I am in the process of getting a new doctor. And by that I mean my insurance dropped my first one roughly a year ago so I made an appointment with my new primary who was also dropped before a second appointment. Then I had a new one but I then I accidentally double booked my kids therapy for the same day and didn't realize til we were already at her appointment so I rescheduled a new one.
These are 3-6 months apart btw. That's what the wait-list for a primary is like here for me.
Anyway so I have a new appointment in September and this whole time I haven't been working ofc cuz im in pain 24/7 and even when I had a job I'd be sent home cuz I'd just start sobbing in the break rooms or I'd be late cuz I had anxiety and didn't want to go, etc (long list, tldr: I'd be a bad employee if literally nothing else). Besides that I've never gotten passed the interview stage when I was looking for a job here.
So yeah. September is when I see my new doctor who probably won't open my file until I'm in his office.
Remember that.
I go to an appointment about my cash benefits a few days ago, now right? I've talked to these people on the phone, they know what's up with my situation. They said they'd waive the obligations for me, nbd. And every now and then you gotta renew them too, just making sure youre still poor, haven't moved, etc. So I go in think it's a formality thing and they just wanna make sure nothing changed.
Nope. Nobody took notes or filed anything so it just looks like I have been blowing off obligations I had for 6 months :)
All this to say fuck them for giving me 30 days to see a new doctor that I literally I can not see until September when it's literally out of my power to make it happen faster. And I'll be lucky if this new person is willing to sign off on a brand new patients disability forms too.
After 30 days thats half of our money they take until I get those forms signed.
This is life for those of us who are queer, poor, & disabled parents of color.
Lots of people have lots of stigmas about me. And that's creates certain beliefs around me, most often that it can't be that bad or that I'm even making up how bad it is.
I'm telling y'all it's that bad. When my benefits get cut it won't be because I wasn't trying, I already have an appointment.
I can't work. My gf's paychecks are getting garnished (this means debtors are taking money btw). We're both deeply mentally ill even if we can't prove our physical disabilities.
When I tell y'all that these benefits and your help is the only reason we eat after they run out, believe me.
This blog is my lifeline and it's just hits different after the last few days to open my asks and see some dipshit saying more classist shit to me even on tumblr
And I know that someone like me does not have a safe space. Never did. Probably never will. But this blog is my lifeline so can y'all just....not?
Can you just leave me alone instead of projecting your awful beliefs about everything I am into my asks, please?
You don't know me. Quit pretending you do to justify all the hatred you have.
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