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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining)#and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually.#my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY.#anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say

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moonlit-orchid · 7 months ago

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When your friend needs you to be there to comfort them, but you have no energy for serious conversations and so you're stuck wondering if youre being a selfish asshole or if youre justified in not wanting to be the one to sort their problems out

#vent #its not like they didnt offer to hear my problems. but i just dont want to talk about. or anything #i dont want serious conversations. i dont want to have to worry about other people. i just cant.#im just so fucking exhausted and i dont know if its talking to them and feeling drained by the fact that theyre going through something-#-and that i need to be the therapist or if im just sick. again.#plus yesterday i slept late. my mum made me cry (i think she was just tired out by that point in the day so i doubt it was personal)#and just #im fucking tired ok #and I'm sorry im a bad friend #i just dont have energy. i want to have good energy around me to try give me some.#but when theyre upset it gets into me and drains me and I've been there as much as i can but i just cant right now. im too tired #i know im a shitty person but literally everyone got to be a shitty person at my expense so isnt it my fucking turn?#and then assuming i was acting like that to hurt them. I DO NOT WANT TO HURT ANYONE. IF WE HAVE A FIGHT I WANT TO MOVE ON.#I'm not gonna be caught up in it if we resolved it #but yeah. long story short they're going through shit and i feel like shit #and i think them going through shit is what makes me feel like shit. because i worry about them #and they can lash out on me #i just dont know anymore. i dont know if im an awful person or not #last year i broke up with a friend and my mum said I'll do the same with the next friend #it wasnt my fault #that friend ghosted me #im trying not to be her rn too and im scared that ive been in the wrong im scared im a shitty person too #but at the same time im too done to even really care #i just wanna stop fucking feeling all this and just get on with my day

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trash-bin-ary · 2 days ago

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Uh heads up this post really should be posted on my vent blog in its way too personal but I wanna post it here so. Ignore this i guess

Ah crap may have made myself feel sick in class thinking about my irl friend group. Did not realize how much it still irks me that it was never truly resolved, im not sure if it can truly be resolved, we just dropped the bits that were bad and stitched it back on once things seem to have settled but it was never talked about and some of us still feel a pit from it and it’s happening again and yeah its the dude that I’ve complained about here thats getting dropped but its going to hurt my closest friend and it feels bad, my opinion isnt going to change but it’s bad to not hear them out right?

#and the parallels are truly far off but oh theres another parallel that its in part cause of trans insecurity and truly these are not the #same at all I should not feel worried theres nothing to be but my brain made the connection. to something that I didn’t realize still stung #so much and I cant handle friendships breaking apart and the irl one is with people that im eh about but then one came back and its ahhh we #never discussed it! we havent been told yeah what I did sucked I wont do it again #maybe that did happen just behind the scenes but there were other people involved too the whole friend group was envolved and we never got a #resolution. and with the people here its people I really care about that I dont want to see hurt so my brain making that stupid connection #scares me. thats not the same at all its going to be fine.#okay i dont feel sick as much im gonna go get snacks cause I have money i need to spend before it disappears #this is a post i made #vent #cw emetophobia

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spineless-lobster · 1 year ago

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#lads I’m in the trenches right now ngl #I’ve got so much fucking work to be done with so little time it’s horrific #like honestly for my english essay I’m not even gonna fucking try anymore I just want to submit it on time I don’t fucking care lmao #fashion is like layers of stress I don’t even want to get into #religion can just suck my cock straight up #art feels like dead weight dragging behind me which sucks because I like art but that class is making me HATE it #anyways yeah I’m so glad this is my last year because I can not fucking do this again #im so stressed I can barely eat lmao #anyways I’m gonna tear my fucking hair out or go live in the woods #senioritis is fucking real PLEASE have better time management than me #I’m gonna melt into the floor #vent

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lesbiantrish · 5 months ago

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kay em ess

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n7punk · 1 year ago

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i hate scalpers so much fr

#it's not even scalpers technically since theyre treating it as an out of production ''collectible'' & probably consider themselves resellers #but when it originally retailed for 15$ and they're charging hundreds and it's fucking *play dolls*#it sure feels like scalping #yeah you can technically charge that much because it's a limited supply but what's the BENEFIT?#i mean even for fans of the show when they manage to get their hands on them. they might feel like they have to keep them NIB #because of the loss if they open it & destroy a NiB when these dolls are meant to be played with & displayed & enjoyed #(and by 'might' i mean ''do'' and by 'fans' i mean ''me'')#they straight up aren't worth what people try to charge! its so stupid especially when they share bodies with the DC line & those go for 8$#this has been an idea ive theoretically come across before with like amiibos but this is my first time dealing with it first hand #mylife #a catra got listed for 200$ again -_- which seems to just be her default price. and is more than EIGHTEEN TIMES RETAIL #okay vent post done. god #anyway fuck ebay resellers lmao #im not paying that but i Am gonna complain about it #unrelated but someone dug up the mass effect post again. how does that keep happening #people's tags are always fun on it though

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anaalnathrakhs · 6 months ago

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i'm going to be honest i have no idea what i'm going to do. i messed up my choices for higher education and now i have barely a couple days to pick between a cursus way too difficult for me, a highly specialized cursus with shit outcomes, and a leap of faith into whatever kind of gap year alternative can get me out of my parents' hair for the time being. note how i have no fucking idea what that alternative could be, or what path i'd like to take ideally. fun.

#yeah yeah i know happens to everyone #anyway im. not happy abt the future outcomes rn #on one hand i know if i never choose the path of challenges i'm never gonna get anywhere #on the other hand my mental health is always a dumpster fire and i'm honestly not sure what's the way to fix it #if i have to waste my parents money being their vaguely adequate enough lapdog six more months i'm going to spontaneously die i think #but education costs money and takes efforts and i dont know what to do #i don't know what's my goal #i don't like anything anymore. i don't have any particular skills. i suck at anything actually useful.#please just assign me anything that needs to be done and pay me a living wage #i just don't want to choose #the only thing i think i'd feel alright doing is healthcare but. yknow. huge phobia of anatomy. not a science type.#and the crippling fear of inadequacy doing anything not the EXACT way it's meant to be done #i couldn't switch mid-year i just couldn't i don't fucking want to live that kind of feeling again #broadcasting my misery #vent

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listen-to-the-inner-walrus · 5 months ago

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Sometimes you read a fanfic and you're like oh, this was written by someone who has no experience with suicide but is giving it a damn good try and you just stare at the words, mouth fully agape.

#kai rambles #im just #im not gonna try and gatekeep anything #like that would be ridiculous #but my word #if someone has just attempted suicide #telling them that death is not enough penance for what theyve done and that living is the only punishment they deserve #that is not gonna convince them not to attempt suicide again #you do not try to guilt someone is suicidal #like it might be an honest statement of how you feel about them #but if you want them to not attempt suicide again?#you do not tell them that kind of shit #ah yeah you know what will convince this guy not to attempt suicide again?#telling him that he deserves to suffer more and live through that suffering #my god im just #like i get it. its difficult to know what to say in that moment (and it takes several attempts for it to get any easier)#but jesus fucking christ man #do you really think someone suffering so much they tried to end their own life is gonna be convinced by ''you should suffer more actually''#vent post #this is a vent post #im just.#i cannot #just go with ''i love you'' or ''there are people here who care about you and want you in their lives''

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cursedskull-666 · 9 months ago

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Gonna start screaming from the depths of my very soul I think.

#Life yknow. Just. Life #Cant downgrade my phone for a cheaper contract bc even the downgraded options are more expensive than my current contract #Have to cancel my membership to local pool bc they raised the monthly cost so now itd be cheaper just to pay at time of visit #Trying to find a place to move into is hell bc single occupancy places are going like mad #And i am at an incredible disadvantage as a disabled person who cant work landlords do not want that even tho i know how much i can afford #And trying to get on council housing list? Even more hellish and the wait time is years long anyway #Trying to get taken seriously by doctors as an autistic trans man? When im trying to see them about my chronic issues? HELL #Throw in that im also fat and its just awful #Trying also to get the GP to bloody REFER ME ALREADY to the gender clinic #HELL #JUST DO IT #and thats just the top of the list #So yeah i think im just gonna scream about it #Oh and cost of living in general AAAAAAAAAUGH #People not masking when they should and ignoring that we are still very much in the middle of a pandemic AAAAAH #I feel like i am actually going insane #Personal #Vent #Im gonna start chewing the walls #Maybe ill try biting people and hissing again like I used to when i was a kid #Because i might as well #Fuck

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dirt-str1der · 2 years ago

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Work has ruined me i literally cannot enjoy playing yakuza because of my stomachache like fuck you ....

#Yakuza liveplay #real sorry sbout venting about my poor tortured belly but it hurts so bad #‘whats this have to do with work’ it doesnt i just hate work #i want a ps4 controller or im going to start shaking and sobbing and hugging myself #i hate this xbox controller its the worst thing that has ever happened to me #what do you mean hitting ^ will cause me to hit > and < as well cant i just hit one button at a time #stop inputing random things i hate you you little freak #spits on my controller #and on top of that the ones i planned on biying sold like hotcakes and i will never get to lay my hands on a ps4 controller ever again #actually im not mad anymore #im going to play yk2 karaoke #im going to plqy pride from despair one hundred times because i like it so muchchhh #gonna play heartbreak mermaid as well it is one of my favourite songs ...#yk2 karaoke is so fun ... maybe ill play yk1 too ... fuck maybe ill download ps2 yakuza #oh my god yeah then i can finally see the kiryu lying on haruka scene. sleeping on his little baby #that is such a good idea im so happy ..... baby pillow ... sleeping on baby .... kiss her forehead #i hope to get the dub so i can listen to yuya #GOD I SHOULD GET THE DUB IM SO SMARRTTTTTT ILL GET RIGHT ON THAT

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skyllion-uwu · 2 years ago

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I have discovered many gamer themed euphisms for sex with this one song

#sorry i said i was gonna sleep but i cant #so i got caught up listening to this s3rl song on repeat! its called be my gamerboy. if you wanna hear gamer euphisms #sky screams into the void #also uh. i am wishing i could magically heal and fix things but i cant and it makes me feel powerless #like yeah i can do as much as i can but that doesnt fix it all and it SUCKS!!!!!#this isnt about anyone or anything in particular a lot is going on with me and everyone else #fuck. its 11:48 pm. im gonna log off and try sleeping again #actually now this is more of a #sky vents like amogus

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phagodyke · 2 years ago

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ughf. maybe I should just stay at home until the new year by this point.

#venting again. sorry #like dont get me wrong i love my flatmates #but if I go back I'm just gonna spend 90% of the time in my room so I'm not bothering them bc I'm hard to be around rn #or more hard to be around than usual lmao. above the tolerance level.#also mentally vulnerable rn + I'm not going to be able to cope w any insecurity/shame etc w/out resorting to coping mechanisms #and while its not their fault being around them is a minefield for that bc we're not that close + I'm the weakest link in the chain per se #i cant make it a few hours without crying either + it would do me near irreparable damage if one of them saw that + reacted badly #not like im gonna get any comfort from any of them either way so! what would even be the point. best not to risk it innit #what r even the pros here. like yeah itd be nice to spend time w them but itd all be at their expense. tired of fucking shit up #i wish i wasnt so difficult like ik im not doing enough or trying enough for anyone but this is all i have to give for now so uhfjfnf #when things just take time but u dont have that kind of time to spare bc ur lonely + sick in the head + have stupid high demands NOW!!#at least my ex- *gunshot noise*#rant over. this is all silly + pessimistic anyway. its my fault for not trusting or communicating w ppl + having unachievable expectations #ill do better. when im less mentally ill first tho #bedtime i think #.vent

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thebleedingeffect · 2 years ago

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#warning you know this is a bit of a vent so do not ye go any further if you dont wanna see bad vibes lmao #anyway. my father is an absolute bastard of a man. emotionally neglected my mother. was an absent father. and very nearly-#killed us both towards the very end lmao. just a horrible guy who hides behind his charisma and has never processed an emotion once #instead likes to emotionally neglect and gaslit people instead of idk... going to therapy instead of retreating to church lmao #anyway its been around three years since I've seen him irl and im very happy about that. i never want to hear from him again #but he snagged some foreign young woman whos nearly my age and yeah. its disgusting but not surprising #theyre having a kid apparently and the only reason i know is cause my mom told me. but i really need to have a talk with her and its going-#to suck #i need to talk to her about never bringing him or her up around me ever again and this boundary is a hard one im gonna have to establish #cause shes still so scared of him and cant help following his every move. but im gonna have to pin her down and play therapist and ARRGGHH #I GOTTA PLAY THERAPISTTTT WHY WAS I CURSED TO BE AN ONLY DAUGHTER. WHOS ONLY FAMILY IS THEIR MOTHER #THEREFORE IM THE ONLY ONE CLOSEST AND KNOWS OF THE SHIT SHES GOING THROUGH AKA I GOTTA FUCKIN BEAT IT INTO HER #im gonna-- HELP GIRL #strange lore to drop but god imagine almost being killed by your dad and surviving by pure luck. cringe moment #i cannot imagine if i left this life and my blog wouldve been stuck in 2017... imagine dying as a marvel blog SKSKSKSKS #anyway. this life man.

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ironmanstan · 2 years ago

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Everytime my dad remembers he exists i stop feeling anxiety and get more excited for college to start

#oh to get out of this fucking house #i love having a helicopter parent and having to hide any possible negativity i may feel about that otherwise i am an ungrateful demon.#so cool. so radical and slay. i am not an adult with autonomy i am eternally 10 years old and must not leave the eyes of my parents Or Else #im not independent! i dont do anything important! i dont deserve respect! i am simply a child who mustnt feel any emotion about this haha!#th fucking lengths this goes to. my dad looking at people in horror when they ask if im gonna be in a dorm or not #noooo thatd be crazy. how can i leave out from under the thumb of my parents? thatd mean i have crazy things like autonomy LOL #will allll be fine. will alllll be fine i need . to get through december. and then i can go be insane on college premises.#in theory i could even work in the art labs and work on personal stuff while im there.#'i want you to come straight home after classes are done you dont need to be there any longer than you have to be' uhhh huh mmmhm yeah ok #tooootally lolllll #one of these days my dad is gonna get mad at me again and turn off my internet and then ill miss my one online class ill have #wonder whatll happen then. so morbidly curious #vent

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yosh-iro · 6 months ago

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mfw i try to draw something but it looks like something i wouldve drawn when i was 12 when i havent drawn since i was 12

#i hate it so much but also what did i expect??????#yeah i dont think imma be getting back into actual art ever again lmao #like doing the occasional manga colouring is whatever (not that i post any of those really)#but part of me feels so let down cuz this was the only thing i was good at for so long and people expected me to keep doing it #so ig i just feel like a disappointment #thats not new to me but it feels so much worse now #oh well ig #i have no drive or motivation to improve and trying to draw gets me so frustrated cuz i havent drawn in like 7 years lmao #i dont think im ever gonna bother with this again #feels weird to say that and its kinda like im letting go of the last thing i used to genuinely enjoy #but i genuinely have no reason to try getting back into it #side note #i think im depressed and spiralling again and idk if im gonna try to stop that either at this point #the past month has been shit and idk how much longer i can take it lol #vent post #yoshi talk

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grimmthorne · 7 months ago

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like this is so wildly stupidly unfair I guess that the more I talk about stuff with my therapist the more that everything happening gets to me now. i couldn't even be in the front of the house when my stepdad was about to walk in. I saw him and had to hide in my bedroom and im still hiding because im just sick of being so anxious and having to constantly be aware of where every item in my room is because it is always at risk of being taken or moved or stolen and then i get fussed at after. it's becoming paranoia. it's making my life miserable. it's making it impossible to leave the house without thinking all day about how I might have left a box or a book out or something. nothing is safe or private when your stepdad has a habit of snooping in your room and you don't have the ability to move out yet. and my mom is so fucking useless about it all and refuses to stand up to him ever. it's so stupid. I deserve better than this and I always have but I have just convinced myself that this is how it is and that's just ehat I have to put up with if I don't want to be basically homeless and have no money for school.

#im fucking sick of it. im so tired. nothing changes.#i want out of this fucking house. i want to leave in the dead of the night and never have to come back.#rent a uhaul pack my shit and leave.#im gonna try downsizing on stuff again in a few weeks when the semester ends. hopefully will be able to seperate me #meaningful things versus the things i can toss or store. and hopefully over the next couple of years if i do that enough #l will have an amount of things that can beoved into a camper with bf #and i wont have to live every single day paranoid about getting my room snooped through. and i will be able to wake up to comfort #i want to wake up and not be afraid. i want to go to bed comfortable and happy. i want to spend my days being fulfilled.#i want a life. i want to live. but i dont want to live in this anymore and sometimes that feels like wanting to not wake up anymore.#sui mention #in tags but. yeah.#delete later. i dont want to look at this shit on my blog sorry if it stays up too long.#vent

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