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sleepanonymous · 2 days

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About your tags about those known collabs with other artists, what are all the known collabs hes done? Id heard he did piano for bfmv before but i havent been able to find out which songs

Hello Anon 🖤 Thanks for the ask, I actually had fun typing all of this up and doing research. Spoiler alert: I am now sus of every and any song that George Lever and Carl Bown have produced that contain synth/keys 😅

Also, side note, listening to all of these songs while fact checking really cemented how unique Vessel is as a pianist. It’s like he’s playing in his own language, if that makes sense? It’s truly beautiful.

For Bullet For My Valentine, Vessel did the Piano Versions on the deluxe Gravity album: Breathe Under Water, The Very Last Time, and Under Again. I’ve heard a couple of times that he also did synths for the standard version of the album, but there’s no absolute confirmation of it, since he was only initially credited in the three songs I mentioned. He did have the credits changed to Vessel1 before they were removed altogether from the songs. The album Gravity was supposedly recorded between 2016/2017, so around the same time that the One and Two EPs dropped. I’m not 100% positive how he got that gig, but that is supposedly how he met Carl Bown (the producer for Take Me Back to Eden). It could also be the other way around, and Carl and Vessel already knew each other and he brought Vessel in to do the piano versions.

He is credited as a composer (ie he played piano) for Holding Absence’s song Purge. Their self-titled album was recorded in 2018, so around the time Sleep Token released the singles Jaws and The Way That You Were. Fun fact about this collab: the band most likely met Ves through George Lever, since he produced Holding Absence’s album, and that’s how the Loathe/Holding Absence/Sleep Token tour came about.

In 2019, he collaborated with The Hell on their song Jump the Fuck Up. This one I have the least information on, since the band is also anonymous and seems to have revolving members. The only credits on the song are the band name and the composer/lyricist Stephen Sears. I haven’t done too much digging, but I would not be surprised if the band had ties to George, Carl, or even both producers.

In summer 2020, during lockdown, he did a piano cover of Type O Negative’s Love You To Death with the vocalist of Forlorn, Megan Jenkins. Her band has previously worked with George Lever. I do have to warn anyone who looks up this song on YouTube, since you’ll see him in the music video that was filmed (hands, arms, chin, hair/hair color, back). He was uncredited, but the mv is proof of his involvement.

The band Malevolence stated in a podcast interview that he played keys on the acoustic version of Higher Place, but was not credited (at least one band member didn’t even realize this). The song was produced by Carl Bown, and since the album/song was released in 2022, I’m assuming it was recorded sometime in 2021, so between recording TPWBYT and TMBTE.

#anon asks #sleepanon answers #sleepanon rant #guest featuring edition #vessel sleep token #vessel #spotify link #jump the fuck up is so out of place on that list lmao #i still vividly remember being sent into orbit the first time i heard him singing on that track tho #also the fact that he covered a type o negative song #makes my inner goth so fucking happy #also i played the hell out of those piano bfmv tracks #so its a little mind blowing that i could have been into vessel's music that much earlier #if it weren't for the anonymity factor

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safety-pin-punk · 2 months

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yall Im so fucking tired. This month has been exhausting. I promise Im alive, just barely functional atm.

#personal #rant below #begining of the month docs said dad had less than a month. Hes still around but declining #been taking care of him and my mom #along with working full time #and my boyfriend doing his damndest to keep me busy when Im not helping with dad #which is great except Im so tired #but also I havent been able to sleep much #and I've lost my appetite which apparently is a grief thing I didn't know about #So I've managed to get all the physical grief symptoms and it is taking a fucking toll #so your girl is sleeping in tomorrow and spending the day doing my own little crafts and avoiding people as much as I can #a girl just wants some sleep and a fulfilling snack but all she is being given are slight naps and unappealing food. send help.#anyways after this experience Ive decided that I no longer give any fucks because you only live once so Im just gonna do what I want foreve #and actually live life instead of being constrained by societal standards #after all this is over of course. gotta take care of dad first #also I got to paint the door because he was sick of staring at the porch. so its a lake view now #woooo #yeah so thats my life update for you all #also I saw a girl for the first time in 9 years today who completely changed the tradgetory of my life and didn't know it. so that was fun.#exhausing but fun #also idgaf about spelling right now I am running on caffeine and pure will power atm

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triptychofvoids · 1 year

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you know the feeling when youve only had one hour of sleep or less and yet youre Very Awake somehow

#saw kagoutis' headcanon about the triforce of power having effects on the host #like increased metabolism or the ability to go for days without needing sleep or something #and i havent been able to stop thinking about that #pov you return to mortal form for the first time after getting the triforce and also being disembodied for who knows how long #and you realize you dont need as much sleep as you used to. if at all. but its not like you have a say in the matter anyway #saying a lot of things in the tags sorry #loz #twilight princess #ganondorf #zant #was going to draw this as oot ganondorf but i never ever draw tp ganondorf so #:]#doodles

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peteytheparrot · 2 months

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I have Mono guys 😡😡 I KNEW IT 😡😡 I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO DO ANYTHING LATELY 🥶🥶 The most annoying thing about this is that it’s ruined my Art fight streak because I’ve been too tired to draw anything!! Ugghhhhh

But lmao the only thing I can manage to draw is that stupid fucking triangle due to me only thinking of that DAMN BOOK ☠️☠️ My fixations can fix me I guess

#But I haven’t been able to finish the bill comic every time I do I just wanna sleep :(#like Ohmygod when I start drawing something I’m like 😈 what if instead 😈 I sleep 😈😈#ALSO THIS IS WHY I HAVENT BEEN TALKING TO ANYONE ONLINE IT TAKES ME SO MUCH EFFORT TO RESPOND TO PEOPLE IM SORRY #but I’ll make rants about Bill Cipher…. Guys wtf is wrong with me 😭😭😭#LIKE WHEN RESPONDING TO ARTFIGHT ATTACKS I HAVE TO LIKE FORCE MYSELF TO DO IT AND IT TAKES LIKE MULTIPLE DAYS UNTIL I CAN MANAGE TO DO IT ☠#unless it’s about bill cipher…. Sighs (GUYS PLEASE DONT QUESTION MY FIXATION ON THIS SHOW ITS ALWAYS BEEN BAD ITS JUST HAUNTING ME AGAIN)

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ubike-official · 4 months

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as i said b4, cant wait til I'm 30 to experience my own yuri cherry maho. its gonna be great

#ive been trying in the past 8 months or so to give dating a go and I've concluded that 1. the apps arent for me also i cant rlly trust an #dating app profile to actually pick a good partner. 2. i hate texting. i prefer in person unplanned low intensity meeting much more.#and 3. I'm not ready for it yet. i want to spend these next 2 years being selfish. i feel like I've never actually been able to be purposely #self centered and frankly a bit selfish. I've never done that. ive always been compromising for false narratives and expectations in ny head #and I'm tired. i dont think i can be a good partner rn until ive had my fill of self centered ness b4 i can progress to a healthy medium.#I'm open and of the right person comes along i trust myself to not drive them away out of habit and hyper independence #but fuck yk. as mich as i want it. its nit for me. tho tbh i do think i should kiss random ppl in bars just once this year bc like.#i havent done that in .. oh god 6 years. mitski was right. one good movie kiss yk #but yea. hhh its 10pm i need to sleep but alas i cannot

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obnoxiousarcade · 3 months

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im thinking again

#ive been dealt the bad hand; the worse hand; the hand from the arm from the body #im just.....okay #Well aaaa its weird #nothing anyone says to me is to *me*#which is fair-- no one knows me. but i do wish i got it. i dont know #the passing of time is still my worst enemy #i love everyone so much. itssssssweird.#if youre following these posts and saw the last one: i think i am still gonna die soon. awwh man. i dunno #but i have no reason to go on truthfully and i dont feel like finding one #im tired and sad OK?#i do want an acknowledgement again #and if you're following these posts im going to do the same thing i did last time and talk to the three tumblr blogs:#1. hi. i really like you. i admit it. j think youre really cool and all. uh okay im supposed to ask a question so here; how are you? well i #hope. k dont know. i havent been reading up like i should be and as for the second blog im talking to here i also havent been reading up lik #e i should im very sorry. i will make that journal again though.#and third blog: hi!! i still have no clue how to do that one thing but youve really gotten me into the hypothetical idea of differences base #f off of like ...area. the thing you said about that one thing.! i javwnt been doing much about it but thinkin but you know thinkin is fun.#i do want to do reading on it but ive been very sad lately and i cannot be bothered #this is really fun talking to people like this. um #youre very cool blog one ive been becoming a big fan of you again #blog two.if you see this: i want you-- I'm sayin that to specify that I'm talking to you. but i dont. anyway: uh. oh no i forgot what i was #gonna say #okay here's to not talking to anyone particular:#i want to do drugs. its the only way ill be able to handle all this.but i... oh hey i have melatonin!!#hmmmmmm #idk #it just puts me to sleep and i hate sleeping cause im always having bad dreams-- both nightmares and just dreams that Suck-- but...... im #desperate.#okay im gonna take a normal dose and just keep it together i hope #I hate sleeping

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zoppzoop · 4 months

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GAAHAHHHHH

#venting in the tags #maybe its just past darkness and the Bad Thoughts which i shouldnt listen to are clouding my brain too much #but i feel so fucking weird and inadequate over everything rn #im unable to work on drawings as i usually would have and its kinda plaguing everything which it should like yeah i love drawing but #i cant let just one aspect of me ruin everything. right? the fact that i havent been able to draw as well as i usually can should make me #feel sick to the stomach and unsure about everything i do but it happening and i hate it.#plus i got the ipad id saved up from the comms to buy and its fun and nice and all and maybe i just need more practice with it but i feel #like im not able to draw on it even more? and i spent the whole day trying to get used to it but its just not as good?? and then when i went #back to the no screen wacom i couldnt get a hang of it becuase idek its just not happening #and also the fucking art block wants me dead i swear i want to draw so bad and i have so many ideas but the moment i start anything its just #crumbles down into nothingness and i hate everything i do and gods fuck i want to cry but i can because there are people at home and #usually im a big 'crybaby' when im at home but i dont fucjing wanna be like that anymore like i can handly my shit myself im fine.#i dont need to just fuckinf cry abiut it becuase thats not gonna fox anything but also i feel like crying might just make me feel better #but then id have to hear shit from my family and i know theyre just teasing in a /pos way but i dont wanna fucking deal with that #plus my brother iust talking to him os annoying sometimes like he talks about things so condescendingly and fucking hel dude shut #the fuck up i dont need you telling me that my art is something people can 'just do' and the fact that i was able to get the ipad #'basically for free since i got that money from the little drawings i make' as if they dont fucking mean anything to you like #shut the fucking fuck up dude i worked hard on those and even though i dont like my own shit sometimes i still fucking work hard on those #fuck you you bitch #i think a lot of things are just piling up and i need to sleep #tomorrow will be a new dawn and a fresh start and maybe ill hate myself less #ps. note to anyone reading the tags #im fine i just needed to yell out and express my frustration a bit. some sleep will help surely.

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bi-buck-coded · 1 year

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#ik that i need to be honest with my doctor and tell him i havent been taking my meds…#but what if i lie instead and somehow fic it myself #its just what if like i tell him how long i havent been taking them and he decides that i dont deserve them??#which isnt likely and would b a very shitty thing to do that i think legally he might not b able to do but #what if???#i might lie a little and tell him but say its been a shorter amount of time than it actually has been #dude idk but im starting to feel like possibly i might have an episode soon like it feels like one might b coming on and im scared tbh #like idk at this point theres not much i can really do except make aure im getting sleep and continuing to go to my lifting classes #but ya idk #i need to figure out how to get back on track with my meds but im scared to talk to him abt it bc i Just started seeing him #i also start therapy with a new therapist tomorrow and thats scary #but maybe i could talk to het abt it idk

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britneyshakespeare · 10 months

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im just gonna tmi-medication share in the tags real quick

#tales from diana #i want to preface this with i've been prescribed adderall as-needed for adhd for a fullllll decade now #don't come at me with anti-adderall or anti-adhd-medication bullshit im not here for it!!#but my health problems have been so bad and ive been getting the worst sleep of my life lately no matter WHAT i do #i can do everything right #and btw i do not take adderall every day. which is implied by as-needed but i want to stress again I DONT NEED IT EVERY DAY #only when i do like. work. which ive been doing less and less bc of health problems!#but even though i havent been able to physically work so much i still have been taking half-doses a couple times a week just to like. read.#just to have a brain to do ANYTHING when everything is so awful and my brain is so foggy #ive always *sometimes* cut my doses in half if im not doing so much. just to save it y'know.#and ive always also *occasionally* gotten worse or even a really bad night's sleep after taking adderall #most commonly i'll wake up absurdly early the next morning and not be able to fall back asleep #rationing sleep is always something ive been in the habit of doing anyway as a person w adhd.#sleeping 4-6 hours during the week and 10-12 hours on weekends. just to make up for the deprivation y'know.#but even lately cutting my regular dose in half. it's still too much.#my current dose btw is already half of what it was in high school! i decreased my dose already years ago #but yesterday i finally got the nerve to take. a damn quarter of my own pill #and i took the smaller quarter of the half i cut in half.#i was def taking less than 5mg of my damn medication #and i actually didnt sleep like complete shit! and i was also worried #it might not be so effective.#but it actually worked quite well. i had enough focus to read for several hours #i had energy throughout the day too #i sometimes try to do caffeine on days i cant/dont wanna take adderall but caffeine just does not do the addy things so effectively. iykyk.#i cant believe i have to be so skimpy w my own life-sustaining mental health medications just bc my physical health is so bad #but whatever. whatever!#im gonna take another quarter-dose today and finish pericles prince of tyre. have a great day everyone

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glass-trash-bab · 1 year

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I need to fucking redesign my egos again ive been meaning to since April

#im just too Busy and Tired :(#and ive been struggling with anatomy recently also i need to figure out wtf isnt clicking #god i just wanna go back to sleep #why do i have responsibilities :(#oh!!! its also another baby cousins birthday coming up and i need to crochet her a doggy #i think my adderall has been hitting too hard recently. like i havent been able to sleep all week #theres too much shit the world needs to slow down

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vanillabat99 · 1 year

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I've been trying a "nightmare rescripting" exercise my therapist wrote out for me, and I'm not sure if it's been helping much. It's hard to follow the instructions without getting stressed out due to The Horrors invading my pleasant imagery ._. I've had a couple bad nightmares and a couple normal nights this week, so it's not much different than usual.

I will stick with it for another week and see if there's any changes, but I'm losing hope. I don't really have any ideas on what else we could try. Maybe this is just something I have to accept ._.

#ive been sleeping in a call with my partner lately and it helps to know that someone is there.#i had a really bad one the other day that made me feel so gross ._.#im not so afraid i cant sleep but i am apprehensive about going to sleep.#im worried i will have another one and i really really dont want to experience that. theres only so much srcubbing i can do.#sidenote: my heart has been acting up more lately and its bothering me a bit ._. i still havent been able to see a decent cardiologist.#also my insurance lapsed so i have to pay for my therapy and my medications :( idk if im gonna get back on insurance or not.#sorry for being negative. it is 4:30am and i cant sleep. its too hot. and my head hurts. ._.#batty blogging #text

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aropride · 2 years

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i had 2 stop cleaning my room cuz my throat felt like it was closing up (i am allergic to dust) but i got a whole trash bag of stuff out and almost filled another one so id say i did pretty good 💪

#text #it still looks bad but not AS bad #and like. its the depression room of a guy with hoardingocd so its GONNA look bad #rn im just trying to get rid of as much shit as possible so moving out is a little easier #and moving back in #my room is v small so i havent been able to unpack my college shit that i brought back in may !#which is partially also cuz its so messy but the smallness is also a big factor #also for context this is the room that i share w my sister #ive been sleeping in my little brother's room #(the one i like) (he doesnt live at home)#bcuz my sister doesnt like sharing a room (fair!)#so im in my brother's room rn.and its not filled with dust and i can breathe. the world is beautiful!

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loutrem · 1 year

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#its dumb of me but a few days ago i went with his deadname on google to see if i could see more stuff about his dead #since his friends who were alqo supposed to be my friends did a 'ceremony' together without telling me #even tho i rly wanted to go to be able to grief and to cry it out properly #so since i havent been able to grieve well i did that. search for his deadname. i just wanted to know #and i found out that a page for him was made on the tdor website. there were a ton of details on what was happening #before and after his death #many things i didnt know about. because i was a shit friend and never kept contact. and also because he was secretivz #i feel awful since then. who was i to him. why couldnt i help him. why am i even sorry for myself. he was the one suffering #i keep crying and i cant sleep at night without reading comics until i feel too tired to open my eyes #because otherwise im thinking too much about him. its just too awful. too unjust #i have. weird cravings for alcohol. ive never even drinked much before. im scared of starting to get addicted #but sometimes i wanna get somethibg anything and just drink until i pass out since people say its good to forget #i wish he were still alive. i wish i could hug him and help him. i wish id visited him in the hospital after his 1st mental breakdown #he had sent me a text to tell me he was there but i had work and i was tired and honestly too lazy to go. and now i regret it so bad #its all so unfair. death is so unfair. grief is so unfair. i was afraid i had no heart before because people who died around me didnt #phase me much. i didnt cry. but now that ive experienced the deaths of 2 actually very close people counting one i couldnt grieve forproper #i just wish i had no emotions. that i wouldnt cry when i think of them. but especially him.#and i cant stop thinking about how awful ill be when my parents die. ill be a wreck.#im just crying in my bed and its 4am. everythibg sucks. im so sorry to everyone whos ever met me. im awful #negative /#death m /#suicide m /

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listen-to-the-inner-walrus · 2 years

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i would prefer it if my dog didnt try and come help me when im throwing up like jay, this is lovely support and all but i dont want to near this, trust me, you dont either

#kai rambles #personal #delete later #tw vomit #this is mostly a vent post because i hate throwing up #like im consistently ill but vomiting is not a common symptom for me #and thank god for that because this is the actual worst #i also havent been able to take any of my 19 daily medications for two days because the only thing ive kept down is small pots of jelly/o #like i very much need to take these medications #this is my not going blind medication #the one good thing about not being able to keep things down is that i can very clearly tell because if you put food next to me #i can smell the ah ill throw up if i eat this #so at least it doesnt come back up #so its mostly liquid and something that i hope isnt blood but i dont know why theres something red in there #im having a great day can you tell #tbf i slept for like six hours early after like a 13 hour sleep #also like nhs 111 stop asking me if my chest feels cold #i cant reliably answer this i have nerve damage and cant detect cold #do it feel cold? i dont fucking know

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onepiexe · 2 years

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couldnt sleept i am. so. yeah.

#logbook #still sick. idk whats happening to my body.#i AM on the mend tho i sound and feel much bebtter but. havent been able to sleep overnight and stay asleep for 3 days.#even if i wake up once or twice i can roll over and try again but noooo.#ok loser (semi affectionate)#also had an email from the nursery i applied to at the beginning of the month. finally.#turns out the lady was sick also (man) but then she asked me to download and send back my app 😭#tbc i get shes sick but i also let myself laugh a little in mild despair. anyways i responded this morning and RESENT my same app and #resume. i renamed them again for her if thats helpful.#so thats a good sign. they havent filled the position yet.#im trying to go back to sleep but i guess i'll turn on another uki mc vod and rest a bit then get up. nap later.#miss everybody. i have felt so unhuman these last 5 days lol.#oh yeah also need to respond to mst today she sent me stuff abt the job at l*wes 😔🙄😶

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rouge-the-bat · 2 years

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happy new year ! heres a pic i just took bc its foggy outside rn n i liked how the moon was shining behind the trees

#the pic ended up more orange and saturated that it is irl lol it was more a dull gray blue #also im very sleepy im ready to go home from my aunts new years party but my mom is still partying in the karaoke room #ive p much just had a headache for most of today bc the garage (where the karaoke is taking place) is too loud :(#havent even been able to enjoy spending time with everyone :/#at least it was nice outside n looked really cool with the fog #man tho. tfw ur mom is waayyyy more of a party animal than you are htksjgjd #i cant deal with loud. i dont want to drink. im a little tired foxy n i wanna curl up in a ball n sleep #also. yea the pic isnt very good quality it looked cooler in person but oh well

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