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"Hellen Keller is not real" is a right wing propaganda. It's literally something that was pushed by eugenistic tiktokers two years ago at least because they don't believe disabled people like Hellen Keller can do anything for themselves.

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Reblogging here because the included L.C. Mawson book has an autistic protagonist

Hey, if you're looking for some sapphic reads, I'm taking part in 99c sale over on IHS!

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Me: Yeah, several of my disabilities have 'struggles with their left and right' as part of the diagnostic criteria

Me when I struggle with my left and right in any situation outside of directions: *surprised Pikachu*

Hmm, having an ergonomic keyboard that's split in two really highlights how often my typos are from doing the right thing but with the wrong hand

Especially when the backspace and space keys are now where my thumbs rest...

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Hmm, having an ergonomic keyboard that's split in two really highlights how often my typos are from doing the right thing but with the wrong hand

Especially when the backspace and space keys are now where my thumbs rest...

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Being autistic is like screaming through a megaphone “please don’t overwork me, i WILL explode” and everyone responds like haha well. You’ll get used to it over time :)

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Okay, if, like me, you struggle with the sensory load of applying suncream, the skincare influencers are right, give the k-beauty brands a go, this Beauty of Joseon one is the least overwhelming thing I've ever put on my face

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It is extremely annoying when something that could help with your disability is just out of your budget

Like, if it's too far out of your budget, then it's annoying, but I just accept that it's never going to happen

But if it's technically doable if you put it on a credit card, or you take a hit to your savings when your job is precarious...

Like, you can put something life-changing off for years

(and, yes, I know that you can sometimes apply to programs for help - like access to work would have probably covered the expense that prompted this, but I also have ADHD, so an expense has to be something I truly can't afford to be worth paperwork)

Anyway, this post is brought to you by me, a professional writer who started getting severe joint pain in my hands in my early twenties and then waited until my thirtieth birthday to splurge on an expensive ergonomic keyboard

I legit can't remember the last time a post this long didn't hurt to type...

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Fake claimers are a much bigger threat to disabled people than fakers ever will be.

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the worst part of having a doctor tell you to "reduce stress" is that it is legitimately impossible for the vast majority of people. quitting your stressful job will result in stressful homelessness, stressful starvation, and stressful poverty. cutting of stressful family and friends will result in stressful loneliness, stressful drama, and stressful accusations. logging off the stressful social media will also result in stressful loneliness, being stressfully out of the loop, and stressful boredom. ignoring stressful politics will result in stressful lack of preparation for stressful curtailing of your personal liberties and stressful cuts to every public service you use. it's impossible to not be stressed unless you're literally some kind of richtok nepo baby, and even those weirdos have the "stress" of managing their servants and deciding which olympic sized swimming pool on their stressfully massive property is better for hosting their stressful sweet sixteens.

really being told to "reduce stress" or that your illness is caused by stress is being told "suck it up and get out of my office. also it's technically your fault for living in the real world"

Edit stop arguing this was a vent about having a neurologist who seems to have graduated from clown school instead of med school, plus i'm a marxist leninist

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Update on how funny this is: I tried a more expensive face wash and it looked like I had burned myself - I bought the budget one for half the price and it worked great

Also, the most effective thing was no longer using fabric softener on my bedding

Literally, spending less money is more effective for me

Absolutely hilarious for me to have developed a special interest or hyperfixation (we'll see how long it lasts) on skincare, while also thinking that most skincare influencers just look wet all the time

It's also incredibly funny because I actually have pretty good skin underneath my psoriasis, and no one ever seems to be talking about that when they talk about what products help with what, so none of it is even applicable to me (I've figured out what works for me, but that has been a deeper research job, and it does mean regularly ignoring normal advice)

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the thing about disability is it really does sometimes boil down to "wow i wish i could do that" and then you can't. and it sucks.

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stupidest people on gods green earth

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sometimes when i try to describe my relationships with being visibly autistic, i think "visibly developmentally disabled" explains it better. where i live, autism awareness is really low, so people who see me don't think about me in correct medical words and diagnoses, etc. they probably don't know what autism is, how it presents, maybe don't even know the word autism. but they do know clearly that something is wrong with me. that something is wrong with my mind (sorry for the wording. they put it like that and i don't know how to express the specifics of this treatment better).

some people seem to think that visible autism means "everyone know your exact diagnosis and understand what it means and think about you in proper medical terms," something like this. i think this idea leads people to say things like "autism is invisible disability" (presuming always and for everyone) or "well everyone's autism is visible if you know where to look."

visible disability is not about everyone knowing the specific diagnosis by look. visible disability is about people knowing that you are disabled by look.

another example: i'm a mobility aid user (cane/crutches/wheelchair depend on situation), and i'm visibly physically disabled because of it. people don't know my exact diagnosis by look, but they know i'm disabled in a physical way.

similar for visible autism: people may not know exact name of condition, but they know that i'm disabled in a developmental way. and act accordingly.

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very strange phenomenon now that many people have learned online not to pet service dogs is that they walk by little bird and me, wave their hands at little bird, and say in a baby voice "oooohh you're so cute! you're so cute! i'm not going to pet you because i know you're working! ooohhhh puppy puppy puppy, i want to pet you but i'm not allowed~" and i have to tell them what they're doing is literally as distracting as petting her. this happens almost every single time i'm out with her.

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Me, feeling extremely bad over something inconsequential: Oh no, is my mental health this fucking bad???

Me, an hour later, dizzy and nauseous: Oh, okay, different health problem...

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something has gone deeply wrong when "focusing pragmatically on issues you can influence and working to make life better for yourself and your community" is considered an unserious distraction while "endlessly exposing yourself to media about distressing situations you can't control" is considered political engagement