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she would literally love labubus

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sigh............. thought about the character again. as usual. great subtlety (that i rly enjoy) to how caduceus functions in regard to experiencing emotion. generally pretty chill and happy, enjoys smiling and laughing along and being part of something even if hes not directly in it and sort of a little bit staying on the edge maybe on purpose sometimes. occasionally he's a little too intense. little bit weird. might need to go get some air. but also recurring kind of extreme avoidance when it comes to what he cant predict the outcome of. he will sit in his house and wait for someone to find him. he'll not try to contact his family because he doesn't want to hear the wrong answer (or worse, nothing). doesnt try to speak to the wildmother after the gods are dead/gone because there's the worst thing again: what will happen if he does? it might be nothing <- and then what? so then in the one-shot he got an answer and its that the wildmother is gone but that nature is still everywhere and alive. and also he prays to his friends health. but like its also a confirmation that the wildmothers gone and the crisis and the unknown are over so now he just has to deal with that rather than hanging around waiting to see whats needed from him and thats the worst part. (he sort of also thrives in these crisis scenarios where he can Fix Things) the gods dying crisis ends and settles and the fundamentally changed person is himself and exandria will move on because nature is still alive but the wildmother isnt and thats permanent even if it was the 'kindest' option, and then itll be years later and his house thats a temple will remind him of this space something used to be but theres nothing to do about it anymore so what do you do with yourself then

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got inspired

formal apology to caduceus criticalrole clay for creating fankids for him in various art pieces on account of, in ep28, nott asking him a series of questions and then asking if he has kids and him replying no!! in a notably more affronted tone then any of his other answers. aroace legend

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formal apology to caduceus criticalrole clay for creating fankids for him in previous art pieces on account of, in ep28, nott asking him a series of questions and then asking if he has kids and him replying no!! in a notably more affronted tone then any of his other answers. aroace legend

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thinking of modern au again, and projecting a bit but as a version of caduceus staying home mostly and only leaving sometimes to explore with calliope (outside of meeting with tmn and that huge diving into society with them at first), i think he stays home lots but ends up doing these long meditative thru-hikes where he doesnt rush and just takes his time and does eventually let calliope come with because she's worried about her wee brother out on his own. they mostly use handmade and recycled equipment from their family and always bring things for making tea and cooking and dont mind the added pack weight rly because its worth it and cad loves cooking at the end of a long day. since in this version its not rly magical things the savalirwood isnt actually cursed (its the same in dragonfly year au) and instead the threat is land purchase and development for use for things like oil or mining and the clays have been fighting to keep their land against it , so there are hiking trails in the woods there , which are mountainous like we saw in the mn origins comic. theres maybe old shrines in the mountainside they visit too, as well as exploring other places

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from a little bit ago but its sheila 🤲

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hey, i’m a big fan of yours! love your art and how much you love cad (from a fellow cad enjoyer).

as per your recent post, i was wondering what you thought of essek as a character. i know so many people love him (including me lol) but id love to hear your thoughts on it, since you don’t really post about him much and i think ranked him low at some point (?might be misremembering).

just to make it clear this is not in any way a hate ask!! i’d genuinely love to hear your thoughts. thanks!

hey :-p thank u !! lets go cadnation

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this is interesting, now i have to have proper thoughts bc usually people are just rude to me about this when i express not particularly liking him . i will try. as a villain i do find him compelling, particularly pre-reveal and during rewatch, like watching him ask tmn to retrieve the beacons from ikithon knowing full-well the assembly would absolutely kill tmn if they were caught was rly slimy in a way i thinks good for a villain. ill not go into the adeen stuff bc i just did in prev post. basically ye think he's a good villain but that the covid hiatus meant that tmn reckoning with the reveal of him betraying their trust and everything else he'd done got kind of forgotten. not that it wasnt touched on but i noticed it in my rewatch bc obvs not months of gaps between this time . sort of like when nott accidentally killed cad but taliesin was sick the next week so they said they'd talk about it later but never did, it just happens sometimes. but generally, my dislike of him i think just comes from straight up i do not like his character type and its made worse by the fandom babying him and calling him little baby nicknames etc. guy who does terrible things and then acts kind of pathetically about it is not a character i fw (also i find it frustrating that he will say these self-deprecating things that are like true, he did do something horrific, and then jester has to comfort him about it . like essek stand up stop asking for this womans emotional labour you hurt her!!!!!!!!!! i feel bad for jester bc she obviously rly thought of him as their friend). also again a thing that is good for a villain but i personally find so frustrating and anger-inducing (again, good character i just hate his ass) is his distance from people he hurts. he lives in a gated neighbourhood and is extremely wealthy and powerful with huge influence in their government and servants he doesnt have to ever get his hands dirty even literally, he doesnt even touch the floor. which like htis is realistic, it is staring us right in the face, the people who start wars are the ones who wont be hurt and my anger at these people irl carries over. not nearly in the same extent but its not ignorable to me, the parallels, its a realistic type of person to exist. like when he starts whining about feeling bad i just end up rolling my eyes like get UPPP do the work and do something!!!!! but instead he runs from it forever. theres also this from the dnd book guide to exandria which is crazy:

like thats inexcusable to me. thats horrific idk what to say haha . and i see discourse of like if characters deserve redemption arcs and this isnt about 'deserve' bc idc about that im just saying that i hate his ass personally like just out of my own personal taste and man i just dont care if he likes soup either. he does begin to change yes but only when directly confronted with hurting tmn , not with when he was hurting adeen (he said it felt 'freeing' when the dynasty gave adeen to the empire to presumably be tortured and killed so thats like. um.) not when his actions caused him to work with people he knew were evil and hurting people and not when he heard news of the farming communities and working class people and conscripted young soldiers who were murdered in the war he knew he would start and was even excited about for his research. its like this indescribable amount of privilege that none of tmn will ever have in their lives. (some of them (veth) have been very directly effected by what he did, so thats an interesting dynamic thats not super touched on) so yes, interesting character who i just dont personally like the personality of (i dont connect with the ambition thing of 'wizard hubris' or 'former gifted kid' buzzwords people like to throw around about him so like whaddever man he's 100 yrs old get it together essek), and am curious what they will do about in the animated show now they can make more concrete adaptive choices :p

this may or may not make sense but it is long so i will not be rereading lol it is what it is 🧘 #mylongpost

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during this conversation caduceus comes downstairs due to it being half 5 and therefor his time to start working on dinner and he arranges all his cooking things as per usual and beaus like omg evidence

modern au beau would so be on the internet armchair diagnosing all her friends in a crazed research hyperfixation rabbit hole .... and then she'd try and discuss it with caleb and he'd be like hm i do not feel we have sufficient evidence to diagnose our friends beauregard and beau would be pacing around the room frantically like dude i swear to god caduceus is autistic

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modern au beau would so be on the internet armchair diagnosing all her friends in a crazed research hyperfixation rabbit hole .... and then she'd try and discuss it with caleb and he'd be like hm i do not feel we have sufficient evidence to diagnose our friends beauregard and beau would be pacing around the room frantically like dude i swear to god caduceus is autistic

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watched ep27 bc of nein again and got onto ep28 and the description of the grove is so fantastic i love the detail given but also oh my god caduceus was alone in a fucking acid trip for 8 years . description includes: 3 layers of concentric fences that surround the graveyard, the inner one only 40ft from the temple that sits in the middle like this place is small, the forest outside is constantly creeping in and rusting the fences, and in the shadow of the canopy the flowers in the grove appear greyish and dim but when sunlight passes through they all shimmer bizarrely bright in this rainbow wave of colour before the light disappears again. theres a big broken window in the temple and the moss and vines and ferns are growing into the house through it. like no wonder he doesnt know what day it is

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Nice to hear that someone else also wasn't invested in c3....I tried watching it a number of times but the setting and characters just didn't do it for me......

yea, i know people didnt enjoy it for all sorts of reasons theres like discourse posts about but personally the long single main plotline through it just absolutely did not work for me for that long actual play setting. it got introduced so early and went on for so long that by the time it was liek ep50 and they were fighting ludinus it felt like it shouldve been the end arc beginning but then it went on for 70 more episodes. the party split is where i rly struggled and eventually stopped bc it meant having to do the same period of time twice, just absolutely slowed down to a crawl after what should be a huge shift. the ley lines were cool but like.. idk it didnt give what it needed to give. molaesmyr/savalirwood stuff with vry Annihilation mutated animals couldnt even keep my interest for some reason and i love that setting (savalirwood). also didnt connect with any of the characters except for thinking fearne is funny (ashleys delivery is just rly good) some of them i found funny but , idk something about imogen didnt click with me (straight up could be bc shes dressed like a superhero for some reason lmao feels discordant to the character i thought she was), i liked laudna but then she was tied in with cr1 stuff im not interested in and lost interest, chetneys funny sometimes but again reference character, the exu characters same bc i didnt find that miniseries interesting either tbh. even w fearne i ended up not liking the vibe of the feywild particularly like i hadnt seen cr1 things of it i didnt realise it was kind of annoying sometimes aahaha. the rest of them i just actually didnt find interesting for whatever reason and they never seemed to rly gel or form wee friendships outside of their backstories like tmn did in the same time. general thing of disconnect with the landscape around them too which is sad personally to mee bc i enjoy it in stories and i think theres a nice connection to the land and different cultures in cr2 throughout the different pcs . oh wellllll my review 🙂‍↕️lol

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Curious your thoughts on CR4 being in a new world/setting, I'm happy Matt will be a player but I don't want to leave Exandria just yet when I know there's more to explore :c

i will wait and seee tbh , because i really love the setting in cr2 of course but man i did not enjoy cr3 and got very tired of the self-referential things (also think i dont rly like the cr1 settings that much just personal taste its too classic fantasy for me) and plot/characters in general so im glad theyre doing a change bc it all seemed a bit exhausted by the end of cr3. i find brennan a little too quick sometimes with how he speeds thru things but usually he's been pretty good in cr things hes done. i havent watched him in d20 bc i dont like the editing for it at all or the settings they usually do so thats the only thing , but like i feel like brennan in a crit role slower paced story could be good and i will probably check it out . im glad tbh theyre taking a break from exandria (outside of live-shows) bc ik there was big shake-ups with cr3 but i just do not care about that plot im sorry and i think itll be good to step away from it bc from an outside perspective on it , it all seemed to be getting messy

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number 1 arc i want in mn animated kept faithful in relevant plot points but especially tonally is iron shepherds arc like if we dont get the weird sad funeral and molly's death totally upping the stakes and rallying the group, keg and nila helping (best guest charactesr to meee) , the cold bleak mountain landscape, shadycreek run and spooky forest hermit witch rumour from ophelia and creepy savalirwood and then cad intro and eventually the relief of rescuing everyone then what is even the point . its so elite

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self reminder i need to put some fixative on this big painting i did for college landscape art module with glue and printer toner and water all mixed up of these mountain islands and take it someone where to photograph, maybe hold it up in front of the black crags or some other volcanic plug/basalt column space here

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there were canada geese too further out in the water but i was too busy watching them to take their photo

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you could see about putting them up for sale on kofi, if one of their options for getting the money to you is acceptable/functional? i've seen a lot of people do commissions and tattoo ticket sales through there

yes that is the plan , just need to get payment methods that work with kofi , thats the main thing ^_^

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need to figure out technical payment things in order to do commissions but i wont lie im also so unsure what to charge for things. like no one has enough money at the moment right but then ive seen a lot of artists have higher prices for similar skill/detail things , like 70-100 for character art (250ish for ref sheet type of things) and that jsut sounds high to me but i have no idea now 😭 like unsure what to do for portraits. nevermind styles and materials and things. i would kind of like to do pet portraits and tattoo designs bc thats fun