#cdd little

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

How your syskids will look at you when they see a huge pokemon plushie while you're trying to buy groceries

[dreamdropsystem]

flying around the coloful fluffy would that is headspace / inner world. well.. the whole inner world doesn't look like that!! a portion haha - Bonnie

[dreamdroplittles]

attempt on drawing myself as a bab - cassidy

[chemicalcarousel]

portrait of lee!! lee is a boy and is 5 y/o. he uses he/him pronouns and he loves scenemo, minecraft and mlp!! >w<

lee is an alter in a cdd system. he is also an introject, but very source divergent and doesn't identify with his source at all ^_^

[mystery-aberration]

System roles do not have to be your entire identity. You do not have to conform to the stereotypes of them, and you do not have to hold your role alone or without help. You do not need to keep them forever, either. They may be what you were placed into the system to help with, and they may be something you are good at--but it does not have to be you forever.

I am a persecutor, and that does not mean I should be treated differently or harmed. Being a persecutor does not mean that everyone should be scared of you by default either.

Protectors should not be expected to be strong and emotionless walls to put in front of everything all the time. They do not need to be tools.

Comforters might need a break to unload their own stress and need comfort in turn. They do not need to give all of themselves to everyone else and never expect help back.

Littles may not be littles forever, and should not be devalued just because they are children. They are just as real and alive as any other system member and should be taken into account.

Trauma/memory holders might need help to cope with the things they hold, and sometimes when the time is right it means sharing that burden. Maybe there is no right time, but they deserve support whether they can share those memories or not.

Gatekeepers may need a break from controlling switches or access to front, and should be allowed one if needed. Gatekeeping can be a lot of work.

Hosts do not need to do everything for the body or system all the time. Sometimes, being the host of a system can be hard, and support and breaks are deserved.

Systems often put a lot of weight on roles, and it can impact the way that those who have them can feel about their role. It is okay to fit into your role, but it is also okay to not fit, or to end up not fitting your role over time. Some headmates can feel like a failure if they do not uphold their role, some can feel like they have no other choice even if they wanted to not perform it. But a role is a description, it is not an essence of who you are and will forever be. This may be non-traditional but we use roles exclusively as self descriptors so that we do not get wrapped up in what we "should be". If the label no longer fits, or if you need help more than you might have in the past, that is okay.

Be kind to yourselves, and be kind to your other headmates.

[littlest-bugz]

It's just me, the seven other me's, and the eldritch abomination who speaks with multiple voices.

[sysmedsaresexist]

question... how accurate/rigid is the age range requirement for developing DID? something i often see people say is "even though i have many of the symptoms i can't possibly have did, my trauma happened exactly one (1) year after the cutoff date in the dsm" and something about that just... feels wrong.

Using general "you" throughout, not you specifically, anon.

That depends on who you're asking and what other circumstances you're talking about.

Depending on additional disorders, genetics, attachments in infancy, age and length/consistency of trauma, additional supports in place...

Some doctors think the true cutoff is closer to 16, some as early as 4. The average consensus seems to be 9. Based on my own research, I think it could be 12.

There's no age in the DSM. One of the authors wrote a separate book where he said:

Note: begins before 5-6. And it's from over 10 years ago.

But let's be super real here. Trying to set a One True Age is like trying to set a one true age for puberty. There can be averages sure but too much is going into it for there to be an Official Number.

I think the best way to think of this is...

Everyone is going to be different, and there's a sizeable amount of wiggle room in the age. Single time trauma can stagnate development, recurring trauma could even set you back in development.

These are two individualized sliders on the same continuum.

(I have no idea what happened to the resolution, I am truly sorry for this horror but I'm not redoing it)

One is fixed-- your genetics are something you can't change, it's already preset with your own unique age window. It's size can increase or decrease, though, based on interruption, pushing it out further.

The other moves around all willy nilly based on the accumulation of circumstances. You're constantly wracking up and losing points in your own numbers game.

That means that there's going to be an overlap for a specific period of time that's different for everyone.

And if you're around that window, there's a good chance your plurality and trauma are related.

Remember, though.

With CDDs, the trauma is longterm and recurring. While it's extremely common to not remember your trauma, and even more common to not recognize it as trauma...

Your single "trauma" that you've decided is The Trauma™️ that you're referencing isn't what we're actually talking about.

What else happened in your life, both positive and negative?

What other factors are at play? Comorbid disorders?

Whose research and numbers are you basing this on?

What other symptoms do you display? How severe are they?

TL;dr if you're struggling, you deserve help, regardless of how you identify or label it. That's all that matters.

[aspengenic]

I'm glad that it helped you, and I'm sure it may help other systems as well. It still feels incredibly odd to me, BUT again, I'm glad that it was helpful to you.

I feel like there's different ways to go about "exposure therapy" when it comes to that, but hey 🤷‍♂️ that's just my opinion and I'm not here to tell others what they can and cannot do.

EDIT: This was sent to my inbox from someone who wants to remain anonymous (since my anons are off at the moment). This wasn't from Aspen (just in case anyone needed clarification! /info)

Edit for the following night: The person messaged me and wanted me to add this for more clarification:

[plurapony]

How the Mane Six would react if you told them you're a system!

1. Fluttershy

"I'm sorry I don't know what this is can you explain it to me? [after explaining] oh okay! I'll be sure to make sure I'll be kind to whichever one of you I meet!"

Always makes sure she's not offending you in any way, doesn't want to get anything wrong.

Wants to ask more questions because she's curious but feels it might be too invasive so just keeps her questions to herself and asks Twilight Sparkle later on.

Super kind to nonhuman and little alters and acts as a caretaker.

2. Rainbow Dash

"Oh no way! You really have all that stuff happen in your head? Can I talk to them too?"

Doesn't really understand much about systems but is very interested whenever you talk about it.

Whenever any of your alters talk to her she gets so incredibly excited about it and talks to them eagerly.

Sometimes gets things wrong on purpose just so you can correct her and explain more about being a system.

3. Pinkie Pie

"WAIT OH MY GOD DID YOU ENTER THE MIRROR POOL TOO? DID YOU GUYS DESTROY THE TOWN???"

Is convinced that she has the same experience as you and she knows what it's like to be a system. (Maybe she does?)

Doesn't really understand but her heart is in the right place.

She's encouraged your alters to go into the mirror pool to get separate bodies on several occasions.

Screams at anyone who is mean to you and is very protective over you.

4. Applejack

"Sugar I really don't understand what you're talking about, but I'll help in any way I can"

Makes you feel extremely comfortable even though she doesn't completely understand.

Never judges any alters that you split and treats them all as equals and how she treats you.

Stands by your side whenever other people are making you uncomfortable, ready to defend you as soon as you want her too.

5. Twilight Sparkle

"Oh Dissociative Identity Disorder! I've read about this in one of my books! Let me know what I can do to help!"

Has asked you to take part in several experiments so that she can write her on paper on DID.

Whenever you vent about being a system to her you notice she's got a notebook and she's furiously scribbling down notes.

You always feel so reassured while around Twilight she genuinely cares about your system a lot.

6. Rarity

"So my dear, each of you have different personalities? So I can make a different outfit for each alter?"

Made different dresses and outfits for each of your alters that encompassed their personalities and made them feel comfortable.

Doesn't ever pry about system stuff and just treats all your alters as individuals.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS!!!! LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT MORE PONY PERSPECTIVES!!!!!

[IMAGE ID: ponyville is a (pro) endo free zone break dni and get blocked loser! END ID]

[dreamdropsystem]

littles are amazing and resilient. please keep us in mind, a lot can go on in our little heads, but we can handle a lot (not every little though) Strawberry is a little telling you to do your best to support littles in your system! it's hard but we are trying. every system member is there for a reason. 🍓 - Strawberry

[reimeichan]

I'm a little. Biologically, I'm in my late 20s. And... I had the realization hit me last night that even though I'm a little and feel like I'm still a child, with all my childish wants and needs and fears and stuff, it doesn't change the fact that I've lived through 20-something years of my life. I have adult responsibilities and adult experiences and adult memories.

But more than that, I can't go back to being a child anymore.

My past, my childhood, I can't change any of that. The pain and traumas are real, the memories I have still haunting me. And even the moments of nostalgia I have, when I reminisce on my past... well, that's all they can be anymore. They're not my present.

And in spite of all this history I have inside of me, I still feel like a kid who didn't get the love and affection I needed. I feel stuck in time, but time always keeps marching forward even if I don't. The grass grows and the meat rots and the rocks weather. I can honor these feelings of being a kid, and give myself the things I didn't get back then. But... I'm still an adult. And I think it's also important for me to acknowledge that.

Integration is so hard. I've fused and gotten closer to so many of the other littles that now we're all sharing those moments from our childhood: happy times and sad times and even just times that existed. But I'm also closer to the adult parts, and with that comes... I dunno. I guess I'm less dissociated from my current reality and I'm more grounded now. And it feels so scary and confusing trying to navigate this new reality that I'm not used to. But I know I have people around me who can help me, from my friends and partners to the other parts of me I share a life with. It'll be okay, I think.

But for now I'm gonna mourn my past.

[is-that-plural]

The Mangle from fnaf (if you need more, look at their lines from UCN)

also side note theres sssssO MANY system coded fnaf characters,, like usually theres just one but theres at least two handfuls of characters in fnaf that are. JUST systems

-🌀sys (blurry)

!!

Rating: multiple souls in one?? Plural !!!!

[littlest-bugz]

little: I like being with you. You make me feel safe :3

the host:

[sysmedsaresexist]

are there requirements to being a little beyond just feeling you're that age internally? is there a way i have to act to be considered a little?

I'm going to start with something a little controversial.

I hate little discourse. It's actually the dumbest thing anyone can waste time on.

The actual clinical term is "child parts," and when you compare child parts to littles, it makes a lot more sense.

Littles can be anyone or anything. You don't need to act any certain way, or be any specific age.

Child parts are EPs (so highly traumatized and emotionally reactive) that are stuck at a very young age (typically when the trauma occurred). These are the parts that people tend to think of when they start discoursing about sex and language, and all that jazz.

Everyone is different, and you do what works best for your system, fuck what anyone thinks or says. If little fits, go for it, regardless of age or mental state. It's not a term specific to DID. Some littles act like adults and some adults act like littles. Some talk quirky, some don't. Some like plushies, some are hosts of adult bodies, and some age slide or regress.

Look out for child parts and protect them at all costs, they are our innocence ❤️

Littles, go buck wild, throw a rave, do whatever you want, play hookie, suck a binkie and slap a cop.

[cringesys]

Cringe system culture is letting the littles/syskids type babyish because it makes them happy and more comfortable

Let littles be childish

Let alters write whatever the hell they want

There's not an incorrect way of writing at all!! Writing different is incredible and super valid

[plurapony]

I pass by you in the school corridor wearing a Pinkie Pie wig and Gir hoodie... I smile and stars appear in my eyes "Cringe is Good" I say and wink...

HIIII!!!! WE ARE A SYSTEM THAT LOVES MY LITTLE PONY!!!!!

Our collective name is Plura Pony and our system name is Pony Plaza System! You can use either :D

We have autism !

We are polyfragmanted !

We have almost 100 parts !

We are bodily 22 !

We are married !

pssst spike you forgot to mention the thing

OH yeah! WE ARE SO INCREDIBLY CRINGE!!! We are introject heavy with MOST introjects from my little pony, steven universe or anime!!! and we have tonnes of nonhuman parts :D some people may hate on us for being so cringe but I feel sad for THEM because they don't know how freeing it is to be proudly cringe!!!!!! XD

Silly fact! We have three introjects of Pinkie Pie but the part named Pinkie is NOT an introject!

UMMMMM... sorry but endogenics aren't systems and they should keep out of system spaces!! if you're endogenic or pro endogenics well.. :) meet our friend mr block button!

here is our system map WOWEEE!!!! we have VERY strong dissociation barriers and have subsystems!!!

OH AND IF YOU ARE CRINGE AND ANTI ENDO YOU SHOULD JOIN OUR DISCORD SERVER IT'S MY LITTLE PONY THEMED!!!

[IMAGE ID: ponyville is a (pro) endo free zone break dni and get blocked loser! END ID]