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I was having my average flashback experiences during a car ride about the car crash I was in last year, I believe. I can't even remember when it was, but I remember every single bit of it.

While having this, it started to change. I heared a kid crying, I felt myself on the ground. I felt as if, fire was surrounding me. I could feel glass below me and of course, stuck to me. It felt as if I was remembering something else, it felt tied to Leøn.

My car crash experience has always felt very close to me being Leøn. For anyone who knows the character decently, it'd be obvious why. But this one wasn't any of my previous car crashes in my canon, it felt new, more recent.

While I was severely disturbed by this, I couldn't help but be insanely curious about it too, so I tried to lean more into it to find everything I could about it...without having a panic attack about it (after all, feeling glass stabbing you and your whole body numb and hurting like crazy isn't very fun). I found out some interesting stuff.

I think... this is one closer to when my canon "ends". It felt after Røse. It felt as if I was with her, in fact.

I only met Ethān once, I don't even remember if we spoke, but I know we saw each other. I was closer to Chrįs in my canon than in source, I remember that I would frequent BSÅA headquarters and other stablishments thanks to this.

So me meeting Ethān wasn't that much of a surprise, but... being directly involved was. I think this is after he passed, as the crying I heard wasn't of a baby, but a toddler. I can't remember how long I stayed alive after Ethān passed, but I know it was more than a year, so this tracks.

But, I still wonder how I got there. Why?

For some reason, it felt very similar to the bus crash in RĘ6. But I know it was a car, perhaps more people were with us? Perhaps we were in trouble to begin with? It feels...tied to something. I think someone was out to get Røse.

Hm.

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(I said selfship but it doesn't have to be romantic)

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Alternate title: Do you have a kinsona? (I just refuse to break from my poll format lmfao)

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Large kin ask game

Notes: I tried to make these friendly to both kin with memories and folk who kin with no memories! Also the second set of questions are heavily linked to fictionkin, but feel free to use for any kin type!

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General kin asks:

🏆. Who are your main kins? Is there a reason they're your main kins?

🤯. How many kins are you aware of? If you don't want to list them all that's fine, just do your top ones.

👤. Who is the most recent kin you have discovered? Do you have any information on them (ie kin type, what happened in your canon, ect)?

🦧. Do you have a kin you didn't expect to kin but did?

🍿. Do you have a 'kin type' (Ie do you always kin characters with black hair, do you kin characters with a temper, ect)? Can you relate this 'type' to yourself currently?

🦄. Is there a character from media that you haven't engaged with that you're kinsidering?

🌐. Do you have any kins that take place in an AU? Or any kin you'd like to see in an AU?

🌟. Do you have a favorite kin? Why are they your favorite?

📚. Is there a kin source you have that no one else seems to kin from?

🪶. Do you have a specific kin type (ie otherkin, fictionkin, objectkin, ect) that you lean towards?

🌱. If you could live in any of the worlds your kin is from, which one would you like to live in?

🪀. Have you met any canonmates before? If so which canons/kins?

🎆. Di you have any kins that are no longer main kins for you? Who are they?

🪄. How did you discover being kin? If you don't want to share for any reason, what age did you learn about kin?

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Specific kin asks:

💕. What is the most important relationship(s) you had as [kin]? Or do you have a comfort character that links to [kin]?

🖋. Give a brief summary of your kin timeline! Or write about why you kin [character].

🎶. Do you have any music you associate with [kin]? If you want to list multiple songs!

🌈. Does your kin (or anyone else) have a queer identity in your memories? If you don't have any memories, do you have a headcanon for [kin] or anyone else?

🍃. What are your most comforting memories? If you don't have any memories, do you have any scenes from source that bring you comfort?

��. What hobbies did you have as [kin]? Or are there any you do to feel connected with [kin]?

👗. As [kin] were there any fashion types you enjoyed and/or wore? Is there any fashion types you'd like to see [kin] wearing?

🪞. Were there any differences in your kins canon appearance to your kin timeline? If not is there any differences would make to your canon apperance?

🍔. Do you have any food that you link to [kin]? Did you enjoy eating this food or is there another reason?

🎧. Did you listen to any music as [kin]? Or what music do you associate with [kin]?

🐣. What does your fandom get right about [kin]? Why do they get wrong?

🐦. Are there any similarities between canon [kin] and you? Is there anything canon got wrong?

💧. Do you have any regrets as [kin]? What would you have done differently?

🗺. What was your universe/world like as [kin]? Or what would it be like living in the world of [kin]?

💖. Favourite part about being [kin]? Why?

💔. Least favourite part about being [kin]? Why?

🖼. Do you have a favourite picture of your kin? If not is there any of a comfort character?

🎲. Send a question I haven't thought of!

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Hello! Could you possibly post a plain text version of the 30 day Fictionkind Challenge? It's kind of hard to read the picture as is, and it'd also be useful to be able to copy and paste the questions directly instead of having to manually retype them.

Sure, I should have done that in the first place, sorry. Posted the original while getting ready to go to bed so I did everything too quickly.

30 Day Fictionkind Challenge

Day 1: What is your fictotype? Are you a specific character, a nonhuman species, or both?

Day 2: Do you experience dysphoria? How so?

Day 3: Who are you open about it with?

Day 4: Do you participate in the fandom of your source? How do you do so?

Day 5: Do you fictionflicker?

Day 6: When did you realize you were fictionkin? How long have you been in the community?

Day 7: What was your introduction to fictionkin?

Day 8: Are you similar to your fictotype in personality? How so?

Day 9: Are you similar to your fictotype in appearance? How so?

Day 10: Link to/tag your favorite fictionkin Tumblr.

Day 11: Have you ever met other fictionkin? In real life or online?

Day 12: Have you ever met canonmates? In real life or online? How did it go?

Day 13: Have you ever met doubles? In real life or online? How well did you get along?

Day 14: What are shifts like?

Day 15: How do you deal with kin-for-fun?

Day 16: What are your thoughts on symbols, flags, etc.?

Day 17: Does fictionkinity connect to spirituality for you?

Day 18: Does fictionkinity connect to neurodivergence for you?

Day 19: Do other people notice your similarity to a character or species?

Day 20: How do you express your fictotype? Clothes, merch, cosplay, maybe even name?

Day 21: What’s something about the fictionkind community that you wish was different?

Day 22: What’s something about the fictionkind community that you appreciate?

Day 23: How do you approach consuming your source? Analytically, obsessively, casually, reluctantly, etc…

Day 24: What’s the worst anti-fickin take you’ve ever seen?

Day 25: What’s the best anti-fickin take you’ve ever seen? Respond to it.

Day 26: What are some songs that remind you of your fictotype or source?

Day 27: What are some other characters/species that remind you of your fictotype?

Day 28: Do you have a favorite piece of fanart? (Better to reblog for this day, do not repost someone’s art.)

Day 29: Do you have activities that connect you to your source? (Food, hobbies, interests, etc.)

Day 30: Talk about what it’s like to be your fictotype.

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Me realizing that I probably don't remember much of my Sonic X part of my story bc there was probably some Sonic 06 shenanigans... killing myself....

I wish I could remember, but I only remember bits and pieces, I wouldn't even know where it places in my timeline. I wonder if it's because, another me had it but, not... main timeline me. And somehow they combined to make a singular timeline where Chris went to our dimension.

Dimensions and universes are different for us. Dimensions exist within a same universe, while they can have replicas and stuff like that... Universes are like pockets, they have a bunch of dimensions in there, and there's a point where one dimension is so different that it's a whole different universe.

For example, Thorns and I are sorta, half-universe, half-dimension. It's at the brink of becoming a whole other universe because of how different we are and the events in our stories are.

Ignis and I are parallels, she held Iblis in her world, while I held Chaos. We both were separated from our respective Gods when we were small children, before we could even remember it. But we still are connected to them... She is also a Goddess in her dimension and also deeply connected to the Sol Emeralds, as I am.

I can remember...Chris and I meeting when we were kids...When I was around 13 or 12. Almost right after SA2...I can remember all of that.

I remember back then I didn't interact with humans much, and I didn't go into human territory or any big cities. So being teleported to another dimension in a big city was... really odd, and it was a version of Mobius where it was closer to this Earth, where Mobians never existed.

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I MISSS CHRIS I MISS CHRIS AHHHHHHHHHHH

I miss.s.,.., my best human bud..,,. punching the wallz rn.

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obviously just for being fictionkin i dont have the right to tell them theyre wrong about their interpretation of the character....

BUT AS A NUMBER 1 AUTISTIC MFER WHO HAS LITERALLY HYPER-ANALYZED THIS DAMN CHARACTER LIKE MY LIFE DEPENDED ON IT , I SAY BRO WOULD -NOT- FUCKING SAY THAT!!!

When you're reading a fic as a fictionkin:

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It's hilarious how I made a self-insert character who while it wasn't exactly Me, it did represent me... and then the character I shipped them with Turned out to be ME.

Erm, love yourself I guess 😁👍

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That moment when you don't know if you're linking or if you're actually that character without any input.

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what they don't tell you about being fictionkin is that watching your source hurts.

you sit there and watch a series of increasingly traumatic events happen to you. imagine watching a mockumentary where you reenact your life with dubious accuracy but your life is a trainwreck tragedy.

and then you realize that no one else believes this is real.

and yet you just keep watching/reading for some unknown reason. it hurts but at the same time you cannot live without it.

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Rants abot my canon. cw implied sa, abuse, alcoholism.

I dont like how I want to get abused by her again. I remember it, I can feel it. I can remember how good and get how hollow it felt, a combination that made me want to hurl when it was over.

I did it just to please her. I did it just because I just couldn't... let her go. I couldn't bear with the thought of not seeing her again because... she was. gone. and I couldn't do anything about it. I don't even know if it was truly love I felt at this point, I think it was just this horrific attachement that was because I let her die once, I can't let it happen again, no matter what, no matter what I gotta do. Even if..

Why did I even do that. Why did I let her do whatever she wanted. why did i go along with it. Why did I think that was okay. Why do I want it again, why do I feel I need to grasp at her hand and beg her to just stay; stay where its safe, to stop getting into danger. I know how capable she is but what if, what if. I cant deal with it.

i still feel so dirty. I can't get the sensations out of my head, its horrible. its awful and disgusting. I remember how hollow I felt, how numb. I don't think I was rlly there.

Between all the alcohol I don't think I was fully there any of the times.

I miss alcohol sometimes, I remember how it made me feel. It made me feel so numb. it made me feel so calm. nothing. no thinking. like all my worries were suddenly lifted. like my world was clearer yet blurrier at the same time. I miss it so much, I need it back so bad. Just how I need her back too.

Sigh, I'm just incoherent now. I just miss what hurts me.

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I get so happy when I see fanart of me, especially when it feels accurate to my personal experience. like, good job human, you have captured my excellence! very well done! I get a bit sad seeing art of me with my friends from my old life, but it's bittersweet. I love them and miss them all so much... it's nice to see me with them again even if it's only in art

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Nobody look at me, I am emo... (is thinking of my partner in my canon.)

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"Did no one ever teach you how to tie these?"