#dumb shit. fuck anxiety

[readingwriter92]

Nothing like thought consuming worry over something completely asinine to remind you anxiety is super stupid

[why-the-heck-not]

a productive all-nighter starts by making a clear to do list & getting to work spending an hour or so searching for the music that hits the vibe just right

[animalsandskyyy]

I’m trying to enter a “thoughtfully messaging people” era. so if I see something that reminds me of someone? i’m sending it to them. miss talking with someone? i’m messaging them. just want someone to know i’m thinking of them? i’m telling them that.

best case, it makes their day or it starts a conversation. worst case, they don’t respond… so i’d say those are pretty good odds.

[blondiest]

girl help i lost sight of creating things first and foremost for myself and got overly invested in external validation therefore setting myself up to feel terrible about my works because i started looking at them too closely and became paranoid that they weren't good enough and that people would think they're stupid and—

i am going to be on here less and for a little while may be engaging with other people's writing a bit less as i try to get back into my own creative flow again 🥲 will still pop in now and again but i think being too tuned-in to everything has been making me a little insecure (<- a me problem; all of you are lovely and sweet) and with some added work stress i'm just!!! not engaging with things in a way that makes me happy or that feels particularly healthy.

honestly i feel strange even bothering to make a post about this bc Who Cares but i didn't want anyone to feel ignored if i am just straight not replying to messages etc for chunks of time. 🤝

[pa-pa-plasma]

i don't think i'll ever get over how people treat kids that aren't good in school as worthless no matter what. "oh it can't be that bad" my guy idk how to tell you this but the last time i went to a normal high school the principal called me into his office to brag about how he failed me in all of my classes before the semester was even finished & i should quit while i'm ahead cuz i'm too stupid ("officially" diagnosed as such by a school counselor & a psychiatrist!!) to succeed. & this is considered normal

[crazeyyovershares]

I have never been as terrified in my life as I am right now.

I. Need. Help.

Losing my home suddenly. Have no money to get into an apartment. Have no car to get to work. Have no where to leave my dog when I'm at work. I cannot and will not give him up. I'll give me up first.

I'm so scared I feel physically ill. My head is pounding, I can't stop crying.

I have less than a week.

Money would solve absolutely everything right now.

Fuck money.

Fuck. Money.

Fuck it.

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If one more person tells me "you'll figure it out" I'm going to cold-cock them so fast their neck will snap.

A man who is supposed to be my family, who promised us a home and security for life broke his word to us. He's completely willing to let us live in a car or a tent in tent city.

His only child and their family just tossed aside like actual garbage.

Why? Because he refused to walk away form the house with no money. Refused to let us take over the mortgage and continue to live in the home that's been our family home since 1996 and be able to keep 2 other members of our side of the family from being homeless at the same time.

Refused.

Unless I buy him out he won't let us stay.

I dont have 30k to give him. That's a years wages for me and I JUST started a new job 2 days ago after a year of unemployment after another man's greed cost me my job.

He sold the company I worked for and the new owner cut all remote workers overnight.

I was there for 5 years.

The new owner didn't even bother to tell me I was #fired until the first day he was in charge despite having talked to absolutely all other employees before the sale went thru.

Applied to jobs for over a year. Finally found something and suddenly find myself losing my home in the same week.

We've been a one income house struggling to make ends meat for over a year. We have nothing saved, it wasn't possible.

2 steps forward one step back i guess.

I'm tired.

I'm #terrified.

No one gives a shit.

I have no one to get help from.

On top of it all I'm #AuDHD, have #PTSD and #PMDD. My meds are barely keeping me together.

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What the point?

Anyways here's my dog and my bearded dragon. Wendigo and Franky.

[phagodyke]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

[insanecreetur]

I absolutely hate being confrontational or bringing up any issues or worries I have but I have SO. MANY. i'm always anxious about everything everyone is doing to and around me. Why does it feel like I'm being lied to and manipulated 24/7 ??

I know it's because I literally was. for years. but fuck pls brain we're doing better now we're not in those fucking houses anymore we don't have to see or hear them anymore... but then why is it still affecting me so badly?

Surely everyone can't be as bad as they all were... right?

[cavefairy]

oh god oh shit oh fuck everyone hates me why do i talk at all guys just tell me to never talk again (< - said something stupid like 2 hours ago and now feels nauseous and cant sleep)

[rotisseries]

contemplating getting the tiktok masc/90s boyband heartthrob/jo from muna haircut rn....

[faggling]

sobbing

[izzy-b-hands]

My doctor messaging me at 12:30 in the morning to tell me she wants to do a telehealth visit abt the side effects I'm having with my new Lamotrigine dose (including worse insomnia than my usual insomnia, as u may have guessed lmao) is. something.

[godblooded]

tfw i have heard ‘kat could talk to a wall’ my entire life and it sucks when sometimes it genuinely feels like an insult.

[anggeese]

I hope ppl who use "share this post/use this sound to avoid bad things happening to you" just to get clout for their shit ass content (because they're all talentless freaks who can't get likes without doing so) stub their toe against a very hard surface :)

[learn-and-accept]

I so badly want to have more people in my life, but holy shit I'm so fucking bad at building relationships

[raeathnos]

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