#but dont worry i will have them by monday
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plus everyone in tumblr was freaking out when the ep of rhaenyra's funeral came out yes this was on the dream too
I'm without my med so I had this weird ass dream that the targaryens had this fortitude on the air like the arryns but much higher and so you can only reach by dragons and that is like the blacks fortitude but rhaenyra tried a last resort to invite her siblings there but then aegon poison her and was so smug to helaena during the funeral on his quarters but then helaena poison him back with the same stuff and decided to write it down and tell her mother she did it before she jumps from the window and in between daemon is depressed as fuck because he blamed himself for not being there to protect rhaenyra so he dies like he supposed to and kills aemond on the process and daeron doesn't even want to involve in this drama he likes to live thank you very much so by the end jace is the only heir suitable and that's how the dance ended
and honestly I like my version better
#i have the most weirdest of dreams when im without my meds#but dont worry i will have them by monday#until then i will keep updating my weird ass thoughts#which is funny bc i didnt even seen anything from hotd this day#once i dreamt about a version of attack of the clones but set in brazil during the world cup of 2002#like#dont ask#house of the dragon#fire and blood
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up next on chapter 36 of idol sengen… _(:3 」∠)_
#(my toxic trait is that i’ll complain about my work endlessly but still end up doing it anyway… eventually.)#there’s rant 1 (ft. a need to deduce what asuna is saying in full) and rant 2 (which is available in full but still…)#there’s also another mona-rambling session in chapter 38… that im not touching with a 50 foot pole#(all you need to know for that mona-rambling [about frusu] is that mona’s frusu oshi is all of them)#(and that she thinks miyu is like *the* pinnacle of centres in idol groups)#(also someone won a junior dance competition but idk who bc it’s obscured lmao)#can i outsource these panels for a corn chip lmaoooo#m. maybe i should’ve actually worked on this while i was still unemployed last month huh…#bc excuse me company wdymmmmmm im starting work next monday?? the interview was just this monday hello?#ig the interviewer was legit when she said ‘so if i asked you if you can start work next monday—’ huh…#sigh… maybe ch 36 next month then… i’ll do my best over the weekend thoughhhhh#seriously though why is this volume so text heavy l m a o i really wanna get to chapter 40 but…#and then there’s the hard to clean text boxes which… aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#…though i guess i should just count myself lucky that the chapters are still short enough to fit into a single post (with the image limits)#but dang. i just realised that my manga sengen thing has a page on manga updates lmao#who put it there lmaooooo and why is it only up till vol 2? wait. no. what. why does it link to manga.dex#bc dang. someone really had the time to dl the thing image by image? no wonder why they stopped after vol 2…#guess i might as well say why i dont want people to reupload my tls… since we’re in the final stretch and all#so. aside from the obvious ‘idw the creators to find out about it’… i probably made a ton of mistakes while tling it. esp in the early chaps#so i’d like to. y’know. have the chance to update the tls where possible. i’ve done that a couple of times already tbh.#like with rippei’s name post-vol 4 release. and some of the typesetting is p. gross in the early chaps tbvh#i swear tling idol sengen has made me incredibly conscious of grammar and typesetting like you wouldnt believe#esp with official tls… fan tls will always be perfect to me no matter how wonky the wording bc it’s hard but honest work yk#official tls (esp a.i tls) get no concessions from me bc it’s their job that they’re getting paid to do yk.#in any case (if you’ve read this far) if you see any mistakes in the tl please lemme know~~~ please dont hold back on your criticisms ok~~~?#just sound ‘em out in dms here or sth. don’t worry~~~ i won’t eat y’all if you try to correct me~~~~~ unless you’re the md reuploader (jk)#and ik i disabled comments on the other blog (or tried to at least) but that’s bc idw bots to flood the comments bc that’s annoying as he—#anyways sorry for the idol sengen wait (if anyone was waiting for it…) i’ll improve on my work ethic… tomorrow. maybe.
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Giddy love-struck idiot spotted.
Original meme under the cut:
#i have not gotten over them dont you worry#this meme hit me like a flashbang at work#mine#my art#inki#magolor#maginki#oc x canon#kirby#kirby oc#fan character#meanwhile quiver knight's going through grief#ok but jokes aside it legit felt nice to draw these idiots cause week is dragging on and i feel like an actual soggy mop ough#meme#meme art#how is it only wednesday i feel like monday came around like 4 times#also took this opportunity to comic test~
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Is everyone excited for me to post a fic next week. Or at least looking forward to it at all. Or like. Remembered it? I of course remembered but at the same time I just kinda registered that finishing this up and posting it means I'm posting a fic
So uh. There's that to look forward to!
#speculation nation#the reverse bang fic so it's unrelated to anything ive posted prior#and well if you missed the preview for it. tough luck i guess lmfao#it wont matter either way tho. first chapter will be up on monday. and then i'll be shooting for one per each day after.#total of 4 chapters. so monday tuesday wednesday and thursday.#gotta balance it with school tho. it's still pretty early so i dont have too much work yet#which im banking on. ive been writing. hoping to finish all the writing tomorrow#so i can focus on just editing during the week. and get them out nice and easy.#now you may ask why im still working on it this close to posting and Uhhhhh#dont. even worry about it. yeah. dont even look at the entire blanket i crocheted instead of writing. it's Fine.#anyways im gonna go push wolfwood off a ladder now wish me luck#(officially this is joke. dont even worry about it)
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i'm so bummed i accidentally turned town a job interview for a job where I could have worked with a good friend and mentor 😔
#i was telling her abt the preschool i got hired at and i was like yeah im worried bc the other teacher doesn't seem nice#and the student teacher ratio is really bad they're really understaffed and underfunded im just really worried it will be too much for me#and she was like oh you should apply to the school i work at bc we're hiring snd the ratio is great and the pay might be better also#and i never knew the name of the school she worked at until then#and its one i DID apply to but i told them nevermind after this one hired me 😬#but now i really wish i'd taken that interview#i'm going to call or email first thing on monday tho and hopefullyyy i can get in for an interview before i start my new job on thursday#so i wont literally have to take time off for it#and then if they offer me i will be able to tell the new job nevermind while its still early#either that or i'll try to stick it out a few months then apply to the other one for summer or something#but im not sure whether its best to quit immediately or let them think im dependable and staying then leave in three months lol#but mostly for the other job idk if it would ruin the opportunity to tell them nevermind i want the job a week after i said no#compared to a few months later#they might have forgotten me by then which would probably be good#idkkk#my first reference literally works there which will hopefully help and maybe they'll give me a break#the pay scale looks the same as the one i just accepted but i think they'll offer less bc they're not as desperate#but i literally dont care its such a better working environment#and the pay scale is the same so they would give me a raise after a few months#and the work will be so much easier#and the commute#and i Definitely know i can work with my friend#vs the co teacher at this new job who seems really intense and unfriendly#anyway!!#im really anxious abt this new job and i'll stay if the other place wont take me now#but i really hope they give me another chance#also its super close and easy drive and the commute for the other one scares me a bit lol#this has been a shitpost
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i was typing down an analysis of wicked phases a while ago and i got distracted by a friend and then i remembered i have a lecture to write down and then i got distracted by my own daydreaming for my ocs and then i got distra
#basically how my week has been going#its a monday#ewuuwhsdue my energy is so low i cant think of anything to post</3#head empty just static and ocs that feel cringe if i share them out loud#daydreaming has been my bestie since school started back up again#yeah#aahsakfdgsgbt words#word words words wrods im fine dont worry about me im just bored#i have 800 words on the wicked phase post though#theyre just fun to think abt rlly#i think i lost my point halfway through it but isnt that how all my long tangents usually go#i should probably sleep#yea#bye#be ready for spouts of inactivity and activity#appears and disappears like my namesake fr#mis-csoi-llaneous
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#idk why i thought it would be different this time#im an absolute idiot. im too fucking stupid to comprend all this shit#'maybe my professors will know how to help me' they never tell me shit. they havent helped me at all. i feel so stupid every correction#no matter how much i read or what i watch its like i cant understand anything#i used to love programming!!! i used to actually know what i was doing!!!!! when did i become so stupid!!!!#should i aak for help from someone else? probably! but i dont want them to know how much of an idiot i am#just kidding. i know all my friends know how stupid i am. doesnt mean i dont want them to give them even more proof of that#nor bother them either tbh. why should they have to waste time because im a fucking idiot?#im. such a disappointment#i dont want to do this anymore#every monday is just me going to that stupid class and see how dumb i am compared to everyone else. so pathetic#how did i even manage to pass all my classes? how do i only have my thesis left?#part of me wants to abandon everything but what would i do then? look for a job?#im an idiot and a horrible artist where the hell would i get a job? not like finishing my thesis would change that but. yknow#im so scared. for real how did it end up like this?#everyday i feel more stupid. i remember less. my body hurts a little more each day for reasons unknown#i dont understand how others have any expectation of me#i cant talk to others because everytime i have tried to express any worry i instantly get a joke or mock in reply#im so tired of everything#haunted.txt
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ALSO daj complimented my hair andnsaid it was very thick and looked nide and jm like :]]
#great day in connorland :] im sad daj wont be here tmrw tho#n maya wont start until the monday after next i think.. famously its looking like im gonna be training her which GETS SCARES!#shes dajs friend tho and daj says shes rly nice and also i like halfway trained daj and she said i did a rly good job and was very helpful#so 🙏#also maya is like around dajs age i think(daj is 24) so itll be nice to have another young person... formerly it was just me and nicha and#fiona but me and fiona never rly interact since she leaves so early were just never in thesame area.. she seems super nice though :]#i was worried she didnt like me at first but i think that was just me bejng paranoid bc im down with her now...#but ya. much love to brenda and nee and dee and marian however its hard to be friends eith ppl so much olfer than me... theyre all older#than 40 and obviously that doesnt mean im gonna like. not be friends with them NDFBF we talk we joke etc yk. but theyre literally all old l#enough 2 be my mom like literally my mom turns 40 next year so we just dont have a lot 2 tlk abt...#idk why i did so many disclaimers. basically its like for some reason rly rare for young ppl to do housekeeping i think they all just are#servers. SO itll be cool 2 have a new young person esp one who i already know is chill bc shes friends with daj and daj says ill like her#and alsl we will kind of have to get along sonce were bith friends with daj JFBFJFNGN#so yayyy basically :] im scared 2 train but still excited
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#tomorrow is the day the measurements start. the start of my 40+ days of torment. but idk im glad its finally here#i dont have to dread it anymore. hopefully its the last time i have to do these type of measurements#i was talking to my boss yesterday and she was like: oh last timr we were out i realized this might be ur last time doing lpi for thr rest#of ur life. and i was like god i hope so. bc thats a process where i crawl across the ground for 50m per transect and identify all the#plants and soil cover and for the life of me i cant fucking remember plant codes. i hate it bc i basically have to talk for like 3hrs and#have someone standing over my shoulder recording me and all the while my brain is screaminf at me bc field work doesnt count as real work#in my stupid brain. so yea ill do lpi and soil stability as benign torment in purgatory#but anyway. im hesitantly optimistic abt the measurements i have to take bc im going to try my best to make it ok bc i have school#interviews looming and i have to pretend im hanging on by more than a single thread ya kno#so we r going to b careful abt it. well at least well see how long it lasts. i also have tk find the time to read a bunch before interviews#while my brain is completely fried idk how. and do other lab stuff. sigh...#idk im probably going to take measurements all the way thru sunday and then monday see if i can fill out patent intake info with a psy#psychiatrist. and hope they take my insurance. i called and checked for providers and they were the only one in the area so shoulf b ok but#ya kno. god im barely a functional person. like the fact that i have to drive 8min down the road is very nearly enough for me to say fuck#it. id rather suffer forever. i just hate driving so much :-P#i just wish i could focus enough to make words make sense and justify the time i spend to learn things. agh#lmao im such an anxious person. a lab mate had a birthday today and my boss and a fellow lab member surprised her with a cake#and im v worried abt when my birthday happens. it wasnt so bad last time bc another birthday was also that week so the focus was off me a#lil but with my boss leaving this school i was like. yes. i escape the surprise gathering. but probably not. same for when i leave#genuinely i do not want a gathering. i just feel like im waiting for them to end. not that i dont like my lab mates but idk it feels so#artificial. and i feel awkward bc i never make eye contact or look at anyone in a way i think is typical bc i see ppl look at me#like turn their head to see my reaction to something and i just like fundamentally do not understand that impulse#whatever. what i want for my birthday or going away is to not attend the gathering. make it more like a wake lol#but i kno that wont happen. last year my boss asked whst i wanted and i said nothing and she said that wasnt allowed#im just so neurotic that if u try to do anything for me itll prob just upset me. but idk ppl like to give presents and stuff#and sometimes things arent all abt me. so i just gotta accept it and go cry abt it later#but thats like 3 months away so i dont kno why im so stressed abt it now. I've got more pressing things to stress abt#unrelated
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#mood rocketing downhill. thjs can only end well :-(#on my period and so tired and sad and lonely and i really really really want a hug im going to bash my head in with a rock#and a bit annoyed i spent ages testing climbing shoes today which ive been meaning to do for ages and the staff were rly nice#and i got a pair in the end but tbh i may end up returning them bc on reflection im not sure theyll work for my specific climbing style#what i rly wanted was a few sizes down of my current ones but they didnt have stock. and i tried the size i wanted in a variation of the#same shoe ie. same shape just not the rubber im after and they fit near perfectly so now im just thinking abt them instead.#u know what fuck it. ill take the train to my old city tmr and go to the climbing store there bc i checked online n they do have them.#ill just be constantly doubting my decision if i dont and i need to do smth nice for myself. and i can read on the train#and if they dont fit better well i have these other ones. and these ones are still nice! but im worried theyre more suited to sport/trad#and im primarily a boulderer... and i mean theyd def be good for some types of bouldering and i wanna get into sport/trad anyway but arghhh#whatever. fuck it. booked my train its not that expensive anyway just time. im tired of letting my decision paralysis get to me#and always settling for shit that makes me unhappy bc its not quite what i want but i talk myself into pretending im okay with it#when im not!!! and its unfair to myself and everyone around me to so consistently fail to identify n communicate my actual wants/needs#this isnt actually abt the shoes im upset for other reasons but at least projecting it onto this gives me a semblance of control#and gives me an easy way out of having to confront n deal with my avoidance...... it literally has no fucking limits huh.#well whatever. i need to food shop and eat and shower and then its okay ill play a videogame and go to bed early#its not been that bad a day i watched a movie this morning which was nice. and it was nice to cycle around the weathers great#probably havent slept enough. probably took my afternoon meds too late. probably just feeling lonely and tired and on my period....#tomorrow will be a nice day and monday i have climbing and there are other nice things coming up. puts down my head bashing rock#okay feeling a bit better now ive cried a bit and typed this. deep breath. wheres my shopping list.#.diaries#.vent#byeee
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its times like this when i really wish i had an SO's shoulder to cry on
Because I think i factrued/sprained my foot the other day it happened wednesday but its still pretty swollen and pops when i try to walk on it without hobbling. i know i signed up for health insurance through work. i wrote down the insurance company name as Bayside and I have my personal insurance id number but the card never came in/got lost in the mail (and i already called for one replacement that never came so idk if theyll send me a third) so i cant confirm the insurance name nor call them, but i need to because ive called/visited 5 health care facilities around me and NONE of them have even heard of Bayside. So im calling the phone number that my manager provided me with telling me that was the insurance company. I keep calling the number (and mind you ive called them before to try to get a second insurance card sent to me but that was in like April) and i get that its saturday but theres no answer and the stupid automated machine wont let me leave a voicemail. the automated answering voice on the phone also says that theyre called National Benefit Plans by SafetyNet and google says the phone number im using belongs to National Benefit Plans out in San Antonio Tx (i live no where near there). I found National Benefit Plans' website on SafetyNetPlus dot com but National Benefit Plans doesnt have their own website, just through SafetyNet, and also the SafetyNet website says on a side panel that "this is NOT insurance" and instead keeps saying "health benefits" instead so idk what the fuck ive been paying for for the last 6 months tbh and im having an emotional breakdown bc i dont want to fuck my foot up for life just cause i couldnt figure out my health insurance/benefits shit
#ive been fucking sobbing on the phone for 20 minutes calling the phone number over and over again#im about to mcfucking lose it and im sad and confused and scared because my foot is still so swollen even though it doesnt hurt very much#and google says if swelling on an injury like this persists after 48 hours to go get it looked at#all the walkin clinics near me dont have any xray techs til monday & quoted me anywhere from $130-$300 if i dont have insurance which i can#provide proof of nor am i even sure i actually have at this point and im ngl my guys i only have like $180 to my name until next friday#but then basically my entire next paycheck is going to Geico#and overall im just having a really really really bad time rn and im scared that if my foot is actually fractured im gonna fuck it up worse#by walking around on it without a boot/cast. yeah ive been sitting at work the last few days#but its front desk at a hotel so at least for the first hour of my shift and last 1.5 hours i HAVE to be standing#my foot was so swollen after work today it hurt to get my shoe off#im just really fucking stressed and anxious and confused and im sitting here sobbing my eyes out realizing theres literally no one i can#call just to vent and cry it out with#cant call my mom cause i busted my foot leaving her place after her husband got in my face & screamed at me for saying you cant hit people#cant call my siblings cause none of them can help/we dont talk often enough that i feel like i can burden them with this#i have a few casual friends but same sitch im not close enough with them that i feel comfortable venting while sobbing to them#i could call my ex but shes got a new boo now/its not her problem/we rarely talk anymore/she cant help so no point in calling#only other person who knows/is worried about me is my ex's mom but she wont be home from work for break til 2pm & its 11:30am rn#not close enough to any of my coworkers either#its times like this that i realize how truly alone i am these days with no one that can physically comfort me#which of course is only making me more upset#thats what i get for being depressed and reclusive the last 2 years and only letting people get an arms length reach from me emotionally#there is a medical clinic i can go to that is a 50 minute drive from me and without insurance you just pay a $20 sliding fee plus a little#extra for the care services but again theyre not open until monday and also its a 50 minute drive from me#so all im learning is i shouldve gone some place thursday morning after it happened and im fucked at least til monday#FUCK my STUPID BAKA life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#whatever. guess imma keep icing it try to keep it elevated and just endure it and hope it doesnt get worse#emma rambles#vent tag#DONT REBLOG
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My limbs were bandage city today y'all I kept gettin hurt 😭
First I accidentally burned my leg w a drill. I just finished using it and was checking the hole and accidentally brought it too close to my leg
Then I nicked my knuckle on some semi circle thing trynna get it off something else, forgot what it was called. But I bled a bunch and had to get a bandaid :P
After that I stabbed my finger with some wire on accident. It's like the cable thing that's made up of a bunch of tiny metal wire strung together I also forgot what that was called but I bled again!
Then I scratched my knee on the back of a hammer and, guess what? I bled again!
And when I got home the remains of a blister fell off and left me with just a hole in my heel so that kinda sucks :P
#Lmao just yapping about whay happened at work (can i call it thag if its just like a program? im still doing a bunch of work like construct#ion and shit so its work#but jt feels weird yo call it work when you're not getting paid)#buy like all this shit did happen like fr and now i know my way arousn the medicine cabinent like my own home!#me getting the most injured techie award aside#it was really fun like fr#we set these big ass frames up on the fly system and got them in the air but on the second pair the cabling is uneven so thats gotta get fix#but like im kinda nervous tbh cuz like we open this Thursday to the public#and we have our first full run throighs monday - wednesday#and Wednesday doenst even count techincally cuz we're doing a show for the other side of the program up north so its really just an actual#show but the director keeps caling it a dress rehersal#we arent even close to done witj she set we still need to hook up 2 more legs to the fly sustem#we need to get the cabiling done on the last leg and fix the other cuz its being a dick to us#finish painting the backdrop and getting the details done on the stairs and railings and ramps#and we need to get the logo for the center of the set finished and atttatched#AND we still need to learn our cues for lighting and props and the flys and shit#that part isnt much of what km doing tho cuz im a stagehand so i dont gotta worry about the lights and the flys but im still worried :[#like half the techies showed up today#on a day we arent supposed to ve tbere#to help finish the set and we arent even finished and qe were there all day ughghshh#we're planning on working durring our dinner break since its loke 2 hours long on monday so we can eat and get back to work and finish#i know working on your break is a stupid fucking idea and its my break time i need to rest#and i will be using half of my break to rest and eat and drink water and get some energy back but we still need to get this done#fuckkk when i get like a paid job and shit its gonna suck ass isnt it#its loke 11:30 i shoild go to bed and not be kn tjmblr LMAO#sorry for lime yapping in the tags and shit urhehhh
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my therapist agrees with me that i need more than 1 hr of therapy a week :\
#also realized that im doing worse than i was when i saw her last in december#she asked me about self-harm and i was able to honestly say that it's been about a month so i guess that's improvement#she thinks i need to go back up to at least iop#idk what to do though because i was discharged from iop on dec 29 and they thought i was ready even though i didn't feel ready#but i think a large part of that being my discharge date is because i left for a trip on jan 2#i liked the program i was in and i liked my doctor (who i am now seeing outpatient once a month) but i was in that program for a long time#so maybe i need to be looking into other programs. that one was close to home and a young adult program which i liked#it feels kinda shitty to have to go back up to a higher level of care yet again#but at least i dont need inpatient and tbh if i dont get the help i need now then probably will end up needing inpatient again#i have work tonight and i dont feel like i can do it. i dont feel like i can hold myself together for that long let alone also do my job#and like be the adult#but i teach/tutor students and they might not be able to find someone to sub my classes this last minute#and today is the first day of this semester (other then the classes i subbed on monday) so im worried if i dont do them today#theyll give my classes to someone else#i should never have told my bosses that i am home from school because of mental health ugh
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141 is filled with alphas, not a single omega in sight. there are a few betas, but they're either low-ranking or transfers that were never going to last.
like you! (beta!reader) who works at reception and takes calls, scans badges and is the first point of contact for the task force.
none of them know your name, none of them even speak to you - maybe price, when you transfer a call to him, he'll mumble a thank you. or even laswell, when you bring her a coffee.
it's nothing, really, you don't mind.
only, one day, a totally normal friday, you've done the exact same style in your hair you always have, and you're wearing more clothes than you were yesterday.
price wants a coffee, sure- you make it, just the way he likes, and head towards his office. you knock, and wait a few seconds until you hear 'come in.'
the office is silent, it usually is - but this time there's more than just price inside.
they're finishing up just as you enter, soap and gaz sitting in front of the desk whilst ghost leant against the back wall.
"my apologies, captain." your voice isn't exactly quiet - why should it be, you've done nothing wrong, but its still respectful. price just nods as you place the cup down on his desk.
"thanks, that's all." he dismisses everyone in the room, and you wait for the boys to file out before you do, soap and gaz both giving you a cheeky smile.
ghost is the one to hold open the door, standing just adjacent to the doorway with his arm sprawled against it. its a heavy door, and you swallow as you pass him.
"thank you," you all but mumble out as you rush past him - straight into the break room.
you can't help but rant about the situation to your roommate whilst you're packing up your things, your phone tucked between your jaw and shoulder.
"i mean- he held the door open for me and i couldn't even look him in the eye to say thank you!" you stress, throwing your bag into your passenger seat before leaning back against your car. "god, all i wan't right now is a plate of sushi and some boba."
"too bad its pizza night, dweeb."
"thats not fair! i could loose my job, i should be allowed to eat my comfort food when im stressed out."
you stress about it over the whole weekend, and when you return back to work on monday you try to act as casual as possible. of course, you don't see ghost - price doesn't order a coffee, and youre break time comes around quicker than you expected.
you had brought- oh, theres- your favourite sushi, and a boba drink sitting where your food was supposed to be. in somewhat messy hand writing, on a small piece of paper, theres your name.
signed ' s. riley. '
i am a sucker for sweet lil moments like this !!
in my head i think that simon would like a beta, or an alpha, but in this lil snippet (which is CERTAINLY getting turned into a fic) he's big and broad and gets worried when he's with alphas because they can't think straight, he tells them what to do and he does it.
but you? you dont react to his scent or chase him down to get him to court you - so, of fource, he courts you. <3
#john soap mactavish#kyle gaz garrick#shmalk ! ᧔♡᧓#task force 141#simon ghost riley#john price#simon riley x reader#alpha!simon riley x beta!reader#beta!reader#alpha!simon riley#alpha!ghost#alpha!ghost x beta!reader
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paint me like one of your french models 🎨
A.P calc teacher schlatt x A.P studio art teacher reader
Mr. Schlatts halloween party takes quite the turn.
Once all the girls at the table calmed down, their only request was that they were filled in about your weekend plans on monday, to which you actually agreed
now the hard part was picking a cute costume for you and schlatt, i mean he didn't really seem like a costume kinda guy
there was 20 minutes left in the period and you needed to find something fast
it was the last class of the day and schlatts party was tomorrow, and you knew you wanted to hand make yours and schlatts costume
so you turned to the six bright eyed girls you had grown to love
your class was very relaxed, if they did their work and you would play music games and movies, your students loved you
but these girls ADORED you.
it was alanna, deyvn, natalia, lucy, renn, and kezia.
they were all so genuinely themselves, and they made you feel like you were one of them, they told you EVERYTHING, and i mean everything.
each one had such a different personality, yet they all were so close. You were gonna miss them next year
you slid your wheely chair over to their table and called for their attention
“Girls, im calling a meeting, i need your help” you sighed and looked around at them
"thats funny considering youre the teacher." alanna giggeled to herself
"shut up al, i wanna hear about her and mr schlatt" kezia said, suddenly paying very close attention, she never cared about classes, but gossip, oh she would have an A+ if it was a class
"dont be rude, anyways, as you heard before, me and ja- Mr. schlatt. are gonna have a matching costume for his party tomorrow and you guys are much cooler than me, what should we be?" you begged
each girl began searching pintrest and finding ideas until renn found something she deemed great
"ok, lightbulb! you guys should be adam and eve" everyone began to protest her idea but she continued on "everyone shut it, hear me out. number one hes religious, right? number two your bodies tea. you would look hot as fuck. cmon its a great idea."
"renn let me get this straight, you want me to wear a leaf over my cooch? and boobs? to a school function? with other teachers from this school??? yknow what your on a ban, no more ideas from you"
they all started hysterically laughing as renn raised her hands in surrender "any ideas that i can wear without being slut shamed by the schools faculty?" you asked
natalia was up next " what if you did flynn and rapunzel, wait no, actually tell Mr. Nivison to be Flynn, ugh hes so hot, why not match with him." that began a four minute argument about weither Mr. Schlatt was hotter, or Mr. Nivison
"can someone please lock in and find me a costume?" you begged over their debate
"okay i might have an idea." deyvn said, "ok so what if you were the starry night and Mr. schlatt was van gogh." she suggested, before i could even comment lucy butted in
"wait that would be so cute, ugh you never shut about about van gogh either! you could wear a little dress and like paint the starry on your face, or on the dress, and schlatt could do like an ear patch thingy, and the hat he wears, wait i love this!"
they all began throwing ideas at you about how you could execute the costume, and while some of their ideas were rancid, it could actually be a very cute costume.
when the period ended they all said their goodbyes, and while you were packing up schlatt made his way to your classroom and opened it with his key
"BOO" he tried to scare you
"i literally saw you jay" you laughed and you slid your laptop into your bag.
"ugh, ill get you eventually, dont even worry about it, did ya pick somthin' for us to wear tomorrow?" he made his way infront of your desk and leaned his weight on the table
"i did actually, you have to hear me out though, it might sound dumb." he quickly cuts you off
"nothing you say is dumb" he was looking up at you and his eyes were very warm, much more than usual, it threw you off your game for a moment
"um, well thank you, but seriously, let me explain it before you say anything, i think it would be cute if we were the starry night and van gogh bu-"
"i love that." he cuts you off, still staring at you with the same look in his eyes as before
it was overwhelming you the way he was looking at you, but at the same time it pulled you in.
"no questions? i mean what if i wanted to dye your hair red." i laugh quietly
"id let you." he says without missing a beat
"m' not gonna do that, when should i bring you your costume, or like help you get ready or something." you felt very judged by his gaze, but not in a negative way, if that makes any sense, he was really confusing you.
"well party starts at 8, so come over early, we can get ready together, maybe even pregame a bit, and only if you want you can help setup. sound good?" he said softly
"yeah, sounds good." you said back, copying his tone of voice
"see ya' tomorrow toots." he stood up and walked out the room without looking back, the door clicked shut and he left you with nothing but your thoughts.
what the fuck was that.
you were so confused about what had just went down
why on earth was he looking at you like that
since when was he calling you toots, he always just called you by your name, no pet names
all those thoughts continued to plauge your mind for the duration of the night
and the next morning
and the afternoon
all the way until it was time to head over to schlatts house
it was in a nice area, he lived right outside the city, near astoria, queens
he had told you before that he commuted every day to work, but it was only a 20-40 minute drive depending on traffic
when you arrived at his house the first thing you noticed was how it was a very old building, yet his very new car (very expensive) was sat outside, it was a very symbolic scene, but it felt like him in a way
you got to the door, bag and a bottle of benedictine in hand, and rung the door bell, and it was taking quite a long time, you were starting to worry
but you were suprised when the door flung open revealing a very disheveled looking schlatt
"holy shit thank everything your here, im such an idiot i fully fell asleep and i just woke up and now im gonna crash out." as he rambled you set down your stuff at a nearby table
you walked back over to him and placed both your hands on his face, attempting to calm him down "johnny look at me please"
you noticed his eyes darting around and lip trembling. he had mentioned his severe anxiety to you before but you never knew it got this bad
`"hey im right here its ok, were going to get everything done, i know youre stressed but we are gonna do this together, we have time, and we can even make it fun, ok?" his eyes slowly begin to focus on yours and his lip began to calm
you moved one of your hands to his and let him ground himself and calm down, eventually he was able to let go of your hand and give you a hug
hugging him was the best thing youve ever experienced, he engulfed your whole body and rested his head atop yours and for a moment you felt true peace
your breathing syncronized and you stood there holding eachother
until you felt something fuzzy brush against your leg, and you pulled away to find two cats rubbing at your legs, and orange and black cat to be specific
you looked back at schlatt and he was smiling at you "they like you, makes sense, i do too." your eyes widened and you fully turned yourself in his direction
"what did you just say?" you squint your eyes and point at him "can you repeat that" you said through your smile
"i said i like you, and we both know you heard me the first time" he moved closer to you with a grin you were growing to love plastered across your face
"maybe i just wanted to hear you say it again" you smirk, before turning around and picking up his orange cat, "whats this one called?" you smile
"oh were just gonna smooth past that huh?" he asked accusatorially, one eyebrow raised, as he walked closer to you
being around schlatt made you feel bold, you were so comfortable around him that it boosted your confidence tenfold, you got super close to him, lips mear inches away
"i like you too, but we have alot to do, so we'll talk about it later." it wasnt a question, you looked up at him and then, walked away
you made your way to his kitchen and started pouring food into plasic bowls you found on the kitchen table
"you think your funny huh?" he made his way into the kitchen around 20 seconds after you, what you didnt know is he needed a moment to ajust himself in his pants
"hilarious, we an two hours until people arrive, and i need atleast and hour to get ready, make your self busy." you said as you continued setting up the food.
"your very bossy, yknow' that?" he laughed as he began unraveling cob webs he bought days prior.
"oh you have no idea handsome." you walked out the kitchen and started setting up lights cobwebs and fake bats on the celing of the living room
for the next hour you two would shamelessly flirt and joke around, like before, but there was now this tension, that in all honesty, you really liked
then came time to get ready, you had bought everything for schlatt, all he had to do was put it on, and leave you alone to do your makeup
but omfg he would not.
you were sat on his bathroom counter, trying to recreate the starry night on your face, but this man would not stop talking and asking you questions
you looked over at him sat on the closed toilet, just yapping, he was wearing a dark blue button up, and nice fitting jeans, along with a white patch on his ear, with fake blood on it.
fuck he looked good, but you could contain yourself. schlatt on the other hand was basically foaming at the mouth
you were wearing a relatively short dress, that was low-cut and had puffy sleeves, your hair was down, and your face was painted like the starry night.
and he genuinly thought he was gonna splooge his pants.
you on the other hand were just trying to finish your makeup, and he needed to be in another room because he kept distracting you, so the only logical task you could give him was to go make you a drink, and he listened
you were done with you makeup and you went to go meet him in the kitchen, you stood at the doorway of his kitchen waiting for him to notice you were there
when he eventually turned around, you could see in his eyes the moment he realised you were there, his entire face softened and his eyes beamed at you. he walked closer to you inspecting the makeup on your face
he was very close, you could feel his breath on you, and you didnt mind, you even considered kissing him, but of course, as if fate was not on your side, the door bell rung
and you both began to laugh as he went to go welcome the guests, you on the other hand went and chugged the drink he made you, cause without it, you might not of been able to survive the night
-everyone started arriving, and it was the most fun youve had in a while, music blasting, drinks chugged, storys told, dancing and party games
-and schlatt could not keep his eyes off you
-you laughed, flirted and smiled the night away until everyone began leaving, but you offered to help him clean up, and of course he accepted
-he had changed the music from his party playlist, to his calm playlist and the first song that came on was "something stupid" by frank sinatra
"i love frank sinatra" you laughed as you wiped his counter down with a paper towel.
without missing a beat he began to sing along to the song "i know i stand in line, until you think you have the time, to spend an evening with me" in the most beautiful singing voice youve ever heard
naturally you sang along with him, and eventually you to ended up dancing together in his kitchen, to frank sinatra, dressed as a painter and his work of art
and somehow, after only having this man in your life for just over a month, you were never going to let him leave it.
you both finished cleaning, and it was time for you to head home, as he walked you to your car you felt an overwhelming feeling, something that you couldnt put your finger on, like your heart felt like it was going to explode
you placed your stuff in the passenger seat of your car, and you went around to find schlatt holding open your door for you
and thats what did it
you grabbed the collar of this shirt and pulled him down to your level and kissed him
for a split second you had thought you made a mistake, but that fear subsided when he kissed you back and aggressively wrapped his arms around your waist
he pushed your back against your car with his body and continued kissing you as you threaded your fingers through his hair
you pulled away to breathe and he stared at you with a dopey grin on his face
"see you monday?" you asked with a love sick smile
he pecked both of your cheeks, then both sides of your smile before planting a kiss on your lips, as you giggled. when he finally pulled away he kissed your forehead and said,
"see you monday." he kissed your hand one last time and began walking inside, once again leaving you with your thoughts
you silently got in your car, and you realised you could finally identify that feeling before
it was love.
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nah i've seen enough yan cheater... But what about cheater!reader? With dom!reader will be more interesting.
I SPENT ALL DAY LOOKGIN FR TIS ASK.. 2000 asks yo thats crazy anyway
imagine having a devoted yandere! boyfriend who's like, the absolute best man you'll ever get. i'm talking special meaningful gifts, spontaneous flowers because why tf not, bringing you on dates and all that!!! he's also really sweet and caring, always there for you whenever you need him!!!
your boyfriend is the ideal man basically! and you're... kinda a big asshole ngl.
you flirt with others, act like your boyfriend isn't even there when you see another guy you like, and more importantly, you go out with them!!! wth!!! at least u dont sleep with them... or more like ur bf catches you before you can do anything more than bring other men home.
"sweetheart i- WHAT THE FUCK."
"what? can't you see i'm admiring my boyfriend oiled up?"
"I'M your boyfriend."
your boyfriend throws out the man out of ur shared apartment immediately after. this was the 10th guy this week! what the fuck! it's only monday!!
"babe you got to STOP finding other men. I'M right HERE."
"ok so"
"SO it means you only need ME"
"but i want a harem"
*insert ur bf's screaming*
don't worry!!! ur bf will ALWAYS be there to stop you from making another stupid decision >___< yeah, what do you mean you want another bf so you're looking for one in a dingy alleyway? nuh uh he's bringing you HOME
"baby u gotta delete all ur dating apps, that person wanted to harvest ur ORGANS."
"no he said he wanted to show me a good time :c"
"my love, he told you he was going to EAT you."
"yeah eat me ou-"
"oops! my hand slipped and he's dead now aha!"
yeah ur bf doesn't even know why he puts up with this. maybe it's because he's already invested too much into you. i mean, he did kill some of these guys for you and also threatended+manipulated some people in the name of love. oh! also that one time where he got admitted into the mental ward because he swore he was going to kill himself with how much you take over his life-
anyway!
ur boyfriend really loves you!
"i love you sweetie <3"
"yeah i love u too side hoe #3 (caked up)"
"i'm going to kill everyone else in your life if you keep this shit up."
#suiana's sinners#yandere#tw yandere#yandere x reader#yandere drabbles#yandere scenarios#yandere imagines#yandere concepts#yandere boyfriend#yandere boyfriend x reader#gn reader#suiana rambling#suiana brainrotting
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