#felt weird. felt bad. didn’t like it.

[professional-writher]

How life has felt after I got over my deeply internalized aphobia and allowed myself to finally be myself

[its-rat-time-babey]

Another good reason to play around with the whole “Miko is a glitch” Theory/Headcanon/whatever you’d call it, even ignoring canon’s “evidence” or the fact that if any of the techs were a glitch, Miko would be the most likely candidate, is the fact that out of all of the Techs, Miko is the person that would take learning that information THE WORST out of all of them.

Even ignoring that moment in Going Going Gauntlet where she has a brief existential crisis over if Ally is technically alive or not, think about Miko for a minute.

Practically her entire life she’s been an outsider in some way. Most other kids her age either know her as “that one kid who kicked Ralphie Bear’s head off at someone’s birthday party” or “that weird girl in the arcade with the high score in Rock ‘Em Sockers”. (And it’s slightly implied the series of events went Rock ‘Em Sockers -> Birthday Incident with Miko (having just moved to Bailey) originally getting herself noticed through Rock ‘Em Sockers only for everything to come crashing down when she was invited to that birthday party.) She’s had basically no real friends besides a few people she plays online games with until very recently when she met Five and even in her own family she’s a bit of a black sheep. And Miko is fully aware of all of this.

Miko desperately wants friends and she’s terrified of the possibility of losing the few friends she does have. She’s scared of being seen as “the weird kid” or “not normal” or anything that could potentially push people away from her. Just look at The Glitch Modder for one of the best examples. Mitch’s comments about Miko being weird, everyone else being unnerved by her reset immunity and ESPECIALLY Miko finding out that Five also sees her immunity as something strange sets her off for the whole day because of exactly what I’ve said before.

Miko desperately wants to be viewed as normal (most likely because she’s been othered before for being “weird”) and seeing everyone else’s immediate reactions to her immunity and especially the reaction of Five, her literal best friend, has to be pretty soul crushing to her. That’s also why Mitch’s comments get under Miko’s skin so easily here. It’s a massive pressure point for her.

Even as a much smaller point, we have Miko’s reaction to Five calling her Meeks. She hates it, but lies and goes along with it anyways because she’s afraid of doing anything that could even risk pushing Five away from her. It’s a tiny point, but still worth bringing up because it’s a tiny example of Miko just being desperate have friends.

So take all of that into account, and then look me in the eyes and tell me with a straight face that Miko would take learning that she’s not human but in fact one of the literal MONSTERS that she and her friends regularly hunt down even REMOTELY well. It is maybe one of the worst possible things that could ever happen to her.

[androidboy]

i know, logically, that my boyfriend would love for me to live with him and join him for conventions and signing tours and LOGICALLY thar means he wants me in his space and around on busy stressful weeks but also I asked him if he’d want me to ask my boss if i could take more time off to stay with him during the convention he’s gonna be at since i’m already going one of the days and i felt like a skittish cat trying to ask for pets and i was kinda expecting him to say no or look a bit like idkkkkk if that’s a good idea or hesitate a bit and have to tell me that i COULD but also he’s got a lot on his plate right now but he was just like “1000% yes. as long as you’re aware i’m gonna be in work mode but yes i would really love you to be there” and he had heart eyes and i feel like crying just typing this

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Sapling Cage

YA fantasy, start of a trilogy

a trans girl and her friend swap places so she can join the coven of witches who wander the land instead of becoming a knight

as they travel and she starts to learn from them, while hoping she’s not found out , they uncover a corrupt magical blight that threatens to become a civil war

bi demi MC

[here-comes-the-moose]

Modern AU Bad Batch + Fives First Crushes

Echo- Olivia Benson from Law and Order: SVU

Fives- Meg from Hercules

Hunter- Elastagirl/Mrs. Incredible from The Incredibles

Wrecker- Li Shang from Mulan

Tech- Nani from Lilo & Stitch

Crosshair- Captain America, specifically Captain America from the Avengers: Assemble series

[courtneydeservesbetter]

‘Is it wrong that I could not stand the caitvi sex scene cuz it felt wrong to watch them, it felt fetishizing, I much prefer the wholesome stuff that jinx and ekko were doing’ SHUT UP. SHHH I literally cheered what is happening

[waywardstation]

WIP FRIDAY

I apologize for getting this out two days late, I’ve been busy with lots of packing and events! But I have a little reprieve, so I wanted to post another WIP; this one is from Heart Full, Bowl Empty.

BE AWARE THAT THIS SEGMENT INVOLVES A CONVERSATION REVOLVING AROUND UNWILLING BUT INTENTIONAL STARVATION. I know there are people who say they can’t read this fic because of themes like this, so be aware of this before reading this WIP!!

I included this snippet in today’s WIP because I have like three versions of the entire segment this snippet is from. I feel like it’s a really important segment with a really important conversation, and I’ve had a hard time balancing all the emotions the way I want to between Ingo and Akari, with frustration, sadness, anger, and empathy, to realistically get them to the resolution I want at the end of it.

The final version will probably only include a few parts from this particular segment.

Enjoy!!

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“I knew it! You’re doing it again!” Akari’s eyebrows scrunched, trying to understand through the frustration. “You said you wouldn’t!”

“Circumstances will improve soon.” Clearly done with the conversation, that was all Ingo said, but it was confession enough that he had fallen back on his word. Shame contaminated his voice, but if there was any regret, he hid it well.

“No, it won’t!” They were not even half-way through winter yet. “And you know it won’t!”

Ingo said nothing as the kits carefully moved around his slumped form, finding comfortable places to settle around him. She didn’t know if he intended to snuff the conversation out with angered silence, or if he was just too exhausted to care about arguing with her anymore. If it wasn’t for his small occasional signs of movement or acknowledgement, she’d think he was actually sleeping.

Akari carefully stepped into the nesting layers, moving to sit down next to Ingo. She settled with her back against the cavern wall, pulling her knees close as a few kits shuffled around to accommodate her. “You know I’m right.”

Huffing out an irritated sigh and nothing more, it didn’t seem like Ingo had any intentions to engage with her argument anymore.

“You couldn’t even pull yourself up over the ridge,” She prodded at him again, trying to motivate more conversation out of him. “I had to help you!”

“There are many, many factors that go into that.” A reluctant answer, perhaps a reflexive attempt to quell her worry; Ingo feebly rubbed his wrapped hand, almost as a display for his excuse.

“I’ve seen you do more when you’ve been hurt worse.” Akari retorted, a little softer now but still cold.

Ingo’s eyes remained closed, though his hardened expression implied that it came across as more accusatory than she’d intended. But perhaps it was precisely the time to be accusatory.

“Ingo, you’re so tired all the time now – you stopped coming to the training grounds because you just can’t make the trips all the time anymore! And you’re sleeping so much more than you used to, and it’s like you’re always hungry all the time, even though all I see you doing anymore is gathering food!” Akari’s voice grew more jagged as she continued to jab at him, entirely uninterrupted.

It was getting difficult. With Ingo’s tunic still sopping by the bucket, still somewhat red from the exhausted effort of washing out the blood, it could not hide the ribs that pressed out just a little bit more, or help fill out what the waistline had lost under the loosening belt. The abject dread of directly acknowledging that was too much.

“And- and look! You aren’t even willing to hold a conversation with me anymore, and I don’t know if it’s because you just won’t, or because you can’t!” The kits shifted uncomfortably as Akari retreated back into her own frustration instead. “People think you’re sick, Ingo! They’re asking me about you! What are you doing?”

The exhausted man remained where he laid in the nesting material, only moving his hands to rub at his face and sigh — a deep, forced sigh that swelled his side before releasing. Akari almost didn’t think he’d answer her, but with some effort, he propped himself up first onto his elbows, then slumped forward. The teen watched him run shaky fingers through his hair as he sat next to her.

“…I don’t know what I should do.” The guilt. The weary guilt cracked his voice and tore Akari’s anger down to heartache.

[clowningcrows]

lol i pregamed a tiny bit for agatha but now after finishing im just taking shots for coping reasons

[casimania]

Never talked about my headcanon that Casimiro committed at least 1 murder before becoming a vampire.

I have various backstories for him and in one he was a troubled kid from a wealthy family (child of cheating right in the middle of other children and everyone acted like it didn’t happen but he looked different than all of his siblings and was also treated differently). A tutor tought enough corporal punishment could shape him up but miscalculated how angry Casimiro could get. He just turned on his tutor and basically beat the shit out of him in front of a couple of his siblings. Still have to decide if it gets swept under the rug and the family just tries to find a way to sort of hide away Cas and he just decides to skip town or if he goes on trial and manages to make a run for it out of sheer fucking luck or makes a run for it immediately.

Other backstory is not long before he gets turned into a vampire, he lives a life of gambling and petty crimes and either bites way more than he can chew and ends up in an accidental death, or he again flies off the handle and kills someone in a blind rage.

[gaytobymeres]

Just saw the weirdest most over-stimulating production of marriage of figaro…. I feel like the opera, the music, got lost in the set and costumes and props and background cast who were just kind of there? Doing weird things?

[polyamorouspunk]

Not suicidal ideation in a “what if I tried to kill myself” way but masochism in a “what if I just ate a ton of peanut butter and gave myself a really unpleasant but probably not life-threatening time” way

[icterid-rubus]

So now on top of coming with me to the Christmas lights yesterday, later this week my classmate is going with me to the zoo to see their lights, then to ice cream on the weekend, and finally a birthday treat before Christmas. I’m quite pleased but also, ow, my wallet.

[eeboor]

Btw like it’s ok if a character isn’t “fully enlightened”. Maybe mel doesn’t like viktor because he’s the only other person who fully has Jayce’s ear. She doesn’t have to like him just so the “yaoi can be ethical” or whatever the fuck. I don’t think I’d like the guy who had so much influence over the guy I was trying to fuck and manipulate. Mel doesn’t have to be a perfect patient saint, she can dislike the people and things that get in her way. And saying that about her neither implies that YOU dislike her as a character, nor that you think she’s a bad person. It means she’s a COMPLEX character who can have complex feelings about other characters who are perhaps fan favorites.

[milo-is-rambling]

BACK OF MY HAIR MOMENT 🗣️🗣️🗣️

[lovetogether]

We’ve always felt bad for being gay mostly because we had old friends who’d shame us for it, but in this weird sort of online kind of way? Saying things like, if you’re gay then you won’t date women so you’re misogynistic. At the time a big talking point among our group was how often gay creators would leave out or even mock female characters in media to push their gay ship. We agreed this was stupid and dumb behavior. Yet, because we were gay friends would jokingly lump us in with these folks. It slowly stopped feeling like they were sticking up for female characters and instead using this as a way to hate gay people online. We found this frustrating because in the end nobody was actually talking about girls, they were insulting each other. We identified as bi for awhile and everyone became significantly kinder to us. We didn’t really feel attached to the label but we felt too bad being gay, like being gay made us like “those annoying people online”. This entire treatment was just completely weird. We don’t exactly know how to describe it? Other than terminally online I guess. This sort of intense fixation on internet morality which just switched back into bigotry with a tint of righteousness. Friends would go on to say some incredibly hateful things to us, disguising them as good. We had folks hcing characters as ace primarily to avoid gay headcanons (especially weird given we are ace and gay) and once a friend even told us a character they were annoyed at being hced as gay shouldn’t be because they were disabled. (Funny enough we are also disabled and gay!) we didn’t understand this mentality. There was no love given to the actual sides they were allegedly fighting for. Only hate. We’d be told they hated transmasc art for this exact same reason, the art in question always seemed to depict fat trans men or trans men which weren’t “conventionally attractive”. Men with boobs and whatnot. We started to wonder if the hatred was because of genuine criticism or because of more malicious reasoning. Does anybody else see this weird backwards online reinvention of hate? We feel kind of crazy. Or perhaps we’re the weird one.

[jeanmoreaux]

in ur tags you wrote the unstoppable force post was andreil coded…. well do you know sakavic herself reglogged that post too…. bc eyes are wide open rn

OMGDJJFHDHFJDHDJJDJFJD no i did not know that i did not clock that. makes me feel weirdly validated tho. highlight of my day because yes. YES. it just screamed andreil to me and to have nora go ‘same’ does feel like a win to me. thank you so much for telling me you made my week <3

i mean. yeah eyes wide open. (neil the unstoppable force always on the run, changing, adjusting, moving things along for others as well etc, andrew the immovable object not just in his ethics/morals/approach but also as a source of stability to lean on etc… and their colliding is not just what the want but what they NEED as individuals to grow!!! andrew providing stability for neil to grow roots and have a home and have a place to belong, neil bringing with him a revitalising force, a forward momentum that presents andrew with a future that is more than just an empty existence or a waiting for death but a Life. that’s why they work. like. they wanted to collide, they needed to collide, THEY WERE MEANT TO COLLIDE))