#feeling pessimistic

[shellsandthistles]

i have an interview for a job that i’m not that excited about today. and like it shouldn’t matter to me because i’d maybe rather not get it. but i do really need a job. and this is the first interview i’ve had in a while

[web-of-arachne]

“431; or, queer loneliness”

unknown // emily palermo, what I could never confess without some bravado // good luck, babe! - chappell roan // unknown // unknown // jenny slate, little weirds // dr. seuss, oh the places you’ll go // unknown

[sunlit-mess]

I can only take so much, but lately, they have replaced my reflection. And realize I'm just as bad as them.

[focsle]

What I’ve been thinking a lot about lately is the idea that…even in times of turmoil and uncertainty and fear, the people you’re connected to, and the community you build, and the people who are out there always trying to make things a little better, a little warmer, a little safer, the people who are fighting for and striving for security and joy and levity and agency and all the things that can make our lives richer and happier…those things don’t just vanish overnight. That even when it feels like the world is shaking apart, those people are still there. And that bit of hope, on the most micro of scales, of who you’re connecting to and finding happiness and safety with, and who you’re helping is…such a more productive driver than despair. Even though there are so many reasons to despair. But the people who are always pushing for a better life for everyone, your people, you yourself in being that person for someone, are still there. And I think that’s what matters.

[katyspersonal]

Trying to explain Ranni haters the merit of 'Machiavellian' villains who see the only way to fix a fundamental problem to bloody their hands and choose to carry the sin instead of doing Nothing:

Trying to explain haters of Ranni haters that it is fair to still resent a character even if their motivations are understandable if sympathetic because the consequences were still real and deadly and since Two Fingers are not even picky about the terms of an Order, as an Empyrean she most likely had hope to seek compromise instead of nuking everything:

Trying to explain haters of haters of Ranni haters that if Miquella also concluded compromise was not an option perhaps everything was truly fundamentally whack and two from the smartest characters group in the setting would not severe the bond from Two Fingers kicking and crying no matter the cost over something as trivial as "not having enough hope":

Trying to explain that although reasons of Ranni and Miquella must have been very solid if THEY did all this, redirecting living beings fates to a "better" Eldrich Horror force than the current one @ trying to copy Marika's homework as a God but "better" respectively don't feel like very good plans either so both characters are still fair to criticise without being met with hostility:

Trying to explain that it will be a cold day in Hell when Fromsoft abandons their storytelling principles of presenting every single perspective on fixing things as a failure and offering nothing but "hope" that things could be better thanks to the player:

Trying to explain that Elden Ring is also a standalone because in this game there is no "good" ending, whereas for example in Dark Souls or Bloodborne there was an ending including "hope" and uncertainty of what was accomplished, so it is fair to think that Miyazaki is in philosophical crisis of sorts:

Trying to explain that writer(s) meeting sort of a dead end after questioning nature of existence itself in their works for over 15 years is not betrayal of fanbase or losing talent, but instead proves how seriously they take their topics and that they haven't became untrue to themselves just to sell pretty lies to us:

Trying to explain:

[borderliner-sapphic]

"Why are you so negative?"

Because growing up, nothing ever went right, so now I just expect things to go wrong. I expect abandonment, so I either cling on or push away, I expect things to not work out because that's what I've known. Whether it's a relationship, a goal, anything.

I also just have a severely low self-esteem that was consistently reinforced.

It's true that I can be positive when it comes to others' lives. I believe others can heal and become the best versions of themselves, I believe anyone else can deserve happiness and love. Me, on the other hand? Nah.

[transfaguette]

i saw a post that said like, “if you werent related your family wouldn’t love you.” and i didn’t wanna comment on it ofc because it was coming from the perspective of unloving households and abuse and so I totally get that, not trying to argue anyone should feel differently about their family at all, just the statement really stuck with me. its a weird idea to deconstruct cuz like, the relation creates the circumstance that familial love exists. my family doesn’t love me because we’re related, but because we’re related my family was given the circumstances to love me. if we were random strangers with no reason to exist in eachothers lives, then who knows. but thats true for everything, isn’t it? i love people who are in my life, how else would I. but that also depends on who they are as people, and not everyone gets a decent roll.

[silverfoxphil]

dan is high key a gym rat it’s not even funny! phil doesn’t like to exercise a lot unless it’s running on the treadmill or using the elliptical because it’s ‘lazy’ exercise (for lack of a better term) so he can turn his brain off and watch real housewives while exercising. dan has been exercising for ages. he’s been running pretty regularly i believe for years and phil’s tried joining him on runs a couple of times when phil considers taking up running but it never works out because phil tries talking a lot. dan goes to cycling classes and lifts weights and i’m sure does more but the guy is fit. he is unironically a gym bro drinking his protein shakes going on runs and phil is supporting from the sidelines because of his delicate nature.

i never thought about it like this until they started talking about it, but yeah you're absolutely right, he is kind of a gym bro, the signs were all there lol. i need him to be able to transport phil everywhere, he shouldn't be walking tbh you wouldn't make god walk

[torglives]

i do think with iskall’s resignation it’s important for us to acknowledge the atmosphere around it. i am not saying this to be speculative, but everyone should quickly come to terms with the fact that it’s very, very likely the root cause of this was something awful that he’s done or been involved with. again this isn’t to speculate, because whatever has happened is currently private and serious. it’s just a reality that is important to take note of. there is no point in saying "well, we don’t know what happened!" because in situations like these, i don’t think we need to know to come to this conclusion. especially with the current hermit behaviour around it. you do not know these people, you do not know who they are, and you do not know what they are capable of. because of this, you cannot defend their character online. all that you see of them is what they choose to put out there. i think it’s important to keep all of this in mind, that’s all i have to say

[lynxalon]

i've seen a fair bit of... pessimism about dorym lately, esp with the ep107, for example wondering if dorian's opposing views on the gods making orym fall out of love, and i have to say. i very highly doubt it, ur fr talking about the man who has held on to will for so long, holding onto will's family and affectionately calling this *his* family too because that didn't stop when will died. i dont think falling out of love is an option or even a thought to orym.

that said, we know that orym has contingencies for if anyone in bells hells crosses the line into being a version of themselves they would despise, for anyone who jeopardizes their mission. his mission. i think, for the first time since knowing dorian, orym finally has a contingency for him. the longer dorian is back, the more orym sees how scarred he is by what's happened (understandable so) and knows that dorian is with bells hells all the way. but if he isn't...

[89cats]

having pets is like … you’re not acting like yourself so I’ll be here obsessing over it until your vet appointment. and no, you may not leave my sight(at least for a little) 🥲

[chronicpessimist09]

Right update:

Less suicidal

Haven’t cut myself in days

Have eaten a bit

No longer really sick

Going to a party tomorrow

Will NOT drink

Will remember my grapes this year

My cousin threw up so if I catch that tomorrow all this will go to shit and I will kill my self

[ioannemos]

the particular bad guy of this episode, a little apprehensively: the audience wants to see me die?

nate, with more sincerity than anything he's said to anyone in her presence before: like you wouldn't believe

[ezlo-x]

EoW is going to come next Thursday, im surprised that there’s no final trailer. Unless that recap trailer counted as one then thats a little underwhelming. But I think that’s good tbh, don’t hype me up with a story driven trailer cause I’ll just assume the most out of it like I did with TotK. I am glad they’re keeping Ganon a secret tho that makes me more excited on what they’re brewing but I will be a bit disappointed if he turns out to be uninteresting. Mixed abt the gameplay, I don’t feel too crazy abt it cause it follows the same damn mechanics as TotK. But I am excited to see this world of Hyrule, funnily enough it feels very alive. I love that they returned the River Zora and the Deku. I wonder if the Koroks would be back or if the Deku replaced the current forest dwelling race (i doubt it cause the game said the Deku are in the Faron region and we have seen a few glimpses of this world’s Korok woods if still named by that)

I dunno im curious to what’s to unfold, I am going to keep an eye out to the youtubers who upload gameplay stuff early for sure

[ganondoodle]

1 year since i got scammed by nintedno leaving me forever yearning for a game we will never get and an extreme worry for the future

[kheprriverse]

🐺🎣 Little Guy Fishing Hour 🎣🐺

Finished Dusk’s little fishing doodle! I’d love to make more doodles kinda like this with other heroes as well.

Also! It’s on inprnt! I can’t afford to test it out in person so I’m a bit nervous about it, hopefully its up to par in quality. Thankfully the higher quality ones I have ARE being tested and those will tell me how well my work translates into prints.

Masterpost | Kofi | inprnt