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I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I've barely been able to move or think or focus for days. I wish I knew if it's depression and working out would help. I wish I knew if it was cfs and working out won't help. I just wish I had a manual to tell me what to do to make this stop.
#i have so many responsibilities that i WANT to do#but i can barely move#or focus#also survey says cfs#because i went on hikes two days in a row plus started doing yoga every morning and today the fatigue feeling is so bad I can't do yoga#so i guess today i won't even try??? that feels counter intuitive to just give in and be a rock#actually i feel like i have both cfsband depression#and relaxing to help get energy back is going to make my depression worse#but also nothing is diagnosed and I'm not in treatment and it sucks and I'm trying to change that but life is hard#sorry for being emo on main I've just reached the point where shouting into the void feels necessary
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Good Morning, World.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang yanli#jiang cheng#'Good Morning World' because to wwx the jiang household is what grounds him. It is his burrow and blanket.#The familiar soup and banter is his home. The familiar arguments and tension are also his home.#Notice how quickly he throws LWJ to the side once he has JC back in reach! 'He was so boring; I wish *you* were there!'#WWX is very quick to constantly remind himself that he fits within a very specific power structure and role.#He pushes boundaries but almost always only the boundaries that he knows he can push against.#Sitting here now and realizing that if WWX did take life more seriously and act more diligent he would totally usurp JC.#Because the contrast with Them (tm) is wwx is the one that gets in trouble and JC is the one that sticks to the rules.#That responsible appearance especially in contrast is the thin line that holds JC's self-esteem together.#And lets be fully honest. From JC's perspective the last week was also extremely intense and stressful.#It truly was a feat to travel so far so fast despite also being exhausted. Never knowing if it is all in vain.#JC said with his actions 'I would move mountains for you and dig through stone with my bare hands if it meant reaching you.'#and WWX said '[read]'#It's about wwx chronically asking 'why would someone care for me? I'm always tool to be used' than accepting that people love him.
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Ren getting besieged on both sides by two museum curators fighting for him? Honestly he’s having the BEST DAY EVER!!!
Comm for @philip-the-nickel !! Drawing my huge Ren design next to the even BIGGER Cleo design made Cub so comically small GDHD but what he doesn’t have in height, he makes up for in pure rizz~~~~
#rendog#cubfan135#zombiecleo#hermitcraft#hc s9#my art#commission#thank u s9 world download for existing so I could go look at the museums PROPERLY!!!!#even if that area lags my phone SO BAD that I can barely move dgdhh#mobile only minecrafter problems
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I tried to do a sit up after chugging milk and cookies and well...
#i am so full I can barely move#pls give me rubs <3#fatty#feedee belly#get me fatter#fat belly#bhm weight gain#fat bhm#fat moobs#fat humiliation#bhm#fat piggy#bhm wg#male wg#wg#weight gain#gaining weight on purpose#fat positive#fatboy#fat#bloated burps#burp kink#sloshy belly#male feedee
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this disability pride month, stop making jokes about people in wheelchairs standing up or walking.
can I stand and walk? sure, for a short while and with pain. the consequences for trying to be out all day without a wheelchair are that I'll be in bed for the rest of the week, too tired and in too much pain to move.
but the government won't give me my own wheelchair because they have the same attitude as these jokes - I can stand up, so I don't need one. exercise is good for you, you should walk!
it keeps me trapped in the house, unable to do anything more than short stints anywhere without borrowing or hiring a wheelchair - one that causes me pain to sit in and relies on someone to push me (usually with difficulty), because they're not going to have a high-end chair for that sort of thing.
it's not a miracle that a wheelchair user can stand or walk. it's something we should aspire to see more often.
#disability#disability pride month#chronic fatigue#fibromyalgia#cfs/me#post exertional malaise#like fucking hell people we should really be long past this by now#why am I seeing these bullshit jokes on my dash in twenty fucking twenty three#i did a short walk to a cafe yesterday because I thought I was up to it#and my right leg has seized up#my ankle can barely take my weight and my hip won't move properly#also lol I almost certainly have hEDS but cannot persuade a doctor to give me a referral#in summary#stop being fucking dense#i would rather people who don't need mobility aids use them than have people struggle because they don't want to be seen as a faker#or have people think that you have to reach a certain level of severity before you need it#also if I had a wheelchair I would bring my cat with me more places but that's by the by
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me online: i love my F/O soooo much!!! y'all don't even know, i'm so hopelessly in love with them aaa ❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰 they're so cuteeeeee!
how i look typing that all out:
#self ship#self ship meme#ficto meme#selfship meme#self ship community#i got that flat face affect#apparently.#i always thought i was super facially expressive#but if im not actively making myself make facial expressions my face barely moves lol#autism be damned i can gush about my f/os#usually... sometimes i cant form coherent thoughts abt them#waves.txt
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ah. it hurts
#kimi ni todoke#i knew this episode would wreck me personally but..... idk this.. this here just.. oh it killed me#grief is so.. its so... it eats you whole#and you really do think you arent allowed to move on or smile or eat#because you should be sad#my mom told me the story that about 2 or so weeks after my dad died#when she went back to work#her colleagues made a joke at the lucnh table and she laughed#and one of them said oh look she can already laugh again#and he meant it nicely but my mom felt SO GUILTY#can i even be allowed to move on with my life if someone died that i love#am i allowed to smile tto have wishes to be annoyed about things to be angry about things to complain#ah. man ah man. i love kimi ni todoke so much i can barely put it in words
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Request for a Dimitri maybe? Love your art <3
thank u lots!!! he liked ur joke :)
#mak art#mak draws pl#professor layton#unwound future#dimitri allen#i will say. i rly like drawing dimitri#he's very shaped and nice to draw#and i personally think he'd look dashing with nail polish so i gave him some :)#anon clarified in another ask that they wanted him laughing or smiling genuinely so here he is#i imagine he could be like this post-UF#once everything's been laid bare and he can finally relax and move on#he'd be able to loosen up and laugh wholeheartedly#also sorry for not drawing his hat#i wasn't in the mood to figure out how his hat would work w his hair so i just left it off
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been trying to do some pixel art bc after putting another 60+ hours into stardew valley the want to make a stardew like game but *my* way is strong again ... but i keep getting hung up on thinking about game mechanics (screenshot at the bottom .. sorry for makign this so long again ..)
at some point i thought the whole minecraft aspect is probably impossible to add into a 2d pixel game and im better off to cut that idea out of my head and instead make a dedicated area in which you can build stuff more costumizable and make the rest a more static thing id built so the worlds have more character and theres less problems with NPC pathing (since i dont want you to be able to escape Eadryas wrath if you overstay your welcome by building yourself into a circle or collision boxes .... though they would destroy anything in their path to you either way.. still)
but then i still want you to be able to change the ground in your little area (or maybe multiple ... idk im still conflicted bc i like the idea of finding a place and building your lil hut there ... unless i make it so you can build a hut anywhere but change the ground tiles only in certain areas ... ) and build little ponds and stuff ... so im back to the minecraft in 2d problem
i keep getting into these thinking spirals bc i dont want to draw all those sprites if im gonna scrap it all again anyway
the main point with this little ...... well, lets call it fantasy bc im not confident this 'project' will fare any better than any of my other projects (im a never finished a single project and keeps being haunted by it kind of guy and i hate it)
- is that i want a 2d game somewhat similar to stardew but set in my original story world and focused on the environment and nature, not on earning money, an intricate weather system and no time limit on your day, the twist being you are an ex-demon hunter and are on probation to prove you really abandoned the cause, given shelter and a place to stay in the demon world within the protective bubbles around gates into the human realm (bc humans cannot live in the normal environment of the demon world- this is an already long established thing but works extremely well to limit the space you are able to go in a game without making the world feel tiny plus allows me to give you several different environment designs bc those are gates and bubbles in different parts of the demon world) your task being to help clean up the poisoned land the celestials had caused and repopulating these parts with plants etc. ... there is a tracker that lets you know how well or bad it is doing and if you only destroy instead of restore (like chopping down all trees without planting new ones) you will be given warnings until Eadrya shows up and kills you since you are clearly still working to destroy their lands after all
i still really like this idea but im really doubtful it will go anywhere since i am so slow, need to learn at least two complicated new things (coding, music making) and already have so many things i want to do but never really .. do, the task is just too daunting and it keeps me from just having fun drawing pixel art bc i cant stop (over)thinking about mechanics
(see this is what i mean my brain just cant stop, it just keeps going and it keeps making me spiral into these thinking loops that prevent me from actually doing anything )
this is the same file i have been randomly doodling sprites on since april (by far not the only one, but the current one of multiple sprite tests i keep updating or changing)
(i appreciate feedback or thoughts on this alot, its a little fantasy that i keep comign back to, all my attempts to throw it out of my head in hopes of clearing up some space have failed no matter how little hope i have of making it a reality ..)
#ganondoodles#art#pixelart#...i dont even dare to tag this as gamedev#i dont have the right for that#barely made a character move once in a glitchy way and i have long forgotten how#none of these sprites are finished#the weather system is especially dear to my heart#bc i want it to be somewhat as dynamic as botws#the trees swinging in the wind ... rain and cloudy weather changing throughout the game#not time limits so you can wander around and enjoy the world with little restriction#inventory would also be more like botw#in which you can colelct everything and have it all with you at time instead of having to manage it like in stardew#few characters in the hubworld and soemtimes some in the overworld#since this is a very lonely place and very few demons are left#anyway ... sorry for babbling on about this again#i just cant seem to be able to let it go ...............
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Good Omens s2 e2 | minisode A Companion to Owls
#good omens#good omens 2#good omens 2 spoilers#aziraphale#crowley#job#sitis#bildad the shuhite#(gotta give him his own tag)#s2e2 'the clue'#minisode 'a companion to owls'#goodomensgifs#goodomensedit#idk just a collection of shots i liked/wanted to edit#a *truly unhinged* amount of work went into the last gif and you can barely tell it's moving T_T#but once my brain has An Idea it will not let go#(the actual shot is a slow zoom out but i didn't want it to move#so i ... did a lot of resizing work on individual frames...#if only i could apply that sort of dedication to something that makes me money lol)#gifs#i made this
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the beautiful 9:30pm friday calls to me……
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Experiencing a lot of firsts, Jannik Sinner is in his first US Open final, making it his only second throughout his career, after overcoming Jack Draper in the semifinal.
#Jannik Sinner#Tennis#tennisedits#f:gfx#US Open 2024#good luck finding a theme in my edits these days#scrolling behance and my mind literally wants to do everything i saw#couldn't finish this earlier bcs i was too emotional about tokito#and i was watching the paralympics and got too stressed so the work barely moves lmfao#but here ya go#stole jack's shirt colour for a theme hehe#adding grain can either solve like 97% of your problems or making your life far more harder than it already is#today's case: saved me a whole bunch
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i wanna be your only friend
#juice art#osc#liam hfjone#airy hfjone#hfjone#object shows#hfjone liam#hfjone airy#lairy hfjone#lairy#DON'T COME AT ME#im well aware this is a toxic ship and that is how i am illustrating it#caption is from gallery piece by of montreal#drew airy and liam from memory and im quite pleased with the result#editing this to add another disclaimer#THIS IS A NEGATIVE PORTRAYAL OF LAIRY#if its not obvious liam is uncomfortable and airy is obsessively watching him and gripping him so tight he can barely move
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sexy himbo jock interpretations of James Tiberius Kirk are silly and do a disservice to the character for a lot of reasons, not least of which is that it fundamentally ignores all the times in canon when Kirk is faced with a scientific discovery or oddity and you can see the effort it takes for him not to clap and skip with excitement. like in ‘the devil in the dark’ when Spock posits that they might be dealing with a silicon based life form and McCoy’s like “but that’s impossible!” and Kirk literally crosses the room to flirt talk excitedly with Spock about the prospect and how it could work! and what it would mean!
What I’m saying is, Kirk’s gotta be smart and a huge dork because how else could he pull a bad autistic bitch like Spock?
#see also:#in arena when the aliens let the enterprise watch Kirk’s fight with the Gorn on that fuckass asteroid#and Spock is like listing the elements present that Kirk could use to build a weapon or make an explosion or whatever#but Kirk can’t hear him! because he’s on a fuckass asteroid#but he still turns around and does exactly what Spock was describing because he’s ALSO SMART AND CAPABLE AND GOOD AT SCIENCE#and like! you just know Spock was like….barely containing his lust in that moment#like your bestie your life partner your other half is out there showing why you’re soooo drift compatible#while also being good at science (your favorite thing)???#I wouldn’t be normal about it either#(I’m very clearly not normal about it anyway)#like you know they’re excitedly sharing science journal articles in their free time because they’re dweebs!! they’re dorks!!#the greatest trick this show pulls off is making you think Kirk and Spock are opposites#when in fact their whole thing is ‘how differently can two people be raised and move through life and still be the epitome of#whatever souls are made of his and mine are the same’#I’m sorry I had a smarter more coherent Star Trek post I was trying to write but I’m not feeling coherent at all#so you get this instead#Star Trek#star trek tos#tos#I’m still in season one so no one correct me if they swerve super hard and never let Kirk be smart ever again after that#let me have this
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i love ur halbarries (both thoughts and art) so much they bring such joy ❣️❣️❣️❣️ your t4t halbarry especially is so special ty for sharing them w/ us <3
flattery will get you everywhere, have another t4t halbarry for your consideration
barry is a trans man (he/him), hal is m/f bigender (he/her)
[shirt by girlofswords]
#halbarry#barry allen#the flash#hal jordan#green lantern#dc#no art tag so i can move this to the other blog gimme a sec#alt text#described#danswers#i barely glanced at this ask before deciding that i would draw a ty doodle#and i didn’t even see that you clarified my halbarry Thoughts as well as art?? ;__; 💞#thank YOU for taking the time to engage with them wow T__T
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It's the penultimate episode, I've got some words for P'Dome that he'll never get to hear but most importantly I'm here to congratulate Peach and Home on not breaking up this episode. So let's get to it!
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We begin with Home being sad looking at their ad while thinking about his gramps trying to teach him the meaning of "home"
But while Pangpang puts it plainly into words
Home is apparently so dense that he still hasn't figured it out
We've been seeing quite clearly, and Home seems to be aware on a subconcious level at least, that Peach and the rest of the squad have become his home. But well, Home the man, clearly put all his character points into cuteness leaving none for intelligence so I guess we'll have to wait for the last (TT) episode for him to finally get it.
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Peach has gotten to know Home very well. So of course he can tell that there's something up with his platonic? boyfriend. (on the first watch i thought this was him fishing for "Home is so sad that you're leaving"-validation)
He's also totally definitely not at all worried about Home. I'd say acting isn't Peach's strong suit but he did quite well with the fuckery they put on so I guess it's a case of the old can't-lie-when-it-comes-to-love.
Despite his utter non-worry he still delegates Home-care to Kan which kind of implies that he sees it as his job to take care of him. (and shows how much he is worried and cares about Home but that's not really news at this point)
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Even Kan is teasing them about their relationship now.
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Sure, their fight turned out to be somewhat staged to distract evil lawyer but the sentiments are nontheless quite real. The familiar territory of fighting allows them to finally speak out their feelings about what happened at the end of last episode. And, surprise, surprise, both are hurt by the idea of being left by the other, of ultimately not meaning that much to each other. (as I said, abandonment trauma rearing its ugly head) At this point, regardless of their relationship status maybe they should just get married so they'll finally feel some security in their importance to each other. (this is almost definitely not a good solution to this sort of problem irl, of course)
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It's a good thing they've been perfecting their nonverbal communication over the course of the show. It comes in quite handy in situations like this.
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Surrounded by the betrayal from his blood family, Home knows there's someone he can always trust.
Peach. And the rest of the gang. His real family. (+ the friends they made along the way)
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This scene was honestly the cutest shit. The way he goes from his legs raised in happiness, to lowerd in disappointment, to swinging with giddieness. The way he's hiding under his duvet to secretly talk to his boyfriend on the phone. Ridiculously cute. This man is so in love. And he shows it like a stereotypical 12 y/o girl.
And Peach isn't any better with his arms on display and that fondness in his face.
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Peach really doesn't want Home to go back to America.
But while he's not getting that reassurance for now (I can't bring myself to believe he'll actually leave. Not after everything, not when the reason for his exile has been resolved, not when he's finally found the meaning of "home" so his grandpa would have allowed him to come back, anyway. And how ironic btw, that he had to come home first and face the consequences of his actions, in order to find his meaning of "home"), at least he gets some surprisingly clear real-talk on Home's feelings.
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Peach is smelling the bs on uncle and he's not looking to become a widower. He already watched Home die once, he's really not inclined to repeat that experience.
Unfortunately he let's Home convince him it'll be fine (and unfortunately Home has retained a lot of that naivete that he displayed when he first met Kan) so he's left behind to worry about Home's safety.
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This plan from the uncle is absolutely evil. To not only kill his nephew but make people, possibly even Home himself, believe that Peach is the one who killed him? To destroy his nephew's most important person in the process, not only worldly by framing him for murder, but also spiritually by having someone (Home!) die from his cooking? I'm sure to Kid this was mostly a matter of hitting two flies with one stone but whether intentional or not this plan is clearly designed for maximum cruelty. And it's made even more cruel by the love and trust Home and Peach clearly have for each other, plain for everyone, even the evil uncle, to see. But he doesn't even grant Home the knowledge of being loved at the point of his death.
Stop trying to bury our gays you pos uncle!
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As a palate cleanser, please enjoy this image of the whole happy family. Including the dads, their daughter + her wife, and ... Suradech!
Lesbian Corner
Kan has been spending so much time with Pangpang that she's internalising her speech patterns.
And THIS is her reaction when Peach calls her out on it. Someone's in luuurve!
#every week i feel like i have hardly anything to say#and then i can barely fit all my screenshots into the post#also suradech: i'm sorry i ever doubted you. i hope you'll be ok next week#it's fine. after they've dealt with kid and grandpa they can all move to chiang mai together#after all peach's new appartment has two bedrooms. so pangpang can finally have her girlpower room with kan#and home can fulfill his pre even liking him dream of sharing a bed with peach#and i guess suradech can camp in the living room? maybe they've even got a pull-out sofa#it works i promise#peaceful property#peaceful property the series#also from the moment kid rolled out his teary confession i was (silently) screaming at peach to not let that man get in stabbing reach to#home and later to trust his instincts and go save home but alas. p'dome wants us all to get stress ulcers it seems
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