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leoreadss · 5 months ago

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Hi lovely people

I need help!

I'm a web/software developer. I'm autistic and one of my biggest difficulties is not being able to describe myself. I'd need to make a portfolio of my projects, describe myself, and let people know who they're hiring but the 'About' page is empty.

But how do you do that? How do you describe yourself? What's important? What's not?

Need help from autistic and neurotypical people.

#autistic experience #good omens fans help me please #web developer #software developer #any autistic person in the room?#neil gaiman #michael sheen #david tennant #aziraphale #crowley #good omens #good omens 2

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toxicroyjamie · 7 months ago

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Roy obviously knows that Jamie admires/respects/looks up to him but I like to think there's some part of him that wants Jamie to think he's like. Cool. On some level he's just a middle aged man who peaked in his 20s and craves validation from his cool gen Z coworker. I'm not like a regular coach I'm a Cool coach

#oc #(face straightens immediately)#i think roy was probably bullied at least some at the academy (because he was younger and also super talented) and sometimes with Jamie #who is so effortlessly cool and personable and just has this gravitational pull that will make any room he enters orbit around him #he feels like. idk. inadequate #even when roy was the coolest man in the country there was always this part of him that still felt like it was a joke #this inner autistic 13 year old who never fit in and could never figure out why #like his whole relationship with Keeley he can't believe such a beautiful woman would want to be with him because girls used to ask him out #as a joke or whatever. so he keeps waiting for the other shoe to drop because why would SHE like HIM.#and then when he finds out she's been talking about how clingy he is behind his back he's like I'm an idiot. I'm an idiot. of course.#and it's the same thing with jamie. why would Jamie Tartt (Beautiful Young Successful Footballer Slash Sex Symbol). want to be with him.#he feels like a closeted outcast with a helpless crush on a beautiful popular classmate #is this insane.#roy kent #jamie tartt

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katyspersonal · 3 months ago

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I honestly no longer feel bad for anyone who informs that a public Discord server triggered some dumb drama or resulted in hegemony of some takes making others feel unwelcomed or destroyed someone's self-esteem completely. It should be obvious that public Discord is an awful idea after it's been proven to be for countless times, every time, for many years. Yet every time some mfer thinks: "but people /I/ invited are DIFFERENT, but on MY server things are chill" etc. People just don't learn and keep making this mistake.

Once again: public Discord servers are fundamentally broken as a concept, because unlike Twitter timeline or Tumblr dashboard, they are closed, tight room. In them if user 1 ignores or dislikes user 2, it will be noticeable. If even two people don't get along or someone is not interested in someone, it will effect the mood in the whole room especially during these your "chaotic 3 AM VCs", thus a petty personal thing will spread across users it should not concern! The person that isn't fond of everyone will either be forced to leave the server to not feel forced to see someone they dislike, or push that person out through passive aggression themselves! Beeeeecaaause how maaany tiiiiimes will you neeeed to learn that Discord servers rely on everyone liking everyone, a thing impossible for human species by the concept, yooooou fuuucking dumbaaaasses. Not to mention how every other influential and popular person falls because they've made a Discord for their following like an absolute moron that they are and naturally failed to control the community!

Discord servers should be only used as group chats of friends with more features. Having discussions across Tumblr is just better; asks and reblogs are a thing if you want to be public and invite more people to say their opinions, but it ALSO allows to avoid interacting with mfer you dislike without consequences for the fandom camp!

#internets #Discord #someone: my fandom camp is ruined because of a Discord drama on the server!!!#me barely holding back: and whose fault is this that they thought server was a good idea? 🤦‍♂️#I just can't sympathize with someone who makes such an obvious mistake!#every drama happens because of discord server!#but no! you guys always think that YOUR public discord will be different!#like okay sure vent if you must but not to me. i dont feel bad. it was expected #it is like touching a hot iron that you know is heated and then seek sympathy for getting burnt #I specify 'public' Discords because if they are closed from any new members between like #3-6 FRIENDS who KNOW each other already very close #it is the ones you post a link to or invite people who are interested to that are cringe #just stop. just stop locking random people who aren't friends in a stiff room and then-#-get upset that a stupid personal drama between two infected the rest of the fandom #discord has been bringing out the worst of human nature for years and you still dont get the hint #what a prophetic name 'Discord' lol #like I promise you won't die if you be autistic on Twitter or Tumblr instead of Discord

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horsemage · 6 months ago

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I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂

#welcome to another Mick Airs Out Their Grievances and by god is it a VERY long one #prob best if u don't expand the tags #am I being maybe a bit meaner about this than I would be for any other movie? maybe but pac rim is one of my favorite movies of all time #so I think I get a pass on this one.#one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch #it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie!#there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who #have not. okay so far so normal.#and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that #when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in #a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs #and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and #they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times #like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying #I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so #I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of #them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in #their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door #this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl #this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything #AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great #emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too #is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!'#I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of #knowing how to coexist politely in public #anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out.#I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who #found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness #I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think #hater hour over love u guys bye

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nexus-nebulae · 5 days ago

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ppl always say that autistics don't get jokes but honestly when has a neurotypical person ever clocked the fact that I've told a clearly telegraphed joke like. I'm the one who takes everything too seriously?

#like one time i was playing mario party with some (ex)friends #and someone said something abt 'i should be winning bc im playing as a princess' clearly joking right #so i tried to add on with a CLEARLY joking voice like 'um acktually im playing a GODDESS so'#like i was clearly talking in a dumb voice for the joke #and everyone was like 'don't be like that dude you're being too egotistical abt this :/' LIKE WHERE WAS I BEING SERIOUS THERE #ALSO. I DID NOT START THAT JOKE??? AND I WAS IN *THIRD PLACE* LIKE I WASN'T GETTING A FUCKING EGO WHAT???#anyway i don't talk to any of those people anymore bc they did this on multiple occasions #like can. can we PLEASE learn how to do a 'yes and'#everyone else would get to participate with jokes! but when i tried i was 'getting too serious abt it' TELL ME WHERE THAT SOUNDED SERIOUS #but nooooo autistic people don't KNOW how to be funny right!!!!#shut up im the most hilarious person in the room you all just hate disabled ppl #(they did. they did hate disabled ppl. once i started getting too physically disabled leave my house they all ghosted me)#like i was like 'hey can we maybe hang out at my place since i can't leave my bed much'#and would either be told 'no i don't feel like hanging out today' (when they were talking abt plans to hang out already??)#or 'sorry i don't like ur apartment for (arbitrary reason)'#and they were arbitrary reasons bc they were fine with other friends' houses that had the same 'problems'#and like they'd just constantly tell me to my face that i was boring or awkward to be around #like maybe I'm boring bc you make an effort not to include me ever so i never know what's going on?#and like. it's not like they ever made an effort to learn abt us. when we tried and tried so many times to come out abt things #we'd literally get no response then get our messages steamrolled by a new conversation hours later #and ppl would be like 'i didn't see those!' YOU were the one who spammed my messages out of the chat dude

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sublux · 11 days ago

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what an absolutely exhausting couple of years i’ve had. i hope 2025 has something good in it for me

#i simply cannot fathom life going on the way it has for me. i’ve been unable to work or function like i’m supposed to for years #but i’ve been white knuckling it through so i can afford things. oops! too burned out for that after i got laid off #and i’m so close to being completely out of money. and still have no answers about how to move forward or help or anything #it really is so isolating. it feels like i’m in purgatory #and it feels like it’s all my fault because i just ‘gave up’#and even if i do get answers from doctors. like let’s say i am autistic and have adhd and pots and eds. ok? my options won’t change #i will still have to ruin my quality of life in order to have any quality of life at all. i just want life to magically have room for me #idk i’m tired. last night i was so nauseous and eventually dry heaving because my cramps were so bad #and all i can think about is how guilty i feel for playing skyrim today while my boyfriend is at work #i want to be the kind of person who is at work #and not the kind of person who is sick/in pain and overwhelmed all the time

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cosmogyros · 4 months ago

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I swear to God, modern music production is so FLAT that it physically hurts to listen to. There's no spatial depth to it, no air, no sense of this music actually being performed in a real three-dimensional space. Please can we bring back breath and air and space in music production?

#i've been trying to translate this feeling into words for months and i know i still haven't succeeded #this post is a weak attempt at saying what i mean. but it doesn't achieve that goal very well #i just... i don't have any better words right now #does anyone else know what i mean?#when there's a beat of silence in the middle of a song these days #the silence sounds just as 'dead' as if the track had ended.#silence can be audible and almost tangible... you know?#it can have a certain dimensionality and realness to it #but all of that gets edited out of most music nowadays.#and another thing: i don't know if it's over-mastering or what #but the sound is often almost as dead as the silence #like a butterfly trapped flat under glass #every sound comes across as being exactly the same physical distance from my ears #the sounds are all lined up jostling each other elbow to elbow and competing for the listener's attention #instead of being spread out all over the room - each one coming from a different place #i remember when you'd have two speakers; if one of them was broken you could sometimes only hear some of the instruments #because the others would normally have come through the broken speaker only.#SPACE. distance. physicality. ugh i could helplessly repeat these words all day and still not be able to express myself #don't mind the ranting of a grumpy old codger i guess #about music #tag rant #cosmo gyres #personal #text #my apologies - this post is extra autistic #my neurodivergency really comes out in the way i experience music #musicblogging

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fragglerockopinions · 4 months ago

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#Howwwww is it 5am already I want to go home #I begged my parents and sibling to let me go home to my own bed and they wouldn't let me #I don't want to be the solution to our family problems I want to go be alone and not here #I understand me being around more would make our parents nicer and give my siblings someome sane to talk to #But I want to die and I don't want to be here and I don't care about any of these people #Once again them forcing me to go to their house made me miss an assignment. So that class is genuinely failed now.#It makes me so frustrated I could cry. Every time I say I'm doing school work #Or say I can't drop everything and drive forty minutes to their house. they laugh at me #They genuinely laugh and say I'm such a liar and I'm faking and there's no way I ever do any school work #I'm actually shaking I'm so frustrated they don't understand. That's how long it takes me.#Why can't they just realize I'm a dumbass fucking idiot. I'm so fucking stupid #I'm literally so stupid. Intellectually I'm a fucking idiot and I am so useless and slow.#Stop trying to believe I have potential to fucking waste #The fact is there is no potential but I'm fucking wasting anyway #I'm so. Dumb. When I say I'm doing school work I mean I looked at the tab and got nervous about how overdue #everything is and how I'm failing and everyone wants me to leave my safety for their own inane bullshit #I wouldn't be failing this class at all if I had been able to complete the first week on time #instead of like. sitting outside a convention center alone and in agony for Five (5) hours.#Kudos to the devil for creating the exact perfect circumstances to kill me in particular #I should reach out and go to a friend's house and it would be good for me. But.#There's no way I'm going to see or speak to anyone in this state of everything #Everyone else around me seems to have improved in mental health I'm not going to ruin that by making them let me come over #No one really believes any of the problems I have like even I don't. how are you that stupid. just stop having these problems.#I can't go to a friend's house when I have problems like this. Last time I had a breakdown and scared the fucking host and #their partner had to be the one to comfort me because I was crying too loud for autistic ears :(#I can't do that to anyone again #I'm not kidding when I say I'm a huge burden genuinely I exist to be upsetting and inconvenient and frustrating #I am literally the most selfish person to ever have existed. Just objectively. I don't care about anyone or anything at all.#I don't love my friends or my family and I don't care about what they want or need. truthfully.#I just want to sit in my tiny room where nothing changes and no one expects me to drive anywhere holy fucking shit it's 6am

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callingcxrd · 9 months ago

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Ohhh I must find someone who Makes Outfits. If I want Earl's entire outfit I need someone who can actually make that. and I need someone in mind so I remember to save my money for it. Does anyone know anybody who Makes Outfits

#I keep spending some of every paycheck on SOME new Earl thing like. a comm or a charm or whatever I end up thinking of that week Every Week #I get paid weekly and keep doing this. every week #It's worth it. I would spend any amount of money for Earl. But also I must save money to buy the greatest Earl things of all...#Such a dilemma truly.#I plan on covering my entire room in him also. Everyone needs to know just how autistic I am #You see I am not quirky silly cutesy Sanitised TikTok Brand Autistic I'm genuinely insane about this guy in the eyes of any NT #I want to commission a tattoo design with one of his quotes and get it on my shoulder. I'm not even a tattoo kind of person otherwise #Genuinely I love this guy so much. I always want to do more stuff to show how much but I'm literally running out of ideas #I've thought about making a webpage collection of stuff for him that's all neatly designed and everything. Maybe I could have his trial --#theme play on the page? Not sure #It could be like. a comprehensive resource on ALL of my Earl stuff. how he became important to me. All that #GOD. There is so much I must do I can never rest I am going to dedicate my life to this little pastry guy.#Fortunately this is exactly what I want to do and I am incredibly happy with doing so <3 Teehee! Autism and mental illness win #Bleu.txt

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crystalisopod · 10 months ago

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I know loud sounds being a sensory issue is the most common (?) but it kinda irks me that that's what people always assume for me. and I do actually have issues with sound, but it's not a huge problem, and it's never in the way people assume it to be

#personal #actually autistic #autism spectrum disorder #neurodivergent #sensory processing disorder #I feel like if I say I have issues with sound #people just assume any loud sounds bother me #or lots of people talking/crowds bother me #but they really don't #what bothers me is repetitive noises #a rotating fan is particularly bad. same reason I hate having the aircon on #you know like. meditation music? a lot of it just repeats a sound far too often #and it makes me really... agitated? for some reason #overwhelmed isn't quite the word but it definitely bothers me #in a similar vein-#I don't usually have issues with lights #but blinking lights make me nauseous tbh. in the same way as the noise from a fan would #or the repetitive motion of those halloween animatronic things #it's similar. it really makes me sick just looking at it #it's like wow why the fuck is a blinking light across the room making me feel bone nausea 💀#I guess that's autism 😍

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rockysledding · 1 year ago

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Me four years ago making one of my characters autistic: oh man i hope i dont offend anyone, maybe i shouldn’t write an autistic character when i’m not autistic but like i’m not outright stating that she’s autistic she just has some of those traits is that okay?

Me now, post autism diagnosis: oh man i really gave that character all of the autism behaviours i was suppressing huh how did i not realize that