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Bro people who were so like.. for the masks when covid was a huge ordeal? Now if you wear a mask they're like ".. why re you wearing a mask?" Girlypop for the same reason you were wearing one 3 years ago, to reduce infection of a airborne pathogen??
#context here is i wore a mask to rehearsal today#and got a lot of questions that were easier to answer by saying “oh this fabric was fun and i wanted to mske something”#because saying “oh ive been sneezing more often today” garners excuses from people as to why theyve been sneezy#and saying “i dont trust any of yall to be responsible if youre sick” because i have heard people come in hacking it up and saying#bc people think its fine now to sit next to you while hacking it up and ask for a cough drop while they open mouth wail about their cold#thats nasty!#it was nasty 3 years ago and its nasty now!#even if “its just a cold dont worry”#i dont want that shit either!!
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can someone nice (!!) please please please adopt me im begging you im requesting you (huge word vomit and vent in tags, pls dont read if u dont want to!! and if you don't want this stuff on this blog PLS lmk!! i dont wanna make anyone uncomfy! )
#tw vent#yes ik i have a vent blog#but idk why i dont wanna go there#ill prolly delete this in a while + if i vent here (which ill try not to) ill always tag it#but if any of yall aren't fine with it pls do lmk!!! ill stop <3#Anyways.#fucking hell i hate this.#dude#i very specifically told them to hurry the fuck up THEY were the ones making us late#i have told them a hundred times the minimum time i jeed to get ready#i told them this morning too that you guys make us late then put it all on me#nad she went like oh no dear dont worry that wont happen#WELL GUESS WHAT BITCH#and like the lecture and huge ass scolding and then cold shouldet ive been getting from BOTH of them before i left for coachinh#im just tired atp#idk its not even that big a deal this happens everyday#i dont know how to feel#idk if im even rly feeling anything atp#its just that i really fucking hate being here#I wanna get the fuck out#but thing is this makes me feel kinda guilty occasionally#for eg a few days ago i was rly sick and she took care of me kinda#and then that made me feel bad for hating her#but then things like this happen and i cant help it and i feel so conflicted#i dont want to stay here i know that for sure but i feel guilty for it#if i speak im being rude and backtalking#if i dont speak im being rude and ignoring#the fuck am i supposed to do????#she always tells me to 'stay silent and just hear it'#and when i do that she keeps shouting again and again and finally i say smth bc although its extremely fucking dumb of me to open my mouth
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Who's gonna get whacked by the snowstorm? It's supposed to get me the next two days and I'm kinda excited tbh 👀
ARE Y'ALL PREPARED?!
#my animals all should be okay#im just a bit worried about the half wild chickens who wont let me put them in the coop#or even the garage#i know theyll be ok with the cold im just worried about how deep the snow will be#ill have to keep up on making paths for them#other than that#i have enough animal and people food to last awhile and i have extra straw in case someone needs more#also got ten gallons each of diesel and gas#lots of blankets medical supplies board games#oh dang i should make sure my portable phone charger is charged#i really need to get a solar charger#the thing im worried about most is if the power goes out#we have a generator but if we can keep the house warm during the day we might turn it off at night#and i know its stupid but i have anxiety and nighttime is really hard for me#especially in pitch black silence#i dont like the way my fear and anxiety makes my heart feel#anyway#ill stop rambling now#yall are in my prayers#please pray for us
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ive been rereading tnp and it’s bothering me so much i need to mention it here; it’s kind of insane how much the erins bend over backwards to make brambleclaw deputy, it’s kind of just nonsensical.
not even him not having an apprentice when he’s picked, though that is kind of wild, he just… there’s basically no good reason other than him being a main pov character and tigerstar’s son. literally any other thunderclan warrior who’s had an apprentice (barring maybe ashfur) would have been a better choice. thornclaw dustpelt sandstorm cloudtail brackenfur- brackenfur is one that firestar explicitly considers and the reasoning why he decides not to is so incredibly weak ‘oh i dont think he’d be right for leader’ number one what are you talking about number 2 then use him being deputy as an opportunity to help him become right for leader are you telling me firestar thinks the cat he once considered letting die in a fire is a better fit for leader than the cat he half mentored. dustpelt is clearly an experienced warrior, sandstorm is someone firestar obviously has faith in, thornclaw is experienced and i’m pretty sure you even see firestar consult him a few times (cloudtail is iffy bc thats cloudtail but he’d really be a better choice, just how he treats daisy and her kits would be an interesting justification for firestar making him second-in-command) but honestly besides the narrative jumping through hoops to act like the other very viable options are either secretly bad choices or otherwise ignore them (why is bramble the only cat we ever see jump to help firestar with stuff they just wrote everyone else to be silent or w/e) but in twilight where he arguably acts the most like de-facto deputy in leaf and squirrel’s pov he’s framed as a jackass half the book??? why would you do that if you intend to make him actual leader?? in his trial run of being kinda-not-deputy you just make him use his semi-authority to be cold and fucking mean to his friend and her buddy??? like i see him being qualified due to having experience being the travel group’s leader and whatnot, but barely anything else is done to make him realistically more qualified than anyone else- he just angsts about his ambitions and gets handed the position because starclan vouched for him for some damn reason even though by his society’s laws he should not be in that position
#sorry its just really bothering me bc i am NOT seeing why he should be deputy#warrior cats#salty talks#the new prophecy#i dont hate tnp i just hate the bramble wants to be deputy plot he does not deserve that shit#not even on the level of him being a shitty guy or anything he literally should not have been picked#its probably the most egregious example of the authors just forcing a plot point instead of like. building it up realistically#literally in twilight he just comes off like he’s going to be a cold distant asshole as deputy it’s not a good look#opposed to firestar being deputy gaining his position while qualified and also through the understandable logic of bluestar’s mental state#fire just picks bramble be leafs like hey starclan says so and fires like oh ok even tho he’s literally not qualified#and also barely seems like he’d be a good choice anyways despite having been a main pov character#yes im complaining abt bad writing in the Bad Writing Cat Books leave me alone this is bothering me#adding while i read sunset; i will concede that this one does a better job building him up as possible deputy with the trust he’s given#its still just. why him (besides him being the mc) why is no one else given this trust or somewhat filling this role the same way#i feel like it would be more interesting if someone else got chosen over bramble and he had to be at peace with that#instead of oh he gets what he wants yayyy. idk switch the fox trap scene to hawkfrost trapping the new deputy#i feel like bramble not being deputy would be interesting like helps him realize that he doesnt need to be in a position of power#for his clanmates to trust him and rely on him if hes still worried abt the tigerstar’s kin thing and maybe confront tigerstar abt it
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new oc batch ready! 8 more of these guys lol. the whole deal with this set is they’re from the artisan guild- lunar flair! intentionally spelled like “flair” as in “style” or “a flare for ____” rather than “flare”
basically all the members of the guild are different kinds of artists with different niches (and varying degrees of diva-ness). it’s pretty easy to tell who does what based on the everything about them, but if you want more info their bios are still under the cut!
Name: Jupiter
Name Origin: The planet of course
Pronouns: He/him
Age: 52
Guild rank: Guildmaster
Weapon: Lightning rods
Ethos (Power): Gigantomachy. He can make himself (even more) giant
Flaw power is based on: His overly protective nature, especially where the guild is concerned.
Notes: Literally the nicest guy ever until you provoke him though
Name: Erinome (Erin)
Name Origin: A moon of jupiter, the exact meaning of it’s name is murky but it can refer to grace or purity
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 13
Guild rank: 2 star
Weapon: A Book.
Ethos (Power): Poetic Imagery. Illusions cast forth by his her poems that change the appearance of the physical environment
Flaw power is based on: Her escapist indulgence in fantasy
Notes: You know, like, the pen is mightier than the sword and all that.
Name: Pictor
Name Origin: The constellation meaning “painter”
Pronouns: He/him
Age: 23
Guild rank: 3 star
Weapon: Giant paintbrush
Ethos (Power): Ardor. He can create three-dimensional things with his paintbrush. However they are not animate or alive.
Flaw power is based on: His conceited nature in regards to his own work.
Notes: Goes to museums to talk about how he could probably do it better anyway
Name: Oberon
Name Origin: A moon of the planet Uranus, it gets it’s name from the king of the fairies in Renaissance literature. Notably in Shakespeare’s A Midsummer Night's Dream
Pronouns: He/him
Age: 29
Guild rank: 5 star
Weapon: Rapier
Ethos (Power): Fantasia. An illusion of changing his own appearance.
Flaw power is based on: His theatrical nature, of course
Notes: Why is he ourple?
Name: Syrma
Name Origin: A star in virgo, it’s name refers to the train of a garment (Typically worn by actors in tragedies)
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 25
Guild rank: 4 star
Weapon: Giant needle
Ethos (Power): Binding threads. She can create stitches on any solid objects and bind them to each other. Including people- The stitches are manifested energy and do not hurt.
Flaw power is based on: The dependency she often has on bonds- i.e. threads that bind people.
Notes: She makes and models all her own clothes.
Name: Parumleo
Name Origin: A star in Pisces, it’s name means “small lion”
Pronouns: They/he
Age: 19
Guild rank: 3 star
Weapon: Microphone bardiche
Ethos (Power): Persuasion. If they can make you laugh you’ll temporarily have to follow his orders. Though it’s too weak to call full-blown mind control, and fairly easy to snap out of.
Flaw power is based on: His desire to be liked by others.
Notes: They’re like a lolcat. They can haz cheezburger.
Name: Leda
Name Origin: A moon of jupiter, the name means swan.
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 28
Guild rank: 4 star
Weapon: Duel ribbons
Ethos (Power): Poise. Complete and utter weightlessness.
Flaw power is based on: Her carefree and utterly absent-minded nature.
Notes: You guys know swan lake right? Well, there ya go.
Name: Styx
Name Origin: A moon of pluto that gets it’s name from the river of the underworld. Yeah it’s also a rock band.
Pronouns: She/they
Age: 20
Guild rank: 3 star
Weapon: Axe-guitar.
Ethos (Power): Vibrato. Powerful soundwaves cast by her axe-guitar
Flaw power is based on: Her brash and blasé attitude
Notes: Calls everyone “baby” or “babe” because they’re a cool rockstar.
#finn's ocs#oc references#finn's art#YAY i finally get to post my funny little artist guys#i feel like its fairly obvious what each persons gimmick is but just for the sake of brevity (for anyone who doesnt wanna read the readmore)#in order#jupiter doesnt have a Specific art bc hes the guildmaster and you can think of him as more of a teacher of sorts#erin is a poet/writer. pictor is obvs a painter. oberon is a thespian. syrma is a seamstress#parumleo is a comedian. leda is a ballerina. and styx is a musician (or straight up rockstar)#since these characters are all like.. trinary characters they dont go all Too much deeper than their gimmicks#but thats why theyre fun to design bc its like. what if [thing] was a guy LOL#also i wanted to try some new stuff out w their designs (like syrmas dimples for example) so i hope they look okay? i hope so...#also leda and how shes literally the least clothed character ive ever made. shes going to catch a cold for sure yeah#parumleo i worry about bc i had a fairly similar color pallet for asterope (but no red) so i hope he still stands out. the lolcat....#oh also if erin and oberon's powers sound similar that's on purpose too. shes like his protege#i feel like out of all of them though pictor is like the prime example of guy who should be in an artist guild LOL#like the most archetypal. most ppl think of painters when they think of artists#but i wanted different types in there too.#painters writers actors even funnymen and rockstars. they all belong. theyre all weird about creating#anyway im glad i can finally post them now ^_^
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deranged rambling
#i typed out another post but it became a massive text wall that i probably shouldnt post#but tl;dr im severley depressed. i have been my whole life but it started getting bad again in november#and this last month has been the hardest month of my fucking life#im so sleep deprived that i cant think clearly i cant eat im in constant pain#my thoughts arent even coherent my brain feels like its being twisted around#i cant do my job anymore i stopped booking clients#so thats how my lifes been going#dont worry about me ill be fine i always pull through im just tired#im going to talk to my brother tomorrow. my relationship with him is strained but hes all i have and i know he can help me.#i dont know why im posting this. ive been drinking.#also sorry for how cold ive been lately#and how ive been ignoring all my messages/asks/replies/tags for the last few months#i do like hearing from people i just. literally cannot respond
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as someone whos not a big graha fan and doesnt ship with him ill be real that gondola ride was real awkward
#dawntrail spoilers#dont get me wrong i still like graha#but man#eleutherios did NOT want to be on that boat with him. they have a. strained. relationship#eleutherios fucking forgot about him after arr meanwhile he became a little bit obsessed.#wild how half the plot of this game hinges on a gayass catboy's INCREDIBLY ONE SIDED crush on a man who forgot he even existed#hes like asahi 2 but not a terrible person about it#eleutherios is aware that graha cares SO MUCH about him and he does find it sweet but. hes got bigger problems to worry about in shb and ew#theyre trying to actually be friends after endwalker#its. going. its going!#eleutherios has decided graha is his adventure buddy. and he felt kind bad for basically giving graha the cold shoulder#like he didnt really acknowledge him until ultima thule#then he was like. IVE BEEN SUCH AN ASS. SORRY. we can be friends i think.#the gondola ride was still really awkward#it really really felt like fanservice and eleutherios did not want to be there#eleutherios voice: just smile and nod. smile and nod.
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I want to go to sleep but there is a centipede that had been stock still above my bed for literally like 4 hours, what is he planning....
#god i fucking hate when i get up and turn on my lights#and i look over and there's a bug in a very precarious location#like: HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN THERE#i HATE it when theyre still. bcs like if theyre wandering around yeah its disgusting +#but theyll probably just go somewhere out of sight and out of mind#but when theyre inconceivably still its so worrying#like when i lay down are you going to fall on top of me????#i literally left and sat downstairs for like 2 hours hoping itd be gone#but .... nope :)#and its a fucking big one too#WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE!? ITS COLD AND DRY OUT YOU SHOULD BE DEAD#why and when and where do they spawn i dont understand#catie.rambling.txt
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A ride in a cop car was not how I intended to spend my midnight hours tonight but here I am
#im ok dont worry#its not even anything bad i just. ran out of gas and ended up in the middle of the road#cop pulled over and helped me move my car#now giving me a ride to a gas station because its cold as FUCK#ress talks
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now heres the thing is my rule is i have to live on my own for a year before im allowed to get a pet but also consider what if i had a little friend .
#in my heart i want a wawa so badly it hurts but alsoooo i worry quite a bit bc like. i work full time... so el wawa would be at home alone a#lot and one thing about the beautiful adorable majestic chihuahua is they have to pee every 3-4 hours. so i would have to have some way to#let them out OR keep them outside while im at work but another thing is 1. apartments dont generally have backyards#2. chihuahuas get cold very easily .... i could do some ssort of doggy daycare but i fear that would be expensive .... and i hate pee pads#and would prefer not 2 use them so i dont rly have much optionn 😭 but i want a chihuahua so badly.#but ALSO. a kitty cat.... i love cats i think theyre really quite sweetsies and also i think they could handle living in an apartment bette#esp since famously cats use the bathroom indoors. u may know.#so... i could potentially get a kitty..... but also i dont want to get one until im absolutely positive i could take good care of it and i#feel like i could esp now that ive got a system that works so well 4 motivating me to do my daily tasks yk. and also i think if i had my ow#apartment id feel a lot safer just like. being up and around the apartment so thatd be good... but also pets r expensive. but also the apt#i just applied to is rly quite cheap (like 1050 a month) its income restricted but i qualify by like a lot LMAO... n this would be perfect#bc 1050 is likee. not even a full paycheck i could pay rent with 1 paycheck and still have like 150 left over and then my other paycheck fo#the month is fully mine... so i could save up lots#+ wsg is included in the rent whichhh is insane. adn the apartment is cute and Trust . alarm bells were going off a bit bc i was like maybe#this is too good to be true we all remember the 800$ scam incident. but its a verified listing and i checked the propertymanagers and theyr#legit... its even got a washer and dryer IN UNIT and also a fitness center which is good bc i wanna try n start doing more cardio...#IT EVEN HAS A FIREPLACE i dont particularly need a fireplace but its cool 2 have one i could make smores right in my very own living room#AND ITS NOT A STUDIO its a 1 br...#grahhh i rly rly rly want ittt ik i prolly wont get it but :[
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why r u so mad about ppl preferring ten x madame de pompadour to ten x martha like ten/martha will never be a thing. ten don’t want anything to do with martha. he literally said to her face she wouldn’t replace rose… and she never did… isnt canon enough for you
hm.
im glad im only a scorpio on this alone. if martha deserved better than ten then so do all of em but anyway:
this ask is giving 2006/07 i dont want to see tenth doctor in a romantic relationship with a person of color because i can't project myself or relate to them if they arent the very thing being catered to me ever since the silent pictures vibes. u know the same vibe when rtd was told to not regenerate 14 in 13's clothes. just. Ick.
but im not mad. its just interesting for a ship so big as tenrose, it is usually correlated with hating madame de pompadour and/or joan and/or river [though in joan's case they hate her not because shes racist but because shes not rose]
though comics tend to release to combat that in multi doctor stories where they jump through various alternate universes of themselves where the doctor sees themselves settled down with dr. grace holloway (for 8th dr multi doctor stories) and professor melody williams/river song (for 11th dr multi doctor stories) where in those cases, they are frightful of the concept settling down at all. [take note that both times, he settles down in the same house that he owns bc of that unit paycheck on the dl] so i am curious that with this new drs, the equivalent of this would be 13 14 15 being terrified of settling down with rose because they had grown past her as this point.
i prefer the doctor in a polyromantic ace relationship than their umpteenth 🌟tragic heteronormative romance with yt human woman number 23445788764443356743🌟 i want 14 to sweep martha off her feet in pure joy and kiss her passionately while badmouthing tf out of 10 like 9 11 12 13 do with no filter before cradling her like a baby because hes about to crumble under his brand new identity complex and then take her kid to an amusement park and then 14 trips over a brick and dies. hell i rather have nina sosanya play a whole different lady in nod to doctor who recycles their actors trope as a way to introduce a love interest to 14
that amusment park one weirdly sounds like a 8th doctor audio. pls 🙏🏾 dont make it into one i couldnt handle schezro let alone the rest of his content. Empire of the Wolf made me so fucking worried for rose marion tyler like im just she back home 🫣. as for rose tyler from the sea devil universe still out about. whoop his ass. if billie come back as HER? MISS COVER MODEL MISS DICTATOR MISS EMPRESS ROSE?
NOT
i would love for ten to be strictly friends with the new miss empress rose. get that martha karma real quick ehehehehe after all rtd did say they need freema for somethin and im sure seeing 10 get treated the same way he treated martha by no other than empress rose herself -AND THEN EMPRESS ROSE FLIRTS WITH MARTHA??? FINGERS CROSSED??? im just saying that i personally will ride on that for 8 black history months and christmases straight like woo
also real glad it is collectively decided by every one that tentoo is just john smith not corin so yay thanks big finish and titan comics
#{lets see if i can scare this anon away listen i even made a graphic for this damn it. u better appreciate it i went all out for you}#{porn blogs and micro antiblack anons: this is why i dont share my shipping opinions much bc they stick to tv and i stick to everything}#{usually all this i gave to my aunt and we would have phone discussions and she would watch and call be like hey yeah! i see it}#{and she would say: but really it wasnt that for martha. it was the writing choices that was disapproved because not wanting another 💞}#{it went from classism for rose to racism for martha and she points that it wasnt catered to black fans in the rtd era}#{so yeah ten x martha wouldn't be a thing but only because test audiences and fans refused it due to the studios racial bias}#{10 wanted everything to do w martha. he just used rose as excuse and because of that 12 and 13 vocally to his face hates him for it}#{and we all fell for it: everybody did because like 12 said: its the bambi eyes. hook line and sucker}#{he wanted martha the whole time but he kept playing that hot n cold game to the wrong girl just bc it worked on 2 later 3 yt blonde women}#{4 yt women because of miss kylie minogue! all of a sudden he dont know how to counterflirt when a blk woman flirts back?}#{yes thats right im throwing miss claire pope AND IN THE GABBY GONZALES COMIC OF THE PPL OUTSIDE HER FAMILY LAUNDROMAT??}#{but yeah after losing donna suddenly supiciously hes not racist but extremely genocidal to death and death alone like hm.}#{his actions speak extremely louder than his words and in turn so does the fandom and its writers}#{4 yt blondes and hes willing to believe in them despite him having to permanently lose them but completely have lil faith in the blk one?}#{ ten never actually go back to martha. be fair if i forgave the person that enslave her family for a missing year? yeah i wouldnt either}#{we could never be together because of a yt woman i chose to leave behind three times with her mum for 'safety' boy bye}#{and i go around and almost in one whole episode almost left her behind AGAIN for madame de pompadour another blonde yt woman?}#{like i ship them i ship all of em but if they were all hanging off a cliff side? 🤧 😔 we gather here today in the loss of 🌹 and depomp}#{dont worry at least 9 would leap after rose.}#bw: out of ethos#answered#anonymous#bw: long post#{i made a long post just so i surprise you with a cute billie graphic thats all. that the main topic}
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My legs (mostly my thighs and hips) are hurting pretty bad right now. They've been hurting a little bit throughout the week, but it's really bad tonight. I just took some acetaminophen but I don't have high hopes of it doing anything, it rarely does. I'm hoping this passes and doesn't become my new normal ._.
#every time things get worse i worry they will be like that forever#i miss my prescription painkillers 😭#they gave me ulcers so i cant take them anymore but nothing else works :((#voltaren hurts to apply because it is cold and idk how to warm it up beforehand and it also doesnt really do much for me either ._.#ive also been having a migraine on and off all week 😭#now that the barbie hype has left my body. all i have is the agonies. woagh.#idk if i can do dance on tuesday if this keeps up :(#i see my doc soon to go over my (STILL OCCURING AND UNDIAGNOSED) heart problems.#hopefully she has good news about the cardiology referral. its been months of silence and theyve already rejected me once ._.#ive had a rough week. even though i live with my family i dont get a lot of help because they are all busy all the time#and i dont qualify for home care. ive tried.#im so exhausted physically and emotionally. i dont even care if im sick forever. i just want help ._.#also my family has gotten lax about masking and staying home and ive been sick for weeks. just a general sick. not covid or even a cold.#im so tired ._.#it is 4am so it might be the late night blues but man. its rough rn.#batty blogging#text
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Chapter 141. Its just so funny to me Fei Du let's Luo Wenzhou play daddy. Fei Du is like sure I'll stop partying if the wife wants me to, stop drinking and street racing, wear warmer attire etc. And by wife at home he means a man almost a decade older scolding him like a baby but he likes his lovers exactly like that so <3 he's like "it's fine. I can follow his rules, I didn't care that much about the alcohol, as long as he's in my arms" and you know ignoring the whole "I might lock him in a basement and keep as a prize comment I made this winter"
Zhou Huaijin looked in the same direction as him, his eyes dimming. “Will you have tea? Or some sake?”
“Tea is fine. They don’t let me drink alcohol at home.”
#silent reading#lb#im not usually jnto daddy kink but its SUCH a part of their domestic dynamic and i love them for it#i love their casual THAT and casual touch as both are acts of service/gift giving/touch love types#also just. fei du: they dont let me drink at home u-u BITCH YOURE an adult and luo aint ur real dad u can do whatever#ur bitch ass like: they dont let me u-u instantaneously fueling luo wenzhous kink for u obeying him#and ur own little haha its my Home and my Home has rules and hes such a little jerk husband isnt he <3 im gonna have to bite him <3#haha what can you do. lmao fei du LOVES sharing luo wrnzhous protective bullshit to others its fei dus way of bragging he has such a homey#stable domestic relationship. fei dus like I KNOW I WAS A PLAYER but look heres the man i made a ring for <3 hes MY man <3 he cooks for me#and worries if im even COLD. isnt he just DARLING i couldnt find another lover this GOOD arent i lucky? arent y jealous? arent u impressed#my player ass locked down this domestic daddy to spoil me rotten <3 you should be. a man will NEVER love you as much as my man#loves me <3
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It's not that I wish I could stop the process of aging or make people live forever it's just that I wish it didn't have to suck so bad. It sucks that we're a product of our time, forced to live under the circumstances we're born under despite how important a life feels. A lifetime can genuinely just be pain and misery due to circumstances and it's so evil that not everyone gets a fair shot at the only chance they have. It hurts to see a loved one getting older and losing abilities and not knowing what you can do and also just hoping that you are doing the best you can to make their life manageable.
#personal#it hurts having to clean up blood and urine#and worry about if someone is taking their meds correctly or eating or having an episode#or is effectively communicating their needs to other caretakers because im not always available#and i go through physical pain from the psychological pain#and you kind of just hope that they'll pass away in their sleep and not in a pool of their own blood on the floor#and i dont understand how to know the signs. it feels like theres been signs for years.#memory loss. autonomy loss. motor function loss. loss of appetite. constantly cold. no will to live.#it makes it even more scary bcs idk if it's progressive or if its just gonna happen one day#death cw#death
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the more i travel the more i do it under the worst circumstances
#syrup speaks#hours of sleep? zero#days since I’ve had a proper rest? +16#last time i ate? close to 12 hours#got all the stuff i need for the trip? noidea just threw shit on the suitcase and im hoping for the best#last time i showered: 2 days i think? we dont have hot water so its been too cold here for me to shower#time left before i leave to the airport: an hour and a half#couldn’t check in online since im leaving the country#oh and how will my day will be once i arrive to the destination? lets see lunch then dentist then meeting my boyfriend’s family#birthday of a family friend and then visiting my bf’s friends for dinner#i dont even know for sure if there’s anything else to consider#the worst is that literally only motivates me to keep winging things because its so funny to me that it works#mutuals reading this: sorry for worrying you permission to beat me up granted
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I've grown up in a desert. Temperatures go up to 44 during daytime on a normal day, no matter the season besides winter.
I can handle 35 no problem.
I remember in high school my geography teacher said humans will choose to live in unbeatable heat over unbearable cold, but nearly every single person I've met in my life has said they'd rather die in the cold than live in the heat, so now I thought to myself why not outsource this question!
no fahrenheit because if i have to google the answers on polls with no celcius, so do you
#also. i know how to handle the problems that come with hot weather#but what I want no chance of is frost bite#also. like people who chose cold are saying -5 is not even unbearable. I'm internally cackling bcoz 35 isn't that unbearable either#it really depend on what climate you're used to#peeps living in cold climate are so used to having an internal heating system and all that often they don't realize the problems it brings#especially for those who don't have a set temperature of climate but gets extremety of temperatures in all seasons#and also don't have a constantly working internal heating system#some of our neighbor's relatives who grew up in England came here & admitted they can't handle the cold here like we do#they can't take showers bcoz the water is freezing. they need heaters and warmer clothes.#and it wasn't even winter. it was spring! the temperature was over 20#my country gets extrme temps. in every season. winter can go below 0 and summers higher than 40#most of us here dont have that setup due to how intense all seasons get and we bear these temps. and now its problems#and rhe cold is a lot harder yo survive in when you don't have the geysers working all the time and heating ventilators on 24/7#people living here who experience full brunt of both would pick hot over cold any day#op plz don't dismiss your teacher just because of concsensus from those who have systems to deal with cold without worry#your teacher is of Geography. they know about the varieties of climate this planet gets and has a good point
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