#ed mention cw

[lifeinpoetry]

What are your favorite poems/excerpts about food or hunger?

Just want to clarify, in an eating disorder way or a non-ED way? Don't want to be unloading the ones I vibe with and having you end with a bunch of unwanted ED/disordered eating poems/excerpts.

[goldshadows]

@kindofuneven / feral playlist sc.

they're all cozied up on the couch in the living room. her whole life had been turned upside down the past few days. heartbroken she had arrived at the mccall house and she'd cried her eyes out several times already. it was bound to go up in flames at some point. she'd let far too many things slide. ( his inappropriate comments towards scott some years ago, his treatment of her - dismissive and belittling, she wasn't eating and he still said nothing, among many, many other things ) she should've known better but guess it was her stubborn season. jess wasn't totally oblivious, well aware scott and melissa both hated tobias' guts. but it took her catching him cheating to finally get pushed over the edge. pint of ice cream in her lap, she digs her spoon into it yet again. " what a waste of my 20s. " she huffs a sad laugh, shakes her head. " what a bad joke, i'm sorry. it just loving him hurts. it didn't work out and i wanted it to work. "

[velvet-games]

apparently this is a hot take according to some people I know irl, but I'm wondering if people around here also think so?

I think something being temporary doesn't delegitimize it at all. even if it's silly, even if you cringe at it later, if it's important to you now, it's important to you now. that's why I hate the "it's a phase" phrase because for me, the response to that is not "no it's not a phase; I'm going to like it to adulthood;" the response should be "it doesn't matter if I don't like it later; it's important to me now and I only exist as the person I am now." (to be clear, people pretending they can predict the future about whether you will/won't be something in the future is bad and annoying in its own right) sorry this is kind of abstract so I'll try to explain it as best I can ...

I remember a teacher talking to me about how he likes the saying "this too shall pass," whereas I'm trying to get OUT of that mindset. the problem is that "this too shall pass" applies to literally everything. I don't think this was the original intention of the saying, but the subtext is that you shouldn't worry about what's happening now because it won't be forever; essentially, it doesn't matter if it doesn't last.

but isn't that literally everything? I get nervous whenever I'm happy because I remember that yes, this is probably temporary, and if history's anything to go by, it will be gone very quickly. but like, so is your entire life. so is the earth, the solar system. don't these things matter, not because they're permanent, but because they're your whole world in certain moments? when you're a teen and you're into a cringey show that you grow out of later, that's still a show that's your entire world (and might save your life!) in that time period.

I was pretty sensitive as a kid (still am, just better at hiding it/bottling stuff up), and I remember having genuinely scarring feelings and thoughts belittled constantly. and emotionally, you don't start thinking that that should stop applying when you're older. when I was a kid, all of my ideas and feelings were stupid because I was young and people thought I was a girl and I had normal childish interests. but even as I've become an adult, I haven't let go of the mindset of "everything I do and say and like is stupid and I need to defend them constantly or not mention them at all." it's definitely gotten better now that people have given me external cues that I can be taken seriously, but why wasn't I taken seriously before? I remember watching this movie about a monster eating a child and replaying that scene (and thus the fear that came with it) over and over for months. it's kind of silly in retrospect, but I think the stuff that I would have that exact emotional response to now would be taken much more seriously. when I was a kid scaring myself with that scene, was my fear not real? was I not in pain? was that not important to me at the time? why did it not matter just because other people stopped being able to relate to it?

I just wish we had a more gentle attitude about some of these things, especially when it comes to things young people don't have control over. I remember having a really aggressive attitude about diet/weight loss culture right after I started ED recovery, and as dumb as some of that was, it was necessary and legitimate. if I could talk to someone in a similar position, I wouldn't chastise them and tell them they're being naive and that it'll pass; I would say, "I see you; you're in a lot of pain right now, and you need to be feeling these emotions. I remember what that felt like. it might not last forever, but it's important that you process and validate them now anyway." obviously that understanding doesn't go as far as excusing harm, but I really don't think that even applies to most of the stuff we cringe at teens for (no, designing a sparkledog OC is not killing anyone).

your past self wasn't a rough draft on a piece of paper that just became human yesterday. they were a full person with actual emotions in full effect on them. they're gone now, and other young people won't be young forever either, but they're still people right now.

[greenhairedfreakglobal]

if nicocado avocado can do it, so can i

[evil-jennifer-hamilton-wb]

I wrote this in the tags but tumblr wouldn't save or post it so here it is as a screenshot. From prev:

My response to prev's question:

[starspartially]

life update no one cares about! i'm moved into my new flat back in my home country - officially left the UK for good. my (now ex) girlfriend and i broke up and it sucks so so bad but i can't think about it for too long or i'll start crying. i'm trying to quit smoking (again) and i think i'm having an ed relapse (again) but we're working on that i guess. my master's has just started and i'm stupidly excited about it and my uni has a bunch of really cool student societies that i'm very excited to try and join. i went to the museum today and it was so so nice. things are so weird right now but i think i'm kind of excited for the future! we'll see!

[teenidwoll]

how it feels to give into your hunger urges

[lovely-sk1n]

does anyone else try massaging their stomach down to make food digest quicker and slim ur stomach out? ive been doing it since i saw an episode of supersize vs superskinny where a girl did it

[bl0gger4n4]

Omg this th¡nsp0 is so good I wanna look like this so bad

[saddi3grl]

I hate all food but at the same time I love it so much.

I hate my ed but at the same time I'm addicted to it.

[coffeeforanaliza]

DANCE ‘TIL YOU’RE DEAD

[surilovesbones]

"Como você quer vencer na vida, sendo que vc perde pra um prato de comida?"

[cvtmyhearttopieces]

So jealous of the girls spending their teenage years having fun and not obsessing over their bodies

[lixiekc4lz]

it's crazy how i immediately think that 700 cals are too much and then i remember the normal quantity of cals are over 1600. like, i'm already eating 900 cals less than normal people would on a diet, and i still think that 700 cals is gonna make me fat (and it is).

[st4rv3dcr3atur3]

low cal snacks i actually wanna try (to motivate me to grab the right ingredients at the grocery store)