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cry-ptidd · 4 months ago

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This is a bit out of the blue but I just wanted you to know that the way you draw your OC genuinely makes me feel better about my body in a way nothing else ever has. I used to be pretty over weight and even though I lost most of it I still have a lot of extra skin on my gut area and like her I've always been a pretty busty girl. Seeing you celebrate that kind of body in your OC is just... I have no words. Thank you ❤️

I don't think you understand how happy this makes me, that my art helped you feel a bit better about your body.

I've struggled with body dysmorphia for so long, and I've learned to accept my body and to see each appearance as a gift and one's unique character design, so to speak.

The extra skin/fat in the gut especially is something that a lot of people (especially women) struggle with, and I personally think that's a crime considering how cool I think it looks. A large bust is also somehow both "celebrated" by society by being sexualized and then in the same vein people will be made fun of their chest when it looks anything other than conventionally hot (ie when it sags, etc)

Laura is supposed to be an evil character but her body is not what makes her evil. It is just a part of her (one that she got hurt for), and one's body shouldn't be punished for its appearance. It's doing its best for you.

#ask response #laura chastel #my art #cw nonsexual nudity #asks like this make me emotional a bit #ummm it's the inherent solidarity of people and the want to uplift each other when in need ☝️🤓#i hope you're doing good anon and I wish you the very best with good health for you and your loved ones #have a very nice day

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lunarharp · 1 year ago

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if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!!#i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!!#I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE!#tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood.#Why do you keep pulling away from me?#It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“#oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!!#........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

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puppyeared · 4 months ago

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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION #listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc #time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our #own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that #and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt #wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal #whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it #i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in #the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time #but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every #day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more #of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts #i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head #than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well #being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own #like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it #and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo #and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience #the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes #no offense krobus #yapping #stardew #stardew valley #puppy plays sdv #sdv #this game has me by the ankles man

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bitternace · 11 months ago

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how about ... 14! and either xion or namine ... or both even

you find shelter somewhere in me, i find real comfort in you

[ID: a digital drawing of xion and naminé from kingdom hearts. the background is mostly transparent, with a purple splatter with straight edges and three white lines on the lower half, which they seem to be sitting on.

they are beside each other in mirrored poses, inner legs slightly behind the other. naminé's eyes are closed and her shoulders are tense. xion's mouth is slightly open and her only visible eye stares down at the middle, where their hands are intertwined. /End ID.]

#jesperr-fahey #hi!!#allowing two characters for one song because you're pretty cool and also because the lyric i INSTANTLY thought of for this one #kickdropped me in the teeth :]#this one came in late because holidays and general home happenstances #as usual i did too much so this is the one that has taken the longest asfhshfhdhd ty for the patience<3 #if u see me give up on foreshortening no u didn't i tried my best!!#i finally bit the bullet and figured out a face for xion for this ask and this ask only (half jesting) because it looked better like this #(originally xion was leaning back on nams but i couldn't make the face angle work)#nano does reqs #naminé and xion's whole thing makes me incredibly emotional.... ty for ur time #described #my doods #14 #...... hehehehe #naminé #xion

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giddlygoat · 4 months ago

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Hey about the ghost Luigi au. But. Would he fade with time? Or would he be forced to watch everyone’s lives continue without him? Would he be forced to watch his friends and brother die? Cause that’s angsty as hell my dude

oh, he’s in it for the long haul. i think after time has done its damage, he would go from being inconsolable to a long period of complete and utter shutdown. who knows, maybe he takes to scaring folks in the end. at some point, that becomes the only thing a ghost can really offer, right? when connection is that temporary it loses its meaning. the only way he can touch the real world anymore is through fear.

or you know, he could fulfill his dying wish and ascend to the afterlife. i want him to have a happy ending in one universe or another

#unfortunately luigi has always had very little sense of identity on his own #he relies on others to essentially shape him because he’s so deeply insecure. he people pleases impulsively you know #without mario he doesn’t even know who he is #once mario is gone luigi feels utterly sealed off from everyone. in an emotional sense #as far as luigi’s concerned he simply does not exist without mario #and like. i don’t necessarily mean that in the “luigi is mario’s shadow” way [although that’s a small part of it]#i mean that in the way that twins who are that close have extremely codependent souls #and you need them to live. honestly #this makes it sounds like i believe luigi has no personality or goals or principles which is not true. yes he IS his own person of course #and it’s not like he COULDN’T reach his own true potential and find peace and contentment in a lonesome life!#but i don’t think he will. he’s just not equipped for it and honestly? i think he’s so absorbed in the grief that he just doesn’t want to #it feels too much like moving on. and how could he ever really move on?#uh. damn okay. this is making me need to call my twin bro. this is getting me in the gizzard a bit /lh silly #asks #ididntwantobeaglader #ghost luigi au #no id #giddly’s art #i didn’t even make this art for your ask btw i just had it lying around and was like “OH this applies to your question!!”#thank you for the ask!!!

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shikai-the-storyteller · 11 months ago

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I'm not a huge fan of the Tazercraft mental link headcanon (it's just not my cup of tea personally), HOWEVER—

I can't stop thinking about Pac in Alcatraz with his back to the wall as Cell approaches him with a cold smile on his face and a bloody knife in one hand, and Pac completely blocking Mike out because he knows something terrible is about to happen, and if he can't save himself then maybe he can at least spare Mike the graphic gory details.

And even when he’s lying on the cold concrete floor in a pool of his own blood, Pac is still trying to block everything out so he doesn't project his pain to Mike through their mental link. But ultimately, that's what scares Mike the most — the sharp flash of Pac's terror for an instant, and then silence.

#i talk #qsmp talk #I wonder if he thought Pac was dead #I wonder if Mike did the same thing when he was kidnapped and tortured by the Federation #Something about phrasing the mental link like THAT makes the idea a tiny bit more appealing to me #emotions rather than outright thoughts #but idk the whole concept of having someone else in your head is a personal squick of mine. I'd hate that.#The only exception is like frickin. The drift compatibility thing #But even that is a bit iffy. I still personally would never do that #As far as fan work or stories in general go - it depends entirely on how people write it #but as a whole I'm pretty '' :/ '' about the concept #This idea wouldn't leave my head though #tw blood mention #blood mention #ask to tag #you know the drill #fic talk

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moeblob · 8 months ago

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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

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dyketennant · 1 month ago

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oh i can already tell i’m about to have some really unpopular opinions about the edge of sleep tv show

#i remember everyone loving the podcast when it came out #but as someone who was an active fan of audio dramas and podcasts for years at that point the show just. made me frustrated #i realized later after listening to left right game that qcode has this very strange and almost uncanny production behind it #where they get incredibly famous actors to play characters and then bank their marketing on that alone #and the writing is always *almost* good. like sometimes you start to think you might actually be listening to a good show #bc i mean the audio quality and special effects are all stellar #but then the writing and acting is always just a little bit too over-the-top and dramatic for it to feel natural #like the writers don’t know how to portray emotion without visuals so they just make everything Way Too Intense #and each time it feels like they just ask ‘what’s the most insane thing that can happen next?’#’oh ok he’s gonna chop dave’s dick off’#and every time you start to actually like a character they say something misogynistic or just otherwise batshit fucking insane #not to mention that time in left right game where a girl confessed her love to her best friend before LITERALLY DYING FOR HER #only for the best friend in the next scene to be like ‘erm i’m not gay 😐 awkward…’ and she’s NEVER BROUGHT UP AGAIN #qcode productions are kinda like the fast fashion of fiction podcasts i think #they churn out so many so quickly and they always feel just slightly unnatural or superficial #not to mention when i tried looking into them years ago and it’s impossible to find #literally anything about them. like their minimalist ass website was so insanely insanely vague #and yet clearly they’ve gotta have a fuck ton of money backing them to have this absurd amount of a-list talent on board #(which really i think that is all they care about)#anyways yeah some markiplier fans are gonna get pissed at me for not kissing the ground he walks on. but i was one of you. i AM one of you #and i hate that somebody out there is holding the iron lung movie over us like we’re dogs and if we wanna watch it #we gotta watch this show. which BTW they are giving no details about where to watch it #and seemingly no promotion or marketing material for a show that’s been in production for years coming out in less than 3 weeks #just weird as fuck man. and i don’t even think mark has much to do with it

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crossbackpoke-check · 2 months ago

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Looks like that video is about a month & a half after The Trade and trevors broken ankle 😣

re: this video… anon 😭 i had suspicions but it is so much worse to have them confirmed that really was like. trevor’s first Public Appearance without jamie AND post-broken ankle which is traumatic in and of itself no wonder every beat reporter was like ‘oh yeah trevor’s just devastated’

wouldn’t you be miserable too if your best friend just got traded and your body betrayed you and what if it was maybe all your fault!!!

#bestie thank you so much for fact-checking me 🙏🙏🥰🥰 i love when y’all come in my inbox & answer the questions i yell into the void of my tag #we are Suffering about trevor TOGETHER in this house. if i scrolled all the way to the bottom of my drafts i think i could find even more #heartbreaking content from before The Trade but we don’t need to suffer that much otherwise the penguin cup of tea is really irish coffee #confirms ALL of my theories about miserable trevor leaning into mason for comfort because in some universes that’s THEIR boyfriend who left #liv in the replies #trevor zegras #mason mctavish #need to go lay on the floor about this one folks. do you think trevor said he would only do it if mason came if he could sit next to mason #right at the end where people were rushing out not stopping to talk tired by the end of the line and not even thinking just to guarantee he #wouldn’t get asked anything because he still has a hard time believing it’s real he keeps thinking jamie’ll be there especially w/his ankle #i’m sure he doesn’t have a great time with stairs so he probably will nap on the couch sometimes and that moment right when he first wakes #up to the bang of the door and he doesn’t quite know he’s awake yet and he thinks it’s jamie coming in? heartbreaker right there bud. sorry #ALSO because I can’t say it and leave it alone I almost put that last bit strictly in the tags but like. there’s gotta be some part of #trevor that knows it’s nothing to do with him but still naïvely believes that if he’d maybe been there if he hadn’t been injured things #could have worked out differently if he’d been there and it’s his fault his ankle broke and do you remember all the interviews jamie gave #about how you never think you’ll be traded and how strange it is to be moving and now i need you to take that naïveté times 1000 for trevor #who of course he never even pictures jamie leaving they were building the core together!!! why would they ever get rid of him!! and if only #trevor had been there to show how important jamie was. what would he have done? literally nothing but that does not stop the emotional guil #from enveloping trevor like a rain cloud and making him sit in mason’s apartment with ice cream bowl in hand. holistic treatment l

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sneezefiction · 20 days ago

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had a panic attack for the first time in 2 years tonight.

right in front of all my coworkers (all male). thankfully it was right before closing, so i just waited 20min before returning to FOH.

surprisingly, all my coworkers were actually nice and didn’t make me feel gross or awkward. i feel shitty but i’m grateful for kind people.

#tw panic attack #i just appreciated how they handled it — they were blunt about asking if i had an anxiety/panic attack #but didn’t make a big deal out of it #and just helped me finish everything they could #they didn’t push for details but asked if it had to do with mistakes/build up of emotion #very calm reaction to big emotions #lowkey might have healed my soul a tiny bit #felt like ‘venting’ here

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longagoitwastuesday · 2 months ago

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Kusakabe, dear, you're too beautiful to be saying that kind of stuff

#jjk spoilers #All the prettiest characters were brought back from apparent death #Nobara was okay and it's true that when I read the lawyer's and Kusakabe's fights against Sukuna I thought it was being kept vague #but to pull a Nobara with all of them... idk #No one stays dead here except for the people who actually care for the kids and by that I mean 'including Yuuji'#kinda lowkey bitter about it #Don't get me wrong I like the characters and also they're super pretty but idk It makes death feel cheap? And the high stakes kinda fake?#Choso Gojo and Nanami actual only characters who died apparently #Well. Poor Itadori #And Kusukabe goes and runs his mouth that way in front of the kid. He is not entirely wrong but also he very much is #And yes he also says 'don't worry it's not for you to feel guilty over anything you're just kids' but also he did very much say that thing #about it all being Gojo's fault for not killing Itadori. In front of Itadori who feels guilty for that precisely #and in front of Megumi who asked Gojo to spare him and also went through the experience of Sukuna using his body as well #So Kusukabe's reassurance about them just being kids and not to feel guilty falls a bit empty #It does feel in character but man it truly makes one appreciate the way Gojo and Nanami dealt with the kids a lot more haha #Ui Ui seems like a dear #Anyway... this chapter felt a bit lame for the most part for me? I like the idea of the characters discussing the could have/would have #and feeling guilt and helplessness over their choices but the way it was done felt a bit lame and without any real emotional punch #It felt more like an explanation to the reader in an awkward way. And there's a lot of empty chat about guilt and grief #without any of the characters really giving off a grieving air about everything and everyone they've lost #And this is precisely what I felt was going to happen with this manga's writing haha #I truly don't understand this kind of writing choices. Contrary to some other shonen writers this author did seem to have the potential #to write this kind of thing well besides the worldbuilding and powers and fight stuff. It's truly a pity. It so breaks my heart #And still this is considered one of the good shonens. Well. WELL haha #I do think shonen can be good! I just think it falls almost always even when there's potential into bery shallow writing #I don't know. Maybe I should read that one Alchemist manga #I've been repeatedly told that one's good and it does seem like it doesn't do... this. But I find the art style so not to my linking #I wish I had never gotten into JJK for real for real. I absolutely adore it. I always end up frustrated. It could be so good. Genuinely good #And yet it's just okay in a sort of forgettable way. What a pity #Everything good ever is present but it never dares do anything to fully explore what it sets. It just does the typical shonen stuff

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ox1-lovesick · 8 months ago

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hi

#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow)#is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER)#I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

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ghastigiggles · 2 months ago

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IN THE MOST LIKE. /nm /npa WAY, PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THIS WRONG OR NEGATIVELY

I’ve noticed that you tend to like …. ask us if it’s okay to do certain things? and like, that’s totally fine and acceptable, but … like. this is YOUR blog, it is whatever you want it to be, you can post whatever, and if people don’t like that then they can just ….. idk, unfollow lol?

if you want to keep a following, sure, then you are 100% free to do what makes you believe you will keep it, HOWEVER if you don’t mind, then you can just do what you want, right ?

you’re not here to entertain anybody if you don’t want to. it’s always your choice to make, and you deserve to have it

ah but you misunderstand. my self-worth is directly tied to the validation of whether people recieve my products well or not! /hj

#jibber jabber #not tickles #serious #?#maybe delete later #i sat with this ask for a little while i'm ngl #and like. i'm gonna trauma-fart a little bit in the tags here since i know not as many people look these days #the fun part of having adhd and rejection-sensitive dysphoria is that my emotion and logic is consistently at odds #logically. yes. you're right! i can do whatever i want on my blog!#emotionally. i love the engagement. and if im not making something that people enjoy what's the point #i am a little jester on a stage and making people happy makes me happy #but not everything that makes me happy makes the audience happy #so the dopamine gets halved #if that makes sense #ew. sorry i hate getting real especially here #but i figure a candid ask like this deserves a candid answer #and i appreciate the sentiment! i really do /gen #as an aside i am fully aware that this isn't like. healthy. necessarily.#again. emotions v logic thing. its a constant struggle. sometimes its harder than others #ew ew ew ok no more seriousness i'm so sorry

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puppyeared · 1 year ago

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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

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peppermintbutch · 2 months ago

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gaaah

#hung out w my dear friend today and she made bolognaise for us and we watched a movie #and we are so close now we cuddle a lot and almost held hands on the couch today helppp #i am so confused it's like kind of good that it's not clearly romantic or platonic bcs idk what i want either just that i like her a lot #it's so good but also bringing all my internalized homophobia and intimacy and shame issues to the surface again agrgarg #i have to be very gentle and patient with myself!#i am not a good emotional communicator a lot of things make me embarrassed and tense up and mentally disengage from the situation #and I've realized it's like almost impossible for me to ask for any kind of affection. but i think i am learning a little bit maybe #just feels very vulnerable and scary :-( it feels like everyone else already overcame their issues w this and I'm so late it's embarrassing #anyway sorry extremely personal i am too embarrassed to write in a journal just to myself and this is somehow better

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wayfinderships · 1 year ago

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Good morning gamers!! Hope you're all doing well! As for me, I'm thinking about this bastard again-

#pan rambles #He looks good-I MEAN HAHA DID Y'ALL HEAR SOMETHING?#Jokes aside though. Knowing what a fashion disaster S.anji can be... I'm pleasantly surprised his egghead arc outfit isn't awful #I was fully prepared to have some awful color combo but it's actually nice #Blue and Yellow... That's also my s/is color scheme ahem-#talking about anythind related to the end of Wano or anything past that makes me 👉👈 A bit #Bc Panchi/S.anji officially start dating at the end of Wano #“Panchi did it really take over 1000 chapters?-” YES IT DID #They're both stubborn idiots who struggle to put their emotions into words! especially feelings of affection!#They'd sooner take a deadly hit for the other than admit they like each other! and the fact the two are so stubborn doesn't help #They're both incredibly flawed but they both grow to the point where my s/i can finally confess-#Ahem that was long ny apologies!#Ask me about S.anji/Panchi and you'll get a whole essay and sometimes even some of my writing-#I'm so normal about these two (Lying)

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