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So due to having a new focus on hazbin because of Harlem sunset, and because of the disaster of the newest US election, I wish to ask for literally any fic recommendations with fluff in them or happy endings, please? I will take literally anything.
I feel that so much (àČ„ïčàČ„) fuck anyone that voted for Trump đas if things weren't bad enough, now we have to deal with that fucker in office again.
I was scrolling through my bookmarks and it wasn't until I went searching for happy, fluffy fics that I realized how many dark, explicit fics I've saved.
Unfortunately I don't have a ton of purely fluff fics, but here's what I got:
Deer's Reprieve by rhamphorhynch
It's only 600+ words long, but its about Alastor and Niffty's silly relationship. It's super cute and definitely one of my favorite iterations of them so far.
An Angel's Head Goes a Long Way by Vylad
Vox takes the angel head to the Overlord meeting and accidentally starts courting Alastor.
Speculations on Unexpected and Unwelcome Video Evidence by flaggermouse
Vox spying on Radioapple and being a mess, featuring Valentino and Velvette as his live-audience. Silly and funny. (The whole series is great).
Bonding by Proxy by StriplestheBoar
Lucifer has to do royal duty stuff in the other rings. Alastor sends his shadow with him and Lucifer leaves his snake (the one from his hat) with Alastor. Very cute. Very fluffy.
You've Got a Face for Radio by ckret2
An amazing character study of Alastor and his asexuality. Seriously, one of my favorite fics. If anyone wants a super in-depth view of asexuality (or, at least a version of it, as it is a spectrum), then I highly recommend this fic. It was written before the show, so its based on the pilot's iterations of the characters, but their Alastor voice in general is so fucking good. 10/10.
The Radio Demon wears Prada by Godlizza
Alastor becomes Velvette's muse and they bond through fashion. The Alastor & Velvette besties fic I never knew I needed.
And that's all of the non-explicit fluff I have. I might have a few explicit ones that are fluffy, let me know if you want those too. I really am surprised with how many dark fics I've bookmarked >.< guess ya girl has a taste for doves.
#hope this help!#and hang in there!#things suck right now#but we just gotta keep going day by day#high school musical voice: đ¶we're all in this togetherđ¶#fic recs#fanfiction recommendations#asks#crazyredfox#hazbin hotel
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Marc Revelado Documentary clip and English transcript
#motogp#rosquez#marc marquez#valentino rossi#vr46#mm93#my amazing friend translated it for me!!!!#she said marc was stuttering so bad esp at the beginning so after a few sentences she gave up trying to add that to the transcript..#just know he was so nervous#i wonder why!!!!#keeps screaming at this for the rest of the day i owe her my life my everything#LIKE.. THE INTERVIEWER ASKING IF THEY'D HAVE DINNER#TALK AGAIN#OR LAUGH OH MY GOD AUGHHHHHH PLEASEEEE WE ALL WANT U GUYS SO BAD PLEASE#PLEASE KISS AND MAKE UP#this is so fuckin sad just marc being nervous and somber saying he was lucky and then not so lucky... and it's not up to him#his sad smile#i gotta go cry
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logan on that plane when the divorcees started arguing had to have been AT LEAST one of his top 20 worst moments in life if not at least one of the most awkward like imagine not liking flying in the first place and then the plane starts being crumpled like tin foil once the metallokinetic gets frustrated and now we're all nosediving towards the middle of the ocean
#xmen#xmen dofp#xmen days of future past#erik lehnsherr#magneto#wolverine#logan howlett#snap chats#logan gotta act cool bout it all 'so youve always been an asshole' boy i know youre like three seconds away from a heart attack#man said he was the wrong guy for this but frankly if he could sit through all of that and keep going i think he's fine enough really#i wouldve checked out after that but im just not built for that kinda stress !!!#like in THREE MOVIES IM P SURE we've seen this mate be a lil nauseous at the idea of flyin for one reason or another#bro just does not have good luck with planes PLEAASSE#also side note. the stray hank caught during erik's rant i cANT LEAVE HIM ALONE#LIKE FAIR ENOUGH BUT STIIIILLLL LET HIM FLY THE PLANE VLKEJLKAJ#thank you hank for grounding erik so we all didnt have to fish the plane out of the sea
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THEY could give me the surgurey i need (inspired alot by evojellys designs for em. GREAT STUFF)
#THE SUCKENING IS S O COOOOL GUYS VIV N VEX ARE SO FUCKING COOL AND FUNNY... CHARLIES FLAVOR OF DERANGED IS JUST#SO PERFECT FOR THIS CAMPAIGN.. I LOVE HOW HE DOES HORROR AND EVIL AND SCARY AND AAUAUUUGHGHGUUHGHG#their teeht arnt spiked like normal vampires but theyre sharp n smooth like a Beak. in my beautiful heart#ALSO UGHGHGH BIG SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 7 BUT#THAT THING WITH THE MAP. WITH THE DEMONS N VAMPS. THEYRE KEEPING TRACK OF THEM.#'so viv. was that one of mine or one of yours?' IS THIS A PET PROJECT OF THEIRS OR SOMETHING. ARE THEY PULLING MORE STRINGS THAN WE THINK#IS ONE TUGGING AT THE DEMONS AND THE OTHER TUGGING AT THE FANGS? PITTING THEM AGAINST EACHOTHER SO THEY KILL EACHOTHER?#AND THEN ITS EASIER TO TAKE THE BODIES FOR THEIR FUNNY CREATIONS?? IT PROLLY WASNT EASY TO GET SUPPLIES B4 EDWARD CAME INTO POWER#BUT OH MY GOD.. POOR EMIZEL.. THE MEMORY OF HIS CREW WAS TAKEN AND THEN HE WATCHES A BUNCHA THEM GET HORRIBLY DISMATNLED N DISTORTED#HE KNOWS HE CARED FOR THEM AT SOMEPOINT N HE KNOWS THE MEMORIES WERE TAKEN BUT HE JUST. CANT. AUAUUGGUAHGUAHGUAHGUHG#THAT SUCKS SO BAD FOR HIMMM EMIZEEEELL EMIZEL CMERE BABY BOY ILL SMOKE U OUT BOY. GET AWAY FROM THOSE EVIL GUYS I AM BETTER N CAN BE TRUSTE#viv n vex are so cool...theyre fuckin CRAAZYY N SCARYYY BUT ALSO. SO FUNNY... I LOVE A PUNNY JACKASS... 'LOOKS LIKE YOUVE BEEN: DISARMED!'#'IVE MADE THAT JOKE 6 TIMES AND ITS STILL FUNNY EVERYTIME' i gotta draw more of their bullshit...#im already doodling up the 'YOU CAN CALL ME MOMMY!!' bit. i gotta draw more o the monstors n the horrors too... especially emizels sire UGH#I LOVE VILLIAINS THAT ARE SO GENUINELY SCARY BUT SO FUNNY... charlie just does evil ppl like no one else idk what it ISSSS#okayokayoka y im normal im. relistening to the ep n im at the edward part. oh my god. i actually love him. he actually makes my skin crawl#IM DONEthats my rambles for tha day. back into my hole i go. also i have comms open. cmere pspspss i need moneyyy heyyyy cmereeeee#check out my main artblog. GO!!!
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Okay so⊠today is a little bit of a long one, so weâll see if weâre back at Tumblr breaking length or juuuust on the right side
But! Finally, much anticipated, we have the man himself: John Constantine! Here to share secrets and save the day! (Not)
And! This chapter got us right up to the edge, next chapter is gonna push me over to one MILLION words on AO3 yâall!! Iâve been flirting with it the past couple years but finally weâre here!
So. Might push the next one out faster. Might slow the next one down, since weâre in heavy waters again. And, since we are in the heavy waters, Imma tag on some warnings:
1) we gonna be speculating a little more on Jasonâs death in this one, from a couple of viewpoints. Weâre also discussing Cassâs in particular, and its repercussions.
No gore or details, just some death themes, mostly from Jasonâs perspective after he and Danny leave the manor (Jasonâs second POV segment)
2) Bruce is gonna make some very bad decisions about stimulants and concussions, mostly off screen but it is mentioned at the end of our first Bruce POV segment
And now the links!
First and link to AO3:
Previous:
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Never Make A Promise You Canât Keep
Constantine hadnât been looking forward to discussing Amity Park with the Justice League. Not the first time heâd been sent, and not for a single second after.
But hours turned into days, days to weeks, weeks to years. Heâd almost thought heâd gotten away with it and that they wouldnât ask.
Which was probably what had gotten the big Batâs fuckinâ attention, wasnât it. Couldnât possibly let the universe have something nice for Johnny Constantine.
Luckily it was damn hard to lose something in the House of Mystery unless the House wanted it lost. Today she was feeling merciful and gave him the book on the second try.
Itâd have been nice if he needed to refresh his memory of the case. If the knowledge of Amity Park hadnât been sitting like a weight on his awareness since before heâd been.
Honestly he could probably point to it from anywhere on Earth. Most magic users could, if they had the faintest alignment with death.
Amity Park was goddamn wrong, even if it looked like things had turned out alright for now. Still, there were types of wrong you didnât poke at.
Going prodding around would only make things worse.
And now he had to go explain that to Captain Prod himself, and try and persuade the fuckinâ Batman that no news was good news.
At least the Superboys had listened when he told them to clear off until he could visit in person. Theyâd pinky sworn they were back in Metropolis, and heâd heard enough traffic to believe them.
They could just as easily fly straight back to Alaska, but they werenât stupid. They knew how to listen.
(Possibly from trauma related to the times Young Justice hadnât listened to him, but heâd take what he could get.)
Now he just had to persuade the Bat that he knew what he was talking about.
Constantine hated debriefings with Batman. The guy had no grasp of magic, which was perfectly fair for most folks.
He preferred that. It kept them out of his kind of trouble, meant he didnât have to worry about them until it got bad enough theyâd accept whatever snapped sentence he managed.
Batman though. Batman treated magicians like it was their fault that the world didnât work the way he personally preferred. Like they had any say in the how and why of magic.
Asshole.
And now he wanted to scold John like a naughty child about something he had no way to understand. Well, fuck that.
For better or worse, the Justice League made Amity Park his problem. Years late or not, this was his show, and he wasnât going to take shit from anyone.
Thumbing quickly through the book, he kinda hated how easily it fell open to the relevant page. Like heâd already spent way too long looking.
Even he didnât fuck with the Infinite Realms. Not if he could help it.
Stuffing in his notes from the city itself he closed the book, left the House, and hurried to one of the closer zeta tubes. Didnât matter which city he was spat out in, he could find one.
His number didnât coax even a flicker of the usual dry amusement as he stepped out into the bat cave, scowling up at the massive screen.
League records. Great. He strode across the floor, hoping they could sort this crap out fast.
âWhat the fuckâs got you lookinâ into Amity Park?â He asked as the Bat turned to face him, book tucked under his arm.
None of his usual prevaricating or fucking around. No chance for the fucker to try his usual âcontrol the conversationâ shit.
If it had any effect whatsoever, it didnât show. Damn white outs. Batman just stared at him for a moment, then turned back to the computer, pulling up another page.
Constantine didnât look. He didnât want to know.
âWhy did you mark Amity Park as a prank?â The big Bat asked in his stupid, gravelly tones.
Constantine rolled his eyes.
âI didnât mark it as a fuckinâ prank, I marked it as a no fly zone for your little lot, so again: what the fuck came out of Amity Park?â
Batman stilled for a moment, doing that annoying âhuman computerâ bit again. John preferred each and every one of the actual cyborgs, even the ones that tried to kill him.
Then he turned back, swivelling the chair around to fully face John like a movie super villain. Asshole.
âOver two thousand legitimate cries for help came out of Amity Park, and were ignored. If they were marked for the Justice League Dark, you should have responded, not deleted them.â
And that sounded way too much like an accusation. And completely fuckinâ irrelevant.
Something deeply unpleasant was tugging at the edge of Constantineâs awareness, just below the irritation he scraped over the sense of impending doom heâd been ignoring for the last hour.
He pushed it down, scowling at Bruce as he crossed the last of the distance and slammed the book down on the table next to the keyboard, gesturing up at the screens.
Still not bothering to look. He didnât want to fuckinâ know.
âYears ago, Batty. This could be time fuckinâ sensitive, so quit pissing me about anâ tell me what. Exactly. Got you looking into Amity Park.â
There was a moment of hesitance, and he just fucking hated that. Nothing that made Batman hesitate could possibly be⊠good.
The feeling at the back of his mind suddenly clicked. His eyes widened and he groaned, wishing he had something stronger than a cigarette. Maybe a bullet.
âGreat. Just fuckinâ great. Theyâre here.â
Groping around behind him, he grabbed another swivel chair and folded down into it, elbows bracing on the desk and burying his face in his hands.
Well, this was the nightmare situation.
From the fucking death taint seeping into his fuckinâ skin, something extremely fuckinâ big had oozed its way out of the Realms, and settled itself in Gotham.
Batmanâs attention had snapped to, the man suddenly alert and watchful as Constantine slumped.
One hand dove into a pocket for the carton of cigarettes, Bat Cave rules be damned. Not much fuckinâ point, but he wasnât doing this sober, and his flask was too small.
For once the Bat didnât comment as he flicked the lighter open, lit up, and took a long drag. Just focused that laser stare on Constantineâs face.
At least heâd grasped the gravity of the matter.
âWhat is here?â The Bat finally asked when it became clear Constantine wasnât elaborating, sounding annoyed.
Constantine took another drag of his smoke. Some days nicotine just wasnât enough.
âStart from the beginning, Bats. Tell me everything that led up to you lookinâ into Amity Park, and everything you found since,â he demanded, hoping there was still a point to asking.
âIf this is time sensitive, Constantine, you need to tell me what is happening,â Batman growled, tensed like he wanted to leap out of his chair and loom like one of his fuckinâ gargoyles.
The bat sounded cranky. Fuck him.
Constantine fixed him with a level stare.
âThen youâd better get fuckinâ talking, hadnât you? I need to know how fuckinâ bad it is before I know first steps.â
Batman hesitated a moment longer, then turned back to his computer.
âI can summon the League-â
âNo time,â Constantine cut him off acerbically, shaking his head, âand might make shit worse. Just fuckinâ⊠report. Gimme yer damn report.â
For all that the Bat loved paperwork, loved to bury them all in bureaucracy, he dithered another moment before nodding, pulling upâŠ
Well lookie there, he already had a literal report typed up. Great.
Taking another long drag of his cigarette Constantine leaned back in the chair and scanned the document.
Hopefully this wouldnât take long. Or the extra details he could already tell heâd need, that had prompted the dull and clinical report.
**
Jason had tensed as Danny did. First because of the sudden alertness he could feel in Dannyâs aura, even reduced back down to conversational levels.
(And that had been fun. The more times he felt Dannyâs aura wrapped around him, the longer he spent with his chest tight and Dannyâs presence right down to his lungsâŠ
He felt cold when it went away. Almost lonely, surrounded by people. Fucking ancients help him, he was getting used to it.)
Was that what itâd feel like if he felt that Danny was in danger? A rush of adrenaline?
It was a little weird being so in tune with someone, but not in a bad way. Danny didnât seem upset, just suddenly on guard in a way that the whole table noticed.
On guard, and⊠amused. And then he spoke and Jason tensed again.
âSo thatâs John Constantine⊠huh.â
Danny could sense John Constantine. That was⊠Really not the strangest thing, but it didnât mean Jason had to like it.
If Danny could sense Constantine, could Constantine sense Danny? Jason wasnât sure if he should ask in public.
Tim had way less reservations.
âWait, what do you mean? What just happened?â He asked, breaking away from Tucker for a moment. But at least Tucker also looked confused.
Danny shook his head, chuckling softly and finishing up his food.
âOh, sorry. Itâs Sad Trenchcoat Guy,â he added for Sam and Tuckerïżœïżœs benefit, both of whom relaxed like that actually meant something.
Sam was back in her original clothes now, although Jason hadnât given her the thermos back yet. Once her parents arrived, maybe.
Jason stifled a snicker, along with most of the Gothamites. It was a pretty accurate description of Constantine.
âStill in the dark over here,â Duke put in, a slight frown on his face.
Danny shrugged again and grinned at him.
âItâs kinda a ghost thing. I can sense other ghosts, or certain kinds of magic users. Constantine came to Amity Park not that long after I died,â he explained casually.
Tim and Dick shared meaningful looks behind Tuckerâs head, and Jason stifled another chuckle. They thought they were so discrete.
Dick leaned in again, arms folded on the table as he gave Danny his best innocent interest.
âOh? Thatâs kinda weird, do you know why?â He asked casually. Not questioning where Danny thought John was now.
He wanted to try and lead them away from the topic, probably. Too bad for him, if heâd asked he might have gotten some idea of how far Dannyâs power stretched.
Heâd explained to Jason about his aura covering most of the city, although he hadnât claimed it as his haunt. But if Dickie didnât want to know, Jason wouldnât tell.
Sam fielded the question, rolling her eyes and folding her arms.
âWe thought he might have come to help, since that was around when the ghost attacks started. He didnât though,â she added bitterly, and Danny kicked her under the table.
âWe donât actually know why he came,â he explained, giving Dick a half smile, âhe never talked to us. He did talk to some of the other ghosts though.â
âWait, you can just do that?â Steph asked, her brows furrowed. Whether she was playing civilian or actually wasnât sure, Jason wouldnât put a bet on.
The amount most of the bat clan knew about magic and ghosts used to be that Jason was a zombie.
Which, as it turned out, was wrong.
Danny gave her a blank look, then shrugged again.
âI mean, yeah? You literally can just go ask half the time, but he was doing some fancy stuff. Binding circles and demanding truth, that kinda shit,â he added, making a face.
âHe wasnât popular among the living either,â Tucker agreed with a snicker. âLotta weird questions for people, and no answers. We figured he was one of those occult nuts.â
âThatâd explain the binding circles and truth thing,â Duke agreed with a solemn nod, folding his own arms. Honestly, watching them all play civilian was kinda adorable.
Tucker hesitated a moment, then shrugged and nodded, conceding the point.
âI mean, youâve got me there. But he never tried to get anywhere near the fights, and then one day he just vanished. We got a ton more weird tourists for a while, but he was the weirdest,â he finished with relish.
Sam snorted again, clearly still annoyed about the whole mess. Maybe sheâd been the one who actually wanted help.
Danny hadnât mentioned how he felt about it yet, and Jason hadnât asked, but theyâd all been abandoned. Fucking Jason wasnât happy about it.
âHe was the only one who actually knew what he was doing,â she huffed, scowling at the table. Then she sighed, shaking her head. âSo if heâs in Gotham, Iâm gonna call it a bad sign.â
Privately, Jason was tempted to agree with her. John Constantine was a danger magnet, and Jason was half tempted to go and have a word himself.
Word in the Bat Chat was that Constantine was why Danny had never gotten any backup before. Danny himself might not be looking to start a fight over it, but Jason had Opinions on teen heroes.
And the adults who should have been protecting them.
Not with Bruce around though. Heâd have to wait and see if Constantine stayed in town.
Itâd give him time to ask Danny about the suddenly constant undercurrent of suppressed laughter he could feel.
**
In the bat cave, Constantine squinted at the picture Batman had pulled up from the gala. Not exactly the best picture on earth, but it was clear enough to tell. Shaking his head, he let out a sigh of relief.
âAlright, could be worse,â he decided, tossing aside his second cigarette butt. The report had been complete, heâd give old Bats that, and heâd even been allowed to smoke through it.
But a black gloved hand covered his when he reached for the pack again.
Fucker.
Constantine let it slide for now, raising both hands in surrender and then pointing at the screen.
âLooks like youâve got the halfa. Not bad news, as it goes. Heâs at least still half human, which is probably why your precious cityâs still intact.â
He didnât even want to think about what might have happened if another ghost tried to set up a haunt in Gotham. The old girlâs Curse would have something to say about it.
Batman didnât look noticeably reassured though.
âEnough stalling, Constantine. What is this all about? What happened in Amity Park?â He demanded roughly, and Constantine was grudgingly impressed.
Seemed like that olâ bat hyper focus was going to win out over even a threat to his own city. Or he hadnât been fully listening.
No bet.
Constantine sighed again, gesturing to the screen.
âYou got a ley line map somewhere on this thing?â He asked, mostly just to annoy the bat a little further. Not like he wasnât gonna give him the answers.
Batman hesitated for a moment, then set to typing. Probably⊠yup, going into the JL Dark files. Zatanna kept a helpful reference folder for the mundanes.
Constantine didnât think they needed any more help than they asked for, but sheâd been right this time and he owed her a beer for it. A second later the map was on screen.
Constantine nodded again, pointing to the general area of Illinois.
âPull up Amity Park on that map,â he instructed, wheeling his chair back out of reach to pull out a third cigarette.
Both got him an annoyed frown from old Batsy.
âWhat is this supposed to mean?â He asked in the old gravelly growl, the map already obediently zooming in.
Constantine lit his smoke and waved at the screen again.
âYâknow what ley lines are?â He asked back, watching the map scroll around.
Not one with a search function then. Batsyâd have to find it by hand. Sucks to be him.
It kept him from focusing much attention on John anyway, so that was a win.
âI know the places they meet are magical nexus points,â Batman admitted reluctantly, like he didnât hoard information about everything on earth.
Constantine nodded, not willing to entertain his issues.
âAmity Parkâs on a dozen of them,â he said bluntly, and watched the guy stiffen.
Zoom out a bit, find the flowering spot where damn near every ley line through that part of the world crossed. Zoomed back in to find Amity Park.
The bat scowled at the screen for a while, then at John, whoâd put his feet up on the desk. Tough titties, they werenât coming down.
âBut what does that mean, Constantine,â he growled, and John sighed.
Cupped his hands in front of him, paused, and shook his head.
âAlright, Iâm crap at metaphors so bear with me. You know about multiple dimensions?â He asked and the bat nodded impatiently.
Like he shouldnât have asked. Like this fucker hadnât just asked for the fuckinâ kindergartener explanation.
Whatever.
âYes. Thereâs a different dimension on the other side of the ley lines?â He asked, and Constantine did his very best not to roll his eyes.
Well. Maybe not his very best.
But he didnât do it as hard as he could have.
âNo. Thereâs way too many other dimensions. But what the ley lines do is weaken a place in this dimension, especially where they cross. Amity Park is a fuckinâ sieve,â he said with finality, waiting for the Bat to catch up.
And sure enough, those frown lines etched themselves deep again. This guy was gonna make John Fuckinâ Constantine look like a fresh faced baby.
âSo other dimensions can cross through?â He asked again, and John sighed.
Reductive fucker.
âNo. Yes. Sort of. Because some stupid motherfucker in Amity Park didnât just use the natural portals or holes; they punched a fuckinâ permanent portal to the Infinite Realms.â
Honestly using the natural portals would have been bad enough in his opinion. Reality was basically swiss cheese in Amity, and getting anythingâs attention would be beyond dangerous.
He hadnât even liked visiting.
Batman looked more stoic, which John assumed meant he wasnât keeping up. Scrubbing his free hand through his hair, he blew out a stream of smoke and frowned.
âSo you get natural portals between our dimension other dimensions. Itâs how all that âevil other selfâ crap keeps happening. With me?â He asked dryly.
The bat nodded without speaking, which was as close to an admission of confusion as Constantine figured heâd get.
Whatever.
âYou get more portals on ley lines, and more again where two cross. About a dozen cross in Amity Park, so they get lots of natural portals. Yes?â
The bat nodded again, face pinching up like he resented Johnâs tone. Double tough, heâd had every chance to read Zatannaâs primers.
If John was doing Ley Lines For Dummies the dummies could keep their attitudes to themselves.
âNatural portals, they open and close on their own. Rest of the world, they donât usually stay open for long. They need power to stop the world from⊠mending the hole.â
Which was the worst fucking explanation of all time and not remotely what happened, but who fucking cared. Batty wanted to weigh in again.
âSo natural portals also stay open longer around Amity Park,â he growled, trying to get to the next step of the explanation.
Which, actually, John hadnât really thought about. Pursing his lips, he let his gaze drift to the smoke swirling around the ceiling.
There were actual fucking bats up there.
Of course there were.
Dramatic bastard.
Forcing his attention back to the bastard in question, he waved a hand to dispel the last stream of smoke.
âDoesnât matter what natural portals do. Some asshole went to the spot in reality most likely to break on its own, and decided to punch a hole. A permanent hole, into the Infinite Realms.â
Batman took a deep, even breath in, like he was trying to hold onto his temper. Yeah, well, heâd walked face first into Amity Fuckinâ Park, now he had to join John in Hell.
âWhat are the Infinite Realms?â He asked, sounding as patient as ever. Brownie points for trying, John wasnât going to.
âItâs where the unclaimed dead go. Souls not ready to move on, souls that were never born, and, much worse, it occasionally pops out personifications of forces or belief,â he ground out the last words, teeth gritting in spite of himself.
The bat stilled for a long moment, drawing in another slow, steady breath. Probably counting to ten.
âWhat.â It wasnât even a question really, a flat statement of dissatisfaction.
It meant not talking about Amity Park for a bit longer though, so Constantine leaned in.
âGod shit. Concepts like Time, Hope, Growth. Anything that someone, somewhere, truly believes in. Well, not just anyone,â he corrected, and Did Not enjoy the way Batmanâs jaw clenched.
Not even a bit.
âIt takes a lot of juice, makinâ a whole entity. But the Infinite Realms are the core of all the dimensions, the intersection they all go through, and thatâs where the belief settles. The more people who believe, the more clearly they believe it, and eventually you get enough to form a personality.â
He gave the bat a little time to digest that one. To really let it sink in what a fuckinâ problem the Infinite Realms could be.
And then a thought occurred to him.
âYour cityâs got one, yâknow?â He mentioned almost as an afterthought, and Batty Did Not like that.
His head snapped up, white outs narrowing to slits as he glared.
âWhat?!â He demanded sharply and Constantine waved a hand.
âGotham. Dunno if itâs all the shit you lot go through, or the stubborn arseholes that live âere, but Gotham has a city spirit.â
No need to mention the curse yet. Batsy was already having a day.
Thatâd be for the next time he ticked Constantine off.
This time, just that revelation seemed to have been enough to stun the bat. Constantine left him to sit in this one until he was ready though.
Processing.
He wasnât completely heartless.
He was a little grudgingly impressed by how quickly Batman put it aside and refocused on the matter in hand.
âAnd thatâs why the Infinite Realms are dangerous? These powerful personifications?â He asked cautiously, like he expected John to say no again.
Smart man.
Constantine gave him a dry smile.
âIf fuckinâ only. Thereâs spirits in there, Ancients, and every one of âem could give Darkseid a run for his money. But even the ghosts of the Realms are a fuckinâ dangerous lot. You know Deadman?â
The bat nodded to indicate that he did, brows furrowing.
âHe canât be seen or heard without magical assistance,â he agreed, that same caution present.
At least he was a quick learner. Constantine nodded in satisfaction.
âHeâs a ghost made by magic. Ghosts from the Realms donât have anything like the same limitations. They canât be seen or touched unless they want to, and they can damn well affect the world around âem.â
John shuddered, remembering some of the attacks heâd seen. Nothing stronger than a baseline demon, but the damage you could do when no one else could touch you, or stop youâŠ
And he shook his head, locking the damage back down.
âAnd worse, theyâre fuckinâ unpredictable. Demons, theyâre easy. They all want the same shit. Realms ghosts? If one of âem decides fuckinâ cheese is their obsession, thatâs it. Theyâll drown a city in cheddar.â
The bat was staring at him again, back on that stoic âI have no idea whatâs happening so Iâll look big and scary til it all makes sense againâ bullshit.
Constantine sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.
âLook. I ainât even told ya the worst of it yet. How about we jusâ take it as read that the Infinite Realms are bad fuckinâ news, okay?â He asked as patiently as he could.
There was that little twitch, that little scrunch again. Not a happy Batty.
And he wasnât gonna get happier while he made John teach him Magic For Dummies either.
But he nodded, folding his arms reluctantly.
âThen why did you leave the people of Amity Park to face them alone?â He asked bluntly, and⊠well, that was the question, wasnât it?
Constantine stared blankly at him.
âYou want Superman gettinâ body hopped by a ghostie craving all the cheddar in the mid west?â He asked in turn, and there it was.
The little indrawn breath. The fuckinâ scale of the problem.
Fuckinâ FINALLY.
âLook, Amity Park has a hero. Had. The halfa.â He waved vaguely at the screen again, the picture of Bruceâs mystery kid now buried several windows deep.
Didnât matter.
âHeâs got all the powers the ghosts do, anâ canât be possessed. Last thing the poor little fuck needed was to face an overshadowed super.â
And yeah, the Bat still didnât look happy (more to the better, thatâd be a terrifying sight all on its own), but at least he had a reason for resting bitch face now.
Constantine sighed, waving a hand vaguely and tossing the latest butt down.
âLook, I canât stop ya from pokinâ around. Not for lack of trying, mind. The Realms are a dangerous place, anâ Amity Parkâs practically on the other side already. I dunno why the kid left, I donât care. You though, Bats? Youâre gonna do me a proper fuckinâ oath.â
He levelled his best serious stare, useless as usual against the damn white outs. Itâd kill the asswipe to look human.
Batman shifted again, clearly feeling the weight of the last word.
Good.
âAn oath?â He asked warily, and Constantine nodded, holding out his hand.
âOn yer name, on yer blood, on yer tie to this fuckinâ city. No matter what you do lookinâ at the Infinite fuckinâ Realms. You do not. Fuck. With the Ghost King.â
The bat stared down at his hand like there was something wrong with it. John assumed anyway. The pissy face could be for anything.
And then he asked the question, because of fuckinâ course he did.
âWhat is the Ghost King?â
John sighed heavily, leaving his hand where it was, waiting for the oath.
âThe prettiest fuckinâ princess of them all, what dâyou fuckinâ think. The Ghost King rules the Infinite Realms, and by all accounts the last one was a bloody tyrant. Good news is he probably never noticed Amity Park yet, cuz America isnât a smoking crater.â
Honestly, maybe heâd add a chapter to Zatannaâs document. Stamp it all across any reference anyone tried to make to Amity Fuckinâ Park so he never had to do this again.
He caught the Batâs gaze again, weighting his words with enough power that every sound in the cave died around them.
âIt took all the damn Ancients to seal Pariah Dark once. And someoneâs beaten him, and taken his throne. I donât fuckinâ know who, I donât ask, but if theyâre tough enough to beat Pariah, they are beyond what the League can do. Your only chance is to stay the fuck outta their way. Swear it.â
Batman stared at him for a long moment, and then down at the outstretched hand. Reached out and clasped it in his own.
âI swear. I will not knowingly upset the Ghost King.â
John gripped tighter, realized almost immediately that it was pointless against the reinforced gloves, and did it anyway.
âNone of that, Batty. No bullshit. You do not fuck with the Ghost King. You hear the faintest goddamn whisper of their name, you turn tail and fuckinâ run. We will not survive their attention.â
He stared the stupid white outs down, as long as it took, and didnât let go. Batman stared at him for a while, clearly absorbing the gravity of his words.
Constantine couldnât remember asking a member of the League to swear to anything before. Usually he was the buyer in deals, not the keeper.
Woulda been nice to remain so, but nothing stopped the fuckinâ bat from sticking his nose in, so here was John Constantine, last condom of the universe.
Last desperate scrap of protection against a fuckinâ dick.
Finally the bat nodded, grip tightening in return.
âI swear. I will not engage with the Ghost King.â
**
Harley had gotten back just before Sam had to leave, with perfect timing to see her to the door actually.
The look on Pamela Mansonâs face when Harley kissed Sam on each cheek and waved her off would keep Danny warm on cold nights.
A quick check of flight times back to Massachusetts (like Danny wasnât going to take shortcuts) confirmed that Tucker could have one more night in Gotham.
Tim immediately offered to put him up in Wayne Manor again, clearly not allowing the chance to slip by him two nights in a row. Tucker was only too happy to accept, although Steph and Cass begged off.
Probably for their hero patrols. Danny wasnât exactly sure how many vigilantes Gotham had, there seemed to be a new one every few months, but having eight of them at the gala last night probably meant all the rest had been out.
Obviously Red Robin wouldnât be out tonight either, but there were enough of them to cover for each other.
Danny was kinda jealous of that. It had been just him for so long, and then him and Valerie, which hadnât been better until she stopped hunting him too. Heâd have loved a night off.
Still, their numbers meant that Jason probably wouldnât need to go back to the night life unless he actually wanted to. He was definitely still built for it, but Danny couldnât imagine anyone wanted to ask him to.
Most of the bats had clearly had their own run ins with death, but Jasonâs had stuck in ways even Danny knew he didnât quite get.
Jason had been so tense at just the thought of Danny being a teen hero. It wasnât like thatâd get easier when it was his little siblings swinging from rooftops.
Dannyâs hero career might have started with his own death, but he personally was of the opinion that thatâd be a perfectly fine reason to end one too.
So Dick, Steph, and Cass headed out not too long after Sam, and Danny wasnât exactly surprised when Jasonâs background angst jumped.
Heâd stayed on edge since Danny and Bruce got back, even when Harley told them Bruce was off dealing with his own shit and probably wouldnât be out of his room all night.
Dannyâd bet fifty bucks that the arrival of Constantine actually meant Bruce was in the bat cave being suspicious, but he wasnât gonna say it.
Tim had shown them to a games room, for all that heâd apparently also moved out. He still knew where everything was, and soon had them hooked up for Mariokart on the biggest TV Danny ever saw.
Theyâd played a couple rounds (Harley was expectedly devastating with red shells) and while Danny and Tucker were having fun, he could feel Jason stressing.
Like, even if he stuck his fingers in his ears and ignored the aura. The guy was tensed so tight his shoulders strained at his shirt, which woulda been visually interesting if Danny didnât know why.
Cass was one near death experience from slipping back across the boundary for good.
Cass was off punching criminals with rocket launchers in body armour and spandex.
Duke was probably actually in bed, Signal did morning patrols, and Damian was obstinately refusing to play video games with them perched on the back of the couch, but still.
Dick and Steph had both given one life to the cause too, and for all Dick was a cop and in danger on his day job too, cops pretty famously showed up after the vigilantes ended the party.
More than half Jasonâs immediate family were back in the line of fire and Danny could practically taste Jasonâs Obsession eating away at him.
As much as he tried to pretend he was playing along and gave a shit about winning, the controller creaked in his hands more than a couple casual races should allow.
So, yeah, if he couldnât get Jason to crack a smile with this one, he was gonna gently bow them both the fuck outta the manor.
He kept half an eye on Tim, who had a glass of water.
âHey, you guys heard the theory about Batman?â He asked casually, just as another round of Mariokart started.
Jason kicked him in the ankle but otherwise ignored him, which was fair. Heâd been exposed to Dannyâs bullshit.
Tim stiffened and then forced himself to relax, Tucker rolled his eyes and jostled Danny from his other side, but it was Harley who answered.
Innocent as the day she was born.
âOh? What? Is it that heâs a lizardman? Cuz I got right up on that cowl and heâs definitely a mammal,â she said casually, not even looking away from the screen.
Danny was pretty sure he heard Damian almost slip off his perch.
He was a little bit in love with Harley Quinn. He should get her number for Jazz, maybe his big sister would learn to have a little fun.
Grinning broad and only half fake, he drifted a turn to pick up a double item from under Tuckerâs nose.
âShit, yeah, you might actually know! Itâs his secret identity!â He exclaimed cheerfully, and felt the tension in the room ratchet up.
From Tim and Damian. Jason⊠still wasnât paying attention.
Not like he was deeply immersed in the game, for all he kept up he was nowhere near the speed demon that handed Danny his ass the night before.
Hmm. Better get his attention.
Tim and Damian had already settled again, probably remembering he was already In The Know even if Tucker wasnât, and Harley had given him a very knowing look right before she fire flowered him.
Almost ready.
He waited until Tim had taken a hasty sip of water on a calm stretch, nudged Jason in the shins, and made sure he was louder than the music.
âSo dâyou think itâs possible that Markiplierâs Batman?â
Tim sprayed water across the couch, Harley fucking cackled, and Jason snapped his head around to stare at Danny so hard he cricked his neck.
Danny red shelled him for good measure, just so he wasnât missing anything on screen.
Tucker rolled his eyes, also deeply used to Dannyâs bullshit and much more interested in gaming revenge.
âFuck off Danny, Markiplier isnât even a Gothamite,â he said disdainfully and Danny shook his head, grinning.
âThatâs why itâs the perfect cover. I mean, Batman wants to keep his secret identity a secret, right? So having an identity that very publicly âisnât in Gothamâ makes perfect sense!â He argued cheerfully.
Jason half snorted a laugh beside him, picking back up and speeding his way back into the race. Across the couch Tim wiped his face, still catching his breath.
âI fucking hate that that made sense,â he moaned, and Harley cackled again.
âNah, heâs got a point! How does anyone know where a youtuber lives? We only see one room!â She agreed cheerfully, clearly leaning in.
It was so nice to have a true showwoman in the crowd.
Damian looked angry in the confused way now, and Danny would hazard a guess he didnât watch youtube at all, let alone a lets player. That might have made it funnier, had there been no other concerns.
Beside him Jason huffed out another dry chuckle, shaking his head with the barest hint of a smile.
âI canât believe Batman has an OnlyFans,â he said in a solemn, almost sorrowful voice⊠and dropped a blue shell.
Tim groaned like his soul had gone with it, clinging desperately to his first place lead. Harley cackled and added her own green shells to the mix, dropping all three as they came to the home stretch.
âDonât forget the calendar of tasteful nudes! All for charity, just what Batsy would like,â she crowed with evident glee, and Tucker snorted a laugh.
âItâd explain all the surgeries,â he agreed reluctantly, and Danny had a sudden, utterly wicked idea.
âHey⊠now that Batmanâs on OnlyFans, dâyou think heâll convince the whole Justice League to do a pinup calendar, or just the other bats?â He asked innocently, watching said bats from the corner of his eye.
Well, Robins technically, but since only Tim was of age birds didnât seem appropriate.
Tim himself threw his controller to the ground, abandoning the game and throwing himself over the back of the couch and almost hitting Damian on the way.
Damian definitely hissed at him like a startled cat.
No way Danny imagined that this close to the finish.
Tucker hesitated for a long moment, clearly considering his odds of winning, but when Harley blasted past Timâs spun out corpse and across the finish line he abandoned his controller too to check on Tim.
Harley was surprisingly good at the game when flopped sideways on her chosen couch, laughing too hard to breathe. Danny breezed into an easy third behind her and Jason, giving the other man an assessing look.
A little wary of reaching out with his aura, especially when Jason was on edge. He didnât want to make him uncomfortable.
Didnât want to be too invasive, if he was honest. Danny had⊠kinda always been the one who was new to aura stuff before. And heâd gotten used to it, in the Ghost Zone.
Heâd never spent this much time with another halfa before. Especially not without a single trace of punching or stabbing.
Except in Mariokart, where the Geneva Convention held no sway.
Jason had clearly noticed him looking though, and read the concern even without Danny pushing. He gave Dannyâs shoulder a gentle bump, a nudge of fine-stop worrying alongside.
Danny nudged back, his own disbelief tinged with understanding-empathy-worried too.
But, that was kinda the other thing⊠the thing he didnât really want to bring up around the other bats just yet.
And while Jason had smiled, Danny didnât think heâd mind them dipping out.
Faking a yawn, he stretched, cracked his back, and looked over to where Tim had rejoined the couch.
âHonestly, Iâm beat. I gotta try and get back into a better sleep schedule before classes start,â he said, pulling a face at the self-reminder.
Their break was coming to its end, and then heâd be back into university. His class schedule was flexible, more afternoons than early mornings, but heâd⊠miss this.
Free time to just spend the whole day hanging out with friends and catching up. Meeting Jasonâs family, Jason meeting his.
Danny didnât actually know what Jason did, whether he was working or going back to school, but it was gonna come up soon.
They had a trip to Frostbite to plan, some ecto shots from Dannyâs fridge, and at some point he still had to introduce Jason to Frighty⊠and probably ask the guy if he wanted to be called that still.
Itâd be a little weird to start calling him Halloween or whatever, but frankly him obeying Dannyâs orders and calling him âmy liegeâ was way fucking weirder so itâd be fine.
And about four more days before half of Dannyâs time would be eaten by lectures, study halls, and projects. Fuck, maybe Jason would give him a hand with those too.
So long as he wasnât sick of Danny by then.
Another quick glance showed that Jasonâs face had reset into that tense almost-scowl again, staring past the TV.
At the other end of the couch, Tim gave a disgruntled huff.
âIâm gonna make you pay for that next time,â he grumbled, shifting to Tucker with an adorable moment of sudden concern. âDo you need me to show you to a room too, orâŠâ
Tucker shook his head with a snicker, giving Danny a side eye.
âNah, unlike that weakling I got used to the vigilante sleep schedule back in high school. Iâm good for a couple more hours at least,â he bragged.
Danny flipped him off, hauling himself to his feet and giving Jason a nudge.
âYeah, well, this weakling fought a croc last night and needs his sleep. Mind giving me a ride back?â He asked when Jason looked up at him.
Gently offered a touch of easy out-reassurance-trust me.
The deep furrows in Jasonâs brows twitched until he caught on and his expression cleared. He nodded quickly and pulled himself to his feet.
âYeah, we can take my bike.â Then he hesitated and looked a little uncertain. âYou never told me where you live.â
It took Danny a moment to realise that⊠no, he really hadnât, because that just plain didnât feel right. But no, heâd met Jason again in that coffee shop, then come to the gala with Sam.
Hadnât gone home last night, just stopped at one of Jasonâs apparently multiple places; at least he was doing better than Danny had thought from the first apartment.
He found himself chuckling at the thought, shaking his head.
âOh yeah, weâve only been to your place⊠Iâm at the south dorm at Gotham U, I can give you directions as we get closer,â he offered and Jason nodded.
He felt⊠weird? Like he was surprised Danny had told him where he lived, and ashamed of being surprised.
Danny decided not to dig into it, offering Jason his arm and bowing like all those Shakespeare plays he knew Jason loved.
âShall we?â
Jasonâs moment of surprise was quickly swallowed by delight and he bowed back, then tucked his hand into Dannyâs elbow. Almost definitely knew etiquette better than Danny did, so Danny wasnât gonna doubt him.
âWe shall. Iâll drop you off and head home,â he agreed, then paused and glanced back at Harley.
Whose giggling had completely ended and was now watching them like her favourite sitcom. Chin in hands and all.
âDid you wanna meet up here tomorrow, orâŠâ Jason trailed off, obviously also a little put off by her intensity.
She perked up when addressed, giving him a cheery grin and a double thumbs up.
âHere or thâ station, I donât mind! Hey, did ya wanna come too, Danny boy?â She asked sweetly, head cocked to the side and just waaaay too innocent.
Not that Danny could work out what she was up to.
âUh⊠to do what?â He asked carefully, head cocking to match hers before he noticed and straightened up.
Her grin widened, so she noticed.
âOh, Jason anâ I are gonna go check on my buddy Waylon, see if we canât work out what he was doinâ at the gala. If youse threw down he might like ta see ya there?â
Which honestly left Danny at a loss, until Tim explained.
âKiller Croc. His actual nameâs Waylon Jones, and he was Harleyâs tenant in Coney Island before coming back to Gotham,â he said casually, and Danny stilled.
There was an intensity in the room that hadnât been there before, a sudden wave that sent a chill down his spine. Something from Harley, suddenly predator sharp in a way he hadnât felt since Skulker had been a serious threat.
For the life of him though, he couldnât put his finger on what though, since she didnât move. Just grinned like she had been all along.
âPeople called him Killer Croc cuz of his skin condition. He gave up tryinâ ta change their minds,â she said with a light shrug, completely belied by the intensity of her stare.
Danny couldnât look away until she released him, something satisfied in the quirk of her lip. Like she could see the sudden well of memory in his chest.
Heâd never actually given in to all the things his parents had called Phantom. Theyâd been ashamed of all of them when the truth came out, and heâd only had to put up with them for a few years.
He tried to imagine decades of it, being called a monster for things he couldnât control. For nothing more than a weird scaly skin condition.
He couldnât imagine going full bomb vest over it, but Danny was man enough to admit he might just be a little touchy because of Jasonâs death.
Which Waylon might not even know about.
Suddenly he actually did want to know why theyâd attacked the gala.
Until now it had just been inevitable, someone was going to so why not them, but⊠well. Heâd felt it under the whole plan, every stupid step.
Jason had trusted Waylon, not Danny, to keep things from getting out of hand. To know that a tussle was part of the fun.
Danny hadnât planned on asking, but. Yeah.
âIâd like that,â he agreed quickly, nodding, at about the same time as Tucker found his own voice.
âWait, thatâs a skin condition? Heâs just like that?â The techie asked sharply, staring around at Tim and Damian to confirm.
And got a disdainful look from Damian back.
âTt, what else would it be? Do you know many scaled people?â He asked archly.
Dannyâs mind snapped directly to Dora and her asshole brother. Knew Tuckerâs had gone to the same place a second later.
âMore than youâd think,â he and Tucker said in unison, and they shared a grin. If there was one benefit to their fucked up ghost hunting years, it was shutting down smart ass remarks.
Damian only looked more annoyed at being corrected, and Tucker shrugged.
âI thought he mighta been a scientist and tried to fuse himself with a lizard or something, like in Spider-Man,â he elaborated, and Danny kinda hated how much their lives resembled superhero movies.
Not that heâd say that in a room full of bats.
Damianâs brows drew down even further and he sneered, displeasure evident, but Jason cut him off before he could speak.
âBefore you make a comment about mad scientists Iâm gonna remind you we live in a city with Viktor Fries,â he said dryly and Damianâs mouth snapped shut.
Big brother privileges.
Wouldnât it be nice if Ellie had given Danny those?
Tucker gave Danny a confused look, and Danny just shrugged back. He didnât pay much attention to Gothamâs various rogues; he didnât want to tempt his Obsession.
Tim chimed in again, without actually looking at Tucker which was kinda impressive. Guess they were just very obviously new to Gotham.
âDr Freeze. He uses a lot of liquid nitrogen and freeze rays, heâs usually after money or diamonds to try and cure his wife,â he explained with a slight shrug.
Tucker made a confused noise.
âSo⊠couldnât Bruce just pay him off and keep him from bothering the city?â He asked carefully, glancing around the room.
Jason actually snorted a laugh at that, shaking his head.
âIf he could, he would have. What Fries wants isnât possible yet.â
Not possible for humans. Part of Danny perked up, wondering if Frostbite might have the answers⊠but no. It wasnât his job to solve every problem in the world.
Bringing healthy humans to the Zone was iffy. An already sick woman⊠well, she might get hastened along her journey to the afterlife.
And this was a conversation he really wanted to keep away from, honestly. Gothamâs rogues werenât his problem. Couldnât be his problem.
Danny fought ghosts, unkillable entities who enjoyed missile attacks as sport. He wasnât interested in learning how squishy human rogues were; it had been bad enough with his friends in the line of fire.
Mega pass on being the firing squad.
He almost reconsidered the trip tomorrow, but⊠he trusted Jason. Trusted Jason knew where he was coming from, and that neither of them wanted to trip Dannyâs Obsession.
So he gave the big guy a smile and an elbow nudge, nodding for the door.
âNot that rogue chat isnât fascinating, but you were taking me to bed?â He asked hopefully, and only realised what heâd said when Harley stuffed half her fist in her mouth to laugh.
And now, now Danny had a choice. He could feel the heat threatening to build, and blushing? Blushing would make things much worse.
Jasonâs cheeks had pinked and that was adorable and Danny would ectoblast anyone who gave him shit for it, but if DANNY blushed, Tucker would never let it go.
No, the better answer had to be to play it off, and what did you do to counter red in makeup? You added green.
Not that Danny had used ectoplasm as a fucking colour corrector before, but he might as well try. So he let his grin go saucy, eyebrows waggling, and tried a teeny bit of spectral ice to cool his cheeks.
It made Jason chuckle again, so heâd take it as a win, and Jason gave him another bow, hand still tucked in Dannyâs arm.
âYour chariot awaits.â
Tim and Tucker mimed puking almost simultaneously. They were perfect for each other. And had no taste, so that worked out well for them.
Danny ignored them all and gave the room a last wave, heading for the door and tugging Jason along with.
âNight all, I guess Iâll see you tomorrow Harley, and Tucker just text me when youâre up and weâll see about getting you home,â he called brightly, definitely not about to stop no matter what anyone said.
Not even when Harley hauled herself vertical and call after them,
âOh, Danny! If the bat calendars do come out, shall I grab you a Red Hood one?â She asked saucily and Danny felt Jasonâs grip spasm in his elbow.
Which. He was gonna try putting together later, but tonight he really did wanna get out of there before long.
Who even was Red Hood?
Dannyâd never seen him and he hadnât turned up at the gala, so he didnât have a guess ready, just like Batwoman.
A couple of people in one of Dannyâs classes simped constantly over his thighs, but Danny now figured it was because they hadnât met Jason.
It was probably easiest to agree, so he gave her a thumbs up over his shoulder.
âAutographed please!â
**
The headache that had lessened as he talked to Harley was back in full swing, along with a throbbing pulse in his temples and roiling nausea in his gut.
Constantineâs damn cigarettes werenât helping, but Bruce just didnât feel up to wrestling them away from him.
Heâd expected⊠well. He hadnât expected Constantine to come through full of fire and indignation, accusing Bruce of making the fucking mess.
His bad feeling had intensified too, not in the slightest relaxed that Constantine could feel that scrungly fucking kid all the way up in the manor.
No matter what Constantine said about the âhalfaâ, that could not bode well. Not with the look heâd seen on the manâs fucking face.
Steph called him an occult OSHA violation in a trench coat. Anything that scared him worried Bruce.
He could put up with some smoke and some pain to get the information he needed with a minimum of fuss.
He was beginning to wish heâd gotten some sleep though. Or could have someone get him a drink of water.
Heâd shown Constantine the missed call logs from Amity Park, and the magician swore in ways that made Bruce see flashes of colour.
(That might have been the concussion talking, but Bruce could remember the almost buzzing swearwords heâd heard from Sam Manson and wasnât sure. Nothing could be trusted.)
Not at the volume of the logs, that hadnât surprised him. No, Constantine had gotten serious when Bruce shared the logs Tim had first shown him.
âEarth is gone. The sky is green and Earth is gone.â
âAlright, that? Thatâs very fuckinâ bad,â the magician grumbled, reaching into his pocket for a flask for the first time since heâd arrived.
At least it wasnât another goddamn cigarette. Little fucking meow meow magician.
(Bruce wasnât quite sure what that one meant, but Steph usually said it with enough derision it had to apply.)
âSo I assumed,â he gritted out, jaw clenching against another pang of pain.
Constantine levelled him with a blank stare. Bruce made a conscious effort to relax his face. The tensing wasnât helping anyway.
âNo, Batman. I mean really, really not fuckinâ good. They never called again?â He asked, and the sudden gravity in his voice sunk through layers of ache and irritation.
He sounded as serious as heâd been about the oath. That definitely wasnât good.
Bruce shook his head, scrolling demonstratively to the end of the file.
âNot after this cluster of messages, all within the same day.â
Tim had all sorts of explanations for that. Bruce fervently hoped he was right and it was just pique on the part of Amity Park; heâd take them being angry with the League over anything else.
Especially anything that made John Constantine look that serious.
âAnâ the townâs still there?â He asked, like that was a reasonable question.
Except⊠Bruce suddenly wasnât sure. There were alumni from Amity Park, people whoâd moved away, but the sheer lack of online information about the town itselfâŠ
They hadnât even been able to get a clear satellite image.
He should have noticed that. He should have checked that. If he hadnât been so twisted up in his worries about JasonâŠ
But no, that wasnât fair.
Bruce closed his eyes a moment, calming himself down. Breathing through the sluggish throb at his temples.
None of their Amity Parkers talked about the town like it was missing, or anything out of the ordinary. His children would have flagged it.
This wasnât an oversight, but Constantine may know something that none of his family could have assumed.
He just had to get this finished. This briefing with Constantine, his report to the League, Jason⊠no. Sleep first, some pain killers, a more thorough scan.
Maybe a day of recovery, as soon as he could afford one. Wait until his head cleared.
Harley was right, Jason deserved the best Bruce could give him, and trying to talk to his son now would not go well. Bruce was only barely tolerating Constantineâs presence.
For all the man was alarmingly combative about this subject, he was a pussycat compared to Jason in a mood. Jason knew far more about what would hurt Bruce most.
Jason had always been what hurt Bruce most, ever since heâd held his lifeless body. Jason, and even the thought of one of his other children following him where Bruce couldnât go.
No. He just had to get through this.
Refocusing on John-Bloody⊠no, that wasnât helping either. On Constantine.
âFrom what weâve gathered from people who have left Amity Park since, they still have access to the outside world.â He wasnât quite sure what else he could commit to now.
It didnât seem to satisfy. It didnât satisfy Bruce either.
âOkay, but ya remember what I said about the fabric of reality beinâ swiss fuckinâ cheese around this city?â Constantine asked, his usual drawl starkly absent.
Bruce found himself tensing again. Wishing this was something he could fight.
âYes. We havenât been able to receive any satellite imagery of the town, nor any footage or communication online from within.â
He could pull up all the data, all the social media, but he knew Constantine wouldnât care. It wasnât what heâd asked for.
And sure enough, Constantine hauled himself back to his feet, striding towards the zeta tubes.
âRight. Well, guess weâre takinâ a field trip to thâ Watchtower, B-man, because youâre really not gonna like what Iâd have to do to this lovely cave to get the intel I need. Weâll need every sensor you lot have, because that?â
Constantine half turned on his walk, finger jabbing at that last message. Barely even glancing in Bruceâs direction.
It felt like an accusation.
âThatâs not fuckinâ good. That sounds like the Infinite Fucking Realms,â he declared darkly, trench coat billowing around him as he stalked across the cave.
Bruce almost flinched. Like he had no control over his expressions.
He needed sleep.
He needed answers. Needed to know what had happened, and what had to happen to fix it.
Needed to know they hadnât let a half dead child take on an entire alternate dimension alone, because no matter how little he trusted the man Danny was, the thought of the child still ached.
Needed to know if that suspicion was actually justified by anything but his own inability to accept Jasonâs clear. To have an unknown factor in Jasonâs life.
Constantineâs reaction was one point in Bruceâs favour.
Whatever they found about the current state of Amity Park⊠would tell the rest.
He forced himself out of his seat to follow Constantine, hand straying to the pocket on his belt that held his emergency stimulants.
Alfred wouldnât be pleased, the tiny pills carried an adrenaline boost that was wearing even at full health, but he needed to be sharp. Just for a few more hours.
He could pass what they learned off to Clark and Diana, and to his children when he returned. Just for a little while. A few hours.
Amity Park had gone unnoticed for years, as little as Bruce liked that fact. He could only hope that whatever threat it presented would lie dormant just a little longer.
**
Fuck the no killing rule, Jason was gonna murder Harley Quinn. And by that, yeah, he probably actually meant âseek vengeance in some small but annoying wayâ, but still.
He didnât actually have a crush on Danny. It was a bit they were putting on to fuck with his nosey brothers, and it was probably a good sign that theyâd apparently fooled Harley too.
But Harley was a hopeless romantic and prone to see romance where none existed, so maybe it wasnât that good.
More importantly, Danny didnât fucking know he was Red Hood yet. Heâd have to text Harley tonight and drill that in, since sheâd definitely picked up that Danny was in on the secret.
And since apparently they were all gonna be hanging out tomorrow.
He kinda wished he hadnât brought it up. That Harley hadnât asked.
Heâd monopolised so much of Dannyâs time already over the break, three full days and they still had to make that run back to Frostbite.
Danny must have had some other plans. Something he actually wanted to do with his time instead of just following Jason around.
The gala had been fun though. And so had today, it just⊠Jason couldnât help feeling he was being too needy. Too clingy, with a guy heâd known for all of a week, if you were generous.
Being around Danny made him feel like himself for the first time in fucking years, and he knew what heâd have given up for that.
He didnât want to be too much. Too pushy. Didnât want Danny to get sick of hanging out with him so soon, and leave him right back where heâd been; bitter, angry, and alone.
At least Danny didnât seem to be thinking too much about Harleyâs parting shot. There was definitely something on his mind, but they hadnât actually unlinked arms.
Jason could feel his aura.
Concern-worry-worry.
Shit, they hadnât fucking unlinked arms. Should they? Should Jason have? For fucks sake he was literally clinging to the guy, this was fucking ridiculous, he should just.
But Danny hadnât pulled away.
Itâd be weird to pull away now.
Jason managed to keep himself distracted in that little spiral all the way to the garage heâd parked his bike in. Danny waited until they left the manorâs grounds to speak again though, arms tightening around Jasonâs chest.
âPull over a sec?â He called above the wind, and Jason very firmly did not let that pitch him further. He pulled over, still firmly in the heights and far from any living souls.
Unless theirs counted. Probably not.
He dropped the kickstand and pulled off his helmet, hoping Danny just wanted to talk. Maybe ask him to make his excuses to Harley.
Ask Jason to drop him at the university and not follow him home. Thatâd make sense. He didnât need a wayward puppy.
He didnât actually get off the bike. Didnât want to give up Dannyâs arms wrapped around him, even if it was just for expedience.
And maybe realised that wasnât a great idea when Danny rested his cheek on Jasonâs back and a warm wave of relax-safe-reassurance threatened to swallow him.
âI know what youâre thinking about,â Danny admitted softly, and Jason damn near bolted. Barely heard the next words, whichâŠ
Well.
He knew Danny tended to overlook things. But it turned out he could be pretty damn perceptive too.
âSheâs gonna be okay, you know. Cass. I can feel her anywhere in the city if I try, and Iâll know if something happens to her.â
And just like that, the pit dropped out of Jasonâs stomach.
Heâd been trying not to think about it. Pretended he didnât know what sheâd be doing when she left, out in the city, one fucking accident from being like him.
Even worrying about Danny getting sick of him was better than that.
She might not even need the pit to bring her back this time. Gotham had a fuck ton of native ectoplasm even for a city; it couldnât not.
Ectoplasm was made of and attracted to raw emotional energy. For all that people died every day in the city, more were born or moved in to join their ranks.
Gotham would be a metaphorical ghost town if they hadnât, instead of the literal version slowly creeping across the cityâs vigilantes.
From the roguesâ overdramatic schemes to the peoplesâ undercurrent of rage and defiant joy, Gotham seethed with emotion. Most of the dead didnât stay to use the ecto up, and every rogue attack brought a fresh wave.
Not clean ectoplasm like the realms, but tainted with their individual torments, the fierce glee, the desire to burn, it all churned into an ambient ectoplasm Danny swore heâd never seen in another city.
And that defiant spirit, the Gotham je ne sais quoi that made people put up with all the rogue attacks and dangers, was powerful too. Jason had known that even as a kid.
Now, it was literally the reason he was alive.
He might have a second core filling his system with pit water, but theyâd both have dried up without the boundless âfuck offâ energy Gotham was built on.
Heâd felt it the second he returned. He was alive in Gotham in a way he hadnât been in Nanda Parbat, anywhere but the fucking pit. It let him think clearly.
Well.
Apparently Danny let him think clearly. That still stung. But it shouldnât have surprised him.
Heâd never been much of anything that other people didnât make him.
It was why he didnât really mind Clockwork trying to make him Dannyâs knight within a couple hours of learning he was half dead. It was kinda what he did.
People had been using him as a weapon since he swung a tire iron at Batman himself. Protecting the guy who gave him his fucking soul back?
Heâd have done that anyway, for free. And he got a kickass gun and a supernatural sense of when said asshole needed him. Honestly, easiest job of his life.
The catch would come eventually, but this whole âfeeling the intent of people you talk toâ thing left him way less suspicious than he still kinda felt he should be.
Heâd rather that than be left nebulously owing his whole self to Danny with no way to repay him and no idea where the catch would come from.
It had just⊠never occurred to him that the same way Danny could reach out and find Vlad, heâd be able to find Cass. Or Jason himself, probably.
Jason hadnât realised how tightly heâd wound himself until the pressure eased.
He sucked in a breath that seemed to fill his chest for the first time in hours, folded his arms forward onto the handlebars, and let his head rest against them.
Danny followed him down, never losing contact but his face slipping lower and lower down Jasonâs back. It almost made him chuckle, imagining how they must have looked.
Actually, he did. Just a moment, a soft and almost giddy sound that he choked back immediately. He sounded⊠well. Not like himself.
Heâd been itching since the girls left to patrol, wishing he could join them. Be Cassâs backup in the field and be sure she wasnât going in on anything big alone.
Cass was a step beyond competent, she was exceptional and sheâd been doing this for years without a shadow. On a regular day, she wouldnât need help.
But hearing how close she was to losing her humanity and not coming back right no matter what had him on edge. He wanted to shield her, protect her from what heâd gone through.
It wasnât that he wanted her out of the fight. The idea of asking her not to go out hadnât even occurred to him. She could make her own choices and heâd back her with all he had.
He just absolutely fucking hated the idea that she was out there alone, while he had fucking nothing on him thatâd let him go after her if she did need backup.
If she needed help, heâd have to waste time gearing up before he could go out after her. The other bats would have her back, they all would, so long as they werenât busy too.
It wasnât like he was anyoneâs first choice for backup even now, he just.
Yeah. He might kinda get what Danny meant about his Obsession being protection. Protecting the bats was a recent addition, but Jason had burned himself out on enough missing kids since he got back to suspect.
Heâd have to ask what an actual capital-letter Obsession felt like, but that would wait for another time.
Just knowing that Cass would be safe, had another pair of eyes and more powers than a Kryptonian watching her back made him feel like he could breathe again.
Even knowing that though, he was glad to have left the manor. He could take Danny home, suit up, and⊠wait.
Danny had no choice but to move back as he straightened, half turning to frown down at the smaller man.
âIs that why you wanted to leave?â He asked quietly, gauging Dannyâs face.
Had Danny worked it out on his own? Felt him stressing out about his baby sister back in the field?
Did Danny know that Jason wanted to join her, if not necessarily which costume he wore, and cut his night short?
Would Danny do that for him?
The answer was obvious in the other manâs face as Danny shrugged, even before he spoke.
âI didnât wanna put you on the spot, and I figured youâd rather get out of there,â he explained casually, leaning just a little into Jason. Enough to feel what warmth Danny had.
Jason hesitated for a long moment, not sure what to say. If he should thank Danny. If Danny would ask, and if Jason should tell him he was the Red Hood now.
Itâd be weirder the longer he didnât mention it. Like he was keeping a secret.
The same secret Danny had kept as a teenager, so at least heâd probably understand, but Jason didnât like how it felt. He wasnât fucking ashamed of being the Red Hood.
Heâd done shit no one else ever could have, and every inch of his territory was safer than it had ever been without him. He was proud of what heâd done, even if he wouldnât brag about his methods.
It worked. It got him where he was today, where he didnât need to kill anymore because people turned tail at the hint of his damn name.
He still didnât know how Danny felt about killing. It wasnât something that came up in conversation much. Maybe heâd find a way to ask first.
Tonight, he managed a stiff nod and leaned a little of his own weight back into Danny. Even if the guy thought he was just gonna go home and mope there instead, it was a win.
âThanks,â he said softly, half wishing for his helmetâs voice modulator. He didnât like hearing his own voice sound so⊠vulnerable.
Danny, fucking angel of mercy that he was, chuckled softly and gave him a gentle tap upside the head.
âYeah, well. Also wasnât sure how the others would react to â99% of you are permanently on my radarâ anyway, and I wanted to make sure you knew for Cass,â he explained cheerfully.
And yeah, Jason still hadnât really processed that yet, and wasnât even sure how heâd react. Smart fucking call on Dannyâs part.
Chuckling under his breath, Jason shook his head and flipped the kickstand back up.
âAnything else before I take you to bed?â He asked, half teasing Dannyâs own unfortunate choice of words earlier.
They were absolutely still fucking with his family to think this was some kind of romantic relationship. Maybe a bit to punish Bruce, who clearly couldnât handle the idea of Jason happy.
Danny laughed, a hint of something Jason almost identified behind it, then settled himself more firmly against Jasonâs back, hanging on properly again.
âNot a damn thing. Oh, are you gonna come pick me up tomorrow or do I make my own way to the manor to join you and Harley?â He asked, snugged up tight.
Jason had almost forgotten that was happening. Apparently. And suddenly he was glad for at least the motorcycle helmet as his cheeks flushed pink.
Fuck heâd say he was trailing after Danny like a puppy, except Danny was the one going where Jason needed to be.
Another excuse to get Danny on his bike, arms around him.
Fuck off Jason Todd, Romance Heroine. It was a goddamn jailbreak, if a legal one. Not a fucking meet cute.
âIf you actually want to come,â he agreed a little hesitantly, because the voice that insisted he was just a burden and Danny was only humouring him wasnât all displacement activity after all.
Or pit related, apparently. Delightful.
He coulda tried to pretend it was, but that had been more convincing back when it was always a background grumble of anger, not the little calm pool of happiness now sitting in his gut.
Unforeseen side effect of getting his toxic sludge cleaned up: he was gonna have to own some of his own bullshit now. Work out what was his and what wasnât.
Danny leaned back a little, grip loosening, and Jason could feel concern like a whisper soft touch.
âYeah⊠I would, if you donât mind? It seems like heâs important to you.â
Jason wasted a moment trying to work out what the hell Danny meant by that.
Did he want to meet Croc cuz he was important to Jason? Or did he think Jason wouldnât want him to if he was important?
Cuz while yeah, Jason considered Waylon a friend (and thanks, Harley, for the new name crisis, love that. The guy introduced himself as Killer Croc but Jason knew all about controlling a narrative) it wasnât like he was family. Not like Dick, Cass, or the others.
Except. Roy was family. Long before any of the bats made it back into Jasonâs good books, Roy was one of the first people to be happy Jason was alive.
And Waylon had helped Roy get help when Ollie fucking kicked him out.
Waylon had been a restraining hand on Jasonâs shoulder too, in the bad old days. Keeping him from pushing too hard, going too big, doing something he really couldnât come back from.
Family didnât have to mean annoying texts at four AM. Didnât have to come around for dinner every Sunday; how often did any of them really see Harley?
Fuck, how often would they have seen each other if Alfred didnât have them all firmly under his culinary thumb.
Waylon had to count as a reliable old uncle at least.
And that kinda made it a different question. Did Jason want Danny to meet his family?
It had been an easy âyesâ with the bats, not least because the nosy bastards would muscle their way in regardless. CrocâŠ
Waylon never judged Jason. From his highest highs to lowest lows, he never looked down on him. Not even when he was telling Jason to stop and think.
It kinda made Jason ache for what his life should have been. His, and Waylonâs if heâd never been called Killer Croc.
And maybe itâd give Jason a read on how Danny would react to the Red Hood thing. Or whether or not Danny already knew.
Jason was gonna blame Bruce for this chronic overthinking. Definitely not something heâd had on his own.
Heâd thought about it long enough that he could feel Danny tensing, and he forced himself to snap out of it. In all honesty, it wasnât his business what Danny thought heâd get out of it.
In the end, there was no point second guessing what someone else wanted to do with their time. It was Dannyâs call. Not his.
And that kinda helped.
He half shrugged, leaning back into Danny for a moment and tugging him forwards again.
âI mean, weâre not âThanksgiving at each othersâ housesâ close, but⊠heâs helped me out since I came back. More than I expected anyone to. I donât mind if you wanna meet him,â Jason explained.
Danny obediently moved back into position to go, his aura a gentle hum of curiosity-concern-interest at Jasonâs back.
âSo do I make my own way, orâŠâ
âIâll come get you, probably around eleven?â Jason offered, definitely NOT thinking about Danny being back in this same position very soon.
He was gonna have to get another helmet for the bike. Immortal Ghost King or not, it just felt rude at this point.
**
After Danny and Jason left, Tim, Harley, and Tucker played a few more rounds of Mariokart together. Switched to a couple other games. Damian abandoned them almost immediately, disappearing half way through a round.
Probably to start a patrol of his own, or go try to spy on Danny and Jason.
Eventually Harley wished both the boys well and headed out with a cheery wave.
âRight, maybe Iâll see ya tomorrow or maybe not, have fun and donât do anything I wouldnât do,â she called cheerfully, then paused and pointed at Tucker. âAnâ keep an eye on Tim. Make sure he sleeps.â
Tim rolled his eyes, not looking up from their new round of SpiderHeck to wave her off. Tucker did, and Tim took advantage to swing across the map and cut him down with a lightsaber.
Amateur.
âHuh? Oh, sure! Fucking hell Tim,â Tuck complained as his attention switched back to the defeat screen.
Tim snickered, leaning back in his seat and crossing his legs.
âHey, not my fault you canât keep your head in the game,â he teased smugly. Tucker poked him in the face.
âNot my fault I have enough manners to look at people when they talk to me. So is Harley gonna be staying in the manor too?â He added curiously, glancing around.
They easily had the rooms for it, though Tim didnât really wanna think about it. What might Harley get up to on a 2am snack run?
Although it wasnât that far from 2am now.
âI donât think so, she has a place in the city at the moment,â he mused, his mind beginning to shift.
It wasnât that heâd been waiting for witnesses to clear out, exactly. Everyone was in on the secret, so it shouldnât be a big deal to head down to the Bat Cave even when they had the larger group.
It was just⊠theyâd been having fun. Itâd be rude to leave their guests, and Bruce was already being cranky down in the cave.
Of course, Timâd gotten another ping on his zeta tube monitoring program an hour or so ago. Constantine and Bruce both checking out, probably to the Watchtower.
So itâd be safe now, and theyâd reached an okay stopping point. Tim had no doubt that Tucker would prefer checking out the cave over any games.
Tim couldnât let him on the bat computer yet, but he could show Tucker a couple of Timâs better scanning programs. Maybe even ping Babs and see how the others were doing.
See if she had time to talk to Tucker in person. Maybe he could show them both how heâd encrypted that server, which Tim suspected would involve ectoplasm.
Not like he couldnât link the PDA to an un-networked monitor so that they could all see what he was doing though. Hell, they could record it for Bruce.
Heâd love having answers to the Amity Park problem. If Tucker would let Tim run the PDA for a few minutesâŠ
Still, it was just good manners to check in.
Alfred would be thrilled that they were learning to communicate.
Pulling out his phone, he shot Bruce a quick text.
âHey, weâre gonna head down to the Cave. You mind if I give a tour?â
It didnât take long to get a reply, which was usually a good sign. It meant Bruce wasnât hyperfocused enough to ignore his phone.
Maybe things with Constantine were going well.
The length of the reply wasnât as reassuring, but not a surprise either. Bruce wasnât exactly wordy in person, and only less so over text.
âGo ahead.â
No indication of when heâd be back, but that was fine. They could compare notes whenever that turned out to be.
Tim turned to Tucker, grinning in anticipation of the other manâs reaction.
âSo, wanna see something cool?â He asked, and felt gratified when Tuckerâs eyes widened and a matching grin spread across his face.
But who wouldnât be excited to see the Bat Cave?
âHell yeah!â
**
Tucker followed Tim eagerly out of the games room, mind already buzzing with all the things the young genius might want to show him.
Did they have a tech lab in Wayne Manor? They definitely had the space for it, and it had to be safer than keeping one at Timâs downtown apartment.
Bruce might not have been much of a techie but Tim was personally responsible for enough big developments that he was considered a prodigy even in Tuckerâs circles.
Of course the guy had the advantage of near limitless money and resources, especially after Drake Industries merged with Wayne Enterprises.
With that kinda money, Tucker himself could have revolutionised the world. But, Tuck had the advantage of the Ghost Zone and ecto tech, so he wasnât too upset.
Especially not if Tim was really going to let him see where the magic happened.
He did nearly let out an audible groan as Tim led him into an office and activated a secret elevator in a clock. Maybe Danny had a point⊠maybe all billionaires were dramatic assholes.
Maybe Sam had a point, and they were all evil. Maybe Tim was bringing him down to an evil lab.
Caution reluctantly seeped into Tuckerâs excitement, but he fought it off sharply. Tim was a good guy, they were becoming real friends, and Tuck couldnât believe a fellow techie would betray him.
Besides, no one in Gotham knew shit about ghost tech, or liminals. It wasnât like Tucker would actually be in any danger from a scrawny nerd like Tim.
Even if he did have very nice shoulders. Shapely arms. An almost snatched waist that almost tipped to androgyny, but he carried it so well.
Anyway.
Tim definitely wouldnât hurt him.
It was probably just a super secure underground tech lab, to keep anyone from stealing secrets. Tucker let himself hype up again, imagining the kind of security measures Tim could install underground.
Itâd remove the chances of someone sneaking through a back window for sure. And sure, rock wouldnât stop a ghost, but it stopped pretty much anyone else if you added seismic sensors.
It made sense, really, putting all Timâs very coolest and most secret cutting edge tech experiments somewhere that no one would expect, and almost no one could get to.
Tucker found himself rocking forward on his toes as the elevator descended, and flushed a little when he noticed Tim smiling.
He was excited, sue him. It beat worrying that he was about to get his first go at the Danny Fenton Lab Experience.
Thankfully no one ever cared enough to capture the nerds.
Tim was quiet on the way down, clearly savouring the anticipation, and that suited Tucker fine. It wasnât a long ride, and he all but bounced out of the doors as soon as they opened.
Stopped.
Stared around at blank stone walls, stalactites on the ceiling, and⊠a waterfall? A robotic dinosaur? A row of display cases?
This was not a super cool high tech research lab.
This kinda might be a supervillain cave.
Tuckerâs heart sank for a moment, especially as he noticed more and more Batman themed pieces on walls and cases.
Bruce Wayne (please donât let it be Timâs secret project any more, Tucker couldnât bear it) was obsessed with Batman. Collecting trophies.
Probably wanted to catch the hero himself and stuff him in a case. Rich people were all like that apparently.
Except⊠the locker room? Off to one side? Where a freshly laundered Red Robin uniform hung, neat and pristine?
Collector freaks never let anyone clean their stuff, especially if it might have had gross hero sweat to obsess over.
And that was the Batmobile, parked next to a large garage door. An array of motorcycles, and Tucker was no expert on Gothamâs heroes but there were at least three colour schemes.
Someone had been changing the oil on one of them.
A massive computer screen, surrounded by smaller screens at various angles, and as he approached in awe he spotted a bat sticker on almost every monitor.
No way anyone ever stole THE Batcomputer. People would notice. Someone would talk, there were legends about Batmanâs set up!
Half Tuckerâs class would have killed for a look at the tech, no way they wouldnât know if it ever got loose.
Which meant.
Tucker knew his jaw had dropped. Couldnât find it in himself to close it as he turned back to Tim, eyes wide, and watched all colour drain from the other manâs face.
âIs this the fucking Bat Cave?! Is Bruce Fucking Wayne actually Batman?!â He exclaimed eagerly, not even wondering why Tim suddenly looked so shocked.
This really was the best day ever.
Wait.
âYou DO know the fucking Oracle!â
**
Well.
The curse of Robin had come for Tim at last. Bruce was absolutely going to fucking kill him.
But, okay, in his defence, it totally wasnât Timâs fault! Heâd assumed Tucker already knew because Danny one thousand percent definitely did, he called Dick out in costume!
And Tucker was still trustworthy! Still an asset! And heâd help Tim get past the firewalls, get into Amity Park, all they had to do was get enough work done before Bruce came back.
And killed Tim.
For bringing an unknowing civilian into the fucking bat cave.
Best day ever.
Tim sucked in a great rasping breath, suddenly aware that heâd completely stopped breathing somewhere in there, and shook his head.
Okay. Snap out of it Tim.
Those nights with Alfred-supervision had made him weak, no way only thirty-six hours without sleep should have done this to him.
Too bad, sleep deprivation would have been a great excuse.
He wasted a moment lamenting his lack of immediate coffee and turned his focus to the actual problem: the Amity Park firewall.
Tucker was still staring at him in awe and triumph, though worry was creeping in. Tim pulled on a charming smile, walking to the batcomputer and gesturing for Tucker to join him.
âUh⊠yeah, sorry, I thought Danny already told you or Iâd have said. I didnât mean to spring it on you,â he lied, like heâd have ever let the secret slip.
Tucker pouted then, folding his arms.
âOh, of course Danny knows. Bet thatâs how he and Jason met. So does that mean youâreâŠâ he trailed off curiously, clearly hoping Tim would fill in the blank.
Tim considered being mildly offended that Tucker didnât think he could be Oracle, but he valued his digital security. Zero chance Babs wouldnât be pulling this video up later for a laugh.
He nodded to his suit instead, the new one hanging waiting. Probably for tomorrow night at this point, since there was no reason to change just to hang out in the cave.
âRed Robin. I ah⊠saw you last night at the gala,â he added sheepishly, wondering just how much of Timâs minor breakdown Tucker had noticed while waiting to give Tim the tablet.
And Tuckerâs eyes lit up, clearly remembering, and he grinned, clapping his hands together.
âOh! That explains why you left, huh? I guess someone had to deal with the rogues and stuff,â he mused thoughtfully.
Tim had to hope he wasnât thinking about the exact same thing. At least the discovery was going well so far; Tim couldnât think of many people heâd had to share this particular secret with, and most of the ones who did had been villains at one time or another, but still.
Tucker was keeping up, wasnât freaking out, and had gotten over his surprise in record time. Tim definitely wasnât disappointed.
Tuck had been a vigilante himself after all, itâs not like he was a civilian. And had already admitted he didnât pay much attention to vigilantes, so he might not even know which one Red Robin was.
Itâd just. Have been nice if he was more impressed.
Not that Tim cared. He wasnât Red Robin to impress people, and usually didnât even think about it.
And Tucker didnât seem surprised or upset when Tim steered him to one of the tables beside the batcomputer instead of the big baby itself, and got one of the un-networked monitors out.
âPretty much. I get a little⊠antsy if a takedown goes too easily, because with Riddler it usually means weâre missing something,â he explained dryly, pointing Tucker to a second wheely chair to pull over, âbut yesterday it was apparently just a shitty rush job on his part.â
Tucker snickered at that, wheeling the directed chair over and sitting eagerly beside Tim, still darting looks at the bigger screens.
âShould I be mad I didnât get their best work?â He mock-pondered, and Tim snickered.
âProbably. But Riddler and Croc arenât really A-listers or big on the mass destruction side anyway.â
âWaylon,â Tucker corrected almost absent mindedly, pulling out his PDA.
Tim missed exactly what he did next as he remembered Harleyâs little tidbit, and he pulled a face.
âYeah⊠Iâve not exactly had the one-on-one time with him Jasonâs had, I donât think weâre on a first name basis,â he explained, shaking his head as the monitor sprung to life.
Tucker snorted a laugh, flicking through screens on the PDA.
âWhat, Mr Jones then? Want me to just start downloading the Amity Park records first, then weâll go hunting?â He added, and Tim nodded quickly, snickering himself at the vision.
Nothing threw a shining ball of confusion into a fight like calling someone âMr Jonesâ. Heâd have to try it if Croc⊠Mr Jones was gonna be back on the scene.
It was the name that went on all of his prison paperwork, so it wasnât like it was a secret identity the same way the bats had.
âHonestly? Better than Waylon. And yeah, we can start with the government files and news reports, just so we have a backup. Then weâll look around and find out what else B thinks weâll need.â
Tucker snickered beside him, flicking quickly through screens on the PDA. Despite it being purely for his benefit, Tim pretty much ignored the monitor, keeping most of his attention on the device itself.
It was chunky and very retro, but given the processing power and space for storage? There was a definite charm to it.
Maybe Tucker would let him play around on it later.
But, in the spirit of not being killed when Bruce returned⊠there was one thing they definitely needed to talk about.
âIâŠâ Tim sucked in a deep breath. Heâd put good money on Tuck, Danny, and Sam being what actually solved Amity Parkâs last calls to the League.
It might be a traumatic memory. Probably was. But he had to ask. And better him than Bruce.
Tucker looked up when he trailed off, making a curious noise. Not exactly asking what Tim wasnât saying, but showing heâd noticed the pause.
Sighing to himself, Tim wheeled across to the batcomputer. Bruce probably still had the files up.
âI also think we need to talk about these,â he explained, pulling up the records for the Justice Leagueâs missed calls. Hundreds of them.
Tucker just looked nonplussed for a moment, then sobered. Probably when the dates sank in and told him what they were talking about.
âOh⊠yeah. Probably,â he agreed, sounding more serious than Tim had ever heard him. Which kinda proved Timâs point about traumatic memories.
Leaving the records on screen, Tim wheeled back over, pulling out one of his larger recorders. This conversation might take a while.
âDo you mind if I just record what you tell me? Bâs gonna want a full write up. Heâs off ripping a strip off of Constantine as we speak, probably, cuz whatever he did⊠this lot went past voice mail and straight to the trash.â
It wasnât exactly an apology, wasnât exactly an excuse, and Tim cut himself off before it turned into whining. The past was past, and it was too late to change that now.
Something complicated crossed Tuckerâs face as he spoke, and Tim tried not to look too closely. Didnât want his overly analytical side latching on.
The only thing they could do was work out what happened, and if there was still anything the league could do to make up for majorly dropping the ball.
Tucker sucked in a deep breath of his own, letting it out in a low whistle.
âYâknow, I thought we were coming down here for fun and tech talk,â he said almost wistfully, and Tim chuckled wryly.
âWe can definitely still do that. Itâll just unknot Bruceâs panties some if weâve got this part out of the way before he gets back. That way youâre just telling me, no âswooping menace in the shadowsâ,â he added half sarcastically, and Tucker laughed.
He looked⊠well. Haunted. But that wasnât exactly a sensible descriptor for a guy who spent years hunting ghosts.
Not too bad though. No tremors, no tightness in the eyes or jaw that said he was hiding something. His skin was still a rich, warm brown, no paler than before.
If he was having a deeper reaction than the tiredness, he was hiding it in a way Tim couldnât hope to spot. That⊠was probably the best sign Tim had seen about this particular shit show.
Chuckling to himself, Tucker checked the PDA one more time, then set it on the table and turned to face Tim directly.
âYeah, might as well do it during the file download. Your setup is gorgeous, but thatâs still gonna take a while. If you ask me, youâre not gonna need to ask Danny about it later, right?â He asked, and Tim bit his lip.
Less good sign. Seemed Danny carried more of the weight of this one too.
âBâll probably want his side, and to check the stories match, but Jason wonât let him push Danny into anything,â he offered instead of a blanket statement.
Tucker cocked his head a little, examining Tim for a long moment in a way that made him feel almost⊠dissected. Like a piece of tech Tucker had taken apart, and was looking for secrets in.
Finally the older boy nodded and shrugged, leaning back.
âYeah, fair. Itâs damn hard to pin Danny down if he wants to leave anyway. Thereâs some Fenton tech thatâd do it, but itâs not like you can get that here. So⊠where do you want me to start?â
Filing away that comment about the Fenton tech for later, Tim jerked a thumb over his shoulder at the big screen.
âDo we have time to start at the beginning? The first calls?â He asked, half expecting the answer to be ânoâ.
Tucker glanced down at his PDA, and snickered.
âWell, I can give you the Cliffâs Notes version. And then if you have questions you can ask?â
Which⊠yeah, Tim glanced at their little offline monitor. It was a pretty big download; Tucker had meant it when he said he was grabbing everything for them.
That had to be a sign of good faith, right?
And then after that theyâd have to shift everything over to an un-networked hard drive. After whatever Tuck had to do to de-ecto it.
Shoulders settling, Tim put the recorder on the table before him.
âSounds good. So⊠Tucker Foley, current top student at MIT and soon to be receiver of a Wayne Enterprises internship,â he teased, enjoying the way Tucker snickered again, also visibly relaxing.
Might as well make this as comfortable as possible. They could break after Tucker finished for some drinks or something.
âWhat happened in Amity Park?â
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On the Watchtower, Bruce slid his phone back into its pouch on his utility belt and returned his attention to the pacing magician.
Heâd pulled up every type of reading they could gather from Amity Park for the week of the last distress call, and from their current logs.
Thermal imaging, infrared and ultraviolets, seismography, electromagnetic waves, spectrography, and several that Bruce wasnât sure what they were, just that the Justice League Dark were the only ones who used them.
The fact that even Bruce could see extremely obvious spikes on more than half of them was not a good sign. It made checking the dates almost superfluous.
Nor was the way that even though those spikes had lowered within that same day⊠theyâd never gone all the way back down.
In every magical sense they could detect (and half a dozen scientific ways he was actually comfortable with), Amity Park glowed like a cartoon nuke.
The only good news was that their radiation sensors had gone straight back down to normal after the initial spikes. Which made no scientific sense given the normal decay of radioactive materials, but Bruce was not going to argue.
He appreciated Tim checking in though. The gesture towards clearer communication. He wasnât sure exactly what Tim would want to show Harley in a tour of the bat cave, but honestly?
He wasnât going to ask. It was nice to have something that wasnât his problem, and he trusted Tim and Harley, together or separately.
It wasnât like Tim would bring anyone else down to the cave.
ââââââ
đ
I regret nothing.
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#danny fenton dead and loving it#dp x dc#dpxdc#dead on main ship#danny x jason#never make a promise you canât keep#jason: oh man danny must be so sick of me iâm taking up all of his time đ#danny: dang i gotta go back to school soon instead of spending 24 hours a day with my new bestie this is clearly normal to be sad about#and suddenly constantine was there! wooooo#gonna try and wrap up waylon and harvey next chapter (wish me luck)#we gots bigger fish to fry đ#and maybe a justice league meeting just for fun#chapter 12#counting is hard
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i completely forgot whether i actually sent these to you so my apolocheese if you're getting jumpscared by these again,.,,, Conky featured in random daily doodles
"I'd never kill you Buggsy! Why would I do that? We're friends!"
"You're so silly, Bug. These are going on the fridge!"
*sticks your drawings on my disgusting rusty refrigerator with letter magnets, a B and a C to represent our friendship*
*moves in for a hug, reeking of something between burnt hair and blue chemical toilet, various foul oozes smeared across my body*
#eeeaaghghhhh art art art!!#sorry I replied a day late I was just like aaaaaaaa omggggg#conky + bug 4evaaa#we havin a girls night out (except neither of us are girls)#omg bugbug I gotta take you to my fave restaurant tonight the chemical plant dumps barrels of yummy soup in this one hole it's so great#just... eeeeee! they're friends! horrible freak pals forever and ever#(definitely not one-sided at all)#(bug definitely does NOT keep installing stronger and stronger locks)#(haha just try buying more cameras bitch they go all staticky when I walk by)#agjgjnknnmhhgggg I'm losign my mind omggggg art! art! you drew them!!! togethers!!!#I could pledge my life to you rn that's the level of happy#oh I guess this is conky lore#conky lore#ugh I gotta stop adding tags but buuuuug and conky bug and conky bug and conky#conky n bugggg
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Went to Michaels again, you know we had to do it to em
#michaels#cotl#lambertâŠ.#i had to make sure that they didnât just leave the word CULT there and some random mom or someone thinks weâre actually promoting a cult#because⊠we like being in michaelsâŠ#and we dont wanna be banned or some shit#from silly cult game mention#lambert posts#mel talks#cult of the lamb alters#Narinder straight up fucking hated Michaels#but heâs getting used to shit so itâs to be expected ig#he hates extreme colors for some reason#complains about it burning his eyes#this reminds me that i have to post that uhh alter thing so everyone that actually reads these knows who we are and shit#because NO ONE knows who i am#I am Mel#âŠIm not even gonna try and⊠talk the rest of this shit out#im prolly gonna post it tonight or tomorrow too#cause I think I have to update it to explain Nari probably..#since Lambert will keep this guy in front with everyone else#and maybe one dayâNarinder will (unlikely) post something himself on here!#wonât that be fun!#sweatingâŠ#ok i gotta go#cult of the lamb lambert#lamb cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb#doodles#doodlings
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I miss you Lorna⊠this is such a mess
This is an old message and I had several other similar messages, but I miss you guys and hope youâre all doing well!! Iâm sorry to see nothing has improved.
I saw I was kindly mentioned by @awesomefringey and some other commenters the other day, so just wanted to log in and say hello and log back out for a few more months. đ
Sending so so much love to all of you. Take care of yourselves and each other, please.
The video is still on YT.
#Anywayyyyy#The fandom added a whole lot more C to my C-PTSD#So a nice random message every few months instead of a freshly posted death wish is LOVELY.#Donât fret. On meds and therapied but fresh tf out of money from it so @ L and H⊠lornasaurusrexx at g*ail is the PayPal if ur bored đ#I hate to be like this but protect your hearts. Theyâll never be able to look out for you guys and they feed these trolls ammo for snacks#and it seems to have only gotten worse. Gotta keep them hets hetbaited for their money whilst actively encouraging them to bully yall? Why?#STILL!? At this point it feels like theyâve both chosen that path deliberately now and I find it quite gross. but Iâm also very far removed#So donât worry about my opinions. Keep trusting your own intuition!!! You all see it. I love you guys and your beautiful hearts and empathy#But I hope they can sleep at night knowing the absolute fucking genuine WRECKAGE they left across the Big Gay War generation/era of Larries#Donât worry guys Iâm just as dramatic as ever. None of this has anything to do with them coming out or anything. Just how we were treated.#But trust I fuckin mean that shit from the deepest darkest pit of my Demon Larrieâąïž heart. They encouraged this. đ€·đŒââïž#Anyone who cares about my actual life updates: Iâm a school nurse now and will be working at a bougie summer camp over break#Had a surgery I needed. Got new tattoos and piercings. In a happy and healthy relationship with the best dude for almost a year now.#OH and I went to New Zealand last year with Prettytruthsandlies!!!! We made a pact back in our Big Gay War/college days to go. And we DID!!#I got overstimulated and overfed and puked in Hobbiton. đ€Ł (It was the best time of my LIFE GENUINELYđ„°đ„°đ„°đ„°đ„čđ„čđ„č)#Okay BYE LOVE YOU GUYS#There are better and more humane ways to maintain a closet ..like literally STFU entirely. Ignoring it and not exploiting a kid is FREE#đ”đž
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your failteacher yuri AU is so so good. what's so frustrating about persona is that it has plenty of good ideas and characters that get absolutely wasted or mishandled by the actual narrative⊠like these two teachers. you write them with so much more respect than the games ever did. keep it up!
so as a general rule i don't tend to respond to this Genre of comment or really even enjoy it--as far as my own personal feelings r concerned, "you do [x] better than [source]" (in whatever ways it's phrased) is Not a compliment--but in this instance i gotta say it. they fucked up so bad and it makes me so madJDBHJJNSDB
so... just this once... i'll salute you... im at least glad people like my work and r enjoying a whiff of my beloved women without atlus sabotage â
i've said before that p3 hermit and p5 temperance are my favorite links--p5 temperance especially i think is really tight and has an interesting foundation. the actual narrative glue holding that thing together is strong. like the THING is that i don't have to go out of my way to find interesting and compelling material here (and i certainly don't have to make it up from whole cloth or anything)
i would hate for people to have the impression that i'm spinning this all out of nothing or that i hold the source In Contempt or whatever. obviously my concept/inciting incident is zany (haha) and i've added or tweaked a lot of smaller things to better facilitate this specific AU, but this story wouldn't have nearly the legs it does without the genuinely good material they put in those links, and i wouldn't bother making it at all if i didn't seriously love those characters...
...which i guess is kinda what makes it doubly frustrating... that in both cases they've just kind of stapled on some gross stuff that adds nothing (aside from ick factor of course) and doesn't fit with the rest... when "the rest" is genuinely compelling. not only is it a bad move on its own but also it drags down the otherwise good material around itself which is always annoying, yknow... like if it was Just All Bad i would at least be FREE đ
anyway it's whatever it's whatever . i want to draw a chapter where they talk about their Deep Baggage sooo bad. and i can be like Look. Normal Hermit. Welcome To My Twisted Mind. Or Whatever
#WE DREAM OF THE âNORMAL HERMITâ LORE CHAPTER WHERE I EXORCISE MY PERSONAL DEMONS#my only solace is p5 temperance has the platonic route as per the New Rules. so at least theres that....would recommend doing that one....#my personal demon on the other hand is that bc p3 hermit doesn't have a âdating resolutionâ anyway they didnt touch it in reload. GET ME OU#i guessâto look on the positive sideâthat makes it easy to excise huh. one's an inferior optional route and one's utterly inconsequential#like they just did that for NO reason. unrelated to EVERYTHING else in ANY part of the link. IT MAKES ME SO... [audio fades out]#i gotta keep this project going until Normal Hermit Explained at LEAST... so i can pass away peacefully#sorry . i promise one day i will stop bitching about persona. but nobody bitches about persona more than persona fans i guess HBRBHDJK
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lil update post thats mostly rambling tbh
i'm feeling a bit better after a few days of not letting myself ruminate on everything so much. still don't have electricity tho </3 but things are getting better slowlyy. i even managed to draw a lil too
i've adjusted a good bit more to the routine at this point. a lot of people are still struggling out there and once i get my electricity back i'm gonna spread some more resources since wayyy more are available & up-to-date now than what's in my initial post about all this, but for now i'm just lettin y'all know i'm still truckin along đ
also i wanna give another thanks to yall for spreading that post around so much, even if it's slowed down a lil by now. for those first few days it really felt like we were completely isolated from the world and nobody knew or cared, but i've seen a huge increase in people talking about our situation here since then and it's been surprisingly uplifting. one of the reasons appalachians are such hardheaded motherfuckers is because we're used to having to help each other rather than rely on folks outside the mountains, but seeing y'all expressing sympathies and wanting to help however you can, even if you don't live nearby, has made me feel so much better about our ability to come back from this.
#one of the weirdest parts was getting a couple search & rescue guys at my door the other day#they said they were from texas. i've seen talk of volunteers from just about everywhere in the country#i'm able to safely leave my house now because some construction guys down the road agreed to give the driveway a temporary fix#they were hired by the state but took a break from that job so that my family wouldn't be so trapped#and that dirt road they were originally hired for is lookin the best it's ever been btw. those guys are great at their jobs#places everywhere are giving out a shit ton of cases of water for free & food for cheap / also free#idk i've been really struck by everybody helping each other lately. people talk shit about humanity but i love humanity#when things get desperate we all want to help each other#i gotta end these tags before i keep rambling forever i can save all that shit for a future humanities essay or something#but uh yea there is ur update on how things are going. if u have electricity rn cherish it for me#same with if you have had a shower or done your laundry recently#if u havent done ur laundry yet do it right now. do your laundry for everyone out there who has run completely out of clean clothes#do twnety thousand loads of laundry right now#fuckass storm
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Back on my meds, making a damn decent paycheck despite how many days I had to take off this month, my momâs feeling better now that sheâs home and weâve figured everything out, our neighborâs gonna build us a wheelchair ramp for cheap, and my dad miiiiiiiiight be buying a new car as we speak đ€ (my mom just canât get into the truck anymore, and she hasnât wanted to drive her two seater for a while now, so weâre trading it for something practical). Things are finally going fairly well, all things considered â€ïž
#she speaks#after the absolute hell weâve been in all October I think we deserve a fucking break#hopefully this post doesnât jinx the car lol#weâre keeping the truck obv cuz like we got livestock#but the lil beamer has got to go unfortunately#sad itâs a fun lil car#but it hasnât been getting the love it deserves and itâs time for something more suited to our needs as a family#kinda exciting really I hope we get it#we all fucking hate spending money so both my parents have been waffling on it for a couple of days#but like I told them mama you got a doctorâs appointment next week for your g tube#and then a hospital follow up with our pcp the week after that#and youâre gonna have to see a gi and a nutritionist pretty regularly#and thereâs gonna be more surgeon follow ups Iâm sure#and eventually weâre gonna need to take you to outpatient pt cuz we canât have a home health pt forever#cuz insurance only pays for it for like six weeks#so either weâre gonna have to rent a car every time you go to the doctor#or we gotta buy one#and like this isnt going away youâll have to go to the doctor often#cuz youâre missing like half of your small intestine#so getting a rental all the time is gonna suck#it would be better to have a car you can get in and out of easily just on hand#not to mention eventually youâre gonna wanna get out of this house just for the hell of it#and itâs not like we can wake up one morning and decide hey letâs go on a day trip#and then waste two hours driving back and forth from the nearest enterprise#which is on an extremely busy two lane highway and is FUCKING terrifying to get to lmfao#so with any luck my dad will keep that in mind and not back out at the dealership lol
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guess whos not going in at all this week, actually
#MY MANAGER EMAILED LIKE 2 HOURS B4 I HAD TO GO IN#she finally changed my schedule (1 day) to the night shift today#(i emailed her to be safe just kinda casually reaffirming im going in at the new time & then asking if any other shifts wanted 2 be changed#bcs that sounds great to me whstever option she goes with#she ignored that question & i get a new email from her asking if i completed a training. lets called it DOC#basically a long time ago she said 'i will send you DOC instructions soon' .. a few days pass and i get three 50 paged packets#one is called NAVIGATING DOC#im like oh ok cool that must be the DOC training shes talking abt bcs the other 2 packets were abt various trainings#NAH BRUH. APPARENTLY THE DAY IM SUPPOSED TO GO IN. SHE MESSAGES ME SOME ENTIRELY ALIEN PROGRAM#and is like 'u completed this right? cus if u didnt u cant come in today.'#LIKE?? MAYBE I WOULDA IF U SENT THE SHIT#but it's also like. dam i shouldve emailed prompting her to send what she said she would n clarifying BUT FUCK#WHY DO I GOTTA?? IM NOT THE MANAGER#she literally told me the name of the program rn thru email so i type it in and see like four hour long modules to complete#mind u i aint never even been informed a WHISPER abt this new program. nothings even labeled DOC TRAINING#but my struggle is. was i notified this?? and i just didnt see??? was i supposed to clarify with her what the DOC training was exactly??#the only thing ive heard abt doc training b4 this is 'i need to send u DOC training soon' in EMAIL. so i expected an alert#abt THE DOC TRAINING... in an EMAIL notification. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS#idk man#i dont even care bro like im busy as hell & the work is just to build clinic hours so i dont care abt the money factor#it's just like. can we get this first day jitters thing over with already?? im so over this bro#yaddayadda i emailed her an apology n ill be on that ASAP shit. but i did let her know i am basically justnnow seeing this site#n if there was any email or notif that couldve/tried to inform me of its existence 2 pls let me know / figure out how to find it#so the issue doesnt occur again & i dont have to keep botherinher which im so srry of bcs med is stress n shes just trying to get by#but still bro im a lil miffed bcs she probably thinks im stupid now and now im wondering if i AM#bcs WDYM ONLINE MODULES. AINT NOBODY SAID SH IT EVEN ABT THE EXISTENCE OF THEM!!! i wouldve pressed harder 4 clarification#if i knew it was an ONLINE MODULE i had to look out for on some randomass site i didnt even know the name of until now#instead of the EMAIL UVE BEEN 'COMMUNICATING' WITH ME ON#ARREGHHHHHHHH IM NOT STUPID. I SWEAR IM NOT STUPID FUCCK MY BAKA LIFE
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I FINALLY have a drawing idea for ingmar bergman day aough
#the struggles of coming up with something for an album i know next to nothing about#but i got Something finally so i'm just going to go with that#so now i have (almost) all of them just gotta think abt the final day a bit more now also#yes this is all i think about currently the drawings i'm making and preparing ideas for#so yeah that's how you keep the increasing feelings of existential dread and emotional turmoil at bay ig#by getting very involved with something else#oh also two months left until my concert still doesn't seem any more real than it felt for the last year and a half#even though we actually booked the flights recently so uh. it is indeed real already in a way#goosepost
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Still packing stuff and now i'm looking for a box for this.
My dad and i made it a few years ago for halloween, probably 2015/16 if i'm remembering right. It's made from a lays can, a wipes container from his work, and paper maché. I don't remember what the wires and front metal bits are from, but the middle actually lights up! It has one of those long battery-powered emergancy lights in it and some colored tissue paper
#lee rambles#I gotta fix the metal bits on the front#they keep coming out of place and drooping down. maybe some hot glue'll work since i don't want to melt the styrofoam under the paper#I went as Chell that year#with a shitty handmade Aperature Science shirt lol#Also as a sidenote since i'm already talking a bunch in the tags#I have no idea if we're actually going to be able to afford to move or not#so we're kinda thinking about staying where we are and seeing how things go over the next few years#i know it's in my dad's will to sell but with how expensive rentals are i doubt we'd be able to afford 2k+ a month on top of our other bills#I just hope my Uncle doesn't give us too much shit about it. We didn't get much from the life insurances he had#definitely not enough to live on for long on its own#but 800 a month for the house is a lot more doable than 2000#we don't want to end up having to kill ourselves working just to make ends meet. That's probably what would happen if we moved#i dunno#just... thinking a lot about the future. I honestly hope we stay#It'd get rid of a lot of stress if we stayed. We'd still get rid of a bunch of things but... it'd be easier.#We weren't even really allowed to grieve. once the funeral was over we just had to start packing our lives away.#i'm a little bitter about it really. They've gotten to grieve and be away from the situation. We've had to be there the whole time.#We might've all been there the day he passed but they weren't there for his bad days. They weren't there helplessly watching as he slowly#got more and more tired. and sick. and depressed.#I don't know what we're going to do.#I didn't mean for this to turn all venty. sorry about that if you've read this far
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whatâs a girl gotta do to make it less dead on here?? who do i gotta pay or give this cooch or tongue to??
#iâm not even kidding#i need yall to go back to not having a life and taking up space in my space#pleaseeeee#i miss my besties#i miss thirsting and carrying on and new fics dropping every day#this place sucks now and honestly itâs not just readers or tiktokâs fault like we all gotta take the blame for not interacting like before#not saying everyone is like this but the morale is so declined on here and we justâŠlet it keep going down by pointing fingers#ily all and iâm not pointing fingers cause iâm looking inward too#i just want this place to be fun again ugh#ima delete this in .3 seconds but oh well#here laur goes again..
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one more person I know dead this week. are you kidding me
#I really am sorry I keep using my st@r trek blog as a dumping ground for this#but.. gosh this really just was not my year huh!!#we just overcame a natural disaster and are heading into a political crisis I did NOT need this right now#just gotta keep reminding myself how lucky I am#it wasn't my relative who died and I'm grateful for that I'm so grateful#I imagined having to go through this for 70 days straight while being attacked (and not having a safe home to be stuck in like me)#and I felt so unimaginably lucky#I'm grateful not to live in a war zone and I'm grateful we got power and water back and things are slowly going back to normal#this is nothing I can overcome this#(thanks for reading all this if you still are I'm mostly just talking to myself lol sorry)
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