#disk horse thoughts

[drakesvalley]

The wildest part about being a system and having known you are a system for a while (6+ years for us) HAS to be seeing people who are just figuring it out fall into holes that you've long left behind.

Like. Yeah. We also thought we needed to keep tabs on everyone to increase communication. In the end it became too unwieldy. Especially since DID evolves with what you experience all the time.

Microlabels are cool and I fully support anyone who uses them, but figuring out what to call every single structure in your system isn't for us anymore.

Another thing we notice is people who try their best to know who is fronting at all given times. A lot of that comes naturally to us nowadays, but it's also... OK not to know. Especially if you're not focusing on anything system related at the time.

I guess a lot of this boils down to, it's okay not to care. It's okay to go with the flow of things and figure out at your own pace. Identity is fluid, especially if you have a dissociative disorder. You don't HAVE to have everything figured out 100% of the time.

It's okay to take it slow. It's okay to not know. It's okay to just exist for a bit. It's okay to live and experience things beyond being a system.

To all the people who are just starting to comprehend this. You do not need to know and label exactly what is happening in your head all the time. Fuck, we sure don't. And we're happier for it.

It's okay to just be you.

[bucksboobs]

The single meanest thing I’ll say about Oliver is that I think he seems a little upset that Buck has a love interest a good portion of the audience likes and he’s not used to sharing the spotlight in that way.

[gay-otlc]

When people say they struggle with keeping track of all the tone tags (the ones like /j or /gen), everyone who disregards that by responding "it's just memorizing some abbreviations/acronyms, it's not that hard, stop complaining" is ableist and a fucking hypocrite. If you're going to advocate for accessibility, advocate for accessibility for all of us.

You can't claim to be an ally to neurodivergent and disabled people and then shit on us for our symptoms. If you actually care about helping us, why aren't you listening when we say we struggle with something? It's never okay to tell disabled people they should be able to do something they can't, that it's not that hard, but it's especially not okay if you do so while pretending to support disabled people.

Also, in addition to the "it's not that hard" statement being ableist, it's utter bullshit. There are so many tone tags to keep track of and memorize. I did a quick google search and one of my top results had ninety one tone tags. That's a lot. That's probably a lot even for a neurotypical person, and I'm not a neurotypical person. I struggle to remember a lot of basic, necessary tasks, so I really can't memorize ninety one tone tags.

Especially when some of them are incredibly ambiguous- only one letter? Acronyms or abbreviations at least give you some clues, one letter tone tags are so incredibly confusing. Like, what does /t mean? There are a lot of words that start with T! (This is a rhetorical question. I know /t means "teasing," but I only know the answer because figuring that out was a memorably frustrating experience.)

And /t is just one example of a tone tag I learned because I kept seeing it in conversation and not understanding and being really confused and frustrated. I can't tell you the number of times I've been messaging someone on discord, and they say something with a tone tag I don't recognize, and I just open a new tab to google the meaning, which is where I find lists like the one above. I usually rely on google instead of asking the person what they meant, because I feel stupid and embarrassed for not knowing this code that everyone else seemingly gets.

Which is exactly how it feels when I don't understand someone's tone in real life! Confused and frustrated and ashamed. And tone tags were supposed to help neurodivergent and disabled people not feel that way, so I don't know how we reached a point where they cause those feelings in many of us.

I can't deny that tone tags are a useful accessibility tool for some. If you find them helpful, it's genuinely good that you have that resource. But they're not accessible for all of us. It's incorrect to act like tone tags are a perfect way to communicate, and it's ableist to disregard our struggles with them and tell us to just try harder.

Either listen to those of us who say they have trouble understanding tone tags, or stop pretending you actually give a shit about accessibility.

[cupcraft]

I think if you havent seen it yet, you should watch Niki talk about misogyny in the mcyt community/her experience in the DSMP and her experience with cc's not speaking out about it. I just saw the clips myself and heres the twitter link to the clips.

From my own experiences and perspective watching Niki and other women cc's, it is abhorrent how much misogyny they face over absolutely nothing and I think it's important as a watcher of cc men in mcyt that you're continuously aware. I'll never forget the hate Niki got during MCC's whereas her male coworkers would get love and support for "doing badly", for example. It's vile how much this stuff still occurs to the cc's on a large scale and thus it also impacts people within cc communities who are affected by the misogynistic rhetoric too.

Please feel free to add on <3.

[superm4ks]

https://x.com/_allthatglitz/status/1865767505974960216 these charles fans need a wake up call. like are they not familiar with idk cota 2018? p18 to p2? no sc? one second away from the lead? max been delivering these kind of performances since he was a 20 year old like... he is not HIM..

Here's the twt for ref. Dont usually reply to asks about 'controversial' f1twt nonsense because like .. there's a reason p0sts like these are contained to Elons stanford experiment but I am familiar wid this person and wud like to discuss her twt further because I find it very puzzling and telling of something some sharl fans shud prolly work up the courage to confront and then like. Find peace or whtvr

Sara here a sharl fan like me. Theres a lot she believes about his qualities as a driver that I do as well. Shes fully convinced he cud be a multiple wdc winner, as am I, and that its a matter of car and personnel for it to happen. Nothing that he lacks has to do wid his lack of legacy so far. I agree wid all of that. So when I saw ur ask and read that twt my first reaction wasnt to be angry just . Puzzled. For somebody whos obvi such a strong believer in sharls' skill to think that a race like Abu Dhabi has anything to do wid Brazil.. How shud I put this, its kind of insulting. To Sharl. Like if u think these drives are in any way comparable that says more about u think Sharls limits are than what makes a drive 'the best'. Sharl hasnt had the machine, the pressure, the conditions or the narrative to complete a turn around like Brazil. But lets put Max's Brazil aside for now, and focus on Abu Dhabi, since thats whats being claimed as the performance that 'stole the race of the season'.

Ferrari arrived in Yas Marina ready to make a final stand, and , extraordinarily, still showing the pace to do so. Mclarens setup was akin to a sentient Dyson wid evil powers, but Ferrari had 2 drivers wid strong AD precedents and Mclaren , wid all due respect, pistachio my most beloved, did not. After dominating fp1, it became evident in fp2 something was wrong wid car 16, and it was announced he wud take a 10 place grid drop to fit a new battery in his horse for quali. The sole vaccinated cavallino on track, Carlos, managed a p4 in the final practice session. It was safe to assume Carlos wud make the front row in quali and sharl wud join him comfortably and begin his hunt from p10. They had a shot. Then sharl missed it. Mclaren completed the front row lockout, Sharls lap time got deleted for track limits in q2 after topping the charts and he never had the chance to disrupt papaya dominance in q3. Out of position, wid a new battery and a teammate in p2 who wud never catch the mcl38 in clean air, that was it. Sharl began the race wid imo the finest first lap of his career, sublime braking and steering into p8. From that point forward, the race was his to manage, and he did so brilliantly. Both horses took advantage of the 1st lap chaos in different ways, but while Carlos' delta to Lando meant he never did the 1 single overtake that actually mattered, Sharls delta to everyone else meant he overtook like 1 car per lap except the 1 that shud have been his to take but couldn't. As he reached George, he undercut the Mercedes, slot into fourth and waited for Lewis to pit. In the end, if Sara wants to bow to that I'll bow wid the bitch no problem. A perfectly executed race, well managed, 16 positions gained, a podium finish. Bend over, ass out, for sure. Again, I beg we remain focused on Abu Dhabi tho. So lets straighten our backs and really look at it. The 2nd fastest car qualified p19 thru driver error and made up 16 places. He finished 25 seconds behind his teammate, who in turn finished 6 seconds behind Lando. In its usual one stopper bore fest, once Lando's mcl38 bolted those hards on low fuel, as a distinguished 2024 ptsd riddled verstappie connoisseur, i knew Carlos hopes to win were dead and buried. Why they didnt just use the pit window to put Carlos on mediums and let him off into the sunset I'll never kno, but thats neither here nor there. Ferrari lost the wcc by the smallest margin since F1 started giving out points for race winners like candy ((25 instead of 10)). 14 points between both teams. Sharl definitely didnt lose Ferrari the wcc. This my analysis of his Abu Dhabi. Sara is very into having Opinions so I'm sure shes got her fair share on my take of those quali consequences, but they did matter. Just like lap 1 incidents matter. Like pace advantage matters. Like DRS matters. Abu Dhabi has 2 DRS zones along 2 straight lines, the point on any track where the sf-24 always finds lap time. One of Sara's arguments is that Abu Dhabi, unlike Interlagos, does not favor comeback drives and thats 1 of the reasons Sharls drive was more impressive than Brazil. .. 🫥 .. In 2021 Yas Marina went thru a series of changes including aforementioned DRS zones and faster corners. Chicanes 5 and 6 were turned into a single wider hairpin, specifically to promote more overtaking, where interestingly enough sharl went outside 4 cars before entering the DRS all the way to t9 in his quest to p4.

Comparing Sharl's Abu Dhabi to Max's Brazil is already extremely odd, but doing so to hype up this season's Abu Dhabi OVER Brazil's in a rage batey type of p0st that included the sentence 'no SC, no particular car advantage, no rain' was so fucking deranged even coming from f1twt I was kinda fascinated and HAD to investigate. I think the reason she felt the need to say all that was because 1) seasons over and they lost the wcc and I think we're all allowed 1 insane take for the Troubles 2) theres 0 to no chance Max's performance in Brazil will be replicated in our lifetime, because Interlagos was not Max's 'best race of the season', it was one of the best drives in Formula 1 history. If ur a sharl fan, and ur next teammate is Lewis Hamilton, I think perhaps a drive like Abu Dhabi's race where sharl was virtually flawless and displayed his potential to the fullest, is something u have to shove next to Brazil, because otherwise you've got nothing. Yet. YET. Thats what bothers me sm wid these fake ass marc herve fans, is that by saying shit like this, by comparing an exemplary comeback stint in Abu Dhabi to a drive that redefined the limits of whats possible to do on a wet track and flipped the odds on a championship title at the same time, they're saying sharl isnt capable of anything remotely close to that. Now I'm not sure what Sara's standards for sharl are, but they sure as fuck arent the same as mine. I think Sharls 2025, like 2024, 2023, 2022, 2021, 2020, will be an improvement. If its Max hes meant to dethrone, then as a verstappie theres nothing more I yearn than to c how it happens. If its Lewis, the feelings the same. When u trust ur dogs to bite, u dont need to put up signs. People will know because they growl. My sharl bares teeth.

Back to my og point. Verstappen's 2024 has nothing to do wid sharl's 2024. Sharl accomplished so many beautiful things in 2024. Conquered Monaco, Monza, delivered great wheel, worked thru a rough path and became one of the season's most consistent performers, went h2h for constructors till the very end in a car that only became competitive halfway into the season. Focus on that, relish in that p3, the potential of that development, Lewis' hiring and the power he brings, the challenge, the potential start of an undeniable legacy for both, or maybe just 1. Max's 2024 doesnt fit in any of this. Brazil had nothing to do wid any of this. Release yourself from the clutches of a mold that cant be replicated because the child it came out broke it at 17. Sharl is not Max, and thats fine, he'll be something else. Maybe better, maybe not. Arent u excited to find out. Wouldst u want to live deliciously instead of angering Max fans on twt because ur jealous they already do

[cdroloisms]

also, (sorry to soapbox, i promise this will be the last of it), as an added note to the little conversation from yesterday about dreblr--i have to say that there's been ,,, uh, a slightly concerning amount of "us versus them" rhetoric especially about c!tommy apologists recently, as far as i've observed. and look, i get how the fandom's history plays into this, but dreblr isn't some separate special "better" version of the dsmp fandom. we're just dsmp fans who tend positive towards c!dream, which is a valid way of enjoying the story, but you know, so's hating c!dream's guts, lmao. people aren't unable to have valid opinions on the story or on c!dream just because they're negative about him and positive about c!tommy, which is like, literally just normal too, lmao, c!tommy is the generally good-aligned character we follow for most of the story and c!dream is the generally evil-aligned character that hurts him? being an analyst in dreblr doesn't automatically equal being "more correct" just because it's dreblr, and dismissing others' opinions just because they're a c!tommy apologist or whoever apologist isn't exactly a helpful way of approaching meta, either.

obviously no one is obligated to interact with anyone in this fandom that they don't want to interact with--we're here to have fun, it's not actually a professional field of analysis and debate. that being said, there is nothing about liking c!dream that is inherently superior to other dsmp fans. i know i've made a lot of general posts about dreblr versus "the greater fandom" which probably haven't helped with this feeling -- they're largely generalizations based on my experience in this fandom, and i don't want to come off as meaning that bad analysis is something that is Only found outside of dreblr (i've definitely been guilty of shit analysis more than a few times, lol) or that there's nothing that the rest of the fandom outside of c!dream apologist spaces has to offer. when it comes to individual enjoyment of the fandom and the characters, the point im making isn't that everyone has to do outreach to communicate with a c!tommy apologist or anything, lmao -- just that, you know, the general shady comments about how much better we are at analysis than those darn c!tommy apologists when they're not really relevant don't reeeeeally have to be as common as they are.

[rosesradio]

”silverusso is such a dark and toxic ship !!1! 😡”

silverusso fans:

that’s what makes it interesting?? you don’t have to like it, but it’s the equivalent of saying murder is wrong so murder mysteries shouldn’t exist 🧍

[the-indigo-symphony]

What's with the influx of people blazing posts recently...? Am I just Blazed Post George, somehow getting hit with an above average number of blazed posts on my dash? Every time I scroll it feels like there's five new people putting random shit on my dash... and for what? 9 times out of 10 you're getting blocked for being so intrusive. I can understand when it's small businesses but it's usually just random posts. Where the hell is this coming from? Is blazing posts suddenly the hot new thing (well after it was added as a new feature)?

(These are rhetorical questions but feel free to reblog + add on)

[chimneyz]

ok maybe this is a controversial take, but 8×06 confessions was not the worst episode of the season, far from it. yes it has a lot of issues and things that really bothered me about the episode. with that said i have a deep dislike for 8×09 wannabes, that episode pissed me off so much. they put so many of the characters to the sidelines while pushing forward brad. now i don't hate brad but they used so much time on him instead of the actual main characters who got every shortened arcs because of it. and my whole thing is why focus so much attention on him? they could of made the madney arc longer, they could of made eddie's arc longer (they could of made all the main characters arcs a whole lot longer) and it's supposed to be the mid season finale, where is the drama? i don't know it just made me so mad. that was the worst episode of the season, arguably the entire show.

[bucksboobs]

To be honest, supposedly progressive people deciding they can be as homophobic as they like as soon as a gay man stops fitting their ideals is a pretty time honored pattern. I remember how this site and the worse blue site acted with Pete Buttigieg.

[dogboysora]

Why is the Dropout tag suddenly full of discourse about wanting trans women on the cast? I think that's a valid feeling/opinion to have, but like. Feel like I'm missing something.

[cdroloisms]

NO BUT YOU'RE RIGHT ABOUT THE SBI/DTEAM VILLAIN/HEO THING. literally if ANYTHING c!dteam would be the misunderstood villain team, or like, probably more accurately just kind of morally complex. like. they dont even have to be secretly good or whatever you just have to take one look at c!dream who is like the poster boy of "has good intentions probably, makes lots of fucked up decisions" and i wish that fic took the angle they normally take with c!sbi (introduced as villains but then shown a softer/sympathetic side) with c!dteam. please. it'd be so interesting i'm BEGGING for it to be written

like. you know people can write whatever they want, but it's specifically amusing to me because "group of people get painted as the villains to justify + validate the actions of some other entity that involves a level of corruption" ...happens in canon. like literally explicitly happens in canon. like that was the platform Pog2020 was more or less running on? Pog2020 which had planned on you know, the whole one-party election thing?? that happened???

like there's a very real, in-universe "heroes and villains" narrative that quite honestly permeated just about everything post-lmanburg's conception...and people writing fic based on the dsmp. completely flipped it? genuinely fascinating to me every time

[stevethehairington]

oooh ooooooh seeing sooooo much i don't wanna say disk horse bc like idk if id classify it as that but. so much discussion about eddie and going to a priest over frank (or any therapist) and i. ough. i have SO MANY thoughts about this. and i feel like a LOT of people are just. COMPLETELY misunderstanding eddies choice here. and it's OUGH. it's hard to read!!!! lol.

[everwizard]

Literally who the fuck do you think you are? You're the one that follows me. You don't get to control what I put on my blog. If you don't like it, leave.

"Incest is bad." You think!? Tell me how you came to THAT conclusion, Captain Obvious.

I know which post this is about and it's REALLY not that big of a deal. I don't have to explain myself to you but 1.) I've never seen supernatural, 2.) I love puns, and 3.) The post had a witty pun for a punchline. I reblogged it because it was funny.

That all being said, I literally don't care what other people ship. Pedophilia, incest, abuse, I don't give a shit. Other people's preferences aren't relevant to how I live my life. I can get in a tizzy and send stupid anons to people over fictional characters, or I can enjoy a lovely afternoon of disk golf.

Shipping discourse is a waste of time and if you want to bring that shit up with me when I've got better things to do, I'll fucking block you.

[luhachan]

i find it so sad that it's virtually impossible to avoid discourse in fandom just because of how pervasive this mindset of "if you're not with us, you're against us" is. Like, it's such a reductive way to experience fandom and really, just consume media with mindsets like that as a whole

that being said some of u ppl should be reminded that the block button exists for a reason

[hawkeyefierce]

sometimes i think about posting my worst, most unpopular hockey opinions and then turning my phone off