#feeling pessimistic

[shellsandthistles]

i have an interview for a job that i’m not that excited about today. and like it shouldn’t matter to me because i’d maybe rather not get it. but i do really need a job. and this is the first interview i’ve had in a while

[sunlit-mess]

I can only take so much, but lately, they have replaced my reflection. And realize I'm just as bad as them.

[focsle]

What I’ve been thinking a lot about lately is the idea that…even in times of turmoil and uncertainty and fear, the people you’re connected to, and the community you build, and the people who are out there always trying to make things a little better, a little warmer, a little safer, the people who are fighting for and striving for security and joy and levity and agency and all the things that can make our lives richer and happier…those things don’t just vanish overnight. That even when it feels like the world is shaking apart, those people are still there. And that bit of hope, on the most micro of scales, of who you’re connecting to and finding happiness and safety with, and who you’re helping is…such a more productive driver than despair. Even though there are so many reasons to despair. But the people who are always pushing for a better life for everyone, your people, you yourself in being that person for someone, are still there. And I think that’s what matters.

[borderliner-sapphic]

"Why are you so negative?"

Because growing up, nothing ever went right, so now I just expect things to go wrong. I expect abandonment, so I either cling on or push away, I expect things to not work out because that's what I've known. Whether it's a relationship, a goal, anything.

I also just have a severely low self-esteem that was consistently reinforced.

It's true that I can be positive when it comes to others' lives. I believe others can heal and become the best versions of themselves, I believe anyone else can deserve happiness and love. Me, on the other hand? Nah.

[torglives]

i do think with iskall’s resignation it’s important for us to acknowledge the atmosphere around it. i am not saying this to be speculative, but everyone should quickly come to terms with the fact that it’s very, very likely the root cause of this was something awful that he’s done or been involved with. again this isn’t to speculate, because whatever has happened is currently private and serious. it’s just a reality that is important to take note of. there is no point in saying "well, we don’t know what happened!" because in situations like these, i don’t think we need to know to come to this conclusion. especially with the current hermit behaviour around it. you do not know these people, you do not know who they are, and you do not know what they are capable of. because of this, you cannot defend their character online. all that you see of them is what they choose to put out there. i think it’s important to keep all of this in mind, that’s all i have to say

[lynxalon]

i've seen a fair bit of... pessimism about dorym lately, esp with the ep107, for example wondering if dorian's opposing views on the gods making orym fall out of love, and i have to say. i very highly doubt it, ur fr talking about the man who has held on to will for so long, holding onto will's family and affectionately calling this *his* family too because that didn't stop when will died. i dont think falling out of love is an option or even a thought to orym.

that said, we know that orym has contingencies for if anyone in bells hells crosses the line into being a version of themselves they would despise, for anyone who jeopardizes their mission. his mission. i think, for the first time since knowing dorian, orym finally has a contingency for him. the longer dorian is back, the more orym sees how scarred he is by what's happened (understandable so) and knows that dorian is with bells hells all the way. but if he isn't...

[transfaguette]

i saw a post that said like, “if you werent related your family wouldn’t love you.” and i didn’t wanna comment on it ofc because it was coming from the perspective of unloving households and abuse and so I totally get that, not trying to argue anyone should feel differently about their family at all, just the statement really stuck with me. its a weird idea to deconstruct cuz like, the relation creates the circumstance that familial love exists. my family doesn’t love me because we’re related, but because we’re related my family was given the circumstances to love me. if we were random strangers with no reason to exist in eachothers lives, then who knows. but thats true for everything, isn’t it? i love people who are in my life, how else would I. but that also depends on who they are as people, and not everyone gets a decent roll.

[ezlo-x]

EoW is going to come next Thursday, im surprised that there’s no final trailer. Unless that recap trailer counted as one then thats a little underwhelming. But I think that’s good tbh, don’t hype me up with a story driven trailer cause I’ll just assume the most out of it like I did with TotK. I am glad they’re keeping Ganon a secret tho that makes me more excited on what they’re brewing but I will be a bit disappointed if he turns out to be uninteresting. Mixed abt the gameplay, I don’t feel too crazy abt it cause it follows the same damn mechanics as TotK. But I am excited to see this world of Hyrule, funnily enough it feels very alive. I love that they returned the River Zora and the Deku. I wonder if the Koroks would be back or if the Deku replaced the current forest dwelling race (i doubt it cause the game said the Deku are in the Faron region and we have seen a few glimpses of this world’s Korok woods if still named by that)

I dunno im curious to what’s to unfold, I am going to keep an eye out to the youtubers who upload gameplay stuff early for sure

[silverfoxphil]

dan is high key a gym rat it’s not even funny! phil doesn’t like to exercise a lot unless it’s running on the treadmill or using the elliptical because it’s ‘lazy’ exercise (for lack of a better term) so he can turn his brain off and watch real housewives while exercising. dan has been exercising for ages. he’s been running pretty regularly i believe for years and phil’s tried joining him on runs a couple of times when phil considers taking up running but it never works out because phil tries talking a lot. dan goes to cycling classes and lifts weights and i’m sure does more but the guy is fit. he is unironically a gym bro drinking his protein shakes going on runs and phil is supporting from the sidelines because of his delicate nature.

i never thought about it like this until they started talking about it, but yeah you're absolutely right, he is kind of a gym bro, the signs were all there lol. i need him to be able to transport phil everywhere, he shouldn't be walking tbh you wouldn't make god walk

[ganondoodle]

1 year since i got scammed by nintedno leaving me forever yearning for a game we will never get and an extreme worry for the future

[kheprriverse]

🐺🎣 Little Guy Fishing Hour 🎣🐺

Finished Dusk’s little fishing doodle! I’d love to make more doodles kinda like this with other heroes as well.

Also! It’s on inprnt! I can’t afford to test it out in person so I’m a bit nervous about it, hopefully its up to par in quality. Thankfully the higher quality ones I have ARE being tested and those will tell me how well my work translates into prints.

Masterpost | Kofi | inprnt

[sunlit-mess]

Sometimes you just gotta take life one day at a time, but you never know when things might turn around for the better. Please stay safe and keep doing the little things that makes you happy to distract yourself, it's gonna be ok 🌷

Now you guys are just trying to make me cry fr hADUHFUBGKAHAHA

[ioannemos]

the particular bad guy of this episode, a little apprehensively: the audience wants to see me die?

nate, with more sincerity than anything he's said to anyone in her presence before: like you wouldn't believe

[dykedvonte]

(abt my last ask) thank you for the answer, your understanding of charas is trully stellar!

I wanted to ask, what's your take on recovery!au (unless you intend to cover it in your fic)? In the universe, where Jimmy happens, but the crew somehow survives. Everyone is traumatised, Anya is pregnant, Curly is disabled (could he even be able to afford disability aids? Pony express in no more, would they even be paid a sufficient compensation?). There is also a question of p*lice investigation (or whatever agency is responsible for space crimes), even more trauma... Man, it's bleak.

-💀

I like them sad but for emotional and physical recovery reason rather than all the actual legal stuff that would ensue.

I like when Swansea relapsing is explored and Daisuke losing a little bit of his light. I am clearly a big supporter of Anya and Curly remaining close friend after but I think exploring the unhealthy dynamics of the trauma bond they’d develop should be played with way more. I think it’s a bit annoying when people are on the nose about Anya telling Curly he should’ve done more, especially when he’s struggling through recovery.

I feel like people really want her to be a character to rub salt into wounds, just to give her something cathartic, but it’s just OOC for me. It’s not a kindness thing but I don’t think she wants that sort of guilt to stay with him like that? He did not do what Jimmy did, he could’ve done more to stop it but she would not intentionally try to direct what she can never take out towards Jimmy at Curly. At least when they all make it out. This is not to say she doesn’t think he shouldn’t have any remorse but she understands that no one else could have foreseen Jimmy crashing the ship or getting that bad.

I like when it gets psychoanalytic in fics with the crew. Talk about Curly finally opening up on details on how he and Jimmy were friends, have the others realize how bad Jimmy was to even Curly, not a lot of people realize that they don’t know how Jimmy was to him. Have Anya be angry and snippy, have her worry she’s becoming like Jimmy even though she could never be like him, it’s that fear though, that she is owed that cathartic release and may take it out on others in some selfish subconscious desire to reclaim control for herself. Have her actualize-herself, is med school the only option? What does she want now? Does Swansea divorce his wife, give up on the life he created because he was just following the path of a good man, one he didn’t believe? Or does he stay and use the time he has left to make it something he believes in. How is Daisuke? Is he more mature or does he lose a little light? What are his new aspirations if any? His relationship with his parents?

Ultimately, I think a recover au should really focus on just them actually getting to know each other and filling themselves. So much of their interactions were likely based on coworker dynamics first. With that out the window they are now people who can’t really move on from each other but need to move on in life.

[journey-to-the-attic]

there's a moment in lesson 45 of nightbringer where mc falls off a thing (again?? is this foreshadowing?? i'm going to rule-of-three this and wait to see if it happens again) and satan tries and fails to grab their hand to catch them, but now i'm imagining the same thing happening with satan and ik except he does succeed, but it's her right hand and the prosthetic just POP comes straight off

[satanfemme]

oooohhhhhhh. so the trans supreme court case starts tomorrow. that's right. time for me to start eating batteries