#felt very realistic tbh

[sarafinapeclar]

Caitlynn went from progressive to Vi's conservative boyfriend to a dictator realllll quick lmao. She rode the alt-right pipeline straight down to fascism like a goddamn slip 'n slide lmaoo

[aardvaark]

oh i kinda hate how leverage: redemption season 2 ends. astrid just believes sophie & says she’s family? i love sophie, and i know what it’s like to hurt someone when acting in self-preservation or fear… but that’s exactly why i think that astrid deserves to feel however she wants to feel about what sophie did. she was sad and angry when we first saw her. she said she’d devoted her life to catching grifters because sophie ruined her and her father’s lives. like… you don’t just get over that in the course of a day! and you shouldn’t have to!

if she wants to forgive sophie, that’s really great too, i’m not against forgiveness lol - but we saw that astrid very much hadn’t forgiven her just hours earlier, and we didn’t get to see astrid express any of that anger & sadness or come to terms with this whole situation at hand. plus the show had been setting up a very emotional arc for sophie & astrid for quite a few episodes, and then we never actually get much of a payoff. and no proper explanation for why she trusts sophie’s plan and doesn’t want to arrest her.

but instead it makes no sense!! and was super crammed for time, which is probably why we didn’t get much of an explanation. we got more of sophie feeling guilty than astrid getting to process & discuss the thing that was done to HER. i loved all the build up to the finale episodes, but not the episodes themselves :( feel free to disagree though, id kinda like to hear more discussion & perspectives on this!

[libraryleopard]

Adult science fiction standalone novel

In near-future America, struggling documentary filmmaker Hayes Figuerido learns that an alternate version of himself from a parallel universe created the Envisioner, a device that can predict the future, and sent it to his reality

When he joins a team of scientists studying the Envisioner, Hayes meets physicist Yusuf and learns the two of them are married in another universe and finds himself falling for Yusuf in this one

As Hayes learns more about the multiverse, however, it becomes clear that while their lives are inextricably linked, their story often ends in tragedy and saving Yusuf could risk the univerise

Explores multiverse theory and questions of how far you will go to save the one you love

Gay main character with depression; Egyptian, Muslim love interest; M/M romance; aromantic asexual Japanese side character

[dpspcehntr]

Hello 🤗 I have a question that has crossed my mind from time to time and I would like your (and maybe your followers) opinion on this, if you don't mind.

Thinking realistically, rather than with a romantic notion, do you think the LaDs men have had much, if any, sexual experience that hasn't been with MC?

Would God of the Tides have concubines brought to him, or gone on dates as a land lubber? Or do you think his bond with MC would prevent him from 'engaging' with anyone else?

Did Xavier date anyone before MC joined the guardians (I don't know the name I forget lol)?

I don't know anything about Sylus

Would Zayne have had a prom date or a girlfriend before he met with the current timeline MC? I know he says we are his only experience, but does that include just kissing someone?

I’M SO GLAD YOU ASKED!! One, I have also been rotating this around in my brain for quite some time and how I feel very lightly colors how I write for them! I haven't read much (if any at all) of the myths so I will just be looking at the present. I love thinking about this cause tbh sometimes the characterizations in game are not as full as I would like. I won’t keep this long but if you want more detail I’m happy to add to this post! Anyway! Here are my thoughts!

Rafayel is literally the reason I had this thought in the first place. I thought it was so silly to think that he as a rich artsy boy had never ONCE hooked up with someone. He absolutely is a FUCKBOY! I will hear nothing else about it. I can't image he's not when so much of his overall characterization just oozes that kind of energy for me. My exception to this is that I don't think he enjoyed himself very much. Used sex kind of like a numbing thing cause he felt the void of your absence hard. He's not like a community dick kind of fuckboy but he has definitely been passed around a few times, if not as a professional then in art school.

Xavier is another one who I feel has some experience before (re)meeting MC. His experience is alot more clumsy and unsure compared to Rafayel. More of a situation like 'I want to be ready when I find her so I'm going to try it with someone else to be good at it. There may only be one person he's had sex with before MC and it was so bad she just had to leave. When that failed he just turned to erotica and p*rn to fill in the gaps. Eventually getting used to using his own imagination and getting off when needed. So when the time comes he's very prepared and VERY horny.

Sylus is a bit of a hard one because yes absolutely he is having sex with people before meeting MC. His overall vibe very much eludes to the fact that he has lived a life and I'm sure that is included. I don't think he's slinging it out to anyone who asks but he has been in some kind of relationship before. If anything we can say he is very comfortable having sex and has had sex before meeting MC. I have some more thoughts on this but I will keep it there for now!

Zayne from what I know has said that he isn't experienced and we are his first and I believe that. He very much gives full focus on the task at hand kind of man. Definitely not in high school but in med school I image him having a non serious fling with someone just to say he tried. They broke up soon after and he just never tried again until he and MC reconnected. That being said, he is a bit of a perv and has ALOT of pent up energy so once they start they literally don't stop. Like a weekend stuck in an endless loop of sleep, eat, fuck until he's at work desperate for you once again. The problem for him is learning how to control himself now that has MC.

My ask box is open for further conversations on this cause I genuinely love talking about this! Lets keep the conversation going!

[somewhereincairparavel]

If Jason had been written to have atleast somewhat of a jealousy streak of Percy, then it would have made him more human tbh. Ironically I feel like the fandom would've been much more empathetic to his character, if he acknowledged that he envied Percy a little and then came to terms with it. We know that Jason's fear of being 2nd best is a very integral part of his character, I mean, Gaia taunting him with that in his nightmares was enough to reduce him into tears. and that's the ONLY time we've even remotely seen him cry. Percy had so many things Jason didn't have, a loving mom, a loving girlfriend who took a knife for him and never broke his heart, a loving camp that looked for him endlessly after he went missing, people ACTUALLY wanting him to survive because they care about him not because they need him for glory, etc. and if im being honest Poseidon wasn't even that bad of a father (for a big three god, atleast) tbh he still came to percy's 15th birthday, invited him to fishing, genuinely loved sally, she was probably the only mortal he fell in love with and it stayed that way, he was never rude to percy and stuck up for him etc. not tryna say percy had it easy or anything ofc he didnt, but there is no point in denying that he had a MUCH better support system than jason ever had.

The fact that Jason despite having none of these things was not even remotely envious of Percy made him appear like a bland robot with no emotional baggage

Compare this to Nico, who was rightfully a little jealous/idolizing Percy while simultaneously having a crush on him, also a little jealous of Jason because he was "the golden boy" who everyone respected, it made him have SO much depth and the fandom loves him (rightfully so)

also, leo. He was resentful of Percy up until blood of Olympus because of how everyone loved him, how Calypso fell for him almost immediately, etc. it's very realistic.Jason feeling a little resentful of Percy and then later talking it out would've made his character much less of a shallow stereotypical nice guy that ppl dislike.

maybe Rick could've expanded on Jason's jealousy of how quickly camp Jupiter accepted Percy and how quickly Reyna made him praetor, when jason himself had dedicated his whole life to it and was only made praetor in the last couple months, how camp Jupiter and his supposed friends never held a memorial for him even after they thought he was dead, etc. Also how Percy spent more time with thalia than jason ever did, we know he did feel a little envious since he mentioned how much he wished thalia looked for him the way she was looking for percy

I would've loved to see Jason being a little cold to Reyna too because of this and then they later talk it out, since it's VERY realistic, I was surprised with how quickly jason shrugged the whole Percy- being- a -praetor thing off, I thought he'd have felt a little betrayed by Reyna considering that they were childhood friends, and reyna never really sent a search party or something after him like annabeth did, gods, the amount of angst potential this man had i love him ugh

[infamous-if]

Ngl, Seven's special was very disappointing :( I just want MC to be loved and cherished without their ROs making them so insecure. Even G and Vic made MC feel important and loved, like they belonged together. And in Seven's it felt like MC didn't fit into their live anymore.

I guess my answer is spoilery so ///

I respect your perspective but I don't think I agree tbh I think Seven making the effort not to be the same overwhelming, intense person they were for their relationship's sake is trying to fit them in their life. Seven could easily revert back to their old ways and become even worse since they lost MC once, I can't imagine Seven being a healthy person to be with due to their intensity. Present Seven trying to be like their old self would probably be far too codependent and extreme out of their fear of losing MC.

The other ROs are making sure MC feels loved and important but they're not fundamentally changing themselves for MC. Seven is going against their nature and their personality to make sure they're a healthier version of themself for MC. And I'm not trying to be like kissing Seven's ass but it's hard to compare ROs who have never had a past relationship with MC to an RO who had one, fell out, and hated them for three years. It's just not as easy and it doesn't feel realistic to me to make it easy. I could've written a short full of fluff and I tried but it felt disingenuous and wasn't what I wanted to do lolol

It's also a non-canon short story that is written with an insecure MC. The point you're supposed to focus on is the message of the story as a hint for the route but everything else is written because it made it easier to convey that message. So MC being insecure isn't a canon thing, it's a Amy-felt-like-writing-mc-that-way thing lol

If you're worried, just reread the last line! You'll get what you're hoping for I promise lolol

[mactavishsgfandwife]

Simon Riley x Curly Haired Reader

universally applicable to any curly girly (who wears her hair natural) 😋 pure fluff beautiful beautiful image from @ave661

When you and Simon first started going out, he only ever saw you with straight hair - you were worried about spending the night with him in case he would see your natural hair after a shower, and find it ‘ugly’. It was silly, but it felt like your curls didn’t look like other curls, they were just… a mess. The first time Si saw your natural hair, he was immediately all over you, even though he’d only come round to pick up his phone. He got so distracted by you that he completely ‘forgot’ about the phone, and just had to visit you again the next day to get it.

Simon Riley who loves to sit and watch you doing your hair. If you two have to stay at a hotel for a special event, and he’s ready way before you (his military efficiency), he is very happy to sit on the bed and watch as you try to fix that one curl that won’t curl like the rest of your head. He has NO idea what you’re doing, like, completely clueless, but you look pretty doing it.

Simon Riley who genuinely thinks you’re the prettiest girl he’s ever seen. You’re hot with curly hair, with straight hair, you’d be hot with no hair - he really doesn’t care, he just loves you. That said, he does secretly have a soft spot for your curly hair. Something about the volume and the aura it gives you is so perfect. That’s his girl.

Simon Riley who lets you buy hair products with his money. He doesn’t care, he likes to spoil you, and he doesn’t understand what’s wrong with his 3-in-1 shampoo but he’s happy to indulge his pretty girl if it makes her happy.

Simon Riley who is GREAT at messing up your hair. It feels so nice and he always has to touch it, playing with a strand when you’re sitting on the sofa together or full on gripping it while you’re making out. He’s finally learnt that he can’t just rake his hands through it (once they actually got stuck) but that doesn’t stop him from constantly tucking your hair behind your ear or patting it when he has an arm around you .

Simon Riley who, failing that, loves to smell your hair. You tell him it’s weird but your products just smell so good!!! And they smell like you!! If you’re in the kitchen, he’ll hug you from behind, and (not so) secretly smell your hair as he mumbles something to you about something totally random or about how much he loves you. One or the other.

Simon Riley who hopes that your kids have curly hair just like their mummy. The idea of his girl carrying around a toddler with identical curly hair, in little pigtails or tiny braids, melts his heart. He’s a tough guy almost all of the time, he’d probably intimidate any other guy on the street by his size and general rough attitude but if you gave him a baby girl that looked just like you, he would be totally devoted. He’d even let her try to put pink hair clips in his short hair, or draw on his tattooed arms. The idea of watching you do your baby’s hair for them melts his heart.

Simon Riley with whom you once tried to do that cute couple thing where you draw each other, and though you did your best to make a realistic drawing of him, he drew you as a stick figure with loopy squiggles for hair and little hearts around you. He was really proud of it, too. Says he hopes your kids don’t inherit his artistic talent.

i don’t know how many cod girlies have curly hair but i do!!! i wish i had a man to buy me nice products tbh

[yesimwriting]

Do you think best friend!felix would kiss the reader “for fun” but really���

hm. good question bc i really had to think about this bc if anyone can get away with platonically kissing someone it's 110% felix, and it does feel in character

i was on the fence until i remembered that the first (and only) guy i dated started off as a really good friend and before dating we'd kiss at parties and laugh it off the next day bc of the alcohol/atmosphere so it's very much realistic bc i did not notice for an entire semester😭

so let's discuss!!

felix would definitely hide behind the "for fun" defense by being as casual as possible with it. while out partying/drinking, he'd kiss reader so briefly the reader can barely register what's happening until it's happened. also this is mainly done after a particularly good/happy moment,, maybe after you two take a shot together, with that touch of adrenaline and the sting of alcohol still lingering there. would definitely do this if he felt jealous/saw someone checking out reader.

now, if we're talking actual, more intentional kisses that are harder to explain away....i think these are a definitely a lot rarer, but for sure have happened.

still uses the "for fun" argument if it's a party thing, like if everyone's kissing someone (like a NYE kiss) or it's bc of some party game, then he's lingering/being touchier than usual bc he can get away with it.

also not to take this a step further and make it even more difficult to justify, but i think there's a level of intimacy to it bc felix is so touchy/open with everyone, that eventually the only way to be particularly close to someone is to do more.

so,, and this is definitely the rarest type of kiss ( like it's happened at most 2-3 times) after drinking/smoking together, felix will kiss reader when they're completely alone, with no one to blame or goad you on or interrupt. these are slow and heavy. concentrated.

there's always an emotional component,, maybe reader had been poorly trying to hide their mood because felix had been a little too into being admired recently. or maybe felix feels left out about something and needs to find a way to feel even closer to reader.

after felix is definitely being more open than he usual is, telling you things like "i trust you more than i've ever trusted anyone, you know that right?" and "it's just you and me."

the first time this happened is the first time reader has a oh my god?? do i actually have a thing for felix? moment,, and after felix finally falls asleep, reader freaks out bc what if what happened ruined your friendship?

but then the next morning comes and it's like nothing happened, he doesn't even do that guy thing where they ignore you the next day, it's literally like nothing out of the ordinary happened and out of instinct, reader follows felix's lead

then reader convinces themselves that it's not that weird by telling themselves that felix has probably at least kissed most of the people that are around him for long enough which is kind of true and you know several people that he still hangs out with that he hooks up with on and off,,

so, with the amount of time you spend together,, it isn't strange. not when you know felix the way reader does.

when taylor wrote “and you kiss me in a way that’s going to screw me up forever” it was for felix

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this might be a little much,, but i can see it for felix tbh 😭

anyways, if anyone's interested in a drabble based on any part of this, lmk!!

[cloudabserk]

will you ever draw narusasu with their adult designs

sure! here you go :)

tbh i have drawn them a couple of times, but i don’t really like their designs in boruto that much. i don’t mind naruto’s shorter hair (buzz cut naruto anyone?) but the way his face is drawn in boruto often looks weird and alien. his outfit is lame and boring, which sucks because his og outfit felt very fun and quirky to me. it fit little naruto so well. this just has no vibe

sasuke is a little better i think, i like his long hair (but i miss the floof) and his outfit is better than naruto’s. a purple vest is very interesting, however, his og outfits were SO cool!! and this doesn’t live up to that. they had the opportunity to go so hard with an adult sasuke design, but they dropped everything. the purple is a good idea, but they completely lost any kind of interesting shape or texture. no skirt, no swishy shirt, no interesting necklines, no contrasts… it doesn’t evoke his family or orochimaru or itachi or naruto or sasuke’s mood or mindset the way any of his original outfits did, but it doesn’t even have the “going into wilderness and living separate from my identity” vibe the poncho did. the boruto outfit is just “vaguely fancy guy who might be a ninja, maybe”.

overall: i think naruto and sasuke’s original outfits had a very strong texture feel and shape that conveyed information about the characters. it made the world feel more realistic. in contrast, their outfits in boruto look like they could be made out of very cheap halloween costume material, and they look like they were designed by someone who doesn’t know the characters very well. it’s like a guy was handed sticky notes that said “naruto: orange. sasuke: purple and stylish” and had 20 minutes to come up with something

[bevy-obeyme]

what if…here me out on this when the demon bros are having private time MC can feel it because of the pacts, like he can just feel basically everything the demon bros do and they take advantage of the fact that MC can feel what they do (bottom male mc if you write for male mc :3)

This is a very intriguing ask tbh!! And thank you for your ungodly patience.

(I realise it took me a whole week to get this done and I apologise. Please forgive me my beautifully amazing fans.)

{{NSFW - Sexual themes (nothing too bad though!!)}}

When pent up stress needs to be relieved

Lucifer

- Realistically, Lucifer would already know exactly the effect it would have on you. And he had to admit, it thrilled him.

- He would take advantage of it even if he wasn’t aroused - just to see you squirm. Just to see your trousers grow a tent or the desperate messages that would ping on his phone begging for him to stop.

- He’d even dare do it whilst you were hanging out with his brothers to remind you that you were his.

- Oh how the sadistic bastard loved this game.

Mammon

- He would definitely be embarrassed after he wanked off for you to come into his room looking all needy and worked up.

- How was he supposed to explain himself here??

- But then, seeing the look of desire, that flush on your cheeks - well, it overpowered his embarrassment.

- He was always a bit cautious afterwards not to jerk off afterwards - he didn’t want you getting into too much trouble or worse, Lucifer spotting and understanding what happened.

- But, he wouldn’t deny you if you came onto him when he was hard. Oh no. You were in your first man’s arms now.

Leviathan

- Now, after he found out, he was extremely embarrassed and shy. Hell, he ignored you for hours out of shame. Why did he think of you like that?! What right did a dirty otaku like him have?

- But, at the same time, it was nice to see his desire reciprocated. To see you look back at him with the same needy look.

- He probably wouldn’t take advantage of it, but he wouldn’t be against getting you worked up with your consent.

Satan

- The blond would definitely use this as an advantage too. Although much more subtly than Lucifer.

- For example, he’d work himself up a bit but by the time you’d question him, he’d act all coy and have no idea what you’re on about, that polite smile never quite reaching his eyes.

- Overstimulation would definitely be something you should expect. He was a master of pushing boundaries but never breaking them.

Asmodeus

- He would definitely be excited. What else did you expect of the literal Avatar of Lust?

- He’d be down to try anything - hell, he’d probably have you jerk him off just to get yourself hard too. Any idea you proposed just made Asmodeus libido skyrocket.

- Asmo would probably become a lot clingier and whinier too, trying to convince you not to go to student council meetings and spend time with him.

- You met harsh reprimands from Lucifer each time but damn was it worth it.

Beelzebub

- Now, when Beel learned about how he was affecting you he genuinely felt horrible.

- He would get worried and ask about if you were uncomfortable with the thought or not and apologise bashfully for his urges.

- Even despite your reassurances and that you liked it, he always made sure to ask your consent beforehand. He never wanted to take advantage of you and probably never will.

Belphegor

- The sleepy demon would probably be too tired most of the time to take advantage of his effect.

- But, if the occasional mood did strike up, he would make sure you were in public or doing something every time. He just had to torture you with his own arousal and send you pounding up the attic stairs to him.

- Your needy expression and pouts never failed to make him grin. Oh how he did love having a pact with such a powerless human.

[freckliedan]

could you expand on your thoughts why you think dan and phil havent always been monogamous? super curious! i kind of get the same vibe.

i'm happy to expand on it tbh! it's something i think and talk a lot about with my friends.

i'm hesitant about going in depth because i've found that's when people find it okay to say deeply shitty things to me, a polyamorous person, under the guise of academic debate/it just being a difference of opinion. but i'm also not going to let the possibility of that stop me?

ANYWAYS.

quite honestly the biggest thing for me is just. taking dan and phil at their word? even when parsing something true through them saying things in silly ways that's the easiest way to be right about them.

we noticed and believed in the underlying truth in their gay jokes before they were out. people are willing to entertain the bondage and mpreg and various other horny jokes as containing some kernel of truth. more people than literally any point in time are willing to believe there's some substance to dan's career-long mentions of gender.

but for whatever reason (mononormativity) the comments about them being attracted to/flirting with/being interested in other people get written off as 100% joking and funny because they're the most monogamous people ever & because they get jealous easily. and that just? sucks.

i think they've always been committed. like, phil brought dan home to meet his parents at their very first christmas together type committed. planning to spend the rest of their lives together from 3 months into the relationship committed.

but also like? that coexists with the fact that dan wasn't able to come out to himself as gay until the lead up to basically i'm gay. 2018 or maybe 2017, i think. @freckliephil or @phulge has brought up the idea to me before that part of why they didn't label their relationship to us in 2019 may have been because they were still in flux with labeling it for themselves.

dan has also always had commitment issues due to how he saw his parents' relationship function/due to his home life growing up and i'm NOT going to elaborate on this one but it is so obvious.

(consider this whole post informed by conversations with aries and roper btw).

i think the idea that dan and phil were secure in their connection but not in a place where they had to (or could, on dan's part) ascribe labels to it in the early years is realistic?

and i think their commitment and security can coexist with the idea of like. "i think it's hot seeing you kiss other people for attention at parties and come home with me". + i genuinely think the fantastic foursome explored each other's bodies on the italy trip. etc.

i definitely think there would've been huge stretches of monogamy, and i do think that there was jealousy before they found their footing and felt comfortable in their commitment. (different rant, but i think most of what gets read as jealousy these days is them dong a bit/possessiveness).

but i think there's also always been points in time where they were either theoretically or in practice fine with having sexual experiences with other people. that wouldn't've really been possible during their deep closet era, and i don't think it was COMMON beforehand.

but i also think that it's definitely something possible after they came out.

i think people hear me say this and assume i'm degrading the incredible and beautiful love and commitment dan and phil share. that i'm reducing queer men's relationships down to sex only.

but like. i'm not fucking doing that! the people making those assumptions are doing that! and saying a lot about how they view non monogamy too!

i'm saying i think they're so secure in their love and relationship that they're literally completely unbothered and not threatened by potentially having an open relationship. devotion is not only present in monogamous relationships.

WAD makes sense as a point of post coming out timing for another open period in their relationship to me. quite honestly i could see phil being the one to suggest it to dan? 2019 thru the close of WAD was dan's self actualization era.

growing up in the context of a single committed relationship does things to you psychologically. your identity formation happens side by side with another person and even if the relationship isn't controlling and toxic you can really lose sight of your individuality, if you're not careful. this is even easier to have happen if you share all of your friends, live together, AND work together. ESPECIALLY if you're significantly closeted in some way.

i know this because i've also lived it. believe me when i say dan NEEDED to figure out who he was as an individual. we saw him do that in several iterations artistically/careerwise. but we also saw his interest in experiencing queer culture in ways he missed out on when he was young and closeted.

so i think dan actually WAS on the apps, when he was touring WAD. i wouldn't be surprised if that was phil's idea, even. a "don't worry, go see the world, we've been open before, i'm not worried you won't want to come home to me, nobody's gonna match your freak like i do". i think phil would've had the option too but probably would've taken it less.

and i think it's like. like they're best friends! it's something they would've been talking about with each other. i think it could've been foreplay to them sometimes. i think it could've been what catapaulted dan into his top era. (this is a seperate essay from drs. frecklie, frecklie and phulge as well).

most importantly we think dan came back from the first leg of WAD having completely exorcised his fear of commitment and. wait i have to find a specific message. nevermind you're getting 3 screenshots without any further context

anyways. i can't find the specific point where we said this so it was maybe an in person conversation but the rest of the idea is that experiencing other options resulted in dan coming back from WAD and proposing. and phil proposing the gaming channel return right back. we 1000% said this before phil mentioned that he's the one who suggested the gaming channel return i just can NOT fucking find receipts on that because we largely voice message.

this has been an entire ramble that touched on a lot of different subjects but. yeah. dan and phil aren't polyamorous in the "both dating another person as a couple/other people as individuals" sense nor will they ever be. but there's sooo much room between that and strict monogamy.

and a lot of that in between is in perfect alignment with the ways they've talked about their lives over the years and is yet another extension of them having a level of trust love and intimacy in their relationship that most people will never experience. so

thank you for coming to my ted talk.

[pookalicious-hq]

gold rush... isagi yoichi x reader

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synopsis: yoichi can't help but see the girl at his bus stop as a good omen tags/tws: meet-cute , swearing, realistic isagi (this guy doesn't pull any girls tbh) , mc eye colour is mentioned but it's part of the plot guys word count: 3.9k

There was no logical reason for Yoichi’s heartbeat to be three times faster this lovely autumn morning. The crisp air nipped at his cheeks, carrying the earthy scent of fallen leaves and damp grass. His breath misted in front of him as he exhaled, the coolness wrapping around him like an invisible weight. However, he often replayed every action in his mind, reminiscing about the good, the bad, and the very ugly. Yesterday's scrimmage was no different—every pass, every shot, and every glance exchanged with her flashed behind his eyes on a loop.

He sighed, feeling the slight crunch of brittle leaves beneath his feet. The memory of her passionate determination lingered longer than the rest. It wasn’t just how she played, but how every moment with her felt like it was more than a game.

And now? Now he was walking to the bus stop where she'd be waiting.

His footsteps felt heavier the closer he got, the gravel under his shoes shifting as if slowing him down on purpose. A gust of wind swept past him, tugging at his jacket, but his nerves already had him too on edge to appreciate the chill. This is stupid. It’s just a bus ride. But his heart refused to slow down, drumming in his chest as if it knew something he didn’t.

The fading golds and oranges of the trees blurred in his peripheral vision, his focus narrowing as he neared the bus stop. Sure, they’d exchanged a few words before, but yesterday... Yesterday changed everything. He still remembered the fire in her eyes, the way he had to hold her back from taking the game away from him.

What do I even say to her?

His fingers curled slightly, brushing against the fabric of his track pants, as if searching for something to ground him. He tried to be calm on the field, always able to read the game, but now? His mind was too cluttered to make sense of anything.

Would she still look at him with that same glint? Would she resent him for holding her back? Would they—

He stopped short, his heart skipping a beat.

She was already there. Sitting on the bench, her eyes shut softly, the early sunlight casting a soft glow across her features. The faint smell of wet pavement rose from the ground beneath their feet.

Shit.

Yoichi swallowed hard, pulse quickening. There she was. What now?

The sound of his shoe soles dragging against the pavement wove into the morning silence, each step louder than the last. A soft breeze rustled the leaves overhead, but everything else seemed to still as he neared the bench. (Y/n) tilted her head slightly, the subtle movement pulling his attention like gravity.

A sharp flash of gold met his gaze.

Oh. He thought she would’ve had her headphones on, lost in her own world as she usually was. But this time? She was fully present, her attention locked onto him with an intensity that made his throat tighten.

The weight of her gaze was deafening. It pressed against his chest, tightening around his lungs, making each breath feel heavier. Yoichi could feel her searching, her eyes scanning the edges of his mind, probing beneath the surface. But for what? He wasn’t sure.

The silence between them stretched out, thick with unspoken words. His mouth felt dry. Say something, anything.

Just as he was about to break under her gaze, she saved him.

"Good game yesterday.”

With the arrival of those three words, the tension that resided in his shoulders disappeared like mist in the morning sun. Now a foot away, he took in all her features properly. Her eyes were relaxed, the remnants of sleep still evident in her gaze, giving her an endearing softness that contrasted sharply with the fire he’d seen during the game.

The light morning air was cool, brushing against his skin, but he felt warmth radiating from her presence. The delicate scent of autumn leaves and something faintly floral drifted around them, grounding him in this moment. Her hair, tousled and catching the soft morning light, framed her face in a way that made his breath hitch.

There was a comfortable familiarity between them now, as if yesterday had woven a thread of connection that pulled tighter with each shared glance. The crisp autumn air seemed to hum with unspoken words, wrapping around them like a warm blanket. Yoichi found himself smiling, the weight of their unspoken words lifting like a weight from his chest.

"You too. You’re actually insane," he said, chuckling lightly.

(Y/n) gave a small puff of laughter in response, hugging her knees up to her chest, her breath creating tiny clouds in the chilly morning air. Her eyes flashed up to his, eyebrows raised. “Thanks, Mister First Place. I’m glad you thought so.”

Now, it was his turn to laugh, the corners of his mouth turning up in amusement at the nickname as he took a seat beside her. But then the gravity of yesterday returned to him, and he shifted slightly, feeling the tension wrap around him again. “Hey,” he began, his voice softer, “I’m really sorry about yesterday with Yoshida. That was incredibly disrespectful and out of line.”

(Y/n)’s expression hardened for a moment, her eyes narrowing slightly as if bracing against the vulnerability of the moment. But after a heartbeat, her gaze softened, searching his as if to gauge his sincerity. Yoichi could see the remnants of yesterday’s fire still flickering in her eyes, mingled with a hint of gratitude.

“Yeah,” she replied quietly, her tone earnest. “But you’re not the person who needs to apologize.”  She paused, the silence stretching between them like an unwelcome fog, igniting worry in the pit of Yoichi’s stomach. He had to try to fill the silence somehow, his mind racing to find the right words.

“Also, I’m sorry for holding your arm without asking,” he said, the weight of the apology hanging heavily in the air. “I know that situation was already complicated as it was.”

She shrugged slightly, a faint smile ghosting across her lips. “No, that was completely fine. I would’ve probably regretted it after they kicked me out of the team.”

“They’d be dumb to waste your talent,” he countered, the words spilling out before he could second-guess them.

“... Thanks,” she replied, her cheeks flushing just a bit, and he felt the warmth of her gratitude envelop him like the autumn sun breaking through the trees. 

Yoichi found himself stuck in time. Though this stillness wasn’t frigid and tense—it felt more like he was slowly seeping into her glow. The edges around the heat from her aggression yesterday were dimmed to a calm flicker of warmth.

“So, you’re also a midfielder?” (Y/n) asked, tilting her head slightly, curiosity dancing in her eyes.

“Hopefully only temporarily…” Yoichi replied, a hint of hesitation threading through his voice. The weight of ambition tugged at his heart; he was aiming for something greater, something that felt just out of reach.

Her eyebrows shot up, a playful glint sparking in her expression. “What do you have against midfielders?”

He chuckled, the tension easing further between them. “It’s not that I have anything against midfielders. I just—want to be Japan’s best striker,” he admitted, his voice steadying with resolve. The crisp autumn air wrapped around them, carrying the faint scent of fallen leaves and the promise of change. “I mean, that’s where I really want to end up. But... it’s a bit complicated. With Rin and Shidou taking those spots, it’s going to take some work to get there. I’ve got to stand out, you know?”

He could feel the warmth of the morning sun on his skin, contrasting with the cool breeze that rustled the leaves above them, creating a soft whispering sound. “I’m definitely willing to try though; just got a couple of things to work on.”

As he spoke, his words flowed more freely, igniting a nervous energy in his chest. “This coach seems to like me as a midfielder though, so we’ll see…” His eyes flickered back to (Y/n), searching her expression. He could see her interest; the way she leaned in slightly, her hair catching the light like strands of fire, made his heart race even faster.

Silence followed the end of his unintentional rant, and the weight of his thoughts hung heavy in the air. “Shit—sorry. Didn’t mean to spill my literal hopes and dreams onto you.” He ran a hand through his hair, the embarrassment creeping up his neck.

A flush of heat rushed to his cheeks as he met her gaze, bracing himself for a look of scrutiny, maybe even an uncomfortable side-eye. Instead, he was greeted by a breathtaking array of sunlight illuminating her face.

His breath caught in his throat. What would he give for her to look at him like that every single second of every day? Her eyes crinkled into two crescent moons, the warm gold from the rising sun dancing behind her eyelids, casting a soft glow over her features. The slightest of smiles graced her lips, the sight sending jolts to his heart. God, hopefully, she didn’t know what she was doing to him.

“All good,” she said, tilting her head slightly to the side, a playful glint in her eyes. “I’m sure you’ll get there sooner than you think.”

Yoichi felt a rush of warmth flood through him, the sound of her voice like a gentle caress, soothing his earlier nerves. “Thanks, but it’s just—being a midfielder feels like a step back. I don’t want to be stuck there, you know? I want to score goals, make those game-winning plays! I want to feel that rush when the crowd goes wild after a perfect shot. It’s just...”

He took a breath, the weight of his words hanging between them. “When I see someone like Rin, who just naturally fits the role of a striker, it drives me crazy. I know I can do it too, but it’s like there’s this invisible wall. I just need to break through it. And every time I’m on the field, I’m thinking, ‘What can I do differently?’”

(Y/n) was nodding, her eyes wide with interest. Yoichi could see her absorbing every word, the way she leaned in slightly, her expression shifting from playful to sincere as he spoke. “I don’t want to just be another player. I want to be the one they remember.”

“Yeah, that’s all I ever want to be.” She laughed, the sound dancing through the crisp morning air and greeting Yoichi’s ears like a melody. “I also get what you mean about Rin… I just accepted that I wouldn’t be a striker better than him.”

Her words caught him off guard, confusion flickering across his features. “You know Rin?”

“Wish I didn’t,” she groaned, rolling her eyes dramatically. The warmth of the morning sun highlighted the playful frustration etched on her face. “His cousin is my cousin’s sister-in-law or something? To be honest, I really don’t know. Just that his talent used to be something I was after. Now I’m happy with my place.”

The way she spoke held a mix of resignation and determination, her fingers idly toying with the hem of her jacket. The honesty in her voice made Yoichi’s heart race; he admired her ability to pivot her ambitions. “You should be, lots of people would die to have your talent.”

(Y/n) shrugged, a hint of a smile creeping onto her lips. “I guess so. We’re way different than I thought. I’m glad I’m not just the girl version of him or whatever.” Her gaze drifted to the ground, where the fallen leaves crunched beneath her feet, their crispness echoing the transition of seasons. The morning sunlight cast a golden hue on her features, highlighting the determination in her expression.

“I want to make my mark in my own way, you know? Not everyone has to be a striker.” The sincerity in her voice resonated with him, a refreshing breeze that stirred something deep within Yoichi.

“No, yeah. I’m sure Rin wouldn’t even be able to keep up with you right now,” he added, a playful smile crossing his face.

She rolled her eyes, but the corners of her mouth lifted in amusement. “You might want to watch what you say—he could be lurking nearby,” she teased, glancing around as if expecting Rin to pop out from behind a tree.

Just then, the rumble of the bus engine broke their playful banter. The large vehicle approached, its bright colours gleaming in the morning sun, and the sound of its tires crunching over the gravel contrasted with the gentle rustling of fallen leaves in the autumn breeze.

As the bus came to a halt, the doors swung open with a whoosh, releasing a warm gust of air that carried the faint scent of diesel and the promise of adventure. (Y/n) stepped inside first, and Yoichi followed closely behind, taking a seat beside her.

The interior was a mix of soft morning light filtering through the windows and the low hum of conversation from a few other early commuters. She settled into her seat, and he couldn’t help but steal glances at her. Her eyes fluttered, the remnants of sleep still evident, as she leaned against the window, her head slowly tilting to the side.

As the bus pulled away from the stop, the world outside blurred into a kaleidoscope of colours—crimson and gold leaves swirling in the breeze. Yoichi felt a warmth spreading in his chest, watching as (Y/n)’s eyelids grew heavy.

Before long, her breathing deepened, and she surrendered to sleep, her head resting gently against the glass. He watched her, captivated by how serene she looked, a slight smile gracing her lips even in her slumber. The bus swayed gently, the rhythm lulling him into a comfortable silence as he settled in beside her.

He couldn’t help but reimagine the expression on her face as she listened to his hopes for the future. He was probably imagining it, but he could feel her attentiveness on him in that moment.

The ride was peaceful, each bump in the road a reminder of the world beyond their bubble. The smell of the bus’s vinyl seats mingled with the crisp autumn air that seeped in through the open windows. Yoichi found himself lost in thought, replaying their conversation, the laughter they shared, and the flicker of determination in her eyes.

As the bus neared her stop, he felt a rush of warmth at the thought of waking her up. He gently nudged her shoulder, his voice soft as he said, “Hey, we’re almost at your stop.”

She stirred slightly, a sleepy smile breaking across her face as she blinked her eyes open. “Oh… s’fine. I’ll get off at the other stop,” she mumbled, pulling her hood further over her eyes, her voice thick with sleep. The sound was soft and melodic, sending a flutter through his chest. “We’re supposed to meet at the gym on the other side anyways…”

The warmth in his chest deepened at her words. It was sweet, the way she was willing to extend their time together, though the more logical voice told him it was because she wanted to sleep for longer. “You sure? I just go the long way to walk by the duck pond.”

“Ducks? I’d rather see them with you than deal with the real world just yet,” she replied, her voice still dreamy as she leaned back against the seat, her expression softening in the light filtering through the window.

The bus rattled over a set of tracks, and Yoichi felt the familiar buzz of anticipation. He watched her, captivated by the way her features relaxed, the morning sun casting a gentle glow around her. Her breath came slow and steady, and for a moment, he simply enjoyed the sight of her, caught between wakefulness and dreams.

“I’ll wake you in a few minutes then,” he said, a grin tugging at his lips.

“‘kay,” she replied with a lazy smile, her eyes fluttering closed once more.

He felt a mix of amusement and admiration for her laid-back attitude. The bus rolled onward, the world outside a blur of colours—vibrant yellows and reds painted the trees, a stark contrast to the gray pavement. He let the warmth of her presence wash over him, the sound of her breathing syncing with the rhythm of the bus as they both settled into a comfortable silence.

Yoichi wasn’t aware, but a smile had spread across his face for the remainder of their time on the bus. His delight simmered in the back of his mind as he stared out the window, watching the world whisk by in a tapestry of autumn hues. Sunlight streamed through the glass, illuminating his features and casting a soft glow over (Y/n)'s sleeping form. The way her hair caught the light made her look ethereal, almost as if she belonged in a dream.

Every little bump in the road jostled him gently, reminding him of how ordinary this moment was—yet it felt anything but. The bus’s engine hummed steadily, a soothing backdrop to the whirlwind of thoughts swirling in his head. He couldn’t help but replay their conversation, the laughter and shared dreams lingering like echoes in his heart. It was astonishing how quickly they had connected, how easy it felt to talk to her about his aspirations.

His gaze drifted back to (Y/n), noting the peacefulness on her face. The corners of her lips were slightly turned up, and he wondered what dreams danced behind those closed eyes. Did she have ambitions as grand as his? He imagined her stepping onto the field, determination etched on her face, leaving a mark that was entirely her own.

Just then, the bus hit a pothole, causing her to stir. She shifted in her seat, her head leaning slightly against his shoulder. The warmth of her skin against his sent a thrill down his spine. He fought the urge to freeze, unsure if he should move or let this moment linger. This is just a bus ride, he reminded himself, but it felt like something more. Something special.

As they approached her stop, a rush of regret flooded through him. “Hey, we’re almost there,” he whispered, nudging her gently.

Her eyes fluttered open, and for a moment, he lost himself in the depths of her gaze. “Ugh, really?” she mumbled, her voice still thick with sleep. “I was hoping for at least an hour longer.”

“Keep dreaming,” he teased, unable to help the playful smile that crossed his lips.

She chuckled softly, stretching her arms above her head, and he admired the way the early morning light danced around her, casting a warm halo that made her look ethereal. “Wish I could be,” she said, her voice laced with sincerity, her expression shifting from groggy to genuine.

“Funny,” he replied, warmth blooming in his chest. The bus slowed and came to a stop, the squeak of the brakes a stark reminder of reality. Reluctantly, he prepared to step off, wishing they could stay cocooned in this moment a little longer. Soon, they would be intertwined in the atmosphere of competitiveness and never-ending pressure at the gym, each trying to outdo the other.

But as he looked at her, he felt a quiet resolve. He planned to cherish these moments by the duck pond once more, though this time he wouldn’t be alone. There was something about their connection that promised more than just rivalry; it was a shared understanding, an unspoken bond that would only grow stronger in the days to come.

“I named her Melissa because she almost bit my foot off, so sassy for no reason.”

(Y/n)’s voice bubbled with laughter as she swiped through the photos of the duck on her phone. Melissa’s pesky expression shone brightly on the screen, her fluffy feathers illuminated by the overhead lights of the changing room.

“She looks like a Melissa,” Yua chimed in, leaning closer to catch a glimpse, her eyes sparkling with mischief.

“So… why did you go to the duck pond today?” Aiko asked, curiosity dancing in her eyes as the warm scent of sweat and detergent filled the air.

“Cuz I fell asleep on the bus and missed my normal spot,” (Y/n) shrugged, trying to sound casual. The answer was only half true, and she felt a slight flutter of nerves at the thought of Isagi, AKA Mister Number One. The last thing she needed was her friends digging into the details of their unexpectedly sweet morning.

“You really need to sleep earlier,” Hinata teased, nudging her playfully. “Always so tired.”

“Shut up, carrot top,” (Y/n) shot back, rising on her toes to whack her friend lightly on the head. Hinata laughed, swatting her hand away as they continued their playful bickering, the sound of their laughter echoing in the room.

Meanwhile, Yua and Akio huddled closer, still scrolling through her phone. “Wait, who took this picture of you and Melissa?” Yua asked, her brow furrowing as she pointed to a 0.5 of (Y/n) kneeling next to the duck, a wide grin plastered on her face.

Her laughter faded slightly as she glanced at the photo. “Huh? What do you mean?” (Y/n) replied, trying to keep her tone casual.

Akio raised an eyebrow, smirking. “You said you were alone. Unless Melissa’s husband grew a pair of arms, then it was someone else.”

“... what if—” she began, attempting to keep a straight face.

“Oh my god, shut up,” Yua laughed, crossing her arms with a grin. “You think I’m as dumb as Koko?”

From a few feet away, Koko, their goalie, let out a short huff, clearly hearing her name, but neither of the girls paid her any mind.

“I can’t believe you said that about Koko!” (Y/n) exclaimed, a grin breaking through. “So rude, Yua-chan.”

Hinata snorted. “Stop trying to change the subject; you’re not being smooth.”

(Y/n) rolled her eyes but couldn’t help but chuckle. “Fine, whatever. It was just Isagi,” she finally admitted, waving her hands dismissively. “He takes the same bus as me. Long story short, we passed by the duck pond. Big deal! Now, who wants to see Melissa’s kids?”

The room fell silent for a moment before Hinata’s eyes widened. “Wait, hold up. You talked to Isagi Yoichi?”

“Yeah, and? It was literally nothing,” (Y/n) shrugged, trying to downplay it even as her heart raced. “I just missed my stop, so we went his way.”

“Mister Number One?” Akio teased, a smirk dancing on his lips. “What happened to him being ‘just another dick’?”

“Obviously, I wouldn’t go to him with a duck pond of all places if he was a dick,” (Y/n) admitted, rolling her eyes but unable to suppress her smile. “He’s very respectful to the ducks!”

Yua nudged her, her eyes twinkling. “Aww, look at you! Duck date with Isagi! This is so cute!”

“Shut up!” (Y/n) laughed, tossing a nearby water bottle at Yua as the group continued to tease her. “It was definitely not a date. The closest we are to each other is acquaintances.”

Her claim was met with very unconvinced responses, though she didn’t mind, she was ultimately telling the truth about everything… Definitely.

a/n: omg im so sorry,,, its been so long! pls dont hate me tysm for being so patient life has been so crazy recently i love each and everyone of you guys mwah <333

taglist: @manjirosanoswifey , @sarahforever , @selmablck

[ellouchi]

Jimmy wedding/marriage headcannons (sfw (see disclaimer)/gn)

Disclaimer: abusive and toxic relationship, mentions of physical and sexual assault. Please read this work at your own discretion.

Side notes: OHHH LOOK AT WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO POST YESTERDAY AHAH...hah my bad. So this started out pretty tame, too tame for my liking. I wanted to get more toxic and miserable and finally I managed to write this. I'm very proud of it tbh lol. First part is alright but second part has things mentioned in the disclaimer. As per usual if I made a mistake or forgot to include smth lmk!!

Lighter scenario:

— Jimmy wouldn't bring up marriage, why would he really? Yeah you two may have been a couple for years but this man literally sees no point in marriage. For him, marriage was not about love — it was about benefits. This doesn't mean Jimmy is unable to love, he can, granted in a very convoluted hot and cold way.

— provided your relationship is on the healthier side, if you bring up the topic, initially Jim would genuinely think you were joking. You weren't. You had to repeat yourself for him to finally consider your words, carefully.

— the man was torn: on one hand, of course you would want to marry him, on the other hand, why did you want to marry him? Jimmy will flat out ask a single "why". He expects something pragmatic, realistic but you give him nothing but a look full of love. Because you loved him, wanting to swear to remain by his side for eternity to come. It was corny, Jimmy couldn't understand how you didn't feel an ounce of embarrassment and yet... Jimmy looked away: dammit, how stupid you were. Now his mind was occupied with the thought of you being his spouse. Great....

— Jimmy would settle for a civil marriage, maybe a short trip to a chapel also. You must understand: this man chronically doesn't have money. You will either have a big proper wedding (which is highly unlikely, besides Jimmy doesn't even want it, he just has an idea that that's how it supposed to go), or just your signatures on the marriage contract. If you follow some specific religion pretty serious, he is willing to fulfil all needed procedures, but that's still bare bones.

— the surname thing can go two ways: either Jimmy insists that you take his surname or he takes yours provided he hates his family with burning passion. If your surname carries some status, definitely takes it, like no way he wouldn't. The idea of double surname weirds Jimmy out a bit but he would permit it if you used his surname more often.

— now, the ceremony: Jimmy will rent a rather chic costume. It's probably the first and last time you will see Jim looking so well groomed: his posture upright, hair slicked back and no traces of the stubble you came to adore. He looks like an eye candy, and even though the suit is not to his liking Jimmy felt all smug with the way you fawned.

— the image of you in your attire makes an impression on him too. Jimmy just stares at you shamelessly as always, he's not too generous with praise but his "wow" and a smirk tugging at his lips tells you all you need to know.

— Jimmy would struggle to find a ring for you. He was well aware he had to go to jewelry store, but the mental image of the employees' treatment of him made it excruciatingly hard. After several attempts, he finally found a decent store with an adequate selection of rings. The piece itself didn't have a diamond in it, but Jimmy was very proud of his find.

— no proper wedding didn't mean that there would be no celebrations. Together with none other than Curly you planned a tiny wedding party, Jimmy had already been suspecting that something was in the making. Despite anticipating the surprise, he had to admit he was looking forward to what you two had planned.

— Jimmy doesn't wear his ring, makes excuses like it's too tight or too loose or uncomfortable to wear but in reality he's afraid of losing it one way or another. He has to hide it from himself actually, just in case he was going to do something foolish.

— now that you're officially married, Jimmy will use his newly acquired status to his advantage. Whether it's legal dealings or winning petty confrontations, Jimmy is using you in many ways you aren't even aware of. This man truly felt like a winner after declaring to some jerk that he was your husband, not some random boyfriend.

— Jimmy will keep the little bride and groom statue that has been on the wedding cake, puts it somewhere on the shelf so anyone could see it. "See? That's you and me. Don't forget about it" he would remind you whilst pointing at it like a child.

— this doesn't end here however. Being your husband means having a silver of authority over you, even if you two are on "equal" standing. Gives Jimmy many opportunities to (un)consciously manipulate you or gaslight you into whatever he wants. "Maybe instead of listening to your "friends" you should be listening to your husband", "As your husband, don't I have a say in this situation?" and "Don't forget you choose to marry me, I didn't force you." are the most frequent ones.

— Jimmy still would struggle with the idea that out of all the people, you've chosen to marry him. He didn't have a high standing in society, a respectable job, or best of character he was painfully aware of that, just as you. During those moments of doubts, Jimmy would come over to you and hold you, possessively. You both swore to be with each other forever, there was no going back.

Darker scenario:

— if Jimmy thinks you're better than him, like you being more successful and respectable, he latches onto marriage like a starving wolf. There is no better way of keeping you to himself than marrying you, especially if you show the initiative. This man projects a lot of his insecurities onto you like it's his full time job. This creates constant arguments and fights, threats of divorce and tearful apologies.

— Jimmy wouldn't believe in spousal infidelity (if he does it, naturally). If you remind him he's a married man, who's married to you, Jim will become annoyed, hostile even, and ridicule you for being overly jealous. The whole marriage situation becomes more of ordeal to him than something of use, especially if you put pressure on him "for no reason". Jimmy's attitude will get worse and worse with time, if he previously didn't pull any weights into the your relationship, now he actively sabotages it.

— Jimmy normally doesn't have paranoia but he's very susceptible to it. Marrying him in order to ease his worries, like you leaving him, won't work and would make things worse, so much worse. Precisely because you're his spouse, Jim would monitor or outright stalk you. It will start with checking your phone, any written journals, receipts from purchases and will escalate to him wandering nearby your work and following you when you're out with your friends or family. Even at home, where the two of you live, Jimmy won't take his eyes off from you.

— paranoia with turn into controlling your every move. Jimmy would create some absurd narrative, stemming from his own insecurities no less, and would frequently accuse you of being unfaithful. At some point smiling at your phone becomes something you have to look out for unless you're prepared for a round of questioning. Retaliation would be met with even more aggression: do you think he's blind or stupid?

— since Jimmy is your husband, you must listen and obey him. Doesn't matter if you are too, or if you are the breadwinner, he is in charge of the household (like, the man barely contributes and when he does, likes to exaggurate his input). Jim loves feeling like he is in control so it's easy to stroke his ego simply by complying with whatever he says, but this will also inevitably trap you. From now on, Jimmy will tell you what to like and dislike, how to dress, whom to talk to and how to talk. With no retaliation from your side, he wouldn't be above getting physical with you, with time he would dehumanise you more and more. Yanks, pushes, slaps and finally beats you if you disobey or "act up". And worst of all Jimmy doesn't even register what he's doing to you.

— I'm not going to go into details, but I do want to bring up the fact that Jimmy would think it's okay to have sex with you whenever he wants. He believes that there is no such thing as "rape" in marriage, because why would you marry in the first place? Gropes you and uses dirty talk at semi public spaces and at home all the time, no matter the situation you're in. You're his spouse (property) after all.

— trying to plead to Jimmy's human side would be a futile attempt. He would remember all of your "cheating", your outbursts, cries and hurtful words towards him. Jimmy knows what you're plotting, you are making him furious with you to look like a victim when it's he who is suffering. You should be grateful he's not divorcing you, no one would want such an awful spouse like you.

— final point, the song for this relationship would be Mascara by Deftones (yes I'm a basic bitch)

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FUCK I accidentally fucked up my Chris post and the ask got deleted, but HERE'S THAT

Chris Hartley NSFW Alphabet

A - Aftercare

What. A. Sweetheart. Chris makes sure you're all comfortable and taken care of, double checks everything, and absolutely showers you with attention and affection.

B - Body Part (His favourite body part on himself and you)

Tbh, I think hands for both. He loves how big and strong his hands are, and how, in comparison, yours are smaller. He thinks it's adorable. He loves holding your hands.

C - Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Chris loves the expressions and sounds you make when you cum, makes him feel like he's doing a good job.

D - Dirty Secret

He would be embarrassed and secretive about the fact that he has dirty fantasies about you.

E - Experience (How experienced he is)

I don't imagine him having a LOT of experience considering he's canonically considered the "nerd" of the group, but I don't think he'd be a total virgin either. I'm not sure.

F - Favorite position

I feel like he'd enjoy missionary or having you in his lap, your chests pressed together and just giving each other sweet kisses.

G - Goofy (Is he more serious in the moment?)

He's so silly, and will try to keep the mood light. Being too serious makes him feel a bit nervous/tense, so it's nice to joke around and feel relaxed, just having a good time!

H - Hair

It's fairly cleaned up, maybe just a little blond happy trail.

I - Intimacy

He's very intimate and romantic, and would want every time to be special and meaningful. He wants it all to be perfect, and gets nervous about the idea of things going wrong.

J - Jack off

I feel like he would not do it himself as often, but would REALLY like it when YOU jack him off.

K - Kink

Size difference!!! Bro is TALL!!!

L - Location

I feel like Chris would be more private, and keep sexual activity in the bedroom, maybe on the couch when it's just the two of you.

M - Motivation

Same as Mike, seeing you in his clothes, especially because of how much taller he is.

N - No (Hard limits)

Anything that could at all hurt you. Again, same as Mike, I feel like he wouldn't be too interested in anything on the more extreme side of kink.

O - Oral

More of a giver than a receiver, very much a service top who loves to know that you're feeling good.

P - Pace

I think he'd be more slow and gentle, taking his time and making sure everything is comfortable and feeling good.

Q - Quickie

I can't imagine Chris being a fan of quickies, I feel like sex is a lot about the intimacy for him, and quickies don't have that emotional aspect that he craves from it.

R - Risk

Not a lot of risk, Chris likes to keep things sweet and intimate.

S - Stamina

I do like the idea of like- lazy cuddle sex, I can't see him being like super riled up and going for ages.

T - Toys

I couldn't imagine Chris owning or using toys, tbh.

U - Unfair

He's a sweetheart and I stand by that. He jokes around and will playfully tease, or suggest the idea of teasing, but at the end of the day, making you feel good and making sure you both enjoy yourselves is his top priority.

V - Volume

He tries to stay quiet, you can usually just hear him panting and the occasional curse or whine under his breath.

W - Wild card (Random NSFW HC of my choosing)

He LOVES when you're on top of him, controlling the pace. He kinda likes the idea of giving you control, because then he knows whatever you're doing is feeling good, and he trusts you to make him feel good too.

X - X-ray (Size)

Again, like 7.5/8 inches, I do not really know what is realistic here, tbh.

Y - Yearning

I think he would not be as pent up as the others, but some days would just really crave the intimacy and the romance of it all, just wanting you in his arms.

Z - Zzz

He'd stay up and take care of you until YOU fall asleep first, giving you little forehead kisses and just cuddling and making sure you're comfortable, and that everything he did was okay and felt good, and he'd just whisper to you how beautiful you are. Only once you're asleep and he knows you feel happy and content, will he fall asleep.

THATS IT THANKS

thank you @z0mb1epuzzy helping me w these because it's 2 in the morning and i've been sat here staring at my phone like a fucking lemon trying to come up with this stuff

THE PERSON WHO SENT THE ASK FOR MATT, YOURS WILL BE NEXT!

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okay disjointed thoughts about the wicked movie 1 day after watching it lets go

-first of all, my movie theater put speakers outside and was just blasting the entire soundtrack on repeat. we could hear it down the street as we were driving up. that's just simply insane

-the opening establishing shots of the land were great but honestly. the very clearly animated dorothy and gang really annoyed me lmfao like I'm sorry it cannot have possibly been too hard to get a few extras to stand in front of a screen for point 5 seconds lol. it was so fast that I Know I'm being dramatic about it but they looked more cartoon than the flying monkey's did

-baby elphie and baby nessa are the cutest things I've ever seen in my life...

-I kinda...like the more human/animal hybrids that the stage show and the original movie had. sorry. like I Get they were only like that bc you can't make a real life goat sing and dance but they're just more interesting to look at than normal-looking animals who happen to talk!

-jeff goldblum's face being hidden every time he had a dance number...I have a sneaking suspicion that he wasn't really dancing lmfao

-whoever decided to bleach ariana's eyebrows deserves jail time

-when jonathan bailey first showed up on screen my mother leaned over to me and whispered 'he's HANDSOME...'

-when cynthia finished the 'wizard and I' I had to actually stop myself from applauding. it felt so weird and rude for there to be dead silence after that performance my GOD.

-also omg the part where she's singing about the wizard de-green-ifying her and the colors in the suncatchers were canceling out the green so she looked normal....inspired!

-madame morrible had these HUGE crystal ball looking rings and I just want them so much lmao

-glinda's friends were really funny the bit were she was like 'I need to lie down' and they immediately picked her up like a plank of wood and carried her off while the one was screaming 'WE NEED A PASTRY!!! IT'S AN EMERGENCY WE NEED A PASTRY!!!' had me cackling

-I wish there was more time between them moving in and 'what is this feeling' starting? like I wanted more time to see them bickering and then also more time seeing them getting along after the ball??

-'dancing through life' was BEAUTIFUL however two complaints 1) why would they cut the line 'what's the most swankified place around?' I Quote That Often and 2) at the end when glinda and elphie dance together like...it's beautiful and everything but from what I remember after their solo moment fieryo joins them?? and they have a cute three way dance moment??? and I'm very pro "they're all in love with each other" so I missed that lol

-also just in general would of liked to see more of fieryo with the girls! like it felt like ball->lion cub->emerald city, in the course of a couple days, and idk I just feel like they could have slowed it down a bit?? especially since they broke it into two movies?? like I don't think that Actually all happened in the span of a week, but they didn't do a good enough job establishing how much time was passing so it Felt like it. which is dumb bc then it just doesn't seem realistic that elphie and glinda are THAT attached to each other by defying gravity like it feels like not enough time has passed for them to really know each other

-boq felt very mild tbh I know ethan can be more unhinged than that

-would've liked to see glinda in magic class!!

-I was a little underwhelmed by elphaba's costumes? like there were clearly patterns on the material but it was all the same shade of black so you couldn't make anything out. it felt a bit flat. and I love the idea behind the freckles I agree with freckles I am pro freckles HOWEVER her's looked very obviously drawn on. like, I have seen way more realistic fake freckles before. so that was a bit annoying

-other than the lunchmeat dress glinda's costumes were good! especially loved the flower shaped one she wore to the ball

-the whole trying to escape in the hot air ballon scene was cool as hell but as the flaming remains of it fell to the ground I couldn't help but be like wow...she really just killed all those guards huh!

-also lmfao the bit in the woods with the lion club and fieryo has like a scratch on his temple. genuinely thought to myself 'is that his lobotomy scar' lmfao

-still trying to get over the part in dancing through life where people were dancing on the spinning gears in the clock tower...bitch

-the flying monkeys were correctly horrifying

-when I saw the broomstick I was like 'won't that be really uncomfortable between your legs' but then she just held it next to her like they do in the stage show and I was like....okay I guess you win that one? lmfao like I don't mind it for when she's hovering but when they had her like supersonic zooming on the broom it was weird that she wasn't actually riding it

-overall I just don't understand how it's an adaptation of act 1 but it's the length of the entire stage show?? lmao like I wish they took advantage of the split and added so much more but really really it was still just such a solid great movie. 5 stars. I can't keep talking about it right now I'm gonna start screaming.

[rozunderpressure]

TBH what I really hate about the way Thomas Astruc speaks about MLB is the fact he sounds like a fanfic writer who is dedicated to canon compliance AND NOT as the person who WRITES THE ACTUAL SHOW!

It makes sense for a very canon compliant fanfic author to be very on top of it about keeping character consistency, they want to be loyal to the original, they don't want to rock the boat too much, when you're the person WRITING THE STORY you can do anything you want! Does a character realistic WOULDN'T CHANGE? Well, sir, good news: You are in charge of reality! You can alter literally ALL the circumstances around them! With the magic of writing, you change the world--

Literally-- Like, literally the whole world

Just admit you don't want to...

Why not say: "This character won't change because I PREFER the way it is, its better for the story *I* want to tell, and this is MY story to tell!" because, you know what? It IS YOUR story, IT IS yours to tell! That is fine!

Several writers got flack for the choices they made with their characters (specially the endings tbh)! Louisa May Alcott, K.A. Applegate, (sometimes by accident, like in Douglas Adam's case, whose last Hitchhiker's book was a real downer, even he admitted he was depressed when he wrote it, but he sadly passed away before he could write another one) even Joane KR, all of them did things to their stories the fans did NOT LIKE, from redeeming people the fans felt did not deserve it, to giving sad endings to certain characters, to not giving them their seemingly obvious ship, but they OWNED IT!

Just say it... Just say you don't want to do it, its okay