#editing? i don't know her

[bixels]

me too, luna.

[clownowo]

been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[chalkrub]

dinosaur in a lab coat - would you trust her with operating the centrifuge

[casadegatos]

Favorite thing I wrote today, It's Hump Day Baby Edition:

today's prompt: one accomplishment

Down to his toes, down to his toenails, even, Shirl promised himself. This was the last time. The last time. The last time had been the last time, too. And the time before that. Shirl picked at a scab on the back of his hand and blocked out the stench of the other men. Other men who were as hollow looking as Shirl felt.

He didn’t know how many times Narcan worked on you. Some guys said after five times it didn’t work, then your O.D. would be permanent. Shirl didn’t want to find out. He pushed up from the cot, slid his bag out from under it, and nodded at Cuke as he started for the door. The Shining Light would let him stay another night, but the cool spring weather was inviting and there were guys worse off than him. His bag was lighter than he recalled it being when he checked in. Rummaging around inside, his fingers touched the leather binding of the book. At least Frost was safe. The metal canteen was missing, that was it.

A narrow look Cuke’s way. Cuke’s eyes slid toward a new guy, one Shirl hadn’t noticed. Under his cot, the canteen. Shirl shrugged his bag over one shoulder and made a circuit of the room, barely breaking his stride when he scooped the canteen up. Then he was outside.

Bright, optimistic rays of sun slanted through the branches over his bench. Shirl settled on one end, leaving the other open for anyone else who wanted to enjoy the park that day with him. It was a singular type of Spring day, every green hue possible, light pink buds just about to burst, some sparrows twittering. Shirl breathed in. He liked this, this was being alive. He could do this.

If he stayed here, read Frost, appreciated the sun, and didn’t think beyond that. He’d get hungry, but Shining Light gave him a packet of trail mix on the way out, so he could handle that. If he stayed here and It left him alone, he could do this.

Even though he had memorized the poems back in his classroom, all those years of teaching them to freshmen, he still liked to look at them on the page as he ran them through his mind. Sometimes he forgot a word here and there, but only sometimes. It. It didn’t like poetry. So Shirl kept his eyes on the page and in his mind the road diverged, the fences were mended, nature was green and gold. The order of the poems mattered, so he turned the pages carefully. He couldn’t skip any of them. If he did, It might find the opening. Make Shirl shiver and need. Next. Next. Next.

No one sat at the other end of the bench, not once. If they had, Shirl would have smiled and offered some of his trail mix to them. Talking to people, though. Shirl pushed It away. Thinking about people hurt. He turned another careful page. Darkening clouds fretted over the horizon and Shirl stuck out his tongue. No rain, he didn’t think. No. The empty bench was long enough for him to lay on, he knew because he’d slept on it before. Probably would tonight, the park was quiet.

Only a few dog walkers and stroller pushers had passed him the whole time he’d sat here. Shirl was invisible to them. That was good. His loneliness was his, he didn’t want to inflict it on anyone else. How he’d ended up here, he supposed. Protecting others from It. Drugs only did so much. Distance only did so much. Whatever tether he’d had before unraveled every time he used, but every time he used he could almost touch what it had been to feel…normal? To feel something. To not feel It.

Purple and orange streaks announced sunset, followed by a soft breeze. Shirl closed Frost and put it under his head as a pillow. He would be able to sleep. He’d made it through the day and he was alive.

[wistfulwatcher]

emily prentiss + her waning tolerance of getting close to killers

[enduracarrotchips]

out of touch ...

[moonkhao]

Let me help get our house back, Yei. Let me help you. You can take all my savings. Take it, Yei.

WANDEE GOODDAY | EP10

[iristial]

[mostmagical]

I really love the detail of garrus always being that one step behind shepard... and not in the literal "got your back" sense (though of course I love that too), but in the figurative "just short of crossing the finish line" sense. like ME1: when you meet garrus, he's already been on this saren case, he's just been unable to get anyone to take it seriously. in walks shepard, and shepard is able to do all these things garrus couldn't quite do: becomes spectre, is taken (somewhat) seriously, goes on galaxy-wide chase to take down saren. wins. garrus has always been trying to do "right" in a way that makes sense, and here's this human that just already knows how and DOES IT.

then ME2, garrus is still on this quest to do right. he manages to put together a team, but ultimately, this enterprise is a failure too. he just can't quite make it. but that's when shepard arrives, picks garrus up, and in one day defeats the gang leaders that garrus has been after for MONTHS. also important to note without getting into the whole religious symbolism of it: his team is 11 people, with garrus himself being the 12th. by the end of ME2, shepard successfully accomplishes their goal with a team of 12 total. 12 followers. 12 disciples. I'm not getting into it. but. just look at those numbers. you know what I'm trying to say.

by ME3, garrus DOES make it over this finish line. he DOES get his promotion and people respecting him. but it sucks. after years of striving to get to the finish line, to cross that mountain, he gets there and it's so much pressure. but the wonderful thing is, now instead of being a step behind, he's shoulder-to-shoulder with shepard, which allows for the open communication and support that the two of them get to have because he GETS IT. he was watching the whole time from behind. he's seen all the highs, and the lows, and now in the low low, he knows what it's LIKE. it's like this wonderful full circle moment where he's able to support the person he's looked up to for so long.

[reddoll123]

Aisha/Layla, fairy of waves~

[luna-loveboop]

I want. Four to get appreciation. Because

Four gave a ton of unnoticed help when Twilight was injured

The fight with Wild was difficult, and I know we're all concerned about his negative view of the shadow crystal

But Four did something that no one else really thought of to help- He took care of Twi's stuff

From the beginning he told Twilight to not worry about them

So Four took care of pretty much everything but the others (that Sky and Wars handled)

He took care of Epona

Which is so very important- he took care of Twilight's horse. After her arrival at the stable Four followed up on her

And for Epona, a horse so attached to her human, having some company can help so much for reassurance

He took care of Twilight's stuff

He got Twi's shield- his bags and equipment, and organized it into one place

And he was worried. He obviously found the shadow crystal while handling Twi's stuff, but his negative reactions to it were out of concern.

Also- because of his placement in this scene

I'm fairly convinced Four was ready to start cooking before Wild showed up (since he's beside the counter with food supplies). At the very least he had the basket of fruit out for everyone -but he was literally standing with food behind him- he thought of everything

And he did housekeeping!

Wars payed for the inn, so Four took care of the inn

Realistically these boys were probably not too concerned with tidyness. Four got all of Twi's things on one table, and took care of the room they stayed in

Organizing tables and Twi's things, having food supplies ready, and opening the curtains- overall he was the one tidying up the inn

Four helped in a huge way! He took care of Twi's horse (Epona is so important), his equipment and shield and bag, as well as the other rooms in the inn

Four filled in all the little tasks that others didn't think of. He helped in ways that were needed, but not obvious

There's a lot of problems with the shadow crystal and with Wild, and I don't know what's gonna happen in the future

But don't forget this- don't forget that Four was one who stepped up in an almost unnoticeable way

Don't forget that when everyone was barely holding it together, Four visited Twilight's horse and took care of his things

No matter what develops in the future- this amount of care shown is important ya know?

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Art and comic from Jojo @linkeduniverse au :)))

[gunstellations]

cuddle ball

[sentientsky]

Kristin Chang, "Churching"

on apotheosis. on rage that has nowhere to go

[egophiliac]

I hope someone hasn’t asked but what did you use to rig the deformed Maleanor? It looks so cool!!

thank you! :D :D :D I drew her in Photoshop (there's an overly-long speedrun video here) and rigged her in Spine Professional! her rig is...very messy...but it works for a silly little fanproject where nobody needs to know how many bones I kept shoving in to try and force her cape to stop breaking. :')

it was easier to just export images directly from Spine, so all the backgrounds and credit text are in there too as separate skeletons! who needs compositing when you can just throw everything into one project and let it simmer. ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

(I figured I should probably have a tag for this stuff by this point, so I've added #spineposting to posts of/about my Twst chibis and Spine!) (once again I am reminded that I really need to go back and fix poor Che'nya for a third time...)

[elvisqueso]

I look once more Just around the riverbend Beyond the shore Somewhere past the sea Don't know what for Why do all my dreams extend Just around the riverbend?

Pocahontas (1995)