#but she’s now very active again

[spoofyleaf]

My bearded dragon turned 11 this month! What an old lady, I’m so proud of her for being alive this long!! Within the last year, we had a scare (she had a rough brumation) and I whole heartedly thought I was going to lose her. But she’s still kicking!! Still loves the attention from people and snuggling up with Valentine (one of my beagles).

[jils-things]

happy mothers day to my first and best momma concept ever designed 💚💚

[dykedvonte]

wanted to say I appreciate your nuanced takes on MW and especially Curly. i don't get the claim that the fandom is full of Curly apologists when majority (esp yt and tiktok) say he's worse than Jimmy. Yes there's commentary about bro culture defending people, he def messed up in trying to placate Jimmy (tbh "we'll fix this" sounded more like trying to keep someone prone to outbursts like Jim calm and not hurt Anya/himself) but I don't think he did nothing to help Anya, since she continued to confide in him and he had less than a week to resolve it before the crash (I also don't get everyone saying he knew for ages when it seems like Anya told him that same week). I get Jimmy's a pos but saying stuff like Curly should've known he'd crash the ship or that Jim had a criminal record he ignored, reducing them to obviously horrible villain and willfully ignorant sidekick feels like a disservice to the game. If your best friend turned out to be horrible, what would you do in a confined space in the span of a few days to respond? I'd say some of the horror comes from trying to do good but ultimately failing, Curly's state after the crash is meant to be tragic horror not revenge/punishment

Thank you and this is what I want to get across.

A lot of information we have to supplement when it comes to how long things have been happening on this current ship. I think people try to add on to the horror and negligence by making things more obvious so it can feel like it was easier to avoid when, true to life, its not. Jimmy clearly didn't deserve or appreciate what Curly did for him in getting him the job, but do you think if Jimmy was that big of a menace on Earth he would've given him a position where he could have that level of power over people's lives? There's something in the fact he specifically chose to pick a position so close to himself where he could watch Jimmy.

I hate the bro code argument because that is a whole can of worms people really don't get. That sort of mentality is born from the general respect and preference of male matter over female ones. Curly is clearly not that guy, he is absent minded about the issue and inadvertently dismissive but he clearly believes Anya, he just can't understand what she's going through. It's an onslaught of information that no one really reacts right to. Additonally, the entire discussion of her assualt plays to heavy into the idea that there is fault outside of the perpertratior when it comes to SA. It's too close if she only did this or if Curly had protected her better but the fact of the matter is Jimmy did what he did. He did it before any of the conversations with Anya about it and it's why her behavior seemed to change so drastically in those last two days.

He has other conflicting thought and while his role as a Captain should've taken over, people act like it's not a very human thing to have such a toxic presence cloud your judgement. It is never easy to separate friend from coworker once that connection is formed, you want to help them, especially if they were friend first and for a long while like in this case. It's not right, but people act like it would be easy when the game clearly points out that no choice is easy to make, especially when you have to make it for more than one person. You have the weigh the consequences, look at all the options and make a plan. People can headcanon and decide how long things where happening, but if we look at what we were presented through the characters eyes, the only person given time to do that was Jimmy.

He waited two months after the crash to appoint himself Captain. Every time a problem was brought up he immediately took action and refused to sit on it and find a better solution. I think it's important to look at the warped way Jimmy takes initiative where Curly didn't as it works as a good contrast of why you don't just run in to "fix" things. The quickest and easiest option may not be the safest or most beneficial. I think some thoughts on the game suffer from the black and white thinking the game doesn't operate on along with us being voyeurs. We see what exactly led to what but the characters don't. They don't have the hindsight and foresight we do and even ours is scrambled by the non-linear story telling.

Like it's hard to talk abuou those grey zones without sounding like an apologist because you're explaining why taking responsibility isn't easy. It's not and it's weird to act like it would be in a scenerio that led up to the events of the game knowing what we know. We see all these characters in such isolated moments with various things before, in between, after and even during we aren't privy too. The idea that Jimmy is worse than Curly heavily banks on the words Jimmy was saying to Jimmy before he crashed the ship. That whatever happened on the ship was his responsibility to bare, which is true due to his position. But, are they not still not responsible for taking the actions Curly then must bare?

Like i feel like people think that these are situation that become easier with age or when you are in a postion of authority and they aren't. You don't lose your biases or gain some sudden knowledge that makes it easier. It just becomes more tiring as you keep dealing with it. I would be first in line to say Curly fucked up and should've done more but the idea he knew how bad it could get or he really saw the worst in the people around him and ignored it pretty much ignores a huge aspect of his character and the game.

[strawberrycamel]

ninjago seabound hurts. so much. what the fuck

[dnangelic]

like it's just the way that outside of the BATB/POTO 'love what's ugly and ostracized' narrative itself cocteau was gay and everybody hated his gall about it, howard ashman was gay and had to conceal it and died of aids after finishing his work for disney's batb.... rather than have dark be homophobic and spitting in the face of his inspirational roots (the sole canon detail i can't stand) it's much much much more interesting for me to both read and write not someone who's meant to be a pervert (in humor) and an agape lover (in serious contextualization) only to turn and say 'no homo' to the crowd every single time but rather, instead of all that, someone who, simultaneously taking daisuke into account, is both extremely firm yet simultaneously insecure in the struggle to establish their identity not only in regards to themselves but also around others.

that applies to a lot, but i've been considering it especially in regards to dark's gender and daisuke's attractions. dark in my portrayal (while overall 500% nonbinary) is closer to someone bi-gender rather than agender; the feminine aspect to him isn't just theatrics, it's actively also part of his entirety to him, (compared to daisuke's passivity; the ten thousand canonical princess allusions,) and even if nobody ever recognizes it in a cognizant way, it is always, always there, the same way that erik blurs and obscures gender in leroux's novel (my second enormous inspiration, sugisaki's outright admitted primary) and sakurai occasionally discusses his relationship as both a performer and a person as well (my third enormous inspiration and sugisaki's secondary,) (see 1, 2.) simply put, the tragedy of (my!) dark does not ever derive from his being able to choose and sit comfortably and confidently with this sort of identity (in fact, it's one of the few things he can stubbornly, viciously decide for himself [alongside daisuke] as essentially a non-human, autonomous 'angel',) it's instead the way that his personality is so strong and 'anti-feminine' in the eyes of convention that said aspect of himself often gets disregarded for strictly masculine (and regardless, further self-contradictory and therefore isolating,) expectations.

dark himself alone does not care if others do not understand him; this is meant to be one of his far more admirable and impressive traits. he's staunchly independent: he knows who he is, what he's supposed to be, and he knows that if he actively presented himself more femininely (crossdressing to 'pass' essentially,) then people's behaviors WOULD be very likely to change around him, but he doesn't even do that because it goes against his overwhelming sense of pride. he never contorts, he never twists himself, what matters to him is that he and he alone understands himself and knows what he is, what he isn't. but he is, without proper support or acceptance, still alone. even bearing a strong character, the stifling loneliness and inherent, underlying self-sense of broken/wrongness of the 'other,' (god's luciferean problem child, the black sheep, the black-leather wearing punk,) is still inflicted on him. dark exists solely for himself, he exists solely for daisuke, which is simultaneously wherein the inversion and insecurities lie: if dark is canonically the live metaphor for all the aspects of daisuke's self that he attempts to and yet cannot possibly, conceivably repress, from his loves to his faults to his shames and his criminal sins as a thief, then the likes of daisuke's own personal confusions in regards to himself and his attempts at intimacy/socialization with others is the other, hidden side of dark's absolute self-confidence; it's every fear of perpetual isolation, misunderstanding, and abandonment for things outside of daisuke's own control.

queerness in relation to the self (transgender allegory) queerness in relation to others (non-hetero-romanticism) mental illness (depression, anxiety,) etc, etc, dark's thematic basis may at its most general simply be "a secret that feels wrong and that you feel you can't really tell anyone or else you'll get in trouble/won't be as liked as much" but it feels much better to give due respect to each of these primary roots.

[heybaetae]

hi

[teeth-cable]

Have you seen The Amazing Digital Circus yet?

If so, what's your opinion on it?

I LOVE TADC! It’s my favorite indie show at the moment! There’s just so much I like about it but my main ones are

1. The setting and execution being unique. A horror-like project taking place in an late 90s/early 2000s digital game is not a new idea and same goes with characters being stuck in a purgatory however it’s how the artists reinvent those idea that makes it new. The digital Circus made its own aesthetic that makes it stand out from other projects with similar concepts and designs. When I first watched the pilot, one of many things that stuck out to me was how new the story ideas felt. I couldn’t think of any other pieces of media similar to TADC beside for surface-level comparisons. The TADC created its own aesthetic and knows what it wants to be and I like it!

2. Soundtrack. Speaks for itself, the soundtrack for the pilot is so good especially Your New Home. That song is very catchy and emotional too. It has such a unique melody, everytime you hear the first few notes you instantly recognize it. It does a great job highlighting the dread and existentialism crisis of Pomni’s situation. I recommend to give it a listen if you haven’t.

3. The characters dynamics. I just love how the characters interact with each other. The majority of the jokes comes from characters’ interactions and dynamics and how well everyone plays off of each other. The best example is Jax with everyone, Jax is a funny jerk who likes bullying his peers. It’s funny to see what creative ways Jax will bully the other people whether it’s being sarcastic and making quips at them, or though goofy pranks and how the characters react because of their contrast in personality. Every character beside Jax is openly stressed or worried in someway while Jax, at first seem like a chill layback dude.

4. The characters differences. I adored the differences between each character from how they talk to their poses. After watching HH and HB, I learned to have an appreciation for character differences. It’s just refreshing to see characters allowed to be different instead of the same tired reused tropes and repeating the same type of dialogue again for every character.

5. Mystery and lore. There is so much to explore in the pilot, it’s make you wanting more. When going in to watch the pilot, I made the mistake of thinking the series will be predictable. I didn’t see how they could make this premise work because by the end of it, Pomni will go insane but then I watched the pilot and was speechless. The pilot does a good job setting up questions for the audience to ask. If Caine lied about the exit, what are other things did he lied about? How long has the cast been stuck in the circus? Who are these people? Are they previous game developers? Who were they in their previous lives? What is the company’s motivation to create the headset? What are the abstractions in game? Are they viruses to the game program? Who were the former cast? What horrors has Kinger seen to be as paranoid and easily frighten as he is now? Do the abstractions still have a consciousness? You just want to find out more about the lore to solve the many mysteries in the show. I find it impressive Gooseworx was able to stir up the theorists because they have admitted in an ask, there are already theories floating around that are almost right about the show.

One problem I did have for the pilot were the scenes containing the Gloink Queen. The pacing of the pilot was fine until we got to her then it was slow. I feel it dragged longer than it needed too but beside that, my issues for the pilot ends.

I can’t speak for the fandom on other platforms but the tumblr one is great! Most of the time everyone is being respectful towards each other and I love seeing what creative theories, AU, fanfics, and art the fans created. The only people causing drama are the anti-shippers, and it’s just dumb. All of the cast are adults, if age gaps ships makes people uncomfortable, that’s valid but they shouldn’t make it into other people’s problems. Gooseworx themselves admitted they don’t care for romance and they don’t want fans in the fandom getting harassed over shipping.

Overall despite what issues I had for the pilot and fandom, they’re overshadowed by the positives and I can’t wait to see the full show and the fandom’s growth.

[rotzaprachim]

*breathes in and out through mouth* everyone is scared and grieving and still waiting for news of their families everyone is scared and grieving everyone is scared and grieving*

[altruistic-meme]

sigh.

[californiaquail]

i feel like people with sick children are way too fine with letting their kids run around and get other people sick like. it is rude to knowingly spread diseases? if i'm sick i don't take it to gatherings of other people why is your kid exempt from this

[scribblingface]

next bit of my bg3 durge playthrough. collecting lae'zel and exploring the ruined temple!

The gang finds Lae'zel in a predicament.

There are a lot of traps scattered around the area, most of them broken, but apparently not all of them: Lae'zel has gotten stuck in some sort of cage. Two tieflings are standing nearby watching her and discussing what they should do, but 'letting her out' doesn't seem to be an option they're considering.

Oak is so incredibly cheered to see her angry face again. She did survive after all!

"Your quarry looks dangerous, but I've handled worse. Leave it to me and get to safety," he says, putting on a suitably serious expression.

(I love the rare times that the paladin dialogue option is not just a bland goody two shoes line, like this paladin deception option. truly the paladin dialogue choices are the worst)

Oak has a brief conversation with the two tieflings, getting directions to the the nearby settlement they're currently camping at and the name of a healer there, Nettie, and then they head off.

"Enough gawking," Lae'zel growls. "Get me down."

(the first time I played I got stuck here for a minute trying to figure out how on earth to get the cage down/opened. 'shoot the part that lae'zel is standing on with an arrow' was not the most intuitive option. to me.)

"But the longer we wait, the more it consumes. My people possess the cure for this infection. I must find a creche; you will join me."

"Careful," Shadowheart says. "She obviously sees your kindness as weakness. Don't let her take advantage."

His kindness? It's not even an admonishment; she's being protective of him, and he finds himself a little bit pleased and flattered.

"And what exactly is a creche...?"

"It is many things. A hatchery, a training grounds, a shelter. Githyanki protocol is clear: when infected by a ghaik tadpole, we must report to a ghustil for purification."

"All right, we'll go together. Let's find this creche."

It's the only real lead they have, and Lae'zel is nothing if not motivated to get her parasite removed.

"I'll trust your judgment," Shadowheart says, "but I won't trust hers. Not until I've gotten the measure of her."

"You've a sharp tongue, elf. Would that your mind proved its equal."

"Half-elf. I suppose the finer details are lost on a creature like you."

Shadowheart trusts his judgement, and she and Lae'zel are back at each other's throats. What more could Oak ask for.

"The horned ones mentioned a camp. One there--this Zorru--has seen githyanki. A creche must be near. We will ask this Zorru where he has seen my kin."

and Astarion once again has the best comments on companion recruitment: "I am enjoying the latest addition to our little group. Lae'zel is delightful--in a very 'look at me twice and I'll dismember you' kind of way, of course."

Their next order of business is following the tieflings' directions to their camp, but on the way they spot some interesting ruins. Large sections of an ancient building are still standing, and Oak gets the impression that it used to be a temple, although it's hard to tell much at a distance. Something about it draws his attention, and almost without thinking he detours to take a closer look.

At the ruins they run into a group of well armed scavengers who are staking a claim to both that site and the crashed nautiloid ship. Oak could just apologize and back off, but...he wants to see the temple. He convinces the scavengers that there are live mind flayers at the crash site and that they better run for it while they can. And with that, they have the place to themselves.

Gale and Shadowheart are clearly curious about the place as well, which is lucky for Oak, because he doesn't know how to explain the odd pull he feels to explore it. The group drifts apart, Gale and Shadowheart speculating on the era of the architecture and which god it might have been built for, Astarion wandering off into the lower area where Oak can't see him, and Lae'zel impatiently grumbling about time wasted while she keeps an eye in the direction the scavengers left.

Oak finds a large crack in the old stone floor. There's no dirt in it, no plants growing through. He kneels down and puts an eye to it. His darkvision is limited, but there's definitely some kind of room down there. Unnoticed by the others, he climbs up onto the wall overlooking the cracked floor, and manages to leverage a large piece of masonry off the crumbling edge. The resounding crack of breaking stone brings everyone's attention sharply back to him.

In response to the chorus of 'what are you doings', he points to the room down below. This is not an entirely satisfactory answer, so he elaborates that the scavengers might have had the right idea about the ruins containing something valuable, and besides, it would be a great sheltered spot to camp in if they turn out to be unwelcome at the tieflings' camp. And really, how long can it take to have just a little look around?

He knows there's something important down there, but he doesn't even understand the odd hunch himself and he thinks he'd sound crazy if he tried to explain it.

They carefully lower themselves down into the room below... startling a group of scavengers who were already exploring underground and were presumably also drawn to investigate the noise. Before Oak has a chance to try talking his way out of the problem, they attack.

The room Oak and company occupy is small and cluttered with debris. The scavengers are in the hall beyond, blocking the doorway, and the sunlight from the hole in the ceiling only serves to cast everything beyond it into even greater darkness. Then one of the scavengers throws something incendiary through the doorway, and Oak's group are in a mad scramble to get out of the room. Oak slams the man blocking the doorway back a few steps, grappling with him to keep the exit clear for the others. Then someone else comes at him, swings at his head before he can react, and his vision's blacking out as he crumples to the floor.

He comes to a moment later with Shadowheart kneeling over him.

"Easy," she cautions with a hand on his chest, and he waits for the energy of her healing magic to fade as he tries to reorient himself. It's quiet. The others are all standing around him. It's clearly been more than a moment.

"Good to have you back with us," she says, offering him a hand up.

It's beginning to sink in that he was uselessly unconscious while the others fought for their lives. It's beginning to sink in that they protected him, and he would have died if they hadn't. He's been preoccupied with how to get them to trust him--to rely on him--but only now does he consider the strange possibility that he might already be able to rely on them, even hardly knowing them. It's oddly uncomfortable and reassuring at the same time.

"Next time, leave breaking and entering to the experts," Astarion says. "There was a door, you know, and it's not that difficult to force a lock." His words are light and mocking, but Oak can hear the real anger beneath them. It was a stupid risk that Oak took and it landed them in trouble.

"Not my finest moment, I know," he says grimly, gingerly feeling his head for any lingering sign of injury.

"You weren't wrong about it being a lucrative site to scavenge, though," Gale says dryly, nodding towards the discarded bag of one of the scavengers with ancient coins and silver dishes spilling out of it.

Taking a moment to look around and assess the space, Oak can see that it's part of a large complex with rooms branching off in multiple directions.

"Since we're already here..."

And luckily for him, he's fallen in with a curious company. They have to take a look around before they leave.

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[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

[nomairuins]

bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost 🙏

[confessiononadancefloor]

rant <3

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: May 29

“Evil Like Me” by Kristin Chenoweth & Dove Cameron for Disney's Descendants OS

[kohakhearts]

well folks its been a good two months of denial but i am finally ready to admit that the reason everything sucks is because of major depression relapse. if i werent so depressed id make this everyone elses problem by projecting it on to blorbo but alas