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i have broken my ankle :(
#artists on tumblr#silly art#cute#it's been 2 weeks now#still hurts but is nowhere near as bad as it was#i just can't do much yet lol#at least i've got a moonboot now!!#i had a cast for the first week n was non-weight bearing#it was tough ngl#its not even a cool story how i did it#i just went over on my ankle funny in the bathroom#n hit the floor like a sack of spanners#what a silly goose#owell#at least i don't need surgery!
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Some photos from yesterday 🍂 we got some house plants and found mushrooms in the park!
#nips photos#personal#sweater weather sweater weather#I also went to the dentist yesterday and I'm almost done with my orthodontics after almost two years!! just two more months#now I look like I have at least 10 more teeth in my mouth for some reason but I'm really happy with the results!!#but then I need to get a molar pulled and two implants and one requires more bone so that's a surgery cool cool cool cool#will I ever be free!! this is all so damn expensive!! but I have an infection in the bone so I have to 🥲#anyway please take care of your teeth don't be like me and let them get to this point 😫#nips blogs
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Augh
#fancy is really struggling#and the babies are lovely and just FASCINATING in how they developed around but not shaped by humans and i so very deeply enjoy them#but they are also a little ungovernable due to their age and general lack of caring about rules and they are bothersome and rowdy#and it is obviously so so hard on her and my heart is breaking because im afraid we wont be able to get her through this#and i will have to give the babies up#and...not have another cat#just one#i would be crushed#and added to all of that is that the babies are taking their time learning to be pets and that is fine and wonderful actually#but...i need surgery on at least one ankle and i won't be able to keep up with them if things haven't sorted themselves out by then#and they haven't become more manageable and fancy hasn't adjusted#so we are asking about meds for poor fancy and hoping that works#but she's really having a hard time guys and i am fighting so hard to cope in a household where i spend most of my time alone#with two animals who don't love me yet or interact with me like pets (i'm a source of three things: food and snuggles on demand and NO STOP#and one who is sad and not herself#and frankly it's terrible that i can't fix this#and i am trying not to lose my shit but this wasn't supposed to be so hard#and im afraid i may lose five cats and not three#and im already barely holding on#i don't know what to do and neither does my boyfriend#i don't want to turn around and have to tell you guys we can't keep the babies#i feel like i am failing at something i am supposed to be GOOD AT#i don't want to be in a house so empty#i can't live like that#having the babies is lovely#they're so alive and the boys were so sick by the end and the stress of the constant anxiety and grief as they faded away was crushing#even before they died#it's been so good to have them running about#i don't want to LOSE that#im so tired of LOSING things
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Everyone is suggesting stocking up on morning after pills in case they get banned. And Yes! do that! But also if you do not plan to bare a child in the next few years look into long term birth controls.
Even Missouri never banned long term birth controls. They just make you take a pregnancy test before being prescribed it. So as long as you are not currently pregnant and want to avoid having a child during the next 4 years get on long term birth control.
Call Planned Parenthood today because the wait list is usually a month out for the earliest appointment. If they plan to attack abortion and birth control options day one you want to get prescribed them before jan. In case they make it incredibly hard to get prescribed it. But one doctor visit and they can prescribe you the Depo shot for a year. Depo is the least invasive option. If you go for one of the inserts those last years on their own. They just have the risk of slipping and you not know it until after you've become pregnant.
Depo; lasts 3 months, stops or lightens most periods, and income based PP charge 0-20 dollars for low income people to get it every 3 months. You qualify for low income even/especially without insurance. At full price it's 70-90 dollars every 3 months. but if you make less than 30k a year you qualify as low income.
TLDR: Long term birth controls are less likely to be banned and at least will take longer to ban compared to abortion pills. Conservatives don't want to "kill the embryo" which is what they see morning after pills as doing. Long term birth controls stop the embryo from even forming. Look into the Depo or other options before Jan and get prescribed it so you are at least set for the next year.
#politics#us politics#birth control#planned parenthood#election 2024#I know some are looking into surgery's to get their tubes tied#but that's expensive#and even if you find a doctor that will perform it on someone under 40#that doesn't mean insurance will cover it if you are under 40#insurance will see it as something you don't “need”#Depo is far cheaper and at the very least not permanent#i don't want a large chunk of the queer community voluntarily sterilizing themselves#you do know sterilizing the gays is one of the Right's goals right?#don't do something permanent when there are still other options
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Not me brainstorming ideas for my post op tattoo (context) like I'd contact the tattoo artist tomorrow and not in a 1,5 year or more
This was where my inspiration took me today I guess :'D
#bold of me going for colour in most of these since none of my other things have colour x'D#after all this is only what ideas I have rn :'D#as mentioned I don't think I'll be able to get a chest tattoo for at least one year and a half#in half a year I've been promised to start appointments with a therapist again about the surgery#then if I'm lucky I'll get approved#and then there's a waitlist on at least a year last I heard#and then I need to heal a bit first#so when we arrive at that point in time who knows if I've better ideas#or if I've changed my mind#I hope to have käärijä in my life for years to come still#or at least feel the same sort of gratitude for him showing me how to love my body and/or feel neutral about it when dysphoria hits#look at me being chatty in the tags yet again#also - these are of course only concepts#I will probably have send the reference picture as well to the tattoo artist if I actually went to find one to do these tomorrow x'D#I hope you like them :3#I really enjoy number 2 (top left) and 3 (mid)#jere pöyhönen#käärijä#cha cha cha#mine#my own art
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pharmacies should automatically give you (or at the very least offer) naloxone any time you get an opioid prescription
#and that naloxone should be free#i already keep naloxone in the house but neither the pharmacy or the doctor mentioned it???? which is wild to me#all this shit about controlled substances and “don't get addicted!” but NOTHING about naloxone??????#blows my mind#ur just expecting people to rawdog opioids possibly for the first time in their life post surgery & u offer no harm reduction whatsoever 😳#i don't think this is an individual failing idk how common this knowledge is this is definitely systemic#they didn't teach it to us even working in healthcare on surgery recovery wards?????#i remember sitting in class listening about opioids and when it got to the end of the lecture the prof still hadn't said#anything about naloxone i asked them about it and they said “what?” and i was like 😟 uhhhhhh#yk#the life saving overdose reversing medication 😭#and everyone in the class just looked at me n prof was like “why do u know that” and i was like “why wouldn't u teach about it”#WILD#we didnt even have any not locked in med stations and the nurses on these rehab wards sucked#so i always kept at least a one in my scrub pockets#anyway naloxone is really fucking important!!!!!! u can usually find some for free in ur county#i used to have a whole thing abkht where to get free naloxone and needles and stuff i need to find that#harm reduction#naloxone#opioids
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I have Got to get more transgender
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#transmasc#trans ftm#transgender#i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever#so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL#it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks#such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also#or like. exist in general maybe#reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically#idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again#i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this#i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian#like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty#miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes#partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it#as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once#didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.
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I hate hearing about the Quiverfull movement. I hate hearing about it politically. I hate hearing about it from people who don't know anything about it. I hate hearing about it from people who only know the Duggars. I hate hearing about it from people who grew up next to it, but not in it. I hate hearing about it from women stuck in it right now. I hate hearing about it from women who were stuck in it. I hate the Quiverfull movement and I hate hearing about it.
#It got mentioned in the latest episode of Some More News and I'm so fucking upset#not by the video but just the concept cause it's with pictures of the Duggars and Im like#idk#it makes me feel weirdly hopeless#Im getting top surgery probably sometime this year if the surgeons approve me in a couple weeks#and I plan on getting a hysterectomy at some point for my endometriosis#which I know isn't a cure but it'll help#I don't plan to have kids but my family follows the Quiverfull idea#they aren't in the movement itself but they definitely follow the idea of be fruitful and multiply#I talked with my grandmother recently about my birth control implant and she joked about how if they had those back in the day#she would've stopped at 3 kids#she had 6 and says she wanted 12#at least#She stopped because another child would've killed her#and 6 children need 2 parents#but she joked about stopping at 3 then sighed and looked out distantly#and said well no I wouldn't have used it. I had to trust the lord with how many children I have#my nana is 81 years old but she is Alive and Kicking#I haven't seen her this tired since my grandfather was in the hospital#and I know she doesn't regret having her 6 kids#she loves her dozens of grands and great grands#but she's tired#and she was tired back then#I see it in my dad too. He was the oldest#He does what he needs to do then finds his little area to rest. He was parentified#he had to help raise the rest and escaped to college when he could#I'm an only child biologically. I have 6 stepsiblings. I helped take care of them at 11 years old#and the cycle continues#ex christian#religious trauma
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I wrote a long post abt how hysteria over cheating with AI is borderline irrelevant to my field and how that post implying it's a huge epidemic annoys me and then deleted it bc nobody cares. lol
#thinking of the guys who watched video games playthroughs during class all day and now he assists w cardiac and transplant surgeries#and he's great. we get training after graduation anyway and often what you learn in school is only narely applicable to your actual job#plus you're in an environment with a lot of other people who are keeping an eye on your decisions. ideally#but 'oh no teacher they're cheating at HOMEWORK' just comes off as very silly to me#ALSO if you genuinely think a nurse can glide their way through nursing school using chatgpt you clearly don't know#how our exams are structured or how we need to choose the right mc question of 5 extremely complex ones#or how if we get under 77% we fail the class and how most of the grade is in mc exams.#at least for me#I don't think using AI to cheat would even be possible#and ppl who were cheating were already doing so before AI anyway#welp that's it basically#disclaimer this is based on my experience but the national licensing exam IS myltiple choice and people DO fail#also if you're really graduating w chatgpt essays and going into a field and getting hired and NOBODY notices#that indicates maybe it doesn't actually matter?#I know for a fucking fact engineers need to be able to actually do their jobs to keep them too#cor.txt
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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work#blocked it all out#my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer#breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries#they just diagnosed her two weeks ago#so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends#because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well#but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work#on top of my fulltime#which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it#but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this#for the coming four months at least#so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes#then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week#which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc#i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer#came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry#but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat#bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually#but seeing her anger made me see my own anger#and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic#i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more#so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise#doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal#and i am not joking#so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back
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#tw vent i guess??#came here just to post smth that i'm most probably gonna delete later then leave#but aughhhh last week has been SO bad i really really needed to get it off my chest#had the final boss of a sick victorian child episode for like two weeks AND tons of college stuff to do-#-AND a test on a subject that i'm horrible at (and that i'm gonna fail fs)#AND i was supposed to get a septum which is something that i'd been looking forward to for literal YEARS#but upon telling my parents about it (cause they're kinda strict and ig they would like to know) i changed my mind#cause my mom took it SO personally.... like it was HER face not mine?🤨 but hey!#and although i had the decency to at the very least let her know that i was getting a piercing (which wasn't necessary for me to do but-#-i did it anyway out of consideration for her)#she has the fucking SPINE to tell me how i could do whatever the fuck i wanted if i cared more about getting it than about her opinion-#-but she would always think it was disgusting and that i had no right to get angry at her if she didn't look me in the face or#wanted to walk or be with me cause it'd make her embarrassed to be with me in public if i had that shit on my face.#and it hurts a lot not just bc of the fuckass piercing. but bc my parents (esp my mom) always react like this whenever i make a little-#-change on my appearanceor cut my hair or buy oversized clothes or whateverand like#if she's gonna be soooo hurt when i get a tiny piece of metal on my face. how is she gonna react when i tell her i want to get tattoos.#start taking hormones. change my name. get top and bottom surgery. be completely changed physically.#is she gonna die is the world gonna end. is she just going to stop talking to me forever.#because a piercing is not just a decoration. to me right now it's an extension of the changes i want to undergo on my body.#it's a step forward to looking the way i want too look#so a rejection to any change i do on my body feels like an indirect rejection to be being trans. and the fact that they're unaware of#just how deep their rejection cuts (bc i'm not out) makes me even angrier at them.#and upon the realization that if i ever came out to my mom (and the rest of my family too tbh) she would react *exactly* like this.#well. i did not take that very well.#wasn't very demure of her to say all that. not very mindful not very cutesy :/#also been sh-ing more bc if this and ughhh what a shit week. hope this one's better#also. i decided i'm still gonna get a septum this year. don't know when but fuck all that. it's gonna bother them all the same#no matter what time of the year i get it done. or if i do it in a year or two or five. so who gives a shit.#anyway. gonna delete later probably#📎
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i feel so silly being anxious about my ENT appointment at 930 🥴
#it's a new place new doctor so obvs im stressed#but the dr being a man 🥴🥴 it was a referral so i can't choose 🥴🥴#i think i feel especially stressed bc i have 3 issues i need to talk about and im worried he's gonna get annoyed / brush them off#i've seen an ENT about 1 of these issues back in 2012 and welp my dumb ass didn't bully my parents into letting me get the surgery so#i've been struggling w this shit all this time also i meant 2013 🧍🏽♀️#the other issues are my jaw popping painfully ever since july +#what the hell was the other one#fuck this is why i spent 2 hours writing shit down my memory is so SHIT#throat pain#really bad throat pain that hasn't fucked off since july 2023#it hurts to talk n i haven't been able to sing since last summer. what if i just [rembers no say the thing because Bad] Shit myself#that one appointment in june when i couldn't see my usual doctor and i had to see this other lady this mfer said wELL i dUnNo It'S nOt LiKe#i CAn diAgnOsE yOu wITh a cHronIc SorE ThRoaT hEh#annoying ass doctor no wonder my usual doctor is always booked#pls universe pls let this doctor b a decent person who actually tries 2 help mee#🥴🥴🥴🥴#221am goodbye#scarlett.txt#negative /#WHINYYYYYYY#god i always worry i sound like a paranoid hypochondriac at the doctor's but my body really is like this Please#ugh i still have at least 3 more appointments at 3 new places this year#eye and dermatologist in dec and the other thing once i get off my ass and send in that packet#at least i don't have my monthly follow up w my pcp anymore..#unrelated but i need to buy some new masks in black#and a cardigan#okay that really had nothijgnto do with anything stfu scarlett
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Well, got prescribed cypionate. No idea how much it'll cost, or if insurance will cover it but I kind of don't care? I went through the fucking wringer to get data to prove what I was on wasn't ideal for me. This isn't metaphorical; 2 hours after injection, my levels are ~300. A day after, 500. 2 days after (nominally ~2 hours after peak), 600! 3 days later, 250. Not sure what my actual trough value is yet, but given I get severe nausea below ~350? I'd have to be injecting daily, and that's just not safe for me.
So, fuck it! Cypionate's curves look much smoother, and depending on how I metabolize it I might actually be finally getting close to successfully fine tuning some aspect of my biology :3
#Transition#Estradiol esters#Trying to go as far as I can without using diy suppliers because from what I can see supplies are TIGHT#Although I'm kind of tempted to see how many years supply you can keep on hand without spoilage#Might be prudent? Or at least fun#“oh what's in the safe?” “Enough e to have a village hooked up for a year!”#Fuck having to exchange a not insignificant volume of my blood for my doctor listening to me#The worst part is how despite how fucking burned out I am#I'm doing kind of great?#Like objectively no I'm really not but almost no one is by that metric#But even now while unable to make myself read or write or listen to music#I'm still actually engaged with being present in myself#Given how covid levels are quite literally 130+ times higher than the “total lockdown” levels defined at the beginning of the pandemic#(10k+ cases a day being what we need to stay under to be safe... We're currently pushing 1.3 million a day! Source pmc19.com)#Bottom surgery is. Well I don't want to say a vain hope at this point?#But if I want to keep healthy it may as well be for a while still :(#Anyway mask up#Get your doctor to treat your actual issues not what the reference guide lists as first potential treatment#You can feel like yourself#It's scary and it's worth it
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This being the beginning of my first winter since my top surgery, I have come to a conclusion as the temperature has begun falling. Before putting my conclusion forward, I do want to acknowledge that there are many other factors to consider, including by not limited to:
I am given to understand that it is actually a colder winter than the last few have been (something about El Niño?) and temperatures certainly seemed to take a dive quickly.
Said top surgery was ~3 weeks ago. Much of my body's energy is going towards finishing up the healing process.
Also on that same note, I am regularly packing ice around my upper torso in order to keep swelling down and help with pain management.
All that being said and subsequently ignored, my conclusion is thus:
Body heat is stored in the boobs.
#why am I so cold#i used to walk barefoot in the snow#now I don't want to leave my house without trousers and sandals at least#that autistic need to ruin the joke by explaining it before the punchline even comes out#and then still not being sure it was clear enough and explaining more in the tags#top surgery
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kinda bs that weight gain might make your chest grow but if you lose weight it wouldn't necessarily shrink your chest
#weight mention#tbh 90% of the time i go braless#even with a friend i wouldn't necessarily wear a sports bra#top surgery is too expensive lol#but even so i'd be happy with like a 50% reduction/one cup size down or so /shot#b/c i don't wanna be completely flat/masculine/androgynous#but at the same time i'd still prolly need to lose weight b/c if my chest was flat#it'd make my belly look pregnant if i wore something revealing lol#tho more or less if i live in the south i prolly would have to start wearing a bra or at least sports bra/undershirt again#like i did in high school sincei live in the south and ppl are uptight#although also there'd prolly be creepers staring at my chest either way#or maybe find thicker shirts outside of summer lol#bc otherwise i wouldnt' care#tho tops aside i prolly need more bottoms#bc i prolly can't wear skirts/dresses to a workplace every day even if some places allow shorts lol
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#shit chat#medical cw#meatsuit renno#finally worked up the guts to message the surgeon who did my hysterectomy like#hey i know it's normal to experience pain and stiffness for a while after this surgery like at least a couple months#but uuh. it's been 8 months and i still wake up feeling like shit most days?#pretty sure regular shooting pains where my right ovary used to be aren't normal almost a year after surgery?#like i could be wrong but i feel like i probably shouldn't need 1200mg of painkillers a day to manage constant throbbing abdominal aches#after i've hit the 'maximum recovery window' for this surgery uuh [checks calendar] ...nearly three times?#at least the fatigue has finally started to go away. i feel my vitality returning slowly but steadily#but i'm still not back to my pre-op activity or mobility levels cause OOF OUCH MY ABSOLUTE PELVIS#and i've been noticing an abnormal amount of abdominal bloating that doesn't seem to correlate with indigestion or other factors#and isn't fat from weight gain like i initially thought it was#idk maybe i'm paranoid but i read an article a while ago abt someone who had a 15lb cyst in that nobody noticed for over a year#bc they were AFAB & our pain is chronically underreported and not taken seriously when it is#like did y'all leave some forceps in my gut and now i'm growing a mass around it?? wtf????#idk if i hope it's nothing so i don't have to deal with more medical bullshit or if i hope it's something to legitimize my experience#godddd it would be so satisfying if i got to tell my boss's boss who's been hounding me relentlessly about proformance and Managing Burnout#HEY JACKASS TURNS OUT I'M A VICTIM OF BOTCHED SURGERY AND YOU'RE A DICK FOR NOT GIVING ME ACCOMMODATIONS
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