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bidisasterevankinard · 3 days ago

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Angst mpreg after the get together idea:

Tw: miscarriage (in the past) and suicide thoughts (in the past too). They are only mentioned

Buck and Tommy get together, but accidentally Tommy quickly gets pregnant. They decide still take it slow for Tommy. And everything is fine. Almost. Tommy can't stop himself from feeling like Evan is not so happy as he shows. But he's scared to ask. Time goes by and it's his 20th weeks and baby sex reveal appointment. Appointment that Buck didn't go and lied why. Tommy finds out and pregnant and angry that he was alone to find out they have a daughter, storms Buck's loft. And in his angry state he doesn't see that Buck wears his depression hoodie, loft is a mess and Buck is red from tears. Buck listens to all the speech from Tommy, his angry words that if he doesn't want to be in babies life he can just say and stop striking Tommy alone. It's when Buck breaks and falls on his knees, crying and begging Tommy to forgave him. He knows he's the worst boyfriend and father, he knows he's unreliable, he knows he's a danger to them, but he tries. When Tommy called him and offered to try again he took Buck from the cliff, real cliff. He was ready to jump. But Tommy was the reason to get from it. And then when Tommy told him about baby, Buck swears he started trying on the therapy even better, he has appointments every free of shift days, and he goes to the grief group. He tries, he swears he tries. But he woke up today and he just couldn't go and see their baby. He couldn't. No. Not after he killed their first. Their firts baby that they should have meet today. Or at least his doctor said it could have been his due date, if only Buck hadn't found he was pregnant only when he was already actively loosing them. It's his due date. Should have been. But never would be.

Tommy barely understands it all, but he understands that Buck tried to kill himself and that:

"You... You had miscarriage?" Tommy asks Buck, carefully holding his head, so Buck looks at him.

Buck nods with more tears.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that i was bad to them, Tommy"

"It wasn't your fault. Baby, it wasn't"

But Buck shakes his head.

"IT WAS. IT WAS. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN."

Tommy falls to his knees and hugs Buck till Buck is just hiccuping. Then he moves them to the bed and cuddles Buck.

"It wasn't your fault. I would continue saying it till you believe me, baby. It wasn't" Tommy kisses his forehead "I'm so sorry you found out about our first baby only when you were loosing them."

"I-I wanted to tell you when we got together, but time never was right and then," Buck touches Tommy's belly, "it seemed unfair to them to try and get all this pain out"

"It's not unfair to them, baby. Not even a little bit. But I understand. But you're not alone in this grief anymore. I'll share it with you"

And Buck first time in really long months believes that maybe he can be actually happy again. But there's still long way to it

#bucktommy #mpreg #tw miscarriage #tw suicide thoughts #both in the past and only mentioned

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ottostoast · 2 months ago

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playing around with some spider-KID designs

#detective conan #magic kaito #dcmk #detco #kaito kuroba #kaitou kid #dcmk fanart #detective conan fanart #spiderman #spidersona #artists on tumblr #kaitou kid is so spider-man coded #at a young age parent(s) killed by questionable circumstances #only to eventually become tangled up in their fathers' past #leading them to become a masked vigilante fighting to take down a villainous figure from said fathers' past #currently being pursued by a police inspector while in a relationship with the inspector's daughter #not to mention having to juggle their secret identity with being a high school student #and they both have a knack for physics #and shinichi is the detective chasing him thuh end

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Bestie Deficiency

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #a-qing #xue yang #xiao xingchen #Xue yang is cold because cold blooded creatures can't generate their own body heat #I am skipping over drawing the stories they tell due to the fact this arc is already really dragging #but I think they are very key in understanding the yi-city characters #Even if they are stories that really bring down the slumber party vibes A-Qing was hoping for.#I mentioned some of my thoughts in the tags of no. 76 but to continue on a bit more #I think xxc and xue yangs stories inversely mirror each other on the meaning of sacrifice and what it means to 'deserve' something #to xue yang he has only ever sacrificed - therefore he is in his right to 'deserve' what he wants. And he wants everything.#xxc leaves song lan thinking its the best course of action to atone but my god. No it wasn't. Poor communication crown actually goes to xxc #but it's what xxc he feels he deserves - continued sacrifice to atone. He wants to want nothing.#both are very stuck in the past in ways that are not actually accounting for their actions #It's easy to look at xue yang and go 'dang you need to get over your childhood trauma'#but that very much ignores that fact that we - real human beings - define so much by our childhood pains.#Growth is having to come to terms with it and trying to move past it...and not everyone is ready for that.#I have a lot of thoughts on that matter but I'll let it be for now.#Anyways. Amiguito appears to be one of those words whos meaning change depending on speaker and contextual factors #So as far as I can tell it slides around on the scale on romantic and platonic. Which works for this dynamic. I think.#Native Spanish speakers I am so sorry.

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userautumn · 1 month ago

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I know and understand that Buddie gets engagement but the Buddie dicksucking the press has been doing is really, umm... it's really something!

#As someone who has been here for years #it's also just... weird as fuck to see #It was never like this before LOL #IF Buddie was mentioned in the press it was within the context of “fans want to see this”#but so many articles now are written with very obvious biases in favor of the ship #and it's just so ODD #like. Where was this energy when Buddie was literally the ONLY practical choice for both characters?#Where was this energy ANYWHERE over the past few years? like what are we doing #What changed #tv: 911 #jack.txt

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moeblob · 1 year ago

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Lookin' at Askr's injured art and realizing it's basically just him with holes in his spandex........ thank you FEH for this one thing...

(also I normally draw Hrid and his attempts at adopting siblings so happy holidays to Hrid, he gets to be thirsty as a treat.)

#fe heroes #askr #hrid #amazing how both of them show up late in the book and then just fucking go away #hrid is only mentioned in the past summer tt as like oh man i sure hope we get to see hrid next year (SAME)#and then askr just fuckin dies #also pretend there is a follow up to this im too tired but i was gonna draw #hrid talking to fjorm saying i know hes a god so it makes sense but his abs are godly #and fjorm is like please go away i dont want to hear this just go away #anyway time to log in daily for orbs and save for ny hrid so i can try to fully merge him cause he is sitting at +8 #then i think its time to put feh down for a bit im just getting so tired of it #even the recent units i pull get outdone nearly every banner and its just frustrating for a casual

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mc-critical · 1 month ago

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1.06 / 2.09 (33)

#the way they both cling to their families while in distress #their families are their most cherished people that they somehow can't reach #Hürrem has literally lost them long ago #while Ibrahim has reunited with them and has placed them close to him due to his own love for them and his position in the castle #but it's precisely that same position that distances him from them and *will* distance him from them even *more* down the line #the reactions here also reveal how Hürrem and Ibrahim view death #Hürrem embraces it because she's lost so much already #they always want to separate her from the family she has and the family she's built in some way #and it's like they succeeded here - it has already happened - she's taken from Süleiman the only other person she could latch onto and from #her child she was going to have from SS that would show that she was actually going to keep on that she can't be separated from her family #*this time* not so easily but it's over it's done it seems so let her go to her mother and father at least let her return to them #let her reunite with them that's all she can have after she's already dead #after she's failed and the evil in the palace has seemingly taken over - in her E01 dream it was *they* who made her push forward #in order to commemorate them in the first place; she doesn't mention her sister tho even though she was there in the dream too #and I think that's because at this point Hürrem searches for protection for *help* and her parental figures can provide that to her #more than anyone else; namely they guided her in her dream mainly her mother so she goes first #it all also goes to show how her latching onto SS is a gradual process as she calls him only later #Ibrahim clings to life as embracing death would indeed mean losing absolutely everything completely #*fully* separating from his family he returned to found and reunited with after he wasn't sure about whether it's even possible #and what's more he has both his past and current family in front of him in the present; he can't let that go he *won't* let that go #so he urges his father and Niko not to leave him as in not to let him give up to help him in the fight he thinks he can still win #but he doesn't mention his mother namely because she isn't there in that picture she's fully gone and already symbolizes #a more distant past that wounds Ibrahim too much and he comes to want to evade as this ep is soon after #his scandal with Hatice; no wonder she appears in E44 and urges him to go home thus to go back as he wants to move on so badly #more subconsciously than even the usual #magnificent century #muhteşem yüzyıl #muhtesem yuzyil #hurrem sultan #ibrahim pasha

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ganondoodle · 4 months ago

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so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #ganondoodles rants #sorta #suicide attempt mention in the IRL stuff im talking about in the following tags btw #theres some construction stuff on our house going on #and my father is extremely stressed about it #he used to be very explosive- being silent and then exploding out of nowhere .. probably left me with lasting damage yippie-#but now he much more lets it eat at himself bc hes old and feels bad for the past stuff so now it makes him irritated and depressed #my older brother is the most normal cis straight guy you can imagine and incredibly impatient and bossy (you CANNOT talk with him)#(brother doesnt live in our house)#and while hes helping out hes doing it exactly how my father doesnt like and since you cant talk to the guy (explosive +200) it stresses hi #to the point of my father yesterday saying that “it would have been better if i had just died back in the day”#likely referring to the time when he was drafted for the military against his will and tried to kill himself #which i learned only like .. a year ago- theres so little my parents tell me ....#its like my mother telling me- while my father was in hospital for heart surgery- that she not only almost died back when i was a young tee #and only survived bc of some incredibly unebelievable lucky coincidences (medics on a travel being there that knew what she had-#-while our local doctors said welp- nothing we can do lady AND them beign there with a helicopter and emergency transferring her #to antoher bigger hospital while giving her immediate treatment our local one didnt do- AND at the big one just so happened to have-#-an expert on that illness in the facility when she arrived who was able to narrrowly save her life #BUT ALSO while she was recovering and weak and frail as a dust bunny witnessing someone stealing hospital surplies-#not noticing she was in the room at first (which .. the nurses left her in the nurse room while going on break ... which uhm .. yeah cool)#and if my mother hadnt acted in time like she was fully asleep and the lady stealing stuff beign in hurry- she might have killed her #without my mother being able to fight back bc she could barely even talk (the nurses didnt want to believe her when they got back either)#ANYWAY that comment from my father brough me to tears #and my mom is trying out more ... other medication shes not prescribed in hopes of it helping agaisnt her many pains #but i worry it will interact with the other stuff shes on ...#and i worry so much about both of their mental and physical well being #always trying to be the one to calm them down or help with communication bc that is a big problem in this houesehold #but i myself am also a very much not normal and not medicated shut in who has trouble dealing even with my own feelings

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muninnhuginn · 10 months ago

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Thinking about "your weakness is how you always want to be the hero" and how the series returns to this at the end

Li Lianhua hated how he acted as Li Xiangyi and spent years trying to distance himself from it, but ultimately he still fell back into the similar patterns, for all his added experience

His main priority was always to "do the right thing" regardless of how that would impact on those around him. And it *did* impact those around him. From Qiao Wanmian and Shan Gudao as Li Xiangyi to Fang Duobing and Di Feisheng as Li Lianhua

Giving the Styx flower to the emperor so he could use it as leverage to guarantee Fang Duobing and his family's safety. Using the last of his power to save Yun Biqiu. Constantly putting others above himself whilst actively refusing to recognise that his self-sacrificial nature would hurt those he cared about most

And sure, he thinks he's going to die anyway. They're going to be hurt regardless and he can't do anything about that. His odds are low of the Styx flower even working. But ultimately, he refuses to even consider trying. Li Xiangyi has been dead a long time and Li Lianhua is just there to tide things over. What value is the life of a ghost

To the end, he lives and dies a hero. To the end, he refuses to live for himself.

#sth about how he almost managed to live for himself but his past and need to do right doomed him.#those missing years before canon starts were probably the closest he got but even then the knowledge he couldn't use martial arts #must have killed him (no pun intended). because he'd put so much stock in his identity as sigu sect leader + hero + prodigy #so to have such a massive part of his identity stripped from him... honestly it doesn't seem that he ever fully comes to terms with it #but he makes progress and he tries to do better. + that leads to him becoming a different type of 'hero' than the symbol he was originally #deep down he wants to help people with all he has but his capacity isn't infinite + at some point can only be taken from himself #mysterious lotus casebook #mlc spoilers #also to be clear I mention shan gudao not to say lxy should have realised earlier bc for a lot of the time he was too young to notice #and later on sgd did better at hiding his intentions. but more for how lxy tunnel visioned towards his idea of righteousness #and steamrolled over everyone else. both sgd and qwm were placed far below the importance of the sigu sect #and lxy's arrogance made it such that sigu became reliant on him alone as he shut others out (hence domino fall once he went).#idk if he could ever have 'fixed' what was btwn him and sgd bc it was so deep rooted but I do think that his actions #helped convince sgd that sgd was entirely in the right to choose his path #mlc #edit: just went and checked the exact wording of the TL and it's actually 'you like being a hero' rather than 'you want to be the hero'#which is different but still close enough in implications for my point to stand (I think)

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vastly-fixated-devotee-667 · 4 months ago

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so emo about that one throuple of block shaped old people

#IVOR IS SO IN LOVE WITH BOTH SOREN AND HARPER IT TEARS ME APART #Soren is literally the only Order member that he ever mentions past episode 4 like #aisjsknxkas idc if the idea was scrapped he IS looking for Soren in season 2 #mcsm #minecraft story mode #mcsm ivor #mcsm soren #mcsm harper #mcsm harpvorren #harpvorren

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justarandomhelluvablog · 11 months ago

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having thoughts about how Husk actually has very little left to redeem bc he started his journey of self-change before even coming to work at the hotel, but at the same time redemption isn't even his goal- he ain't even aiming for heaven, he just wanted to be a better person and maybe now with friends and especially Angel, who he supports so much and wants to see succeed, maybe now he has a reason to be a better person

#hazbin hotel #husk #warning I am about to ramble in these tags O7 I have a ridiculous amount of thoughts about this cat bird man #thinking about that word of god from vivzie that Husk is actively fighting his gambling addiction in hell #which besides the pilot we've only seen his gambling mentioned in the past #and idk if it's just because they had to focus on other things but we don't see him drinking as heavily as he did in the pilot #and first few episodes. like he actually wants to be sober #we know he used to be an overlord and we assume that comes with all the terrible overlord qualities #(aka there's no such thing as a good slave owner)#but the Husk we know now has been on both sides of this chain #he knows and respects boundaries. consent is super important to him. this feels like a moral you can't really have to be an overlord #he also sees everyone as more than just what they can do for him specifically. he gets NOTHING out of being Angel's friend #he gets NOTHING out of defending Angel and Cherri during the fight with the Exorcists #he knows when to open up and who to open up to and trust. and he extends a hand to someone in need. someone he ain't even close to-#and if it hasn't changed he is trying to beat his own vices despite not even being a guest of the hotel. he's staff. he doesn't HAVE to #participate in their activities or try to change. he was dragged into this #but dammit he does it anyway #(also if he is still trying to beat his gambling addiction I wonder if the pilot was a relapse. hm)#anyway ig what im trying to say is husk isn't a guest at the hotel but plays the role of a guide for the guests bc he's already #got a very strong and *GOOD* set of morals considering they're in hell #like his level of morals we've only seen /explicitly/ shown in hellborn. and yeah consent and boundaries is rock bottom even for Earth #but they're in hell so somehow the bar manages to be even fucking lower than that so I consider it a win #ALSO THE FACT THAT HE STOOD BETWEEN ANGEL & CHERRI AND THE EXORCISTS??? this mf is willing to DIE for these people #I am 100% sure that if Husk's soul didn't belong to Alastor he would already be redeemed #we don't know what he did in life and we don't know how bad he was as an overlord but we know who husk is /now/#and that person is a pretty damn good guy #he might have some work to do sure but he's already at least started his redemption before the show even began and #we're just seeing the tail end of it #god damn I really rambled in these tags i am so sorry #I just have so many thoughts about him

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qprstobin · 2 years ago

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I'm getting really tired of all these posts complaining about stobin being too codependent and unhealthy. Not because i don't think that sometimes they are written as too codependent, but because the posts always seem to be because some of us write them as ya know, being each other's most important person and making life decisions together.

I'm an arospec person who views and writes stobin as a Queer Platonic Relationship. I really don't appreciate people claiming I and others who see them the same way are making them too "codependent" by writing them doing things together that would be considered normal and sweet if it was a romantic relationship.

Part of it is that qprs are actual relationships! That's literally what a qpr is, it is having a committed relationship with someone platonically, to the extent you might live together, make life decisions together, etc. You can still date outside of that ofc if you are inclined to romance and it's agreed upon, just like any other relationship, but it is just that! A relationship!

Another part of it is that in my experience, despite all the fandom jokes about them, a majority of fic only really has their friendship included as a way to prop up one of their individual storylines, or they are there to be a wingman. It is basically impossible to filter fics in a way to find anything friendship centric for them. Ive also closed out of so many fics because writers will fuck up their friendship just so one of the characters has a reason to spend time with their love interest.

So rarely do you see canon friendships that genuinely read like they could be qprs, that it makes these posts even more frustrating. They canonically spend so much time together, and are clearly very committed to each other.

Like are some of the jokes too far? Yeah that's fair, they can get a bit ridiculous. Are some of the HCS genuinely a bit unhealthy at times, even thru a QPR lens, and taking into account their trauma? Probably yes! But so are plenty of headcanons about their main romantic ships too.

It doesn't help that its honestly hard to engage with any actual posts about how the genuinely codependent jokes go too far, because so many posts with genuine complaints end up coming across as almost arophobic.

Idk, I'm just tired of being smacked in the face with posts about things being "unhealthy" because I am not prioritizing the romantic relationships over a platonic one.

#stobin #platonic stobin #fandom wank #i deleted so many specific mentions of posts ive seen the past few weeks or of specific ship tropes #in part bc this isnt like a me hating on shipping thing when i ship them both with multiple people #but like some of these posts sound so snide #like kudos to stobin peeps who can engage with only the parts of the post they agree eith but i cannot lol #not with st like this #qpr stobin #platonic with a capital p

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aroaessidhe · 4 months ago

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2024 reads / storygraph

The Loudest Silence

YA contemporary

a newly Deaf-Hard of hearing girl moves across the country and starts a new school, struggling with navigating her disability and love for singing and lost friendships - determined to not make any new friends for the year she’s in Florida

and a boy struggling with family expectations and anxiety, after being made the fútbal captain even though he secretly ways to be on broadway, who quickly befriends her

bi & aroace-coded MCs