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heyitslapis · 6 months ago

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its times like this when i really wish i had an SO's shoulder to cry on

Because I think i factrued/sprained my foot the other day it happened wednesday but its still pretty swollen and pops when i try to walk on it without hobbling. i know i signed up for health insurance through work. i wrote down the insurance company name as Bayside and I have my personal insurance id number but the card never came in/got lost in the mail (and i already called for one replacement that never came so idk if theyll send me a third) so i cant confirm the insurance name nor call them, but i need to because ive called/visited 5 health care facilities around me and NONE of them have even heard of Bayside. So im calling the phone number that my manager provided me with telling me that was the insurance company. I keep calling the number (and mind you ive called them before to try to get a second insurance card sent to me but that was in like April) and i get that its saturday but theres no answer and the stupid automated machine wont let me leave a voicemail. the automated answering voice on the phone also says that theyre called National Benefit Plans by SafetyNet and google says the phone number im using belongs to National Benefit Plans out in San Antonio Tx (i live no where near there). I found National Benefit Plans' website on SafetyNetPlus dot com but National Benefit Plans doesnt have their own website, just through SafetyNet, and also the SafetyNet website says on a side panel that "this is NOT insurance" and instead keeps saying "health benefits" instead so idk what the fuck ive been paying for for the last 6 months tbh and im having an emotional breakdown bc i dont want to fuck my foot up for life just cause i couldnt figure out my health insurance/benefits shit

#ive been fucking sobbing on the phone for 20 minutes calling the phone number over and over again #im about to mcfucking lose it and im sad and confused and scared because my foot is still so swollen even though it doesnt hurt very much #and google says if swelling on an injury like this persists after 48 hours to go get it looked at #all the walkin clinics near me dont have any xray techs til monday & quoted me anywhere from $130-$300 if i dont have insurance which i can #provide proof of nor am i even sure i actually have at this point and im ngl my guys i only have like $180 to my name until next friday #but then basically my entire next paycheck is going to Geico #and overall im just having a really really really bad time rn and im scared that if my foot is actually fractured im gonna fuck it up worse #by walking around on it without a boot/cast. yeah ive been sitting at work the last few days #but its front desk at a hotel so at least for the first hour of my shift and last 1.5 hours i HAVE to be standing #my foot was so swollen after work today it hurt to get my shoe off #im just really fucking stressed and anxious and confused and im sitting here sobbing my eyes out realizing theres literally no one i can #call just to vent and cry it out with #cant call my mom cause i busted my foot leaving her place after her husband got in my face & screamed at me for saying you cant hit people #cant call my siblings cause none of them can help/we dont talk often enough that i feel like i can burden them with this #i have a few casual friends but same sitch im not close enough with them that i feel comfortable venting while sobbing to them #i could call my ex but shes got a new boo now/its not her problem/we rarely talk anymore/she cant help so no point in calling #only other person who knows/is worried about me is my ex's mom but she wont be home from work for break til 2pm & its 11:30am rn #not close enough to any of my coworkers either #its times like this that i realize how truly alone i am these days with no one that can physically comfort me #which of course is only making me more upset #thats what i get for being depressed and reclusive the last 2 years and only letting people get an arms length reach from me emotionally #there is a medical clinic i can go to that is a 50 minute drive from me and without insurance you just pay a $20 sliding fee plus a little #extra for the care services but again theyre not open until monday and also its a 50 minute drive from me #so all im learning is i shouldve gone some place thursday morning after it happened and im fucked at least til monday #FUCK my STUPID BAKA life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#whatever. guess imma keep icing it try to keep it elevated and just endure it and hope it doesnt get worse #emma rambles #vent tag #DONT REBLOG

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m0thisonfire · 30 days ago

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Ough gonna be fuckin sick I open Tumblr and the first thing I fucking see is not one, but two blogs with the same obvious art style posting Jimbalaya and kid Anya and it was BAD

I block the first one ofc, but then I scroll and see another immediately after and blocked that one too

Like fucking ew

Fucking ewewww PTSD just hit me full force what the fuck is wrong with people Anya my poor Anya this was my new hyperfixation fandom too whyyy

This is why we CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS

#vent #tw jimmy #mouthwashing #i dont know what the block names were it looked like a keymash of usernames and i was just focused on getting it the fuck away #but i think it had that red white and blue flag??? idk #haha going to go be sick and cry now byyye #be safe out there my fellow mouthwashers jfc #call that serious psychic damage im currently on 2hp

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hedonists · 4 months ago

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Anyway. Fuck transphobic metalcore dudes and all their enabler friends.

#looking right at you Andy #imaging having your entire fanbase in your tweets telling you exactly why supporting ratke is shit #and you just decide to double down on it #because you've decided that being buddies with a toxic piece of shit is more important #than ensuring your fanbase can feel safe at your shows #the fanbase you claimed to support #rot in hell ✌️#vent #the bar is in fucking hell #I’m sick of white cis men crying victim when they get called out for making the scene more unsafe

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sunlessea · 1 month ago

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i rly cannot catch a break guys lol

#death tw /#vent tw /#my mom just called me suddenly out of nowhere no warning n told me my dad died #head in hands #yall #year after year since 2020 it just doesn't stop #it don't stop coming and it don't stop coming as wise guru all star smash mouth once said #gotta make myself laugh or i'm just gonna cry 24/7 #the horrors persist but unfortunately i must also persist idk how to even begin coping but alas #bear w me i know i'm already rly bad at like. responding to things and answering dms and etc #but life is relentless jfc

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axolotluv · 1 month ago

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I am exhausted

#ax speaks #vent #ough #i havent relaxed in two weeks #i swear I'm gonna get fired from my job if I keep posting shifts #i don't even KNOW what to tell my boss when she asks why I'm posting so many shifts #hey boss im not soft quitting im just hearing voices in my head every day!!#im gonna throw up #pisses me off that people fake this because this is NOT cute #as much as i enjoy bonding with my alters and liking who they are and that theyre with me too #i haven't gone a day without feeling immense fear #i finally stopped my breakdown streak yesterday #went all day without a meltdown #likely because our little wasn't out all day #i am so tired i want to cry #i keep forgetting to call my psychiatrist #i don't wanna go to work tomorrow I'm so tired

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foreverxdaydreaming · 3 months ago

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#just needed to vent for a sec but oh god am i tired of people #'friends' both irl and online got me fucked up lately #mental healths been in the shitter almost nonstop this year #familys always got me up the wall #i just feel like I'm constantly treading water and i am *tired*. like so fucking TIRED #it's never enough; it's too much; no not like that; but not that either; it's all wrong wRoNg WrOnG #ik im sleep deprived and possibly pms-y and that is most certainly not helping things rn but...#gods i see less and less of a reason to get out of bed and bother with anything ever again #wtf is the purpose #i can't keep friends to save my life bc im apparently a fuckin doormat and interesting as unflavored rice or smth #how hard is it to feel like you maybe sorta kinda matter and aren't an unlovable worthless piece of shit #years of therapy; trying meds; everything under the sun.... and nothing. lows and highs and dips of every kind and yet ..nothing #and maybe im just very much in my feelings rn and just yelling into the void.. but it hurts and im tired of pretending it doesn't.#i hate how hard it is to make friends as an adult especially irl. and how gossipy and cliquey and gross and mean ppl can be #of getting called childish and naive and boring for wanting to be a decent person and having interests outside of partying #(not attacking those traits but tired of getting attacked for *not* being 'fun' enough or 'social' enuf or 'sensitive' for having feelings)#enough*#i just want to go eat drywall and stand in the rain and let it help me pretend im not crying blood rn.#like every cell in my body isn't trying to spontaneously combust.#'it gets better' ..yeah? when. when i was 14? when i was 23? when im 37? when im 55? 82? WHEN.. bc im so sick and tired #and no this isn't me writing a final note or whatever it sounds like; i just wanted to word vomit bc ive never been good w sadness #and ive got such an overwhelming amount of it rn i can't even turn it into anger & spite & use that for productivity... i just want to rot #to lie down and be covered by plants as i sleep and just slowly fade into a cloud or smth like it's a ghibli movie or wtv.#im like shaking from how stupidly emotional i feel rn. the lack of empathy these days is fuckin astounding #common sense & empathy are lacking in absolutely droves these days. some days i hate the internet & tech for its irreparable damages sm #but here we are and here it shall remain. long after us; and *long* after us ..... *sigh*#anyway ima go try to take a nap or smth. I'll see ya when i see ya. take care my lovelies #if u read all this i prob owe you a cookie lol

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it-is-i-zim · 3 months ago

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Fellas? We ain't okay over here.

#I feel like shit #Still #I mean like... What else do I even feel right now #I thought my grandpa was the that offered me a place to stay #And last night he told me he was doing just fine before I moved in.#Like I even had a goddamn choice in the matter #Like it was either here or the fucking streets in my mind by that point.#And I wasn't even the one that called him it was my mother #So I don't understand how the hell this is even my fault.#And I'm the burden because I didn't have a choice on where to go???#Like I'm sorry I eat food?????? Is that the problem?????????#Because that's all I really do. I'm not breaking anything #That's my uncle. He's breaking shit all the time.#I eat the food he makes.#He asks me to do something and I do it.#I keep quiet and stay out of his way.#So the one fucking time I vent my frustration about my stuff it's like... I'm the burden now??? And my uncle isn't???????#My uncle is the one that's fucking 50 and still living here.#My uncle is putting shoes in the microwave #He's breaking the washers. He broke 2 actually.#The only thing I can think of is that I've just got 4 different things going on with my psychology #So he has to drive me to all sorts of appointments #And like... I'm sorry I was born with autism????#I'm sorry I was born with ADHD????#I'm sorry I was born with a mood disorder that makes me cry a fuck ton????#I'm sorry that after years of your daughter abusing me that I have anxiety????#Like none of that shits my fault #It's not like these things are contagious or that I can force my body to have these issues.

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humblefryingpan · 3 months ago

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"wdym you don't know him he's your 'aunts' son" I have literally never met or heard of this guy in my life and I only see the 'aunt' once a year

Like I haven't even met him as a kid this is just a random adult man I do not know

#random #we haven't even gone out to dinner yet and mum has already called me rude #bc the second i walked into the house i had 5 different people talking to me #and i got hugged by like three people so i got overstimulated even faster than i thought i would #and i panicked and went to my room to calm down but my grandad followed me bc he wanted to ask me more questions #but i got to sit alone for like 5 minutes before my mum came in and told me i cant be rude and i need to try to be nice today #but her opinion of being rude is just me ignoring all my boundaries/discomfort/anxiety so I'm going to get yelled at #and like i said we haven't even gone out yet so theres a pretty high chance im going to start crying in front of my entire family #and that'll make me even more overstimulated so fucking yay #vent post #in the tags mostly #sorry for the rant

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ana-rends · 6 months ago

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i would rather live with ana for the rest of my life than binge like this ever again

#rending.txt #i dont know how to stop binging i was doing so well yesterday and then for no reason it fell apart #i just want to stop #i have so much to do today but i just dont want to do anything im so depressed #im just going to lay in bed and eat all day and think up ways to die #i already know my chosen method i just cant be bothered right now so maybe later #i just want to keep sleeping #i called in sick to work today because i was so so tired and i slept i think nearly 12 hours which isnt bad #i wanna go on a walk and work out and stuff but i just. cant right now. i need to work on my job presentation but i just cant #i just want to keep eating and go back to sleep and then wake up and end it #but i just need to make it to therapy tomorrow and maybe itll get better? who knows #i dont even have the energy to walk up to tesco to get blades or more food so im laying im bed eating dry granola like a pathetic pig #i dont wanna talk to anyone but my boyfriend but hes asleep and i dont want to vent to him anymore because it makes me feel guilty #and it doesnt help to vent to him anymore so i just make him sad for no reason and i dont know how to vent to anyone else #i havent changed my bedsheets in weeks and theres so much trash on my floor you can barely walk in my room and i havent showered in a week #i just dont have the heart to cry anymore i just want it to stop #i did everything i was supposed to so i could prevent binges and it didnt work at all so i think im beyond saving lol

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thedappleddragon · 5 months ago

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Hmm

#thanks for coming to my ted talk #vent #I know it’s just the 2 am talking #on top of some very shit events occurring today #but I feel like making some decisions that will ruin my life #not in a a danger to myself or others kind of way at ALL don’t worry about that #I mean like #destroying personal relations with my peers kind of way #I’m so utterly and completely fucked #my future roomate bailed on me 2 weeks before school starts #so if anyone wants to live in Muncie #my place is wide open #fucker #what is her problem #like legitimately #I’ve been making myself sick over this for going on #SEVEN HOURS #I can’t sleep #I’ve just been so utterly fucked over I don’t know what to do #and I’m not gonna have even an inkling of a solution until my apartment complex emails me back #and it’s a fucking weekend so who knows when that will be #if I think too hard I’m gonna cry about it #Steph is such a life saver tho. listening to me scream about this and playing video games drunk on call with me #fuck #I’m going to blow my goddamn brains out. but not actually #I guess on the bright side I might get to live alone

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spaghetticat3899 · 24 days ago

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FYI, on a serious note/update, I might be more/less active over the next… however long. Penny, my cat, might not be around by the end of tomorrow, and it’s gonna make me extremely upset.

I’ve had her and Boogs since they were kittens, I’ve had 16 years of them within my sapient life, and I cannot imagine her absence. She’s been unwell the last month or two, and I was hoping she was gonna come back from it, but she’s the worst I’ve ever seen her today; she can’t even eat. My mother even hinting that we might have to let her go opened the floodgates, and I haven’t been this emotional and stressed in a long while, not like this anyway.

I love you, Penny, and I hope you know that, even if I can’t tell you. I love your meow, your sweetness, your cuddles, your pretty eyes and fur, and I love you for all the memories we had together. To some you might just be a cat, but you were my best friend, my family, and I can’t imagine my world without you there. Thank you.

#spaghetti speaks #tw animal illness #cw animal death #cw animal illness #tw animal death #animal death #animal illness #euthanasia #penny the cat #I love my cats #so much #I’ve been crying so much today #I don’t want her to go #I keep thinking I finally went through the motions just to crash back down again- stinging salty tears and snotty-nosed #ask to tag #I usually try and avoid showing this version of me because I hate seeing myself as this sobbing thing instead of a wooden plank #but god man #the last few months have been absolute shit and now I’m gonna have to face the fact that I might have to cradle Penny one last time #I can’t do it man #I can’t even try and drown out my thoughts in music because oh so conveniently my headphones started being annoying on one side #the right ear is constantly staticy and popping #i can’t fucking do this #Call me dramatic or whatever #I just want things to be okay #I want things to be magically better and I can stop stressing and crying and all this shit #vent #vent post #personal vent #venting #cw vent

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lycanwlf · 4 months ago

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now that im aware my job hates me and im in trouble for not doing a good enough job i doubt im gonna have the courage to call out next week to go to a concert but all tickets are nonrefundable so