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I just keep thinking of Illario being at least a little suicidal post game and OUGH

I just,,,Illario trying to gode Lucanis into killing him by being the most obnoxious and cruel person he can (only with his words of course cause at the end of the day he’s all bark and no bite). Eventually Illario just kinda…snaps cause Lucanis never falls for it. He screams and he throws things and he reminds Lucanis all too much of Spite when they were first learning how to get along. Illario doesn’t accept excuses of being family or having nobody else, they’re true for him, but Lucanis? Lucanis has everything friends, family, honor, and gentleness. What does Illario have? Bitter and painful memories, a nonna who refuses to acknowledge his existence, a cousin—no, brother— who acts like he’s made of glass far more often then he should. He has nothing, he has no one he is no one. Illario is nothing and Lucanis is everything.

And yet…when he’s at the end of that soft expression that Lucanis has, the one he’d only see when they were scared and scarred little boys, and he asks him in that soft voice of his with more sincerity then a crow should ever have,“Who will go wyvern hunting with me then?”

It’s as if they’re both young boys clinging to each other like they’re each other’s lifeline, and It takes more strength then he can muster to prevent the tears from flowing.

Illario can never tell who he hates more: Lucanis, himself, or the man he never had the internal strength to be….

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Gideon Emery aka Fenris telling Solas to fuck off lmaaaoo

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Once again I am yearning for Illario Dellamorte

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arvel mahariel - he/they

hes 50 years old now.. never experienced twink death

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move aside lucanis and illario here come the next two contenders for most fucked up dynamic between pseudo brothers

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by ~streamingSun

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this kind of feels like Illario slander 😂

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I am not good at silly art but this seemed like the obligatory joke to make. :'D

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I love how judgy Spite gets about other Spirits.

Lucanis is here just begging Spite to shut up half the time, yet I, the player, would pay for DLC to hear all his weird commentary throughout the game.

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The real tragedy of the Dellamortes is how inevitable Illario's betrayal was.

Caterina's refusal to really see either of her grandsons for who they are sets all three of them on this path. Lucanis's mother was Caterina's favourite, she was probably the person Caterina had in mind to succeed her. That loss, the loss of so much of Caterina's legacy had to have been devastating. She'd built so much and it was all torn away in a single conflict. All she has left in the wake of it is two young boys and this tenacity that will not allow her to give up on what she's built.

So she puts it all on Lucanis. The son of her favourite (bonus angst if he looks like his mother). She's unable to see this sweet boy who loves wyverns and just had his life ripped apart for who he is. She just see's her legacy. The daughter she lost. She puts it all into him, he's pushed into the role of favourite.

Lucanis responds to this by shoving down the parts of himself she doesn't want to see- his gentle heart, his love of wyverns, the little boy who needs to be loved. If he's good enough, strong enough, the perfect crow, the perfect granson- then and only then will she love him, will he be safe.

And then you have Illario! There isn't as much to go on in the text about his family or what he was like as a boy but there's a few things we can pretty confidently infer. Like Lucanis, Illario violently loses everything he has at a very young age. All he has left are the other two Dellamorte's.

But he isn't the child of Caterina's favourite. She isn't automatically putting all of her legacy on his shoulders the way she does Lucanis. He still gets the training, and what we do see in the wigmaker job and the wake and even in the codex entires in the game is that Illario does become a comptent and capable crow. He has a level of skill that I suspect is broadly expected of house Dellamorte, he was trained by the first talon herself. But the Illario we meet as an adult has this laissez-faire affect and presents himself as a seducer and a bit of a peakcock. He also very overtly refers to himself as Dellamorte-the-lesser and at the end of the wigmaker job when they're discussing the title of first talon you can feel the resentment below the surface.

For Illario it's not about the power and the prestige that comes from the title of first talon. It's not even about having the title itself. It's about FINALLY earning Caterina's love and respect. Things he undoubtly never felt as a boy.

How could he? When he's a child the only two people he has left in the world have this special bond that he never gets to be a part of. His only caretaker has a clear favourite and she shows it. He's lived his whole life in Lucanis's shadow, and a shadow that Lucanis never wanted to cast! Which if anything just adds insult to injury for Illario.

Lucanis has everything Illario wants and he doesn't even want it.

I imagine as a boy Illario tries SO HARD to win her love, her favour, he'll do anything to feel like he's loved and wanted and valued. And when after YEARS it doesn't work even though Lucanis clearly doesn't want the role he's been forced into? Illario gets resentful, he gets angry, he starts acting up. He becomes the suave peacock, the grandson who fucks up sometimes- probably not because he's bad at being a crow but because at least Caterina's ire is attention. It's a scrap of love.

Illario and Lucanis love each other. They're brothers. Illario resents Lucanis for being loved and favoured. Lucanis wants nothing more than to give it all to Illario. Illario doesn't want that he wants Caterina to love him on his own merit. At the same time (pre-inner demons) Lucanis will never actually give the title up because it means he's loved, he's valued, he matters.

The title of first talon has been synonymous with emotional safety and love for these two for their entire lives, and it's twisted them up so badly.

The real irony of it all is that this whole time Illario is so much more like the person Caterina wants Lucanis to be. Her heir, the Dellamorte best suited to be the next first talon has been right there infront of her all along, but she's so caught up in grief and legacy she misses it. She never really see's either of her grandsons for who they are.

I actually suspect that when it all comes to light, even though she's furious with him, Caterina finally starts to see what she's been overlooking in Illario all along. And Lucanis who's started to heal... well I think she's starting to see him too, and the truth of who he is is something she'll struggle to face.

When the day finally comes that Lucanis tells her he doesn't want the job, when him and Illario both accept that their lives have meaning outside of Caterina's opinion of them, is the day that the Dellamorte's can maybe start to really see each other.

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Some lil profiles of a few of my fav boys. Depending on how these do I'll add my fav girls. These will be wooden pins.

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me on my way to replay the entire dragon age franchise after finishing Veilguard

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late night thoughts

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“Veilguard refuses to address why the Veil needs to stay up.”

No. It does. We’ve been addressing it since Trespasser. Literally the plot of the game. It’s the whole reason we’re here. The Veil stays up cause Solas is wrong to want to kill innocent people to fix his mistakes instead of letting the people of Thedas take care of their home themselves.

Solas isn’t the main character of Veilguard, or Dragon Age. Signed,

-A Solavellan shipper who cares more about the lore than Solas because I know what franchise I’m playing.

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I don't care if you're neuron diverget and also 3 days old I need you to go to fucking War

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the original crow (former), he has lied on his resume (lockpicking) he will seduce you

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Thank goodness Lucanis got possessed by a demon that already matched his color scheme. The purple wings and eyes for the Demon of Vyrantium? I bet half the Crows who saw him fight Illario with Spite forgot to be scared because he just looked so damn stylish

But can you imagine if he got possessed by Rage? Orange and red glowing everywhere? For an Antivan Crow in blue leathers? He’d be a clown. Utter disgrace