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I've done a lot of emotional labor tonight and I am tired.
A friend earlier this evening messaged me. We don't talk a lot other than when we see each other in person but sometimes he gets buzzed/drunk and will end up messaging me. Which is what he did tonight. It wasn't too bad, he was spiraling a little about something, I didn't ask. Mostly just wanted to talk.
Then right when I was falling asleep at 3AM my friend with the piece of shit abusive husband calls me which is usually a good way to ruin my night, though never as badly as hers has been. At least tonight she was calling because he decided to be an abusive piece of shit again and got arrested this time. But I did have to sit with her for almost two hours while she processed that. She also just got over covid. Or is supposedly over it. I swear if I get covid from this I'll be so pissed. I'm going see Janelle Monae next weekend. But at least he's hopefully out the picture since he was already on probation from the last time he was an abusive piece of shit.
No one is allowed to have a single feeling in my vicinity for the next 24 hours. I just can't do it
#i know I sound insensitive about my friend and her abusive situation#but she has ignored my advice from day one about him#but I'm who gets called any time day or night when he acts up#and she keeps going back#i understand the complexities of it#but its exhausting to watch#i told her once if she doesn't leave him I'll be testifying at her murder trial#she let that fucking man live in my house#something i still don't reallt forgive her for#i asked her why he had been arrested and she insisted he wasn't dangerous it was just a bipolar episode#i find out months later after they move she's always known he was dangerous#he tried to drown her once!!!
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Sally is the real neighborhood Rizzler... you all know i'm right...
#she knew what she was doingggggg#she Knew!!!!#'youre going to make me blush' yes poppy i think that was her intention <3#popstar is A tier ship you cant convince me otherwise#fuck now im tempted to make a For Fun ship tier list.... no im not. the exhaustion is just making me insane#popstar is theeeeeee lesbian pairing tho#fingers crossed im onto something with them#cmon cmon i love being right#i love clocking relationships before they happen its my fav hobby when watching/reading stuff#i know im delusional with laughingstock but Popstar? i! am! so! correct!#probably. maybe. if im Wrong... dont light your torches im just a lil guy#scribble garnish#welcome home#wh popstar#sally starlet#poppy partridge#THAT TABLE SHOT MY WIFE AND ATE MY LEFTOVERS#i rarely scribble objects and the like and its For A Reason#it was fun for like... ten seconds and then it got tedious but i was Committed#although. i will admit.#scribbling the misc items was nice. love me some Stuff and Things
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this old world may never change and sometimes i wonder: do you ever think of me?
#my art#ok to rb#christopher moltisanti#when that wizard cursed me and i felt indebted to his soul#sketchbook tour#sopranos#sopranos fanart#christopher your violent delights will undoubtedly have violent ends (are they even your delights to begin with?)#these are like 6 mo old now. at least the first two#i could prob make these look better if i edited them for longer but i cant be fucked. only uploading these now bc i figured if its been 6#months i probably wont ever go scan these with the heavy duty 800 dpi scanner. this works good enough#i dont really draw like this anymore it got really exhausting#i miss watching sopranos so bad i felt like i was feasting on it for days every time i watched an episode. took so long for me to watch#bc anything that makes me feel that high couldnt be good for me. had to space the episodes out by a few days
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Your gegg is soooo cuteee 💘💘 I don't know how you do it but you draw this specimen perfectly
ty! the secret is egg :]
#ask stufff#stufffsart#slimecicle#gegg#qsmp#qsmp spoilers#so like this tweet (NOT fucking calling them xeets) has been haunting me for days its crazy#its crazy! like its funny yet horrendously true - the idea of gegg (q!Slime) constantly going through cycles of himself essentially dying#and being reborn again all over as something else#watch him grow and become the thing people want him to be only to exhaust himself at the end of the day helpless#gegg shrivels up and is helpless and needs others to help him rest and get back up again as much as Slime tries to do these things by himse#f CAN U HEAR ME OUT THEREEEE#stufff rambles
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Preseason Game 1 Leafs vs Sens | 9.22.24
#toronto maple leafs#mitch marner#auston matthews#1634#hockeyedit#egifs#2425#ignore the terrible framerate my computer is OVERWORKED TONGHT W A VPN ON. but its fine#i feel so exhausted n all i did was watch a game but anyway look how beautiful they are.. love threm bad#all that matters to me ok#leafs lb
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was worried parts of cr2 would not hold up on rewatch (especially seeing people hate the aeor arc so much) but ngl so far its either been good and fun as hell (travellercon, pirate arc) or just straight up banger after banger. like the xhorhas to angel of irons through to refjorged arc and then the cathedral.................. unrelenting slay
#so far the aeor arc is banging i love that its so freaky and i love that theyre committing to the bit and its cold as fuck and snowy#and everyones getting points of exhaustion from the cold#and lucien is scary . and it just feels like from the point they find molly's empty grave and then again when vess dies that theyre#spiralling as fast as an actual play dnd podcast can go towards a big scary climax with connecting threads and research its so fun#im excited for later when (almost) everyone starts getting the eyes on themselves. i love the raising stakes of it. its so spoooky#just abt to get to the ep when caleb and beau first do 😈#kiddo say#cr2 is just peak to me .#i did start at the beginning of the iron shepherds arc tho so i did hear/remember it starts slow. but idk i still like the characters enoug#but maybe i should go back to there too#(my rewatch started because i wanted to watch scenes with nila and then just kept going while i was working lmao)#nila and keg rule sm some of my fave guests. reani too#twiggy also is v good. but i should go back bc i actually dont remember calianna very well .
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What everyone should understand from spider verse is that Miguel is right about Spider-Man, but he’s completely wrong about Miles.
#HES A KID. and it’s not an easy title to carry. it’s not a saving grace.#the whole point of miles is that he’s a good kid; he’s bleeding sunshine and exhausted brightness#he wants to be a good son. a good friend. a good hero. a good person.#miles’ spark is being a good person.#and the tragedy is that miles is all those things.#miles is a good kid. and that didn’t save him.#but he doesn’t CARE; the whole entire movie we watch miles be a secondary character in his whole life.#the difference between miles and Miguel is that miles sacrifices himself and Miguel sacrifices others#AND ITS SOOOOOO#atsv#across the spiderverse#miles morales#miguel o'hara#text#text post#spiderverse
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Cw.smoking
Im back with more tma au stuff :D some gothcleats this time cause i really like them. Also gosh this took ages...comics are hard guys.
#dndads#dungeons and daddies#my art#link li wilson#scary marlowe#cw smoking#dndads tma au#texture go brrrr#this was so exhausting to color#but its dome and its here#and there are so so many gradient and folders of you have no idea#also ive started watching 2 broke girls its very fun :)#gothcleats
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never let me write an almost 30 thousand word chapter for a fic ever again
#even hours after its posted i am utterly exhausted#i spent 6 hours editing it#only to finally come out of the room i was in (because i need to be completely alone when writing) just to find my bf#curled up beneath the dining room table that he'd turned into a fort and he's passing out watching youtuber lets plays#thats what neglect looks like
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guys avpm is going to be 15 years old
in 18 days
what the fuck
#im .#wow#starkid#avpm#i rewatched avpsy today and i remembered the real reason i havent watched it nearly as much as avpm and avps#which is that its emotionally fucking exhausting (/pos)#and also im watching starkid homecoming rn and im. losing my mind#augh#a very potter musical#a very potter trilogy#avpt
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pisces/virgo placements... it's about time you took care of yourself, too, ok?
you burn yourselves out allowing yourself to be pulled by so many people in all different directions. you exhaust all your resources and empty your cup - no, your entire well - to help those around you, even people you don't know. it's such a beautiful thing, and i know you genuinely love helping others, supporting people, seeing them thrive. it's such a beautiful trait! but you constantly end up neglecting yourself, right? you don't realize that you have permission to set aside time to care for you, to cater to your needs for once. you often feel like no one puts a drop in your cup, the favor is never returned - it's exhausting; you might think if you just keep giving your all it will come back; i understand. you will find the people that give the same energy back to you one day, but regardless of whether you've found those people yet, you need to learn to step aside and fill your own cup!
setting boundaries and saying no is the most important thing you will learn to do in this lifetime. it will not be easy for you, sometimes it will feel painful. but you cannot help the world if you're constantly drained and tired! you deserve to take care of yourself in the same way you do for others. be gentle to your kind soul, nourish yourself; do the things you love to do. learn to worry about others less, as hard as it is, and focus on yourself more.
#astrology#luna.txt#pisces#virgo#mutable#ok i love making posts in this style and like the last post i made#i almost didnt make my last post bc i was worried no one would like it#but u all were so nice and received it so well#so i hope this one can resonate too!!!#i luv u <3#i really really wanna carve out time to post here more!!#im currently working three jobs tho so a little exhausted flkdjfjdlf#also i cannot stop watching anime lately#if any of u have suggestions for stuff that has the vibe of my happy marriage and lvl 999 yamada... pls tell me#i love that cheesy non-stressful romance especially like the yamada 999 anime 😭💖#genshin. anime. work. thats my life lately. and thats ok#omg ive also been watching hidden love and its so cute#i was worried it'd be creepy w/ the age gaps but so far seems ok??#sorry i always end my posts with unrelated rants but anyway<3#if anyone ever needs to talk abt anime/astro/genshin/cdramas.. i am here#mine
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top 3 fave bbys in the burrito show (bonus SUPER LONG tags on how i feel bout the characters)
#my art#boruto naruto next generations#sarada uchiha#shikadai nara#inojin yamanaka#in no particular order except sarada is my fav- i think she shouldve been main focus- girl brings all of og team 7 together at all times#just her family history alone is very interesting and i WISH we had seen a convo with sausage boi about her uncle and just everything#but shes a pretty solid character on her own- VERY good mix of both parents yet still being her own self#shikadai is funny i really like seeing him- hes a sight for sore eyes- bro got EVERYTHING from his dad minus his eyes and maybe hair#his dynamic with boruto being besties is really fun to watch- sarada too- with both shika and sara being geniuses and all#i love inojin's simplicity and how ordinary he is.... its... realistic?#hes artistically talented yes with his ninja art stuff but everything else hes kinda... mundane? at times even bad?#Considering every other prev gen child's got all these cool stuff goin on- i like that hes just... kinda normal... i like that about him#boruto i actually do like as well- he'd make a GREAT support character- i love how big bro he is and how he wants to stand up for others#hes a lot like naruto in that way- and might be a hot topic to say this but i also like how - in his very first arc- boruto hates the hokag#not his dad but internalized that the job took his dad away from him- regardless on criticism i think that concept is really neat#i am not well versed in what the story is now for boruto- ive just kinda picked my snacks on what i wanna watch lmao#but i do wish there was more showings of slice of life for all the kids- cuz they are all really interesting- especially for prev gen's kid#>>wished they did timetravel arc with sarada so we coulda seen young sasuke & sakura interact with boruto and sarada T_T#one last note: borusara is very interesting- but i actually prefer them just being friends- at most friends with crushes on eachother#i do think its cute but i like the dynamic of it being unrequited idk its new for me i just prefer them as friends with crushes lmao#prob cuz they work as characters independently Im not really interested in ANY of the new gen hookin up- borusara is the most interesting#i mean it IS the ONLY one being pushed canonically but i like it- that boruto looks out for sarada and sarada worries for boruto#but ya i wish boruto was like mitsuki in being a side character - i think a LOT more people will find him less annoying that way#though- i REALLY want more sarada and sasuke dynamics being shown- actually the uchiha fam a TON more than what we got#they are just SUPER interesting to me lmao#im a sucker for the emo boy turns soft and has family and bonds with their kids- its one of my favourite things in media#i feel like scraping the ocean floor when im trying to find quality sasuke and sarada art pieces and story stuff#cuz ive exhausted all the content in these past what 2-3 years of knowing both boruto- and now more recently - naruto#(yes im one of those people who knew boruto before naruto- smite me)
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happy 35th anniversary mother 1!!!!!! love this game 2 death <3
#ive been working on this. for 5 hours.#i dont know how to draw things or scenes or anything ever ignore if its jank#scribbles#mother series#furry tag#mother 1#earthbound beginnings#earthbound zero#ninten mother 1#ana mother 1#lloyd mother 1#actually tagging things for once wow#im so exhausted i dont know how to formulate words#i feel like i shouldve made the canvas have slightly different dimensions but i cant tweak that now i made too many overlays#aaaaghhgghb#whatever#theyre supposed. to be on the train By The Way#again i dont know how to draw things i dont know if its clear <//3#i love this game so much though oh my god#ITS SO CUTE nd watching pikaspreys playthru is what got me into the series. cannot love it nearly enough on that alone#playing through it earlier this year was an absolute blast too i get the urge to replay it . constantly#ahhhh i feel like i should say more but idk!!!! again im so tired sorry if im not making sense or like this is all just stupid i donttt car#EDIT I JUST NOTICED A TYPO MONTHS LATWR. KILL ME
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Lol
#theres nothing quite like your mother saying Well maybe you shouldve been more careful because now your boss might think youve been flirting#with this male coworker (whom i like splendidly as a friend) and now maybe she thinks youre not trustworthy#and maybe she regrets hiring you because you said you feel like youre making a lot of mistakes this week and she might assume thats because#your head is filled with this boy.#so dont make her regret hiring you.#MA'AM I TOLD YOU I WAS ALREADY ANXIOUS BECAUSE I MADE SO MANY MISTAKES TODAY WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME ASHAMED#OF SOMETHING THAT I HONESTLY HAD NO CLUE I OUGHT TO BE ANXIOUS ABOUT AT MY FIRST NEW JOB AFTER IVE GRADUATED????#anyway going to bed i cant take this anymore LOL she said it so lightly and im like. well i never even considered#being afraid of making my boss regret hiring me somehow because of some kind of behaviour that i had no idea was sending some kind of signal#anywaysssss 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#and then she was like why are you crying?? 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#not to be like this is partly why i didnt want to move home but confound it all why are things like this#can i not simply confide in my mother my anxieties and worriws#worries#and not also have to worry about her potentially being like Well have you considered you ARE right and it IS your fault?#idk man something something firstborn child eldest daughter can i have some room to breathe. please#also not to whine but Not my father walking in on me eating dinner at 10pm because i was holed up#in my room in a semi depressive state after so many gong shows in a work day and straight up having no appetite#but deciding my body needs the food anyway its better late than never.....walking in and then saying#you know if you eat this late you'll gain weight. SIR??????????????????#sorry to complain and rant again i simply cannot in this house and whats more am doing my best to honour my parents#but why is it so hard out here and how can they say stuff like that with a smile!!!!!!!#also i DO have an inner critic who is always like Its your fault you are the worst you should be ashamed always........why do my parents#not understand after knowing me for so long and watching me grow up#that i can make myself so ashamed of the smallest thing so easily and that what they say drives me to shame almost as easily?#ANYWAY LOL WHAT A DAY#you guys!!! i am working so hard i promise i PROMISE I am!!! it is my first full time job ever and i am working so so hard#i am doing my absolute best and no one sees it and that is FINE i just wish my parents would see that i AM trying!!#i come back home so dead every single day because i put in 120%! this is literally my first job after graduation#and my parents KNOW this has been the most exhausting taxing and soul crushing year ive had in my very short life so far
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just saw someone misread kamen and fionas relationship so bad someone hold me back
#(scavengers reign on netflix now u should watch it tho)#kiddo say#spoilers ->#implying she's abusive towards kamen because shes cold to him 😐.......... fiona i will avenge you#the reason fiona is so cold towards him is because he's selfish and uncaring towards her. he has worn her down so much that#shes exhausted . she's trapped on the demeter with him with no other family. she gave up her whole life for him and he doesnt#even care about how she feels . just how she feels about him and how he can brag when he feels big and important#he only panics around her when he realises she could leave him because he's just kind of pathetic and doesnt have shit without her#bc kamen wears people down . he's unwilling to work on himself or listen to others thats why he corrupts the hollow#and why him and sam fail to communicate. theyre both too stubborn. but unlike kamen sam does actually care abt his crew#shes given up on the relationship so she fails to communicate but theres only so much she can rly do at that point like. shes so tired#you know what i mean ..#he only cries and regrets what he did when he's confronted by it stranded alone on vesta minor and even then he wont confront it#he lets hollow absorb him#(this also doesnt mean that kamen isnt interesting and tragic. because he is. its just his own doing)
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you know what, I actually will talk about this because it's bothering me. The issue with focussing so heavily on syd and carmy's potential for a romantic relationship isn't that there's something inherently unintellectual about romance or whatever, it's that a lot of people seem incapable of doing that without immediately flattening the story and ignoring or intentionally misreading any and all nuance for the sake of that romance. Every scene suddenly becomes about how it impacts their relationship, every analysis is done through a romantic lens, every frame or line of dialogue becomes about finding some easter egg or hint that "proves" these people should start dating. Their dynamic is absolutely a fundamental part of this show, but if you can only see it as a will-they-won't-they, you miss so much of what the story is actually trying to say with these two.
There are good versions of this story where their relationship is romantic and there are good versions of this story where it isn't, but as soon as you decide them being together is "the point," you lose the ability to actually judge the story for what it is, not what you want it to be.
#like so much of their dynamic (esp but not exclusively in S3) has been about showing the ways that carmy's trauma and dysfunctional#attitude in the kitchen impacts other people and how even though he cares about syd and wants their partnership to work he keeps self#sabotaging and setting himself and by extension her and the restaurant up to fail and replicating the same toxic environments that#he grew up and trained in and this is very much consistent with his character and a natural continuation of the conflicts they've been#having since S1 but because him being shitty with her runs contrary to them getting together suddenly its 'ruining the story' and#out of character and only happening bc the writers just hate to see this ship winning and like. if you really think that i genuinely don't#know what show you've been watching bc it sure as shit wasn't this one. like it hurts to see him do this because you know#they could do something genuinely great together and that he's ruining a really good thing but this is also the reality of where he is rn#if he was just a good and supporting business partner and not deeply dysfunctional it would be wildly out of character#the problem w S3 wasn't that it 'ruined' their relationship it's that it had no clear focus overemphasized carmy's arc at the expense#of the other leads deprioritized the supporting cast while failing to give them their own arcs gave more screen time to#unecessary and uninteresting new 'comic relief' characters and let conflicts stagnate without resolving them or#letting them evolve over the course of the season.#this isn't exclusive to the bear this is a general trend ive noticed where as soon as the 'shipper' part of people's brains get activated#it's like they lose the ability to read the story any other way and it stops being about what's good for the narrative and starts being#about whether or not these two people kiss and anything that gets in the way of that is bad and anything that brings it closer is good#and it's usually whatever but it's really frustrating when the story ppl are doing that to is this good#it also makes people fundamentally incapable of treating any 'obstacle' to that romance in a way that isn't wildly meanspirited and#gross (esp bc those characters are usually women) which is exhausting. like no claire isn't evil or a 'pick me' or 'bad' for carmy#or a useless addition to the story or whatever other nonsense you guys have decided must be true to feel okay. she's a perfectly normal#character and their relationship is exploring some of the ways that carmy's inability to deal with or actually address his trauma#impacts the various relationships in his life. she doesn't even have to be a monster or a narrative mistake for him and syd to be#'destined' for each other or whatever. this isn't a middle school wattpad fic.#im definitely gonna get killed in the street for this but ive been looking for a good reason to spend less time on here so might as well#the bear#sydcarmy#sydney adamu#carmy berzatto
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