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I always feel a bit bad putting my Graha nonsense in the JB tag but after reading it today I guess anything with any slight link to him goes in there.
So can I go I think it's kinda nice to be told and see he liked Colin Ryan (Alphies English VA) recent Instagram post.
Like Colin had a *year* last year and only really came back to social media in the last month but he is always liking Jonny's posts now and then and it's just nice to two of them at least keep up with one another 13 or so years after Leoardo (if not seen each other via FFXIV dubbing). It's just nice surprise you know?
Like I always (I know I shouldn't) assumed that they may contact each other now and then away from social media and I never needed proof Jonathan probably knew what happened last year even if he didn't publicly make it known. But it's nice these two may still keep in contact - maybe not regularly as it once was but clearly do know what the other is up to.
Also. You know Bethan (whose in the photos) has just heard of this man as like a semi cryptid Colin spent two series/seasons of a kids show hanging out with and probably has heard some *stories*.
#jonathan bailey#graha tia#look it was kinda cute#like yay Jonny is staying with ffxiv maybe guess is nice and all but the fact its likely he texted colin like “how was America?” is nicer#im not putting it in the CR tag though#not needed#but yeah. Leoardo pals interacting sweet#i still need my ali and Graha meme one day#dawntrails dub must be in session or done soon as well#so yeah.#gonna put some happy stuff here
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some postgame doodles for pride month
#martzipan#komahina#hajime hinata#nagito komaeda#domestic kmhn likers pspspsps cmere#i never draw just fluff/domestic things bc i get too in my feelings lmao. this one was no exception#i had to take a break midway through bc i got sappy. IT'S OK THO we got it done :3#neways these tie into some headcanons of mine so i'm gonna share 'em here#mainly i hc them having little ways where they just look out for each other#komaeda is usually the only one who can convince hinata to take a goddamn break without having to forcefully drag him away from his work#bc hinata does NOT take enough breaks. and he does not listen to reason#until there is a komaeda who is tired and can't go to sleep without his human teddy bear :((( can't let him go to bed aloneeee#n i think hinata just. casually feeds komaeda ALL the time#bc he won't eat enough on his own. and if you offer him food he'll be inclined to see it as a nicety and try to reject it#but if you just. Put Food In Front Of His Mouth. he'll eat it#it's kind of a reflex like komaeda doesn't realize he's being fed most of the time#they take care of each other bc they won't take care of themselves otherwise lmao. it's a little dysfunctional but they're trying#i think once they've recovered enough to be able to just enjoy each other's company they get REALLY really giggly#they have a lot of teenage/young adult love stuff to catch up on and since they didn't really have a puppy love phase. they laugh a lot#they'll try to do something tender or sweet but then one of them will start to laugh. and then it's not long before the other breaks#komaeda usually breaks first. bc he's always in awe of just how happy he is. bc he never thought he COULD be this happy#not without hell looming just over the horizon anyways#when hinata breaks first it's bc he's thinking of how much they've both been through and put each other through#and he's just sort of like 'how the fuck did we end up here'#(btw komaeda snorts when he's trying not to laugh. this is just fact trust me)#OH AND I HAVE MANY HEADCANONS ABT THEIR SLEEP STUFFS#as stated hinata runs hot and komaeda runs cold. but ALSO#hinata's a sprawler. komaeda gets Clingy. it works out for them tho#if komaeda doesn't have hinata to hold like a body pillow he'll curl into the tightest little ball. it gives him back pain lmao#oh and yes. they absolutely wake up with their legs incredibly tangled together
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doing figure drawing studies because i know thats what i should be doing right now but also ive been in a very insane deranged state for the past 2 months that leaves me like this whenever i look at a man for too long
#talkys#im gonna say some more stuff here which is i dont think its ever going to happen for me which is like#it should be fine right...i dont think im even meant to be in a relationship it sounds exhausting and like another#constant neverending performance...#but its like that one post...''im happy by myself but also where's the love of my life''#ykwim...i wish i could at least make an informed decision#but that would also be tragic as it'd require me to go thru more heartbreak so i could know for certain#is it better to do it or not do it at all...#anyway ive also been having a hard time putting this into words#but. i like my alone time! i can live with myself. + nothing will ever beat the peace and romance in my brain#but. it also feels so weird to think this way. in the sense of like. yeah. you're only thinking this way because you Have To.#because that's your reality. other ppl don't have to think this way because they are capable of finding love.#other people dont have to reaffirm themself of this in the wake of not ever being desired and valued....#does that make sense...? it feels really weird.#like of course u have to like being alone and spending time with yourself. you have no other choice lol. you lost.#and also... idk. idealized romances in my brain better than anything maybe i would like to be held just once by another living human being.#🌺
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still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)
#alek insanity#not gonna main tag this but prepare for a tiny rant#home is actually really good zane characterization and its super cool to me how it holds up to this day#s1 characterization is very specific to me because the behaviors displayed by the ninja there (mostly) isnt bc thats how they really are but#its due to societal pressure. cole originally being more 'stone faced tough guy' -> 'down to earth' -> 'really sensible easy to talk to guy'#is because hes always been a sensitive guy... but he felt he couldnt express that true version of himself. thats the whole thing behind his#true potential. jay going from s1 -> s6 -> now is less of societal pressure and more teenager figuring himself out but it still applies. ish#seeing how much the ninja have changed or grown from then to now is amazing because back then they all wore masks. they didnt know each#other all that well. but theyve gained that comfortability with each other and also have grown and matured as people#some seasons / eps characterization for certain people im not a fan of (lloyds random misogyny arc in s13) but i mean the overall trend here#and then there is zane. zane in home was pretty dead on to how he behaves now (at least... when it comes to his faults?) and i dont want to#say people skim over that but i am the sf proclaimed n1 s1e2 fan and overthink every scene. zane's early characterization is some of my fav#for him period. he also goes through a ton of traumatic stuff and a ton of bad writing bouts but why he acts so 'weird' or 'distant' has#always been a thread sewn in. he changed so much he stayed the same in a way... if that makes sense. -> ohhh the ninja get mail and he#doesnt? oh he has no family? he quite literally walks away from that situation. oh the ninja are yelling in his face and asking whats wrong#with him? he literally walks away from that situation. he says its to follow the falcon but seeing how he apologized to them by not only#baking a ton of pies (cough... the food fight is what led to him leaving at first) but he also found them a whole entire new house.#zane is unable to truly value what he does for others. insert him in s11 saying he 'tried' to fufill his goal of protecting others.#everything he has ever done still isnt good enough. then the ninja tried to apologize and he didnt really... let them.#that one post about characters putting on facades and that facade being how people really see them. even in fandom. thats zane to me#the guy who lies about being upset and avoids his problems ran away after being yelled at? and he said he wasnt really mad? that is a lie!!#him being a ~360 when it comes to his character development is neat to me because he never hid behind a mask in the same way the others did#cole wanting to seem tough vs being really soft? kai wanting approval so bad he starts being selfish? kai isnt selfish usually!#he is self centered but that is a whole different thing. just wanting to fit in and breaking free of that. zane's true potential came in the#form of 'i finally know why i am not normal' instead of 'i will be my true self'. zane never pretended to not be weird#(instert book) states he literally didnt know why people got mad at him. he just existed and it was 'wrong'. the mask he hid behind was#avoidance. he was pretty open about how he actually was (most of the time). when he was upset he would audibly sigh and walk away lol#but for him saying he wasnt upset / saddened by the ninja... it felt like a moment of selflessness. if that makes sense. he blamed himself#for the monestary burning down. so he didnt deserve the apologies (ish) in the virtues of spinjitzu zane is shown as the generous one iirc#he puts the needs of others over his own. he will bear whatever burden he needs if others are happy. at that same time he doesnt allow
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obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog
Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️
Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D
#guys help is it time for a rebranding?? am I just gonna post about f1 now??#I still can’t believe this has all started because bestie and I were watching Ted Lasso (because I’ve been obsessed with that show for a#while now too) and I paused the episode to talk about how I really like the way Jamie interacts with kids (I’m sorry people being good with#and nice to kids is one of my weaknesses I work with kids now and have been invested in treating kids well forever)#so me saying that apparently reminded her of max and she showed me a video of him with p and yeah it was very effective in making me like#him and then we left the episode on pause and she told me a lot about f1 and max specifically cause I was interested now lmao (funny thing#is that she also got roped into it by our other friends I swear it’s speeding lmao#she also compared him to Jamie from Ted lasso (if you know you know) and showed me some heart wrenching Taylor swift edits (i haven’t#emotionally recovered yet) and yeah that’s how I started consuming way too much f1 content on YouTube and got into this whole mess lmao#oh yeah our friends also made me and another friend make a Tier list for all the drivers based on vibes alone (cause I only knew a bit about#max at that time and the other one knew nothing really) which was very funny too#especially looking back at it (we did some of them so dirty lmao 😂)#I’ve also come to the conclusion that tumblr is still one of the least annoying platforms to engage with other people (still)#YouTube is full of hate comments about drivers and stuff it’s so annoying actually#not to mention Twitter but I don’t go there and probably never will 😂#I personally don’t enjoy fics and scenarios and shipping of real people cause it makes me a bit uncomfy (not judging people who do#you do you as long as it doesn’t negatively affect anyone#but yeah I’d much rather just scroll by those here than have to look away from all the mindless hate and which driver is better discussions#everywhere else like I’m not one to engage with stuff like that but it does upset me to some#degree so yeah tumblr making memes and being rather positive about their drivers (most of what I’ve seen here of course there are gonna be#annoying people everywhere) is much more tolerable and a lot more enjoyable for me#whoops this post got away from me again oh dear#I’ve had the idea for a meme stuck in my head for days now: Max verstappen but make it if you don’t love me at my *swearing on team radio#giving spicy replies and attitude to the media maxplaining and complaining going for risky overtakes* you don’t deserve me at my *precious#interactions with p talking about his cats being a goofball with other drivers and especially danny defending other drivers driving#beautifully in the rain* it’s a package deal you can’t just pick and choose and personally I don’t even get why people complain about some#of the other stuff I appreciate someone who’s passionate and honest and genuinely kind where it matters 🤷🏻♀️#I think I’ve seen someone else say that but the more people complain about and criticize max the more I feel the need to defend him#god forbid women have hobbies for real (can’t believe I’ve yapped so much I can’t put more tags 💀)#also shoutout to Oscar Piastri and Danny Ric (I was so happy Oscar won even tho McLaren where being very silly in a not so funny way)
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i wish food didn’t control me as much as it did :(
#i just ate a salad but i feel like it was too much bc the dressing was olive oil based so…. :(#and i put cheese and other fattening things on it#and then i got a package from my mom for my birthday and she sent me chocolate and it just made me sad#i feel so alone :( i can’t find a way to talk to anyone about this#i’ve had friends express concern but i’m not underweight actually i gained weight since i started dating someone#and i’m not gonna cry about it to HER all the time this is my own shit to deal with#i just have such an unhealthy relationship with food and it always gets worse in the summer#i just feel really alone and i wish i could talk to someone without making them uncomfortable or putting too much on them#the obvious answer is to go to therapy but i live in a rural area in a country where i am not fluent in the language#and thinness is very highly valued here anyway so :(#what’s the point of anything….#i’m sorry i should be happy and grateful my parents sent me some birthday stuff but it just made me sad. i can’t even eat it
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firstly, when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) ✨
omg thank you sparklez asks are so fun
i like having strong emotions !!!!!!!!!! it can get to a point where it feels kinda painful but overall im really passionate about stuff i care about and i like that
i like being queer !!!!!! took me a while to figure it out (especially being arospec) but it's super important to me and i can't imagine a world where im NOT queer
the color of my eyes !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i used to really not like them bc i wanted them to be lighter but trying to connect more with my culture has made me like it bc other people like me have those kinds of eyes !!!!!!!!! its pretty cool they kinda blend in with my pupil but when the light hits it its like a surprise reveal that they are actually brown and its not just that i only have a pupil no iris lol
my hair!!!!! it's really thick and i've been taking care of it so it's gotten more wavy/curly and i really like that it's nice to maintain it i like the routine and the way it looks after a shower
it can be kind of a curse but i like that i know things about myself like mostly knowing my limits. knowing what i can handle at the moment when looking for like trigger warnings on books i was looking to read, knowing that when im feeling anxious about something it'll go away at this point because thats what always happens, etc. it makes it way easier to deal with stuff knowing what i need and being aware of whats happening in my brain
#crunchyasks#sparklez#im gonna attempt to send it to a couple of people ????? idk who though lol#this isnt something that really relates to the ask but i did a book analysis and my teacher said my analyses were insightful and that made#me happy#i wouldnt say im super good at analyzing thigns atm so i wouldnt put it here but it made me happy when i saw my grade#vibes#i dont relaly think about this stuff often so this was nice#took me a while to come up with some stuff but just nice to think about parts of mysekf i actually like
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Tbh I should probably take a break. I almost definitely won't but I should, yknow
#idk i don't have much 'real stuff' happening irl besides like. job hunting and college applications. so it's hard#but i think if i at least ease off some time on here n read a little more n watch more movies i might start to feel better#haven't really liked where my head's been at lately it feels like whatever persona is The One Who Blogs is 'taking over' more#to put it in a very dorky comic book-sounding ass way LMAO but that's how i feel! like i'm losing my own 'voice' yknow#my mental health is Bad my physical health is also Not Great n i kinda feel like ass. if i'm being honest#idk i feel like i'm crashing from whatever high i've been on for the past couple of days n i'm not Really super happy w myself#except the media literacy posts those were good. but like the more discoursey stuff i'm not proud of#again sorry to like. publicly vent LMAO i'll be fine i'm good. i'm trying really hard to pull myself out of this#but again. sorry abt the Shite i was posting earlier today i wasn't really in my own right head#just kinda wanted 2 get all that off my chest idk if it's clear that i don't really have anyone i feel like i can talk to right this moment#i'm very socially isolated irl and i'm so scared of becoming socially isolated online too just bc i'm an idiot who doesn't think b4 he post#NOT to make it sound all about me or whatever but it's true. i'm very very scared of losing people n right now this is My Space#i'd forgotten just how bad it felt. in this Specific case it is kinda my fault tho LMAO don't worry i've apologized as best i know how#okay i'm done. i'm done. i'm gonna go watch tv and go to bed i hope#open mick night
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finally sat down and found a theme i'm into so i'm going to FINALLY make real effort to revamp this blog now. i have a concept in mind and i'm going to see how i can make it work <33
#« 𝐂𝐎𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐂 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 (ᴏᴏᴄ) » / 「 ooc. 」#it's my own fault for putting that barrier in my mind of 'ur not gonna be active here until u redo everything'#but here we are. it's gonna be happening soon enough ASDFGH#i had a creative block re:graphics and i ultimately decided i don't wanna do my own theme from scratch rn#so i'm happy with what i'm doing#gonna try and work on some extremely old drafts#no pressure to keep any of them i just wanna get stuff done ASDFG
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Today marks 10 years since I first really stepped into the Eddsworld fandom and went through an event with it.
But it also happened to be first anniversary of its creator's passing. This year marks the 10th.
I figured 13 year old me wouldn't want to feel alone in that moment, so I made this to join her and go through the flow together.
Without Edd and Eddsworld, I don't think I would've had that accessible foundation, can-do mindset and enthusiastic influence, admiration and desire to animate and make stories of my own. I was a year too late when I first entered into the fandom and heard about it, but these past 10 years taught me it's never too late to make an impact and tell your tales - no matter how long they'll take.
Thank you Edd Gould. For everything.
#chris rambles#my creations#i sobbed a lot while making this and dealing with CSP crashing a few times during progress#long post#Edd Gould really did say to a friend that last set of green lines if you hit the readmore#it doesn't feel right to tag the fandom this time#EDIT: okay so i've got myself to cry a little more and put myself together#and boy howdy i understand now what it means when an emotional overload impedes your communication#(is annoyed at spelling+grammar mistakes in-comic and description but no i'm not gonna change it)#my god this fandom had both the best of times and worst of times - moreso fandom troubles than personal but still#fun fact: i got to meet a good bunch of the EWFM crew back in the day through the years and some are still good friends of mine#(this is when things were FINE and NOT WEIRD i'm talking early-mid 2010's here people)#some are moreso acquaintances and most just drifted away (that's fair!)#only one of them i know for a fact either one of us would take a bullet for the other (and if you're curious he was a lead role VA)#(won't say who for privacy but listen. A. if you're reading this: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I AM SO GLAD WE ARE FRIENDS)#yeah the friendship goes that deep and he makes me happy to say that I'm his friend#(he's also the only one of all the online friends i've mailed and penpaled to - who has sent stuff back. Nobody else but him.)#i need to chill now my goodness#there's so much ahead of me now bc of what my time in Eddsworld gave and I'm so so grateful <3
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also i can finally look at tumblr lol i didnt wanna get spoiled on the show and setlist and ykno what im super glad i wasnt
excited and also ScaredTM to see soundcheck this weekend
#so much unexpected stuff lmfao i knew about very few songs they were gonna play and in terms of stage production i was only aware o the dice#and some confetti i guess but yea most of it was just a really neat surprise#spoilers for 5sos show setlist incoming but#i cant believe they didnt play no shame. i wont ever forgive them for that#easier is still fucking Here but not no shame???#overall i was pleasantly surprised by the setlist but i think with perspective a couple choices have me personally bummed out#from my own preferences#like. no shame and complete mess were MissedTM#and with that perspective. i coulda done without outerspace I KNOW unpopular opinion#it was a surprise BUT honestly for me. it was not a good one LOL#id fully expected to have put that song behind them after the rah tfofu concert#but i guess it was less an honorable goodbye as much as a re introduction of it idk#i was really happy to see a bunch of songs coming back tho! gives me hope for any eventual future concerts that no shame will be back#YES i have a one track mind LISTEN. it is my Favorite and it deserves Better#ok i have rambled enough. these are my hot takes i have a couple more but i do wanna reiterate im overall really fcking happy abt it all lol#just bitter that they would play fuckcing Dont Stop but not NO SHAME IN 2023!!!!! SHAMEFUL#anyways the show itself was so fucking fun goodbye#teresa.txt
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i got some pretty jasper slabs, i got some free fossils (agatized gastropod shells), and i’m getting some cool new piercings today! good day! :-)
#the lapidary i bought the slabs from has a customer for life fr even before they gave me the free fossils#they refunded me shipping bc it double charges when u buy something and the seller puts everything together n refunds the excess and DAMN#that is a rare thing for a seller to do fr#AND it got here in under a week? AND it came with free fossils???? coastal lapidary u are my best friend i love u#excited for the piercings too#finally getting that conch i've been wanting! and some more lobe piercings#also baking a tiramisu layer cake today#technically it's gonna b a brown butter tiramisu cake w/ amaretto#:-) so happy abt my rocks#i need to make some cool frames for my slabs and hang them up#personal stuff
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so sweaty at work its actually revolting
#ambient in my lab is 30c at the mo..its abt 26 in the main lab but i have a smaller/less ventilated space#and i had a water bath on at 90c + incubator 55c. cant use a fan bc im working with respiratory sensitisers so dust inhalation risk#AND full ppe (long sleeve trousers closed toe shoes thick full length long sleeve labcoat p6 mask goggles hairnet nitrile gloves)#fortunately im done with the hands on stuff for the next 2 hours so i can prop the door open and put the fan on now#but when i took my ppe off my shirt was straight up fucking wet. not even just underarm sweat patches but the front + back too. YUCK!#good thing i anticipated this + picked out a v light/breathable outfit today but really i shouldve brought a whole change of clothes#and still no word abt when theyre putting the fucking aircon on. they said it MIGHT be later this week but no promises#not that itd help in my lab bc they didnt install a unit in there anyway..... we dont have the spaaaace#ik the reason theyve been so reluctant to install aircon is bc they have a new plot where theyre gonna remodel + build a new lab#so like in idk 2 yrs time this lab will be shut down and if im still working w them ill get a big shiny new application lab. WITH air con#separate from the main lab + installed w all the equipment we actually need so i dont have to run between both labs and canteen constantly#but whether ill still be here in 2 years... well its a big if. pay + benefits r good + i like the work + generally good environment#but there are many other labs in the world... some of which probably already have air con. and id like to work w plants again eventually#cuz my degree was in biology specialising in plant sci. not food/biochem (<- industry im in rn)#anyway. at least its taken my mind off how tired i am..... im gonna take a snack + water break and then i have some admin to do#happy wet beast wednesday everyone#.diaries
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Once again wishing I liked the books more.
#maybe I should try rereading them?#idk. like...the character work is good. and I think there IS some stuff that hits harder because we get the characters' internal monologues#but the WAY this man writes. like with words.........not for me. like REALLY not for me.#the use of language and background lore does NOT make my brain happy and it made reading these a miserable experience#like I GET why people like them. they just do not mesh well with me unfortunately 😭#so when people say 'he's gonna do xyz better in the books' my knee-jerk reaction is always ' but IS he?'#also I'm...not sure he won't make [redacted] end up together which is a relatively petty complaint but I DO think it would be antithetical#to both characters. and I genuinely doubt he can sell me on [redacted] if the show didn't#and this isn't to say the show is without flaws but it DOES get lonely trying to generally defend the character arcs#there's basically no fandom anymore and people are pivoting to the books to 'save' the show's flaws and I just simply do not have faith that#they will do that#and this probably doesn't mean much coming from a season 8 apologist lol. like that really is the point where most people#stop putting any stock in what I have to say. but alas this is my blog and I am honor-bound to put all of my rambling thoughts on here.
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#tag talk#I'm in the “high social energy” and “high tolerance for the new and unknown” phase of my mood swing so let's fuckin gooooo#feeling super good but I don't think I'm manic yet. Just really confident and happy. hence all the house cleaning and replying I've been#been doing to any of the loose ends on here.#listened to new music which usually I don't because new stuff is exhausting to comprehend to my poor autistic brain but I'm good for now.#played some minecraft with an old friend. gonna be productive today. hopefully get my taxes done even though I'm out of adhd meds#I requested the refill on my meds that I've been putting off for a few days.#got a therapist appointment in two days with the therapist I really like and trust.#and I'm past my depressive phase! I can go clean the kitchen and eat good food and work out and go for a walk with my brother later today#and idk I go through so many dark tunnels but coming out the other side always feels so fucking incredible#I wish I didn't have to go through so many dark tunnels but I'll make it work I'll find a flashlight or something idfk
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one thing about marches is like. the people in said march if you listen into convos half of them will be like a little dick sucky to themselves
#personal#like i get it it’s weird to be marching#it’s weird to be doing anything with palestine constantly on ur mind#like it’s just weird. everything is weird when you remember palestine#i wanna rip out my hair bc i feel so panicky just thinking#but anyway yes i sympathize it is weird to do anything but especially march#and then see people just. laugh or not care or even get angry#the biggest disconnect is just people who don’t care either way and it’s just like. okay….. about everything#but then i’ll hear people talk about how#i’m not even sure they’ll put down people not out with us which okay i get it#but then will hype themselves up and keep going#and like ur out here that’s great not gonna nit pick motivation a body’s a body when trying to present a united front in my city for this#but it’s like are you here bc there’s a genocide and it’s killing you or like some social captiol#and like taking selfies or photos isn’t bad this war has mainly been broadcasted through our phones#and vocal visible support is great but again like what is ur motavtion to to some degree#ultimately i’m happy that people are there and i’m not gonna complain about more bodies or assume i know someone from a convo i heard#but some of the stuff i see and hear does leave me with a bit of a bad taste for the moment at least
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