#but I am actually EXHAUSTED
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I started the last post with "I'm so tired" too, but it just gets more true every day.
My last post was about how my real life sucks, but man, I can't even come to the internet as an escape from the intellectual collapse of academia anymore.
I'm just trying to browse in peace without being bombarded with people virtue signalling, advocating for media to be sanitized, and arguing over whether it's morally responsible to ship a character who is a literal murderer with someone that he said something mean to once.
Like, is this where we're at?
Is this really where we're at?
#IRL stuff#well#internet stuff#I went through a period of just trying to block anyone whose takes#were so utterly devoid of thought or nuance#that they actively gave me headaches#but I CAN ONLY BLOCK SO MANY PEOPLE#I can't block an entire generation's prevailing Puritan mindset#rant#someone save complex media#at this point although I hate to say it#I think we gotta start gatekeeping some stuff again#'Sorry but you have to demonstrate your critical thinking ability before we let you watch this show'#I'm sorry this is so mean sounding#but I am actually EXHAUSTED
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I told you I never stop thinking about merpearl
#I want there to be more yuri kiss art. There isnt enough. I guess I have to be the change I want. whaagh#I think Pearl is too awkward and clueless and horrified (because DL) to actually just kiss Gem like this (at least for awhile) but#mermaid pearl is built different. Still clueless though#I am so exhausted and I have much more important things to draw but Im sorry I had yuri in my system and I needed to get it out desperately#gempearl#shiny duo#hermitshipping#tubby art
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This might seem like an "old man yells at cloud" situation, but it's just wild growing up and being told how dangerous distracted driving is - how, at highway speeds, you can traverse the length of a football field (100 yards, 91 meters) in a matter of seconds - how one split second sending a text while driving could result in a potential fatal crash, and then getting on the road as a driver and being surrounded by billboards. Their entire purpose is to catch one's attention, so they're lining major roads, which tend to be highways. How is it that you're told how important it is to never be distracted while driving, but still being advertised to?
At best, this type of advertising is an eyesore to pedestrians and motorists and a general waste of electricity to light it, and at worst, it is an active danger considering they are there to advertise and therefore, must catch people's attention.
I'm not even against advertising in theory, but this particular mode bothers me so much and I hate how pervasive it is - especially in large cities or highways.
#politics#i don't know much about são paulo banning marketing billboards but on paper i want that here in the USA#as a motorist it at best just makes me more anxious driving in those larger cities because i want to FOCUS ON THE ROAD#and passing 5000 billboards per mile isn't helping actually!#i've gotten good at filtering that out of my FOV but it's still fucking exhausting lol#i especially hate those modern electric billboards. despise them actually#i am aware that advertising is a critical aspect to business management in some cases...#...but it shouldn't risk the safety of the populous for you to advertise to them and i see things like billboards as risking safety...#...i feel similarly about online advertising in that so much of it risks internet user's safety...#...such as flashing ads online which risk triggering epileptic seizures in light/photo-sensitive folks#distracted driving (texting): NO >:( || distracted driving (being advertised to): YAYYYY :D#i've been driving on my own for a few years now and i've been thinking about this for ENTIRELY too long
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ngl i get that people hype up hating writing for the bit but like. idk. yall i Do actually really like writing. it is so satisfying and fun and rewarding and i get to look back what i made over and over again and get joy every single time.
yes writing is hard but if you hate it more than you love it im kinda like. idk. find another hobby?
#also the planning parts and the daydreaming is part of the process so idk#yall it is getting exhausting seeing all the quirky see how little i’m writing shit#like what if for once i am writing and im having a grand time!!#what if not being able to write isn’t a fun joke it is honestly detrimental to my brain!!!#what if writing has been my friend when i never had any and it is the love of my life and love language and i love actually doing it perhap#talking#ren hot cakes
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How nice it'd be to be taken care of for a while?
#borderline personality disorder#bpd#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#spilled ink#3am thoughts#adhd problems#adhd brain#adhd things#mentally drained#i feel so drained#emotionally drained#i am so tired#im so tired#we are so fucked#im exhausted#mentally exhausted#bpd triggers#bpd problems#actually adhd#adhd#vent blog#personal vent#vent post
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Okay, I think it's time I talked about my Duracell Bunny/Sleepy Time scale for autistic people/people with ADHD...
So, what's the scale:
If you have autism and/or ADHD, every activity exists on a scale from Duracell Bunny to Sleepy Time (with Normal in the middle).
A Duracell Bunny activity is something that you do to an extent that most neurotypical people are exhausted just thinking about. For example, before the joints in my hands got all fucked up, I could consistently write a really high word count per day, and I would regularly see people call it impossible. And as the years have gone on, most of the people I know of who hit similar word counts have all been diagnosed as autistic and/or ADHD.
A Sleepy Time activity is one where just looking a neurotypical doing it a regular amount makes you exhausted. Where the amount of energy required to do the thing wipes you out for the rest of the day.
Different people have different Duracell Bunny and Sleepy Time activities and one thing that I've noticed a lot of autistic and ADHD people do about their Duracell Bunny activities is look at autistic/ADHD people for whom it is a Sleepy Time activity and say "well, I'm autistic/ADHD and I don't have any trouble with it, so clearly you're just making an excuse."
And this is extra annoying because ADHD/autistic Duracell Bunnies have more energy for the thing than neurotypicals, so they can end up in leadership positions and entrenching a really unhealthy environment for everyone. Including themselves - Duracell Bunnies are not always immune to burnout, so you can get a Duracell Bunny who is obviously engaging in dangerous and/or unhealthy coping mechanisms yelling at Sleepy Times who aren't because the Sleepy Times have had to firm about their boundaries from the beginning.
(In fact, sometimes people can end up in crisis because of burnout, and instead of learning anything, go right back to the level of effort that caused burnout and use their crisis as proof that they are actually worse off than the people who set boundaries and didn't end up in crisis, and that those people, therefore, just don't care enough...)
But yeah, TL;DR: Sometimes autistic/adhd people have more energy for certain activities than even neurotypicals, and these people can have a bad habit of pointing at autistic/adhd people with less energy for the activity and saying "well, if I can do it, that must mean every adhd/autistic person can" which leads to people refusing to provide accommodations, or shaming people who cannot show up in the same ways
#also please i am exhausted if you have a smart comment about the battery bunny wars please just keep it to yourself#i picked the first one that came to my head#so no fucking 'well actually i think of the duracell bunny as slow because in the energizer adverts-'#that's not the point and i'm too tired to deal with you just joking
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just a little silly :3
#chip jrwi#just roll with it#jrwi chip#i actually love the dark skinned chip headcanon#in canon he is a stereotypical white boy#BUT#he’s just so silly#:D#anyway um I am listening to jrwi riptide rn and they will power me through exhaustion#heheh#dungeons and dragons#jrwi riptide#artists on tumblr
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What Is Masking?
Mrs Speechie Pi
#autism#actually autistic#autism awareness month#autism acceptence month#masking#why we mask#examples of masking#masking affects both children AND adults#making can be exhausting#I’ve masked for so long that I don’t even know who I am#I’m sure some of you can relate#neurodivergence#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#feel free to share/reblog#Mrs Speechie Pi (Facebook)
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i fucking hate that i can’t escape romance anywhere it’s always the ultimate human experience for so many people which fictional character do you want outside your door holding a bouquet of roses these initials are meant to be together find out the birthday of your soulmate books with the best romance take the test to find out when you will have your first kiss girls what do boys do that is secretely attractive stop shut up stop it just shut the hell up
#i am so exhausted#aro#aromantic#arospec#aromanticism#aromance#aro pride#actually aro#actually aromantic#this post is about aromanticism#do not derail
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Now, we need to have a serious discussion
Actually no, it’s not a discussion. I’m going to speak and you’re going to listen
It has come to my attention that my ship might be problematic to some because the characters had little crushes on eachother when one was around 18YO and the other around 16YO (characters that will not have a relationship with eachother until they’re both into their 20s)
If you think something like this hurts your sensibilities and you find it gross, please, PLEASE block me
I don’t like having the same conversation thousands of times with people who think they’re these knights of political justice that get so inflated in their "goodness" And being "morally better" Than anything becomes a fight, even stupid fucking things that no ACTUAL REAL LIFE PERSON WOULD FIND PROBLEMATIC!
I need some of you to engage in the real world a bit more and stop eating up every single things these moral paladins feed you as "problematic" and "weirdo behavior" and things like that
Someone can dislike you without being a "narcissist"
Someone can tell you you’re wrong without "gaslighting you"
Someone can definitely make a comic about two TEENAGERS having crushes for eachother without being a "proshipper"
You look ridiculous. Live in the real world please.
#I swear my block button is on priority mode#I am not looking for criticism on this post#take it or leave it#but don’t try to move me on this#either block me or scroll if you think I’m mean and rude and a gross weirdo#sorry for ranting but I’m exhausted by these people#this is why the actual weirdos get off Scott free#because you make the discussion of these topics ridiculous and no one takes them seriously anymore
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give me something to believe
#persona 3#llemon art#p3 reload#persona 3 reload#shinjiro aragaki#believe: The bravery#the last panel is actual kinda gorey#ish?#so i didnt post it here...#cause im unfamiliar with er.#rules?#etiquette?#idk...#if this doesnt make sense im sorry#im so tired and exhausted...#this was supposed to be 10x happier#but i read these lyrics and and uh. ya#maybe ill make the happy version later 😿#well not happy? maybe hopeful is fhe more appropriate term#i dropped everything to draw this.#its like 1:30 am as of finishing and queuing this.
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ngl kitten, mommy nature is having a bad time rn
#idk actually am just doodling#ceres fauna#hololive fauna#hololive en#holoen#bleeart#their pokemon unite stream was actually so good i went back to watch fauna playing moba games#and i got this mental image of fauna walking out of her room exhausted and salty after a 5-hour battle#kinda wanna play a moba now but that feels evil
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Let’s take another stab at it. I think I’m getting somewhere!
#‘remind me not to post late’ i said last time. before promptly posting late again today#WELL IM NOT LIKE. NONSENSICAL FROM EXHAUSTION THIS TIME.#IMPROVEMENTS PEOPLE!!!! IMPROVEMENTS!!!!!!!#someone was like ‘i could barely tell’ when i said offhandedly my last post was supposed to be fem sm and i just put my head in my hands#NO SHADE TO THEM i deserved that IM RLLY struggLING. FNSKFFJF. but i think i gourt it…..#the baggy previous shirt made it a bit harder to tell and thus i was forced to.. actually look at his sprite instead of going off memory#what a shame right! i hate looking qt hASHFKKGNB I JUST HEARD A MYSTERY SOUND#CHAT ITS ONE AM IM ALL ALONE IN MOSTLY DARKNESS#?????? im froking out#thas the ghost telling me to shut up#okay girlboss i’ll listen!#BYEEEEE#shadow milk cookie#cookie run kingdom#mystuff#cookie run#crk#‘at least im not nonsensical’ continues to hear sourceless noises. like okay#U GUYS DONT GET IT. IT WAS A SIGH. A VERY HUMAN SIGH. BUT THERES NO ONE ELSE HERE?#OKAY BYE
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How do the turtles get invited to the “multiverse competition?” Like, what would that even look like? lol
That’s pretty much how it went down. He’s just tired and wants coffee again, ok??
Still busy but I just had to answer this real fast on my work break. It’s the only free time I have available right now haha.
#I am actually a Leo prefers tea truther#but a cup of joe is the only that will chase away the exhaustion#rottmnt#replica#rottmnt replica#kathaynesart#save rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#unpause rise of the tmnt#unpause rottmnt#future leo#tmnt au competition
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"UWU op defends Israel UWU"-
Have I not made it clear enough what I think of the Israeli government? Have I not made it clear enough that what infuriates me the MOST about all of this shit going on is that neither government gives a damn and civilians will CONTINUE to die because Hamas and Netanyahu are cranking that war machine for their own benefit? Have I not made it clear that I think what the Israeli government is doing is fucking horrific, a war crime, murder, a violation of human rights?
Why do I even need to MAKE that clear? Why is it that you can talk about LITERALLY anything else, any other country, and people don't rush to fucking accuse you of personally supporting the government when you discuss the wrongs committed against a people, but the SECOND you're a Jew you have to justify your stance about Israel?
Why is it that I cannot even be angry about the slaughter of MY FUCKING PEOPLE. Innocents. Civilians. Fucking CHILDREN. The slaughter of the Palestinian people. Innocents. Civilians. FUCKING CHILDREN.
Without one of you absolute fucking monsters deciding to slap some shit on an unrelated post about how "uwu op defends an apartheid state just ignore that"? Do you have to make it part of EVERYTHING I do? Do you consider everything I put out there tainted somehow because I don't support your joy, your cheering, your unrestrained GLEE at the murder of Jews? Do I need to publish a fucking thesis on my stance on Israel, Palestine, and their respective governments like a fucking disclaimer any time I want to talk about myself, my oppression, my experience as a Jew, or a disabled person, or a queer person, because you fuckers cannot for five seconds be NORMAL about Jews?
To decide to slap something about Israel and Palestine on a post I made about MY oppression, about how people will oppress you no matter who you actually are- it all depends who they think you are. It's a bit ironic, isn't it? Doesn't QUITE fit, but it's funny that someone would read that post, agree with it, and then think "Ah yes, THIS is the place to put some tags about how OP, a Jew who has been reeling for the last couple of weeks about the violence, who has been checking on their Israeli friends every day to make sure they aren't fucking dead, who is dealing with vicious antisemitism from people who they thought were friends, who watched as the people claiming to be progressive supporters of human rights on this hellsite and others OVERWHELMINGLY reply to the murder of their people with good they deserved it fuck you, is CLEARLY a defender of an apartheid state and that makes them a bad person because something something I don't know what nuance tastes like and I am a bigoted ass."
I am TIRED.
#antisemitism#i/p#seriously I am exhausted#fuck all of you#I can count on my hands how many people have actually been supportive and kind to me#I have LOST count of how many people#both online and IRL#have either been dismissive and cold#or outright HAPPY that Jews died and will continue to die#I have lost count of how many people here I thought were decent human beings#who I had to block because they responded with a resounding GOOD to what hamas did#and now you fucking antisemitic fucks are dragging this shit onto unrelated posts#and that's nothing NEW you've always been like this#but it is especially exhausting now#the fact that this shit is coming from like#other Americans too?#are you fucking KIDDING ME?#You LIVE here and you don't control everything the fucking government does#but oh every Israeli civilian is responsible and they deserve to be killed#just call me a kike and go instead of doing that shit#at least the Nazis are direct about how much they want me dead#although frankly I'm having trouble telling the difference these days#between you leftist fucks and the Nazis
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The thing no one ever considers while writing up character analyses about Merlin is that. he must have been sooooooo sleepy.
#I see everyone talking about the nuances when you look at Merlin through [x] lens#BUT WHAT ABOUT THE SLEEPY LENS#WE CAN’T KEEP SLEEPING ON THE SLEEPY LENS#(can u tell I'm exhausted)#see this reads as if I'm joking but I'm actually being SO serious. I think the lack of rest was a significant factor in Merlin's conduct#IF he got a solid 8 hours of sleep + 2 hours minimum JUST to himself everyday uninterrupted... I just know things would turn out different#like it isn't even asking for much. decent sleep + a frankly sad amount of down-time. and yet. I know he didn't get that w those 3 jobs#ugh#he must have been TIRED do you hear me#even applies to morgana she looked tired tbh. those prophetic dreams probably weren't great for restfulness. sad what she did but#she did seem sleepy#okay ignore this I am going through it. extrinsic intrinsic coagulation pathways have gotten to me if u know what I mean#actually wait no if anyone sees this don't ignore it#HE MUST HAVE BEEN SO SLEEPY and everyone must understand. SLEEPy.#I hope I do not wake up and reread this and wonder why I posted this. but like I feel like I am the correctest person on planet earth rn#I've been thinking abt merlin's nap deprived state for years now tbh#merlin#bbc merlin
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