#and there's nothing I can do

[honey-skulls]

My mom literally just showed me a video with a big satisfied smile telling me "look at that! : D", and it's a video of someone stealing a purse, and literally being fucking shot dead by some guy. And then she went on about "good riddance" and "he deserved it" and "he had every right to murder him"

What the actual fuck

First my dad falling into a cult that extorts him for his money and physical labor despite the fact that he's a retired, 70yo disabled man who's now skeletal looking, and starting to cut me off last year

Now my mom being radicalised by instagram and tik tok reels by watching non-stop death videos and pseudo-science bs about how all men are corrupt from their souls and not humans over the year, and going from being horrified at what was happening in gaza last year, to yelling at me when i refuse to buy something connected to israel, among other stuff

I'm all alone and I'm at one of my lowest I've ever been, and both of the only person that can help me are now gone with no way for me to get them back because "they're adults, you can't make them get help"

What the fuck do i do

There's nothing i can do or no one i can to for help

[mythical-lotus]

Weird confession, but as someone who has been in the Kuro fandom since (oh god I feel old) at least 2016, I actually haven't read that much. Or at least, not until tonight. I read the entire series up through the Campania Arc religiously as a teen, because I'd found a way to get a hold of it, but I somehow never managed to get a hold of later issues. This wasn't a huge problem for me, because I feared no spoilers and would decifer the current plotlines through Wikipedia, random out-of-context screenshots of manga panels, and whatever random theories were floating around at the time. I kept reasonably up to date on the deaths and happenings: the reveal of the Twins didn't shock me, Agni and Snake's deaths stung but held no surprise, the same to be said of Doll's return- but knowing is very different than experiencing.

So, tonight, for the first time, I read through almost everything, from the end of the Luxury Liner Arc to the escape to the Opium Den.

And oh. The grief.

And you already know all of it. You cried too, you were frustrated by the mistakes the characters made, that got them caught or got them hurt, you know- and there's nothing more to say. I could write and write and write about the unfairness of the children, how they loved so deeply, both sacrificing over and over to make the other happy, and only by chance was one chosen over the other to die. But you already know and have already wrote and wrote and wrote, and wept while you went about it.

There's not really a point to this post, I feel. It's just a profound sense of grief, to think that I stopped and lingered for so long after the Campania- arguably when the characters were at their best (Agni and Snake were alive and allies, the Undertaker was a physical adversary but not an emotional agony to our Ciel, butler and master seemed actually kind to one another, saying "rest now, you have done well, good and faithful servant"), and now to read as everything spirals down, lower and lower - the deaths, the reveals, the loss of things valued deeper than oneself and one's name.

Yes, I think that this is grief. It can't possibly end well, for any of them really. But I wish it could.

[napping-sapphic]

take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours

[aerial-ace]

sick and tired of seeing these ace trainers brag about their super smart badass level 100 shiny mons.

This is Sol. She is a fucking idiot. She regularly forgets that she is a flying type and sits at the bottom of cabinets n such crying cause she doesn't know how to get up. I would die for her.

[melmov]

Batboys profiles

[ophelia-bloodletting]

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[pangur-and-grim]

every time I say “starting nooooow I won’t have any major expenses” something HAPPENS! there’s raw sewage backing up from my drains, and apparently the plumbers will need to break the floor and the wall to get to the pipes and fix it.

if the cat stuff hadn’t wiped out my bank account, this would be annoying but manageable. as it is…..I’m going to try to get everything up in the store for Friday.

[mens-rights-activia]

The most vile and vitriolic person you know is online right now talking about the importance of building community and there’s nothing you can do about it

[umblrspectrum]

i love learning cursive just to write text for exactly one character

[pig-mania]

me

[akanemnon]

I don't like this place. It's turning everyone edgy and sad.

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

[forgettable-au]

PROLOGUE

FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 1-9)

AND SO IT BEGINS!

[CONTINUE] [MASTERPOST]

[soaked-doors]

nothing happened

…nothing at all

[bloominglegumes]

tf one orion scribbles,,,, hes just a little guy,,,,,

[onesidedradiostatic]

stayed gone but you're the sinners watching/listening

(AKA I spend an unnecessary amount of time editing)

[thelostmoongazer]

you all dont know tragic yaoi like i do.