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trustworthy source informed me its from his appearance at 2012 tt but i cant find many photos of him there with my shabby antarctica wifi so if anyone has the time….. pleek help a gay in need….
besties i need help. i accidentally reset my 4yr discord avatar of mark and i need him back. but i dont know. where the damn photo is ….. please help….
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does anyone have the full image of this…… in his cute pale rbr wind breaker… this could save a life
#we’re getting wonderful results#i once had an album full of this man nearing 1k photos but then i recognised i had an illness and deleted it#in hopes of recovering from dilf induced mania#clearly it didnt stick#mark webber
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conclusion spoilers generally...?
the demons: heh. we're going to fuck with noel by leading him on. by giving claire a massive advantage in bonus stage. we're so fucking with them by giving claire the tools to win in the next loop. heh. wait what what do you mean she actually survived
they're so goofy sometimes i swear.... (affectionate)
#witch's heart spoilers#whnoc#it's so funny at the end of noels route theyre saying its like a carrot on a stick#and like no its not youre just helping him you guys 💀 its so funny#like i feel the need to point out that the demon's interference is main reason that claire lives#but it seems like they. didnt really. intend that?#its so funny like in the case of rouge/zizel they didnt MIND claire winning#(i think rouge doesnt care that much about claire either way and zizel just wants the ending to be satisfying regardless of whether she die#so you could say they were just working for their own amusement and if that gave claire an advantage so be it#(but its still funny they didnt seem to INTEND claire winning as a result of their interference despite it clearly paving the way for that)#but i feel like charlime were actively working against their own interests there lmfao#its funny when they try to sabotage the conclusions when theyre the reason claire got that far in the first place#this is not a critique btw i think everyone was just trying to make bonus stage a more entertaining loop for them#/ thought it was funny to traumatize claire by giving her all this info#/ may have been so in their own heads of claire being doomed they didnt even process this as giving her an advantage#but its still amusing they somehow thought they were “leading noel on” by actively helping him / actively being the reason claire survives#textposts
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dont mind me. im simply just putting together a ludgercasey angst collection.
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#''why cant u be normal abt them'' how can i be normal abt them when solid 80% of their interactions is either angst or stemmed from angst.#even their ''fluff'' moments were also angst.#literally no one does angst like they do.#ludger prefers to keep most of his connections extremely impersonal/professional.#but whether or not he wants to admit it theirs on the other hand simply does not... fit in that category.#he'd even tried to convert it that way but it just didnt stick bc neither of them could help but be themselves around each other lmfao.#ludger is seemly still oblivious to caseys attempt to mend their personal relationship.#which is not too surprising considering he was also oblivious to the existence of their past relationship.#after all there was no reason for him to believe that casey would want to have anything to do with him. except maybe putting him in jail.#so pushing her away seems to be the most logical decision right? personal relationship is a luxury to him anyway.#alas casey who wanted to believe in their past friendship takes it as a sign that ludger has no interest in maintaining it.#she now has to take a step back because ''if you force a relationship it may become more estranged.''#so unless he takes the initiative they are likely stuck in this limbo.#(casey might use impersonal excuses to stay around but rn its all up to ludger to change the nature of their relationship)#casey girlie forget him i would have treated you so much better... is what i would have loved to say.#i wouldnt be suffering this much if ludger wasnt clearly holding himself back most of the time / if it was completely one-sided from casey.#i dont know if this is a slow burn or hurt no comfort but if casey gets no closure im gonna commit arson 😔#aro ludgercasey propaganda#selmore's undercover husband#auposting
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but like i had it lined up how emet would return in my mind palace. you know. i had it allll lined up. & now im like. fuck. i gotta be real i think hed probably mold his appearance to not look like solus anymore im not sure hed rock with associating himself with that anymore after being freed from zodiark's thrall this is a little much. you know
#ffposting#like okay i have no reason to change the bit where his soul latches onto one of his clones. its an easy body#& doesnt require stealing someones entire life about it like it would with possession & hes clearly not fond of possessing dead bodies#but like. the rest of his appearance. surely hed do it differently. would he try his hand at being another race? maybe#in my mind he has at least been a miqo before because i just wanted to draw miqo hades. but it was also during his time of enthrallment#i wonder what hed do if he were like. freed from it & was given a chance to be anything. would he remain more hyur adjacent? hrm#i feel like hes liable to remain somewhat similar bc of how he is but also trying out something new to experience it As normal...#& like. really experience it as himself & not himself but influenced by any higher power. idk. i like to think about these things#since fantasia is canonically a thing its not even like itd feel like 'not sticking to one version of him' so to speak. its just normal#i like to think of good endings for the characters i like. fuck the world..... i know this kinda goes against the game's messaging#in some aspects but if yoship didnt want me to get overly attached to characters he shouldnt have allowed them!!
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so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.
'you gotta sing this softer'
'what'
'this is mozart'
'this is vitellia'
'this is mozart'
'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'
'this is mozart'
'i wanna murder a guy'
'this is mozart'
'...'
'softer. gentle. mozart'
'...ok'
#they're killing me here#i already bargained for ONE (1) note in chest (thank you so so much that i am ALLOWED to sing an A3 in chest voice <333) and now THIS#THIS is why people hate mozart. fuck you.#i recorded that rehearsal and the first version sounds SO MUCH BETTER. after i did what she asked me to do its just. so fucking boring.#i hate it here#i love this duet so much but frfr im not sure i wanna do it if i have to do it on their terms.#also like sorry to be a bitch but you're a pianist girl. just stick to your stuff and let me take care of mine.#just because you're playing this like you're constipated because tHiS iS mOzArT doesnt mean the rest of us dont care either.#its possible i never will get the chance to sing the entire vitellia so i want to do justice. as much as im able. to this one chance i get#it took me A Long While to deal with the fact that i wont be able to bark that 'indegno' and 'regno' like i always envisioned.#but like. ok. whatever. i can still make it Entertaining. THIS however. no. no fucking way.#and its not even about me being a big-headed know-it-all who thinks she's better than everyone because. lol and lmao clearly im Not#but this is about having a fucking SOUL. its about actually taking the libretto into consideration too. its about trying to figure out#WHY mozart wrote it the way he did. like sorry but this is another fiordiligi case where its CLEAR that the amplitudes the crazy jumps#are there FOR A REASON. the reason is HE WANTED A CONTRAST. some fucking EMOTION. he sure as hell didnt want it to be Soft And Gentle.#i know it because i talked to him and he told me im right about everything as always and you can eat shit girl bye#grrrrrrrr im so angry#i knos i sound so arrogant here but please. please i just want to make this music fun and enjoyable. i just dont want it to be boring#please understand my vision im begging you
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It took me, ugh, MONTHS (2), to get to cleaning the two shrimp tanks I have... I had IRL issues going on that would have made it extremely difficult to do a water change especially while injured, and I just had to keep putting it off. It's just shrimp, so it wasn't like, the worst situation, especially since I have established plants and the tanks are a couple years old. There was just a lot of algae build-up on the glass, and, well... Let me just say it was not contributing to my mental health and well-being while the tanks were in that state.
I tested the water before I started cleaning and the parameters were fine (like, I could have left the tanks even longer if I would be okay with selling my soul to the Algae Collective), and the plants and shrimp look fine, too (I mean, I've obviously been keeping an eye on the tanks bc I sit right next to them). Actually, I'd wager to say that the plants are looking really great (the lilies haven't died off [yet? This is the longest period of time I've seen them stay... foliage... fol... foliated? Idk.] and the cryptocoryne in the 10gal is fucking huge and needs to be rearranged, just not right now). That fucking algae was a motherfucker to get off the 10gal (it's a plastic tank and I think that makes the algae grip harder than the glass 5gal).
[Also, fyi, depending on the tank's needs and stability, recommended water changes are a small one every week or every other week. My parameters don't seem to do anything dramatic, so I usually aim for a 20-30% water change every third week (just depends on how much vacuuming needs to be done and how cooperative the shrimp are with moving aside). So 2 months is still a lot. I still did the normal 30% ish amount, since doing more will risk the shrimp's well-being if there's a sudden change in everything, and my water parameters indicated a change was unnecessary - but I don't test for more than the minimum freshwater tests, so there could be a buildup of some mineral I'm not testing for, which is why the change IS actually necessary regardless of what my test kit says - because these tanks were evaporating a lot in summer, it condenses the minerals added with each water addition, even tho I usually top up with R.O. water.]
My back is fucking killing me lol. It has been killing me since spring when it 'went out' for the first time, and I'm not getting any relief, it sucks. But this had to be done.
The 5gal is looking pretty cloudy still, since the filter was super gunked up and I accidentally spilled gunk back in, so I may need to retest the 5gal parameters tomorrow just to make sure I don't have to do another water change, but it'll probably be fine, right? Shrimp love mulm and detritus. I did give both tanks a big ole algae tab for their trouble, tho. (I need a fuckening dish for the big tank. I really wanna clean off that white quartz rock again, but being white means it's an algae magnet, and it's just gonna go green again after a month or two.)
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I lov thees widdle oange bebies.
Wish I could take better pictures rn, but I am. Like. Dying. My recommendation: never live in an A-frame style room if you have the option. The wall above my tanks is slanted, and NOT fun for my back to bend underneath the wall for maintenance. (My only flat wall in the room is for my TV/PC.) Also, treat your back nicely, in general. I unfortunately have not had the option to treat my back nicely since spring (fall now), because 'when it rains it pours,' and heavy shit that needs to be moved will not move itself. Once I get a few more things in my room in order, I will hopefully be done with the IRL chaos, bc I have Halloween socks to knit, and I'm not putting that off for another year. (I'm still mad that I couldn't make the ones I planned last year. And I found more Halloween yarn I forgot I bought, so I'm gonna try to make multiple socks.) And I just really need to fucking chill and knit and stop having panic attacks and meltdowns.
#me earlier today: oh i should bleach my hair since i havent been able to shower for 2 days it wont damage it as much#me now: i dont know if i can even stand long enough to shower after this#anyway im gonna try to eat something and then shower and pass tf out.#maybe i shouldve taken a before picture to show how much i did...#...but i do Not want to remember 'that one time i didnt do a water change for 2 months' the algae was gross lol i couldnt even get it all#but honestly idc ab the back wall having algae as long as the front and most of the sides are clear#seriously the algae was textured like sandpaper tho. does algae do pearling? if it does then its calcium buildup too#edit while typing bc i looked it up. yes algae pearls. so the bubbles it was making were drying enough to cause calcium deposits#oH also lmao i found the tiniest pinch of hornwort left in the 10gal. idk why the hornwort doesnt like that tank but its hilarious that...#...that one little fingernail sized piece is still alive floating in there. i stuck it next to the lily but the shrimp will prob dislodge it#the hornwort in the 5gal is just freefloating i cant get that shit to stick#the shrimp love that stuff and they look like little birds in a pine tree#im in so much pain im procrastinating food lmao 'order pizza' crossed my mind but my jaw wont let me eat pizza so fml#anyway. just wanted to show an accomplishment even if its not a praise worthy one since i didnt go the extra 10 miles to water change sooner#awwww tho i love seeing them glide around the tank and now i can see them clearly its so chill#shrimp#aquariums#crustaceans#bugs#Cori.exe#Post.exe#Image.exe#also my therapist started cracking up this morning when i said like 'i can finally rest now tht i dont have a Saw trap bathroom to navigate'#seriously tho it was bad and then another issue in the bathroom came up 2 days ago but theyre both fixed now. my br is normal now.#im not normal tho (normal for myself i mean) and unfortunately thats not gonna be an easy fix but im trying#man can i ever make a post where i dont type a million words lmao. inability to focus and then i start typing more stuff#oh ab the hair bleach man my roots are so dark i just trimmed off the last of the bleach from last time so i got 2tone hair rn#idk when ill get to that. dependsnon my back. i already wasnt in a great state of being when i did the aquariums but i needed to clean them#ok i rly need to try n make food and shower before i start growing algae on myself
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i always forget how strange it feels to pick up a new ship/characters after writing for the same ones for so long
#i think the last new set was those two fics i wrote for tmouw?#clearly that one didnt stick but those two fics were fun anyway#also i am aware i have only been writing for 1.5 years but by volume!#sixdemon scribbles
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Literally crawling across the floor to move my washing from the machine to the airer piece by piece bc I'm too exhausted to stand up and wondering how exactly the PIP department managed to conclude that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me
#considering lying down here on the ground to have a rest#but dw guys there's nothing wrong w me 🤪#honestly i think she got a stick up her ass bc i took a trip to brighton a few months back#which really sucks bc i spent the majority of that trip in bed#which i TOLD them#but no. clearly if i was really disabled i would never be able to go anywhere at all ever#'you said you stood for an hour on the train coming back' BITCH NOT BY CHOICE!!!!#they fucked up the seating so bad that i couldn't get one bc they were all marked as reserved!!!! even when they werent!!!#but there was no way to tell so i had to just go stand in that little area by the door#and THAT was bc i ran out of energy walking up the train trying to find an empty seat#so i just gave up and dropped all my shit on the floor and leant against the wall so i didnt have to hold all my weight up#but clearly im fine.#nevernind the days i had to spend in bed after getting home bc i was so exhausted#nothing wrong with me. clearly.#also update i did decide to lie on the floor. it is not comfortable here but at least i am perpendicular#about me
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slept like 15 hours, which is great, but also (seemingly) spent that entire time having one long, incredibly vivid nightmare, which is. not so great
#and the thing abt nightmares is that they stick around#even tho im awake now. i know im awake now. i still feel like im there#or i guess more specifically i still feel like the things that were true in the nightmare are still true here#namely: that i had a stage 4 brain tumour and had been given weeks to live#which. i get _why_ thats what i dreamed abt#id been looking up my recent symptoms and a brain tumour was mentioned as a potential cause uhhh multiple times#not that i actually think i have a brain tumour#i dont#but still#i guess my brain held onto it#its dumb cause most of my nightmares are simple straightforward shit like someone's chasing me n trying to kill me or w/e#or theres some apocalyptic disaster#things that suck in the dream but that are usually p easy to “leave behind” once i wake up#like i know no one's chasing me anymore bc im lying in bed not running around or hiding or w/e i was doing in the dream#but this one was so. normal#i was on _discord_#i had to tell my _friends_#my brain keeps trying to file it away as a waking-world memory instead of a dream-world one#not to mention it clearly wants to pick up where it left off#like no. you dont have to tell me what wouldve happened next. you dont have to remind me of how i felt in the dream#_it didnt happen_#anyway#glad i got so much sleep at least
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Just had the worlds worst possible fanfiction-tier meet ugly and I am so embarrassed I think I might combust
#stuck in the elivator with the maintenance man and some guy from the floor below me#maintenance man had clearly been chatting with guy before they got on cause he looke between us and says 'oh well she’s nice you guys would#look well together'#and then goes off on this tangent about how we'll meet each other in 10 years and get married#like#... very in depth fantasy about us getting married detailed in the short lift ride#anyway im so embarassed i just stick my whole foot in it and just say 'yeah no not my type'#and then it turns out we were both going to the laundry room#(me and guy) so i went outside instead and just kind of awkwardly stood in the middle of the sidewalk for a while#and then i went to take my stuff out of the drier and hewas there AGAIN and like... oh my god#(guy was very nice and didnt say anything but also having heard the maintenance man's in depth#fantasy about our married life and then me a complete stranger basically saying 'ew' is awkward)#the worst part is he actually was my type too...not that im looking but not only did i call him ugly to his face i also lied about it
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man fuck a level art SO SO MUCH, fuck that shit and send it to hell for a thousand years
i love art but im genuinely so sick of my sixth form art classes bc ill get advised to do one thing, change up my whole ass artstyle and genuinely rlly ruin my motivation for personal art
and then get a C and get told everything was a load of shit for ten minutes straight by another teacher i didnt get the advice from
#i have rsd so im probably being pathetic but you know what i fucking mean#HNNNGGFGHHHHHH CANT GET MOTIVATION TO KEEP DOING THIS COURSE#they literally complained abt me using a lot of pencil for my first project bc they wouldnt supply us with white or black paint for a month#and i didnt have the money to afford my own paints when we started + was living with my shit parents#so i had to literally stick with one medium the whole topic and had full meltdowns in class over them not having the materials#ONLY TO GET TOLD I WAS TOO COMFORTABLE WITH PENCIL AND LIKED IT TOO MUCH?#same goes for current isolation project. picked two portraiture artists with similar feels to the theme.#got told off for doing too much portraiture#also got told off for doing realistic observations when i was clearly doing realism first and then going into the artists style#bc yknow. my teacher told me to. and then let another teacher do the feedback who wasnt aware of this.#I HAD IT ALL WRITTEN OUT IN TBE ANNOTATIONS. DIDNT READ ANY OF THEM BC MY 'WRITING IS TOO SMALL'#my dude i cant control the size of my handwriting ask someone else to read it since i do this in my writing based subjects#i fucking hate all of my dude teachers theyre so insufferable HFFFFNNNNGFHHHH
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I think he looks a bit dumb here. a little bit gay -.-
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#Kakashake stick your arm through the donut hole. again. bit gay 💅#how do u live without a heart. clearly destroyed. guess he didnt just want the curse mark gone he wanted the whole organ gone too 😭😭#the desire in his eyes /j i need to kill her <3
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sometimes it literally baffles me how common sense not just totally missed my neighbor, but clearly turned and ran the other direction
#mrowr.txt#vent in tags agh#theres been this stupid wifi thing with someone elses name but to HER ADDRESS. APARTMENT FUCKING TWO#for the past few days that ended up in my box so i put it in hers#and then today she must have stuck it sticking up between our boxes#maybe for the mailperson to take it back? but they clearly didnt#esp since it wasnt marked with return to sender or y'know. ANYTHING LIKE THAT#so i had put it BACK IN HER MAILBOX#SINCE IT SAYS APT 2#like your mail or not if its your address you either toss it or get it sent back dumbass#AND SHE FUCKING CAME UP HERE AND PUT IT IN FRONT OF MY DOOR AND KNOCKED AND WENTAWAY#i tore the stupid thing up#and complained to the landlord about her guests using our parking lot again :) (violation of lease which shes been told REPEATEDLY)
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Not to date myself but sometimes in the middle of a crisis u get to hear Pursuit of Happiness (Nightmare) by Kid Cudi featuring MGMT and Ratatat, Steve Aoki Remix and feel joy for the first time in a week and a half
#my stuff#its the little things ig#idc if the lyrics are depressing it makes me wild out and i love it#my ex robbed me and i kicked him back to his apt 1.5 weeks ago#and apparently he didnt know we broke up (i didnt block him i had his cat and still have his stuff)#so i think im giving him a lot of fucking grace for stealing a paycheck 2 weeks worth of work for his drug habits when im going hungry rn#i sent him this long heartfelt text using my therapy communication skills to clearly outline that we are not dating anymore#and he just doesnt accept??? he keeps saying we have to work thru this and the drugs did it not him blah blah blah#like dude ive seen my own mother suck dick on the living room couch so she could buy another 8 ball and not give me lunch 😑#tf makes u think im gonna put up with that shit now????? dumbass#i keep waking up sad and weepy still but i just tell everyone i know abt what he did and they tell me im better than that and i feel better#i told 1 patient at work shes my fave. little old korean lady. she brings us a bag of fruits every week and is so fun to talk to#when she ices afterwards she asks for extra time and we chat a lot about our lives. she was so sad for me and kept telling me#that im so pretty and so nice and men will take advantage babygirl im so sorry that happened to you!!! 😭 i told her im fine now#and told her how im seeing my family more again and doing whatever i feel like whenever i want and looking towards my future and she relaxed#but that ones going to stick in my head the most. if i took him back id be letting her down. i almost cracked today like a spineless coward#but hearing her seem so hurt for me and say that i didnt deserve it felt so genuine. ill miss her#i took my last dab today guys no more until i ged paid 2 more times but as you can see by the tags getting away from me#it was a good fucking dab lol
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Oh god I’m crying so muchh… how am I supposed to tell the little girl all those years ago that she isn’t gonna end up with the person she thought was her soulmate. That it won’t work no matter how much she tried. You’ll never be that happy with them ever again because nothing ever seems to go right and the relationship wont ever be the same. and how the hell am I supposed to be okay with that forever
#like what do i do with the sweater i have from them#what do i do#i still cant help but wonder what it wouldve been like if we couldve been together without circumstances keeping us apart#but was i even really happy? i just keep thinking of all the good times#but i felt so miserable so often#i dont think i can thug this one out#ugh my head hurts the emotional turmoil#waiting for her to step out of her circumstances to hold a relationship w me doesnt work oh wow#cant believe that didnt work#at least im pretty when i cry sooo win for me#but waiting for your ex is never a good idea but i still did it cuz im dumb#I gave her the nickname she has on all her socials.#the person that makes me the happiest makes me the saddest#i spent so many hours crying over her#now i dont even want to talk about my day with them because they cant stick around for long#I feel so sad and stupid. It clearly was over when they would avoid me.#lord please let me love again#I wonder if they even think of it. If it haunts their waking moment if they’re making the right decisions like I am. How much it aches
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Am I. schizophrenic perhaps.
#so for the longest time ive been aware of ''things'' about me#for the most part i know theyre not real but its like i cant convince part of my subconscious#i dont see visual hallucinations so i assumed it couldn't be schizophrenia#but its like an EXTREMELY stronger version of the feeling when someone's behind you#but they're in front of me. i mean not directly theyre just like AROUND yk#like for awhile i would talk to this one shadowperson in my old bedroom#i was getting into spiritual stuff at the time so i didnt question it too much? she was sweet i called her roxanne#i could talk to her and she couldnt communicate with words or anything but i would read her emotions if that makes sense#and then for a long time i was fairly confident that the ghost of the twin brother i feel like i should have had would follow me#nothing malevolent just like. he was there. and he could communicate more clearly but it was still with scattered abstract thoughts#i knew this was weird but again. I've been pagan for a few years and there was a point where i thought this was something supernatural#i recently started talking to my boyfriend about it and yeah. the more i talk the more i realize this is probably a symptom not a power#anyway I've started having nights where before i go to bed it kinda gets a little intense#so here's the deal: i can add things but i can't really take them away#so if i accidentally imagine hmmm lets say smarf from too many cooks at my doorway. hes gonna stick around for a bit.#apparently until morning at least. previously they havent lasted this long#its almost worse when its light out because i can very clearly see that theres nothing there and that its not based in any reality#oh great i just moved to the bathroom and its at this doorway now. thats fun. thats cool. not at all terrifying.#anywho. i can add things too but it takes a little effort to get it started#so like if i create a superhero to stand here and convince myself that he'll keep that fucking cat puppet at bay then he will#last night thats what i did (with help from my bf bc hes not here and its the second best way to keep my tired self calm)#idk this morning im just really thinking. this cannot be normal and healthy.#when i get back to college i think ill try to get some mental health screening done#again its hardly ever malevolent and im always aware on some level that its all in my head#but I'd like to try to find out if its anything diagnosable bc then i can make sure it doesnt get worse#this post is just me processing and hopefully documenting the start of me figuring this out#i should probably have a tag for this if im gonna document it here#into the mind of ram#that works#idk i just hope this goes somewhere and maybe can help someone in the future if they're going through something similar
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