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I’m just having one of those days…
(crying over a man I never met because I miss him)
#forgive me while I rant#does anyone else have friends or family that tease you over your love for elvis#I got randomly really emotional and sad on a car ride home last night#we were driving by the beach and it reminded me of his last vacation to hawaii in ‘77#and it made me think about how he passed away so young#how he was stripped of all the little joys life has to offer#like swimming in the ocean#feeling the breeze#relaxing in the sun#almost everyone in his group got to grow old and experience a lifetime of all the little things like that#but he didn’t#it’s just so unfair#and yeah then my whole family teased me and played unchained melody to purposely make me more upset#I know it seems dumb to some people to cry over someone you never met#but I just feel so sad for elvis#I know he had an amazing life and career but he deserved to enjoy it longer#I’ll miss him forever#personal rant#elvis presley#elvisaaronpresley#elvis#elvis fans#elvis photos#i love him
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And some days, I just wish you wouldn't look at me at all.
#ffxiv#sketch#wol#meteor survivor#zenos yae galvus#adventurer zenos#oh no#its the consequences of his actions#everything is fine until the only man on the star you care about looks at you with the same contempt your father did#(Meteor's not doing it intentionally- its a reflex after he comes back for quite a bit)#and zenos is getting bodied because its been a while since... you know... him being able to really feel anything at all#and no- its not him regretting anything that had to do with varis- just him regretting the thought meteor could look at him like that#little does Meteor know he's emotionally bodying the man he's trying to be cordial with#its a little okay because in how I write adventurer zenos this serves as one of his main wake-up calls to make some changes#and realizing both the mistakes he's made with meteor and that meteor hating him in any way is actually -not at all- what he wants#but not okay on the end that every time meteor does this he has to watch zenos actively dissociate right in front of him#until zenos just kinda autopilots and walks away#the second time (or perhaps third) in the last 11 years that zenos has felt regret to any major capacity-#on meteor's end I just enjoy seeing the progression of the WoL through subtext#and why meteor is willing to even entertain the idea despite how much he hates zenos- his decisions and the path he's walked#is the realization that there is high chance that he could actually be a direct catalyst for zenos' growth#and the realization the wol has that they were the only one zenos has ever genuinely reached out to#besides- i just like the idea of having your equal other half fighting back to back with you- or being able to handle threats you cant#and i find their dynamic neat- of meteor not forgiving zenos but giving him his last chance- and growing to enjoy being around him#and zenos being able to work on moving past being the weapon or the monster- finding the connections he's longed for#and giving himself purpose to finally truly just live- for him to learn to experience and have the freedom to find what he enjoys#(and curiously him having estinien's brand of accidently helping people even in StB gives me ideas...)#but enough tag ranting- ill get to zenos' actual adventuring in another post lol
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just imagine charlie being the only other character in the hotel to understand Alastor's sayings and gripes about the modern world. She's even older than he is, those two could have so much to talk about. I'm still fairly young but I have plenty of gripes about the modern world, I just know those two old ladies could find something to share lol.
I adore Charlie and Alastor as characters, and I adore your art! All of your art is damn cute to me, it's great! I need more of charlie and alastor interacting and being silly in my life, romantic or platonic doesn't matter to me lmao.
You are just like me for real 😭 when the pilot came out I was so intrigued with Alastor and Charlie they immediately clicked for me and became my favourite pair of the show (tho now that the first season is out all of Alastor's other relationships stole my heart lmao but I still love them a lot) the "big bad villain who initially wanted to manipulate the sunshine character ends up accidently getting attached to them" trope is like one of my favourite tropes ever and they have the potential to become just that so I'm really invested in what their storyline will be I'M SO EXCITED
AND YEAH the fact that the hotel was already so has-been looking before Alastor showed up makes me think Charlie is similar to him, she's more up to date than him regarding new technologies ofc but I just know my girl loves vintage stuff ahah
(Also I want them to have a duo song in the next seasons SO BAD no offense to Heaven 2 Hell I love this song but I need something new it's been 4 years lol)
#ask#answered#hazbin hotel#hazbin alastor#charlie morningstar#charlastor#<- as like the weird platonic thing they have going on#I could rant about them like a rabbid madman for hours idk if I'll ever make post about them but it's fascinating to me#LIKE they have a positive influence on each other while also being unhealthy because of Alastor's whole manipulation plan??#but they also get along well and trust each other a lot and believing in each other's potential but also there's something sinister going on#IT'S SO GOOD SO INTERESTING AAAAAHHH HELP ME#I'M SORRY FOR HOW LONG IT TOOK ME TOO ANSWER FORGIVE MEEEE#I originally wanted to draw smth for it but couldnt find the motivation and I felt bad about taking that long-#sorry for being so late with the asks in general ajajaj
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one of these days i need the full story of your dnd mishap
😭😭😭 please
the short story is our party had three people (2 players + DM) who thought we were playing a fun friendly magical campaign and two people who wanted to recreate a critical role campaign amongst themselves...i think if youre familiar w cr you might immediately see the issue there.
long story is people put WAY way too much personal shit into their characters and almost immediately started taking the actions of characters as genuine irl slights and like. two sessions in had already lost sight of the difference between the pc and the player.
oh shit this got really long im sorry i dont think you care This much but i havent thought about it in a while and it bewilders me every time-
SO i was playing a cunty rogue and had TOLD everyone 'hey she is probably gonna clash w the party at first, but she'll warm up to everyone really fast, so dont worry about that' like it was clearly in the spirit of building a realistic character who had her own hangups etc. which i assumed the others would understand bc they'd done the same. plus is it not boring and unreal asf if a bunch of strangers meet after a murder of someone close to them and all just get along immediately w no suspicions or secrecy? cmon man.
and yet. the two cr-people got really weird about my pirate character stealing (???) and sincerely pulled the dm aside to express their concerns about the 'level of violence being enacted' and asked that we all try to be aware of what class of people we did crimes against. like. they wanted me to stop stealing from the 99% and ask everyone if they were rich before i picked their pocket ig. ALL THE WHILE. ONE OF THE OFFENDING PCS WAS IN THE MAFIA?????? LIKE. DIRECTLY EMBEDDED IN THE MAFIA THAT RAN THE TOWN.
i suppose that pc was off the hook bc he did possess the elf cock that the other guy wanted so bad, so. love won. i guess.
anyway they ended up taking hours out of our sessions to just dialogue-rp about slowly falling in love in a complex way or something. except then the non-elf player was like 'actually, dm, can you give me a love interest npc i need to add more depth to my character.' or smth, to which our dm lovingly crafted a beautiful working class hero of a guy. which the pc proceeded to hard reject. what was the point of any of this? we may never know<3
need to be clear as well this was all happening over discord bc we all live in different timezones, my very close friend was up at 2AM for this bullshit every week. AND he didnt even KNOW these other people very well, but suddenly theyre finding fault w not just his character but him as a PERSON? i just rmrd they accused him of like.....negatively influencing me??? like. MORALLY???? brother we have been friends for 10 years you are nothing to us you dont know us like that lol.
but they did REALLY really hate my character, which eventually made me feel like shit all the time bc like. obviously im putting work into her, its a creative construction and to have it railed against that badly is not fun. so i said ok you know what, ill just make a new character, hopefully thatll keep the peace and we can salvage this.
so i pitch a new character and oh they LOVE her. they fucking love her concept. which was so.........the first character was a lot easier for me to play bc she was a little more like me, and this character was specifically the opposite....how am i meant to take that reaction, yknow
which also reminds me: the original pirate rogue i played was a tiefling (yeah yeah gay stereotype i know. im not subtle or original, whatever) and there was a complaint (made only half-jokingly, ykwim) that she was too white.
shes not even HUMAN what the fuck do you mean shes too WHITE. IM not white that should imbue any character i create w an inherent not-whiteness. but even still, again, she is half sea creature. shes not. human. to be assigned a race like that....hello??
anyway so these two cr-rp players eventually blocked me and my friend on tumblr without saying anything, and got confused when we found out and said 'yeah ok we dont wanna play dnd with some guy who has blocked us on other social media' as if WE were the weirdos. like they saw no problem w continuing this disastrous campaign as long as they got their mandatory monologue time.
the worst part is my dm made SUCH a stunning campaign and world and it was so so so fun outside of this mess, i still feel really bad they never got to realise the world fully. plus my character had a sickass backstory thing where she was like. slowly unlocking latent magic the longer she spent underwater bc her demon parent was abyssal and stuff. which is whatever but the sick part is she was developing SCALES and maybe GILLS. in like a nasty gorey way it was gonna be so cool. but noooo lets talk about strange morality and your lameass god for 1.5 hrs. at 11pm on a friday.
#ask#anonymous#sorry i will just never be over this#im a super evolved mellow person now but i will never ever ever forgive or forget this shit#im not even covering half of it i dont think and i def dont think this is coherent#but its fun to rant like a lunatic sometimes#anyway nyx you will always be famous baby!! they could never make me hate you!!! wild magic sorcerer cuntress<3#also to be so fair. i came into it w a bit of a bias against one of the pcs bc i hate warlocks fredhjcnkdsc#UNLESS youre doing smth funny w them idgaf about a warlock boo hoo you had to buy your magic. loser#but whatever it was a fucking mess. and i was still a people pleaser back then so i really tried hard to make my pc fit and be liked#which was lame in hindsight she should have torn them apart gfhdvjncx#edit: oh and the dmpc lay down after a meal at a campfire while we were travelling and i as an annoying ass player said#'dm your npc is going to get reflux if she lies down right after a meal' and my dm said 'can you shut up for 5 seconds ever?' and i said#'ok but if she is too sick to fight later dont blame me!' and the dm rolled for reflux#guess what happened to the npc.
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man while i understand it im so tired of the attitude of "if you dont think critically of every media you like ever and if you like stuff you cant think critically about youre stupid" mentality. its so prevalent just about everywhere i go online, youd forget that its an insanely online take
#i think about that rant about cyberpunk 2077 that went around a little#where they were like 'why did everyone just forgive cd projekt red for the broken state of the game after edgerunners???'#and its like. because babe most people playing cyberpunk 2077 are bethesda rpg fans. an extremely casual#'i wanna turn my brain off for my one free hour of games after work' type people#in the modern gaming landscape cyberpunk is like. fine. all the critiques ive seen of it are just things that can be lobbed at bethesda rpgs#and theres a massive market for those#there are still people who enjoy fucking starfield man idk what to tell you. people like games where you dont have to think#like. no. most people who enjoy these games arent single celled organisms too stupid to do anything but support the awful scammy dev studio#theyre usually just people who wanna live out a power fantasy#the yes man route in new vegas is so popular!!! for a reason!!!!#its literally the 'have fun and dont think too hard about your actions' run. everyone views it as themselves saving the wasteland#idk. this is a long rant its just been grinding my gears recently#like. broken games are fun. im sorry everyone shitting on gollum was one of the best online experiences ive had in a while#like fuck dude you dont see me shitting on everyone who plays mmos as mindless zombies who are too stupid to think#just because i view mmos as below myself#you are not better than a skyrim fan because you can see the writing flaws. i can guarantee they see them too and just dont care#because skyrim is fun. sorry. it is fun its an addicting game for a reason#rant
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Thinking about the fact that Knives loved western movies as a kid and liked the idea of gunslingers and how after the crash he took the gun from a man he killed and gave it to vash, not only because he wanted his brother to protect himself and join him in killing humans, but because he thought gunslingers were cool. He gave Vash a gun cause he thought having his brother be a gunslinger on a desert planet would be cool. Just like a western movie.
Im dying
#trigun stampede#millions knives#vash the stampede#im just gonna go lie on the floor and cry for a while again#kni at the ripe old age of maybe 7 years old:#my names going to be millions knives#and my brother is going to be a cool gunslinger#and were going to protect our people and kill all of humanity!#im sobbing#on one hand i can see why vash would still so readily forgive him despite the things hes done that alot of ppl would find irredeemable#but also. kni has already been so blindingly consumed by his fear fuled rage#that hes come full circle and doesnt realize hes committed the very same acts he condemns humans for doing to plants#on the very people he was trying to protect#his brother and all the remaining dependent plants#and i personally think the way he went about it was so much more unforgivable and horrific#cause what the ever loving FUCK that was in episode 11 makes me want to puke#and in the beginning of episode 12 i actually almost did#i didnt mean to start ranting in the tags i just have FEELINGS#trigun stampede spoilers
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I'm moody and grumpy and sick so I'm going to be a freak about writing for a bit.
I fucking love writing PEOPLE. like as a whole. I love writing little imperfect messy living moments. People aren't perfect. Never will be. Never SHOULD be. And I fucking LOVE writing that. Even the "unnecessary details" feel necessary to me because they're HUMAN.
Spilling food on yourself. Getting food stuck in your teeth and maybe making funny faces while you're trying to get it out. Mentioning a silly moment from their youth in teasing. A disagreement. Putting on clothes and getting your arm stuck in your sleeve at first. "Ugly laughter". Losing your train of thought and saying nonsense while snapping fingers to try and get your thoughts back. Hugging someone taller than you and maybe having to change how you stand to fit together. Accidentally stepping on someone's foot. Bedhead, fixing someone's clothes, double chins, clumsy moments, Shifting, fidgeting, having someone mimic another's voice to make someone laugh, LIVING THINGS lksjdf ldskjf THINGS THAT MAKE US HUMAN!!!
And like?? A small thing, as I said I love just writing PEOPLE. But I see posts sometimes about how people "have a hard time writing women" and I'm just sitting here like??? "She's a person?? You've met another person before, right? Write the same way." and just get boggled and even, I don't know, disappointed? Even if she's not part of the main "cast" have her be, idk human?? Not just cardboard you know?? Don't "girlboss" her but also just?? simply have her have life!
Or then I've seen people literally admit "Well with canon there's not much to work with the women" WELL THEN MAKE STUFF UP!!! Use your big brain and have headcanons for her! See the potential she already has and fly with it!!! :D
How many times has she spilled food on her clothes and groaned because it's her favorite? How many times has she had snarled hair? She's probably had something in her eye at some point. She's probably tripped and skinned her knee once or twice. Does she swear? How would she react in this situation?
And sometimes I'll see people use history as an excuse or whatever but like??? Even IF systematically women weren't treated well, that wasn't the rule for ALL. For example, in the USA, Women usually couldn't go out in public in pants during certain periods. Yet I have photos of family from the 1930s where there are women in pants. Little girls and their mothers literally using a two-person saw and on the farm in pants. Just because the system is sexist doesn't mean that men in women's lives always enforce it. Just like nowadays. Reproductive rights. That's systematic. Daily life? I feel plenty safe with a lot of regular ass dudes. SAME BACK THEN MOST LIKELY!!!
Idk y'all. I'm just... disappointed by how many times I come across this type of stuff :/
#I wrote this a while ago but I saw another post about how it's hard to write women and I'm mad.#I'm sick as well so yeah. woe be upon ye#It's... just...SO important to me that I write women as more than just a “caregiver” role you know?#If she IS a mother and wife and that's ALL you have her doing??? I'm MAD#I've seen that WAY too often >:( I'm writing a sickfic right now. and it made me realize how few fics have the MEN taking care of women#it's not bad!!! It's just something I've noticed. adn it makes me sad. just a lil bit.#Mad rambles#rant#vent#sldkfj dskf#it's funny because I'm literally like. “What are her goals?” get it all down and it's a bunch of stuff. His goals? “WIFE”.#I'm joking but you know#I didn't bring up gnc folks because that's a completely different discussion. Still important but I'm venting about a specific#post. >:(#also I'm sleepy and being crabby. Please forgive me
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idk but saying jennifer lynn barnes sucks at writing romance because your ship wasn't canon is beyond hilarious to me like okay???? HAHHAHAHA. everyone has their own preferences of course but the vehement hatred for jlb and the belittlement of her writing on booktok and bookstagram (sometimes on here) has been ASTOUNDING.
a note about the "poorly done romance/love triangle" in tig: jlb never said it was going to be "even". no one ever said that. personally pioneering the idea that one character was "not given a chance" does not make it a poorly written love triangle or a poorly written romance. in love triangles, there is usually ALWAYS one option who is simply NOT a real option. look me in the eye and tell me characters jeremiah fisher, aspen in the selection series, gale hawthorne, adam kent, jacob black, and i'm sorry but grayson hawthorne amongst a myriad of others were actual contenders for the main character. if you believed they are/wanted them to be, that's great! but all of these characters are in well known love triangles and at the end of the day, books with love triangles WILL sell because they generate conversation and hype around the book. it is a marketing tactic and you are NEVER promised equal opportunity from both love interests. you losing the love triangle or that you believe there is wasted potential doesn't mean bad writing has occurred. also, for the love of god, while you are supposed to relate to a character, you are not the main character!! belly, america, katniss, juliette, avery, what have you, all chose based on who they are as characters. and also, female characters don't have to "experience" both love interests to make a decision. if they want to, that's totally fine, but specifically about avery bc this is what this blog is all about, she absolutely knows what she's "missing out" on with grayson and she doesn't care. shipping averygrayson just blatantly feels like ignoring avery's wants and needs.
anyway, if you want to call jlb's writing poorly done bc you didn't get your way, that's totally fine. you are entitled to your own opinion. it's just funny that you say that bc had grayson and avery been randomly thrown together in the epilogue of tfg or something, i have a feeling you wouldn't be of this opinion.
tldr; love triangles are a marketing tactic and you are neither entitled to a win nor is is poorly done/executed if you lose. love triangles, more often than not, have a clear winner from the beginning (coughcough "see? you're already his") but the debate and drama of another character sells the book.
#the inheritance games#oh god the love triangle discourse is so tiring does it not get OLD????#averyjameson#avery grambs#avery kylie grambs#jennifer lynn barnes#been a while since i went on a rant#tig#if you disagree idrc bc im not trying to convince you that you can't think something is poorly written#averygrayson#anyway! miss you guys#can't wait for the brothers hawthorne!!!!#i think she's a genius romance writer bc im rr tig and she sprinkles in these moments from the very beginning and wow#she has such a big brain#god booktok is annoying and the comments on jlb's insta posts are so??????#like imagine the amount of “how dare you not make ag endgame” comments she's gotten (by the same people every post but still) is so weird#“how are you” “what were you thinking” “it was a love triangle and grayson was the right option i'm not reading you books anymore” LOL#or “how are you not let gray be endgame/have avery/be happy” hm avery isn't a prize and gray doesn't let himself be happy hope that helps!#i thought the sad/chronically unhappy thing was y'all's brand for him but suddenly when he doesn't flip a switch and be :D y'all hate it??#him forgiving himself at the end and letting himself feel was HUGE like ?? ive digressed but tell me you dont understand him w/o telling me
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUDOU SHINICHI!!
So as a detco fan for uhhh about four years now, I had this thought about how... ordinary Shinichi is in detco universe where Japan had a bunch of genius teens and adults. Beika alone have Shinichi and Yuusaku, Sera and Mary, Amuro, Akai, Jodie, then we have those in other part of Japan like Heiji and Heizo, Kaito, Hakuba, and other competent officers outside of TMPD. Hundreds of new chapters in detco, everytime new characters were introduced, most of them were more intelligent than the average people. I've come to wonder why Shinichi was such a Big Deal. Why he's the Great Detective and saviour of the police? Lots of other people could have achieve that title, so does Shinichi only got there first because he's a detective nerd? The one who cannot get enough of deducing things? The one who have connection to police and thus can squeeze their way into most investigations?
Then I had this new thing in my life that is quite familiar to detective work (seriously they have all these cases and interrogation stuff going on) . At first I was excited to dive into it because it really is a similar setting to detco minus the crimes and murder, but then.... I got tired of it. I got bored, and most of the time came up blank even with all the clues in front of me because I'm so tired of it. There's also the fact that there is sooo many cases coming in and every one of them is different and certainly does not follow the textbook rules. There's also the knowledge that if we got to the wrong conclusion we will literally ruin someone's life and... Isn't that the most depressing thought? Everyone's pressuring you and you cannot fault them because it is a big responsibility.
So I guess now I understand why detco can have hundreds of geniuses but only one Heisei Holmes. Only one Kudou Shinichi. Because he's the one who put his heart into it. The one who have passion for the one truth. The one that got his ass kicked by that very same passion yet still pick himself up and continue to pursue his goal to put all criminals behind bars. The one that knows full well of the weight of his words and thus put so much care into it. The one that truly cares about every single person around him instead of seeing them as mere pieces in a puzzle (at least for this one, he learn it throughout the journey).
Most of the brilliant characters in DC can be a good and competent detective. Some of them already are. Most of them have kind hearts and don't want random people to be wrongfully accused. But intelligence and kindness alone are not enough to be a great detective because it's not just about piecing together puzzle or solving a code. You still have to interrogate people that don't want to be interrogated, talk to people with emotions ranging from devastated to murderous, with a certain time limit or else the evidences will disappear either naturally or planned. Isn't it stressful? Top it with the whole being-in-the-same-room-with-a-murderer... It's certainly hard to find anyone that will happily put themselves in those situations because if I were to be the smartest person in the world I sure would find better things to do.
#Yeayy Shinichi's appreciation post!#Forgive me I cannot draw I can only rant so happy birthday to my favourite boy!!#Seriously I'm in this state where I'm desperate to have Shinichi's intelligence. Life is hard and my brain not fast enough to catch up#Now that I think about is Shinichi a genius or just a diligent student?#That's possible because he can read all Sherlock Holmes book multiple time while I cannot#There's some book I can read but not fast and I think I forgot most details#Too bad so sad I guess I will just lie down in this pool of dissapointment and admire Shinichi from under here#Lol I'm kidding I'm not that depressed. Anyway I know most of this rant is stupid-#-but I love my smart boy and having all these new detectives make me feel like he's not that special anymore that's why#Kudou Shinichi#Detective Conan#This is quite rushed and English is certainly not my first language so pardon me#Long post
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Forever crazy to me when people write characters who have canonically (or semi-canonically in Legends) struggled with the Dark side brush Anakin off as a lost cause. Obviously in order to return to the Light you have to want to, I do get that and the characters are likely going to know that, too. But it's just so disingenuous to me when people have these characters be unforgiving and skeptical, ignoring that character's past and experiences. I'm not sure if it's just a lack of knowledge of the characters in question or if they just like using characters as Anti-Anakin/Vader mouthpieces but it really takes me out of a story.
#ngl this is mostly about quinlan vos but like idk! the jedi are about forgiveness!#and doing better!#and i want to clarify like i get that vader is constantly choosing not to repent until luke i understand that#and i get to an extent that by the ot some of the remaining jedi like yoda have lost faith that he could return#but i read a fic where quinlan was warning obiwan OFF OF LUKE??? WHO IS A KID???#bc 'they had no clue anakin would fall either' LIKE NO WHY WOULD QUINLAN#QUINLAN!!!#WHO WAS CREATED IN AND FOR LEGENDS!#WHO FAMOUSLY NEARLY LOST HIMSELF TO THE DARK SIDE WHILE UNDERCOVER!#WHOS FAMILY TRIED TO ASSASSINATE HIM AT AGE 6#JUDGE LUKE FOR HIS FATHERS CRIMES?#AND THEN ACT LIKE ANAKIN WAS ALWAYS DESTINED FOR DARKNESS?#ill admit i havent read the 'canon' book that he is in yet maybe he said some bullshit in that that led people to follow this train#of thought but like hm#feels bad scoob#i think if it had just been quinlan saying something shitty about anakin it wouldnt have bothered me as much#even tho i hate the fanon that anakin hates quinlan/quinlan doesnt like anakin#but like... LUKE???#thats not my quinlan THATS NOT#fandom wank#comm chatter#wow that was a long rant in the tags sigjirgs#the fic was so good otherwise too
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The abandonment issues and conflicting views on growing up that are present on Speak Now stand out much more after listening to Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve (even on the songs that aren’t about John)
#taylor swift#speak now album#midnights album#would've could've should've#like fearless era was a time in her life when everyone was propping her up just to move onto the next thing#like Joe Jonas left her for someone else (Last Kiss BTR etc). Fearless was heralded until it won awards (Mean + Innocent)#and then John came along and made it worse especially because a lot of the media hate about her dating too much started from there#all while she was growing up and wanting to be forgiven for her 'mistakes' hence also forgive others (BTD Innocent Long Live NGU etc)#all of this has always been there but I feel like WCS has highlighted to me how connected it all was and potentially had a main source#at least to me anyway#anyway that's my rant for today
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Our uni professor just made me promise today that I will definitely attend some kind of meeting in our uni department tomorrow. I had no plans to attend at first because it sounded annoying but it sounded like I didn't need to do anything and she kept on insisting. So I accepted.
Turns out, they will hold a small celebration/ceremony for last semester's top students in the meeting.
She definitely knew I wouldn't show up-
I kept making fun of Cale for having to give a speech but what if they ask me for one lord I'm not ready- I wish I had the speech curse so I can skip the whole celebration thing ;;
#and the meeting is from 9am while we have lectures till 7 pm#so I'll basically be outdoors tge whole day tomorrow#pure horror#i miss my lazy hikikomori days#i don't wanna celebrate anything tbh especially my grades rn#not with the corrupt mfs of out government#im dead if they saw my blogs lol#my grades mean nothing to me when they don't grant me basic human rights#im genuinely distressed#im just ranting#here#because i can't rant anywhere else#i won't forgive you prof#for my moots who saw my posts. and for those who will see ron shit of weirder ones later#sorry in advance
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HAPPY FANFIC FRIDAY I’d like to order you all to go read this chapter of Metal Mayhem by @lady-lazagna before seeing the art. I mean it I got my eyes on you.
So... as you can tell... this piece is a lot and I have feelings on this- Don’t expect any piece of this quality for fanfic friday again for a while at least.
I’m going to start with a short summary and description of the fic. Metal Mayhem is a multichapter fic about a new world champions. Its also about making Tsubasa the angstiest person imaginable-
It’s as well written (in a technical sense) as any other fic Laz writes. She has a great sense of pacing and dialogue, along with a way of making scenes seem their perfect length. As a fellow writer, I can’t help but appreciate the skill. Not to mention managing to keep distinct and interesting characterization across the board of characters, while also switching POV.
I can’t really talk about the fic as a whole that much, I feel, because that’s not what really interested me. What broke me about this fic was really just it’s treatment of Hikaru.
Chapter 2 (spoilers if you didn’t read the fic like I told you to) features a battle between Tsubasa and Hikaru, where they’re both trying to have fun with battling again, but Kyoya is egging them on and poking at their insecurities. Finally, Tsubasa taps into his dark power and delivers his ultimate move, bringing the battle to a standstill as they both freak out. He and Hikaru get to talking, its a very good conversation, before Kyoya asks them why they don’t get back to battling. Both of them look over to see their beys still spinning, and this, this is the moment I broke (crucify me if I got any detail wrong Laz)
Because Hikaru starts to celebrate, so wholly and freely. She really didn’t think she survived that battle, but she did.
The way Laz writes Hikaru’s celebration is so over the top, a bit manic, and the energy is absolutely perfect. She managed to capture that overwhelming happiness from an outside perspective and it-
Maybe I’m a bit mentally ill about Hikaru with all the fics I write of her, but omg that scene. That scene is probably one of my favorites in any fanfiction I’ve ever read. That is part of the reason why I am so vocal that anyone looking at this art should go read the fanfic first. I know huge swaths of this fandom that don’t touch the fanfic, so, this is your reminder.
Urgh I guess it’s time for me to talk about the art? I dunno if I want to put this on what is normally a more celebratory post (Fanfic Friday for me is about trying to celebrate other creators I enjoy) but given the difference of quality in this work and other fanfic fridays, I feel the need to quickly explain. (skip right here if you dont wanna hear a bit of a rant)
This took me an entire day of constantly drawing to do it, and was my first time trying to draw a three panel comic. I don’t normally try to draw my fanfic fridays in detail because a) I dont know how to draw dynamic poses that well, so leaving them undetailed lets me try to so I can capture the scene of a fic and b) I don’t actually want there to be a skill bar to participate in fanfic friday. Like, I don’t want people to think you got to spend hours and hours on a piece of fanart to participate in fanfic friday.
The reason this drawing is so much more detailed is that I couldn’t justify to myself doing anything that would sell this scene short. It actively made me cry, there were tears in my eyes, and as I was considering drawing this I was like “there are people who are going to see the art without reading the fanfic” and I did not want to give anyone, absolutely anyone, a view that in any way cheapened the amazing scene Laz wrote. Fanfic Friday should just be a small celebration of the fic, but I do struggle to do that sometimes knowing people might not read the fic and wanting to like, yknow, encourage them to.
I think I oughtta stop rambling now. I do wanna say that the quality of this art is in no way a value judgment on the other fics I do. They are all great fics that equally deserve reading, this scene just struck me personally (as the Hikaru Fan tm) really hard. Im probably gonna do more detailed art as I get better at this, but for now, sketches are really what I feel most comfortable with.
#I did actually have a lot of fun drawing this!#I got to try out colored lighting and a new sideprofile!#I hadn't done either of those for............. a while#happy fanfic friday laz!!!!!!!!!!!!#hikaru hasama#kyoya tategami#tsubasa otori#art#my art#fan art#beyblade#beyblade metal fight#mfb#fanfic friday#its really early in the morning please forgive me for ranting like. I forgot how words work#READ THIS CHAPTER PLEASE ITS SO FGKJBGDKBFBFWB
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naturally i’m gonna be very upset at 6:09 am after an all-nighter over my brother and his actions
#personal#not the middle one we’re okay rn and talking again and he helped me get with my new job#even tho we haven’t spoken about the door and im not supposed to know he paid for it#so good but watch out#the eldest one i’m like hey i was gonna forgive ghosting me or flaking on plans you made with me for our dad#or not communicating that you already got everything done with said dad and all i really knew was my dad asking asking asking for his#eldest son and struggling for an answer for him#and even like not checking on me at all after i got kicked out and bringing a girl back and asking me to pretend to be asleep#god i regret not sleeping in a rest stop like planned that was so much worse#and also you and other brother just ignoring me begging for help telling you i got back into my ed and honestly going through the worst#time of my life also weed dependent to just cope and also my job sucked. minor but still#but again was ready to let it go bc you were so obviously in pain at the funeral i couldn’t be mad at that#but like why. after i offered to clean up after ur dogs did you um. ask me to do it again#then cussed me out after i asked that you don’t ask on the dot of when my shifts end#and then after mom told me i was selfish while struggling with a full time job and taking care of my dying father and struggling with that#and i was just asking what ur living situation was bc i felt like. hm. being told i’m awful for struggling during my dads death is a lot#instead of just saying no you go on a rant about how when we finally want to move in with you you’re doing something else and general#shit giving. instead of again. just saying no. or hell. checking on me.#so it’s like i’ll love you until every star gives out i can’t fucking look at you bc i’m so hurt#we haven’t talked since then and im not gonna hear from him till he asks what i want from christmas or he needs something#christ last time he checked on me was a segway to helping me going about the hoarder house as he loves calling it#i can’t believe i sent him photos of our dads writing saying i love you and his only question was is it still hoarder central#i was gonna type something mean i’m gonna lay down#i don’t want any gifts why would i want a gift. told him that i was hurt and didn’t want a gift my birthday and he responded and it’s gonna#and he’s didn’t respond*#be the same game during christmas#you brought a girl over on such an awful fucking night for me why would i want a gift#and it’s not like he hasn’t been there and doesn’t love me it’s just i’m hurt#and it’s not like he had all this space and my other brother and i never used it! i got kicked out and stayed a night!#other brother moved in with you! sorry circumstances led to me staying longer! just say no!
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SINGLE SANTA BOUT TO REKINDLE SOME FARMER/PROF/LADY LOVES
lol dont wish evil on me im fine not going back to any of my exes 😂
#the only person i might want back you fuckers scared away#and ive never heard from again since you made her delete her entire fucking blog#ill truly never forgive you guys for that its just gotten a little easier to deal with but you fuckers cost me someone really special#its a 'what if' ill never get over#also...one of those people is playing you (and me for a while tbh) for an idiot...but...👀👀👀#so just be careful what you believe#theyre less gay than we think lol#some 'moms' are actually 'dads' 😂#and that's aaaall im gonna sayyyy#rants#anonymous#answers
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Spirited away Spoilers
Level 99 media literacy is understanding that Chichiro knew that her parents werent among the pigs at the end, not because some memorisation or trick or whatever, but because her charachter development from whinny brat into self confident hardworking brat made her realise her parents were never "pigs" (in the prejorative sense)
#spirited away#media literacy#ending explained#like if it was something else it would kinda be a meh moment#also not saying that the parents are perfect or even particularly good but the point of maturing and growing is to still understand them and#not be resentful of them#ofcourse I dont mean extreme cases where parents are like child abusers or just actually horrible but you know what I mean#like they literally just took a hike without magical thinking Chihiro does seem like a spoiled kid being difficult and not some psychic lol#and even if she saw the evil her parents didnt its about forgivness and fixing stuff#like the whole movie was about japan selling out its future for fools gold but how the next gen can recover and reclaim whats lost#idk we had movie night and my brother threw a tantrum while watching an old kursawa movie#like literally took his phone out ten minutes in like some anti-young gen meme lol#I wonder if he is more simmilar to the giant baby in the movie for that or me for ranting about something miniscule and private in tumblr#guess we all know#and if not#yeah...sorry
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