#i dont think i could ever be my person with anyone else

[ysrjune]

Hi 👋 this is my first ask but I really love your Scott and Sam stories and I was wondering if you could do one of the Monroe twins but them liking the same girl? It’s totally fine if you don’t but I wanted to ask anyway! Ps. You’re a fantastic writer.

# WHATEVER MAKES YOU HAPPY. WHATEVER YOU WANT. //

a/n: thank you babe. I'm glad you like the twinsies 😋😋

Sam likes you because he thinks you're cooler than everyone else. You don't care about popularity or if anyone else approves your appearance or not. You aren't ashamed of your interests. You're unapologetically yourself, and he's into that. You also happen to be really nice to him, unlike a lot of other people. You compliment his makeup and his outfits - sometimes even ask what he's listening to if he has his headphones on. He loves it when you say that you're going to listen to that specific band he likes so you can figure out why he likes them so much.

Scott likes you mostly because you're so pretty and funny. He thinks it's attractive when a girl can take a jab from a guy and then make one back. You always share the treats you make as well. With both of them. Sometimes, you even make stuff specifically for each boy. Brownies (😜 if ykyk) for Sam and Candy for Scott (again, if ykyk.) Scott is such a fatass. He could eat anything and everything. So whenever you hang out with him, it always starts or ends with eating something.

So when the boys found out that they both like you, it wasn't pretty.

"Dude, you only like her because she's pretty. You don't actually like her." Sam gives his brother a dirty look. "Oh my God, no, I don't. She's really nice and she's funny. Not like a lot of other girls, man." Scott scoffs and begins to change into his house clothes. "You ain't shit." Sam mumbles and lays down on his bed, finding a song to play in his headphones. "What the fuck did you just say? I ain't shit? Mother fucker, you ain't shit. You let yourself get bad grades, you're high all the time, and you're fucking stupid."

"I'm working on my grades, you know that!" Sam yells. "And don't act like you don't get high. Don't act like you're better than me. Hell, we're practically the same fucking person except the fact that everyone likes you better because I have a few interests that aren't considered 'normal'!" Sam expresses. "You, your friends, and so many other people that I don't even know make fun of me because I'm not a carbon copy of them! Just because I like to dress differently and like different genres of music doesn't mean I'm weird, but that's how you all treat it! Everyone but her."

"What? does she baby talk you and say: It's okay don't worry about them. The way you aren't like everyone else makes you special and unique!" Scott mocks your voice. "Shut up. If you really did like her, then you wouldn't be making fun of the way she sounds." Sam stands up from the bed. "Shut the fuck up, you can't tell me what I do and don't feel." Scott gets close to his brother. "Face it, man. she just feels bad for you. you're a nobody. And you'll always be a nobody."

All of the rage and bickering led to a fist fight. They both had hands on them. Big and strong, so they left each other beat up. Scott had more scratches than bruises since Sam had a few rings on. Their parents were so mad at them. "All this over a girl?!" Their dad yells. "You two are the stupidest boys ever! Scott, I thought you had a girlfriend? That.. that Cindy girl." Scott smirked and shook his head. "No, dad. Cindy is just a girl I make out with." His mom was offended by that. "Just a girl you make out with? I didn't raise you like this! My God.. Both of you are grounded. Forget making this girl you fought over, a girlfriend. I might as well send you boys to boot camp to straighten you up! Or Or.. is it even bootcamp?" She looks over at her husband, but before he could correct her, she yelled. "I DONT KNOW! BUT YOU BOYS ARE GETTING KN MY LAST. NERVE." She says frustratedly and leaves.

"Good grief, you two. Now she's probably going to be mad at me. See what you did?! Keep boot camp in mind cause I oughta be thinking about it." Their father says angrily and leaves the room, slamming the door shut. The boys look at each other with bad looks. "Sleep with one eye open, Scott. I'm gonna kill you." Sam grunts and moves over to his side of the room.

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[apricustar]

do you think buck knows about his feelings for eddie?

hey nonnie! i love this question, thank you for sending it<3

honestly, on a conscious level, no i don't think he does. buck feels everything with his entire being, but he's never been great at naming the things that matter most—especially when they threaten to upend the shape of his life. he just kind of moves through the world with an unflinching loyalty he doesn't interrogate too closely. his bond with eddie is so foundational, so ever-present, that i don't think he's ever seen it as something to question. it's not a feeling he arrived at—it's a place he's lived in.

to buck, everything that defines his relationship with eddie—being partners, trusting each other without hesitation, stepping into christopher’s life like it was always meant to be—is just natural. it’s never felt like a choice, so he doesn’t think of it as remarkable. and that’s part of why he doesn’t recognize it for what it is. the love is there—deep and steady and sure—but it’s so tightly woven into his day-to-day that it doesn’t strike him as something to name. it’s not a revelation he’s had; it’s a truth he and eddie have been living nearly since day 1.

i don’t think it really becomes something he thinks about until the morning after with tommy this season. this is the first time anyone in his orbit has made a passing comment about him and eddie’s relationship that doesn’t sound like a joke. and it lands—not because he agrees, but because, for the first time, he has to ask himself what it is everyone else seems to be seeing. that what he’s always known as natural, instinctive, constant… might look different from the outside. might look like something more. it knocks the wind out of him a little. like a door’s opened, and he’s not sure what’s waiting on the other side.

it's one thing to feel something and not name it, not look at it too closely. it's another thing to have someone else recognize it first—to hear it reflected back to you like it's obvious. and that’s where buck starts to spiral—because if that’s how it looks to tommy, who else might be seeing it too?

so he goes to maddie. and when she gently suggests it wouldn’t be so crazy—being in love with eddie—he shuts it down. hard. says it would be. says it’s not like that. says everyone seems to want me to be hopelessly pining for my straight best friend—which, let’s be honest, is a much more specific kind of panic than anyone had actually accused him of…

and we also have to remember who we're talking about... buck sure i’ll check out a hot guy's ass but that’s normal buckley... buck i’m an ally buckley....

and! for him, eddie isn't just his best friend—he's eddie!!!! his most special and favorite guy who can do no wrong! the most gorgeous, most impressive, most infuriatingly good person buck knows. of course eddie is breathtaking. of course he's everything! that's just a fact of the universe—as undeniable as gravity or sunrise. and buck assumes everyone else must see that too, because how could they not?

it's not something he confronts on his own, because it doesn't occur to him to. eddie is woven into his days, his choices, into every version of the future he pictures; he just hasn't fully let himself look close enough to realize what that means. until (gag i know) tommy brings it up.

so, no, i dont think he knows, not fully at least. but the love is there, though—in the rhythm of their lives, the spaces between what's said, in the future he hasn't quite dared to name. BUT big questions have been asked now, and i don't think he's going to be able to un-hear them.

it's waiting for him to catch up. and when he does, it won't feel like something new. it's going to feel like something that's been true for a long, long time.

[cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga]

I still don't Know for sure if I'm on the ace spectrum but my heavy aversion to irl relationships has me drifting into the aroace community. But the wider aroace community is so sex-repulsed that a lot of them genuinely view shipping, ecchi, and eroge as 'lowest-form media engagement.' Some really look down on people who like it as beneath them, and now I just feel like the weirdo all over again.

How can you be so comfortable as an ecchi enjoyer in the aroace community, knowing that so many more want LESS ecchi in anime fandom space? If I've bothered you then I'm sorry, I won't ask anything else.

Any amount of self identified personal aversion to a relationship places you into the Ace-spectrum, being ace is not an all or nothing Binary thing as my existence proves. If you are more comfortable in your own skin when thinking of yourself as AroAce **DONT LET ANYONE STOP YOU**

I dont really associate much with the larger AroAce community for the reasons you've detailed, no matter the community there will always be asshole gate keepers who desire to have control over others more than providing a space of acceptance and comfort.

As for my capacity to be so comfortable as who I am in-spite of what others have said and think of me?

Its quite simple: I have this blog and the community Ive built around it, I started this blog back in HS to have a place where I could unashamedly indulge as far into the parts of myself I thought would alienate myself from the few people who actually were around me at the time. I never intended for people to find it and follow in the numbers that have happened but just because they did and doesnt mean this blogs purpose has changed, the more I learn and change as a person the more Ive got to indulge in here. Maybe the larger AroAce community would reject someone like me, but I know who I am and Im happy being this way and thats all that matters I dont need anyone's fucking permission for that and nether do you!

There is also a lot of pain and abuse that factors into my uncompromising perspective on this, im gonna put it in a read-more TW: Abuse, attempted murder, assault, familial neglect

I once did live my life in fear of upsetting others, I was more miserable than you could possibly comprehend. That mindset nearly got me murdered by my older brother he is an extremely violent and abusive person and my family just refused to deal with the behavior in any meaningful way. From the time we were kids he'd do things that were well beyond anything reasonable. If I cried or tried to get help usually I was either punished or a "compromise" was forced no matter if he was the aggressor nor how far he went. Looking back its not subtle how our parents had such a difficult time with him that because I was normal and able to be reasoned with they ended up conditioning me to bend to his will and ensure whatever action I did I kept in mind if it would bother upset or set my brother off! Twenty three years I lived like that due to economic hardships as well as the traumatic conditioning not letting me think about or for myself, he was actively choking me and Id've likely be dead right now if my mentality didnt finally snap and I got the fuck away from him. I REFUSE TO EVER LET SOMEONE ELSE HAVE THAT POWER OVER ME AGAIN IF I MAKE OTHERS UNCOMFORTABLE BY JUST BEING MYSELF THEN THEY CAN EITHER FUCK OFF OR TRY AND KILL ME!

[lunarmoonie]

Guess who am I drawing?? 😋😋 wip

Crowe, can we honestly e date? you’re so beautiful. You always make me laugh, you always make me smile. You literally make me want to become a better person… I really enjoy every moment we spend together. My time has no value unless its spent with you. I tell everyone of my irls how awesome you are. Thank you for being you. Whenever you need someone to be there for you, know that i’ll always be right there by your side. I love you so much. I don’t think you ever realize how amazing you are sometimes. Life isn’t as fun when you’re not around. You are truly stunning. I want you to be my soulmate. I love the way you smile, your eyes are absolutely gorgeous. If I had a star for everytime you crossed my mind i could make the entire galaxy. Your personality is as pretty as you are and thats saying something. I love you, please date me. I am not even calling it e dating anymore because I know we will meet soon enough heart OK I ADMIT IT I LOVE YOU OK i hecking love you and it breaks my heart when i see you play with someone else or anyone commenting in your profile i just want to be your girlfriend and put a heart in my profile linking to your profile and have a walltext of you commenting cute things i want to play video games talk in discord all night and watch a movie together but you just seem so uninsterested in me it hecking kills me and i cant take it anymore i want to remove you but i care too much about you so please i’m begging you to eaither love me back or remove me and never contact me again it hurts so much to say this because i need you by my side but if you dont love me then i want you to leave because seeing your icon in my friendlist would kill me everyday of my pathetic life.

[lunarharp]

more phoenix wright situations

[gonchillunchis]

ancient josuyasu doodle (circa 536 a.d)

[wackywatchdotcom]

honestly i dont really talk about caine all too much, i talk about pomni a lot and then ill talk abt ragatha a lot and then i also talk about gangle and kinger and it generally cycles between them (i draw jax a lot but it has to do w him just being fun to draw- i need to talk about zooble MORE bc they were one of the first parts of the show that got me invested)- i love the entire main cast but some of them i talk abt more and i feel like caine is not a common one i discuss. but i really really like his character even if i dont talk about him so much

[ghastigiggles]

also uhhh i wanna b clear abt 1 itty bitty lil thing

when i say this blog is minor-safe, i mean like. the content i put out is safe for all ages to consume and rb and i'm comfortable with that. i mean this blog is one where underage community members can gush in the askbox about fictional characters and whatnot.

this is my library and i am the sole custodian. y'all can come to me to talk about the whack ass books or to tell me some creepy nerd is hanging around so i can beat em up with a broom. it starts and ends there

[nonsensechemicals]

crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It

[vaguehotels]

had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

[biblicalhorror]

Thinking about one of the loser men I dated directly post-college who, after I showed them Dirty Computer [the emotion picture] by Janelle Monae, said they "prefer rap that has something to say"

[illogicalghost]

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[cdroloisms]

As one of the droolish fighters, you have to admit it's very funny that Wilbur lost to the dude who only saw Dream once and yet may have understood post-prison Dream far better than anyone else save Punz.

Nah, more than c!Punz. c!Punz was the Plan which didn't reeeeally demand understanding c!Dream, just well. Working with him. c!Punz and c!Dream and the gulf between them in terms of actual understanding is what really defines how they're portrayed in the finale. on the other hand c!Wilbur's whole thing with c!Dream in inconsolable differences ... kind of speaks for itself.

[kindnessoverperfection]

wild how the more i'm working on recovery. the more i realize how fucking bad i miss her.

[babehog]

I get so fucking depressed over not being allowed to have ANY ODOUR like what the fuck. Got complaints at my job because apparently people have thought I smell bad. And this isn't something new for me either. All my life I've heard I smell bad, that my sweat smells "weird". People have told me I smell like a foreigner, like I'm not Swedish, like I don't care for my hygiene. Sometimes I'll shower and before I've even had the time to dry myself off I've started sweating a little and allready have my "smell" on me again.

And I know dear reader you're probably scoffing at me rn going "pfft lol why not use perfume or deoderant, I bet you don't actually wash yourself" and I just have to say please fucking hit yourself in the head 10 times. I'm allergic to 99% of deodorant (metal allergy and sensitive to drying from alcohol) and even the ones I haven't had reactions to haven't fucking done anything.

We need to destigmatize smell honestly. In our modern society everyone is expected to smell like fucking roses and green apples and fresh cotton and if you visibly sweat or smell even a little funky you get ostracized. I shouldn't have to feel ashamed because you can't tolerate some natural body smells. I'm not sayinh anyone has to huff my pits or anything just don't frown at me don't force me to use antiperspirant because it FUCKS my body UP. When did we accept antiperspirant as the norm in society

[metamorphiacreations]

dude it’s fine if you don’t like it, you just can’t take a moral high ground because of that. They aren’t real, and you’re not morally superior for not liking beast x ancient. You’re the same.

does asking to be blocked count as moral high ground???? 😭 because that what i did!

i said if you ship them, block me. i said i dont care what reason you have for shipping them, just block me.

because i dont know if youve noticed, Anon. but it takes a lot less time to just block a bitch than it does to tell them theyre not "morally superior"

if anything im just save everyone some time, beast x ancient shippers can block me and beast x ancients haters can be like "yay new person to follow"

im sorry you felt the need to take the time out of your day to try and knock me down a peg i dont fucking have. and im sorry you think that i think im some kind of end all be all on how a fandom should be.

heads up, probably wont be responding to you again because honestly i just have nothing else to say on this 🤷🏾‍♀️ like genuinely i dont think theres anything else i could say really so,,,,,,yeah