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dinopant · 4 months ago

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Ughhh I keep remembering the fucked up dream I had that hurt my feelings the other night...

#dream about person i like that i gave up on because they got with someone else #just straight up looking me in the eyes and telling me how they knew i liked them #and they liked me but only when i was younger and prettier and more useful #and how they loat attraction to me and im never going to be good enough for anyone #they would never say thsi irl #but it hit me so personally in my dream #idk why my mind came after my insecurities so hard #but idk #feelimg a bit bummed this week #kinda feelin and thinkin #idk #maybe i give up #im tired of getting my feefees hurt #because the only ppl i like are great and make amazing frieultibut ultimately end up in fufilling great relationships with other ppl #i hardly catch feelimgs for ppl anyore at this point #i dont think i could ever be my person with anyone else #and when i do make that bond #it doesnt work out because its just me getting stupid infatuated #i give up #blah blah blah your only 25 and ppl will want you blah blah blah #no they dont #they wont #i give up!!#im tired+!#its not worth it iv accept that its not gonna happen for me #and im too shy to do anything casual either #so im just gonna be on my own and be miserable #its fine #im too needy and i need to work on it #i need to need and want ppl less

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cosmicredcadet · 1 year ago

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I think i just need to express that the culture surrounding QPRs right now made me think that i couldn't have strong bonds with my friends. Society told me i cant have strong bonds with friends because that was only for romantic relationships. Then i went into aro spaces and this idea was reinforced using QPRs instead of romantic relationships. it was "You can still have strong bonds with people without romance! It can just be a QPR instead!" "QPRs are MORE than friendship so you can have STRONGER BONDS than you would with friends."

it made me think that the relationships i wanted with my friends HAD to be something other than friendship for it to be as strong as i wanted. If i wanted to be the first person in someones life i had to enter some sort of committed relationship. if I wanted someone to care about me as strongly as i did them then it would have to be a relationship that was "more" than friendship.

I thought I wanted a QPR because i was told the only way to get that care and security that I wanted was to enter into a relationship that was "more" than friendship. because friends didn't care that much. because friends didn't live together their entire lives. because friends were never the priority relationship wise. and it took me years to realize that i didn't want any partnership and i shouldn't have to be in one to want these things from a friend. these things CAN be something friends can do. but i found that out on my own. because the aro community kept saying "you want a QPR" when i just wanted a friend who finally saw me as a priority in their life.

#text #personal #aro #aromantic #aroace #aspec #qpr #queerplatonic relationships #queer platonic relationships #tbh i was around when qprs were still getting footing. ppl werent sure how to properly label them #so to avoid allos saying it's just friends the common response was 'its more than friends but less than romance'#as if they were trying to justify it's existence as if we had to have a equivalent to romance to be justified in our identities and as ppl #because being aro made you not be a person. because how can you be a person if you dont love or have a partner #because being aro was sad because being aro meant ou were alone and you shouldn't want to be alone!!#and these ideas made it so that amatonormativity was just reinforced in aro spaces #and it isn't until recent years when amatonormativity started getting used top put a name to the problem #that i really saw ppl start standing up for aros who didnt partner because why are we expected to partner anyways?#shouldnt ppl be whole as they are?#and this is only my experience im not saying this happens everywhere #but this is why i think we need to have a conversation about QPRs and how they are used in aro spaces #because im not the only one who struggled through this #my experience may not be universal but my experience has happened to others #and thats worth talking about #srry im having a lot of thoughts recently

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lemongogo · 4 months ago

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they should get to kill each other at least twice .i think

#gravity falls #stanford pines #stanley pines #lg doodles #i drew this a few days ago but im so tired after work ngl . sittingnin bed like =__= ..#and im visiting family this weekend so idek if ill get to it until next weekend #but ya i love them i loge them so much #i love the tension in atots right after stanford comes back #and hes like writing sll this shit ab stan in the journal #while learning that he stole his identity and so on and stans like hey so i did this rly selfless thing for u can you at least #acknowledge it and they r just stewing in their own anger 😭#actually i love their dynamic so much . the arguing as they mimic each other 1:1 and rhe animosity and #ykw im gna make another post but the grammar stanley scene is my favorite #magbe its not post worthy nvm idc but thats probably one of my fav interactions in the whole series #its so stupid that u know its real HELPPlike yeah that rly isnjust how it is . in fact ive done more over less 🫶#HAHAHAHAH #ugh.love . lovee i wish #i dont think gf needs a continuation im totally in the 2 season boat here #but if they ever did a post series stan and ford exploration ohhh believe . trust tht i would not shut up ab it ever #i want to see them talk so bad . im so greedy bc i feel like they didnt talk enough in the series bc im partial 2 them i just want them in #everything .#i think their personalities are so fun esp bc ford isnt the annoying nerd archetype i like that hes a cocky bitch #and i like that stan is an equally cocky bitch and they both have too much pride that they butt heads over literally everythjng #but they also recognize how ridiculous it all is like 😭. even when theyre fighting over the journal they both r like ok pause r u ok #hmm.. so many ppl here capture their dynamic well too.😭at least the people who dont generalize either into a single personality trait yk #imso tired im tired #but guys i love talking ab ford and stan theybr so everything to me in ways i dnt think incould ever articulate like u see them and u just g #get it . ugh. turning my head and passing out . ford is so funny hes so stupid i love him i cant bekieve i was a ford hater im sorry ive #atoned im changed im a changed oerson i didnt realize the magnitude of his serve .but stanley as my day 1 will never change . just know .(k #idk if anyonf ever reads this fsr down but if u r here say cheesee📸📸

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iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight · 3 months ago

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tennis

#death note #light yagami #l lawliet #eyestrain #?#i like shapes and colors AND patterns #fun combinations of all of those things #anyway i feel like i don’t talk in the tags on this blog as much as i used to. i need to do that more how else will i make more ppl #parasocially in love w me…..#so hmm. i graduate in less than a month which is exciting bc school sucks ass and i want to be done w it forever (until i decide i want #to go for a masters that is T_T) and have u guys heard abt the mcrtour? making mefeel fucking craaazyyyyyy yes i’m gonna try for #tickets. and perhaps even visit some beloved mutuals in the process. and fool that i am i never finished my last scarf but am wanting #to start a new one but this one is for someone so perhaps i will have more motivation to like. actually finish it lol. knitting btw. i am #not very good at it but it is a good skill to have and crocheting is my mother’s thing and i like the look of knit better. i got yarn the #other day and i was like ough am i remembering their favorite color correctly but if not i can just die forever or smth. i’m not sure #what pattern i wanna do or if i want to add a second color or anything but like i have a small collection of yarn that i got when it was #on sale like crazy so i’m sure i can find smth that will complement my base color if need be #okay i’m done goodbye

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dkettchen · 2 years ago

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I'm just sAYING-

#they didn't need to cut his hair #nimona #sir goldenloin #ambrosius goldenloin #it's honestly homophobic of them #turned him into the most generic ass looking gay I've ever seen in my life #I can excuse the huge sad puppy eyes they gave everyone #(just barely)#but the HAIR #I simply cannot #and it's not like they weren't simulating plenty of other ppl's hair no 3D excuses #they wanted to make them look less edgy and alt and quirky and turned them into mainstream boring looking ppl #instead of leaning into the quirky grungy setting that is part of what makes the original so charming smh

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pennumbra · 9 months ago

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So does anyone remember Storm Hawks

#'you know what needs a gritty reboot' is something I have literally never said #BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT NEEDS A GRITTY REBOOT #genuinely I think storm hawks had some neat concepts and world building #but it was limited by the era of cartoon writing it came out in #anyway I felt nostalgic #attached some screens of the chars so anyone who isn't familiar (so... most ppl I imagine lmao) could compare #mostly just wanted to make slight redesigns that felt less restricted by the style/animation reqs yk!#(and it was v important that Stork have a tail)#I was trying to channel 'rhino' for Junko but anthro designs aren't my forte LMAO #storm hawks #storm hawks piper #storm hawks stork #storm hawks junko #my art #nerd corps entertainment

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ame-to-ame · 1 month ago

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Merry Christmas!!!

#my art #bocchi the rock!#bocchi fanart #bocchi the rock fanart #btr!#btr fanart #kessoku band #the skrunklies #i couldn't draw well today unfortunately i got really sick from traveling #so this isn't as rendered as i hoped to but yayy #also i love my friends hehe they're cool ppl #on another note tho im gonna crash out if my crush doesn't watch my story this is way tmi but it's the full moon and im losing it /j #ik she likes me to some degree she has to rahhh be interested in me as a person #nobody told me being a girlkisser was this hard i want a refund i want a factory reset-#hpnosis circle ooh you want to kiss me so bad rn you want to kiss me so bad >:(((#i need to. drink less these days.

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bpdlottiematthews · 9 months ago

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A huge problem with antizionist activists at the moment is that so many of them are just absolutely itching to see more violence. They don’t want to stop the violence. They don’t call for a ceasefire and peace anymore. Instead they call for Israelis/Jewish people to be ethnically cleansed from the region instead of Palestinians. Like they literally just think the “wrong people” are being murdered right now. They’re a bunch of western spectators with nothing on the line agitating for more violence in a region thousands of miles away so they can root for their “team.” It’s a game to so many of these people, and a game they want to end in even more violence than has already been perpetrated by the Israeli government and Hamas.

#like call me crazy but i think ethnic cleansing/genocide is Bad no matter what group of ppl you’re doing it to #ultimately everyone needs to realize the only way forward is peaceful coexistence with equal rights and freedom of movement #because neither the israelis nor the palestinians are going anywhere nor should they have to #i/p #miri’s thoughts #i’m just. tired #antisemitism #i think the world could benefit from having LESS violence actually #anyways i left twitter so i wouldn’t have to keep being subjected to antisemitism/being expected to comment on this issue 24/7 #so i’m not really going to talk about it here very much #but i wanted/needed to get this off my chest

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mrmeepsmadmind · 2 months ago

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they are ignoring my big beautiful pathetic himbo wife and his cute little platypus tail that he has for some tank part reason im too dumb to understand why