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benetnvsch · 1 year ago

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progress :> not gonna actually line this but significantly cleaned up the basic shapes/sketch- gonna try and color and shade this tomorrow,, wonna animate 1-2 more neco-arc kunikida things then throw all of them together in a trashy edit its gonna be great

#kite draws #not tagging fandoms/char cuz they don't need to be spammed by wips aaa #wonna also uhhh redo the ponytail and left side of hair cuz it looks chunky ough /neg #but gonna do that when im less tired #peace freax #also rn he dances rlly well to the Hit Minecraft Parody Song Revenge #creeper... aw man- SO WE BACK IN THE MINE-

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coriander-candlesticks · 4 months ago

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Sometimes your Mental Illness™ is kicking your ass and all you can do is offer the first hot, non-leftover meal you managed to prep in the day at 10:30 pm to Apollo & ask for help getting to *and* getting through your appointment tomorrow and that's okay

#the first thing i offered over the past two or three days b/c OOH boy this depression has HANDS #gonna be talking to my psychiatrist about changing meds b/c i think i've finally developed a tolerance to mine & im already on the high dose #so i dont really want to up it any more than it already has been (which is what she suggested last appointment)#i usually at least offer at hot meals but i didnt have the energy for that even #it doesnt help that im recovering from a big work presentation where i ran tech (aka keeping the powerpoints & other visual aids running)#all. day. which *i* offered to do but that doesnt make it any less tiring #...i also think i forgot to offer something to hermes that i was meaning to. gonna have to do that #i *was* planning on doing a tarot check-in on friday but uh. im definitely not in the right emotional headspace for that atm #gonna have to wait for when i can do more than lie in bed all day #listen to your body & brain folks. it's okay if all your energy has to go into riding something out #& you dont have the energy for all the rituals/prayers/offerings/etc that you usually do #coriander says #helpol #hellenic pagan #hellenic polytheism #hellenic community #apollo #my post #mental health cw #depression cw #ive been offering the steam from hot meals to hestia too ofc b/c. you know. first & last #it felt weird not mentioning that somewhere #i *do* offer to just her or to her 'and all the deathless gods of olympus' too

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safety-pin-punk · 6 months ago

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yall Im so fucking tired. This month has been exhausting. I promise Im alive, just barely functional atm.

#personal #rant below #begining of the month docs said dad had less than a month. Hes still around but declining #been taking care of him and my mom #along with working full time #and my boyfriend doing his damndest to keep me busy when Im not helping with dad #which is great except Im so tired #but also I havent been able to sleep much #and I've lost my appetite which apparently is a grief thing I didn't know about #So I've managed to get all the physical grief symptoms and it is taking a fucking toll #so your girl is sleeping in tomorrow and spending the day doing my own little crafts and avoiding people as much as I can #a girl just wants some sleep and a fulfilling snack but all she is being given are slight naps and unappealing food. send help.#anyways after this experience Ive decided that I no longer give any fucks because you only live once so Im just gonna do what I want foreve #and actually live life instead of being constrained by societal standards #after all this is over of course. gotta take care of dad first #also I got to paint the door because he was sick of staring at the porch. so its a lake view now #woooo #yeah so thats my life update for you all #also I saw a girl for the first time in 9 years today who completely changed the tradgetory of my life and didn't know it. so that was fun.#exhausing but fun #also idgaf about spelling right now I am running on caffeine and pure will power atm

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cubtales · 16 days ago

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୧(՞o̴̶̷̤ ̫ o̴̶̷̤ ՞)و if you see this know i love u very much!

#〝 𝓬𝓾𝓫𝓬𝓱✩𝓽𝓼 ₊ ࣪ ㅤ ꣓ㅤ #kaomoji is so me since holiday hours end tomorrow ! ! !#celebrating immensely this is the best thing since .. argenti's first leaks 💞 DHEJIS #+ i'd be less drained and tired when i return home ! ! which means more time on here since im also in break !!!#a win ... even tho it's tmmr .. still a win #today is a major drain since i'm gonna have to keep pushing for seven frickin HOURS #ahem ... excuse my french . but what the fuck #glad to be helpful but TT i miss my bed #a closing shift to morning shift IS depressing i commend everyone who does them !!!!#but nevermind my complaints..#to the sweet angels in my ask box i will be getting to you soon ! ! i want to give you guys my utmost attention where i'm not drowsy nor #busy ! it feels rude to me to do anything of the sort ! i cherish each ask i get hehe #+ i need to write them into my diary so (⸝⸝•ᴗ•✿) yeth #i'm not ignoring!!! NEVA !!#+ i still want to visit inboxes :3 so i'm mustering strength!#if i don't make it christmas ( eve ) i'll so spend the rest of the year doing soo !#will rebloop tht post so i know which angeld pernit me to do so hehe #take care loves !! been slackin tew hard eeeep #will run da q 🏃

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cringengl · 2 months ago

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And what if I said that the reason Sheila hates Sammi so much is because Sheila sees her own worst qualities in Sammi that she hates herself for

#its 3am so im not gonna make an in depth post about it now but cmon guys #she hates sammi for being a clingy and needy bad mother #sheila is clingy and needy!! like at the start of s4 when shes around the gallaghers all the time and wont leave them alone #also she needed karen so bad and got super attached to frank #shes also scared about being a bad mother and felt guilty about the times that she was one like she apologises to karen about how her #agoraphobia and ocd affected karens childhood #'but sheila never kicked karen out to have sex with a random guy' yeah but sheila did bring a random man home to stay (frank) and slept with #karens husband #likeeee #anyway i actually do want to make a post on this later when im less tired #shameless #shameless us #sheila jackson #sammi slott #frank gallagher #karen jackson

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thegreatyin · 6 months ago

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exciting update on the state of the scoundrel and the scientist's marriage/engagement/complicated roommate situationship:

It Sure Is Going!

#caeru's finally learning how to gossip. im so proud #sometimes i send rp responses between these two just to act out their dynamic. im playing with my dolls #yin-thoughts #fallen london #currently we're at 700+ wedding prep. the scoundrel would of course accept no less than a marriage at the bazaar itself #so their status quo is just gonna continue to be bickering fiance haters for the next while #i'll post when it finally Does happen so anyone who wants to attend can come along #the scoundrel's guest of honor was always gonna be mr wines anyway. all other invitees are side pieces in comparison #(at least. to their gay little mind)#the scientist is already testing his own patience doing this scheme in the first place. he'd welcome any company that isnt his spouse #any company. ever. please. for the love of all that is holy. Literally Anyone. he's so tired of putting up with them.#though if you suggest he simply moves out he gives you a weird look and mutters about how preposterous the concept is #their relationship is complicated.#scoundrelventures #scoundrel rp shenanigans

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dinopant · 3 months ago

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Ughhh I keep remembering the fucked up dream I had that hurt my feelings the other night...

#dream about person i like that i gave up on because they got with someone else #just straight up looking me in the eyes and telling me how they knew i liked them #and they liked me but only when i was younger and prettier and more useful #and how they loat attraction to me and im never going to be good enough for anyone #they would never say thsi irl #but it hit me so personally in my dream #idk why my mind came after my insecurities so hard #but idk #feelimg a bit bummed this week #kinda feelin and thinkin #idk #maybe i give up #im tired of getting my feefees hurt #because the only ppl i like are great and make amazing frieultibut ultimately end up in fufilling great relationships with other ppl #i hardly catch feelimgs for ppl anyore at this point #i dont think i could ever be my person with anyone else #and when i do make that bond #it doesnt work out because its just me getting stupid infatuated #i give up #blah blah blah your only 25 and ppl will want you blah blah blah #no they dont #they wont #i give up!!#im tired+!#its not worth it iv accept that its not gonna happen for me #and im too shy to do anything casual either #so im just gonna be on my own and be miserable #its fine #im too needy and i need to work on it #i need to need and want ppl less

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opens-up-4-nobody · 9 months ago

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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany.#and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated

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doostyaudi · 20 days ago

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Sigh i hate being on yt

#vent #I said i was gonna make a 4k sub special. But quite frankly i get get myself to work on it #Im not fixated on sprunki as much. I still like it but my motivation is gone #My adhd has been rlly bad recently and im bouncing around like crazy #I never expected to get 4 thousand ppl to follow me. That's so many ppl #I missed when ppl didn't expect so much from me. I missed when ppl were ok with me only making an animation like. Once every 3 weeks at most #Missed when i didn't have so many eyes on me. This is so stressful #'dw im still working on the 4k subscriber special!' a fucking lie #Cuz i don't want ppl to hates me. I don't want to loose fans. And im pretty sure nobody cares ant sprunki anymore so i don't think its gonna #Get any attention anyways #Holds my head #I hate yt i hate what it's done to me. I wish i could go back in time and stop myself from uploading that stupid twiddlefinger animation #I HATE IT HERE IM SO TIRED. I.M LITERALLY JUST SOME GUY WHO LIKES TO ANIMATE. IM NOT UR ENTERTAINER #How do ppl deal with this. I hate it. I hate it i hate it i hate it. I would delete my channel if i didn't have a petrifying fear of #Having something of mine being lost media #I love all those who truly love my work. But those who expect me to upload stuff that they only like forever and ever is less than the #Number of genuine fans. I can't keep doing this. I might need a break again. Im spiraling again #Im sorry. Im so tired. I rlly am. I missed whenever i only had 600 subs.#Sigh. Ok im done #text #text post

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 1 month ago

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my fibro meds have truly destroyed my tolerance for antihistamines

#blue chatter #my nose has been v stuffy this week!#I take a Benadryl (already a bad idea) expecting mild spiders and feeling a bit sleepy #and Pass The Fuck Out for 7 hours #okay cool. I’ll do Claritin. it’ll take longer to work but that’s okay-#Pass The Fuck Out For 7 Hours #okay. sure. fine. I’ll take half a Benadryl; it’ll work less effectively but I rly would like to not be so stuffy-#guess what! Pass The Fuck Out For 5 Hours!#which is. teeeeechnically shorter. but still defeats the point #I’m gonna try half a Claritin but those pills are so small already #I know my gabapentin has warnings about anything with drowsiness as a side effect so I tried to do rly low doses #bc it also has those warnings for alcohol and I can drink one drink and feel like. just a tiny bit tired and otherwise fine.#so I thought an antihistamine would be no issue. I was WRONG.#also for context before my fibro meds I was able to take a 24 hour Claritin and be barely even tired #or take 2 Benadryl and feel sleepy and spidery but not actually *fall asleep about it*.#the spiders are unpleasant but Benadryl does work faster for existing stuffiness/allergic reactions. Claritin for me works better as a #preventative measure than a treatment once I’m already sniffly.#by spiders I do mean tactile hallucinations. which funnily enough I have not gotten at all taking Benadryl now.#BECAUSE IM ASLEEP #not awake enough long enough to feel imaginary spiders! which would be an improvement except I cannot keep falling asleep when I’m busy!#this is also why I’ve only been testing this on days I know I won’t have to drive or go to class/have things due that day #bc I suspected the sleepies would be worse even if I did not understand the magnitude #as a side effect I’ve now ruined my sleep schedule enough that my body is used to taking a midday nap and expects it #which is Not Helping

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shikiimisaki · 1 year ago

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*walks in, removes eye protective wear and hangs up labcoat after a long day of Observing One Piece Ship Discourse On Twitter fieldwork* so while it may appear strange that people really readily say "luffy is canon aroace/doesnt care about any of that" whenever someone makes a truther post about luffy/hancock and then those same people may turn around and share a bunch of posts about gay ships involving luffy, it's actually more of a symptom of the fact that while most people posting said gay luffy ships are completely aware that their ships will not/could not/probably even should not actually be canon and are deep in the hypothetical, many dudebro types who ship luffy with hancock are completely convinced that their ship absolutely should or even will become canon, simply because he is a male protagonist and she is an extremely attractive woman who is interested in him, and it makes "no sense" for luffy to not go with her, either because they think that is how Stories Should Work (heteronormativity) or because they want Coolguy Chad Luffy and think having a hot woman obsessed with him like, adds to his coolness points in some vague objectifying way, which got more and more misogynistic sounding the longer i tried to find a way to word that sentence. this last interpretation does disservice to both of their characters and frankly, completely doesn't comply with any of the reasons hancock fell in love with him in canon in the first place. if you look for more then a minute at either of their characters you can tell that in canon it would never work, not even just because luffy is completely and entirely disinterested and in all likelihood that will never change, but because although I would say hancock's love is based on real traits of his she respects and was deeply moved by, she idolizes him and her fantasies about being with him involve shit he wouldn't actually do or say. she loves him because he's, literally, the only man she's ever met- and in the current day, often only person she knows across the board besides literally her sisters, who doesn't immediately treat her like a sexual object- and he only doesn't because of his fundamental and absolute disinterest in her, romantically or sexually. they exist in a paradox, and that paradox is used as a source of comic relief. what they have going on would be LESS interesting if he liked her in that way. if he was interested in her she would not like him in the first place. this got really off topic sorry. what im saying is this is why 1 person posting about how luffy and hancock are Totally Canon Endgame because who could turn down such a bad bitch!!!!!!! is a mischaracterization statement that prompts response or backlash in a way that 20 people posting zolu making out sloppy style in a corner completely aware that they are indulging in a mirror dimension and He Would Not Fucking Say That is not