#completely correct 911 posts

[eddiestightywhities]

Eddie: *360 internal monologue* I'm straight, I'm straight, I'm straigh—

Eddie: *sees Evan Buckley for the first time*

Eddie: *whispers* My name is Edmundo Diaz and I am a gay man

[eeblouissant]

agh agh okay … i know I’m supposed to be on a break (and I have been! And enjoying it at that) but this little moment !!!!! I needed somewhere to scream about it quick because !!!!!!!!!! Do !!!! You see!!!!!! Dorothy’s face !!!!!!!!!!!

[ganxiously]

911 Fic Writing Resource: Shift Timings

Okay, so initially I was going to add this to my last post but the topic was completely different so I decided to make a new one. @capsbooty7 and @rutathenurse pointed out that since Tommy was working at the same time as Buck and the rest of the gang, he most likely worked the A shift and thus had his work time completely synced with Buck's. The concept was intriguing enough that I took a look into it.

Like many others, I had previously thought that each house had its own rota, and the timing and length of the shifts varied accordingly. However, that appears to not be the case. Firefighters, in the LAFD at least, work in 3 shifts - A, B and C and each of these shifts are 24 hours long. They don't do the 24/48 or the 48/96 but instead follow what I am given to believe is called the California Swing Shift or a Kelly schedule. Here, they essentially work every other day for 5 days and then have 4 days off. So the schedule is - On - Off - On - Off - On - Off - Off - Off - Off. This means they are usually working 72 hours per rotation but they can also trade in shifts or work overtime if they want to.

From what I found out, you can take more shifts or reduce it according to your convenience by trading with others so technically you can still do 48 hours and then even pull in overtime but the limit for a continuous shift is 60 hours after which you have to take a mandatory 12 hours off [this information was a bit outdated so I am not sure if this rule still stands]. Trade almost always happens for 12 or 24 hours but it isn't unheard of to do an 18 hour trade. Overtime usually happens in 12 hour shifts and you get paid overtime rates only when you have crossed 56 hours in a working week.

As for vacation days, you get 16 days after one year of service and 24 days after 10 years (so Tommy is getting 24 while Buck is getting 16 but Bobby, however, might be getting 25 since I'm guessing he's been a firefighter for at least 31 years). There are also 13 paid floating leave days allotted each year - 1 every 4 weeks.

Shift times are the same for every firehouse and the work day starts at 8am officially but you are expected to make 'face-to-face relief' at 6:30 am.

I am also including the January 2024 schedule here: [follow a colour to understand how the shifts work and where you can sneak in lengthy shifts]

If you have more information or would like to correct me on something, feel free to let me know.

@itsjustpoopeh mentioned:

and @ironworked pointed out:

@cafe-con-letty sent this ask talking about how Tommy's shift might vary as a helicopter pilot so you can also check this out.

[deerlino]

WHEN CHAN STUMBLES

— chan, who’s usually super serious and all put together, just totally loses it when he sees you. like, his brain completely shuts down—seriously, someone call 911 because it looks like he had a stroke or something. but nah, he’s just crazy in love with you. <3

words ༯ 0.5k / pairing ༯ bang chan x gn!reader / genres ༯ college au (study night, supposedly), fluff, humor, crack, established relationship / warnings ༯ no warnings for this one, just pure, sweet fluff !

a/n ༯ hey yo heyo! this is my first piece here and i’m lowkey nervous to post it, but here we go! chan is the absolute cutest in this one, love him. hope you enjoy, tho! <3

Chan had always been the epitome of seriousness. He was the guy who could ace an exam, lead a group project, and still manage to hit the gym—all in one day. Your friends had nicknamed him “Superman,” but to you, he was just Chan. Your Chan.

Tonight, you were hanging out in his dorm room, supposed to be studying for your upcoming finals. His desk was cluttered with textbooks, highlighters, and half-empty coffee cups, but neither of you seemed too worried about it. You’d been dating for six months now, and his dorm had become your second home.

“Okay, if I have to read one more sentence about organic chemistry, I swear I’ll scream,” you groaned, dropping your highlighter dramatically.

Chan chuckled, glancing up from his laptop. “You know, you say that every time we study.”

“And every time, I mean it.”

He shook his head, a small smile playing on his lips. “Alright, take a break. You’ve earned it.”

You stretched, letting out a satisfied sigh as you leaned back on his bed. Chan watched you with that soft look he always got when he thought you weren’t paying attention. But you noticed. You always noticed.

“So, how’s your paper going?” you asked, trying to sound casual.

“Eh, it’s going,” he replied, rubbing the back of his neck. “I’ll get it done.”

“Of course, you will. You’re Chan, the man who does everything.”

He laughed, but you could see the faint blush creeping up his cheeks. “Yeah, yeah. Just don’t let it go to my head.”

You rolled over onto your stomach, propping yourself up on your elbows. “Can I help? Maybe proofread or something?”

Chan glanced at you, and in that moment, it was like his brain short-circuited. His eyes widened, and his mouth opened slightly, but no words came out. It was like someone had hit the pause button on his brain.

“Uh, Chan? Earth to Chan?” you waved your hand in front of his face, giggling.

He blinked, snapping out of his trance. “Sorry, I just... you’re really... distracting.”

You raised an eyebrow. “Distracting? Me?”

“Yeah,” he admitted, rubbing the back of his neck again. “Like, a lot.”

You crawled closer to him on the bed, closing the distance between you. “How so?”

Chan swallowed hard, his eyes fixed on yours. “Because... you’re... you. And you’re here. And it’s just really hard to think straight when you look at me like that.”

You grinned, your heart swelling with affection. “You’re so cute when you’re flustered.”

He groaned, burying his face in his hands. “God, I must look like an idiot.”

“An adorable idiot,” you corrected, pulling his hands away from his face. “And for the record, I think you look pretty hot when you’re all serious and studious.”

His eyes lit up at your words, a shy smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. “Really?”

“Really,” you confirmed, leaning in to kiss him softly.

Chan melted into the kiss, his serious facade crumbling completely. He wrapped his arms around you, pulling you closer until you were practically in his lap. When you finally pulled away, he rested his forehead against yours, his eyes closed in bliss.

“You know, you’re the only person who can make me feel like this,” he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper.

“Like what?”

“Like my brain has completely shut down and all I can think about is you.”

You laughed softly, brushing your lips against his again. “Good. Because I feel the same way.”

© deerlino (est. 030624) ༯ heyo, did you enjoy this piece? if you did, maybe you could reblog, drop a comment, or shoot me an ask to let me know your thoughts. also, feel free to check out my other stuff! thanks a bunch for the support! <3

[fromkenari]

@alliwantforchristmasislou

I don't talk about my identity a lot because I live in a town in the 2/3rds of the state that is red despite it being a blue state. I'm not accepted, nor is it really safe for me open about it beyond my friends, and the sad thing is I have only one other friend in this town with the same pronouns as me and my friends, all of whom are queer positive and a bunch of whom are queer themselves don't use the correct pronouns for my other friend who uses them or me because well, you know, transphobia but they claim it's because using "they" in a singular sense is just too awkward for them to do that for my one other friend who uses they/them and me. And I could talk about the suicide rate of non-cis kids in this town, but this is a positive post, right? It's why the Trevor Project is so important.

So anyway. Tumblr, Discord, and the internet, in general, have been the only hardline I have to a diverse queer network. I've been on this site since sometime in early 2009, and you know, before that, I was on Livejournal, and before that, I was on fan forums, Yahoo! Groups, and Pro Boards. So I've been around. I've seen it all in real time. And even though I was not into anything to do with Superwholock, I saw all of that, and you know, I have never really been deep in a fandom. Not even when I was on Livejournal. I just have a massive aversion to oversaturation.

So. I've been watching 911 since the pilot. I was hyped for it because of Angela Bassett. I thought, "You're making Angela Bassett a cop and handing her a TV show; what could go wrong?" (That's rhetorical; don't @ me. I know better now.) Anyway. I was hooked from the first episode, and you have to understand when 911 premiered, I was in one of the darkest points of my life. I had finally been declared legally disabled, which I had been working toward for 3 years. So, you know, nobody on Tumblr was talking about this show. By the end of Season 1, a few of us were scratching around at things, but there wasn't much there.

Then, Season 2 happened, and you know, Season 2 was some of my best times in the 911 fandom. I was there when we were deciding on Beddie vs Buddie. I was there when the first Buck/Eddie fic was posted to AO3. I even wrote some back then. It was a completely different energy then. There was an entire Discord server of us who were mortified that "Be Careful What You Wish For" was likely about the part of fandom that wanted Eddie and Shannon to end, but the consensus was, "WTF, we wanted her gone, but not like that!" And then, you know, the people celebrating it got louder and louder, and I was in fandom less and less until I stopped posting about 911 entirely on Tumblr.

Eventually, I made a new blog, this blog, not because of that, but because Tumblr shadowbanned my old blog, and nothing I posted would show up in tags. And you know, I was a big fandom creator and roleplayer, and I had to start all over. But I was still watching 911. I never stopped. I also watch Lone Star, and oh, the stories I could tell about the early days of Lone Star when 911 OG purists were throwing hissy fits that Lone Star content was getting tagged as 911. Seriously, it was a knockdown, drag-out fight to watch. But anyway, you know, I'm watching, and I'm waiting. I'm waiting for Evan Buckley to be confirmed as bisexual as I get my Henren scraps and cry over everything they do to Josh.

Then, the show gets canceled. But OMG, it's Immediately picked up by ABC, so trying to understand how to feel was indescribable. Because Seasons 5 and 6 sucked, they sucked, and I won't be convinced otherwise, and I was despairing because I was going to have to jump ship. And then the show jumped networks. So, I'm figured what do I have to lose?

So, I am still reeling from the Cruise ship disaster and rescue. And I'm going, "Is my show back? It's kind of back, right?" while also going, "And Tommy's back, and he's getting along with everyone. Sure, why not?" And then, you know, Episode 4 happened, and I'm watching it wondering what the hell is going on. Is Tommy going to be a recurring character now? And then you know Buck was an idiot, and you know I thought it was about Eddie, and I was kind of mad because really? The cast and crew get kicked around by their ship's fans, and you're giving them this? Because anyone who tells me watching that episode as it was airing that they thought Buck was doing that for Tommy before the loft scene, I'm calling horseshit because I've been watching since episode 1

I've wanted Bi Buck for as long as I can remember. And it was not until the loft scene that I even realized something was happening. I didn't know what it was, but something was off. And some point, I was standing on the couch freaking out at my TV, going, "WHY ARE THEY STANDING SO CLOSE TOGETHER? WHAT IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW?" And then, you know, the kiss happened, and thankfully, no one was living next door in my duplex at the time because I was not quiet about my joy, and I sprained my freaking knee. I was so chaotic in my reaction. (I had to go to urgent care. It was a whole thing. Eh, my joints suck because of chronic illness. I told you I was on disability a long time ago, okay.) And you know, once I simmered down, I ran to this blog to post about it because 4 episodes on a new network, and they gave me Bi Buck.

And you know, I tried so hard to find a voice for Tommy in my head, but I couldn't. I didn't have enough material to do it. I appreciated everyone who could do it because I read your fic, which was great. I didn't even get into the fandom for it until Season 8 because I couldn't wrap my head around the ship, but I was going to sit there as long as it took to understand Tommy because it's Bi Buck's canon ship. Of course, I want to be able to write it myself. That's what I do. And right about when Tommy brought Buck avocado toast, I got it. Everything synced up in my head, and I understood it. I could go back and look at things and understand why Tommy did things now.

So, during that break for Halloween, I was writing little things and not posting them. I had already at the start of Season 8 found a Discord server, and I was hanging out in the tag. I was looking through follow lists people posted and zipping through them. And yeah, sue me. I call it Tevan because that's what Tommy calls him. That's not a judgment on anyone; it's just my preference. I forgot to mention that I was also there when shit hit the fan during the Season 7 hiatus and trying to survive in my old 911 Discord Servers, but people were awful for no reason. I'm never gonna understand why a whole swath of fandom hated the ship to the point that they were causing traumatic harm to other people, especially queer men in fandom. That's just so beyond me, and, again, another reason we need the Trevor Project is that queer men fetishists on Tumblr do not constitute a safe community for queer people. But I'm getting off track.

So you know, they broke up Buck and Tommy in the next freaking episode, and I had a lot of feelings. I posted a lot of them here. Some of them conflict because you know the human brain can handle more than one viewpoint. Gray areas are my bread and butter when it comes to media. Anyone gets puritanical about anything; I don't care what you ship; I will remove you from my curated experience because I don't need it. It's not healthy.

I've been writing more and more about this ship since the breakup. I even wrote a fixit for the breakup. And you know what happened in the show compared to what people say in interviews? There's a huge disconnect. In any other situation, especially given it's 911 and the Abby of it all, you would expect this to not be over because that's not how Buck's big love interests work. Most of his relationships end with him being too invested, but you don't get to call it a pivotal relationship for Buck and say it's over cold turkey. That's crappy writing because it completely goes against his characterization.

But I didn't realize how attached many people were to Tommy. I felt like I finally met him in the Halloween episode, and bam, he's gone in the next. So much wasted potential. So much drama. So many harassed actors and crew members. So many "journalists" acting like it's their blog is the gossip section of their high school newspaper, but they get screeners? So much crap happened, and what was it all for? So Buck can pine for Tommy and cause Los Angeles County to go on a flour ration? Like? I don't get it. So yeah. If the show wants to fix this mistake because this one they did leave themselves a contingency plan by not killing the man, they can fix it.

So bring back Tommy. If you do, I'll think about forgiving you for Amir's storyline last season. But we still need to talk about what messages we're sending people in these episodes. Those teenage girls do not deserve to get blamed because a grown man went rage quit to the max. The copaganda is SO HIGH that I can't even watch Athena's scenes now. And there's a bunch more I won't list because we're talking about Tommy and how you need to bring him back. I love these characters, but I'm tired of them repeatedly getting the same trauma and outcomes. You finally let queer people kiss again on your show, and then you get rid of one of them?

Anyway. I'm going to keep writing BuckTommy because I need something good to happen in fandom as I continue to watch this ridiculous show. And if you read this whole thing. I'm sorry that this is how it ends.

[tommykinard6]

Read your vent post and I agree. I ship Buddie and Bucktommy, and have been around fandom long enough to see how quickly toxic fandom people are louder than anything else and are trying to take over the spaces. It also doesnt help people dont always disclose information in the tags, which defeats the whole purpose of using ao3.

I love bucktommy and the potential healthy bi/queer representation the characters can give us. However, I'm also tired of trying to find Bucktommy fics only for it to end up being the "buck breaks up with him or cheats on him for eddie because he loves eddie more" or they turn Buck into some kind of invalid and completely ignoring the emotional growth he's had throughout the show. Or they just Buck using Tommy in general. Maybe Buck 1.0 would do that, but not post lightning Buck.

People can write whatever they want but Buck's character growth has been important to me since I started watching 911 and seeing people wreck a beautiful chance for Buck to grow into himself without the stakes of it being Eddie because Buddie goggles are glued on their eyes is exhausting. I'm a big supporter of DLDR so I usually just try to ignore most of it but it's taxing trying to filter through all the noise sometimes.

~ Anon 🌸

Anon, you’re so sweet and you make many good points.

For all writers and readers out there, use the tag system to your benefit. Tag your work appropriately. And if you’re deliberately not tagging correctly, then you shouldn’t be posting. Also, I’m decently sure that goes against some of ao3’s rules. Correct me if I’m wrong.

Buck’s character growth has been so beautiful and so much and I hate to see people throwing it down the drain. Eddie and Buck’s growth exist outside of each other as well as inside their bond.

DLDR for the win! (Don’t like don’t read for anyone who had to take a second to translate it like I did 🤣)

Again, I can’t say anything better than what you’ve already said, anon! You made great points and I think a lot of people can relate to your thoughts.

On a whole separate note, I’m considering making a fic rec list on here that’s full of solely BuckTommy fics (no cheating or placeholder Tommy or anything) but it’d be a lot to maintain. Would anyone want that?

[satashiiwrites]

Snippet Sunday

tagging all the usual suspects with no pressure: @tiny-reader @monsterrae1 @outtoshatter @tkwritesdumbassassins @rosieposiepuddingnpie @whimsyswastry @missanniewhimsy and anyone else who wants to play along.

Title: Family, Familia, ‘Ohana: Chapter 15: Home—Epilogue

Fandom: 911, H50, SWAT

Pairings: Evan Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Steve McGarrett/Danny Williams, platonic Deacon/Hondo. Assumes other canon pairings through season 3 of 911

Fic summary:

When one family seems lost another comes back from the past. But does Buck want to return to the past or live in the present? And does his present lead to a future he wants? Only he can answer these questions but Steve at least will be there to support him.

tags/warnings: first draft. Navy seal buck, fix it, post lawsuit.

Nash answers on the third ring, an edge of anxiety to the words that aren’t completely hidden by their formality. “This is Bobby Nash. Who am I speaking with?”

“This is Commander Steve McGarrett. We met about a month ago.”

“You were the man here with Sergeant Harrelson and talked with me after Eddie was taken,” Nash says, voice tight. 

“Correct.” 

“I thought I recognized the number. Has something happened to Buck?”

Steve takes a deep breath and reminds himself that this man is hurting just like Buck was and hasn’t been given much information beyond the basics, most of which was filtered through his wife, Sergeant Grant-Nash. “No. I was calling to answer some questions I thought you might have before Buck returns.”

“Buck is coming home?”

“Eventually,” Steve hedges. He doesn’t have an exact time frame, but Buck probably won’t stay longer than Kono’s requested leave.

The pained huff crackles over the phone. “Okay. Is… I was told Buck was not injured when Eddie was found?”

“No. Buck is uninjured and is currently pretending that the paperwork I assigned him is fascinating, but he’s bored out of his mind.”

“Buck isn’t one for sitting behind a desk,” Nash mutters in agreement. 

“No, he’s not, which is why I’m calling.”

Nash is silent, waiting on Steve. 

“You can’t play those sorts of games with Buck, Captain. He’s not meant for a desk job, and it’s cruel to pretend he’s safe behind one.”

“Sounds like you have him doing that yourself.”

Steve snorts, amused by the acerbic words aimed at him. “The paperwork is just to keep Buck busy and remind him that he doesn’t want to be a police officer long term.”

“He’s a firefighter,” Nash argues. “Buck’s used to being up and moving, a lot of physicality.”

“That’s good of you to acknowledge that,” Steve retorts. “My point stands, Captain.”

“Which is what?”

Steve sighs. “Putting Buck behind a desk won’t keep him safe. Buck is one of the finest men I’ve ever had the pleasure of working with. He puts his whole heart and soul into his work and was meant to save people, which is why I let him find other work. Putting him behind a desk like you did is punishment for someone like him, who did nothing to deserve it. Manage your guilt, Captain. Don’t punish Buck for your failures. You won’t like the results if you do it again.”

“Is that a threat?”

[thegoldheartlocketandkey-blog]

911 Spoilers Season 3: You’ve been warned. 😅Buddie Rewatch

Episode 3 (Part 2)

If you're seeing this post first, I do have Part 1 up. I wrote over ten pages in my journal for Episode 3 alone and that turns out to be more than character limit for text posts. Here is the notes on the rest of the episode as promised.

Buck calls Maddie using a stranger’s phone. As he speaks you can hear how he is trying to hold back tears as he explains to his sister the day he just had and how he lost Chris. Buck sounds completely broken. Maddie is concerned over Buck and if he is injured. Buck shuts that conversation down and is asking for help on trying to find Chris. As Maddie gives him suggestions, he spots Eddie.

Buck makes a run for it and hides behind a tent. He does not know how or if he can look Eddie in the face and tell him he lost Christopher. Maddie tells him that he is going to have to tell Eddie. Buck cannot comprehend how he can tell his best friend that he lost his son. Maddie is trying to reinsure him that it is okay, Eddie is his father, but he needs to know.  She even tells him that she is headed down there to help him.

The 118 make it to the VA hospital with a truck full of patients. Bobby screams out for help; this is when Eddie walks out of the hospital walks toward the truck. This is when Eddie notices Buck in his peripheral. He walks toward him confused and asks him if he’s okay. Eddie asks about Christopher and Buck cuts him off.

Buck looks into Eddies eyes. There is a pause and silence. Eddie begins to scan Buck looking him down. Making note of the cuts and bruises all down Buck’s body. Eddie’s eyes start to look big as he notices Chris’ glasses around Buck’s neck.

“Why do you have his glasses?”

Buck starts to hold Christopher's glasses as he looks at Eddie. He is stammering when he says, “ I took Christopher to the beach” Eddies eyes get big and he ever so slightly steps back. Both men are looking into each other eyes.

Buck removes Chris’ glasses from around his neck, declaring how hard he tried. Not exactly saying the words that Eddie is obviously preparing to hear. Eddie is fighting hard to hold back his tears, he’s nodding at Buck, trying to be understanding, but his eyes fill up with tears. Buck’s voice cracks and he sounds about ready to sob.

Eddie is looking down, trying to fight his tears when he starts to look up and is visibly shocked. He sees the Spanish woman who was carrying a boy in the red sweater. The hoody is falling off the boy and Eddie recognizes that it is Christopher. Buck has his back turned from this sight.

Eddie zones out, he is no longer listening to Buck and just starts walking towards the woman while saying “Christopher”

Buck slowly turns around, following Eddie’s pathing. Eddie loudly yells “Christopher” and we hear Chris yell back “Dad!”

Eddie snatches Christopher into his arms and embraces him. Buck is visibly shocked and processing this moment. It looks like he is trying to cheer but also holding back tears.

Eddie is gripping on to Chris, repeating thanking the woman.  She asks him if he is Buck. Eddie momentarily confused corrects her and states, no I’m his father. She tells him, that he’s been asking for Buck.

Buck is obviously filled with emotions. We here Chimney making his way towards Buck. Chimney holds on to Buck’s arm. Hen is observing him waiting for a response. Bobbie approaches, but Buck is to focused at Eddie and Christopher to communicate anything. Bobby is the one to notice Buck staring at Eddie.

Eddie is staring back at Buck. They are holding eye contact. Bobby turns back to look at Buck and asks, “you too okay?”

Buck breaks eye contact and looks at Bobby. He’s breathing heavy, says, “We are great”. He begins to collapse on to his knees. Hen and Bobby catch him, Chimney helps by guiding them to a bed. Bobby sits next to him. Hen is hold him from above. Buck is resting his head on Hen’s arm and cupping her arm. His mouth wide open, staring at Eddie and Chris.

Montage of the aftermath, while buck is narrating over it. He is explaining how things sometimes goes wrong, and how we are fighting to survive, searching for love and family. Dreams and futures. For those who are lost. How being lost is not knowing how to get to be where we need to be.

He is sitting at his dining room table looking up at the sky. He is trying to process and contemplating his life choices. He is scratched up and bruised. When he hears a knock on his door.

He opens the door to Eddie and Christopher. Chris goes in for a quick hug. Eddie walks in behind him. Buck is visibly confused as Eddie starts to list off all the things he has brought for Christopher.

Eddie roasting his child in front of him by stating he has never made anything that looks like anything with Legos before. It is in a light hearted tone, but damn, even Christopher is not safe from Eddie’s judgement.

Eddie than lowkey roasts Buck by stating he’s not Carla or his Abuela, but he is working out for Eddie as a babysitter. And than roasts Christopher again by stating he is not too fast.

Buck is confused as to why Eddie would trust him with Christopher again, after everything that happened.

Eddie does not blame Buck. “It was a natural disaster, Buck.” “But, I lost him.” “No you saved him.”

Eddie being understanding and explaining that Christopher remembers Buck as a hero. The person that saved him. Eddie wants Chris to help save Buck too. Buck is expressing how he’s failed Chris. Eddie shutting that down by admitting he’s failed Chris too in the past, but that he doesn’t stop trying.

“I love him enough to not stop trying. I know you do too.”

This entire scene has a lot of eye contact and we can really see the height difference between Buck and Eddie.

Eddie places his hand on Buck’s shoulder, while looking deeply into Buck’s eyes and states, “There is nobody in this world that I trust with my son more than you.”

Eddie dropping that bomb, then casually proceeds to say goodbye to Chris. Buck is left standing there trying to process that he just heard.

Let’s go back to season 2, when Eddie openly admitted that he couldn’t trust Shannon with Chris. Eddie could not trust the boy’s own mother, but trust a man he met about two years ago with out a speckle of doubt.

Eddie makes a joke about staying inland this time as he leaves. Buck is standing there still processing what happened and lets out a slight chuckle.

Before Eddie closes the door behind him, he thanks Buck for not giving up. Buck is confused by this moment as well. Buck stares at Eddie as he closes the door behind him.

Buck smirks to himself as he’s processing what just happened. Buck than narrates about small choices and how they can have a big impact in your life and help one be found.

Buck was found by Eddie and Christopher. He knows that they are his found family. He knows this is where he belongs.

Buck walks over to Chris and they laugh together.

Okay, so a lot happens at the end with Eddie, Buck, and Chris. I want to note that although Buck blames himself for the events of the day and Chris going missing, it never once seemed like Eddie was going to blame him. Not even before they find Christopher and they  knew he was safe. I also want to state that this was Eddie’s first official I love you. Eddie of course is not aware that he said I love you. But Buck heard the I love you.

The way Eddie stared into Bucks eyes and Buck stared right back, you can not tell me that their souls did not see each other. That they are now tied together. I would argue that both Buck and Eddie feel the connection. Buck maybe more aware of it.  There is a split second where it feels like he’s processing his feeling towards Eddie. This is arguably Buck’s “oh” moment. Eddie is just in denial and justifies his emotions toward Buck as regular feeling you have for your best friend.

[woodchoc-magnum]

N for the fanfic ask…. And if someone’s already asked it then T.

N: Any fic ideas brewing that you’d care to share?

I'm currently working on a post 7x04/7x05 fic that I'll hopefully post before the next episode, which is entirely from Eddie's POV. It's a spec fic? But I'm not counting on my speculations being correct!

I'm also working on the Songs series again, I've written like 50k for it, I think? My goal is for these fics to completely wrap up the series so I can mark it as complete.

And I have another longer fic on the backburner that's a season 3 "what if" fic, but it's a long way off being finished. 😅

T: Any fanfic tropes you can’t stand?

Specific to 911 - Buck being babied by everyone, fics that deal with the lawsuit, fics where the firefam are mean to Buck after the lawsuit, fics where Eddie and Chim are portrayed as violent, fics which turn Maddie into a monster, fics where Christopher calls Buck "Bucky", fics where Eddie's a deadbeat Dad and Buck takes Christopher, stuff where Eddie is noticeably OOC... yeah, I could go in.

When it comes to smut in particular, any kind of BDSM, dom/sub stuff or daddy kink is just not my jam (this is not a read on any writers in general by the way, that kind of smut is specifically not for me so I tend to skip past it).

And also just to be clear, no judgement on anyone who likes the stuff above - we all have stuff that we like and dislike, it's all good.

In general I tend to avoid AU's unless they're set in the canon universe of the show. I also don't like enemies to lovers? The thing I like about Buck and Eddie is that they're the exact opposite of that.

And also again, specifically about me, I tend to avoid longer fics. I think because I write long fics, that's why? So if I read fanfic, it's usually under 10k or it's just full on smut. I mean I'll read a smut fic from start to finish no problems at all 😅 I have my priorities.

fanfic asks

[aeraspais]

So first to all I'm really sorry about my grammar which is definitely not the best but I just wanted to say I'm really interested about reading all your previous post where you talk about Eddie's sexuality, if you decide to share it under a special tag it will be really appreciate it by a lot of f us, if you have the time if course.

Can I also point out that the reclutance of this fandom to see Shanon as any other than a plot device is the root of the poorly understanding of Eddie's sexuality. You cannot say a bad thing about Shanon in this fandom or you'll get shunned. That's why a lot of the fans of 911 refuse to see Eddie as gay, he can be any other flavor of queer but definitely not gay because what about Shanon? We should think about Shanon first in regards of Eddie's storyline.

At first I wondered if the big portion of the fandom that swear Tim Minear and the writers will leave Eddie's sexuality unaddressed or unlabeled were just afraid of expecting to much from the show as in "I don't think the show will do a good job at giving us gay Eddie and they are gonna fumble his storyline so unlabeled queer Eddie is as good as it's gonna get so we must accept it" (because I have seen this rethoric spreading lately) but honestly I just think that the denial of gay Eddie is plain homophobia. It's like some people have not been watching the same show as us.

I'm being naive in being so sure the show will give us gay Eddie? Maybe but until now the show hasn't discouraged me from thinking this way because they have show us from the very beginning this is the intented path for Eddie, the signals/clues? are there and the show has been very clear about it.

Sorry for the long rambling, it's always a pleasure read your analysis.

I’m the last person you must apologize for bad grammar. You should see my unrevised fic drafts! I will start the tagging project this weekend. Normally this would be something I’d complete during my actual work hours but I’m covering some very time sensitive tasks for my colleague during their vacation. So, the weekend it is!

You are quite correct about the Shannon piece being what ties all these inaccurate meta analyses. I have written a concerning amount of posts through the past year about how this intense focus on Shannon has came at Eddie’s detriment because they intentionally elevated her above the character she’s meant to help characterize. I believe part of it is fueled by racial anxiety, that there’s a subconscious need to “flip the switch” because they’re uncomfortable that this white anglo woman solely exists for the benefit of Eddie’s, a Latin man of color, development. Now Eddie exists in their minds as commentary for Shannon’s failures, not his like the narrative has always pushed. 

But Eddie isn’t about Shannon. She’s about him, and his fears and anxieties first around family, second about his personhood and sexuality. I wholly believe that Tim Minear always held intentions of writing Eddie as gay since so much of the character’s season two struggles (and even later as depicted with Ana and of course Marisol) mirrors Michael and Athena’s season one arc but from the gay man’s perspective. So I don’t think you’re naive or overly confident because this is exactly what the narrative is selling, but this fandom is too blinded too many competing factors. This character is gay.

[dadbodbuck]

sorry i just speed read your entire 911 political leanings post but i am in complete agreement with absolutely everything you said and needed to say you’re the most correct

THANK YOU. it's my opinion but my opinions are also correct, so!

[eddiestightywhities]

Hen: *I am so over this shit*

Chim: *Bringing sexy back to bowed-legs*

Firefighter #8: *Wtf am I doing here?*

Gerrard: *A Bigot*

Eddie: *Even Afghanistan was better than this*

Buck: *Yep, still bisexual!*

[matan4il]

Idk if you're watching Lone Star but I am LIVID and if you've seen it I'm sure you have very eloquent thoughts??

about the (SPOILER AHEAD)

Nazi bar thing with Owen

Hi lovely! How are you? I’m giving you BIG hugs and I hope you’re taking care of yourself, my darling! *cuddles*

So I tend to binge watch shows. I know, 911 OG is a glaring exception for me (in part so I can write weekly meta posts for everyone interested), but binge watching at the end of a season is what I’ve been doing with LS. For you, however, I went and watched 401.

Well. Yeah, I can’t say that I’m feeling too great about it. As you know, I was already critical of 911 LS’ Jewish representation with TK (and his mom, Gwyn). To me, doing a storyline like this is touching on REALLY sensitive matters, and before you can do that, you should “earn” some credit. Based on seasons 1 through 3, LS has not yet earned that “credit” by showing us it is fully committed to handling these issues with the required care and sensitivity.

On the other hand, I’m also not livid. So, let me try and share my thoughts, in the form of bullet-points to give each one its space, and I hope they can explain where I’m at right now when it comes to this storyline:

First off, it always troubles me when people refer to ‘Nazis’ past 1945. After that point, it is only correct to refer to ex-Nazis or to neo-Nazis. Let me try to explain why this distinction matters. The Nazis might have started as an extremist ideological fringe group, but they rose to be a political party with considerable influence in Germany (responsible for the murder of several individuals and the corruption of German justice even before they came into power). Once they became the ruling party, which then led Germany and used all its resources to launch a world war, occupying as well as collaborating with countless countries, that increased its strength tenfold. They had power the likes of which today’s neo-Nazis never had (and hopefully never will), and they used that power to commit an actual genocide against the Jewish people, as well as persecute and murder members of many other groups. We mustn’t dilute these heinous crimes by conflating the Nazis with today’s neo-Nazis, who are still just a pitiful extremist ideological fringe group (again, hopefully they’ll never rise to be more than that. That’s on us to prevent). And we must also not absolve the neo-Nazis of what it means, that they CHOOSE to follow the ideology which was responsible for those crimes against humanity. Today’s neo-Nazis can’t claim ignorance about the meaning of this ideology, not when its history is so well recorded. The fact that 911 LS is referring to these guys as ‘Nazis’ rather than ‘neo-Nazis’ is already a bit troubling to me.

Another thing is the humorous reveal. TBH, I’m not bothered by the fact that Owen rode with these guys for a week without realizing they’re neo-Nazis. It does ring true to the way such groups indoctrinate new members, which is indeed gradual. If anything, it’s the sudden and complete reveal that they’re neo-Nazis which rings false. They would not have sprung that out of nowhere on a potential new recruit. It’s done this way to bring humor into the situation, which is 911 LS’ way of telling stories, but this is just too serious of a matter, which means once again the credit to use humor here has to be earned IMO. First show us that you’re not taking this lightly, that you are integrating this storyline because you actually care about things like the current rise in antisemitism in the US, and only then do you get to inject humor into it. The fact that this was not a throwaway joke, the fact that they will develop it into a whole storyline where they might yet show us that they are taking this seriously, is the main reason why I’m not livid right now. But it doesn’t mean that this is okay, it just means that I’m reserving judgment until we get the whole storyline and have a better, fuller idea of how they’re treating it.

One of the reasons why I’m giving 911 LS credit that it might still do this storyline justice is because I know that Rob Lowe is married to a Jewish woman, and their kids are, in terms of ancestry, half-Jewish (and in terms of Halacha, the Jewish law, they’re Jewish. Period). One of those kids actually works (I’m assuming he’s on board for s4 as he was for seasons 1 - 3) as a scriptwriter for 911 LS. Even just based on Rob’s involvement as a producer for the show, and assuming he cares about this issue as a man who’s married to a Jewish woman and raising Jewish kids, I’m willing to assume the intention was good. It doesn’t necessarily mean they’ll do this subject justice, but I am willing to believe they brought it up because it is something that does bother them.

Speaking of doing this right, Owen is actually not a likely candidate for this neo-Nazi group. I’m not saying it’s impossible, there are always exceptions, but such groups usually prey on people who are young and disenfranchised, feeling cast out and unwanted by their own societies. Young people who are likely to be patriotic towards their country, but angry towards its chosen government, which they blame for their own failures. Owen is older, less likely to be easily malleable to their ideology, he’s successful in his profession, and while as a firefighter he can be assumed to be patriotic, they have no indication that he harbors any animosity towards the American government. If 911 LS was gonna tell this story, it has no way of really doing this one right, ‘coz none of the 126 members is a likely candidate for a neo-Nazi gang. Which makes sense, that’s the cast diversity they were proud of and even integrated into the actual plot in s1, right? I can only once again assume that they took on this storyline because it matters to them, and in spite of not having the right cast to tell the story as it usually unfolds. They can still “fix” that if in the following eps they’ll have someone (like maybe the FBI agent we saw) address the fact that Owen doesn’t fit the usual profile.

Which brings me back to what I said earlier, that to a great degree I feel like my final judgment of this storyline, whether it’ll make me just slightly uncomfortable or downright angry, is something I’ll only be able to properly address once I’ve seen the whole storyline play out.

I hope this helps? I’m here for you either way, you can always talk to me about whatever upsets you, regarding this storyline or anything else. Sending you so much love, hon! xoxox

(more of my posts about Jewish rep can be found here, and my other ask replies here. xoxox)

[lover-of-mine]

omg ok hello!

i reblogged a gifset from you forever ago (as a non-911 fan) of the christmas scene in 911 s2 where someone mistakes christopher for eddie and buck's son and buck doesn't correct them BUT ive officially begun watching 911 and finished watching this specific episode yesterday: still baffled! but was reminded of the post and simply had to update u because genuinely why would they do this. even the music in the background?? was so emotional and heartfelt?! if they wanted to they could've played it off as a joke with some quirky bg music (like when tk tells buck he has a bf in the crossover ep) but no!!!!

anyways! currently binging all of the seasons and watching season 7 as it airs bc i already know all the major spoilers and plot points 😭 the brainrot has truly taken over i love all these characters so much more than i ever expected to & am having such a good time rn

OMG HI!! I'm so happy you have joined the brainrot, I'm glad you're enjoying it and that you thought to come tell me, seriously, I love this!! And honestly, the Christmas scene is absolutely insane and the way it happened in season 2 and it wasn't played off for jokes makes it even crazier. Eddie is justifying sleeping with his wife, Buck is pretending he doesn't have opinions even though he kept trying to talk about it with Chim so he does have them, just to have a complete stranger assume Chris is Eddie and Buck's and that they are together and Buck just being "thank you" *happily skips away* is complete madness. Amazing scene, really, and you're absolutely right, it would be so easy to play it off as a joke, but they chose not it and that's just !!!!!!!!

I hope you enjoy the rest of the show because they keep getting more insane kspskspsoalapakapala

[drowninginredink]

Hi, it's the anon who headcanons the Chosen as higher needs autistic.

I just wanted to say that I'mactually thankful you educated me on your schizoprenic experience, because I didn't know any of that was even a thing! I'll take that with me going forward.

You're welcome! If you want proper schizo education, let's do it! Actually, a note first, because I'm going to be using the terms psychotic and schizophrenic a lot and you should know the difference. Psychosis is a symptom. It is basically just disconnect from reality, generally meaning delusions and often, but not always, hallucinations. Psychosis can happen because of pregnancy, medical conditions, other mental illnesses, or drugs (both legal/prescribed and illegal). Schizophrenia is chronic psychosis that cannot be attributed to any other cause. All schizophrenics are psychotic; not all psychotics are schizophrenic.

1. I know I already said it in the original post, but do not call 911 on someone in a mental health crisis. I will not share the details of what happens to psychotic people (and let's be clear here; it's almost always Black psychotic people) in police custody. And the "good" scenario is them ending up hospitalized, which really isn't much better. I work in nursing, but I will never, ever work in psychiatric nursing because the way psychotics get treated in psych hospitals? I could not see that every day. I could not be part of that system. And there's no way I'd have any leverage to change that system. Psychotics get forcibly medicated, restrained, treated like weirdos and pariahs by the other patients... And then thrown right back out. Why are there a bunch of homeless schizophrenics? Well obviously it's pretty damn impossible to hold a job when in active psychosis, but also, how are you supposed to keep getting your meds or get any lasting therapy when after you get out of the hospital, you're going right back to living on the streets?

2. If someone says stuff that seems delusional, do not fact check them (unless they explicitly ask you to). It will not work. It will just distress them and make them double down. The correct approach is to very slowly nudge them out of it until they realize for themselves what was a delusion, but that's not your job. That's for their therapist to do. Don't encourage them either, though. If you can change the subject, that's the best approach.

3. There's this image that all psychotics need to be medicated, because obviously therapy wouldn't work because they're completely irrational. Medication actually doesn't help 25% of schizophrenics, and therapy is generally way more effective. The problem with that being that you know who else thinks of psychosis as a "just throw drugs at it" issue? Lots and lots of psych professionals. And a whole bunch also just don't know what to do with us. Or they don't want to deal with us, because it's hard. As someone in the medical field Therapy is super useful, though. The standard approach is CBT for psychosis (which personally I had a terrible time with. DBT ended up being my magic bullet). Fun fact: my old psychiatrist is currently doing a study on controlling voice hearing yourself. Basically, you can stop hearing voices by telling them to shut up and fuck off. I'm unconventional as far as schizophrenia symptoms go, so I never really had much voice hearing, but I did for a brief period of time and that's how I got it to go away. Learning how to reality check yourself is the most effective way to deal with psychosis.

3. a. Back on meds, for me personally, anti psychotics did help with my dissociation, but did nothing for my hallucinations and delusions. I'm not on them anymore. We found that an ADHD med actually worked really well for my dissociation, interestingly enough. Anti psychotics also have awful side effects. Schizophrenia is not fun, but the worst thing I've ever experienced wasn't schizophrenia at all. It was akathisia, which is a side effect of anti psychotics. It's restlessness to the absolute maximum. You can't concentrate, you can't think, you can't sit still, you can't sleep. Your heart feels like it's burning a hole in your chest. It is hell.

4. Schizophrenia is actually neurodevelopmental. Our brains look different than other brains. I know personally, I have always had delusional thought processes. It's just that as a kid, I was fixating on, say, the fact that I just could not leave this party right now or that for some reason it was a huge deal that the teacher didn't call on me. So no one thought it was delusions. But now that I've been overtly delusional? The thought process is exactly the same. It's like you're wearing blinders. The world flattens out to 2D and you just can't see the truth. And then when you do realize it, you feel like an absolute idiot for letting it go on for so long. That's true now, and it was true when I was freaking out about dance recitals as a kid.

5. Let's talk about the absolute worst psychotic symptom you've never heard of: disorganized thinking. It's what it sounds like. It's like your brain and thoughts are a deck of cards that are constantly being shuffled. You lose your train of thought. You forget what it is you're doing. I know when my disorganized thinking was a lot worse (those ADHD meds have also helped a ton with that, thank God) I would just get trapped scrolling my phone because I couldn't keep a train of thought for long enough to decide to do something else. Or rather, I'd decide to do something, and then forget about it before I could, over and over. For people who aren't me, it will also manifest as disorganized speech, where you know what you're saying in your head but complete gibberish comes out of your mouth instead. A thing people do not talk about enough is how much schizophrenia absolutely destroys your ability to think. Between disorganized thinking and dissociation (and God, my dissociation is terrible... And this is with it medicated down to levels where I can actually function) sometimes my brain is just absolutely useless to me.

That's probably enough for now? I could keep going for hours, but I think that's a lot of really good information. Truly give me an inch and I'll run a mile

[starbuckaroo]

wait wait i am having an idea. this post about getting Buck a baby (always correct ofc) like sure that’s ideal ok but what if

what if after Tommy, buck is just like I Cannot Be Waiting On Anyone Else To Chase My Bliss or whatever (ie he read one inspirational instagram post and decided to join the newest self help cult or whatever) and his conclusion is that he should just try to get himself a baby on his own. and no one can think of anything to say that wouldn’t like completely crush him or would be too leading, like “why don’t you wait til you marry Eddie to do that hun” so they just are like hm yeah ofc buck you love kids you’d be a great dad…

until buck ends up talking to Karen about it at some point and Karen is like oh you’re gonna apply to be a foster parent? That’s so great! Here’s our contact at CPS and a good family law attorney. And Buck is like wow Karen thank u so much and he goes out and applies and does all the shit and is approved (bc remember this is 911 aka the magical alternate reality where Not All Cops and CPS is good, actually)

cue Buck calling out of work one day and no one but Bobby knows why until 12 hours in Buck comes into the station carrying a car seat to show everyone his new foster baby and Eddie swoons a little bit (a lot) and anyways here’s how Buck can reverse baby trap Eddie