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friends tell me lore about a tattoo of yours
#my 3rd tattoo was a very very big one#like from my armpit to my upper thigh big#it was meant to be done over 2-3 sessions bc it also has lots of shading#we did it in 1 over the course of ~10 hours#because i ‘sat like a champ’#which is code for 'dissociated while lying down for the entire time'#the artist is the (now) husband of a friend of mine and he says they still talk about me (ten years later) at the shop lol#no numbing cream two small breaks looking bored the entire time#i still pride myself in it and wish i’d still have the same pain tolerance like i did back then man#best i can do now is 2h before i get whiny#anyway. it’s a giant jellyfish with no deeper meaning i just thought it looked sick af (still does)#another one is on my thigh were i let someone practice on me bc i had a crush on this person back then#halfway through i was like ‘you’re kinda really bad at this’#so they were like ‘you do it better then’ so i ended up finishing it myself lol (i dare to say i did a better job)#i bought a tattoo machine and ink and needles and stuff after this#sitting in a box under my bed still#moots be honest would you let me tattoo you yes or no#i’m really gentle i swear#anyway. gimme tattoo lore bc i need some distraction omwh#-`♡´- tulip mail
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just saw someone answer an ask with “aw why are you intimidated by me? I’m never mean! <3 well unless you’re weird lol”
sounds like every kid I went to high school with wow what a mean as fuck thing to say
#weird likkeeee autistic af??#weird like nonverbal?#weird like stims a lot??#weird like uses a mobility aid??#weird like has tics??#weird like cluster b???#weird like dissociative?? psychotic???#hm interesting#good to know#audhd problems#anti ableism#psychotic disorders#mood disorders#personality disorders#cluster b disorders#bpd thoughts#npd positivity#npd safe#aspd safe#dissociative disorder#complex dissociative disorder#did odd#complex trauma#trauma disorders#trauma recovery#complex post traumatic stress disorder#autistic trauma
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If you ever wonder why your parents can’t figure out that you’re a system, keep in mind that my parents ignored my sudden ability to cook and my brother calling me Alastor because the jambalaya “I” made was really good and they were really hungry and didn’t want to cook because it was late. Parents are human, they will see whatever is easiest.
#especially if the food is good enough#‘this is sketchy af but no one broke in and the food is bomb so I’ll let it slide this time’#still can’t believe we got away with that though#like how did I not get immediately brought to a psychologist#how good was that food#did system#plural#plurality#actually plural#actually did#plural system#system things#dissociative system
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i can’t afford my meds and I wanna cry lmao
our cashapp is $ghostflavoured
our venmo is underooos
willing to give chime and PayPal in private
#dissociative identity disorder#osdd#did#actually dissociative#actually plural#dissociative system#system#trans#lgbtqia#nonbinary#agender#broke af#disabled#disability#actually chronically ill#actually neurodivergent#chronic fatigue syndrome#chronically ill#chronic illness#chronic fatigue#chronic pain
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Hello, it's Killer
I plan on making comics about shit and all that, but im also down to make dividers, headers, sysboxes, etc btw.
requests are open.
i'll comb through whatever i get, know i wont make all of them.


#send me asks#asks open#reqs open#requests open#sysboxes#system things#dissociative system#traumagenic system#system stuff#plural community#plural system#traumagenic did#dividers#introject#subsystem#subsys#did system#plural stuff#did community#fictoject#fictive#plural posting#yuuh#so tired#im hot af#lol#system sideblog#did alter#artwork#art
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a guy called me a bitch today and i genuinely have not been able to cope 🌹
#i want to believe that i’m not sensitive but I AM#like i’m watching a film right now and i keep dissociating and thinking back to that moment sobsob#like omg#u guys it was so unwarranted too#i was just following one of my friends and she weaved through this group of guys and i followed#mind u i did not bump into anyone and i walked in the areas were there were gaps/space#and as i was walking away i heard one of them say bitch like plsssssss#i just cannot fathom that a woman gives birth to an absolute neanderthal … u APE i didn’t even do anything#( i am so chill about this …#sooooo chill 😇 )#☹️☹️☹️#URRGGRGR OMFG IM SO EMBARRASSED ACTUALLY#but i didnt hear anyone laugh or say anything so hopefully they were all like ‘#‘chill she’s so cool and so smart and so sexy. like what the freak are u hating for. u are miserable af !’#jsjskskskskwkeowuwj!2£8292)/!29/‘apwiwwiiwjsow929829229#BAD WORDS BAD WORDS BAD WORDS#this happened likeeee 2pm#baby it’s 11pm now i am NOT getting over thjs#real men ❌❌❌💢⁉️#fictional men ✅✅✅❕✅✅#72818€€]!]*[* LIKE OMFG THERE WAS NOWHERE RLSE TO GOOO (;(((((((
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Born to experience a trauma response
Forced to go back to work
#2d art#i dont like to do vent art nowadays but its so nice to vent out tour dissociative thoughts#anyways hi my month has been mega shit#love dissociating hard af
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This is what it's like, when I completely disassociate while doing something.

This is so relatable because I have been known to completely disassociate while doing almost anything, including the most crazy stuff for my girlfriend.
(Once again, credits to @yunoteru4ever for the images.)
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have a silly blurry expansion of the shimmerfins board
#working on silco's timeline cause i don't want to fuck up the dates AGAIN (almost made him a revolutionary at the ripe age of 5)#also started filling the chapter events! i have a pretty solid idea of where i want to go with this so i just gotta figure out the pacing#always my worst enemy i won't lie. my characters always end up sounding dissociated af cause i have no notion of time#this is my first dip into a longer fic so i'm trying to pace it well. we have time. so do they.#gonna watch nosferatu tonight as well! really excited cause i don't usually sit down for actual movies#(shape of water and children of the sea were the exceptions. i love those movies with my whole heart)#anyway i gotta stop ranting and get the fic up lol see y'all soon
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I wanted to cry when I first saw it, thank you @littlemissbumblebee , you beautiful wonderful uggfh I loveee thiss
#lacunafiction#the fernweh saga#lara de armas#oc stuff#mal ro#... mal?#the waiter#yes#she does smile like that#and is incredibly happy all the time#except in her episodes of dissociation#but Mal will have to catch her#she's like a stray cat#'can I climb it??'#*climbs*#and a scientist#so curious af#the softest romance he could ever expect 🥰
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Plural Culture is knowing I'll never actually have my own friends. I don't need friends, and I don't really care to make any, it's not a part of my job. But I think about it sometimes
I know the hosts friends, but they're not really people I would be friends with on my own
I also know that even if given the chance I couldn't make friends, because my job is to be mean. That's my whole role
I exist so the others don't have to deal with the guilt of being angry and dickish
It's rare that I'll ever admit this shit, but I do really wish I could've been someone else. I don't like be angry
Sometimes I just want friends
- Constantine
#endos dni#osdd#pdid#did#did system#pdid system#osddid#actually did#traumagenic#actually dissociative#plural culture is#this turned more into a vent than anything#sorry#im 🍃 af rn so#yeh
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eobard thawne is probably extra normal about the fact both him and iris have written barry's biographies bc i know he was really normal even about iris' one since oh you know. his very first appearance as a fan.

#look at me! i wrote a book about your life and how great you are! just like someone you love!#AND WITH THAT PATHETIC GAY FOREWORD NO LESS.#he is so lost#bitibg the table AGAIN#AND WHY IS HE STANDING LIKE THAT ON THE FIRST PANEL!!!!#also did he like. steal it from the museum's exhibition. like i highly doubt hes allowed to do that while not being a curator yet#(btw is he actually against touching the historic artefacts as a curator or he just hisses at anyone standing too close to display cases#because hes the only one whos Allowed to Touch things that have been in the same room with barry at some point in time)#((i mean ik his pedantic ass would be mad af if he saw anyone else doing the same to other even non flash related relics but still))#ooh and tf is up with the 2nd panel where hes wearing the flash suit right after panels with reverse flash pants. tf were they cooking#why are there reverse flash pants in his fan era in the first place!!#either we had colorist problems since day 2 or this is actually a smart move reflecting thawne's dissociated perception in his narration#i wouldnt bet on the second tho. aint nobody gaf about this rat 💀💀#eobard thawne#professor zoom#reverse flash#eobarry ig?
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Empty hours stretch, a vast expanse, Restlessness lingers, no song, no dance. Sighs escape, marking the passing time, Boredom's grip tightens, an endless climb.
#writing#spilled ink#journal#creative writing#boredom#bored af#bored#dissociative identity disorder#mental health#poetry#spilled poetry#spilled thoughts#spilled words#poem#poems and poetry#writeblr#writing community
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i think my brains broken
#bro wtf is it every time (ok like the last two time) i eat curry i dissociate HARD#i havent dissociated in yearrrrs#idk man#thats weird af#it used to be so bad i thought i was a system for a bit#i dont think so tho#but it was bad#like i was dissociated all the time at school#it stoped (mostly) after the most trumatic thing happend to me wich is weird. thought it was menna be the other way around??????
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getting back into ace attorney came so out of left field for me mostly because i was Too deeply entrenched in it in 2020 to the point where i hated it for a few years but also because last summer i was high off my shit at 3 am as a result of some evil synthetic edible i took too much of and i was lowkey freaking out so i decided to start playing ace attorney again to distract myself and i pulled it up and realized i forgot how to read. i somehow got halfway through the tutorial case of as1 and then quit without saving cause i got scared
#and that’s the last time i played an aa game until aai this month LOLLLL#first and last time i’ll ever take an edible btw. it was like a fucked up delta edible meant for sleep but they’re like#super synthetic and i’m also crazy sensitive to drugs and medication so it was not a good combo#it was traumatic af lowkey and gave me lingering dissociative issues BUT thinking about how badly i failed to#play video games during that makes me lol#cause i had also pulled up totk before that and did backflips in one place for 10 straight minutes and then quit
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;-- i got home and stared at my wall for an hour. how are ya'll doing ??
#;ooc#:^)#dissociating is real af#anyways i guess i wont nap today gg#if i nap too late i wont be able to sleep at night so guess ill just have to wing it mep#gonna work on editing some drafts and then we'll see how alive ill be for the rest of the day kek
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