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mystery-pixels · 3 months

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more houses...lot's more houses

i've been obsessively making move in ready homes for my save and i'm so happy with them! (the price though for these are not starter homes prices unfortunately lol)

#sims 3 #sims 3 screenshots #sims 3 build #ts3 build #ts3 screenshots #i cannot stress enough how much this is the sims 3 #black simmer #black simblr #ts3 #thank fuck for zillow #it's 3d tour option for some houses helped so much #like i really got bored with just like new construction home floor plans #there wasn't much variety #but with homes that are already built you get so many different floor plans #ender falls #i just love weird floor plans

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thankstothe · 6 months

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#house md #gregory house #james wilson #screencap #s07e01 “Now What?”#one of the thing that bothered me about canon huddy #is it feels too close to the unrealness of s5 finale #just huddy becoming canon does not feel like it would be enough to offset all the issues house had building up in s6 finale #hes not even a bit bitter about wilson throwing him out anymore and it certainly wasn't just a cover for huddy #left unresolved #last patient's death unresolved (you can say it delayed if youre a pedant)#the overall stress from that wrecked building - unresolved #all this skipped overnight #even more of a rocky start to this relationship would be better #cuddy too #this is so ooc for both of them #like their characters got reset #i do wonder how proper huddy would look like in canon #like it wouldnt work long term either #but in s7 it just went too smooth #what does cuddy even gets out of it besides the initial thrill?#she is a freak and workaholic in a completely different way to house #literal mother #and an authoruty figure #they would clash so bad so fast it would be glorious #maybe it would be better if she didnt make it and house was already back on vicodin in the bathroom #also would give deniability to ooc moments #dont mind me *watching perfect house md in my brain*

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goldkirk · 8 months

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I'm so proud of myself about finances in the past couple months. I still struggle with money but I did enough meditation and journaling and practicing about it to make myself able to actually face my loans and credit cards and savings and bills and start really truly organizing and addressing them for the first time in years instead of just flying by the seat of my pants.

Like. This is a huge deal for me. I've felt like I'm in deadly danger every time I've tried to think about money for years and years. I'm finally able to look it in the face and stare it down and start to organize and plan on purpose instead of just keeping up with the minimum to stay afloat. I'm so proud of myself.

It's still a refrain of "GUILT (funny link)" every time I think about money but I'm able to actually make spreadsheets and face the numbers and monthly tracking again, and even make a new full budget which I haven't been able to do in ages.

still feel guilt, overwhelm, and helplessness, but no longer feel as much deep elemental shame and terror. that's progress baby

#we don't need to talk about how many months and months of therapy visits and doctor appointments I put on credit cards #among other things #but I had to put my foot down about it a couple months ago and shout at myself a little saying HEY #I AM SHAKING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS I AM SHOUTING FOR YOU TO HEAR #OF COURSE IT WAS A TERRIBLE FINANCIAL DECISION BUT YOU WEREN'T EVEN EXPECTING TO BE ALIVE #THE CREDIT CARD DEBT WAS NECESSARY TO KEEP YOU ALIVE AND IT DID AND EVERYTHING ELSE IS WAY LESS IMPORTANT THAN THAT #why the FUCK are you feeling SO ASHAMED for making the best decision you knew how to make at the time???#just because you know NOW that you could have tried some other options doesn't mean you did THEN #you may have known enough to feel shame and guilt yes but you would never in a million years have gotten the help you needed fast enough #by attempting to go another route #you didn't trust anyone besides a very few handfuls of people and even them it wasn't fully #and the stress of running it through parental insurance was so terrifying to you bc you didn't know what that would do #and you never had cosigners for anything your whole adult life. it's OKAY #you fucking DID YOUR BEST #YOU HAVE LEARNED. YOU HAVE MADE CHANGES. YOU HAVE ALREADY DONE BETTER #YOU WILL CONTINUE TO LEARN AND IMPROVE OVER TIME #it is not the end of the world. even the utilities sending you to debt collections etc etc #YOU ARE FIGURING IT OUT ONE PIECE AT A TIME #MORE PEOPLE ARE ASHAMED AND AFRAID OF THEIR OWN FINANCES THAN YOU THINK #if the people who fought and argued with and shamed you for considering student loans much less taking them out #had wanted you to actually be financially safer and healthier #they could have just fucking helped out or cosigned your loans or actively helped you find other solutions #instead of spending months and months telling you it was the worst decision ever and would ruin you financially for decades and such #you made the best decisions you could with the level of terror and knowledge that you had. it was enough to keep you alive.#isn't that enough?#isn't it a victory to survive?? isn't that enough??????#god i'm cringing at sharing this but if it's been this hard for me surely at LEAST one of you has also made financial mistakes or regrets #and seeing me be honest that I fucked it all up too and it's a mess and I'm just climbing back through it as best as I can as I go #will hopefully make at least one of you feel a tiny bit less alone

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forcedhesitation · 5 months

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*wheeze* slowly, but surely, working on art of them all

#bg3 #myart #wip #I want to make every tav/companion pairing I have a dedicated. fancy piece.#these started with a concept for a wyll drawing that was very...storybook! inspired.#I would have been done all the linework for these two pieces by now had my weekend gone better :/#I was violently unwell for...about a week and a half? chronic illness bullshit. had started to feel better friday of last week...#...unfortunately fate had it that the weekend ended up being particularly stressful. so the pain returned anew.#it was. somewhat better today. but still not enough for me to really be productive in my free time :(#I will try to complete the linework tomorrow if all goes well. I really would like to start colouring them!#I have delightful colour schemes chosen...#gale/illamin piece has already been sketched in a notebook. once I finish these two- I will begin lining theirs!#illamin's connects to cadence's because they're intertwined like that. but I have yet to finish planning out cadence's piece.#I've gone back and forth on who I should romance with him...the thing with any of the companions is that they are all written to be-#-immensely compatible with each other. so writing a tav FOR a specific companion is a bit hard. often the tav could fit with any of them.#hell. I'm STILL working out details of jantar and corydalis' story & characters. because I can't be normal about this.#that aside- I DO have other. finished pieces...finally.#well. I had some long before... but I didn't want to post them because I wasn't happy with them.#so I went and finished new stuff that I DO like.#4. technically 5 drawings. all horror/horror adjacent in theme.#my extremely detailed hux painting is also NEARLY done. after months upon months of work.#and I continue to slowly chip away at the big scifi themed dbd piece I've had in progress.#I really never run out of things to draw and it's a bit torturous because I never have the time or energy to draw everything...

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decisions-at-3am · 1 month

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You think you're in control, Pushing away all your pain. Don't you realise they've noticed? This has all been in vain.

#writerscreed #spilled ink #dark academia #spilled poetry #original poem #my poetry #original poetry #poem #poets on tumblr #writers and poets #poetry #short poem #sad poem #my poem #poems on tumblr #poems and poetry #female writers #writers on tumblr #writeblr #inspired bc earlier this year my sister saw the sh scars on my thigh (my fault i wore a skirt with a slit and i wasn't careful enough)#but anyways i have been super paranoid since #and i have a few scars on my arms (not v. big/deep) but they gleam a really pinky/white which rly contrasts against my skin #anyways i recently visited my extended family for 3 wks and they're hella observant so I have been !stressed! :/#and my uncle was asking why i'm so stressed (last year he asked if i was depressed) - he's so lovely but omfg i was so scared they'd realis #anyways i wrote this about the futility i felt bc i'm so scared they'll all find out one day even though i've already hidden it for 5 years

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fansids · 1 year

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Welp, I've finished the season 4 special...

Anyway-

#the finale wasn't bad btw. It's just it coupled with season 4 and 3 has me tired #I'm sure a lot of people like it #I'm honestly just really tired #I think I've just fallen deeply out of love with lmk #which is sad cause it had me by a chokehold for years #I could rant but I no longer like the show enough to give such an emotional response #Season 3 was already very high stakes and emotional. Season 4 did not need to be #even if I agreed with all the decisions they made. Having 2 high stakes world ending situations with so much angst is emotionally exhaustin #what drew me to lmk to begin with was the villain of the week format it had going #low stakes episodical things with super fun and endearing characters yk #sure they could have an overarching story. I don't actually mind the LBD plot at all #but what they did to SWK... I started watching the show because I saw a clip with him in it and I loved it so much I sought it out #they've massacred my boy #and then the continued angst and stress they tossed onto Mk. I don't appreciate it #maybe I can focus on making aus instead #season 1 and 2 still hold a special place in my heart (season 1 waaayyy more than season 2)#so maybe I'll rewatch those and see if I feel anything #but as of now I think I'm done with the show #ah well

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katzirra · 4 months

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Honestly, me this week....

SO I HOPE SO TOO...

#went to get my real ID today and they said my mail wasn't good enough...lmao #TRIES AGAIN NEXT WEEK WITH MY PROPERTY TAX RECEIPT I GUESS #I'm already exhausted and I still have to attend a graduation and do overtime on Saturday #and that's not including the social expectations... yells....#I HAVEN'T DRAWN IN WEEKS BECAUSE LIFE AND STRESS FUCK

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robinsnest2111 · 3 months

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weird dreams/nightmares relating to work...

always about not getting all the info/instructions and then getting passive-aggressive'd by higher ups about not doing things like I was told to do as if I had gotten the full instructions...

#it's like this whenever I work with that one coworker. she's so sweet but a little ditzy...#idk if the managers never give her clear enough instructions or if she really only listens half the time #but either way. this broken game of phone we're playing without anyone wanting to give clear instructions if i ask to confirm sucks lol #like it's always YOUR COWORKER HAS BEEN TOLD ALREADY SO WE WON'T TELL YOU AGAIN >:/#sorry i wanted to make sure we got everything when she was so confused and i wasn't there to catch any info to begin with...#took a 3rd manager to ask in our stead to confirm what exactly we were supposed to do lmao #anyway. no big deal but still. clearer instructions without all this passive aggressiveness would be nice...#maybe they were all stressed as the business is booming (summer break) and it's the end of the month (taking stock of every item)#nothing against me or the coworker. but still. feeling kinda not good about getting treated that way

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steakout-05 · 3 months

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hello i think schools giving students more work during the holidays and having assessments due during the holidays should either be illegal or at least regulated in some way. like i don't think that's ok. that is the student's downtime to take a break from working. that is THEIR free time to relax that schools are taking up with more and more work to do after the term is finished and done. students are already overworked and burnt out as is, and their weekends are already taken up by either more work, jobs or extracurricular stuff. school can be incredibly strenuous on the workload they churn out when the students are actually going to school. a stack of homework can take hours per night, and simple assignments can take weeks to finish. people can't just keep doing that all the time, they need a stress-free break with no obligations to rest their minds. that is the reason the holidays are there. they're not an excuse for schools to cram in more and more work because "they'll have more time", students need a break otherwise their brains are literally going to stop working properly. let them take time off ffs.

(the same goes for teachers. teachers shouldn't be made to constantly work during the holidays, they deserve a break too. everyone deserves a break.)

#this is the reason i am against school #students deserve breaks #holidays are NOT a time to cram in more work. people need breaks.#humans NEED to rest their brains otherwise they're going to short circuit and burn out. they won't have the functioning to do any work if-#-they keep having to constantly do more and more and more all the time. people are not robots.#this is the reason i dropped out #there was so much work being given to everyone during grades 11 and 12 that i was constantly stressed tf out and my brain was-#-literally not working properly from the amount of work they were giving us and the fact that it takes me more effort to do an assignment-#-because of my neurodivergence. doing work in school terms was already putting me at my limit and when i learned they were gonna start-#-giving us work during the holidays my brain broke. so i stopped working and just left.#school already took up enough of my free time doing hours of work every night as is. i was NOT gonna do more during the holidays. fuck that #i actively refuse to do work during my time to relax and take a break. holidays are for relaxing not working. idiot #and like it wasn't just simple homework. they were giving us entire assignments to do during the holidays that we should have been-#-actually doing in class but weren't because of shitty scheduling. it was the school board's own fault we were doing holiday work.#idk man maybe i'm biased because i'm against hustle and crunch culture but i think holidays should be a stress-free time away from doing-#-any work whatsoever. or at least only a tiny bit of work and that's it. i don't think making people be ''productive'' all the time is ok #doing nothing and not being productive after a long string of work is healthy. let us do it. goddamn.#school #student #school issues #school is hell #<- most accurate tag on tumblr #breaks #downtime #hustle culture #overworking #burnout #apologies to those who follow me for jetpack joyride and are getting posts about schools and overworking lmaoo

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cemeterym · 9 months

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why did i just get a letter saying my situation has been estimated and apparently i do not need psychiatric care. i'm gonna get violent i swear to fucking god

#WHO the fuck thinks i'm doing okay #look at me #i opened the thing and almost started crying. good morning #i messaged my current psychiatrist so hopefully she can clear it up #(i'm being moved to a different section bc the policies of this place fucking suck. if i get moved at all)#i wasn't stressed enough already thank you guys very cool

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halfdeadwallfly · 4 months

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three months until i get to go back to school. i can deal with three months.