too much! if i make a decision someone gets hurt#best to leave it to a committee of people so no one's at fault! :) <- NO!!! EMPATHY!! THOSE PEOPLE WILL GET HURT ANYWAY!!! DO SOMETHING!#augh out of tag space but this GUY. I HAVE THOUGHTS ABOUT HIM MAN. kisses his forehead. please have opinions my darling hgkjg
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I sat here scrolling Tumblr and then I heard my dad snoring on the other side of the wall.
And I've been making it a habit to consciously pay attention to the people I love, because I love them.
And so - I wasn't trying but this just came to me because of observations, and knowing, and perhaps the habit of it - I thought oh, that means he's sleeping.
Its the middle of the day. He does this sometimes. He's a very busy person, between two jobs, and 2-4 disabled kids. He takes power naps after lunch. He has a whole strategy. He's told it to me and I listened and I remembered because I love him.
He's also in burnout. My dad is burnt out and I understand because I am also burnt out. I wish I could help him but I am burnt out, and so all I can do is know him, is listen to him snoring and know that he is tired.
I get to listen to him snoring. He is tired. He is sleeping on the middle of the day because he is tired, from taking care of me, who am autistic, and my brother, with Prader-Willi Syndrome (shoutout to ppl with PWS), and his job 1 to pay the bills and job 2 to pay for the future and his wife and his other children and making sure we all get our enrichment.
And so he is snoring on the other side of the wall, and I can picture him tangled up in his blankets and sleeping because he is tired.
And so I get to listen to him snoring and think about all the things he does and how much he deserves rest, and how glad I am that he CAN rest, that he's worried and busy and anxious, but not too worried to sleep. Because he needs to sleep. And it's a blessing that he can do that.
And I'll sit here and appreciate him and all he does because I can hear him snoring (and it keeps everyone else up at night unless he uses his mouth guard, which we all call his snore-teeth, and I know this because I listen and I pay attention and I love him).
And he might never know that I sit here and think of him and love him and all he does, how grateful I am that he takes care of me when I'm his oldest and I'm autistic, and I don't feel overwhelmingly bad about that but I do wish I could help more than I do. Not be so big of a burden as I am. But all I can do is let him sleep.
He might never know that I take the time to listen to him snore. Maybe one of those days when he's feeling horrible I'll show it to him and say "you are loved and I see you and I am grateful for everything you do, I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you." Maybe I'll make bits of this post into my Father's Day letter. I've been wondering what to do for that because I've been more vocal lately about how much I love him and sometimes it feels like there's nothing left to put in a Father's Day letter that wouldn't just be the same.
There's something special in just the same, though. Like listening to snoring. There's time. And when you're sitting in the middle of time, in the quiet and the dark and listening to snoring, and wondering when the next snore is gonna come, and contemplating life and love and time - well, I'm not doing anything else. And I'm not getting any younger. And maybe right now I can't mentally DO anything else. But I can do this.
I can contemplate my father, who is wise and loving and who pours himself out constantly, fill my mind with MY DAD instead of something else, because I love him.
I lied. My first thought wasn't "oh, that means he's sleeping." Well, it was subconscious. But right after, I thought, "I wish I had someone to love this way," meaning that I want to get married and have someone to love.
But I do have someone to love. I have my father. I can love him. I DO love him. And why am I pining for something I can't have, or worse, for someONE I can't have, when my lovely beautiful Dad is right there loving me in his sleep, in his waking, in his working, in his eating, in his thoughts, in his research, in his everything. I have him? Why do I need anyone else?
#Spend time thinking about the people you love#Even just start by making sure to look when they talk#Not eye-contact necessarily#But you don't need to be doing something else when he's talking#Don't need to give your attention to someone else if they interrupt#Don't need to interrupt yourself#Don't need to think about something else when he speaks#Look. Regard. Contemplate. Consciously give his words and opinions and thoughts the real weight that they deserve#Because you LOVE him#Or her#Your father or mother or best friend or sister or mentor or guide or#Whoever it is that's important to you#Your child your prayer partner your roleplay buddy your mutual#That's love#Not a feeling#Not an attraction#Not an emotion. Unless the emotion is this thing I feel listening to my Dad snore#Love is respect. Regard. Reverence. Attention#They're all the same thing#Can't you see it they're all the same#This is love#And love is love#You can show it to anyone anything anywhere anytime#Love is love#Start small. I started by making sure to listen when he spoke. I didn't know it'd turn into listening to him snoring with a smile on my fac#Love your beloveds#Asexual#Ace#Actually asexual#Pride
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Yo i really lovee your art so what do you thing about kiraboss? Or maybe another ship with kira?
Thank you much!
I don't like Kiraboss, mostly because I don't like Diavolo and find him to be a tedious character (I feel like he has traits similar to both DIO and Kira, but doesn't do anything better than them). I'm also an enormous pedant who finds it very hard to think up a satisfying way they could meet, let alone be lovers... and the similarities in their personalities bore me so much I don't want to try. One paranoid control freak with a huge ego is great fun, but two is a crowd, haha.
Let's see though, other Kira ships... Kira/Kosaku is a personal favorite, I like seeing how other people interpret Kosaku through the little handful of facts we get about him over the course of DiU. Kira/Jotaro is funny, and has lots of great potential for weirdness, humor, or horror, depending on the writer (what a crazy AO3 tag it has...). I also dipped a toe into one-sided Kira/Reimi for my last big fic, Care and Keeping, although that obviously only ends in tragedy. Still neat to think about, though! The fact that Kira doesn't remember the name of his very first murder victim just does something to me... if I ever felt like being nice to Kira, I could see an AU where he becomes study buddies with Reimi, possibly leading to a nicer outcome for everyone (or maybe Arnold just gets him, lmao).
Oh, and I've been seeing KiraPucci lately in the Kira tag, and because I adore Pucci, I think it's quite cute! I wonder how Pucci's martyr complex and desire to eliminate uncertainty in the world would mesh with Kira's hedonistic and selfish personality... there's also a tenuous connection through DIO, kind of an evil in-laws thing they have going on there.
I can't think of any other Kira ships, anybody else got some?
#my strongest diavolo opinion is that king crimson should have remained the 'face' of the boss#diavolo's first appearance when he's just a hideous angry shadow in a suit was his best look don't @ me#ask#thank you for the ask!#seriously though what are the youth into. who are we making kiss the nasty hand man.#i'm like one of those hermits who live on a mountain but the mountain is my big heap of kirashino art/fic
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