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snufsnifs · 3 months

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i have broken my ankle :(

#artists on tumblr #silly art #cute #it's been 2 weeks now #still hurts but is nowhere near as bad as it was #i just can't do much yet lol #at least i've got a moonboot now!!#i had a cast for the first week n was non-weight bearing #it was tough ngl #its not even a cool story how i did it #i just went over on my ankle funny in the bathroom #n hit the floor like a sack of spanners #what a silly goose #owell #at least i don't need surgery!

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nipuni · 1 year

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Some photos from yesterday 🍂 we got some house plants and found mushrooms in the park!

#nips photos #personal #sweater weather sweater weather #I also went to the dentist yesterday and I'm almost done with my orthodontics after almost two years!! just two more months #now I look like I have at least 10 more teeth in my mouth for some reason but I'm really happy with the results!!#but then I need to get a molar pulled and two implants and one requires more bone so that's a surgery cool cool cool cool #will I ever be free!! this is all so damn expensive!! but I have an infection in the bone so I have to 🥲#anyway please take care of your teeth don't be like me and let them get to this point 😫#nips blogs

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mitamicah · 10 months

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Not me brainstorming ideas for my post op tattoo (context) like I'd contact the tattoo artist tomorrow and not in a 1,5 year or more

This was where my inspiration took me today I guess :'D

#bold of me going for colour in most of these since none of my other things have colour x'D #after all this is only what ideas I have rn :'D #as mentioned I don't think I'll be able to get a chest tattoo for at least one year and a half #in half a year I've been promised to start appointments with a therapist again about the surgery #then if I'm lucky I'll get approved #and then there's a waitlist on at least a year last I heard #and then I need to heal a bit first #so when we arrive at that point in time who knows if I've better ideas #or if I've changed my mind #I hope to have käärijä in my life for years to come still #or at least feel the same sort of gratitude for him showing me how to love my body and/or feel neutral about it when dysphoria hits #look at me being chatty in the tags yet again #also - these are of course only concepts #I will probably have send the reference picture as well to the tattoo artist if I actually went to find one to do these tomorrow x'D #I hope you like them :3 #I really enjoy number 2 (top left) and 3 (mid)#jere pöyhönen #käärijä #cha cha cha #mine #my own art

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inniave · 5 months

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pharmacies should automatically give you (or at the very least offer) naloxone any time you get an opioid prescription

#and that naloxone should be free #i already keep naloxone in the house but neither the pharmacy or the doctor mentioned it???? which is wild to me #all this shit about controlled substances and “don't get addicted!” but NOTHING about naloxone??????#blows my mind #ur just expecting people to rawdog opioids possibly for the first time in their life post surgery & u offer no harm reduction whatsoever 😳#i don't think this is an individual failing idk how common this knowledge is this is definitely systemic #they didn't teach it to us even working in healthcare on surgery recovery wards?????#i remember sitting in class listening about opioids and when it got to the end of the lecture the prof still hadn't said #anything about naloxone i asked them about it and they said “what?” and i was like 😟 uhhhhhh #yk #the life saving overdose reversing medication 😭#and everyone in the class just looked at me n prof was like “why do u know that” and i was like “why wouldn't u teach about it”#WILD #we didnt even have any not locked in med stations and the nurses on these rehab wards sucked #so i always kept at least a one in my scrub pockets #anyway naloxone is really fucking important!!!!!! u can usually find some for free in ur county #i used to have a whole thing abkht where to get free naloxone and needles and stuff i need to find that #harm reduction #naloxone #opioids

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talkorsomething · 3 months

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I have Got to get more transgender

#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ #transmasc #trans ftm #transgender #i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever #so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL #it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks #such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also #or like. exist in general maybe #reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically #idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again #i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this #i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian #like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty #miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes #partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it #as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once #didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.

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gxlden-angels · 1 year

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I hate hearing about the Quiverfull movement. I hate hearing about it politically. I hate hearing about it from people who don't know anything about it. I hate hearing about it from people who only know the Duggars. I hate hearing about it from people who grew up next to it, but not in it. I hate hearing about it from women stuck in it right now. I hate hearing about it from women who were stuck in it. I hate the Quiverfull movement and I hate hearing about it.

#It got mentioned in the latest episode of Some More News and I'm so fucking upset #not by the video but just the concept cause it's with pictures of the Duggars and Im like #idk #it makes me feel weirdly hopeless #Im getting top surgery probably sometime this year if the surgeons approve me in a couple weeks #and I plan on getting a hysterectomy at some point for my endometriosis #which I know isn't a cure but it'll help #I don't plan to have kids but my family follows the Quiverfull idea #they aren't in the movement itself but they definitely follow the idea of be fruitful and multiply #I talked with my grandmother recently about my birth control implant and she joked about how if they had those back in the day #she would've stopped at 3 kids #she had 6 and says she wanted 12 #at least #She stopped because another child would've killed her #and 6 children need 2 parents #but she joked about stopping at 3 then sighed and looked out distantly #and said well no I wouldn't have used it. I had to trust the lord with how many children I have #my nana is 81 years old but she is Alive and Kicking #I haven't seen her this tired since my grandfather was in the hospital #and I know she doesn't regret having her 6 kids #she loves her dozens of grands and great grands #but she's tired #and she was tired back then #I see it in my dad too. He was the oldest #He does what he needs to do then finds his little area to rest. He was parentified #he had to help raise the rest and escaped to college when he could #I'm an only child biologically. I have 6 stepsiblings. I helped take care of them at 11 years old #and the cycle continues #ex christian #religious trauma

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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 5 months

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

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scarlettcryptid · 16 days

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i feel so silly being anxious about my ENT appointment at 930 🥴

#it's a new place new doctor so obvs im stressed #but the dr being a man 🥴🥴 it was a referral so i can't choose 🥴🥴#i think i feel especially stressed bc i have 3 issues i need to talk about and im worried he's gonna get annoyed / brush them off #i've seen an ENT about 1 of these issues back in 2012 and welp my dumb ass didn't bully my parents into letting me get the surgery so #i've been struggling w this shit all this time also i meant 2013 🧍🏽‍♀️#the other issues are my jaw popping painfully ever since july +#what the hell was the other one #fuck this is why i spent 2 hours writing shit down my memory is so SHIT #throat pain #really bad throat pain that hasn't fucked off since july 2023 #it hurts to talk n i haven't been able to sing since last summer. what if i just [rembers no say the thing because Bad] Shit myself #that one appointment in june when i couldn't see my usual doctor and i had to see this other lady this mfer said wELL i dUnNo It'S nOt LiKe #i CAn diAgnOsE yOu wITh a cHronIc SorE ThRoaT hEh #annoying ass doctor no wonder my usual doctor is always booked #pls universe pls let this doctor b a decent person who actually tries 2 help mee #🥴🥴🥴🥴#221am goodbye #scarlett.txt #negative /#WHINYYYYYYY #god i always worry i sound like a paranoid hypochondriac at the doctor's but my body really is like this Please #ugh i still have at least 3 more appointments at 3 new places this year #eye and dermatologist in dec and the other thing once i get off my ass and send in that packet #at least i don't have my monthly follow up w my pcp anymore..#unrelated but i need to buy some new masks in black #and a cardigan #okay that really had nothijgnto do with anything stfu scarlett

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flaskoflethe · 1 month

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Well, got prescribed cypionate. No idea how much it'll cost, or if insurance will cover it but I kind of don't care? I went through the fucking wringer to get data to prove what I was on wasn't ideal for me. This isn't metaphorical; 2 hours after injection, my levels are ~300. A day after, 500. 2 days after (nominally ~2 hours after peak), 600! 3 days later, 250. Not sure what my actual trough value is yet, but given I get severe nausea below ~350? I'd have to be injecting daily, and that's just not safe for me.

So, fuck it! Cypionate's curves look much smoother, and depending on how I metabolize it I might actually be finally getting close to successfully fine tuning some aspect of my biology :3

#Transition #Estradiol esters #Trying to go as far as I can without using diy suppliers because from what I can see supplies are TIGHT #Although I'm kind of tempted to see how many years supply you can keep on hand without spoilage #Might be prudent? Or at least fun #“oh what's in the safe?” “Enough e to have a village hooked up for a year!”#Fuck having to exchange a not insignificant volume of my blood for my doctor listening to me #The worst part is how despite how fucking burned out I am #I'm doing kind of great?#Like objectively no I'm really not but almost no one is by that metric #But even now while unable to make myself read or write or listen to music #I'm still actually engaged with being present in myself #Given how covid levels are quite literally 130+ times higher than the “total lockdown” levels defined at the beginning of the pandemic #(10k+ cases a day being what we need to stay under to be safe... We're currently pushing 1.3 million a day! Source pmc19.com)#Bottom surgery is. Well I don't want to say a vain hope at this point?#But if I want to keep healthy it may as well be for a while still :(#Anyway mask up #Get your doctor to treat your actual issues not what the reference guide lists as first potential treatment #You can feel like yourself #It's scary and it's worth it

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levinserra · 10 months

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This being the beginning of my first winter since my top surgery, I have come to a conclusion as the temperature has begun falling. Before putting my conclusion forward, I do want to acknowledge that there are many other factors to consider, including by not limited to:

I am given to understand that it is actually a colder winter than the last few have been (something about El Niño?) and temperatures certainly seemed to take a dive quickly.

Said top surgery was ~3 weeks ago. Much of my body's energy is going towards finishing up the healing process.

Also on that same note, I am regularly packing ice around my upper torso in order to keep swelling down and help with pain management.

All that being said and subsequently ignored, my conclusion is thus:

Body heat is stored in the boobs.

#why am I so cold #i used to walk barefoot in the snow #now I don't want to leave my house without trousers and sandals at least #that autistic need to ruin the joke by explaining it before the punchline even comes out #and then still not being sure it was clear enough and explaining more in the tags #top surgery

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dummerjan · 2 years

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embroidery I did for a friend earlier this year I hope that one day I will be able to say that to myself

#meins #embroidery #at least today my therapist still showed her willingness to provide me with an indication #i was so scared she'd rescind her support #it is gonna take a long time still #i first need her writing to even get an appointment with a surgeon #who knows how long the waiting lists are for that nevermind an actual surgery #and i don't even want to think about contacting my insurance for coverage #but i am determined that i will have top surgery one way or another #and if i pay for it myself so what

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miss-floral-thief · 1 year

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kinda bs that weight gain might make your chest grow but if you lose weight it wouldn't necessarily shrink your chest

#weight mention #tbh 90% of the time i go braless #even with a friend i wouldn't necessarily wear a sports bra #top surgery is too expensive lol #but even so i'd be happy with like a 50% reduction/one cup size down or so /shot #b/c i don't wanna be completely flat/masculine/androgynous #but at the same time i'd still prolly need to lose weight b/c if my chest was flat #it'd make my belly look pregnant if i wore something revealing lol #tho more or less if i live in the south i prolly would have to start wearing a bra or at least sports bra/undershirt again #like i did in high school sincei live in the south and ppl are uptight #although also there'd prolly be creepers staring at my chest either way #or maybe find thicker shirts outside of summer lol #bc otherwise i wouldnt' care #tho tops aside i prolly need more bottoms #bc i prolly can't wear skirts/dresses to a workplace every day even if some places allow shorts lol

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dreamlogic · 2 years

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#shit chat #medical cw #meatsuit renno #finally worked up the guts to message the surgeon who did my hysterectomy like #hey i know it's normal to experience pain and stiffness for a while after this surgery like at least a couple months #but uuh. it's been 8 months and i still wake up feeling like shit most days?#pretty sure regular shooting pains where my right ovary used to be aren't normal almost a year after surgery?#like i could be wrong but i feel like i probably shouldn't need 1200mg of painkillers a day to manage constant throbbing abdominal aches #after i've hit the 'maximum recovery window' for this surgery uuh [checks calendar] ...nearly three times?#at least the fatigue has finally started to go away. i feel my vitality returning slowly but steadily #but i'm still not back to my pre-op activity or mobility levels cause OOF OUCH MY ABSOLUTE PELVIS #and i've been noticing an abnormal amount of abdominal bloating that doesn't seem to correlate with indigestion or other factors #and isn't fat from weight gain like i initially thought it was #idk maybe i'm paranoid but i read an article a while ago abt someone who had a 15lb cyst in that nobody noticed for over a year #bc they were AFAB & our pain is chronically underreported and not taken seriously when it is #like did y'all leave some forceps in my gut and now i'm growing a mass around it?? wtf????#idk if i hope it's nothing so i don't have to deal with more medical bullshit or if i hope it's something to legitimize my experience #godddd it would be so satisfying if i got to tell my boss's boss who's been hounding me relentlessly about proformance and Managing Burnout #HEY JACKASS TURNS OUT I'M A VICTIM OF BOTCHED SURGERY AND YOU'RE A DICK FOR NOT GIVING ME ACCOMMODATIONS

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bobmckenzie · 1 year

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apart from my most recent addition of Adam, i just realized of all my romantic f/o's (that aren't oc's) the most recent piece of media that one of them is from is 2003?? skdjfkjdsf i dont even know why this is funny.

#i mean it makes sense bc most of the stuff i watch is from the 80s or 90s #i just didn't realize this affects my f/o list so heavily LOL #still need to add adam to my carrd but i might wait until i finish watching the show which UNFORTUNATELY will be soon 😭#i don't want it to be over 😭😭😭#im immediately doing a rewatch to make hella gifs LOL #i'll be resting a lot after surgery so it's good timing at least #caitiechat

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fantasy-costco · 2 years

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Currently experiencing fucking insane medical anxiety about my dentist appointment on Monday. Kind of losing my mind

#I have at at least five big deal cavities #Two of which are 1) huge and 2) on my gum line so I'm afraid I'll need actual oral surgery for them #And probably way more problems I don't know about #It'll be my first dentist appointment in years for financial reasons #And the receptionist already told me they'll definitely have to inject local numbing stuff so that's. Needles.#I sobbed over this for like a straight hour before work this morning #I know it's necessary and I'm honestly excited to finally get these issues fixed #But medical phobias are a bitch.#Idk. If anyone wants to share similar experiences that would calm me down I'd love to hear it #But only if you really want to

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aro-aizawa · 2 years

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the fact that i really love doing organisational stuff is literally the only thing that does not align with adhd and i feel like a sham when i say “man i really love organising stuff!!!” lol doesn’t mean that i’m good at sticking to it and i doing it super often. i just,,, i really like how satisfying it is, and its way easier to do organising digitally for example all this to say that i fkn love spending hours on end rearranging files and setting up a system so that my files look so neat

#shut up danni #anyways i've been putting music on my phone for the past idk couple weeks #and its going SO GOOD it's slow going atm bc wow there is a lot of songs i want to download #some of them i'd already downloaded but my meticulous nature when it comes to organising means im editing metadata for them #so uhhhh 3k+ songs? yeah that's gonna take a while lol #im gonna be downloading literally everything that i can think of #like game soundtracks show soundtracks anime soundtracks cover artist songs literally everything #i got 500gb memory for a reason and if i don't fill at least 20% of it up with music then what is even the point #adhd things #but yeah i also know that adhd people are not a monolith so dw i know im not faking having adhd #i think i'm in the process of getting that diagnosed i can't remember #i'm doing a bunch of things that needs referrals at my doctors lol #one of them being trans stuff so fingers crossed i can find a way to get top surgery on the nhs before terfs shut that down #there's no way i'll be able to afford it privately so i'm gonna have to wait to be able to do it on the nhs sigh #but yeah my hopes are not v high in the first place because five years ago i got misdiagnosed and my identity brushed off so like :)

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