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We need more love for Johnathan Byers, so here's my thoughts on him
He deserves so much better
He had to endure trauma from abusive father, had to ignore his own fear and anger to protect his younger brother, had to practically raise Will because they are poor and Joyce had to work late, on top of that he felt responsible not only for Will but also for his mum and at the age of like 16 he also had a job to support her financially
He had little support in Joyce when Will disappeared, had to arrange the funeral by himself while also taking care of his mum
And after that, Joyce was focused only on Will (which is understandable, but still not good for Jonathan)
He had no friends, no one to support him in that hard time
Then he had Nancy, but she also didn't completely understand the pressure that was on him (being poor and feeling responsible for his little brother)
And then he had to move out, starting again as the freak with no friends, working a job, worrying about his mum, Will and El (his mum didn't even notice that he became a stoner), feeling like he can't have his own life and go to collage somewhere far because his mum and siblings need him and also him and Nancy became distant
My man always cared about others, never put himself first and I think it's time we change that
So yeah, I love Johnathan Byers and he deserves better
#i'm at work so i don't even know how correct this is#but i had to get it off my#chest#lol#johnathan byers#will byers#joyce byers#mike wheeler#eleven#jane byers#el byers#nancy wheeler#steve harrington#stranger things#byler#jancy#stancy#leo adventures
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the curse of adhd:
i will remember with absolute clarity, when the thought strikes me that i have a text to send someone, that this is the fourth time in three days i've attempted to send this specific text
i will forget, in the time it takes me to pick up my phone, that i picked it up intending to send a text
#every time#managed to actually send it today!#but also i have been reminded to post this by the fact that i just had a task to do in two different rooms just now#so i turned the light on in the room i was getting to second because my brain would go 'oh why is the light on that's weird'#and check the room and it would remind me to do the second task#in the less than five seconds between turning the light on and exiting the room#my brain went 'oh the light's on better turn that off before i leave'#and i had to manually catch myself#PLS.#adhd
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Gaby Soto is a gift
Edit: I missed one!
#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age the veilguard#da4#neve gallus#lucanis dellamorte#emmrich volkarin#bellara lutare#lace harding#veilguard#varric tethras#davrin#sorry taash :(#okay now im off tumblr#sorry these aren't great im sure someone else has better already up#gifs aren't in my bag of tricks#I had fun learning how to make em though#edit: I’ve tried making them a little little cleaner#I couldn’t get the davrin one small enough though so I just left the og of that one#They’re smoother now but not as crisp…. gif makers have patience I cannot dream of#this is is haaaaaard
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having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!
there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.
#and before one of u is like '' i have no friends :(" i used to be there too actually#abusive partner cut me off from ALL of 'em. i didn't think i was lovable#it made me EXCEPTIONALLY shy. i still am actually!!!!#i just ... started saying ''yes.''#i would take pictures of flyers in my library and go to whatever events they had#i started taking community classes#if someone mentioned like ''i am gonna start x group'' i actually took a deep breath#and approached them to be like . okay i want in.#i started making the first move with new people - a small compliment#a smile or a little joke. just to share the space with them.#i have MASSIVE social anxiety. bad parent and bad relationship will do that to ya.#but i just... kept going. and going. and going. to each of these little things. and then...#like. .... idk i just am very blessed. i have a STUPID number of friends#a lot of which i reconnected with. bc it turns out love is never wasted. adult life just.#like. gets in the way. but also... i loved u as a weird little kid. i love u now as a weird big adult.#i promise i PROMISE ur friends are out there. u just have 2 find them. and btw#i didn't make friends with everyone. but i did get a lot of people to smile or laugh.#aint that something.#this process took me something like 2 years. it was HARD!!!!!!!!!!#i love u!!! hard things are often worth it!!!
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I think something a lot of other people can relate to is the way that you get so conditioned to discomfort that you stop registering it.
I remember sitting at the table with my family, eating dinner as a child. I’d try to eat, because of course I was hungry. But sometimes the flavor or texture was so repugnant that it moved into a category of Not Food.
“Two more bites before you can leave the table.”
“I can’t,” I’d say, trying to explain the impossibility.
But because I was a child they heard, “I won’t,” and made me sit at the table. I’d sit in dull agonized silence, bored and hungry for hours until bedtime when they’d give up. I’d hate myself for not eating and my parents for forcing me to sit there. The few forcefeeding moments ended in vomit.
They’d say, “If you don’t eat this you can’t eat a snack later,” and I moved past trying to communicate my discomfort into accepting that I’d just be hungry.
That state of affairs didn’t last, because my parents realized nothing could force me to eat so they catered to my palate, worrying they’d starve me. But the message stuck. If you can’t do anything about a situation, just accept the suffering.
A few years later my mother called me off the playground to ask, “Are you limping?”
I shrugged. My feet had hurt for a long time, but that was just the way things were now. My mom pulled my socks and shoes off and gasped. The soles of my feet were covered in huge painful planters warts.
“Why didn’t you say anything?!” She demanded but I could only shrug at her. I’d learned a long time ago that saying things about my discomfort didn’t matter, so now I had no words. Sometimes things hurt and sometimes they don’t. I simply accepted and did my best.
Now as an adult trying to learn to improve my own conditions can be hard. If I make food that I can’t eat I’ll force myself to sit at the counter still, full of guilt and self loathing, trying to will myself to eat it.
At first I needed my betrothed to gently take it away to present me with something I could eat. Now on my own I can usually admit that it’s not happening before too long and get something else, but I still feel guilty.
Laying in bed at night waiting for my betrothed to finish getting ready I let out a huge sigh of relief when they turned the lights off.
“Why didn’t you turn them off if they bothered you?” they asked the first time it happened.
“I didn’t even know it was bothering me until it was gone.”
Assessing my physical state now to see if I can improve it is something I’m still relearning but I’m relieved to finally have the space and support to do it.
#ramblies#autism#as an afab kid I didn’t get diagnosed but given my poor social skills and general vibes it’s astonishing I wasn’t#I didn’t learn to implement social masking until way later#also those warts too months to get rid of cause they were too big to burn off#they had to be scraped down slowly after baths#vomiting
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when i got home after the new years celebrations last night, i took off my boots and found this pin stuck in the bottom of one of them,, a good sign for the new year perhaps ? :-)
#i got home at 6am and I wouldn’t had noticed b/c I was so so sleepy and I don’t really check the bottom of my shoes when I get home lol#but when I took my boots off I caught a glimpse of gold and yeah !#protected by angels :-) how nice <3#a
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cw - breeding.
venom taking control over eddie's body while you two (well, three) have sex to make the poor man go faster and stay inside you long enough to make sure not a single drop of cum goes to waste.
yes, he promised he wouldn't do that without asking but silly guy can't help it! :((
venom just wants to start a cute little family like the ones on TV with a dog and cute babies—even if eddie's feeling like he might pass out the second he stops and he will need a few days to start feeling his legs again. jeez, can't even fuck in peace with this symbiote.
the bed bangs against the wall so harshly it wouldn't even sound like sex if it wasn't for the moans and loud grunts. It's like someone's violently arranging and moving furniture around the apartment.
when venom fully fronts there's drool EVERYWHERE; the bed, the floor, your body, even the goddamn wall. it'll be a pain to clean up.
insanely wet tongue trailing down your face and body while he growls “not full yet... one more” for the ninth time. how are you even conscious at this point?
expect ( messy ) breakfast in bed and sex every day until the test turns positive because he ain't stoping anytime soon. good luck!
#monster fucker#monster lover#terato#teratophillia#monster x human#monster x reader#monster boyfriend#venom x reader#venom smut#venom x you#eddie brock x reader#mcu smut#terat0philliac#monster fugger#should i be studying? yes#venom brainrot atm#is not good but alright#had to get this off my chest#pupi writes ᝰ
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can't believe that skeleman has turned on us, and Halloween Prom is tomorrow.
(what a top-tier UM...we are about to be just totally obliterated in the absolute silliest way. what possible use could this power have outside of bringing us to the brink of utter holiday disaster.)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#unique magic posters#this was so unforseeable!#i hope malleus gets pumpkinified immediately and sebek has to carry him around on a little velvet cushion#i hope jade puts his plant knowledge to good use by being extremely judgy about the firmness of everyone's rind#i hope that everyone is still wearing their silly little hats as pumpkins#(i know they won't. but if we don't have hope we have nothing.)#and i'm still feeling like oogie's gotta show up later and menace jamil just by existing#perhaps we'll have to team up against him with the scullsman or something 👀#also just to get it out before being proven entirely wrong#my theory is still that he's from the past and we gotta teach him about the True Meaning of Halloween (aka candy and funtimes)#so he can go back to his own time and become the founder of modern-day candy and funtimes halloween or something#bootstrap paradox be damned#i could be entirely off-base but that's what i'm thinking right now#idk he just has the vibe of an old-timey boy to me#he's had the great misfortune of being born before there were hot topics where he could meet other jack skellington fanatics#too late for the black plague too early for the black parade 😔
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a comic/zine about coyotes
#art#comic#coyotes#comics#my art#digital#zine#idk what else to tag this if anything#i just think coyotes are so fucking cool and excellent queer symbolism. if you think about it#< he has thought about it so fucking much#shoutout to the handful of ppl who kept me company on stream last night too hehe#sorry if you get a version with typos they should all be corrected by now. i unfortunately have adhd and made this in two days#busted out all the illustrations for this in...one night for phx zine fest lmaO#our group found out two days before we were tabling that we got taken off the waitlist. had fun today tho#greatest hits
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what i drew on halloween! werewolf marina and vampire pearl
#i had done a couple drawings where i gave marina the furry ears and i just didn't fw how it looked fjlds#i honestly would like to do the other way around as well of vampire marina and werewolf pearl#it's interchangeable in my brain#perhaps another drawing to come if i get the energy cos i'm feral for this dynamic#i still love knight and wizard this is just what i personally wanted to get on paper#some of these clothes are incomprehensible i know#purely had fun drawing the strange heels#zimzamzom#splatoon#splatoween#off the hook#marina ida#pearl houzuki#splatoon art#artists on tumblr#halloween
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renaissance dogys
characters belong to @canisalbus
#i love i loveeee ludovica sm shes so cute. ive only known her for 5 min but i fell in love with her design and i love her friendship#with vasco ^_^ i think them having each other makes hiding their sexualities a little less lonely so thats sweet#ik in modern au shes considered an old friend of vascos but i originally assumed she and vasco fake dated in college or smth#to get their parents off their backs until they came out properly and continued to stay in touch as friends after LMAO#im not very familiar with period fashion so i had to look at renaissance costumes as reference. but i have to admit i love the#high waistlines used in some of their dresses.. i have a minidress with a similar high waistline pressed against the chest and sleeves#also if u squint machete is holding a little paper bag in the 2nd photo which is supposed to be his lunch courtesy of vasco <3#idk what ludovica would wear in modern au but i thought poet shirts might suit her because theyre like somewhere evenly between#masc and femme. to me anyway.. based on observation lesbians seem to love poet shirts and i think she looks good in one#these are all shitposts.. ill draw serious art of them one of these days i promise#i listened to fools rush in and it reminds me of them.. especially when it goes 'though i see the danger there / if theres a chance#for me then i dont care' like its so poignant and bittersweet.. a little indulgent when u think of those small moments they have togethr#save me gay catholic furries... gay catholic furries... gay catholic furries save me#my art#myart#doodles#fanart#others ocs#canisalbus#fur#furry art#machete#vasco#vaschete#ludovica#sfw fur#furry#anthro
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Okay so I may have been struggling under a miscommunication issue
#My coworker heard I took a day off for a migraine and said oh I get those all the time#And described what sounded like a regular headache#So I dont know if I actually have migraines more than I thought or if she just doesn't know what a migraine is#She was like#'They've only ever had me bedridden once though'#And I'm here like#Girl every migraine has me blind and bedridden that's what a migraine is#Otherwise it's just a sparkling headache#So wtffff#Help#emetophobia tw#I think?#Headaches#Migraines
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y'know every time i feel guilty about bothering someone by singing along when i'm listening to music, i just remember that i have to tolerate my dirtbag brother screaming at his ps5 for hours every day so listening to muffled off-key fall out boy is probably preferable
#ramble#it's not loud btw it's just like. singing along in the car volume#not to get on my soapbox but there's a literal dent in his wall from his controller. and we're in the uk you CANNOT punch through walls#idk about anyone else but i've NEVER yelled at a video game?? like i'm absolute dogshit at 80% of them#and i've never had a PHYSICAL reaction beyond maybe 'ughh' then turning it off#if you're getting that angry maybe you just need to play different games because you're clearly not having fun#also added bonus that i didn't realise until adulthood. as a former daughter#cis son privileges are CRAZY#i don't even swear in front of my parents and my dude is just screaming actual slurs next door with NO consequences#like you wouldn't do that in public why is it ok to do it here#i think i've said fuck in front of my mum ONCE and i literally couldn't look at her the entire day#this is a box i am not ready to unpack yet akdhdh#is this just a my family thing or is this common
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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12 yrs old Jason having just been dropped off at Wayne Manor: Do you just take in every orphan you meet off the street?
Bruce: No, you're the first kid I picked up off the street. I picked up my last one at the circus.
Jason: Is that a joke? I can’t tell if that’s a joke.
Bruce: My son's name is Richard, but he insists on going by Dick.
Jason: And he’s…from the circus?
#batman#gotham#jason todd#batfam#batfamily#dc#red hood#dick grayson#Bruce has had a very similar conversation with Dick when he first took him on#it's become a running joke and now Jason gets to be in it#and it'll continue on when he gets his other kids#kidnapped my first kid from the circus#the second one off the street#the third one i took from my neighbors#took my fourth one from his mom and grandpa#kidnapped my fifth one in the middle of an Earthquake#Stole my sixth one during an active crime scene#destroyed my seventh - and favorite- kids' mother and took the newly birthed kid home#dcmgtlau
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i'm So Normal about him
((close ups under cut bc idk he's pretty asdsfksdf))
#elden ring#shadow of the erdtree#messmer#messmer the impaler#ace draws#GNAWING ON THE DRYWALL#i lied i’m not normal about him at all#he is so diabolical i need him#his proportions make him look like such a freak#but i'm so into that 👁️👁️#been working on this thing on and off for a few weeks#haha imagine trying to draw a new character based off of like 3 blurry screenshots taken from a 30 second feature in a 3 min trailer#also added a lil reference to the theory that the smoldering butterfly represents him and not melina#this will probably get lost in the sea of messmer fan art but i just had to draw him#my eyes actually hurt#he is SO red
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