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i know this is the silly weewoo show, but i think a big problem this season has been a general underestimation of the audiences intelligence.
they've ditched so many genuinely interesting storylines with the potential for a lot of depth (gerrard, ortiz, henren/madney conflict, tommy) and for what exactly? a self congratulatory meta-bit gone too far? that's without bringing up the plot holes and continuity errors.
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BuckTommy trending number one before an episode that might not even acknowledge them. They are the moment.
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that's such a polite way to say "that writing sucked ass" thank you lou ferrigno jr you're so fucking right
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lil ficlet of tommy wanting to reach out to buck:
Tommy's fingers hover over his phone in anticipation, the glow of the phone hurting his eyes as his slumps in his bed unable to sleep.
A few days have passed since the breakup, since he walked away from Evan. Tommy tried so fucking hard to forget about him, it would of been easier for him that way. But remnants of Evan Buckley have spread to every corner of his life. His hoodie that he left there the first time he came to Tommy's house (the one Tommy refused to give back), his shampoo and conditioner in Tommy’s shower, Evan's favorite blanket he brought over for them to cuddle together to watch the latest documentary on whales, his scent on the sheets Tommy is laying on at this very moment. Evan was etched into his life like no other.
These past few days Tommy hasn't been able to sleep or eat. He didn't know it would hurt this much. He removed himself from the situation in order to protect his heart. Little did he know this act of self preservation would quickly turn into an act of self destruction shattering Tommy's heart to a million pieces.
Now he stares at his phone at 3:14 in the morning wanting to, no craving to reach out to Evan. He tries and tries, typing, then deleting, then typing again. Nothing. What could he say to make this right.
A couple of days have passed and he nearly texts Evan again. This time he blamed muscle memory, everytime he would get off shift he would let Evan know that he was safe and heading home. Evan did the same thing. Tommy had to stop himself from pressing the send button. He wonders how many times will his body do it again until it stops. He wonders if Evan has done the same thing. Tommy sits in his truck, still parked and the Harbor Sation, wondering if he should reach out to Evan. His heart aches for him, to see his smile, to run his hair through his curls, to kiss him. After sitting there for what felt like hours but was more along the lines of fifteen minutes, Tommy puts his phone away and heads to his empty home.
Tommy sits in his little corner tucked away in the Harbor Station. This was his area to decompress after any bad calls, and this one was one that shook Tommy to his core. There had been a car pile up and the Harbor Station was called in to pick up a possible spinal injury. But this was not just a spinal injury, this man was on the brink of death holding on to life on a string. The man was no older than 33, his body broken and bloody. As Tommy and Lucy Donato started to haul the man on to the helicopter his husband rushes over pleading for them to take care of the man, to save the man. Tommy promised he would do everything in his power to make sure the man will get to the hospital alive and safe. That was a mistake that now haunts Tommy. The man's vitals crashed on the way to the hospital and was pronounced dead once they landed.
Now Tommy is curled up alone, tears falling down his face and his only thoughts were of Evan. Evan who he has wanted to reach but forced himself not to. Evan who he craves his warmth. Evan who's heart Tommy shattered one week ago.
Evan, I am so sorry about how things have ended. I was the one being too impulsive, too afraid. I need you Evan. I love you.
Tommy stares down at his one, vision blurred from tears. He wants so bad to press send, to let Evan know how he feels. But how can he, how can he rectify his wrong after breaking Evan's heart the way Tommy was afraid of his being broken. Tommy deletes the message shutting off his phone and wipes away the tears. It's not like Evan would know Tommy has tried to reach out. Little did he know Evan was contemplating on reaching out to Tommy at the same moment witnessing the three bubbles with hopeful eyes.
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the buckley-han family hug 😭
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that little tommy thing
7.04//8.06
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crumbs enough
Three weeks after they break up, Tommy gets a text from Evan.
My kitchenaid broke
What a way to break the silence. It's disarming. Of all the ways that Evan could reach out—all the pleadings and what abouts that Tommy had steeled himself to rebuff—this had never crossed Tommy’s mind as a possibility. He doesn’t have a counterargument prepared for this.
The responsible thing would be to say nothing. Tommy's fingers are moving before he can remind himself of that.
I’m sorry to hear that, he sends.
Fuck, Evan responds. I didn’t mean to actually send that sorry. Meant to just bubble you
A rush of fondness washes over Tommy. He misses the way Evan phrases things, the way he sees the world. He misses trying to get inside Evan's head.
Tommy texts back despite knowing how dangerous it is for him to keep this conversation going. Bubble me?
Yeah like you’ve been doing. Sometimes I look at our texts and I see your little typing bubble but you never send anything
Tommy feels caught out. He didn’t know Evan had seen that. How many times had he seen that? Tommy goes to text Evan all the time, barely able to convince himself to backspace each time. Maybe it's not healthy—maybe it's a little bit of self-punishment—but he 'bubbles' Evan at least three times a day. He can't stop thinking about him. There's so much left unsaid between them. That's Tommy's fault.
I didn’t feel like I should. It didn’t feel fair
Didn't feel like he had the right to reach out and ask where Evan got that bird seed that the orioles in Tommy's backyard like so much. Didn't feel like he had the right to tell Evan the taco place down the street from Tommy's house gave him extra salsa verde this time (because the last time they had gone together, the place had forgotten to give them salsa entirely and Evan had pouted about it all night). Didn't feel like he had the right to text him at 3am when he couldn't sleep because he'd gotten so used to the comforting weight of Evan's warm body spread half on top of him; when he cried with the force of his regrets and his shame and his cowardice and all he wanted was to hear Evan's voice.
Fuck fair, Evan says. This whole thing isn’t fair. I miss you so much I broke my kitchenaid from baking too hard
Tommy's heart skips a beat as he reads the words I miss you. He misses Evan so badly it's like a hole has been ripped out of his chest. It's not getting better as time passes—it's only getting worse. Every day he's more and more sure he fucked up, and every day he's more and more sure Evan deserves someone better than him.
Baking, though. That's a surprise. Evan is a great cook but Tommy didn't know he baked regularly. He doesn't remember Evan even owning a KitchenAid but maybe it was tucked away into the corner of a cabinet that Tommy never got the chance to explore. Tommy tries not to read into the fact that Evan has been baking; tries not to feel like it's his own influence. He's desperate to know if it is.
This is too much, too dangerous. Tommy knows he shouldn’t ask but he does it anyway. He’s selfish and masochistic when it comes to Evan.
Why were you baking so hard?
So I wouldn’t reach out. Every time I wanted to talk to you I started baking something instead. Made me feel close to you again
Evan sends a picture of his fridge filled to the brim with all kinds of baked goods. He sends another of his kitchen island. His apparently broken KitchenAid stand mixer sits between bags of flour, sugar, and other baking items that Tommy can’t identify from this angle.
Inside the KitchenAid bowl is a lumpy slurry of half-mixed ingredients. Evan will have to mix that by hand now if he wants to keep making whatever he started. He'll have to put the work in instead of letting the machine do it for him; churning along easily and without any real friction. Tommy wonders if Evan thinks it's worth it or if he'll throw the whole thing out and start again once he realizes how much elbow grease it takes to beat those lumps of dry flour into something edible. That's what people usually do.
Wow. That's a lot of baking, Tommy says.
This isn’t even all of it, Evan says. This is just this week and I've already given so much away. Please can we talk
Tommy should say no. He should stand firm in his boundaries and in his resolve to stay broken up. But he looks at the loaves and cakes and cookies and—is that baked alaska?—and he’s a little stunned by the physical evidence of just how much Evan misses him.
He thought it was just him who was miserable. He thought Evan would lick his wounds and move on to someone better, someone more worthy of him. He knew Evan wouldn’t be happy about the breakup, but this isn’t the work of a man trying to get over being dumped by an asshole. Evan knows that Tommy has a sweet tooth, knows that he can never say no to dessert—especially baked goods. This isn't anger or sadness. This is longing. This is Evan thinking about Tommy specifically. This is Evan comforting himself by filling up his fridge and his time with reminders of Tommy.
Maybe it's not healthy. Maybe Evan should be angry with him. Maybe they should both be trying to move on. But Tommy feels a pull on his heart and he thinks maybe this is what love feels like.
Fuck it. If they both miss each other this badly, it might be worth it to talk. Nothing can feel worse than these last few weeks, anyway. Already, Tommy feels something healing inside of him just with these few texts.
Well it would be a shame if your mixer martyred itself for nothing, Tommy sends. Coffee at that outdoor spot tomorrow morning?
Thank you, Evan responds. That would be great. I even know your coffee order this time 😏
Tommy laughs, but that response makes him nervous. The issues that caused them to break up are still hanging between them unresolved. Evan still doesn't understand just how ashamed Tommy is of his past. Tommy still doesn't understand why Evan asked him to move in (to the loft! when Tommy has a perfectly good house he's spent years fixing up with his own two hands!) before they'd had a conversation about their future or even said that they love each other.
They both have deep traumas that will take a long time and a lot of work to untangle into a something that the other can really get their hands around the shape of. Tommy needs to make sure Evan understands that before he can commit to anything. He needs Evan to understand that he isn't a hero, and that any bravery he's been able to scrape together has come decades too late for Tommy to take any pride in it.
There’s still a lot we don’t know about each other, Tommy sends.
I know, Evan says. I’d still like to change that. Let’s talk about it
Tommy smiles. All his life, he's been terrified to let people in—terrified of how they'd look at him if they knew who he truly was. So he's kept things surface-level. He's cynical, sarcastic, defensive. It's easier to deal with loss if you don't expect to be able to keep things. Anything good that's come into his life has been relished with the bittersweet understanding that it will only be temporary. Enjoy it while it lasts. He thought Evan was the same; something bright and beautiful and joyful to be savored until Tommy's time with him inevitably ran out, and life went back to being merely bearable.
But life without Evan has been entirely unbearable. It's empty, hollow; every corner haunted by the ghosts of little happy memories turned heartwrenching by Evan's absence. It's different than anything Tommy has ever felt before, when something good has left his life, so Tommy takes a deep breath and lets himself believe that maybe things could be different this time. Maybe Evan is different. Maybe Evan is a spark of joy he gets to keep. Maybe it's worth the potential pain to try.
Ok ❤️, he texts Evan. Can't wait
{give me kudos!}
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Some of y’all get so sad and worried on Thursdays like, being a fan of a show isn’t supposed to be like this. It’s supposed to bring happiness and excitement and, yeah, occasionally a little anxiety when they’ve teased something major happening. It should not be a constant worry of what the writers are gonna fuck up each week.
#i have to agree#dont get me wrong the bucktommy break up still stings and i have had my issues with season 8 but i have been so excited for every ep#only with a small his of anxiety#and i joined this fandom and made a side account because of how much fun people were having with their posts and fics#and making this sideaccout made me even more excited about 911#i understand being up set but being a fan is supposed to be fun#not full of hate or being worried sick about the future of the show#have fun with your fics and speculations critique when critiques are needed and just enjoy the ride#911
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i hate that as soon as we get some background lore for tommy and taylor the practically get written off the show. i want both of them back to learn more about their characters and why they are the way they are. i want to put them under a microscope and study them like a bug. they fascinate me.
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The first time Tommy says “Evan” after the break up is gonna hit different, I just know it.
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women amiright?
sapphic polyfire inspired by @buckttommy 💞
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he’s so cunty lmaooooo
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the most unrealistic thing on 911 for me is the fact that we’ve never seen hen’s glasses fall off and/or break. like how tf are those glasses keeping in their place at all times, mine are desperate to fall off me whenever i slightly tip my head forward, i don’t believe this for a second
#as a fellow glasses wearer i agree#also how the hell does she have so many different glasses its not cheap!#hen wilson#911
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When Buck and Tommy get back together, Chimney tries to instigate small fights between them hoping Buck will bake for him again
Chimney: soooo I heard that you and Tommy haven’t been talking the last few days and I just wanted to know how you’re coping with that out of the goodness of my heart with no ulterior motives
Buck: EDDIE!! stop feeding him fake gossip or I’m going to take your phone!!
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the writing for season 8 has kind of been annoying me. the pacing has been off and the character arcs have been, well pretty short in my opinion. if it were me i personally would have character arcs and storyline take up half a season or a whole season. i understand tim likes to write each episode last minute without planning a head but i think this season has proven that is just not the way to go.
before the season started there was some mentioning of hen and chimney having a bit of a strain on their friendship with the whole mara situation, we never got that. the mara storyline (with ortiz and gerrard) should of been a half season thing, it could allow that angst between hen and chimney (which could strengthen their friendship in the end) as well as exploring ortiz as an antagonist and also gerrard shouldn't of had his happy ending. even with the gerrard story we could of had interesting stories with bobby figuring out who he is outside the 118 and could of had a storyline of buck spying on gerrard to get him fired. and going back to the whole mara storyline we could of had some great dynamics to explore with hen chimney maddie and karen. having that arc end in the fourth episode of the season made it rushed.
then we have the athena storyline at the beginning with dennis jenkins and the blackbook which could of made for an interesting storyline for a half season, get to know dennis, him and athena reconciling, athena realizing that he did do the work to be a better man before she arrested him, how they system doesn't always work (especially for the rich and powerful) and gell you can even throw in that rookie and the abusive of power (credit 911 doesn't have the best storylines when it's cop related and do a terrible job at showing how brutal cops are :/)
the eddie accepting himself storyline was way too quick, it was resolved in one episode, that really should of been more of a half season arc. and we really didn't get much of the eddie and christopher arc either and will probably be rushed as well.
i honestly am not sure where they are going to go with for the maddie pregnancy arc but I was suprised on how quick it went with her revealing to chimney that she was pregnant. personally I think it should of been extended to both of them realizing they wanted a second kid, them discussing how to proceed and maybe some internal conflict of being concerned about it all.
then there is the whole bucktommy breakup, if this is really final that they are done there should of been some indication at the very beginning of the season that there are cracks in the relationship. and those cracks should of grown more and more apparent. also, if it's final (i really don't want it to be but who knows at this point) the ending shouldn't of been so open ended (but also how it seems so far is more similar to the third act of a rom com (i also could be very wrong hand have on my clown makeup)).
overall, the storylines and arcs this season have been bothering me, everything feels so rushed and that there has been no growth. do i think that it will stay this way, yeah it will but i just wish for more fleshed out overarching storylines.
#i could go on but this post is already long enough#911#911 abc#evan buckley#chimney han#maddie han#eddie diaz#bobby nash#athena grant nash#hen wilson#karen wilson#tommy kinard#eds screams
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