#body dysphoria mention

[askcometcare]

Sly is available for questions!

[dailygrumbot]

Day 112: Grumbot Head Mask

A while ago I made this Grumbot head out of cardboard and paper mache and put it together with other pieces and a Mumbo for Mayor shirt I got as merch a while back. I ended up going to a convention, dressed up for a day, got some pictures and then... didn't upload them.

I've got some body dysphoria and even with so much of me covered (like I think only my neck was showing), looking at those photos still gave me the ick.

Finally I got around to realizing I could just take pics of just the head, so I did that. And while I'm pretty sure there wasn't anything identifying in the background, you can never be too safe.

[weirdestcornelius]

"you're not supposed to like cuddles! cuddles only does bad things!" okay then why did we get moments of being able to see into his head and see his thoughts in v3 lol? sure, hiding torturing people is bad, but surely you can't expect people to NOT relate to someone being anxious over authority figures/trying to hide something they like to do (even if, again, said thing is bad)? we get more cuddles characterization here than fucking!!! polly or jay, for christ's sake!!! it's shown in v3 that he's smart, able to easily adapt to things and plan for things to go his way, and is lucky on top of being able to keep the situation in his favor!!! it's shown exactly how he's been able to keep the murder hospital going for as long as he has!!! why is there character being given to someone who is SUPPOSED to be flat and one note!!! how do you fuck that up!!! how do you accidentally write someone you hate decently!!!

I fucking love Cuddles as a character for so many reasons. He has more characterization than some of the main characters that we're supposed to praise and love and. . .that a bit sad.

(mentions of body dysphoria below)

Personally I can relate to him on a deeper level than the trans characters because he actually HAS body dysphoria, something that otherwise hasn't been shown or represented in the main comic. I'm not sure if it's just me but the whole body modification thing is not only an awesome trope but it can also be representative of so many different things. The whole "naked mole rat who wants to be a bunny" thing can represent the way pretty privilege hurts those who are born less attractive than the standards of society. It can represent body dysphoria as well which is what I took it as. Cuddles not feeling home in his own body is something that would fit very well with his character and is something that makes him relate to him more than any of the other characters. But noooo we don't have to talk about how he's more interesting than half of the main characters are.

He has the potential of being such a dynamic character and villain. I'm just hoping that potential will be used.

[cattyanon]

can we go back to the part about scrapnic having programming because now I'm wondering what it'd be like if it DID activate before Tails could get rid of it

At long last I think I'm finally ready to answer this! Before I start, I'd like to say three things.

First is that for anybody whose confused by the ask, the programming is referring to Eggman's programming. The second thing I want to say is that, due to stuff I'm still debating on, the details might change. And lastly, it actually DOES activate before Tails gets rid of it.

Edit: Any sentence with a * followed by a number at the end of it will be something I elaborate on at the end.

To start I want to give a small refresher on an important detail. Specifically why Tails didn't remove the programming from Scrapnic (Sonic's nickname for this AU) when he did the other Scrapniks. Well if your new or you've forgotten, it's because Scrapnic has extreme body dysphoria that lasts for a long while. He hates any and all reminders that he's a robot now.

Moving onto the incident, it happens in the middle of a reunion with all his friends. Even Team Dark is there!

Well unfortunately being surrounded by all his friends enemies starts to trigger something attack protocals in his programming.

Only Scrapnic is able to tell that anything weird is happening due to the fact the only thing glitching out was his interface. (*1) He tries his best to ignore it, despite having promised Tails he'd let him know if anything weird starts to happen, because he doesn't wanna ruin the reunion and then have everybody start worrying about him.

Big mistake on his part.

It's in the middle of conversation when it finally happens.

He's happily exchanging stories with his friends when he suddenly goes completely silent in the middle of sentence, his head and arms going limp. Nobody sees it but his eyes turn from green to red a second or two after his head falls down.

I'm not entirely sure how much time I want to pass before it happens, but eventually his head snaps up and he goes to attack whoever is closest to him. What happens next will indefinitely weigh on Scrapnic's conscience...

Due to how sudden the attack was and his programming planning out what the most effective attack strategy would be, Scrapnic manages to land a blow that causes whoever's on the receiving end to go blind in one eye. Whoever it is now on their knees and bleeding from one eye.

And after a moment of shock, everybody starts to panic in a "wtf do we do now" kind of way.

Someone rushes over to the injured and Scrapnic immediately goes to attack them next. Thankfully, being able to match his speed, Shadow is able to intervene before Scrapnic can get to them. A fight then ensues, but it could hardly be called such. Nobody is willing to actually attack Scrapnic except Omega and risk damaging Scrapnic even further.

What if they manage to knock something loose like Tails accidentally did when they had first reunited? And what if it happens to be something extremely important this time? Would they even be able to fix him? Nobody truly knows the inner workings of Scrapnic's body, Sigma had even admitted he doesn't fully understand how Scrapnic works due to how complex he is. (*2)

They can't really do anything to Scrapnic due to the fear of damaging him, so now what do they?

Well I have a few ideas, one of which I'm leaning more towards due to the nature of it, but I haven't decided yet. Wait a sec, I actually just thought of a solution!

Split timelines.

Oh fuck yeah... This gives me the opportunity to use all 3 of my ideas! Funnily enough the ideas I have can be split into good, neutral (if I tweak it a little), and bad paths respectively. And while all 3 ideas do end up with Scrapnic being relatively 'okay' in the end, there's still the question of what happens before he gets to that point and the consequencess of it. >:)

Well I guess that's just 1 more post to list of ones I need to make...

Anyways getting back on track, I'm going with the good/best path for this post since I was already leaning towards it.

So Scrapnic ends up hurting some more of his friends, with varying degrees of success, before Tails comes up with some kind of technological solution.

After things settle down a bit Scrapnic finally relents and practically begs Tails to remove Eggman's programming. He can't stand the idea of something like that happening again. He doesn't want to be a danger to anyone.

It probably comes as no surprise that this incident takes a huge toll on Scrapnic's mental state.

Any progress made copeing with his body dysphoria is completely gone, with the body dysphoria actually becoming worse than it originally was. (*3) He becomes more closed off from everyone out of shame and the fear that Tails might've missed something. Whoever got the injury he avoids in any way he can due to the guilt. Guilt so heavy that, however this would work for a robot, he gets depression again. (*4)

He does get better with time but it's going to be a a while before he gets to that point. His friends, especially Tails and Shadow, are definitely gonna have their work cut out for them...

(*1) The glitching was pretty tame at first. Like his vision might glitch out or turn red for a moment here and there. Then it started to get worse and more frequent. The aforementioned glitches lasted longer and the name of his friends would appear above them, sometimes accompanied by an indicator on wether they were an ally or not. It started out listing them as a friend but it got progressively worse. It went in this order: Friend, Ally, Unknown, Threat, and lastly Enemy moments before he goes silent. Might think of more some other time but this is what I got.

(*2) Sigma actually had difficulty with getting Scrapnic into working order again due to the fact that not only have they never seen that 'model' of Metal sonic but Scrapnic's inner workings are extremely complicated. I mean how he works has to be complicated considering that he used to be completely organic being, ya know?

(*3) Scrapnic had body dysphoria from the moment he woke up as a robot. A little while after Scrapnic returned home with Tails, the latter started picking up on how Scrapnic hates his current body. Since Tails knows that there probably isn't a way to reverse whatever caused Sonic to become Scrapnic (aka a robot) he decided to try and help Scrapnic come to terms with his new body and was up front with him about it. Eventually Shadow comes into play and when he eventually learns about the body dysphoria decides to help Scrapnic cope with his new body. Shadow knows what it's like to hate your body for its origins. (Yo, new Shadow HC acquired??) For Shadow it's the Black Arms, for Scrapnic it's Eggman.

(*4) The only reasoning I can think of on how Scrapnic, whose essentially a robot, has depression is the fact that the process of turning someone into a robot has to be extremely complicated. In other words, the way he functions is extremely complex. As for him having depression again? Well he was stuck, on a small island, with no way safely off it, without any of his friends, and nobody believed him when he claimed to be Sonic. Sooooo yeah. He definitely had depression before (and a little after) he finally got to go home.

[soccerpunching]

One time i tried looking for scout characters that "looks like me" but felt defeated that i found no one. Turned out there are a lot who does look like my body but i was just experiencing massive dysphoria

[starcurtain]

I don't post about it often, but my favorite brand of Wriolette is definitely:

Despite being however many centuries old, Neuvillette still has significant dysphoria about being in a human body and doesn't think himself even capable of physically doing things the way humans do, so when he starts experiencing attraction to Wriothesley for the first time he's just like

"Oh dear."

But maybe Traveler is right? Maybe Sigewinne is right? Maybe it's time to truly start living the life he's been born into? This is his body, racing heart and trembling, drippy palms and all, and maybe it wouldn't be the worst thing to just... give it a go?

His mind is made up. Neuvillette is going to express his interest to Wriothesley in a mature, respectable, and perfectly normal manner!

But, ah... how?

Meanwhile, Wriothesley is growing ever more confused at Neuvillette's odd behavior by the day, but like... it's an endeared sort of confusion. Dragons are just kinda weird like this; it's all perfectly logical. Neuvillette has Wriothesley's unwavering support even if he does keep swimming down to the Fortress of Meropide in his full suit and cravat at 5am in the mornings and scaring the shit out of the morning shift gardes.

Wait. Wait. Run it by Wriothesley again--Neuvillette wants to what--?! The consent can only be described as enthusiastic.

Still, the ultimate takeaway is that Neuvillette doesn't just learn how to love a human, but also learns how to love himself, the strange vishap in smooth human skin that he's become.

[jeweledstone]

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[britcision]

Alright, it’s time to talk about Lycion and dysmorphia and being a trans allegory

Because… yeah, I think a lot of people can really relate to being scared of mirrors because you hate everything you see in them, and going to extreme lengths to get a body you love

It’s not a complicated allegory

But, and I think this is pretty important and possibly more useful to the trans community than declaring him ours and trans… dysmorphia and dysphoria are not exclusive to trans people

They’re not even particularly related to any part of the body; it can be any part of it

And like 15 years ago when I was learning about trans issues and shit, I went and did a little research, because I eat knowledge. And y’know what fully settled any questions I had?

Found a case about a lady with what is currently being called body integrity/identity disorder, which is basically dysmorphia so severe that people have otherwise healthy limbs amputated to be able to live life in a body they can stand

This lady got both legs fully amputated, got a wheelchair, and became a pillar of her community where before she was almost bed bound

And y’know what, if that’s a thing that can happen and we can all agree that removing her legs was integral to her health, y’know what seems completely trivial by comparison?

Every gender affirming surgery ever

And y’know what is even more trivial?

All the other transition measures that have nothing to do with surgery, like hormones, puberty blockers, and social transitioning

Being trans has become a super political idea for basically no reason whatsoever, but it’s harder to maintain that ideology if you learn about things like dysphoria and dysmorphia as just medical conditions that absolutely anyone can get, and then look at what that means for gender dysphoria

Cuz if peoples’ brains can decide an entire limb has Got To Go then yeah, they’re probably also capable of deciding “that pronoun is Wrong” and we can take that just as seriously; it’s a much easier fix and also free

Basically I’m saying Lycion is our gateway drug cuz if you can understand this elf hates his body so hard he became a werewolf about it, are you really gonna throw a fit over someone getting a packer?

None of this to say you can’t or shouldn’t headcanon him as trans (and unless it comes directly and unambiguously from Ryoko Kui it’s a headcanon, nothing wrong with that it’s what fanon is for)

Just, y’know. Sound folks out on him without mentioning that part right away for your own safety and possibly entertainment 😁👉👉

Oh and super important: he’s not canonically cis either. Pretty sure it was just never specified. Enjoy and apply this knowledge across every character ever whose assigned birth gender isn’t brought up in canon

The thing Lycion definitely is in canon is a goddamn furry and an otherkin allegory, and arrested for awoo crimes. He’s one of only 5 characters in the Adventurer’s Bible with a stated gender (the others being Otta, Kaka, Kiki, and Inutade - everyone else has pronouns but no gendered nouns in English at least)

(Lycion’s “definitely a man” - or “definitely male” in the official translation, which technically excludes him from the gendered committee altogether)

You are, of course, welcome to disregard canon in all things you do - I personally encourage it, it’s much more fun to play in the space and do your own thing, and Dunmeshi has deliciously efficient story telling; there is so much empty space to play in

[flowerakatsuka]

some doodles based on the gender thoughts i've been having about kuroba the past few days, mostly on how their appearance changed between middle school and their final year of high school. i also thought it'd be funny if kuroba didn't get recognized by classmates while they were helping at the flower shop back then, ( foreshadowing ig. )

[mitamicah]

Not me brainstorming ideas for my post op tattoo (context) like I'd contact the tattoo artist tomorrow and not in a 1,5 year or more

This was where my inspiration took me today I guess :'D

[askcometcare]

[beanie-based-being]

Trans dib doodles to make dysphoria go brrrr

[hertwood]

the problem is when i start crying and ppl are nice to me i have a new reason to be crying (so incredibly touched that ppl care about me)

[doomedtokill]

some people do not like muscular evan but love fetishizing trans evan and feminizing him to the max it’s crazy

it happens but its normal online which is the crazy part. pre t or early transition they still look very young and haven't got facial hair yet so people can get away with them being fem as it can still be seen as heteronormal or turned into a fetish and also blurs into paedophilia but that's a whole post in it self

my gym bro evan is also a stereotype but i always try to word it from a mental health view not obsessive dysphoria and ed way as i hate the way its written about sometimes. like some trans people are happy in their body and let that be shown as trans is beautiful not a constant battle

peoples views on trans men online will always be a sensitive topic and anyone will be feminised, it just is a blurry line of is it a fetish.

[omgcatboi]

I just learned you can report anons, so guess what just happened to the anon being intentionally transphobic to me? ( they got reported )

I don't ever post about any negativity sent my way because I always just block and go about my day, but this time, I noticed that you can infact report anons now.

So I'm just spreading awareness so all my followers know that you can, infact, possibly get someones account shadowbanned for them sending enough anon hate that gets reported.

I understand being degraded, insulted, and humiliatiled are all kinks I have and thoroughly enjoy but you need to ask someone in dms or anon if it's ok to call them certain things before you do so. I reported the anon because I don't want these behaviors being normalized against other fat trans folk despite me personally not being bothered by these insults.

[positivelyqueer]

You’re allowed to use whatever words for your body that you want.

You’re allowed to use whatever words for you genitals and secondary sex characteristics that you want.

You’re allowed to use whatever adjectives for your body you want.

You can have a dick or a pussy or a vagina or a penis. You can have tits or pecs or breasts or a chest.

You can be fat or chubby or plus sized. You can be hairy or fuzzy or fluffy. You can be curvy or stocky or lanky or athletic.

You can use all of these words interchangeably and situationally, and you deserve to have other people mirror and affirm this language.