#cries in neurodivergent

[marshmallow--3]

Dinner date with Cecil 🍽🥔🍛

There's no subtitles 😢

[crunchyspaghetti]

“You are not cursed. You are not some horrible thing. I know, because you taught me that I wasn’t. You convinced me that I had a purpose. That maybe my life wasn’t over but just… getting somewhere.”

- Daisy Johnson (Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D 3x03)

[ouaw-facts-i-just-made-up]

Gideon loves sour candy because it's a helpful and tasty way to ground himself during flashbacks and panic attacks. At the very least it grounds his senses and helps him think more clearly.

In the Goblin Market episode, Kremy gave Gideon the extreme equivalent of a War Head because he noticed Gid was showing stress that was triggering his truama related to hobgoblins. He was trying to direct his attention to something less anxiety inducing to prevent him from spiraling into a panic attack.

This is a true fact.

I think this is great. Sometimes, while i enjoy the humor, I think it can get in the way of interesting character decisions. Mostly with Gideon, I've noticed. That's not a slight against Mace at all, just that I wish we got more with him being heavily affected by spending ~10 years in slavery. (Although admittedly i laugh everytime at the little "I have morals alright...but not when candy's free!")

And this would make a lot of sense for that part specifically. Kremy was obviously trying to cheer him up after he very blatantly rejected supporting it. Not only were the candy's made by children who were captured and forced to work, just like he was, but he specifically mentions not trusting it also because it's a goblin camp, to which Gricko gets a little offended, but it some makes sense to be a little distrustful when goblinoids kidnapped and tortured you.

And i mean, in that situation, of course he'd be at the very least uneasy, but probably on the verge of some sort of panic attack or disassociation episode. He feels surrounded and he also feels extremely upset at seeing kids going through what he did. So, like you said, Kremy tries to bring him back down. And it worked, thankfully. Though I feel like when they get to make camp he's gonna need a little more time.

It's a quick solution, and temporary. But sometimes that what you need in the feywild.

[outsidersheadcanons]

Ponyboy’s the kinda guy to. have a complete mental breakdown after too much shit happens in one week (or if he’s tired or stressed or smth) 😭

[wormchamp72]

NANI??????? I HAVE "AUTISM SPECTRUM DISORDER"????

[thatonegaybrit]

; sorry guys ‼️💔❌ the autism attacked 💔💔🙏

[setcolder]

I have a saiteru fanfic in mind that im not sure i have the words for it but this is how it goes down. (College setting)

Kokomi asked kusuo on home date, coming over to her unit and had decided "let's go watch queen of tears!"

He agreed because 1) it was about to be released that night so no spoiler will come to his head 2) he's unwilling to do moving activities. Perfect.

They watched it. Kokomi were very invested. She star rambling at how nice the actor & actress performed and interesting plot. "THE TENSION! THE LONGING!!!" she screamed to the air.

Kusuo just nods. He admits the quality production was great. But that's it. He's tired and he will be sleeping. He then pin her goodbye and teleported.

She invite him again next week. And the week after, she got businesses to attend so no dates for today. The morning they got into class, she said she was very tired. "I wonder if haein found out about the divorce"

Kusuo, quietly: "he didn't"

Kokomi went "?"

"did u watch that yourself?"

"...."

"WITHOUT ME???"

"if i watch it later, there's too much spoiler."

"BUT WHY ARE YOU SPOILING IT FOR ME"

Kokomi shake him for leaving her behind on watching new episodes. She was like "watch it again. with me." And kusuo were just agreeing bc he didn't mind. New details to catch up on the second screening. This time, he start commenting on the characters's decision to their actions. Commentary like "well can't blame her" "he suffered so it's hard for both"

Kokomi, paying attention at his side: "you like this show so much didn't you"

Kusuo ignored her. She start pestering on who's your favorite hm. Is the actor actresses pretty? Prettier than me? What about-

And he teleported to fill his glass of water.

At the last episode airing, the site doesn't update as the usual schedule. It's supposed to be uploaded on 10.20pm, but it's almost 11 o'clock and it's not here yet?!?! Kokomi noticed him panicking and even got his germanium ring and everything.

[reeeneeereee]

I actually might just kms I forgot to take my adhd medicine AND bring my noise cancelling headphones AND my backpack AND I have a maths test today but it’s fine it’s fine (I’m on the cusp of a meltdown)

[neuro-nest]

You know, if Prometheus wasn’t chained to a rock, having an eagle peck his liver out for all eternity, maybe the people around me would have had the foresight to understand that, when I, at the age of ten, decided to ‘test’ if humans really could ‘roll’ their eyes (because I took that statement literally) with a slow, practised, HUGE eye roll, while my teacher was telling me off for something else, I was clearly autistic.

[tookishcombeferre]

i have wrapped myself in melodies like a lost child in blankets for a long as i can remember. blindly, i have felt my way through labyrinths seeking the safe havens beneath the organ listening for the red flares of the sun seeking the face, my prosopagnosia will not lose in the mall and the voice my synesthesia loves to paint with. dutifully, i have imagined flying picking up the broom in my hands belting as loudly as i can and soaring far above the clouds - painting my skin green because it is passable the only "girl's" role i have ever wanted. fearfully, i hide beneath the table, dodging bits of smashed glass. sometimes, the doctor and i lie side by side and wonder what not lying by omission might feel like. at other times, the creature and i discuss what it might mean to be loved. lovingly, i cradle their faces my parent's hands cupping each school boy's cheeks, as i memorize voices singing "drink with me; remember my life means something." names, i do not remember, but the songs, their communion, i know. note by note, i sing myself a home: an underground lake, a castle in the west a disheveled lab armchair, a house on rue plumet, and - when i am sad- i run home to the music notes that have made me who i am. in the labyrinth, i defy gravity, and feel alive; for they tell me "who am i?": a musical medley of a life of near thirty years - p. s. shuller.

[cookinguptales]

pmdd has you crying in bed like "and the fact that I cry for like three days every month is another reason why no one will ever love me!!!"

patently ridiculous illness

[daily-property-police]

Day 643- FEELINGS WOAUG

[icommitedcrimesasatoaster]

I hate school

It’s something that just keeps bothering me because anytime i do ANYTHING in the system i just get a 1 (or F) like I LOVE writing, but anytime i write anything in Polish I just get a one, or i try at math (which i know im good at) I also get a 1

And i think its just because everyone just speaks to me in riddles! Like please explain to me what did i do wrong, how do i solve this actually and not jsut “oh its just bad”. WOW THANKS SHERLOCK, I can see that with the big ol 1 in the middle of my work.

And I know im smart, math is something i enjoy I like doing calculations because i enjoy it. And art and writing is something i also love! Anytime im left to my own devices I prove that I can be smart!

But honestly my school has bren digrading my self worth in my mind that im starting to question if im a dumbass masquerading as a smart person.

Like, being neurodivergent is cool ins ome aspect but god is it a pain in school, because ive just given up on grades at this point. I know I’ll get a shot grade and even if i try my hardest it wont work out.

And worst part is my classmates always ignore my grievances because I cant pay attention or I get bad grades. Im sooo sorry that my brain cant focus on things that don’t intrest me and i get bored so much it physically hurts. Its just frustrating.

Honestly for a while I’ve just thought of my self as stupid. My mom tells me im really smart but anytime i do anything in school, the place that supposed to tell me if im intelligent or not it just… always gives me the dumb grade. And I can’t even voice my grievances to the people in my life because i feel like ill just get shunned.

And I cant just not succeed. If i dont i wont get anywhere in life because people will just inherently think “oh she got bad scores in math, she must suck at *insert whatever*” and I can’t do anything to prove that no, I can, I can’t make equations in my sleep! I can write 400 word essays with ease!

Its… its honestly hard. Anytime i try to get up I just get another boot in the stomach. The cycle will probably only end if I get out of my school. I just want someone to see that I do need help, individualized help. I noticed that i learn great with just another person and I work better in teamwork rather then competition.

I know what I need, but people wont give it to me simply because I appear high functioning. I know it may appear as self pity but I truly just want someone to notice that I need the help.

[queer-cryeries]

Having ADHD is so funny sometimes because no I won't clean my depression room and I will hate myself every time I see the mess, and I will cry because I realised I forgot about an entire module of my uni work... but I will clean my kitchen impulsively multiple times per day and I will lock in on a book my girls recommended me despite the fact I've not actually sat down to read a book since highschool... lmao...

However I just had the absolutely brilliant idea of using my babygirl powers and asking my favourite second year reaaally reeeeaaally nicely if them and their bf can help me with this assessment thing bc I am stressing... also ask the module leader that'd be smart...

[qcoded]

small comic because my art is going to be the death of me

[amusingmusie]

musie, hello!!! I wanted to ask who your other favorite characters are from Hazbin and why?? do you also like Helluva Boss?

Heeeey!

I've watched Helluva Boss and I really liked Season 1! Season 2 kinda lost me so I've stopped watching, but I still respect the show and the acclaim it has.

As for my other favorite Hazbin characters! Okay, soooooo, I don't think there are any characters in the show that I dislike, but I have my favorites. In no particular order:

Velvette. That's my WIFE. She is a horrible person but it's okay I can fix her just enough that she stops committing horrible crimes but stays a little mean cuz I <3 mean redheaded women!!!

Alastor. Duuuuuhhhh but uh.....I prefer pilot Alastor to series Alastor, A LOT. That's no hate to Amir, he killed it, it's the writing and personality changes that I don't vibe with. I miss how outwardly jovial he was with dark, sinister undertones. He was very much a "show, don't tell" character that quickly became a "tell, don't show" one in my eyes.

Vaggie! I fucking love Chaggie and I love Vaggie's backstory. She also cracks me up being one of the more level-headed characters in the show while everyone else is bouncing off of the walls.

Okay, so....by far....my COMFORT character is....

Husk. Husker. Husky. HUSK HUSK HUSK HUSK HUSK HUSK!!!! I have really adored the whiskey cat since the pilot days but wasn't super open about it, but then during my hiatus my attachment to his character GREW EXPONENTIALLY. He activates my daddy issues but not like, in a sexual way, more of a "ooooooohhh father figure" kind of way. I know Lucifer is the fandom dad, I just find him way too nice, I need someone a little gruffer that I can irritate nonstop. Give me grumpy ass old man that's nice only to the people he really cares about PLEASE.

I'm cringe. I know.