#eventually everything just STOPS
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(Lools back at 2023 [except the summer]) darn.
Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.
#well#this explains WHY im currently In A Good Place Actually but my#mental health#is a hurricane of screaming evangelists and demons that really dont want to be here#whats worse is that my autism makes this entire thing WEIRD because all that i see as “happening” straight-up doesnt exist#it took a while to process shit but uh#yeag#we keep walking and it gets better#maybe you have ONE bad day#but the thoughts just... dont “go away”. they happen. you go “wellthatwasaloadofshit.jontron” and keep going because you have shit to do#minecraft to build homework to do#plans and chores and free time and MEMES#and like#eventually everything just STOPS#sooner than you expected#but around where you say it happens#on an unrealted note: self-fulfilling prophecies are the reason pessimism and other adjacient line of thought have poisoned the human mind#lel
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au where everything is the same except mabel and dipper have been going to gravity falls every year before the show takes place since like kindergarten.
its a pretty simple premise that derives mostly from my desire to explore interpersonal relationships and the ways a place and people can change from a young child’s point of view. it doesn’t change canon that much either, admittedly, i just wanted to draw childhood friends stuff LOL. ill call it uhhhhhhhh every summer au.
#gravity falls#stanley pines#dipper pines#mabel pines#stan pines#grenda grendinator#candy chiu#pacifica northwest#gabuart#pacifica eventually stops being their friend and it makes mabel really sad but it just makes dipper really angry#gestures vaguely#people change. relationships change. every summer becomes a shadow of the last summer#gravity falls is the same but the people within it become more different every time we come#growing up is difficult#and frustrating#nothing makes sense#but at least we have each other#everything is going to be okay#every summer au
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since Eng is getting 7.5 soon(?), I felt motivated to go back to my Meleanor rig and make her a couple of lesson animations! ...except for alchemy, because the cauldron bubbles proved too hard to photoshop around, whoops.
maybe she just got lost on her way to the classroom...?
(credit: backgrounds are from the game, I just put her on top of 'em)
(aside from the backgrounds, this is not an edit, I drew her from scratch! please do not tag or treat as an edit!)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers#gif warning#gifs that will inexplicably never get a perfect no matter how many cupcakes you use warning#let's just say she hasn't been added to the alchemy schedule yet#AS PER USUAL#(sam sneaks in at night and messes with the schedule so we have to buy candy from him instead)#(i promise i will stop spamposting eventually) (they gotta stop giving me characters to obsess over first)#anyway in my continuing efforts to manifest a meleanor card into existence#it's time to remember i made this a million years ago#just blow off some of the dust and cobwebs that have accumulated here...#'i'm only gonna add a couple of things i won't do too much'#(spends ten minutes trying to decide what color goggles she should have)#(flipping back and forth between green and purple) it's no use she looks good in everything#spineposting#(not me stealth editing because i didn't realize the wrong arm attachment had somehow popped in whoops)
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wade wilson body worship. can anyone hear me
#he makes one too many self deprecating jokes about the way he looks and Logan is like ‘alright enough of that’#drops everything and TAKES HIS TIME showing that silly little shit just how hot Logan thinks he is#of course Wade would just keep cracking jokes - trying to deflect#because Logan is being so gentle with him and looking at him Like That and holy fuck it’s making him feel way too much#and Logan is eventually like ‘hey. just shut the fuck up and pay attention’#bc he is notttt letting Wade go until he gets it through his thick skull that Logan genuinely finds him desirable#idk#i can’t stop thinking about it#i just think he deserves to be taken care of and told he’s a whole goddamn snack#because HE IS#poolverine#wade wilson#deadclaws
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in loving memory
or: what did @pkmn-monochrome mean by this
#pokepasta#pokemon monochrome#this string of updates has had me so fucked up. whats going ONNNNN!!!!!!!#i really wanted to draw this panel its such a striking image. (wearing tshirt that says 'i noticed the secret')#i want to put cody under a microscope. like whats wrong with them. like god they deserve better they deserve SO much better#but also damn dude you have ISSUES huh. like 'ive already said too much' um. Um?????????????????#cody u need to stop keeping secrets. like id like to think i understand why given theyve said it outright#(its not our business. its for the sake of survival. and the players perception of them would almost certainly change once these truths-#come forward.)#i know the creator said that it WILL come forward eventually one way or another and i await that with fear and excitement#cause for something to be so deeply and desperately hidden for fear of DEATH... that must be a pretty nasty skeleton in the closet cody.#and tbh 'ive already said too much' makes me wonder how much has gone unspoken abt red and leaf too. like god codys so good at being just.#OBTUSE with the players. an expert in toeing around the truth and saying only Just enough but never Everything.#theyre such a fascinating character to read i fucking love monochrome the writing is awesome
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Toby and Kate compare their scars from the rake. Toby has more and they’re worse. Kate was comparing out of curiosity , Toby was comparing out of competition. And somehow having the worse scars was a win
#I think many of their interactions are like#Kate minding her business or doing smth out of curiosity or for fun or to kill time and it’s not that serious#then Toby’s fighting for his life to bug the shit out of her and everything’s a competition to him#he tries to race her one day and severely misunderstood how fast and well paced she is#sprained his ankle .#HAHAH#chatterbox#love the idea of everyone tryna race Kate#eventually it hits the point where they know they won’t win but it’s like LET ME TRY ANYWAY#like a little kid arm wrestling their dad#Kate doesn’t hold back on Toby whatsoever. then Nina is like MY TURNNNN and Kate’s suddenly going slower#Toby accuses her of letting Nina win and Kate’s like No I’m just tired after racing you it just makes sense stop bitching#Toby’s mad. HAHAHA
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"Hey-- it's alright. You're okay. No. It's just us here, I swear. It's just the two of us. No one's gonna tell her. It's okay-- No, you did good! You did fine, Dee, you didn't even do anything bad-- you gotta breathe, hermano, come on--"
look, i would have loved to have let the gemini go enjoy that robot dinosaur with their new friends. :/ sadly the requirements were not met for that timeline so donnie has to get overstimulated and have a panic attack instead. bummer.
#its a little hard for dee to be in new environments and situations#even just as a baseline#but especially if its in public#especially if he has to keep it together and make sure hes doing everything right#especially if he doesnt have a script or model to follow#especially if its VERY exciting#lots of energy#no where to put it#eventually it stops being excitement#the boys have long since mastered the art of communicating without words#they have their own system for talking in public without letting on#gemini au#tmnt sep comp#rottmnt#rottmnt disaster twins#rise disaster twins#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt donatello#rottmnt leo#rise leo#rottmnt leonardo#rottmnt separated au#fidgetwing#tw ableism#tw ableism implied#tw child abuse#tw child abuse implied
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adhd is when you shoot for the moon but you forgot the rocket fuel and by the time you realize it everyones already on the moon and then you panic and crash into the sun and it explodes
#my meds stopped working and i didnt know thats something that can fucking happen apparently???#like i knew eventually my body can get used to medicine that the effect kind of dulls but for some reason this time around i thought#that my body just decided to become lazier since the meds were already working anyway. cuz thats the thing as soon as smth is made#easier for me even if its the thing thats supposed to make the disability less disabling i get too relaxed and end up fucking up anyway#so i assumed my fucking cells worked the same way LMAO. they still technically work like i can feel my energy spike when it kicks in#but everything else like focus and memory went down and i thought oh so its just a me problem then. my habits are getting worse#even though ive been doing everything the same like setting reminders checking my schedule. hell ive been setting MORE reminders#to make up for the memory thing and i didnt even realize i just knew i had to compensate since it feels like my memory is getting#worse again. and i only figured this out bc my brother showed me an icecreamsandwich video with him talking about the EXACT FUCKING#THING IM GOING THRU WORD FOR WORD#i have to bring this up with my doctor next week so maybe i have to take different meds. i wonder if this will be a recurring thing#i guess one thing that hasnt changed is that im still slow as hell and stuff only comes to me 5 hours after the fact#its 6 in the morning and i only JUST realized that the word froyo is probably short for frozen yogurt#yapping#adhd
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WAIT wilds weapons break in botw so quickly for the EXACT SAME REASON they do in totk but malice is more dilute than gloom!!
#That's such a obvious and straightforward deliniation wow#If the dev team did it on purpose that's genius if not it's still stupendous accidental plot hole filling#I imagine after botw the master sword stopped breaking and so he eventually started using it as his main weapon again which is why in totk#He was still using her instead of putting her back to heal#legend of zelda#loz#tears of the kingdom#breath of the wild#It all fits so well!! Nobody in botw mentioned it because that was all they'd known! And then just as they were getting used to better#Weapons totk the upheaval happened and everything turned to rust!! And why in lu wilds weapons break while the others don't! Because the#Others didn't have that level of malice!!!#It had nothing to do with fi getting weaker ganon was just a crafty mf who'd been told the master sword would be his end!!!!#It's all ganons fault!!!#linked universe#linkeduniverse#tloz#the legend of zelda#loz link#loz botw#loz breath of the wild#loz totk#loz tears of the kingdom#lu wild#lu chain#lu#ganondorf#loz ganon#calamity ganon#totk ganon
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taru, somewhere in the waters for who knows how long after he broke out from underwater jail, possibly reliving abyss trauma or smth, while fontaine is about to be flooded :
"yea hell be fine"
my bbg falling and scraping the entirety of his ass in a tournament :
#i rewatch the scene and THE INSANE FEELINGS I GET GAAAAAAAAH I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF HIS BRUISES AND CARE FOR HIM#HE HAS BAD POSTURE AND BACK PAINS AND IS IN HIS THIRTIES HE DEF TWISTED SMTH HE DIDNT EVEN KNOW EXIST AND CRY ABOUT GETTING OLD even tho he#never did so before bc 30 is not old at all but still young but its rather the realiziation that he indeed is getting older and feeling it#so its settling in and giving him a crisis he accidentally got himself into when he was just meaning to whine about his bone pains and#haithams just looking blankly into the camera before he continues cleaning his cuts and scrapes and tells him to calm down and stop fussing#and then kaveh eventually calms down from the entire tournament and the fall and brainwash attempt and the thing about his father and sees#that his reaction rlly was just piled up from everything that had happened today and just got out over smth as trivial as some aching bones#(and prob a twisted knee or smth)#im rambling its my mushy brain#i should focus on doing the trial LMAO#babbles#genshin tag
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Crazy how i’m not being kissed hard enough to forget everyone who has ever hurt me rn
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#ughhhhhhh#so many things i wish i could get out of my head lately#even for just like a second#sometimes life is just a constant mantra of ‘things will get better eventually’ ad infinum#for over ten years#it is not eventually yet and i hate it so so much#STOP letting me think about my feelings on no sleep it sucks#a relationship would NOT fix me#but god sometimes i want to try it anyway#ignore meeeee#im a mess rn#going THROUGH it#with NO kissing too!!#honestly a rude addition on top of everything else smh#im gay and i like sleeping
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I'm thinking of Nijimura and how the rest of the Teiko gang would have reacted if they ever saw old pictures of him from his delinquent days. Surely they would've clowned his ass...
#i think the only way theyd find old photos is if the other upperclassmen showed them for funsies#nijimura tries to stop them but its too late#aomine and kise would be laughing the most#momoi would be trying to scold them for laughing at their senior#(kuroko is also laughing but his low presence means he gets away with it)#murasakibara would probably furrow his eyebrows in confusion#midorima is just shaken to his core because the duality is throwing him tf off#and akashi is also finding it extremely funny but is trying so hard not to laugh#he eventually loses the battle and has to hide his face behind his clipboard#and nijimura is just standing there seeing the respect his juniors had for him vanish before his very eyes#why couldnt we have a moment like this in canon#must i do everything myself around here#kuroko no basket#knb headcanons#i guess#kuroko tetsuya#kise ryouta#midorima shintarou#aomine daiki#momoi satsuki#murasakibara atsushi#akashi seijuro#nijimura shuuzou
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Something I've been thinking a lot about lately is how everyone thought Egon had gone insane. What Happened that made them think that. They've fought a gigantic Stay Puft Marshmellow Man TWICE (counting the 2009 video game because iirc it's canon? Correct me if I'm wrong), fought an interdimensional god, fought a blood thirsty ruler that killed thousands and was hated by all that was trapped in a painting (and managed to get in to beat him by making THE STATUE OF LIBERTY start walking down the street with slime that reacted purely based on vibes), found an underground abandoned transit system full of the moodslime, had a bathtub try to eat Dana and her baby, fought a giant murderous black widow lady, fought the fisherman ghost who turned an entire hotel floor into the bottom of a ocean, and that's not even mentioning them getting trapped on an island that randomly raised up from underwater that had been abandoned for decades created by Ivor Shandor who worshipped Gozer. So what did he do or say that made everyone else think he'd gone insane?? All I can think is maybe he was acting strange / eratic before, but he's always been like that to some degree.
I don't know. It's something that I've been thinking about. The correct answer is 'it's not that deep and they needed a reason that the others weren't together anymore and weren't aware of Egons death or know what was going on,' but also. What Was He Saying that prompted everyone, including Ray, to think he lost his mind when he'd been right almost every time before that.
I'm genuinely so curious as to what he was up to before this. What was he doing. What insane idea was working on prior to this or was he even working on anything at all??
Also want to clarify this post isn't negative 😭 I really love the newer movies and their lore / the newer storyline / characters, I just like thinking about small stupid things like this. Gives me something to think about / speculate about / figure out an answer to.
#ghostbusters#egon spengler#nikolas posts#I have so many thoughts on it because I've just been rewatching the two movies on loop for the past few days.#All we got was Ray saying that he'd started talking about the end of the world (IIRC) and that he went insane and took everything#when he eventually left to deal with it on his own#which for the record it's extremely impressive that he would've stopped Gozer from returning BY HIMSELF. The only reason it hadn't worked#was because of the electricity issue#Hiding all the traps and setting up the proton packs to fire at the hell pit?? Insanity. He's just on a complete different level of existin#Like they were aware of Ivor Shandor and his plans long before??? They found his ISLAND DEDICATED TO GOZER who had full intention of#BRINGING THEM BACK#it's really Really REALLY not this deep but I have thoughts and I wanted to share them. Maybe someone else might have an idea I#couldn't think of or might have something to add.#I guess it could be a 'they beat Gozer once and assumed they were gone' but that wasn't the first time Gozer 'died' so??#if I missed something Please tell me. I haven't watched the newer movies as much as the older ones (I grew up watching them / playing#the game so I'm more familiar with the older lore and haven't had the chance to rewatch the newer ones 1000 times over unfortunately)#so it's entirely possible I missed something#I'd think maybe it was just because they were older but I really don't think thats the case. I have reasoning for it but I need to do#the math to make sure I'm getting the ages right by the time AfterLife happens.#really need to make a chart / timeline of all the events that happened and what year / month / day they happened. That's a project#for tomorrow perhaps.#anyways if anyones reading this sorry for the insane rambling and congrats for making it to the end#also this post isn't negative I adore the newer movies so much. I love them a lot and I genuinely don't really care about this at all#just a thing to think / ponder / speculate about if that makes sense#I enjoy thinking about stupid irrelevant stuff like this#so so so many thoughts
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I’ve seen someone say that Sally was selfish and inconsiderate for telling Percy they need his room for Estelle???
#thoughts on this#?#personally#they got blocked#or actually they already pmo by being an annabeth anti this was the final straw#and it wasn’t just a passing comment they were full on saying Percy must’ve felt so excluded and depressed about it#but if I remember correctly he was overwhelmed with joy about the news of Sally’s pregnancy#he wasn’t upset about it right?#and I mean it is true they will need his room…#and he’s going to college#to have a future and eventually start a family with annabeth#I’m all for Percy angst but can we stop looking for it in places where it’s not there#and the subtle (not so subtle) Sally slander was new to me#I’ve never seen it before#I thought we all thought of her as a queen who does no wrong(don’t take this super seriously everyone makes mistakes I know that)#I hate that I clarify everything but ppl get mad over little things so clarification it is#pjo#percy jackson#percy jackson and the olympians#heroes of olympus#hoo#sally jackson#sally jackson appreciation#no sally slander allowed#estelle#estelle blofis#estelle jackson would’ve ate#annabeth chase#chalice of the gods
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call me crazy but i thought of a parallel i didn’t notice before
in the s4 episode treasure hunt, when they’re all teaming up to secretly look for the treasure, Eddie asks Buck to team up with him but he’s already teamed up with Taylor.
in s7 Eddie asks Buck to go to the bachelor party as Crockett and Tubbs, Buck doesn’t think for a second before saying absolutely, despite the fact that he’s currently dating someone he could wear a couples costume with instead.
#i’m reaching again i know#but he said this season would parallel s4 and i’m not seeing it#i’m trying so hard to see it#i’m overthinking everything now#buddie#911#911 on abc#eddie diaz#evan buckley#911 buddie#i can’t stop imagining a parallel to the last episode of s4#when taylor runs out but he doesn’t follow because ana calls about eddie#idk what would lead up to it but parallel scene when he had to walk away from tommy to check on eddie/christopher?#that would give me life actually#like maybe tommy comes over to tell him “hey man i think you have feelings for your bestie and he’s like what man no way#but then runs out the second he gets a call from eddie#he doesn’t get time to think about it so then we get feelings realization a little while later#it would be great#and i know it won’t happen probs#but if i just keep making wild predictions maybe one of them will be right eventually
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i am so normal about her rn
what a character
#elden ring#queen marika the eternal#sote spoilers#<- what spoilers mara? i dunno it's a screenshot from the dlc#just in case#actually spoilers in the following tags#she lived through a genocide#she grew to godhood out of rage (on the mountain of corpses of her people) and enacted another one as vengeance#then mellowed out and tore everything she build apart#THE DEVELOPMENT#THE EVENTUAL UNDERSTANDING#THE RAGE AND SORROW AND VENGEANCE AND HOPE#THE LOVE!! FOR HER CHILDREN!! THAT MADE HER BRAKE OFF OF THE CIRCLE OF VENGEANCE#the unforgivable acts upon unforgivable acts and then the understanding!!!! the attempt to fix it!! to stop it!!!!!\#I'M LOOSING IT
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