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Shout out to my mate, Shade, who single handedly destroyed my dysphoria about "not" being entirely S-nic/Spikes by saying that no matter how I look like, from what universe I come from, I am Spikes/Sonic and he'll always be dedicated to me.

Like wowie, for you to say that to my aroace face? wowie. Lowkey? Got me grey in the aro.

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Do you kin a character with a cluster B type personality disorder?

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Sometimes, I feel bad about being or wanting to be nonhuman while also being Leon.

Being human was something important to us. We saw it interlinked with personhood. Now I know one can be a person without being human, but back then...it was ... everything. We would so desperately cling to our humanhood we felt was quickly being taken away.

We did not feel like people sometimes. Sometimes, it was just a limbo. But most times, it was way, way worse. We sometimes wondered what was the difference between I, and... BOWs. Both living weapons who didn't want to be, forced to be weapons and kill those they don't even know. None of them rebelling against it, or in any position to do so.

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am i the only weirdo who lowkey enjoys when people self-ship with your kintype? i find it cute.

like, I know that's not me, me, that's their perception of me. and it makes me happy that perception of me makes them happy. im happy i make them happy :)

this might be because im aroace, and i just ahve always fount it cute when someone likes me so much, they have a crush on me.

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Sometimes I feel like different versions of myself.

...Not in a system way, I think. At this point I think I'd be familiar with that. This feels different.

I feel... like I'm multiple versions of myself, especially with my 'types.

I feel like I'm multiple Lēons, not just from the canons but from alternate universes. The problem is... I don't feel I was them in a... past life kinda way as I feel for my center Lēon 'type. I feel like I was them through, maybe a parallel life sort of way, or a, "I know this, I feel this".

I wonder if this new version I feel is because of a headmate of mine who is also a Lēon and had this symbiotic relationship with Læs Plægas, so I get his memories... But I don't know these feel different.

Very different from his.

I have this neoma of being back in the city with one of those things still inside. We are not enemies, nor friends, but we get along, we have to. It surrounded itself around my heart and spine, not like you can get it out at the stage it is at. Weirdly enough this thing is here to stay, it isn't like the others that grow and eventually destroy their human host. It's supposed to coexist with me. It can control me, but I still have control as well. Think of it as how Venøm works. Weirdly enough, that's a little closer to what seems to be happening here.

I think I could communicate with the parasite. I can remember this voice, weirdly calm and soft. Man, I do love being plural am I right guys

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Thrice Upon a Time.

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I was having my average flashback experiences during a car ride about the car crash I was in last year, I believe. I can't even remember when it was, but I remember every single bit of it.

While having this, it started to change. I heared a kid crying, I felt myself on the ground. I felt as if, fire was surrounding me. I could feel glass below me and of course, stuck to me. It felt as if I was remembering something else, it felt tied to Leøn.

My car crash experience has always felt very close to me being Leøn. For anyone who knows the character decently, it'd be obvious why. But this one wasn't any of my previous car crashes in my canon, it felt new, more recent.

While I was severely disturbed by this, I couldn't help but be insanely curious about it too, so I tried to lean more into it to find everything I could about it...without having a panic attack about it (after all, feeling glass stabbing you and your whole body numb and hurting like crazy isn't very fun). I found out some interesting stuff.

I think... this is one closer to when my canon "ends". It felt after Røse. It felt as if I was with her, in fact.

I only met Ethān once, I don't even remember if we spoke, but I know we saw each other. I was closer to Chrįs in my canon than in source, I remember that I would frequent BSÅA headquarters and other stablishments thanks to this.

So me meeting Ethān wasn't that much of a surprise, but... being directly involved was. I think this is after he passed, as the crying I heard wasn't of a baby, but a toddler. I can't remember how long I stayed alive after Ethān passed, but I know it was more than a year, so this tracks.

But, I still wonder how I got there. Why?

For some reason, it felt very similar to the bus crash in RĘ6. But I know it was a car, perhaps more people were with us? Perhaps we were in trouble to begin with? It feels...tied to something. I think someone was out to get Røse.

Hm.

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(I said selfship but it doesn't have to be romantic)

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Alternate title: Do you have a kinsona? (I just refuse to break from my poll format lmfao)

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Large kin ask game

Notes: I tried to make these friendly to both kin with memories and folk who kin with no memories! Also the second set of questions are heavily linked to fictionkin, but feel free to use for any kin type!

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General kin asks:

🏆. Who are your main kins? Is there a reason they're your main kins?

🤯. How many kins are you aware of? If you don't want to list them all that's fine, just do your top ones.

👤. Who is the most recent kin you have discovered? Do you have any information on them (ie kin type, what happened in your canon, ect)?

🦧. Do you have a kin you didn't expect to kin but did?

🍿. Do you have a 'kin type' (Ie do you always kin characters with black hair, do you kin characters with a temper, ect)? Can you relate this 'type' to yourself currently?

🦄. Is there a character from media that you haven't engaged with that you're kinsidering?

🌐. Do you have any kins that take place in an AU? Or any kin you'd like to see in an AU?

🌟. Do you have a favorite kin? Why are they your favorite?

📚. Is there a kin source you have that no one else seems to kin from?

🪶. Do you have a specific kin type (ie otherkin, fictionkin, objectkin, ect) that you lean towards?

🌱. If you could live in any of the worlds your kin is from, which one would you like to live in?

🪀. Have you met any canonmates before? If so which canons/kins?

🎆. Di you have any kins that are no longer main kins for you? Who are they?

🪄. How did you discover being kin? If you don't want to share for any reason, what age did you learn about kin?

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Specific kin asks:

💕. What is the most important relationship(s) you had as [kin]? Or do you have a comfort character that links to [kin]?

🖋. Give a brief summary of your kin timeline! Or write about why you kin [character].

🎶. Do you have any music you associate with [kin]? If you want to list multiple songs!

🌈. Does your kin (or anyone else) have a queer identity in your memories? If you don't have any memories, do you have a headcanon for [kin] or anyone else?

🍃. What are your most comforting memories? If you don't have any memories, do you have any scenes from source that bring you comfort?

🥁. What hobbies did you have as [kin]? Or are there any you do to feel connected with [kin]?

👗. As [kin] were there any fashion types you enjoyed and/or wore? Is there any fashion types you'd like to see [kin] wearing?

🪞. Were there any differences in your kins canon appearance to your kin timeline? If not is there any differences would make to your canon apperance?

🍔. Do you have any food that you link to [kin]? Did you enjoy eating this food or is there another reason?

🎧. Did you listen to any music as [kin]? Or what music do you associate with [kin]?

🐣. What does your fandom get right about [kin]? Why do they get wrong?

🐦. Are there any similarities between canon [kin] and you? Is there anything canon got wrong?

💧. Do you have any regrets as [kin]? What would you have done differently?

🗺. What was your universe/world like as [kin]? Or what would it be like living in the world of [kin]?

💖. Favourite part about being [kin]? Why?

💔. Least favourite part about being [kin]? Why?

🖼. Do you have a favourite picture of your kin? If not is there any of a comfort character?

🎲. Send a question I haven't thought of!