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Jude chapter 3 silly but kinda detailed summary
꒰ ִ ֺ ⊹ @ notice ⊹ ֺ ִ ꒱ any pretty translation you may see in here may not be 100% accurate or contain creative liberties due to characterization or narrative flow purposes. this is a sort of summary as well. if you enjoy, though, please consider reblogging, but please don’t repost these or claim these as your own!
kate successfully completes sortin out letters so she heads to the port where jude is talking with the foreman. its there she sort of thinks back on her time at raven co and the long and short of it is that jude, as the ceo, is actually really outstanding, and he acknowledges the efforts of those who work hard, produce results and whatnot, and rewards them in turn.
(that said he could work on his wording ,,)
time skip to night after judes done and they all walkin back tgt where kates like “i think i’ll be able to have a good dinner today” and jude scoffs at her callin her a twit. and shes all defensive like hey whats wrong with wanting to eat good food and judes like when did i say that was wrong?
all of a sudden they stop in their tracks and jude tells kate “on the count o’ three, crouch” and kates all panicked like tf is going on but jude already starts counting down so she crouches anw (in a panic!)
some guy in a suits out to kill jude. god knows who too bc apparently jude don’t know him either 💀
Jude: Who are ya? Can’t say ya look familiar.
[ insert some lines im lazy to tl ]
Jude kicked up at the man’s chin, causing the man’s body to do one smooth flip before collapsing onto the ground.
Man in a suit: Jude… Jazza——!
Jude: N’ like I was sayin’, who the hell are ya?
ok turns out jude does remember him in the end, its just another dude who broke his contract with jude and was selling up some illegal drugs and whatnot.
Jude: I told ya, didn’t I? That if ya breach your contract I’d show ya so much o’ hell you’d wish you kicked the bucket?
J: I fulfilled that promise for ya. Havin’ a grand old time in hell, aren’t’cha?
omg he pried open the wound on the mans face and he let out a cry to the night sky that could shake anyone’s soul silly.
kate then thinks or foreshadows (yk how like ikevil stories r kinda told like kate is recalling the past? like “i didn’t realize it then, but xyz” kinda like one of those moments) that what she witnessed that night was but a prologue of what’s to come bc they get attacked over and over again.
kate and jude get into another argument like “i feel im gonna die every time! im at my limit!” and judes like “well ur in the way loiterin round like that” then jude just yeets off w/o listenin to another word.
she does feel something bothering her tho
(For someone like Jude, he should be able to avoid these grudges…)
When I thought this, I came up with a theory that relieved me of this unsettling feeling.
(…Could it be he’s making himself an enemy of many on purpose?)
‘Yeah, right,’ was what I thought, but also, somewhere in my heart, I felt such a theory may also be true.
shes like there’s not enough info rn but if i do know anything its that
Kate: At this rate, if I stay with Jude any longer…a hundred lives would not be enough!
and so shes like i gotta learn self defense! so she goes knocking on a certain someone’s door like pls teach me le jutsu of self defense!
Ellis: Okay. (╹◡╹)♡
turns out ellis was also thinking of teaching her some stuff abt self defense soon.
so ellis takes kate to the lobby and kates like why the lobby and ellis goes to a bookshelf to take out a book which actually reveals vics weapon collection and takes out a gun, telling kate to try and hold it.
idk if this is a real gun or not (as in it exists irl), apparently its made of silver with a wooden grip.
ellis thinks its well suited for kate. like its lightweight yk. hes like you may need to use it jic. and then hes like
Ellis: But, it’s kind of refreshing.
E: Other than me, Jude seems pretty adverse to putting people by his side.
E: So, maybe he wants to get along with you?
kates like mmm doubt but at the same time she has this question in her mind w/o an answer of why he went and wrote a whole contract and let her stay by his side then? shes abt to cook up a theory in her head when…
just then jude comes in.
Ellis: Ah——Jude.
Jude: We got a job to do.
so they head off to some noble mansion.
Jude: How do ya do, we’ll be here a while.
Nobleman: Ah, Mister Jude?
apparently this nobleman is connected with the guy in the suit jude beat up in the beginning of the chptr. he made him spit out info.
Jude: If ya just were sellin’ somethin’ shady I’d let that off the hook. Illegal drug’s some child’s play.
J: However.
Jude raised one leg and rested it atop the long table.
Jude: I seem to recall the contract prohibitin’ the sellin’ and buyin’ of humans, or am I wrong?
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mmmk cardea playing a somewhat larger role because she’s the only one who they might be able to talk to without splitting between her greek/roman self…. (did the fully one sided gods still cease contact w demigods? ermmm)
also yess the kids not even realizing they can’t contact the gods bc they’re all just thinking abt bruce…. mmmm tim thinks it’s a little too quiet but he doesn’t question it.
also the original plan of mortal tim only to accidentally make him the bridge between the two camps in the midst of a war….. ok..
and on steph and cj. my thought was cardea bringing steph to camp. idk in hopes of her possibly staying, but doing a tour explaining what she is, her power set, more about the gods (bc let’s be real she along w all of the batkids would have at least some knowledge on greek/roman myths, with what u learn on school and being bruce is close with motherfucking wonder woman (also thinking about how diana would fall into this world. would she come to the manor when the gods stop talking? is she aware of the divide? is she just as lost as the rest of them? who knows)
but cardea basically giving steph her intro into the godly world (well none of the other kids got that. i wonder if they wish it was something they had instead of figuring it out on the streets or through a giant mark above their head) i mean obvi steph would refuse the year round living at CJ, but it would be fun for her mom to pick her up, send her a pegasus for her to train with CJ’s equipment, for a bit, i mean she won’t be gone long. but cardea is the only god i could imagine doing something like this for one of her kids
but hmmm cassie and tim. i did forget for a second that the mist can also affect demigods and k was like CASSIE AND TIM IN CALIFORNIA MEETING OTHER DEMIGOD. but like. no i remember it being stated that if greek and roman demigods came across eachothers path the mist would hide them lol
ALSO YEAH like wtf bro IM in california… YOURE in california…
(kon, bernard, steph and jason al somehow managed to go be in the same room and tim is just. completely confused) could also be venus turning some emotions up lmaoo
if venus was there she would’ve found tim’s little thoughts abt jason grace soo funny
BUT YESS tim and steph deserve a little trip to CJ <3
i was trying to think which of the other kids would actually want to go to CHB but i don’t think any of them would? i would’ve said duke but he’s not a greek demigod, dick maybbeeeeee? (but bro ur pushing 30 what r u doing) maybe babs would be down to go for research? i think she would want to talk to chiron abojt stuff, maybeeee dionysus too. tim would bring steph to CHB after they go to CJ (didn’t they set up like a portal thing after the war? idk)
also completely out of left field but you know how Bernard was gonna be sacrificed by the Children of Dionysus cult?? I don't think it was explicitly stated in the comics what the sacrifice was for exactly (I don't remember seeing anything when I read it, but maybe i just missed it), but I've seen people suggest the idea the possibility that he would have been possessed by Dionysus. imagine if that was really the case in the PJO-verse, like the cult are some mortal fanatics who obviously don't know how the Greek gods work, but they're trying to summon Dionysus.
i'm just imagining Tim processing the whole affair later and ranting about it, and Venus with a glass of divine wine in her hand like "what's the big deal? you know, one time Bacchus and I-" "MOTHER!" like yea Tim knows that it's a god thing, it's been very well documented, but he'd rather not be dating his (*does the mental calculations*) first cousin once removed??? Who also slept with his mom??? "i'm just saying that he does this thing with his tongue-" "MOTHER PLEASE"
(boo, let her have this okay? no one's had any juicy drama lately, even the other bats' love lines have been so BORING. she needs something entertaining to liven things up. hm, actually, speaking of bats, maybe she could pay Batman a visit later...)
venus just. dropping the most diabolical tea that tim has NO desire to hear is soooo funny. and its not like he can get rid of her. like. ur gonna get rid of this goddess ???????
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#I feel so trapped in this country#it’s always kinda been like this#but it’s gotten so much worse since february#and idk what to do#every time I feel somehow happy#it doesn’t last long#bc I realize that I can’t do the stuff I want to do#i’m also panicking a little bit#bc while yeah I do have a job rn#i’m not sure it’ll last for long considering our situation#and it’s so difficult to find something else rn#ppl say focus on the here and now#but I can’t do that bc i’ve always been the one to plan stuff#I can’t live spontaneously day by day#I need to know what my future will be like#and it’s become impossible now#I know it won’t ever be the same after shit he’s done and keeps doing#I just hope I can move away somehow#and make my life so much better
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If I put my mind to it I could totally be a TikTok influencer because all of my tests have gone well. My simple existence with no effort can get a thousand views and probably a bit over a hundred likes. Me showing what I eat can get me a couple thousand views and about half as many likes and a good amount of comments. For now my tests have no purpose but it’d be cool to be famous because I want attention, and if I lost maybe 15 more pounds I could definitely use that to my advantage, not that 15 less pounds would make me comparable to Tara terrorful or Eugenia cooney or other people, but I could totally like, start down that road if that makes sense, bcs weird and pitifulness will cause controversy and drive attention :3
#asher says stuff#it’s not soemthing I’m necessarily considering doing but I know it’d be fun and I kinda want to do it but also I know that everytime I have#tried to do something in the wants of being famous or getting attention I always pull back the second I actually get enough attention to be#fufilled because it’s scary to realize that I can get people to like me and care about me and hate me and whatever#also loosing 15 pounds would be a goddamn nightmare bcs I can’t get any weight off me rn but god how I envy creators famous for being thin#that and tiktok seems like a low bar for fame but it’s easier to get attention and then do meaning ful stuff like show art or whatever#then to start with the hard stuff#Tw ed
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I think I may have fucked up with my degree timeline a bit.
#by the looks of things I’m gonna be taking like 4 extra electives#and having to do 5 courses a semester in my later years instead of 4#bc I didn’t realize I was actually ahead of the game in electives but also can’t access some required courses yet bc they’re reserved#for when you’re in the program ‘core’ which I am not yet#it may be even worse than that. idk#it’s not great. I’m contemplating taking a semester off at this point#why spend a buncha money doing courses I don’t need when I could take a break and go work full time for half a year#idk. I’m kinda freaking out tbh#I’ve been trying to really take things one step at a time with the degree bc my ex major made me want to kms#but as a result I now think maybe I didn’t put enough thought into this. I assumed some stuff and you’ll never guess what happened.#I made an ass out of me.#Idk. Idk what to do. I guess I can try talking to an academic advisor but I’m bedridden and course selection is less than a week away#fuck me man. I’m an idiot
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a friend body doubled for me today while i went through pretty much all my clothes and i ended up getting rid of a bunch of old clothes from highschool that i enjoyed objectively bc they’re pretty, but i felt SO uncomfortable in bc i was trying so hard to be someone else.
anyway that also led to us talking about gender and presentation and stuff bc he’s also a NB trans masc person. and i don’t think i’ve had a conversation that felt that good and honest in like. years.
i also came to the realization that for the first time in my life i feel Hot. and it has SO much to do with my hair being shorter. like, i’ve felt cute or pretty at times, but never hot.
but now? me with short hair in black jeans and a flat black sports bra with open flannels or muscle tees and shit? i feel SO good.
anyway thanks for listening to me talk about how hot i am and how great it feels to have other queer people in my life.
#i’m genuinely so lucky#and this person makes me feel so comfortable and i don’t really understand it but i enjoy it#and we talked about gender stuff that i’ve only been able to talk to one person before ever#(that person is also incredible and supprorted me literally years ago when i was juuuuuust starting to question/figure shit out)#anyway i’m just very happy and have some really really great people in my life#finn you’ll never see this but you’ve broken down walls that i’ve tried SO hard to lower with other people and just can’t#and that is absolutely not a comment on the other people bc i trust them with my fucking life#but you just make it so easy and i don’t understand how you do it#you’re in my life because of two of the other most important people in my life and that in itself is so cool and special#i love my friends more than i can ever properly express to them but i hope they know it anyway#today was a good day#personal#(realized by saying ‘also’ trans masc it sounds like i’m saying i am too. i’m not as far as i know.)#(just straight up non-binary leaning toward agender. i just meant they’re also NB but wanted to respect their full identity not just part.)#gender mess
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It’s funny that I can only read/write AT fanfic that’s both (a) canon compliant and (b) not too sad by my (very sensitive baby) standards, bc ofc those things contradict each other a lot
#OH and throw in there no smut#my library is so small 😭#some of my fics are definitely too sad but I wrote them so its different?#blah I did a lot of writing abt how I can’t write today abdbsbndnsb it’s making me mad#mostly just that I like to write until I realize that what I’m writing is horrible terrible disgusting shit trash#jus talkin#adventure time#I just love canon and especially post canon!!!!! it’s so good there’s so much there#I do have a draft of a regular world modern day au and it’s fun to think abt but .. canon is more fun#also I think things feel less sad in the canon universe bc they by nature can’t be 100% exactly like our universe#plus I love my girls being immortal (ish?)…. bubbline ♾️#sorry I’m so sleepy today I’m just sayin stuff how is it like almost early evening rn what’s hallenjng#I hate that I can’t write anything that has like. grit or whatever. like I feel like no one wants to read this elmo baby shit but me#(& i don’t like the way I execute it)#like I wish I could write stuff that’s idk. cool.#that’s it ahdbbdndn
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mutuals i got myself into a situation so sticky i don’t even know how to describe it (edit: *describes it* lol). please send thoughts of successful escape my way lol
#purrs#delete later#i SONT understand anything about retirement or insurance whatever and basically imightve signed a contract for smth i didn’t understand#fully and im so scared lol. and i feel so bad bc im stupid and i don’t understand anything and no matter how much peopel#xolain it to me i don’t understand it. i feel like a stupid silly naive little girl rn LOLLLLL i feel so sick#it’s probably fine and not that bad and i didn’t do the wrong step but im freaking out. not just bc of the money situation but also bc they#have to do a. medical exam on me to see how much i would have to pay or whatever 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 wtf#im making it sound like a big bad scary freak thing isigned up for when really it’s not i don’t thin&. it’s just dividend lige insirance but#i don’t understand what any of it means and apparently other stuff is better. idk anything about retirement i only got into this stupid#situation because i had a mandatory retirement selection for work and ididnt understand anything so i scheduled a meeting with a retirement#counselor person to help me figure out which option would be the best for me and he was really nice and helped me a lot but then he started#saying he could help me w additional retirement stuff if i wanted to see what the options were and i was like sure and then he told me abt t#this thing and had me fill out / sign the application in that same meeting to ‘get the process started bc it takes. a long time’ even if i d#decided to pull out later it would be a good thing to get the ball rolling asap if i did end up wanting to do it. but i didn’t understand an#anythi ng and i went along with it anyway and now i might’ve fucked myself over so bad. except i probably didn’t but i feel so bad. bc he wa#was so nice and genuine but maybe he was just trying to sell me a product bc he gets a commission from the insurance company which i he told#me wheni asked him if im getting his help for free. i feel so stupid and guilty omg#and also i signed up for my first credit card but the interest rates are really high which i didn’t realize. and i can’t log into the bank a#account for some reason liek it says my acc doesn’t work. and hr fucked up my pay so i haven’t gotten a time sheet for like 2 pay periods an#and im getting retroactively paid in august but it’s just one more fucking thing and i haven’t gotten the chance to pick new benefits yet#and idk if i can / will bc of my stupid pay situation like i literaly don’t exist in the system rn apparently. i fucking hate all of this i#hate adulting i hate it i hate it i want to explode and hide forever and cry a lot. and my bank account isn’t even my own rn and i don’t und#understand anything about mony or insurance or benefits or credit cards or anything. im so overwhelmed FUCK
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#cw for heavy grief stuff in the tags I’ll type some more words to make sure it doesn’t pop up in the preview of the tags#so y’all can skip past if you can’t/don’t want to read that sort of thing right now#okay that should be enough to cover it up#realized the two traumatic events from mid to late 2018 are still festering inside me as grief#bc 2019 was me trying to just be a person again#and then 2020 was the beginning of the pandemic/lockdown#so I haven’t had time to heal and share my grief with others#and I haven’t even been able to share the grief anyway bc I have been burying everything deep down#I’m learning how to let myself feel and share things#but I do not want to have to address this grief bc it’s so so hard !#texted my best friend so she’ll text me back in the morning when she’s awake#I better get sleep soon too
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If u “like” Tim Drake but refuse to not only acknowledge that he victim blamed tf outta Jason, but can’t also see it as a fucked up thing he did and negative aspect of his character, who are you really looking for bc it’s not Tim 💀
#no bc ppl saying they don’t like the woobification of tim#but then going the opposite direction and saying he’s a chaotic gremlin#and shedding a positive light on all the fucked up things he does#it’s like babe ur no better#like if u can’t say tim is arrogant in a neutral tone of voice#no pride but also no vindictiveness or adoration#then i don’t trust u sorry 💀#to reiterate bc I REFUSE to be branded as a tim stan#bursting into tears I’m already someone’s Tim mutual 💔#BUT#he’s at the bottom of my character list in general bc of fandom#but when I first read his Robin run I thought he was cool and had a lot of room to grow and thought the simultaneous#overarching knowledge he had on stuff while letting his personal worldview fuck with the details which caused him in turn to fuck up till-#he removed himself from the situation which is difficult for him to do bc he does have the passive idea that he’s always two steps ahead#I thought all that was cool and could make for great character growth bc from what I saw he had HIGH highs and LOW lows#and I’m order for him to be a functional hero he’d have to figure out how to teeter on confidence without tipping into arrogance even when-#he was right or despair even when was wrong#but y’all rlly just said ‘Timmy’s the smartest and everyone’s so mean to him ☹️’#or ‘tim is the most badass and nobody wants to realize it 😭’#like be so fr#and then DC won’t let this nigga age so he’s perpetually 17 and some of y’all are just now accepting he might be 19 or 20 💀#and y’all act like DC is mean to him or smth like they keep him stagnant yeah but that’s adoration in comparison to what they do with every1#OH AND LET ME MAKE IT CLEAR#this isn’t Jason defense or anything I don’t have particularly strong feelings towards him as a person either (character tho? yeah)#it was just an example of the type of shit the ‘I like mean ppl’ crowd would find most unacceptable#bc y’all always put ur personal morals into it#I would’ve used him being mean to Steph but y’all don’t like her either#and I could’ve used him cheating but y’all wanna retcon that soooo bad even tho I think it adds to his character but whatever#y’all wanna say ‘timtam sees Robin as a job 🥺🥺🥺’ till he has his work gf 💀
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tumblr should make a feature that gives you a pop up warning when you’re about to follow a blog you’ve previously followed and then unfollowed multiple times imo
#this is mostly a joke I don’t expect them to do this#but also I would genuinely benefit from this#I will see a blog that looks somewhat familiar and go huh I thought I followed you?#and then two days later see a nasty take and go. ah. right#like. I can’t keep track of which people I unfollowed for takes that didn’t feel block worthy#vs people who just look like other people I follow#or people who I see reblogged a lot on my dash#or people who are side blogs of people I follow#or just ‘I know I followed you but maybe tumblr accidentally made me unfollow?’#this is also why I explicitly ask people to hard block me instead of soft block me btw bc I will Not realize I am being softblocked#and may just keep coming back#but yeah guess what happened again#I may just also start hardblocking people I guess so that I see that they’re blocked#when I try to follow#but a lot of the time this is over stuff that isn’t a huge deal I just don’t want to see it#and I don’t actually care if that person interacts with me#456 words
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#vent#ignore this pls I just deleted my vent twt bc that shit got unhealthy and I can just lose this#TW BPD shit#I’m. constantly terrified of the ppl I love leaving me and it being entirely my fault#bc I fuck up constantly and someday everyone will realize that I’m a horrible fucking person and stop loving me#and I’ll have no one and will be entirely alone#and I fucked up again tonight#and I wonder if it’s ever gonna stop#bc I don’t want to lose anyone#I just can’t stop doing shitty things#and I was gonna vocalize that I am back to how I was before w the whole set date#not scared#thing#but then this happened#and now anything I try to say ab that will seem like I’m trying fo avoid accountability for my bullshit by pulling the ‘ideation’ card#but like I never got well enough to forget my date even if I removed it from the calendar#I wasn’t gonna anymore but it was still there vaguely as like an option if shit got bad again or my concerns came true or some catastrophe#so#idk#I just don’t know if I can deal w this stuff much longer#my life is falling apart around me and I can’t fix it anymore#I just make it worse#I might have to go inpatient#just deleted a tag bc I realized on the off chance anyone reads this far that shit should stay in my head#god I can’t keep going like this
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I’ve spent my whole life having people from strangers to acquaintances to friends to family tell me in some way or other I’m a bad person, or being bad, for caring actively about a bunch of minority stuff. I have not ever thought of it that was before, but putting it into perspective yesterday. I have. All the ‘Why can’t you just not engage. They’re family—ignore what they say and change the subject.’ ‘You’re so self-righteous, overbearing, judgemental, critical, harsh, overemotional—why can’t you be unselfish and keep it to yourself?’ ‘If it really mattered more people would complain’ ‘people today care about everything so much they’re too sensitive—why can’t you keep quiet or nod instead of arguing with me? Just let it go.’ Even from ‘liberal’ friends I get ‘I know it’s racist but it’s not a big deal. Quit spoiling people’s fun by talking about flaws with things. People want to have a good time and they’re already sad and tired’ ‘quit making people feel bad for liking bigoted things by talking about the bigotry. It’s selfish and prudish.’
And hearing on the same day a bunch of native people at a creatives meetup lost it & went ‘They did WHAT?’ hearing about the bullshit ND startup game I walked out on for anti-native racism, and my poc doctor say ‘Oh yeah that was the right call. Tbh I don’t even understand why you feel guilty and worry maybe you did not find the best or kindest way to handle it.’ Talking about my experiences with deteriorating relationships over bigotry with some family members, was a really changing experience. Obviously this is and can only be said from a place of extreme personal privilege, and I’m very aware of that, but it was both surreal and nice (and to my shredded mental state I think, necessary) to hear people I’ve stuck up for when they’re not there say it was right and mattered that I did actually, and I’m not somehow a bad person for it.
#I’ve always been like ‘you’re wrong it’s the right thing to do’ and refused to change bc I can’t change for a reason except I think I’d be#better some other way. but along the way I must have internalized ‘yet somehow I’m doing the right thing wrong because so many people have#accused me of being evil for doing it and there must be truth to numbers’ because I absolutely do feel like shit despite knowing I do the#right thing. and until talking w my shrink I had not even really realized this is a major recurring life motif for me. it super is though#and idk what to do about it. but at least it’s nice to have some reassurance too. emotionally speaking#it’s always been a ‘I have to act and care though if I don’t or quit the second it’s hard or unpleasant or personal it’s performative’ and I#have always known that’s true but the ‘actually you refusing to quit the second it’s personal or inconveniences someone makes you a piece of#shit’ I’ve gotten from everyone from strangers to a best friend has left way more of a chest wound than I realized#R Internal Stuff#unrelated but despite my personal feelings of disgust for a lot of therapists bc the field is saturated w bad people and in general they#charge way too much I do think my shrink should get to charge whatever she wants to hear me talk about feeling any conflicted feelings#towards a racist family member and also drop me as a patient if she wants#I’m so sorry Miss N I didn’t not mean for it to come up as a subject and will try to see it never does again
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scrambling to finish holiday presents for my family but all my brain can think about is a 4+1 fic about skylor and the ninja bc we finished s11 last night and instead of being frustrated about that i binged thousands of words of fic and started brainstorming my own and spiraled out from there…. head empty noodle girl ily
#really i just fused my one unique IE fic idea w#with my skybound jay and skylor idea#and NOW i’m just going down a mental rabbit hole thinking about what she’s doing throughout the series#instead of finishing the gifts. good timing jay#idk why i’m rambling here hey how’s it going#.#wait i wanna keep going okay the og idea was ‘character not stuck in a time loop slowly realizing the other *is*’ but it’s skylor finding#out about the skybound stuff bc they’ve got SO many parallels after all of jay’s reveals and i’ve been noodling that around for a while#and NOW i have the tidbit of skylor and zane bc this girl has the tragically most relatable life ever and i love her being The Normal One#and then i realized if i worked backwards in chronology with 4 times she helped them and one time she was helped and it’s about kai and#everyone helping her get back on her feet and getting the noodle shop to be actually profitable and exploring WHY she wanted to keep that#up despite all the bad memories of her dad and oogh. i can’t stop sry i just keep going in circles… i should be drawing#going like s15-11-9-6-4 or something. damn i really just like picking this chronology apart huh
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i will never shut up about how much i hate the college system in the us and the way it’s all about money because i genuinely love learning and i miss being in school so fucking bad but i simply cannot afford the education i want
#also i was always told that there’s no real difference between the education you get at community college vs a university and like…#to an extent i support that like of course there should be no shame in attending community college and i’m grateful that it’s an option#and it depends on the school and the person but in my experience with the schools accessible to me that is just not true#i’ve attended a university as well as three different community colleges and while the university as a whole was just not for me#there was a HUGE difference in quality compared to all of the community colleges in terms of academics alone#i was miserable most of the time at university bc i found it really hard to make friends there and didn’t like living in that town etc#but i did enjoy a lot of my classes and even the ones i didn’t love or find super engaging did have a lot of value for me#whereas every single community college class i’ve taken felt like a complete waste of time and money bc i genuinely got nothing out of them#all of the content felt watered down and literally all of the material was stuff i had already learned in high school or even middle school#and i understand that not everyone learned the same things in k-12 or even got to attend k-12 so those classes can be valuable for others#but my issue is with the classes that are presented as equivalent to specific university classes (same course name and credits etc)#and then the material/coursework is objectively not on the same level at all#it’s especially frustrating bc i had a full merit scholarship at the university i attended so all of those good classes i took were free#and then at community college i paid tuition to learn absolutely nothing#i left that university bc being there was actively harming my mental health and i still think that was valid for me to do#but at the same time i regret it bc i’ve realized i simply cannot get that level of education at a community college#and i can’t afford any other universities (or even to go back to the same one bc that scholarship is only available for hs applicants)#once again i understand everyone comes from different backgrounds and college is a unique experience for everyone whether university or cc#but for me personally university classes were the only ones that i actually got value / learned anything from#and it’s extremely disheartening to actively want to learn and feel like you have no way to do so bc it’s exorbitantly expensive#i also need to acknowledge that i am white and i come from a middle class family and that privilege applies to education as a whole#there are much much worse positions i could be in and i recognize that#this is just a vent post bc as much as i have to be grateful for this situation still fucking sucks#that’s all bye#vent#lj.txt
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See, this is why we can’t have nice things
Controversial Character Tournament Round 1: Castiel from Supernatural
#I know tumblr is the ‘it’s funny to tell people to kill themselves website’ but jesus dude#like do you realize I get a notification every time you tag something like this and I have to read it#if you get this upset over peoples opinion on a fictional character please seek therapy#not tagging them bc pls don’t harass the person but like. can we not. this is what I was trying to avoid and this breached containment#the spn freaks who can’t behave in the notes really want to tag triggering stuff on my posts huh#maybe I won’t be able to handle a round 2 or 3 with ships or tv shows#nah I’ll get over this. but it feels directed at me when it’s on my post ya know. and I haven’t been in a place recently to read this stuff#even though I didn’t even vote hate it’s just The Life Context rip#yes I’m being too sensitive. I think I deserve to be though. a lot of nasty tags on that post#and on that note. tags like ‘if you voted hate I’m in your walls’ or ‘let’s fight’those are funny and fine! just. don’t bring up kys please.#not a poll#tw suicide
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