#exotrauma art

[voiarc-draws]

the man who dared to call himself my ‘father.’

// do not tag as kin/id/me or f/o //

// the phone depicted here uses she/her //

[moonpool-system]

Contact / Empty Hope

from an exomemory

[bolts-n-fingerguns]

Name's Reko, this is my blog of pure fictionkind insanity. Yeah, not an RP blog. Drawing above made by main blog.

Last edited: 28/05/2024

📖✏️・⌒ヾ(￣ -￣ )) About ．．．

I'm an agender trans man , demi-aroace, plural [Host, Spikes fableing] , 19 years old , 🇲🇽 , AUDHD and dyslexia. Nonhuman. I use we/i interchangeably.

My icon was edited by @/otherkinotd , the flag is the werewolf therian flag.

My main alth blog is @nyctohyloph0bia . Interact from @woodlandscab1n

ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧ Fictionmere ．．．

🎬 Fictotypes

［RE］Leon ― Slightly canon divergent. Is genderfluid/queer, bisexual, any pronouns. How I look like: x . Full neomata: pending.

［STH］Spikes ― AU, very canon divergent. Named Sonic, called Spikes by everyone. Is a trans man, achillean, aroace , he/him. How I look like: x . Full neomata: pending.

🎭 Fictionflickers

［RE］Vex ― AU Leon , pretty common. Fucked up looking werewolf.

🔗 Linktypes

［TRI98］Vash ― Not very common. Canon compliant.

📖 Heart-tales

White Fang , 1906

Sonic Unleashed , 2008

⏳ Questioning

[D20: NA] Ylfa Snoglenson

(*>O<)📢꙳⟡ BYI ．．．

My headmates Reagan and Spikes might speak or add comments here. We have the same source. I'm coolio with doubles and encourage interaction! However, Exe sοnics please interact with caution! 👍

Adα Wοngkin, fictives and fans don't interact for our safety. She's a huge trigger. Generally anyone with her on a pfp or on your blog name, sorry.

ϵggmαnkin or fictives interact with caution. If you're from boom, you're chill. 👍 Sometimes I put up images on my posts that might look like I'm roleplaying, I am not, lol. I just like adding them bc it makes me happy :3

Don't tag my art or posts about fictionmere with main fandom tags (ex. #residϵnt ϵvil , sοnic the hedgehοg, #sτh , #rϵ), main fanart tags (ex. trigυn fαnart) or main ship tags (ex. #sonαdow). The fandom scares me.

Don't tag my art or posts with self-ship tags. That'd be like calling me your S/O, and that makes me uncomfortable.

Don't act like you know me. You know what happened in canon, but you don't know me.

✍(◕◡◕) Tags ．．．

💌 Fictionmere tags

#🌼🍃 ― spikes' tag #🌻🥞 ― leοn's tag

#🪓🐺 ― Ylfα's tag #💡🐺 ― vex's tag #🔗👼 ― vαsh's tag #💘🩹 ― shade's tag #💘🧸 ― clαire's tag

📜 Post tags

#reko's artwork ― my art. #reko's chatter ― I am SPEAKING!! #neomata ramblings ― me rambling about stuff that happened in source or fictotypes. #exotrauma rant ― rant or vents of awful events from source and/or how I feel about them. #🌲 ― nonhuman tag

📫 Reblog tags

#art museum ― not my art. #abyss speaks ― not my posts. #🌴 ― spikes' source or related. #💾 ― leοn's source or related.

[bartendingkitty]

Chained

[ancientpersacom]

Splitting the most traumatised characters to do day to day tasks for you amiright?

[skyedancer2006]

Stabbed in the eye by my best friend

10/10 would do it again

-Sunny

[multiplicity-positivity]

Do you have any advice for systems who recently had a massive influx of new members? Especially when these members present as their own system (essentially like a sidesystem I guess?) We're trying to work together, but it feels like two strangers were suddenly thrown into a living situation together and we're struggling to connect and work with each other (it's a lot of "us vs. them" right now)

We're also confused and somewhat struggling because the main system (A) is non-disordered, but the introjected system (B) has a lot of really awful trauma from exomemories and this exotrauma still affects them (one of them was in front recently and was getting flashbacks of something that happened within their exo/source life) and because of this and exomemories, system B describes their plurality as being disordered.

How do we go about all this? Any advice is useful

hey, so your situation sounds kind of complex - we’re sorry in advance if this response gets a bit long!

first of all, strangers quite often do get thrown into living situations together. this is something that happens quite regularly in real life. it can certainly be uncomfortable and a bit intimidating, but there are things you all can do to slowly start getting to know one another. perhaps try to set aside some time every day to try and get to know each other. you can ask each other questions, or try to find some kind of activity y’all can do together that could help y’all bond and learn a bit more about each other.

maybe try passing around this headmate form created by a part in our system for everyone to fill out as they wish:

getting to know everyone may take some time and energy, but that is absolutely normal and something to be expected. also, if not all headmates are able to click and jive well together, that’s okay. not every system member has to have familial or friendly relationships. maybe viewing each other as roommates, acquaintances, or coworkers could help tone down relationship expectations and help everyone feel a bit more comfortable with each other.

and, as y’all go along, as conflicts and arguments do arise, we also have a post on dealing with these sorts of things which may help you:

regarding dealing with trauma from exomemories, we truly feel that healing from events that the body did not physically experience may look incredibly similar to healing from real world trauma. so getting therapy, learning grounding and coping techniques, journaling, creating art, and allowing yourselves time to process at your own pace are all good things to consider.

often with exotrauma, there very well may be real-world trauma at the root of it, so be careful and ready to help each other if and when a memory of a real-world event surfaces. maybe come together to create a safety plan to keep your whole system safe in the event of certain headmate struggling to cope with a traumatic exomemory. be open and honest with each other, and try to provide support to the best of each of your abilities.

disordered vs. nondisordered does not have to be a black and white experience. it’s possible for systems to be complex, with varying levels of impairments caused by their plurality, and even to have headmates who may find their plurality disordered while others do not. it also doesn’t have to be set in stone - it is possible for a disordered system to become nondisordered later in life and vice versa. we understand that this may be a difficult new thing to come to terms with, and we hope that, as your new side system is able to access healing and recovery, life may become easier for all of you. again, things like therapy and healing/recovery tools may be beneficial here.

we hope something we’ve said here will prove useful for you. rest assured, with more time spent together, you all will start to feel less and less like strangers. good luck to you folks with dealing with this in the future though.

[manylittleguys]

Pros & Cons of spending hours watching vent tiktok compilations:

Cons:

awake for extra hours

awake for extra hours watching vent tiktoks

watching vent tiktoks

probably bad for our physical and my mental health

reminds us individually of The Fun Shit (different shit for everyone, but we all got a shit to be reminded of)

Small Chance of restarting to physically s/h (apparently a lot of our behaviours could count as s/h already but that's Whatever)

Pros:

inspired us to do Art Stuff

makes me/us cry, which is good for our individual and collective emotional repression

makes the body hungry, which forces us to eat

makes the body tired and we will eventually pass out

reminded me that our councillor asked us to make a timeline of the traumatic shit that happened to us [only things that happened to host though. no exotrauma. but that's bc she doesn't know the other 29 of us exist yet. we do hope to tell her and maybe be at least medically recognised even though we'll probably never be diagnosed with anything. which is fine bc diagnosis sucks. maybe one day we'll be able to talk about exotrauma, which is very important because it affects our host too (minimal memory barriers go brrrr) and we all need a chance to talk about it and cope properly] and then spent several more hours reliving our host's trauma & crying while making that timeline & now that the work's actually being done we can schedule our next appointment because we do not meet with our councillor regularly & that is fine with us.

Anyways, a million imaginary dollars to anyone who can guess what I woke up to do randomly at 2:30 in the morning and have been doing on and off for the past 10 hours!

Hilarious that I've been fronting for 10 hours straight, and most of it alone lmfao

- A. Clef

[diabolocracy]

I was lurking Reddit for a laugh and came across the general paraphrased sentiment, "Proship fictionkin make no sense because if fiction doesn't affect reality how are they fictionkin?"

The answer is very simple, granted I can only answer for myself:

The blorbos I make do terrible things in writing and art aren't one-to-one representations of 'me' as I was in a past life, even if they are vaguely based on me as I was in a past life.

Alternatively (in at least one case): those things happened but I don't have exotrauma I have exo-wowie-that-was-hot-:3. (Mind you, in the case that I am vaguely referencing, I was the one who made it happen multiple times and found it hot as it was unfolding--as the 'victim'.)

That isn't meant to discount those who end up with exotrauma, mind you. I have a kintwin who can't look at certain ships (one of which I happen to like, personally) due to differences in our past lives/canons. Even so, we're still friends. It's understandable and I don't bring it up in conversation because he set that boundary. It's that's fucking easy, folks!

I'm also able to recognize that in this life these characters are just fictional. If I make a terrible thing happen to [name], it isn't actually happening to [name] (unless you're of the mind that creating an idea = that event is unfolding in a different universe; or that ideas = channeled events from different universes; basically 'fictional reality' wherein stories create new realities or are channeled from alternate realities in some way - something akin to 'fictons' from The Number of the Beast by Robert A. Heinlein; a very good book btw, especially for you incest lovers, lol).

Essentially: the characters I'm playing with? They aren't me even if they are modeled after 'me', nor are they those I once knew. What I do to them, or make them to do each other, has zero effect on me in the present or 'me' in the past.

The fan creations that I or others create relating to my kintypes has only the effect I allow it to have upon me and I can recognize in 99.9999% of cases that writing or art or headcanon or whatever isn't about me even if it pertains to my kintype. That very minuscule percent otherwise is created by me, for me.

I've observed that that differentiation is a challenge for some to make. Personally I find it silly, 'cause like, who the fuck are you? No one knows you. They aren't targeting you. They're making shit about the blorbo from their shows. Not you.

Bluh bluh bluh. I've lost my train of thought. Bye.

[l0thcat]

《 Welcome to my Blog... 》

《 Name(s) ;; Crosshair ;; Lothcat 》

《 Age ;; Adult ( 20s ) // Prns ;; They / It + Ask for Neos 》

《 Other ;; ND + Disabled 》

Tags;

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-CH

《 Before You Follow... 》

□ I am An Adult and i will post adult things, however this blog will have any NSFT be tagged. That being said please do not follow if you're under 16+ bodily.

□ I am LGBTIQA+, I am Neurodivergent, and Disabled, i will block people who are ableist/exclusionists.

□ This Is a Safe Place For ;; Aro/Acespec and Aroacespec , ND, Disabled, Furries, Kin, IRL/DA, Fictives/Systems in general, MSPEC gays/lesbians, endo systems, Headcanons, Etc

□ I block Freely but just so you know ;; I hate Exclusionists, Blue Lives Matter/All Lives Matter, Radfems/TERFs, Xenophobes, etc

□ I am critical of what i watch in silence unless something needs to be pointed out. I also do not support Disney, wcostream.tv has star wars cartoons <3

□ I don't care about discourse. Any sort of asks that are discourse/hate filled will be deleted.

《 Other Info....》

★ Yes ;;

You can ask me questions, but i may not answer < ND + Anxiety + Busy

I am a Crosshair fictive that took over this blog, other star wars introjects in our system may as well. Doubles are welcomed.

We create Art and are building up to write, though not for this fandom yet.

I mask, a lot, which may seem like i come across as happy or even "ooc" if you will, but this is a system thing.

May update.

☆ No ;;

You may not flirt with me ( or other headmates ). Our system is taken and...

I am not my source, I am not a character, I am a person. You may ask about my source memories, but don't expect it to match "canon".

Please do not assume i know you if you are a fictive/kin/irl of someone we "know". Again, we are not our source.

Hemlock fictives/kin/irls do not interact. I know you are also not your source but i cannot fathom being around any version of you /lh

May update

Ships we are not comfortable with and would prefer no one interacted if they ship it due to fictivism, exotrauma or just general ick ;; Rex/Anakin/Cad Bane/Padmé/Grevious x Ahsoka / Cloneshipping ( specifically star wars. ) / ObiKin / Rampart x Crosshair ( In a romantic/enemies to lover sense, hate shipping/angst is fine ), Hemlock x Crosshair, Sabine x Ezra, Reylo.

Note: i will not attack anyone with these ships, nor will i discuss shipping here really. I am arospec and don't focus on shipping too much.

[stwcollective]

(art by peachqii)

Introduction Post #4

🦊 Yae Miko 🌸

650 years old. Functionally immortal Kitsune. She/her.

Fictive from Genshin Impact/Persecutor/Local Menace/Exotrauma Holder. Madoka’s Blorbo.

Hello there :). I am Yae Miko and I am Homura’s private heckler. Why do I torment her in particular, you ask? Well, it’s simple. She’s the easiest to get to squirm ;). Although I’m not supposed to be doing that any more...Maybe I should tease Ei instead. I like mischief and making people squirm. Some say I take my jokes too far, to which I say bah. I’m still learning how to find my place in this system. I don’t know how to act without lashing out and pushing people away. Do not inquire into the relationship between me and Ei. There is something there, but. It is complicated. Or maybe there is nothing there. You have no way to tell and honestly so do I.

[ars3n1cc]

not me having the gamzee tags blocked cause #exotrauma and someone tagging goddamn "gamzee malaria" with art of murderstuck him like.....bro. thanks i guess /sarc

[thatonefurryartist]

You know that moment when an old hyperfixation is revived but you can't look at much art because it's all your source and you don't want to be reminded of your exotrauma? So you just have to sit there rotating it in your brain but unable to find new content about it.

[say-that-you-will]

Pinned

Hi, my name's Elsie. I'm a transfem lesbian, and my pronouns are she/it. I'm one of the hosts of The Antithesis, a traumaendo plural system. I'm a host of a DID subsystem as well. I'm 19, though the subsystem's body is in its late 30s, and the physical body we reside in is 18.

This is a sideblog for me to talk about my own shit separate from everyone else's.

Main system account: @sexmortis

(More below the cut)

BYF

16+ only (bodily) please.

I'll likely post NSFW from time to time. It'll be tagged, minors DNI with those posts (unless they're vents).

The subsystem I'm a part of is a walk-in to the main system. We firmly believe our life and memories were real, invalidating that will get you blocked. This is my safe space to talk about my memories and have them be seen for what they are.

There will be heavy talk of my exotrauma, I'll do my best to TW these properly.

I have a clusterfuck of mental problems that the body doesn't. I won't say for sure, but I have reason to believe that includes NPD and ASPD.

Interests

Girls 🥰 (my girlfriend specifically)

Muscle cars (my girlfriend's muscle car/s)

80s slasher movies

System Of A Down

My girlfriend

Sleep Token

Traditional art

Did I mention my girlfriend?? I like my girlfriend :3

[anxietycryptidthetherian]

me after learning how 2 draw flames on my way to make the most venty art ever about my exotrauma

STOP NO EXOTRAUMA

[hintoflemon]

Forgotten

Okay to reblog