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cone collection grows. i have this rly big pleasingly chunky stone pine cone at home but this is just my collection for here

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just deeply unwell about it all if im being honest

this was insane. hand over my mouth. "i dont know if we were right" . ...... okay. ok ok ok ok . okay. okay alright yeah ok

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this was insane. hand over my mouth. "i dont know if we were right" . ...... okay. ok ok ok ok . okay. okay alright yeah ok

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david lupton's illustrations for the folio society edition of the left hand of darkness. rly nice textures

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ur all very lucky i chuck all of my tlhod reblogs onto a random sideblog with like 10 followers bc the autism levels are simply catastrophic

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i had seen while i was reading tlhod that people were insane about estraven but i didnt know much yet bc i was still reading and now that i finished im also insane about estraven literally Thee character ever of all time im not joking

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still trying to figure out how to draw them both especially estraven . but liek what if .what if they smiled and laughed and just hung out maybe also. cries so hard i throw up

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(spoilers btw) constantly thinking about how genly and estraven's selves start to sort of overlap as they travel across the ice. how genly's priority changes from his ekumen mission to estraven. how estraven lets genly speak in his mind. estraven speaks and genly thought for a moment that it was him.

"two are one, life and death, lying together"

and then estraven skis ahead down the hill and doesn't slow down for genly this time. and genly cant do anything. estraven dies and genly recounts: "then [the border guards] made me get up, and took me off one way and him another." and later he has these nightmares about being in the truck to the farm again except the dead person against the door has blood in their mouth and has abandoned him ("he was the traitor. he had gone on by himself, deserting us, deserting me. i would wake up full of rage, a feeble shaky rage that turned into feeble tears."). their tent on the ice was the heart of the universe with the little stove and the damp sleeping bags and the sound of the wall of the tent and estraven's breathing and genly doesn't quite recognise the terrans when they arrive on the ship and they dont recognise him either. and also part of him has been left on the ice forever. in the tent with estraven. .. "from the lakeshore looking up southward at the hills i saw a light i knew: the blink, the white suffusion of sky, the glare of the glacier lying high beyond. the Ice was there."

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listened 2 a podcast episode about tlhod and the host accidentally almost called estraven estrogen which is representation for me and my friend cassie bc we've been calling them gender ai and they/therem harth rem ir estrogen

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the left hand of darkness.. .. chapter 19..... page 283...... "but off he went, downhill: a magnificent fast skier, and this time not holding back for me" .. .. .... "he ran from me.."

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whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! genly and therem portaits/ design ideas . normal abt them

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tlhod if genly had a phone

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i appreciate truly that ursula k le guin wrote a scifi book that has basically got fanfiction porn instructions in it. like here's how sex works on this planet with these alien people btw and also .......... .um well. theyre huddling for warmth

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whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! genly and therem portaits/ design ideas . normal abt them

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finished the left hand of darkness 😁 (<- in mourning)

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friday treat of clean bedding, hair washed, and for dinner i made hummus with cumin smoked paprika turmeric and a little bit of sumac on top , and i bought a little tub of dolmades and they were nice ones not mushy . AND i have mint tea

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caduceus when he gets back home to the grove after aeor arc in my opinion