im very compelled by the role memory loss plays in shadowheart's story, not only for the narrative flow of learning more about her alongside shadowheart herself, but also by the way its shaped her as a person, because how do you develop a personality when you so frequently cant remember who you are?
the trip back to the house of grief reveals that shadowheart's mission to retrieve the astral prism is far from the first time she's had memories removed. her past as a selunite, incidents throughout her sharran training, atrocities she's committed, the associated feelings of guilt and pain and loss - they've all been removed. several times over, in some cases, such as when she remembers her parents while in the process of torturing them.
but as in most cases with trauma and memory loss, she may not be able to remember what happened, but she remembers how it made her feel, and so she's learned to listen when her brain is giving her alarm bells. without anything concrete to make her decisions off of, she's built her identity around caution and heeding that inner voice when her instincts are trying to tell her something.
she wants to place her faith in shar. as far as facts go, serving her goddess is all she has to work with. its a comforting constant when her memory is so spotty and unreliable. but when she finds herself in situations where she should feel convicted in her actions but every instinct is telling her otherwise, her faith can't help but waver because she's learned over the years that her instincts can't be ignored.
she doesn't remember details, but she's skeptical and pragmatic enough not to just believe anything anyone tells her. she trusts her gut and sticks to her principles because that's all she has. and unfortunately for shar, its hard to brainwash someone into blindly following her faith when that person is a skeptic by default. especially when the methods shar uses to control people have only cemented shadowheart's tendency to question everything.
she trusts shar, yes, but she trusts herself more, and that's what ruins the plan to sacrifice the nightsong in the shadowfell, and i see that as a major factor in why shadowheart throws away the spear of the night. (i imagine viconia sees this coming, which could be why she sent her on the suicide mission for the prism to begin with) not necessarily because of anything alyn told her, but because it feels wrong. and when things feel wrong she's learned to listen.
idk i just find her so complex and interesting. here's a character who is so driven by very objective and practical standpoints but can only really trust her feelings because the part of her mind that's supposed to draw conclusions from fact is just lacking the necessary information she needs to make decisions. its a compelling mingling of character traits.
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@sillyarbiterdragon that's a good question! And you're also very right about it being hard to find the beginning (or to even find ANYTHING, the search on Tumblr is a league of its own), so that's why I compiled the
✨ Local Trains AU Masterpost ✨
where I hopefully covered everything important to the AU in chronological order of the story. I'll update the post everytime something new gets posted.
Enjoy all your train needs! :D
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I don’t know where this idea came from that Cirie was giving America nothing when Cirie literally approached her week one about working together and just last week we heard Cirie state repeatedly (to Izzy, who she has no reason to lie to) that she wanted America to outlast 2/3 of each trio and potentially even Felicia and Meme. Cirie put in a ton of work with Jared to keep her from touching the block. America wants to work with Cam because she wants to be in the power core, not outside it. That’s fine and that’s smart, but let’s not pretend she’s been backed into a corner and has no other choice.
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i'm not very good at doing it consistently, but whenever i see something that fits well with my worldview being stated as fact, i like to ask myself: is this a mona lisa and possum?
(is this something that i believed because i think it ought to be so? is there a way that i can truly be sure it's real? are my methods of finding that out, a mona lisa and possum of their own?)
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