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[ID: A tumblr post edited to be in a blackout-poem style. It reads “I beg you just fuck systems. you can without shitting. thank you” /End ID]
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Woo-hoo first time an anti endo has told us to "stop faking a serious disorder 🥰" (with that emoji lmaoooo)
Add it to the bingo card/s
In all seriousness, we do not claim to have DID/OSDD or any other form of disordered plurality. In order to be "faking", we would have to claim to have DID/OSDD. You can't fake something you don't say you have. Even if everything anti-endos say was true (which it's not), that would still be a fact.
Telling someone to "stop faking" does nothing. Especially if they're not even faking to begin with. If someone thinks they're, idk, "awakening" someone to the truth of their actions by saying they're faking, that's not how that works. Faking anything is a conscious choice. It's impossible to be truly faking something unconsciously. (<-there are situations where things aren't true and you are doing something unconsciously, but faking something is separate from that, if that makes sense.)
I'll never understand why so many anti-endos say endo systems are "faking". It's literally impossible to know what's going on inside someone's head, especially in the sense of, well... being a random person on the internet. It's one thing to claim someone's faking when you know them irl (still, don't do that), it's another when all you know of them is the text they wrote on the screen.
I know all of this has been said before, but I wanted to put it out there. I do not take kindly to anti-endos invading my space. I mean, I'll just block them, but I will vaguepost about them and reiterate our stances on this.
All of this over one silly post about stealing a rq's alter pack (which, btw, we are only calling an alter pack because thats what they called it)(and, i checked, they dont have a dni, so its not like im breaking it),,,, geez.
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#🔮fu xuan#pro endo#pro willogenic#syscourse#tw syscourse#tw fakeclaiming#(does it count? i think so)#keeping tags light on this. basically just stances and tags for filtering.#realized like 30 mins after posting this that theres a typo#their instead of theyre#its fixed now tho
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Fixing-Syscourse-Posts from Tumblr is secretly SysmedsAreSexist!
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have you tried being kind in the face of pain? maybe that'll get you more bitches
Misanthropists... you are not evil for your thoughts on humanity being negative... I don't share the same beliefs or sentiment about humanity, but your experiences are valid, and you don't owe anybody love for the human race. Nobody owes anyone positive feelings, especially if there's a justified reason for those negative feelings.
Shoutout to the misanthropists who are nonhuman because of their misanthropy, by the way. As well as misanthropists who are misanthropic due to being disabled and were often mistreated by humans due to their disability.
As long as you aren't harming anyone else based on them being human, you're fine, and I don't think you're evil... I see it almost the same way humans hate mosquitoes with a passion. You have every right to feel the way you do, and you don't owe anybody an explanation for your feelings.
#being aggressively kind is likeable.#being hateful at hate gets you more hate#'oh but ur not being kind to prev' because i dont want to be kind to them#but i think if i WAS kind to them i could fix them#but also i don't care they sound like a 12 year old who's having issues on the internet#one day they'll grow up and go “oh god i was so cringe and terrible” while sitting outside as a bee flies to them and they feel no fear#and they are calm and safe and they can see the flowers dancing in the wind#and they'll be eating their favorite food while the river nearby splashes happy bubbly sounds#and they'll have nearly forgotten all about their hatred towards others#and they'll find good in this world#or they might end up running themselves into a ditch of despair but i am not here to babysit them and care for them.#i have my own issues to deal with#i'm just waiting on something and it's taking its time so im on tumblr on a random syscourse blog#giving prev a nice idea to contemplate or smth idk#touch grass maybe? that would be good. pick a flower. watch the clouds.#anyway this is too long a tag ramble for op's post i apologize op#also people's feelings on the human race can be very complicated#i hate a lot of humans but i love that humans exist so.
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Hello! Welcome to crows templates
We make templets for pk, simply plural, and anything else a system would need templets for
We’ll happily take requests! Please keep these rules in mind when requesting:
•it can take anywhere from a few hours, to multiple days to complete a request, please be patient. My queue is long and most requests aren’t posted until a month after the initial request
•please give us a theme and preferably a few emojis or symbols please give me at least 1 emoji/symbol to work with.
•on the note above, you can request from media (game, book, show, movie,ect), but I require emoji suggestions, this is a bit slippery on media I already know, but don’t assume I know any media
•only one request per ask. You can send multiple requests back to back though!
•Minor edits are allowed, please keep credits
•we can deny a request for any reason
•include in your request if there is any information you do or don’t want (introject info,subsystems,etc) I default to including a subsystem space, I do not default to including intorject information
•if you do not need a space for some information (subsystem, introjects) you are welcome to remove that info, do not remove credits
•include in your request if you want an alter or a system intro, if you don’t i will default to alter
•our bio will say if our requests are open, if our requests aren’t open do not request
•if you’re using one of our templates on tumblr I appreciate being tagged in the credits! It’s not required I just get really excited to see my templates in the wild!
•be polite when requesting. I am going to start turning down requests that are demanding. (A simple please or thank is enough I’m not asking for much)
Template master post part one
Part two
Part three
Collective intro templates
Types of templets we make:
•alter intro
•system intro
•singletsona intro (ONLY FOR SYSTEMS)
Templets we won’t make
•searching templets (source calls, partner calls,etc)
•display names
Please Dni if:
•endo
•pro endo
•pro ship
•radqueer
•basic Dni (homophobic,transphobic, racist, etc)
•believes in NPD-abuse
Welcome to interact!
•syscourse neural
•anti endo
•queer folk
•m-spec lesbians and other contradictory
Tag list: @404-systemnotfound @collective-stupidity @lovesomesys @constellation-sys @wretchedlittlebug @seraphim-coinz
The tag list is when requests open or close, if you want to be added send an ask or dm!
If our templates aren’t your style, our lovely(/p) friend bee-hive make amazing templates as well!!
WE HAVE A SERVER NOW! Made and moderated by us and @lovesomesys !! Here
We try not to use closed symbols, if we do *please* tell us so we can fix it
#traumagenic system#did osdd#system#endos dni#did#osddid#template#pk#simply plural#plural kit#alter intro#pinned post#alter template#lovesome&crow
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Preface: People are going to assume this is a response to recent drama. So I want to say that I started writing this draft before that one blog's response to me. It was shortly after midnight on the 8th when it was just barely what I consider my Birthday. I was reflecting on my 3 years of existence and where I am now. The fact that I got the response I did later that same day is a total coincidence.
I don't feel like I have friends anymore...
That's an awful thing to admit.
I have one other system I feel like I talk to with any sort of regularity, who I love and consider friends. But they're not involved with syscourse which is so often where my mind goes. And so I don't talk to them about it because I don't want to trouble them, which means I don't talk to them because I can't think of what to talk about.
What else do I care about?
I mean, there are other things I care about, but they probably wouldn't care about those things. And I struggle to find something to say. Something that feels worthy of their time. But again, not syscourse or something that would bring them down.
I've had other friends. But they've faded away with time. One by one.
And a lot of that is my fault. I'm not good at being a friend or knowing what to say. And I'm not very good at opening myself up.
And when I can't think of what to say, I choose to say nothing. I ghost people I like because it's hard to maintain those relationships.
And I'm aware on some level that this hurts people. I wouldn't want to be friends with someone who treated others the way I do.
And there will be times when I'll decide to do better. I will, with full confidence, say that I'm going to change. I'll be a better friend. A better person. I'll fully believe this is something I'll succeed at for the rest of the day. Then the next day comes and that conviction melts away.
I think one reason Jaiden's story of having ADHD appeals to me is that if this was the problem with us, maybe, we could identify it and then just take one little pill and it will fix me.
That's a nice fantasy, isn't it?
A naive fantasy that ignores the fact that I'm in the brain of someone who was homeschooled and barely had any friends as a child either. But it's a nice fantasy to hold onto anyway.
So, yeah. I don't feel like I have friends, for the most part, outside our system. I have a blog. I have followers. I have plenty of mutuals I like interacting with.
But there aren't people who I truly trust to let in. It doesn't feel like anyone actually knows me or who I am anymore, if anyone ever did.
Since I haven't posted on it for a week and don't know when I'll post on it again or if I will, here's a confession: I made @anti-lies! Sorry to ruin the mystery for anything speculating! Though I didn't think I was even that subtle about it.
But the only person I know who guessed it was me was SAS! Which, congratulations! But also, that's kind of a sad thought that the person who might know me better than anyone is someone who was my archnemesis for the past two-and-a-half years.
To be fair, SAS did imply that other people might have guessed it. But if so, whatever circles those conversations are happening in aren't ones I'm in.
Oh wait, I'm not really in any circles am I?
I'm on the outskirts of the community. I mean, that's sort of by choice really.
Public posts can bring more awareness of plurality and tulpamancy. Locking myself in Discord servers or some isolated community makes me feel like I'm wasting my time because I need to be talking about it publicly where the world can see. I really, really don't want to be part of a Discord server. It's my choice to stay out of those spaces and I don't regret that decision.
But sometimes it's weird when I realize that most everyone else is. That they're actually in plural communities in a way I'm not.
I wonder, do people even realize I'm an outsider? Again, by choice. I've been invited to servers and chose not to go. I'm not being ostracized or anything. I've turned down attempts at bringing me further in. No one is to blame but myself. But either way, the result is that I don't feel like I'm really part of the communities I spend so much time advocating for.
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Allow us to introduce ourselves
Half a year active, over a hundred followers, the majority of which are veteran tumblers from that one 60k note explosion, and we still haven't properly introduced ourselves. Time to fix that.
We are Clover, an endogenic plural system. That means we are multiple people sharing one brain and body, and we aren't plural because of trauma. We do not have DID. (nor do the vast majority of endos)
I am Quincy, the headmate who fronts the most. Quincy is not my real name, but it could've been, and it's an alias I've been using for a few years.
Edit 2024 August 1: Quincy split into Eliza and Mia. Eliza's egg opened easily. Mine crumbled painfully. We now share the host role and this blog. There isn't much difference between us; we both inherited Quincy's memories.
Edit September 18: I live.
There are a lot of people on here who say that it's impossible for a plural system to form without trauma, but as you may have seen from our syscourse (system discourse (expect a lot of sys- compounds)) reblogs, they rarely cite any credible sources, and that's because they're wrong. I am not a LARPer and I do not claim to have DID. This really is every hour of my life, online and offline. If you have any more questions about plurality, feel free to send me an ask.
Though if we're talking about origins, "not from trauma" is overly vague for my taste. If we're really talking about how the system formed, I prefer "dreamgenic", because everyone originated from some combination of nightdreams and immersive daydreams which I had varying levels of control over.
The second most active headmate, Victoria Penelope, has her own blog @victoria-penelope-clover. She posts more infrequently, when she's able to front/cofront/proxy, and is currently mostly focused on syscourse, with occasional slices of life. She's my older syster.
Headcount is currently in the upper teens. Some more may be mentioned occasionally but I'd rather not have a list of private details about everyone easily accessible here for anyone to see. For the most part, all you'll see every once in a while is some colored text indicating a distinct voice.
Anyway, enough plural stuff! Now for typical bio stuff!
Fleed Reddit to come here and wow Tumblr is way better. Always happy to commune with fellow Rexxitors!
For obsession I circle between Chess, Minecraft, Geometry Dash, Warrior Cats, and Undertale. Fandoms I am on the edge of getting sucked into include The Amazing Digital Circus and Death Note. I also plan to watch Avatar: The Last Airbender at some point. Ever since our syscovery, I've consumed next to no fiction for fear of more headmates.
I have a few projects in the works but I've promised myself that I won't post them publicly until I've actually made substantial progress!
No DNI! Maybe it's just because I'm not jaded by years of wasted time with unproductive trolls, but I think assuming someone is in bad faith just because they disagree with you about something heated is bad actually, partly because I've seen what happens and how long progress takes when left-of-center people generally refuse to interact with, for example, transphobes. Relatedly, I will only block you if I think you're a bot or if you really, really fuck up.
Do not be surprised if I casually shit on something you believe in without warning.
I have an ever-growing queue set to post five times per day, and I try not to post too much more than that. I also try to keep my dash at less than 100 posts per day, which is apparently uncommon here.
Reblog reblog reblog! Not just my posts, but everyone (unless you have a good reason not to, like with this intro post). Reblogs are what keep Tumblr alive! Likes do next to nothing.
That's all for now! If you have any more questions, send me an ask and I might add it to this post!
#intro post#bio post#chess#minecraft#geometry dash#warrior cats#undertale#death note#plurality#dreamgenic#endogenic#pro endo#endo safe#pluralgang#trans
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TW // Syscourse!
There's a user I just came across called thebigcrow, and uh. they made a post fixing Endos posts.
stealing the entire post from endos.
I don't know how further they're gonna go with it. but it's best if Endos and pro Endos may block it,
I don't know what's necessary to say and what's not. I don't know if this post is okay, but I just want to keep Endos safe from having their posts reposted.
#tw syscourse#cw syscourse#syscourse#pro endo#endo safe#anti endo dni#anti endos dni#plurality#plural#actually plural#plural community#dissociative identity disorder#did#pluralgang#plural system
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hey, please dont out image descriptions in small text! it's not accessible to visually impaired people! not trying to be rude just trying to let you know
oh!! jesus i am really bad about this stuff aren't i. 😭 i'll go back on some of my most recent posts and fix it!! thank you for letting me know!! :DD i'm genuinely so terribly sorry you guys. 😭
[ID: STOP! this is a syscourse free blog! it is a safe space for all systems, so please go away if you intend upon stirring up drama!]
#did osdd#did#osdd#actually did#actually osdd#osdd system#osddid#did alter#actually plural#plural system#pluralgang#plurality#plural positivity#system#sysblr#system stuff
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I sent this ask to a different blog but I don't think they're going to post it... I'm so sad, I'm screaming into the void. I'm scared. I'm sending to you because you're where I learned so much of this
Did i say anything wrong? I put so much work into this ask, I grabbed a screenshot partway through, so this isn't EXACTLY the same ask, but it's very close, I had to rewrite some.
from one DID system to another, please, hear me out, I'm desperate to be heard
Literally NO endos claim to have DID
There's like two, and they still say it's caused by trauma but they were systems first and later trauma made their system unstable
If endos want to demedicalize CDDs, why would they claim to have it? It's a roundabout way to achieve the same goal, it's just extra steps
Endos are literally fighting to get away from CDD spaces, do you actually see endos in the DID tag? The cdd tag? NO
They're in the plural tag, a word they choose to separate from the more clinically associated "multiple" of MPD, they're in the syscourse tags because they're allowed to participate, syspunk is less than a month old and it should be a meme at this point because they already had anti endo as a tag
They are literally saying they are systems that are UNRELATED to CDDs, not that they want to demedicalize being a system System doesn't belong to DID, look at IFS, psychological anthropology, or multiple theory of self, jungian archetypes, or does that mean we should be angry about "computer system" because it dehumanizes us?
And stolen terms? We know who came up with system hopping, it has never been used in RAMCOA. Do any of you actually know where tulpa came from? Like the actual word? Do you know who Alexandra David Neel is? The white woman who invented an imaginary practice that didn't actually exist (What she wrote about is not the same as Buddhist emanation), and created the word tulpa based on another white guy's mistranslation to entertain more white people during the Vietnam War?
So they have new words, they're trying to create more new words, there's so much real, actual research by real doctors into this phenomenon of nonpathological multiplicity in ways that exist outside of clinical psychopathology
The only overlapping word is "system
Plurals tend to get really upset when you use words like alter for them, they don't want to be medicalized at all, they understand what DID is and say, "| don't fit that description", and they're allowed to say that
If I, a DID system, feel I'm healed and integrated and choose to drop the DID label, no one can stop me, and we can't stop people from not picking it up to start with
Why can't anyone have actual conversations about this stuff, I'm so anxious because it seems like people are purposefully trying to misunderstand and lying about how bad the problem is
"Existing" isn't enough to qualify as misinformation, and it seems the only incorrect and unverifiable facts are coming out of the anti endo community.
I'm just so scared and sad.
I just want to know it's going to be okay
First -- I'm glad we can post this for you. I highly recommend screenshotting asks you send to people! It's helped me a lot with my paranoia in the past (did I send that on anon? Did I send that at all??) and it's a good record of your words for later.
Second.
I agree with you, I really do. This is so frustrating, and the self-described anti-endos who have recently flooded system spaces on tumblr are completely unwilling to look at the facts. They're obstinate and stubborn as mules, and unfortunately, that is not going to change. Most of them, if not all of them, are either children or caught in a current cycle of abuse with no way out. Most if not all are currently fighting for survival. They are not in a place to accept others; they can barely accept themselves.
People are purposefully ignoring information. People are purposefully avoiding it.
And it is not, and never has been, your job to fix their issues.
These are people who have always been unwilling to listen. They are children who cannot, for their own reasons, listen at the moment. For whatever reason, they are not in a position to accept endogenic plurality exists, and the more they are pushed, the more they will spit up their vitriol on the puke towel that is syscourse (or, worse, "syspunk").
It is sad. It can be scary. But it's not on your shoulders to fix them.
At the end of the day, you have to ask: what is most beneficial for me in this moment? Next, what is most beneficial for my family in this moment? Then, what is most beneficial for my followers in this moment? Then, and only then, are you getting to "beneficial for the tag to see," if you get there at all. The ask you sent them is lovely, and needed, but they are not ready to see this sort of thing, I can guarantee it.
That's why I'm glad it's here: so others can see it.
The last point I'll make is... Please make sure that you are valuing the correct things in your life, anyone reading this. If syscourse is stressing you out, please make sure to take appropriate breaks and check your brain. Remember that this is largely an online issue; the real world is quickly progressing to be more plural accepting and more accepting in general, and there are far bigger issues than an idiot crosstagging misinformation in a niche online discourse. I'm not trying to say this isn't an issue, and it should absolutely be spoken out about, but make sure to take care of yourself while you do. Anti-endos and pro-endos who are idiots online are not the end all be all of system activism. In fact, they rarely fit that definition.
Please do not let these places completely wreck you emotionally. You deserve so much better than that.
Sending love to all our followers; good luck staying afloat out there. <3
#Mod Quill#(But all of us love you all)#(Mwah)#syscourse#dude approved#kiss kiss#reading research is syspunk#debunk#you did good anon proud of you i hope you can relax tonight#happy Friday#pro syscourse conversation
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Hello everyone! It has been a moment, and we had a rough few months following a procedure and some other real life situations. But now we're back and can finally confidently release an update. This is a big one. We've listened to what the users were asking, and did what we could to get a chunk of our tasklist done.
Overall
Lighthouse has a slightly new design. The banner is gone, as you can see. That was originally there because we had improperly formatted the navigation bar. Now, there's more of a focus on the website itself, hopefully reducing any distractions.
Almost all large backgrounds have been replaced with small pixel art drawings (made by us) to save on data and load times.
Emoji parsing via Twemoji has been removed. The project was discontinued in early 2023. Lighthouse trying to reach Twemoji was partially why load times were so long.
Because of us personally getting pulled into syscourse (without us wanting to), we have added a Philosophy page to the website. We hope it's now very clear where we stand.
Communal Journal
Each system and subsystem gets their own communal journal now with pagination. The page for it also has prompts, if you need help figuring out what to write.
For privacy and clarity, the communal journal now is on its own page.
Systems
Alters can now appear in multiple systems. They have a "main" system and "other" systems. When looking in their "other" systems, these alters will have a ✦ next to their name. You can place an alter in up to 5 other systems. The breadcrumb navigation currently still points their their main system, though. This will hopefully be fixed at a later date.
Forums
Forums now have a cleaned up reply section. formatting shouldn't be escaping on the alter cards.
In areas where you need to choose an author of a post/reply/etc, there is now a searchable dropdown. We hope this helps large systems.
Glossary
Despite the controversy, we have decided to bring back the glossary. Its new purpose is not to serve as a giant dictionary for terminology, and we will be pruning definitions in the coming days. Users are opted out of the glossary by default, and this can be changed in the settings page. Guests and logged out users can see the glossary.
We know users want us to allow custom terms for their own account, which is something we plan to add in the future.
Other Changes
We hopefully fixed a bug in our Pluralkit import logic that doesn't just gloss over members that weren't added. Lighthouse will keep trying to add a member until it succeeds. We suspect this might make another issue arise, but we'll figure it out from there.
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[ID: A tumblr post edited to be in a blackout-poem style. It reads “please know I'm better than you because I have a great ass.“ /End ID]
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New and improved intro post :3
This is a blog to share schizotypal experiences. This is a no-judgment zone where you can vent, rant, share experiences, or just send something silly in. Submissions should begin with things like "questioning/suspecting stpd culture is..." "schizotypal culture is..." "STPD culture is..." "schizotypal + [other thing] culture is..." etc. I will also tag those posts with the tw.
You can talk abt basically anything in asks, but PLEASE remember to add content/trigger warnings if needed. Example: "CW unreality" or "TW slight nsfw". Feel free to ask questions, and I will try to answer to the best of my abilities, but I'm not an expert, so I may not know the exact answer, and you shouldn't take what I say as firm hard fact!
More info and claimed sign-offs under the cut!
Please DNI if you believe in any flavor or PD abuse, but other than that I'm okay with anyone interacting as long as they're respectful.
I will NOT post asks relating to shipcourse, syscourse, or anything related to that. Please don't bring drama here.
Ranting/venting/long asks are always okay, you don't need to apologize and I won't judge at all. Living with a disorder is HARD and it's always okay to express negative emotions, I'm so proud of you for existing.
I might forget to post an ask of yours or take a while to get to it, but it's never personal Current claimed sign-offs (updated 10/31/24) (feel free to claim whenever you want :3)
🥊 💫🕊️ ‼️‼️ ⛏🌈 💥💥💥 🎀🐈 🪐 🦆 💀🌵 ☯️🎧 🎸🦔 🔫 🍄🟫🎀 🤖♥️ 🌑🔒 👁🗨 ♥️⌨️ 🍄 📼🐈 🌫️ 🪬 🐗💤 🗻 🪱 🪽 ⚰ 💫💊❓ 🌿🍄🏺 🕷️🩶 🐈⬛🦇 ✅🌈 🎛 🎸🪬 🌕🔒 🫐🍈 🎭🎪 🍪🧹🕳️ 🫛🐡 💫✨️
(If you have claimed an a sign-off but don't see it on the list just send in an ask and I will get it fixed)
#stpd culture is#schizospec#stpd#actually stpd#cluster a safe#schizotypal#schizotypal pd#actually schizotypal
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Tonight, 28 systems are competing for the title of: ULTIMATE SYSCOURSER. They have to be fierce, fantastical, and fabulous if they even want to be CONSIDERED to join the ranks of syscourse past. Are they able to do it? Or will they be posted to irrelevancy? TONIGHT, ON SYSCOURSE BRACKETS, THE FOLLOWING CONTESTANTS ACCEPTED ARE:
MULTIPLE-MYSELVES
OOPSALLSYSCOURSE
CHAOS-IN-ONE
DOOMSDAYRADIO
CIRCULARS-REASONING (and associated blogs)
SYSCOURSE-CONFESSIONS
JUSTANOTHERSYSCOURSE
SUBSYSTEMS
TRAUMASCUMATHENA
OSDDTRAUMAGENIC
STONECOURSE
MOURNFALL-SYSCOURSE
AUTUMN-RAIN-CO
SYSMEDSARESEXIST
SYSCOURSEBOT
FIXING-SYSCOURSE-POSTS
SYSCOURSEHELL
SQUIDCOURSE
NIGHT-WYLD-SYSTEM
SYSCOURSE-MISINFO
MIGRAINEEYES
SYSCOURSE-BRACKETS (wait what?)
SYSCOURSE-POLLS
SOPHIEINWONDERLAND
DISSOCIATIVEDISCOURSE
BLOODYSYS
SYSMEMES
and THE BABABOOEY BANDIT
Optional propaganda post idea: make a post writing as if youre a contestant on a trashy reality TV show.
LET THE GAMES BEGIN!
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We fixed it!!!
[An ask stating "endogenic culture is being hot an sexy"
The text post is fixed to say "Yeah, being very hot and sexy. All endos.
#endogenic #syscourse #endo #endos]
<3 OP lost the right to privacy when they decided to be a hypocrite. Look in the mirror sweetheart, you'll see the actual ableist if you do. <3
- 🎭 (Gloria in background)
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I want to talk about being pro-endo. It's a little venty, but syscourse replies are encouraged, because I wish more people talked about this shit.
In my time as a pro-endo, I have been encouraged to:
Send hate anons to big anti-endos
Tell people they were endogenic instead of traumagenic because that would get more people on our side
Be wary of anyone who has DID (as a DID system myself)
Never ever reblog anything from anyone who wasn't part of the pro-endo community explicitly. Usually I got asks in my inbox, sometimes with harassment in them, if I reblogged a point from someone "bad". If the reblog was from a pro-endo that wasn't "pro-endo enough," I'd get asks about it. It didn't matter what the post said -- reblogging a post about how TERFs are bad from an unaligned system would be enough to get people up my ass.
Split new alters
Ship my alters
Forcibly try to give myself introjects because not having any was "weird"
Systemhop
Take drugs to "enhance my experience with my headmates"
Ignore any and all trauma because I'm just an endogenic system who got yelled at, that's not trauma
I did a lot of these. It's not something I'm proud of. I am still pro-endo, I still believe endogenic systems exist, and I think anti-endos who don't are stupidly close minded. But I also think that I'm sitting here on an anonymous confessions blog, too scared shitless to actually talk about any of this out loud, because I've seen how pro-endos get harassed for not being "pro-endo" enough. I was one of those harassers.
The pro-endo community has a serious problem. They aren't the good guys. There aren't good guys in this debate. There's just good people and assholes, and the pro-endo communities problem is that they encourage this behavior a lot. Labeling anyone who disagrees with them as a sysmed, because that means they're Bad and it's okay to be bad to Bad people, to Bigots. Labeling anti-endos as a hate group to dehumanize them, to other them. Its FUCKED.
I'm not sure how to fix it. I'm just grateful to be able to say some of this here.
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